I Have A Fear Of Abandonment

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    I'm supposed to have a fear of abandonment,

    but I don't see how so, I am the one who isolates myself n doesn't wanna be bothered with people. i have borderline personalitity disorder, and the disorder is characterized by intense fears of imagined or real abandonment. maybe i learned to deal with that part of it? or maybe...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 27, 2015

    Dear Future Wifee, Leave me

    and I'll poison your tea.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 9, 2015

    the greatest of faults is our ability to

    grieve its the egos inclination
    miimii0069 miimii0069
    31-35, F
    Sep 6, 2015

    I do not trust even my shadow.

    ... cause it leaves a trace..... always been left by people
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 6, 2015

    Growing up, I had 4 of the most important

    people in my childhood leave me. In kindergarten to second grade, I had a best friend who only hung out with me out of convience, she never really liked me. My second best friend I knew since about third grade and beyond. We fell out in high school because she went into a much...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin
    22-25, F
    Jan 22, 2015

    Mine is so bad that I've become a semi hoarder.

    I've been abandoned by 3 out of 4 parents. (My bios when I was a baby and adoptive dad when I was in 6th grade) luckily I got my mom. but the fear of being abandoned led to increase in loss. I feel horrible when I sell/throw away stuff cause I'm abandoning it. It's horrible...
    SeanDR SeanDR
    18-21, M
    1 Response Aug 26, 2015

    I am sad this app is going on APRIL 21 of

    anyone wants to stay in touch there's this app called bom dia talk my name is Kira sonrisa , I got viber and whatsapp to message me if you want to stay in touch I don't know care I won't judge because she or sex we can be pen pals or friends online lol
    LucidxxShivery LucidxxShivery
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 23, 2016

    Friends Have Abandoned Me

    Why do I have this fear? Because I have been abandoned by friends. And it is such a painful experience for me. I have had friends who just leave. Stop talking to me or start avoiding me. Avoiding my texts and calls. The worst part is I never get an explanation. Then I have to sit...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    8 Responses Jul 20, 2011

    Maybe it's just I try too hard.

    .. Fall too fast... I just always want them to be there and I can't get over it. All I ever feel is the overwhelming feeling that it's all going to end... Maybe it already has... It's just something I need to get over.
    LexiJ0J0 LexiJ0J0
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 5, 2015

    my oldest son has been out of the house n in

    the Marines roughly 9 months now. I treat his things like a shrine to him. I have 5 other children n I am completely terrified how I am going to survive their growing up n leaving me. they are my life. I am completely lost now without one eho am I without them here?
    sixtens sixtens
    41-45, F
    Jun 2, 2015

    Left

    I feel as if everyone is abandoning me.....I know not everyone is, but the feelings are still there.....This is how it started.....On January, 28th 2010, my 15yr old son passed away.....That has been hard enough.....My husband is in the Navy and just got transferred to Virginia...
    Brunhild Brunhild
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Sep 14, 2011

    People have often left me

    when I need them most. So I'm really scared that everyone I know is just gonna leave me one day. I hate to be alone. I'm afraid of that too. But I'm always alone. All of my friends are at college, I don't have a girlfriend, and all my family does is make me feel like **** and I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 6, 2015

    You know you get to know someone,

    and they become a close friend.. But you start to freak out that they might walk out of your life for no reason.. That's what I feel like and it brings tears to my eyes to think of loosing the person I have in mind... The things I would do to keep that relationship alive and...
    Catho Catho
    18-21, F
    Dec 14, 2014

    I do I fear that one day all my friends will

    just stop talking to me Heck yesterday one of my closest friends who I talk to every day didn't answer me at all and I'm kinda worried...
    chase667 chase667
    18-21, M
    Jun 1, 2015

    Again It'S Causing Issues

    I've always had slight abandonment and trust issues due to having a distant an volatile relationship with my father. However these issues have become out of control ever since the abuse I suffered at the hands of my uncle came to the surface. Despite having experience the abuse...
    LunaWolff LunaWolff
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 21, 2013

    Phcology meeting today,

    to see how I was going... After telling this phycologist all the close friends that had left me and walked out of my life, I felt gutted :/ I felt like I must be the one with the problem.. And when the phycologist so says "you have a lot going on, you have all this loss, that...
    Catho Catho
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 9, 2015

    I have been sad for a very long time.

    When I was eight years old, my father left my mother for another woman, thus destroying my family. I cannot explain how this felt, because I was barely able to process the emotions, being so young and having led a fairly sheltered existence. The best I can do is this: it was...
    classicslove classicslove
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 30, 2014

    Biggest Fear

    When I was little I experienced my mom and dad's divorcing. I saw them fighting in front of the house. After that I did not see my father for months, I developted the fear thinking that he was never coming back. I've also lost my best friends, they moved to different schools...
    AngelsReflection AngelsReflection
    18-21, F
    Apr 14, 2010

    I struggled with this

    for years ..I didn't even know I had Abandonment Issues ?? I got help and now my relationships are much better :)
    CODECRACKER2014 CODECRACKER2014
    41-45, M
    Mar 22, 2016

    Yep... and with EP closing,

    it's bad right now - i'm terrified that i'm going to lose at least one person who has come to mean a lot to me in my time here... and there's not a lot that i can do about it, either.
    LoneSouls LoneSouls
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Mar 25, 2016

    ive already been abandon hasnt talked to my best

    and only friend in 4 months hasnt talked to or been hugged by another female in 3 years and my family must of forgot i existed
    ThatOneLeo ThatOneLeo
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Apr 6, 2015

    It's just hit me how ******* alone I am,

    I make such a big deal about the man who currently obtains all my affections and really would like to be his lover but evenings like this where im just waiting and waiting for him to send me a mail whilst I'm seeing him talking to his friends on social media, I have nobody to...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 25, 2015

    If you read my other posts you can probably

    figure out that I am a huge dependent. I try hard not to be but that is just who I am. Being so dependent on people I tend to smother them out of my life. When they leave I am always devastated. I still think about certain people I had in my life that I miss terribly. I still...
    bbybleu bbybleu
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 29, 2015

    I'm not really dependent on people

    but you could say that I have close ties with them. The thought has always been on my mind since I was very young, probably around 14 or 15. My parents turned against me when I came out of the closet. When the word got out at school it became my worst nightmare. I was either...
    Niran3 Niran3
    22-25, M
    1 Response May 6, 2015

    I have a deep fear that

    if I ever commit myself to marriage that my wife would eventually stop loving and appreciating me.
    metagross metagross
    18-21, M
    Sep 16, 2015

    I fear I'll wake up and everything will have

    been a dream and everyone I care about will be gone. And I'll be alone.
    Simone423 Simone423
    16-17
    Jul 23, 2015

    I watch all my friends hooking up with

    different guys when I can't even hold a guys hand. I couldn't care less that they do that stuff I mean what does that have to do with me, but I never understand why they do that? I guess it for fun but I don't see how's it's fun unless you're kissing someone you love, I couldn't...
    heartkiddo heartkiddo
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 4, 2015

    I tread waters of insecurity fearing one day

    everything will come to end, will vanish, just disappear into the silence of night. You know very well you are the air I breathe yet my fears remain, may be it started long before we met .. I was just waiting for you to meet. We met, love blossomed then all went haywire...
    winterfall winterfall
    41-45
    1 Response May 3, 2015
    ItzPuppeh ItzPuppeh
    13-15, M
    1 Response Jan 2, 2016

    The short animated film The alchemist's letter

    beautifully translates the tale of feeling of abandonment and love. Not a wasted frame where each piece holds some form of symbolism, emotion and a tale of it's own. In my hopeless romanticism, I see the narration of the wondrous child but a reverie of the Alchemist of what he...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 24, 2015

    I feel like regardless of

    who I meet, or talk to, it's odd how the mind works. Especially in these times, people can cough up a thousand reasons to not do something or help someone. But won't simply do anything for no reason, even if they know it's the best thing to do.. Of course, I'm the type to do...
    lenny28 lenny28
    22-25, M
    1 Response Sep 26, 2015

    Especially More Recently

    I guess it's because most of what i ever care/cared about had been taken from me. Friendships have been taken, My dog whom i never lived a second without (literally she was a pup when i was born) was put down, My entire personal life was drawn from me, People have come and gone...
    LunaWolff LunaWolff
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Feb 10, 2011

    If I don't let you in,

    then you can't leave me, right?
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile
    22-25, M
    Jan 8, 2015

    When I was 2, my parents split up

    and my mom and I moved to the US from England. Since that day, I haven't seen my father. I didn't talk to him at all until I was 16, and after talking to me every day for a year, he suddenly stopped again. Nearly every day I think about him and how much it hurts that he won...
    reddwolf reddwolf
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 9, 2014

    I have these fears. Imagined

    or real. No matter how much they say they care I'm so scared. But at the same time im just there like daring it to happen..It's happened so many times before why can't it again right?
    CammieBx CammieBx
    18-21, F
    Apr 1, 2014

    Abandonment

    I've always felt that when someone stops talking to me,or doesn't get back to me quickly enough, that something is wrong, that they are done with me. Countless times has this happened and countless conversations have taken place over such an issue. Recently I made a new friend...
    serenitykat serenitykat
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 17, 2011

    It's so socially crippling

    that all of the relationships I form now are intentionally shallow. Temporary. Human shaped Band-aids for the gaping holes left by parents, siblings, childhood friends, and lovers alike. Being abandoned has made me into an abandoner.
    Godlevel Godlevel
    18-21
    Jun 2, 2015

    I'm just afraid of getting ditched again

    and again... I don't wanna lose somebody anymore... I've had enough of this ****...
    RagingDemon29 RagingDemon29
    16-17, F
    Jun 1, 2015

    The thought of getting in another relationship

    terrifies me. Love is the only thing that makes me feel alive, but the risk is too much. I can't put myself in a position of vulnerability ever again. I can't even think about my last relationship because it triggers all kinds of emotions that I just can't handle the intensity...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie
    22-25, F
    Apr 7, 2015

    this is one of my top biggest fears.

    ..... to be left all completely alone again. to feel the weight of the darkness upon my soul again, almost killing me on the inside just like before...... everyone's tired of my sometimes reminding them sometimes about how all my blood family except my mom and younger brother...
    randomgirl42 randomgirl42
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jan 15, 2016

    I have an intense fear of abandonment.

    And I'm unsure when someone assures me that they won't just leave me one day. People shouldn't ever worry about me leaving, I never leave and I'm as stubborn as a stump. It's you that needs to keep those words that you've said to me
    Calamityy Calamityy
    26-30, M
    Nov 1, 2015

    My parents split up when I was 7 years old.

    I remember a lot about their divorce; there are things that still make me sad to even think about. I saw my mom cry so many times, her dreams of a family liquified. Her tears were like drops of hope and the more she cried the less she had left. I don't think I could survive...
    AshleyJea AshleyJea
    26-30, F
    May 6, 2015

    An All Too Real Fear

    One of my all too real fears is one of abandonment. No I didn't come from a broken home nor was I abused but somehow early in life - probably in something like high school, I was told by someone that all those who I called friends were just masquerading. I was told they would...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Mar 17, 2010

    I do not mind being alone,

    but I cannot handle being abandoned. When a friend leaves my side or someone decides to just stop existing in my life I am crushed. My heart takes a direct hit and my soul crumbles.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 26, 2014

    I blame this on some pretty inattentive parents.

    That's all I'm willing to say about it here. It brings up some pretty strong feelings for me.
    utahwriter utahwriter
    41-45, M
    Apr 27, 2014

    I have a deep feel of regret in my stomach,

    something you've caused. I let my guard down, let you in, begin to really like you and now you're having second thoughts. Why does this hurt. It's not like I love you. Maybe it's the fact that I never give anyone a chance and when I do my worst nightmare happens. They give up...
    xItsChelsx xItsChelsx
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 19, 2015
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