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I Have a Huge Wall Up Around My Heart

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    Wall Around My Heart

    I've built this wall around my heart, and slowly over time. With every loss that I endure, higher and higher it climbs. A fortress shielding me from pain, nobody can break through. You met me at it's highest point, this is so unfair to you. My wall was built to hide the scars...
    adorablefreak adorablefreak 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2010

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    The Bigest Wall

    I have many walls around my heart when people hurt me . it takes alot for me to put up my walls .
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F Dec 22, 2009

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    Made Of Stone

    My skin is ice. My heart is stone. My blood is lead. My voice is cold. My brain is metal. My eyes so dark its like staring into death. No kindness can get past all of my defences.No words of love or care could enter my heart of stone. No warth of a persons touch could melt the...
    RebalLover RebalLover 13-15, F Mar 21, 2013

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    I Am The Opposite Way....

    ...I am completely vulnerable, and I get hurt too easily. I have a great deal of love to share, but I can't seem to share it anywhere. I get attached to someone, and set my heart upon them - and them alone - and when I feel like I might lose them, or when I am reminded of all...
    BonVie BonVie 41-45, M 4 Responses Jun 26, 2011

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    Ouch.

    I've been analyzing this for a pretty long tiem and yes, fianlly realozed that i have built an impenetrabel wall around me. My friends? All women. So what guys do i get along with? My bros. And that's only because i have huge blackmail bombs hanging on their personal lives...
    dearstranger dearstranger 18-21, F Jun 2, 2013

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    The Wall... I have a wall you cannot see

    Because its deep inside of me. It blocks my heart on every side And helps emotions there to hide. You cant reach in, I cant reach out, You wonder what its all about. The wall i built that you cant see Results from insecurity. Each time my tender heart was hurt...
    submissivelittlewoman submissivelittlewoman 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    I Won´t Disturb the Slumber of Feelings That Have Died

    A  winter´s day In a deep and dark December I am alone, Gazing from my window to the streets below On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow. I am a rock, I am an island. I´ve built walls, A fortress deep and mighty, That none may penetrate. I have no...
    underconstruction underconstruction 41-45, F 12 Responses Sep 25, 2009

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    Well, Sometimes

    But the damn thing keeps getting broken down. In late 2004, I mentally constructed a high wall of stone which I was in, and that no one could get through. How foolish it feels to keep vowing this, and having it crumbled again by the right words.
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Sep 26, 2009

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    Love

    i will let u in, i know my hearts been broke oh , so many times before. but am still willing to take a chance. if only i could find the love am looking 4.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 30, 2009

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    Troubles

    Ever since last year when the one girl that I met on my own with out having anyone introduce me to her betrayed me I haven't been able to open up to anyone new. I made no new friends, but some acquaintances that I play sports with time to time to keep me sane. Today one of my...
    WinterWisper WinterWisper 22-25 Apr 22, 2013

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    Love

    i let u in , u knew how alone i felt. i believed the lies u spoke, i thought this time its going to be allright. but like all the rest, u never even tried once u had me, u threw my feelings aside. i look at u know, n i wonder how, was i such a fool, to believe in love once again...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 25, 2009

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    Berlin? Meh! Call That A Wall?

      It separates the Palestinians from the Israelis, 600km of steel reinforced concrete, 12m high... A wall? Pah! It's a three thousand kilometre stone fence linking a series of armed fortresses, keeping the forbidden kingdom safe from the marauding barbarian hordes... Great...
    amberdextrous amberdextrous 51-55, M 3 Responses Nov 14, 2009

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    Life

    i would let u in, but am to afraid. u tell me all the things i want to hear. its to much like a game. so i close my heart off to try n shield out the pain. all i want is 4 just one man to prove to me he is different from the rest. n i would let him in.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 25, 2009

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    Pink Floyd's "the Wall"

    To me this album was about someone who was hurt for most of their life. This person became numb to the world and everyone within. He withdrew into the walls of his mind and eventually went insane and craved the contact from the outside world. I have been in many relationships...
    Phreeek Phreeek 26-30 Jul 19, 2011

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    If Only

    can u promise me u will love ME?will u hold me close when i need to feel anothers touch? will u promise me to never turn away from me?i can promise u all that n so much more. if only love like that was real.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 4, 2009

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    How My Wall Works

    I very rarely make a close friend. Rarely ever. I see what a person is like by getting to know them, but never letting them know me. This wall is a challenge for those who claim they can love anyone. I push people away, and block them from seeing me. If the person can pick up on...
    SmilesGoForMiles SmilesGoForMiles 16-17, M Dec 16, 2012

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    No More Pain

    if i could lock up my heart (so to speak),so as not to let anyone hurt me again, i would. my heart has been broke so many times, i will never be whole again. i let people in , but only a few. i now i will be hurt again, its a part of life. but now i guard my feelings, n i have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 5, 2009

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    Why Would U Want To Tho

    yes, i try to keep my heart locked away, its been broken so often there is not much left, but if u try if u really want to u just might succed , i may let u in. but why would u want to, when there is barely anything left of me.
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Nov 13, 2009

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    Do Walls Shut Out Others Or Imprison the One Who Builds Them?

    What a gift to have a kind and caring heart!  Yet, kind and caring hearts can and do ultimately risk being broken...intentionally or accidentally.  Sometimes the pieces can be put back together again and the heart mended...sometimes, the wound is primal and perhaps...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    Believe me, I didn't used to!! I was open, naive, trusting. Well those days are gone.:( I have been hurt a few times in my life...have let my heart get broken. Then I build up...
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    There is a quote that goes 'the heart wants what the heart wants.' I believe a heart that is hurting wants different things to what the happy heart wants. So which one do you go...
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    A few months ago I was joking with a friend. I told her I was in a love hate relationship. I hate that I love him. She gave me the best advice ever. She said protect your heart...
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    my wall protects me makes me feel safe I don't have to worry about my words being used against me or my scars being reopened my wall protects others from the real me the monster...
    boxgirl1987 boxgirl1987 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    My whole life is a "heartbreak" I can't anymore.... I look around me and find so many ppl are happy in love and I can't embrace it given to me from another
    IntomeYousee IntomeYousee 36-40, F 22 hrs ago

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    when I was little my dad beat me and yelled not to cry...Or else I would get more... Perhaps that's how this all started then throughout my teen years I've had a few mentally...
    boxgirl1987 boxgirl1987 26-30, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    "If I touch a burning candle I can feel no pain, In the ice or in the sun it's all the same. Yet I feel my heart is aching, though it doesn't beat, it's breaking, and the pain here...
    LostBoy9236 LostBoy9236 22-25, M Nov 18

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    He is so adorable when he's tired and so cute when he sleeps!!! <3 I just wish I didn't have to do this to us... I care about you but it it will make your life easier I am...
    LostBoy9236 LostBoy9236 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 27

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    I can't help but to feel like a failure... Chandelier by Sia
    LostBoy9236 LostBoy9236 22-25, M Oct 29

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    I'm so scared right now o.O
    LostBoy9236 LostBoy9236 22-25, M Oct 31

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    I really hope I did ruin this... I still like this. I still like you. I still want you. <3
    LostBoy9236 LostBoy9236 22-25, M Oct 31

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    I feel like he doesn't feel the same way I feel about him... It kinda hurts...
    LostBoy9236 LostBoy9236 22-25, M Nov 1

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    thats right girls, who wants to talk to me? :)
    loveybugy loveybugy 18-21, M Nov 8

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    What a lovely morning this is panning out to be!
    LostBoy9236 LostBoy9236 22-25, M Nov 9

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    I just need some time alone. I just need to shut out the world and sit with my thoughts for a long while.
    LostBoy9236 LostBoy9236 22-25, M 2 Responses Nov 16

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    As you all know there was a man in my life who persecuted me and made my life a living hell . I wish if I was a talented author to write the whole story with all the details but...
    lostsouluk lostsouluk 31-35, F Oct 31

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    Girls just can't win, if they're curvy ppl call them fat. For like a super long time skinny was considered good but now all of a sudden curvy is beatiful and skinny girls are...
    bluebell45 bluebell45 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 6

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    I wonder how many guys have had crushes on me in school because seriously nobody ever made a move.. or it was me that didn't realize or made a wall around me..
    meandmythought meandmythought 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    I have huge boobs and i go braless. Because I'm angry at my husband, every chance I get I take my blouse down and show them to men--- co-workers, strangers, I don't care who. My ni...
    joaniem joaniem 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 17

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    I have posted this elsewhere but not gotten much response. I really need some input, so if anyone can relate, please respond or message me. Thanks! I do dissociate and have DID...
    dreshany dreshany 41-45, F 3 Responses Nov 17

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    A few years ago I was participating in a marathon event and at the half way mark I was super tired and felt just like I was running through treacle. As I am keen on fitness I...
    jjthornton jjthornton 41-45, M 4 days ago

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    Loneliness is a phenomenon that has swept the world off its feet. Loneliness really has no quick-fix. After all of these years, long years, of being lonely, it cannot be healed...
    AddyAddyAddy AddyAddyAddy 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Hi everyone! I'm sixteen and I have to have scoliosis surgery in the next 13 months. I just have a few inquiries since I'm a little worried. My curve is a thoracic-lumbar curve...
    ilovetodreamx ilovetodreamx 16-17, F Nov 4

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    Oh my gosjghjjgdgfgtvnkv, we both have soccer practice around the same time. When I'm one side of the field, he's on the other. I remember kicking the ball around and I looked up...
    SleepyGamers SleepyGamers 13-15, T Nov 14

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    Well multiple. I met Peter Dinklage as I was buying stuff for the fourth of July. He asked me and my family for directions to this street. Of course we told him how to get there...
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    Always. It's probably because I'm always in a rush in the mornings because I'm running late. It makes me have to stumble around in the parking lot like a fool, in the fierce...
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