I Have a Broken Heart Forum & Chat Board | i.m not his suga no more

i got my heart broken.  i fell hard in love with a man that seemed so perfect at first, but found out he had a dark side.  it's embarrassing to me.  he just has these addictions that take him over.  friday, i finally saw the light.  he would meet girls on those free phone chatlines and then have them come meet him and then when he finished with them, he would call me to come keep him warm.  at first i was one of those girls, i just didn't know it, cause i didn't meet himon the chatline, but our sex was so phenominal how could it not be just for me?  obviously i have a lot to learn.  he is so sweet and caring and there is something about his spirit that makes me so compassionate towards him and so when this was OBVIOUS to me, it was heartbreaking!  i am still not over him.  i won't be for awhile.  i am 30 and i have never had feelings for anyone like i did for him.  he broke my heart.  and he broke his own heart too, by being careless and getting caught....sounds stupid, but i know he cared about me genuinely......but that kind of addiction is not something i can look past....and i call it an addicition because of the control it has over him.....watchin ****** all the time, when he wasn't with me or at work or out and about of course, always always callin those phone chat lines.....SAD.  very sad.  why!?!?