I Have a Dissociative Disorder

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    Sometimes I wonder because I don't know

    where I am. I found my self in my mom's room and she asked me why I was there, but I wasn't in my body so I couldn't answer and I literally stumbled over my words for like....three minutes.
    Dazino Dazino
    16-17
    2 Responses Oct 13, 2015

    Never a Dull Moment

    I've been diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder.  Not that the diagnosis was a surprise.  I have always known.  I have never been alone.  It is never quiet, and never dull in my life.  But I have found that many people can not deal with me...
    Felish Felish
    31-35, F
    6 Responses May 25, 2008

    I have trouble associating two things

    that are supposed to be correlated together due to flawed thinking from overactive emotions.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 20, 2015

    I know this is long.and ramble

    as my head isn't doing well today, but please read. I hope it doesn't offend. I'm sorry... I just really need input or someone to tell me I'm bad. I don't know why. So scared So I guess I have a confession to make. I haven't been diagnosed with any type of dissociative disorder...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 4, 2015

    i don't experience many blackouts however i

    have amnesia about certain conversions, as well. this one EVENT caused a breakdown, it was like a switch in my brain turned and i was yelling at my husband but it was like i was not in control of my mouth. then seeing the look on his face my mind said step over here and watch...
    LITVET LITVET
    41-45, F
    Mar 3

    Though I have chosen to mostly integrate,

    I still have child energy-alters who show up. When life gets sticky or a task becomes difficult, there is still the urge to throw it onto someone who I consider to be an 'adult.' If i give myself a few minutes to think about it, though, I realize that if I do that, I am playing...
    slver slver
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Apr 17, 2014
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 19, 2014

    I don't have DID, but I do suffer from

    dissociation. Especially during panic attacks. I feel pretty safe in my bedroom most of the time, but if I'm not home when it happens, I honestly can't figure out what's real. It's scary because I start to wonder if I am even real. It's hard to explain to people because they...
    PoetPrincess85 PoetPrincess85
    31-35, F
    Mar 3

    I suppose, like many others,

    I come here as a form of therapy. To see that I'm not the only one and to vent my thoughts in a safe place. I am a dissociative. Have been a very long time. I didn't know I was until I was near 40 and I didn't truly understand what that meant until not long ago. I am a...
    JohnnyQDoe JohnnyQDoe
    51-55
    3 Responses Jan 10, 2014

    I honestly think I have one.

    it's ridiculous. But I want to talk to someone else. Someone with it to see if I can relate
    kmj716 kmj716
    18-21, F
    Jan 26

    Having Problems

    I normally can keep the dissociative states in check IF I am relaxed and there is little stress and feel I am in a safe place. I'm moving soon. leaving a quiet place in the country for a cramped apartment in a city. There really is no choice. I will have little privacy and not...
    bitterdregs bitterdregs
    46-50, F
    9 Responses Aug 5, 2010

    Sometimes I think about giving them names.

    Then I'll get nametags made and each one can put on their name tag when they come out. And then I can tell people, "oh, Bob's not here right now, come back later." or, "John doesn't want to talk to you, sorry Doc." How the heck am I supposed to know what Tom is thinking? He...
    JohnnyQDoe JohnnyQDoe
    51-55
    1 Response Mar 20, 2015

    I Feel Like She's Not Me...

    and it scares me...when I think back upon my past and myself in different time(college, other jobs, other states)..I feel like I am not that same person. It scares me. I have the memories so logically it is me. But I feel like who I am now is not those same people. Technically...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Mar 14, 2010

    Everything I experience is like I'm not fully

    here. Like its not really real. My memories are always remembered in third person. My dreams are in third person or like watching a movie. Emotionally I feel disconnected. Unless my bipolar is out of control or some of my other problems. There are lots of memories from my past I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 19, 2015

    Dissociative Disorder-NOS Is Different From Dissociative Identity Disorder /DID

    First of all "dissociation is a mental process that causes a lack of connection in a person’s thoughts, memory and sense of identity. Dissociation seems to fall on a continuum of severity. Mild dissociation would be like daydreaming, getting “lost” in a...
    ClinicallyClueless ClinicallyClueless
    41-45, F
    14 Responses Sep 12, 2008

    My life: Time goes by,

    I fall out of touch I can't explain why I fall so much I bought a pack of cigarettes Sent an old Elvis stamp to your new address The weather's here, wish I was fine Wish that you could read between the lines 'Cause you dream in colors My night comes in black and blue I'll send a...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 13, 2014

    Our little Tess drew on the door.

    ..........and the table.......and the bed........and the toilet.......
    Meliantha Meliantha
    18-21, F
    Jan 26

    Question From a Curious Psychology-obsessed 16 Year Old.

    I have always been interested in psychology. The human mind is fascinating. I really want to be a psychologist when I'm older, and curious as I am, I've already started to explore this interest. It might help in my studies later. Maybe. But most of all I do it because it...
    JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Jul 5, 2008

    I Have A Dissociative Disorder

    i do. i just dignosed and it kinda hurts. its the reason i can't remeber anything before middle school. i mean absoutly nothing. and its also explains why sometimes i have out of body expriences and feel disconted from reality. like it feels as if its a dream and everything is a...
    LelouchZero LelouchZero
    18-21, T
    5 Responses Oct 19, 2010

    Hiding From My DID

    Dissociation has brought about hard times for me as an adult several times in my life.  As a child it served me well.  I have been working steadily and faithfully through therapy to regain a sense of self.  What a difficult journey this has been.  I am...
    countrybird countrybird
    41-45
    2 Responses Dec 25, 2008

    Surprise Diagnosis

    A little more than a year ago I was diagnosed with DID. There was internal dialog, occasional blackouts, but I didn't have names for alters. My partner complained to me that I "spaced" out and didn't hear her or our daughter talking to me. She would tell our daughter to shout and...
    MicahT MicahT
    46-50
    2 Responses Sep 1, 2013

    I don't have DID but I do have dissociative

    episodes and other mental illnesses and just want to understand DID and people who suffer from it better
    DespicableMind DespicableMind
    18-21, F
    Aug 9, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jun 6, 2015

    How my life feels: PATTY SMYTH Wish I Were You

    Lyrics Download "Wish I Were You" Time goes by, I fall out of touch I can't explain why I fall so much I bought a pack of cigarettes Sent an old Elvis stamp to your new address The weather's here, wish I was fine Wish that you could read between the lines 'Cause you dream...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 13, 2014

    There is me, Chantel (I'm always here)

    and then there is: C.C.- She is pink in color. She is single digits but is an age-slider (can be very young or mid-child). She is most concrete. She is a playful and loving child. But she is also very wounded. MotherMii - She is green. She is the motherly, nurturing part of...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 1, 2015

    Christmas Carols For The Disturbed

    I hope none of your friends and relatives are singing these songs...   1. Schizophrenia--- Do You Hear What I Hear? 2. Multiple Personality Disorder--- We Three Kings Disoriented Are 3. Dementia---I Think I'll be Home for Christmas 4. Narcissistic---Hark...
    allofus allofus
    46-50, M
    7 Responses Dec 17, 2009

    I try not to post negatively,

    the schism in mind mind grows stronger each day, years of fruitless therapy I have lost sight of myself and my reflection is as small shards through a mirror
    Sciazar Sciazar
    41-45
    Oct 30, 2015

    Just Diagnosed

    Does anybody have any advice to offer?  This is so scary and unbelievable!  Help please?
    jandmore jandmore
    31-35
    5 Responses Nov 21, 2011

    I have 37 parts and I feel flooded.

    The voices are never quiet and I feel crazy
    sometimespresent sometimespresent
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Aug 26, 2015

    Curios Facts

    Hi! the other day i was reading on internet that some guy used to talk with himself in front of the mirror like he was a different person, when he was a child, this guy have DID and i remember that i used to do that to when i was like 6 years old. And in some point i forgett that...
    likeamanda likeamanda
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jul 5, 2013

    My other personalities all have their own way

    of talking, they have their own style and even my eye color changes sometimes. In this picture you see me and Iris, one of my other personalities. Iris her eyes are darker than mine and she loves to change the color of my hair
    Meliantha Meliantha
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 21, 2015

    Just sent my very recent ex an email explaining

    that I think I have dissociative disorder which explains a lot of our problems, to see if he is willing to work through this with me. Now I am really terrified if he says he wants to be there with me that he is just going to use it against me, to manipulate me. I guess he did...
    cssoulsearching cssoulsearching
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 13, 2014

    Very few people know

    but no one understands. I feel so completely alone.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 26, 2014

    New to D.i.d

    I have D.I.D, only diagnosed about 6 months ago, at times it's a little frightening. Still learning lots.
    rosepinkbutterfly rosepinkbutterfly
    36-40
    5 Responses Oct 17, 2008

    Who's Nightmare Is This?

    It feels like that sometimes, it really does. Emotions that can't possibly be mine, thoughts I know I didn't think, brief but unnerving memory lapses, the ability to become so fully absorbed in something that nothing around me matters, or is noticed. As a child I actively sought...
    DaughterDestiny DaughterDestiny
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Feb 17, 2008

    Dissociative Identity Disorder/DID/formally

    known as MPD or multiple personality disorder. A lot of people have no idea what it means so I decided to write something about it and get some things out of the way. First of all I will answer the questions people ask me most:-So, you are schizophrenic?*No! Absolutely not, that...
    Meliantha Meliantha
    18-21, F
    Aug 22, 2015

    Divorce And Dd

    My STBX and I are still living in the same house...But at this point it's gotten to where I space out whenever she's in the room....She accuses me of lying repeatedly...and I am not lying consciously.But I can't remember what I said. I can't remember what she said either.  She...
    hylierandom hylierandom
    41-45
    2 Responses Nov 23, 2012

    If people only knew that I was the one they

    deal with on a daily basis or knew what I kept her from doing to herself it would blow their minds!!!
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 15, 2014

    Does anyone know a good hospital

    for dissociative/trauma disorders??
    Owlmaid Owlmaid
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 22, 2014

    Not sure if I have DID.

    One therapist thinks I do. Going to psychiatrist tomorrow. Going to bring it up because the depression mess aren't helping the memory lapses like she said the would and they aren't helping the depression like they should. I get in these moods. Sometimes I'm cheery and funny...
    DoIknowmenow DoIknowmenow
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 25

    The Symptoms Are Excrutiating....

    I wondered for 2 years now why i was experincing the things i was experiencing, Headaches for no apparent reason, tightness in my body, inability to focus, having a conversation and feeling like im slipping away. I have Dissociative disorder, and this morning it hit me like a bag...
    mindscape mindscape
    36-40
    1 Response Mar 13, 2011

    .....at least I think I do.

    I self-diagnosed today, next step is finding a qualified professional to treat me. I told my therapist and she was very skeptical. Made me feel like **** that she didn't seem to believe me. It has to be dissociative disorder, it makes sense of everything that hasn't been making...
    cssoulsearching cssoulsearching
    26-30, F
    Aug 13, 2014

    I have had did since I was 16.

    I zone out alot and it depends on who I am when I wake up who I'm going to be that day. I don't have names for them but I hear them talking. I can't really handle life to well so I isolate. so when the bad one comes out I try to stay home because she is so mean and gets in...
    lmwhite106 lmwhite106
    41-45, F
    Jan 4

    New To Did

    Although I had no idea what it was called, I knew something was very strange with my life. Lost time and behavior outside of what I would normally ever do preceded the final diagonosis. The weird thing for me is that I am 41 years old. I would think I would have known this so...
    michellesgirls michellesgirls
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Mar 3, 2010

    Well Hai There!!!!!!!!

    HEY....HEY YOU!!!! Haiiiiii, my name is Kat (Katherine Lust) and I and about....9 other people live technigically "inside" a girl who we think is linked to the secific word "Dissociative" and weeeeellll, I'm honestly just gonna tell you about today, I guess. So, yeah today or...
    ThoseInterpreted ThoseInterpreted
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 19, 2012
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