I Have a Crap-i-would-never-care-to-relive-again List

Jury Duty (I would have rather had been dead)
Long driving with kids and a dog in the car
my car accident: I miss my tree hugging hippie clown car :(  (note to self: I need to write that story on here..)
my parents...

I had a dance tonight and i would LOVE to never relive EVER again... because im here at home crying about him i just wish these feelings would disappear forever i hate them so much i just he was gone i wish i had never talked...

...but rather than listing a long tally of specific things, I'll just say one thing...
1. My life
Thank you, that is all...

I can sum it all up in one word - shit! That's 2011.

I would not want to relive being married to my ex-husband. I was 23 then, and it was horrible, but from that experience, I grew a backbone and learned I was stronger than I realized.
Lots of stupid silly mistakes and drama and crap...

my childhood,watching my gramps die.living on the streets,being abused.it is a small list,but the damage was total.

Almost dying, dealing with my alcoholic dumb a** father and his b**** of a stalker wife, dealing with my paternal relatives, having to lose my best friend

And the most recent one is getting an injection just under my thumbnail!  Ow!!
That's some of the most intense pain I've come across.

Listening to the big fight my parents had on Thanksgiving Day when I was 12.
 
The fear of a lover leaving me.
 
The thumb thing I mentioned in my first story here.
 
Coming home from vacation to learn that I had...

Hubby took me to my Dr. early this morning. We sat around waiting for them to open so I could have blood drawn again. This is a new Dr. and she's good but her office staff of two angry dimwits drove me into tears and I rarely cry. They...

Heartbreak.
But since EP wont let me just write that I'll add: I dont friggen ever want to do it again... but I'll probably have to. Again. And again. And again... Until I find Mr. Perfect, he breaks my heart, and I die.
The End...

1.METH2.LEAVIG ANYTHING OF MINE AT AN EXBOYFRIENDS HOUSE3.BEING W A PHYSICALLY ABUSIVE BOYFRIEND4.BEING WITH A NEGATIVE MAN5.PUTTING ANYONE,BESIDES MY KIDS, ON MY CALLING PLAN6.HEAD GAMES.7.LETTIN CERTAIN PEOPLE BORROW MONEY8...

I deffinalty do! Its a long one to.. i dont even know where to start..
!. Coke or x never ever agian!!!!
2. sex witha stranger(someone i just met)
3.cheat on my husband( never did with him but former partners)
and the list goes on...

If I wouldn't have married my first Husband it would have changed every aspect of my life. Cheating, lying, mental and physical abuse, suicides, losing my only child, moving to Oklahoma (thank God I got out of there), my Moms nursing...

Visit Amsterdam in Winter, in fact there are a lot more places in the world that I have to see, that I can quite safely go without seeing Amsterdam again