for it to be over. I've always had pretty bad birthdays, except the last 4 when I was still with her. This birthday is the worst! I pretend everything is ok, and smile for everyone else while inside I'm full of despair. I wish she would at least talk to me today! I hate today...
I was born on 1999. This year (2015) I'm turning 16 and I'm not all that excited about. I don't even want a party cause I barely have anyone I can invite, but its not like my dad is throwing me a party anyway like he did for my sister.
My birthday is May 17th and I haven't celebrated it in over three or four years. Most of that time, I'd been sick or too broke to celebrate. I hope this year is different or it was supposed to be. My husband is having problems at work and it might not be so different. He should...
Or at least it will be
Another year older
Another reminder of where and what I'm not
Another reminder of dreams lost
Another reminder of how much I'm not loved by anyone or even thought of
Another reminder of a life wasted despite efforts to make it otherwise