I hate amanda and she hates me.
I am usually this girl that you would find sitting in the back of the room. But Amanda, is the one sitting in the front row, with the full intention of blocking everyone's view.
I first met Amanda when i got into a fight with a relative...
I do my best to treat people with love and respect. I am a firm believer in the golden rule, though I have admittedly colossal issues with organized religion. But at the same time, I do not believe in second chances. I don't believe in "forgive and forget". If I...
i am mainly a rational person, but sometimes i get right on my high horse and i turn into the devils daughter. I have no control over this side of me but it makes me who i am. I must empthasis that i have an equally good good side!.
There's a part of me that comes out sometimes that I hate. When it happens the "real" me leaves and goes somewhere else. It almost feels like I'm somewhere up high, looking down on myself while I say and do horrible things.
When this side comes out I am ruthless. It...
When i get violent, i feel happy if anything. Laughing and yelling at the top of my lungs. Die die die ill yell while laughing just pounding at the ground for no reason. I let it out. And in these times it feels okay. This side is the secret weapon ive never used on a person. Im...
not bad at all
but i took a fall
far from grace
i lost my place
i shocked myself
fell off the shelf
i didn't care
but felt their stare.
and now i'm "good"?
oh so it seems
i am redeemed
my life's a seam
i coast the shore
and they applaud
but for my soul?
sitting in the corner
is it the male me depressed that i am not female
or is it the female me wanting out?
why do you do all those bad things to me?
until i kbow i cant move on
rather let someone that I love hurt me then hurt this person even if It wasn't my fault, I always tend to do everything that I can to put a smile on someone's face because is very hard for me to go sleep thinking that I've hurt someone, it mostly happens with my family members.
and have sarcastic humor. But I always want to take risks and try so many things that so many people would shun me for... But I want to try them they seem exciting. I love breaking rules, big or small.
I am to this day still a fun loving kid. i go to school, i have friends, i do what i am told to. But a year ago something developed inside me it was combined with repressed memorizes, anger, and fear. it was my evil side. i have to this day repressed it but their is no secret its...
just dont know what to do...
at times, though i know what it is that has to be done and thought, i just wont do...
at times, i just feel like i am oh so completely lost...
at times, i act and feel oh so bad...
did i just waste,
loving families, I sometimes still manage to be swallowed by anger, violence, etc. As much as I know its wrong, and I tell myself this everyday, I don't know if I will stop. I know I could never take another's life, but I won't hesitate to try on someone who deserves it more...
who hurt me..even if that person is my friend or so.. As long as they've hurt me in which they didn't know. I always act okay in front of them & still cast a smile on my face as if everything alright but I'm hurting... After we go on separate ways.. it really is 'goodbye' ...