I Have A Dark Side Of Me That I Keep Hidden

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    I've always been weird.

    Most people look at me like a perfect innocent girl with a little bit of mischief. They don't know how mischievious I can be, how far I'd go to achieve my goals. They don't know that I have a weird liking for evil characters. I can understand a one's thirst for revenge or power...
    AWeirdMe AWeirdMe
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 26, 2015

    I visualize everyone around me having violent

    deaths and it gives me joy.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Sep 25, 2015

    Don't we all. No, seriously.

    Don't we all have "impure" thoughts? Thoughts we claim were others to hear or let be known we would be shunned, hated, seen as insane? Yes, I believe we do. Perhaps some thoughts are more alarming than others, and not for what is wished or considered but instead the persistence...
    SinWithMe SinWithMe
    22-25
    3 Responses Oct 16, 2015

    i am part of a very large family

    and they are all Christian devout followers. not me though. and the things i want for myself would make me become disowned by my family so i play the role of good christian girl And if you look at my experience groups and posts well...good christian girl is not really who i am.
    cocomilkgirl cocomilkgirl
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jan 9, 2016
    Kylex123 Kylex123
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Mar 24, 2016

    I'm very perverted and it's something

    that I seem to be having a hard time controlling these days
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    14 Responses Sep 30, 2015

    you see.. when i was a child.

    . i was always getting bullied n im trauma of it.. soo.. right now.. if someone tried to bully me.. i changed to hulk...
    SarcasmPrince SarcasmPrince
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jun 1, 2015

    i can be peaceful but

    yet violent. I can be a cool person but once im pushed im someone completely different. One of the main things i hate about myself personally. I dont know why im like this LMAO ??
    Spirit000 Spirit000
    26-30, M
    1 Response Feb 24, 2016

    I'm a really angry person.

    I try not to be but I am. A lot of people are surprised to see me angry, truly angry. It's a weakness to me because I can't control it. I have gotten better but sometimes I just snap for nothing. I don't think it's normal to be this way. Doing routine things helps me a lot...
    XcookiexbakerXx XcookiexbakerXx
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jan 22, 2016

    I too have a darker side to me.

    ..much darker... though...your darkside is vital, isnt it? the dark is the backbone of the world, even when everything appears to be light, it cant be light without dark. though...what happens when you flow in the dark? when it runs rampant through your veins, so much that you...
    Nightshade721 Nightshade721
    16-17, M
    1 Response Jan 21, 2016

    Outside i am joyous and full of life.

    But deep inside, i am torn, empty and holding much grudge.
    twodemons twodemons
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 14, 2015

    My dark side is hidden only sometimes.

    Not to people that are close to me. For me pain, sadness, irony of life etc. Are not bad. I quite enjoy them actually. And I want to meet someone who feels the same.
    TightnShady TightnShady
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 17, 2016

    I don't even try to hide my dark side.

    The funny thing is that people don't believe it, because I look so innocent. But the mount of sadism in me is enough to have a man on his knees in tears begging for mercy.
    ZenTangleQueen ZenTangleQueen
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 26, 2015

    Not so much 'hidden',

    more 'controlled'. I made a secondary account for it, and it makes it easier to cope with when you can flip between the two.
    twofacetoo twofacetoo
    22-25, M
    Feb 24, 2016

    I'm the person who doesn't want to fight,

    seems calm and nice. but actually I am not. if I get angry "enough" I go crazy. I do things people around me dont expect me to do. in a relationship, I'm like a control-freak. and guess what, no one knows. I know the ones reading that thinking "a 13 yr old human being with...
    darklotus01 darklotus01
    13-15, T
    1 Response Feb 20, 2016

    I have a sexual, sadistic other side of me

    and I don't like her. But it makes me wanna do stuff that sounds fun sometimes~ Like kill, assault*in any way*, or something like that~
    AveiraAmaria AveiraAmaria
    22-25, F
    Dec 10, 2014
    3rdday 3rdday
    56-60, M
    Dec 12, 2015

    I also have a dark side.

    I have never shared.
    cmanuel2255 cmanuel2255
    51-55, M
    3 Responses Dec 22, 2015

    I have noticed that no matter how well life

    seems to start looking better, it keeps crashing down in a burning spiral. No matter how hard I try and fight, I end up being kicked to the ground. There seems that a single song , no matter how life gets, always sounds like my life. My tears, my cries, my screams, my pains go...
    TigerNeko TigerNeko
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 23, 2014

    My dark side is if you do something

    that affects me in a negative way, if you find my weak points. If you try to get into a competitor with me I will dislike you strongly for a very long time
    Blueberrybliss Blueberrybliss
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 18, 2016
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 28, 2016

    Every now and then I feel

    as if I lose my sanity. I get this unbearable anger gnawing at my gut. I don't know how to explain it but I want to kill. I won't, it scares me enough to wake me out of the daze. Then I just feel drained and intense sadness. I don't know
    ToBeFrank ToBeFrank
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jan 22, 2016

    The injustices I've faced has made me question

    my sense of justice and whether it really exists. I guess you could say my sense of right and wrong is to strong, and it only hurts me when I realize how corrupt the world is, how corrupt humans are. I will become everything I'm not in order to crush those who exploit others...
    EnigmaticParadox EnigmaticParadox
    26-30, F
    Dec 12, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 5, 2016
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Feb 19, 2016

    I tend to scare people.

    .. At my school my "friend" just told me that the things I post on Instagram are scary. (It's just depression quotes, I try not to show people all of my dark side. They don't even know I have one.) I have to pretend to be friends with them for people to think I'm normal. It's...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 21, 2016

    I act happy and joyful

    and bouncy when I'm at school or talking to friends on the phone, but I'm not really that person, at least not entirely. There's a darker, more sad version of myself I rarely let my close ones see. It hurts to bottle myself up like that, but I don't want go burden anyone any...
    notthatoneguy notthatoneguy
    16-17, M
    3 Responses Dec 13, 2015

    So She Can Forget That She'S Me

    "Studies Show... Intelligent girls are more depressed Because they know What the world is really like Don't think for a beat it makes it better When you sit her down and tell her Everything's gonna all right She knows in society she either is A devil or an angel with no in...
    hexeviolett hexeviolett
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 2, 2013

    I have been so weird

    as of late, mixed feelings have come on my way and I feel so blinded. I don't understand who I am anymore and what I have to feel inside hurts and pleases me at the same time. I don't want this dark side to take over me, I don't want to be the person I would be if I didn't keep...
    actuelly actuelly
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 17, 2015

    I fear it, so I keep it hidden.

    The things I am capable of only I know. Call me a liar, say stuff like I am not capable of anything. I am more than happy that you believe that I cant harm you. I never intend to but sometimes its difficult to control. Yet I have maintained it so far and continue to do it.
    sagard1994 sagard1994
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jan 22, 2015

    I smile all the time No one ever gave it a

    second thought That itself should be a sign That not every thing is as it seems That I've fought and I've fought To muffle my screams It worked for a while
    DragonFaery DragonFaery
    13-15, F
    1 Response Mar 16, 2016

    I do keep it hidden,

    because not everyone gets my sense of humor, or how I entertain dark thoughts towards others almost unconciously.
    moondiva moondiva
    36-40, F
    Apr 20, 2016

    Its not like am a psycho,

    Im not pesimist either, but its like having a most pesimistic and dark person inside your head that as much as you want not to listen he conveniences you that he is right. It gives me so much trouble..
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 5, 2016

    Have you ever really dance on the edge?

    Is there something still scaring you?
    PierceTheMarua PierceTheMarua
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Feb 6, 2016

    New possibilities come with a new day,

    and there is always a new day. But, for some of us, it feels like the same day over and over again. And for others, it feels like the only possibilities are the bad ones. The ones that throw us into this endless hole of loneliness and depression. We see a light and we strive so...
    livinglife47 livinglife47
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 25, 2015
    kelleh kelleh
    16-17, F
    10 Responses Dec 9, 2015

    Almost all arguments in a relationship are

    based on trust issue.For both partners towards each other. It is like standing 2 sticks together without any support. If one of them has no trust issue, it is most likely to be a stable long term relationship. It is like one stick standing next to a fixed stick. All our...
    whyacinth whyacinth
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 29, 2016

    Im so freakin bored!!

    ! i want a real!!! conversation geez and nothing boring
    Eroticwriter34 Eroticwriter34
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jun 26, 2015
    CODECRACKER2014 CODECRACKER2014
    41-45, M
    Jan 31, 2016

    Ive noticed that my dark side kicks in wen im

    mainly hurt. And tells my mind and heart all kinds of negative stuff. its sick, annoying and disgusting. i need some help.
    Spirit000 Spirit000
    26-30, M
    1 Response Feb 20, 2016

    I like to get inside people's heads

    and break them from the inside. I just haven't found anyone to mess with yet...its terrible, but I secretly love it.
    WheresFranki WheresFranki
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 22, 2015

    I'm extremely emotional,

    I'm sensitive and bitter, I overthink (especially at night), I know how to hold a grudge, and I'm addicted to kinky sex. (No one in my real life knows these things about me)
    mandycandy0123 mandycandy0123
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 22, 2015

    i am married and love my wife verymuch,

    more than anything else... I try to give the best i could for my wife and family... but still i have a dark side, I go to online to see random people(especially female ) and chat openly ( very intimate conversations) wit them occasionally... without my wife's knowledge... I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    7 Responses Aug 29, 2014

    Mostly have to keep hidden right

    now . But I also subtley let it flow. Sometimes I intentionally let people peek behind the curtain
    SoleExecutioner SoleExecutioner
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 5, 2015
    hinatahyuga809 hinatahyuga809
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Jan 10, 2016

    I keep this side of me hidden ,

    I'm relatively sure people could not handle it
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 8, 2015

    I fantasise about killing people,

    including myself. Then I feel bad about it later.
    ObviouslyNotHuman ObviouslyNotHuman
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 29, 2015

    I have split myself into

    when I was little my happy, positive supportive side I even gave him a name it was Chad i believed he was a real person in my head and my dark side which is me insecure, scared, lonely. I switch between the two, when I'm feeling depressed Chad will take over and make sure I feel...
    ThatOneUnicorn ThatOneUnicorn
    18-21, M
    Nov 26, 2015

    I always love it when someone can bring it out.

    not many can but when they do watch out!
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic
    36-40, F
    Jan 21, 2015
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