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I Have a Huge Wall Up Around My Heart

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    Love

    i will let u in, i know my hearts been broke oh , so many times before. but am still willing to take a chance. if only i could find the love am looking 4.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 30, 2009

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    Why Would U Want To Tho

    yes, i try to keep my heart locked away, its been broken so often there is not much left, but if u try if u really want to u just might succed , i may let u in. but why would u want to, when there is barely anything left of me.
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Nov 13, 2009

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    No More Pain

    if i could lock up my heart (so to speak),so as not to let anyone hurt me again, i would. my heart has been broke so many times, i will never be whole again. i let people in , but only a few. i now i will be hurt again, its a part of life. but now i guard my feelings, n i have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 5, 2009

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    The Bigest Wall

    I have many walls around my heart when people hurt me . it takes alot for me to put up my walls .
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F Dec 22, 2009

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    Ouch.

    I've been analyzing this for a pretty long tiem and yes, fianlly realozed that i have built an impenetrabel wall around me. My friends? All women. So what guys do i get along with? My bros. And that's only because i have huge blackmail bombs hanging on their personal lives...
    dearstranger dearstranger 18-21, F Jun 2, 2013

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    Made Of Stone

    My skin is ice. My heart is stone. My blood is lead. My voice is cold. My brain is metal. My eyes so dark its like staring into death. No kindness can get past all of my defences.No words of love or care could enter my heart of stone. No warth of a persons touch could melt the...
    RebalLover RebalLover 13-15, F Mar 21, 2013

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    Well, Sometimes

    But the damn thing keeps getting broken down. In late 2004, I mentally constructed a high wall of stone which I was in, and that no one could get through. How foolish it feels to keep vowing this, and having it crumbled again by the right words.
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Sep 26, 2009

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    I Am The Opposite Way....

    ...I am completely vulnerable, and I get hurt too easily. I have a great deal of love to share, but I can't seem to share it anywhere. I get attached to someone, and set my heart upon them - and them alone - and when I feel like I might lose them, or when I am reminded of all...
    BonVie BonVie 41-45, M 4 Responses Jun 26, 2011

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    The Wall... I have a wall you cannot see

    Because its deep inside of me. It blocks my heart on every side And helps emotions there to hide. You cant reach in, I cant reach out, You wonder what its all about. The wall i built that you cant see Results from insecurity. Each time my tender heart was hurt...
    submissivelittlewoman submissivelittlewoman 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 14, 2014

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    Berlin? Meh! Call That A Wall?

      It separates the Palestinians from the Israelis, 600km of steel reinforced concrete, 12m high... A wall? Pah! It's a three thousand kilometre stone fence linking a series of armed fortresses, keeping the forbidden kingdom safe from the marauding barbarian hordes... Great...
    amberdextrous amberdextrous 51-55, M 3 Responses Nov 14, 2009

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    Love

    i let u in , u knew how alone i felt. i believed the lies u spoke, i thought this time its going to be allright. but like all the rest, u never even tried once u had me, u threw my feelings aside. i look at u know, n i wonder how, was i such a fool, to believe in love once again...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 25, 2009

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    If Only

    can u promise me u will love ME?will u hold me close when i need to feel anothers touch? will u promise me to never turn away from me?i can promise u all that n so much more. if only love like that was real.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 4, 2009

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    Life

    i would let u in, but am to afraid. u tell me all the things i want to hear. its to much like a game. so i close my heart off to try n shield out the pain. all i want is 4 just one man to prove to me he is different from the rest. n i would let him in.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 25, 2009

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    Troubles

    Ever since last year when the one girl that I met on my own with out having anyone introduce me to her betrayed me I haven't been able to open up to anyone new. I made no new friends, but some acquaintances that I play sports with time to time to keep me sane. Today one of my...
    WinterWisper WinterWisper 22-25 Apr 22, 2013

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    I Won´t Disturb the Slumber of Feelings That Have Died

    A  winter´s day In a deep and dark December I am alone, Gazing from my window to the streets below On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow. I am a rock, I am an island. I´ve built walls, A fortress deep and mighty, That none may penetrate. I have no...
    underconstruction underconstruction 41-45, F 12 Responses Sep 25, 2009

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    Wall Around My Heart

    I've built this wall around my heart, and slowly over time. With every loss that I endure, higher and higher it climbs. A fortress shielding me from pain, nobody can break through. You met me at it's highest point, this is so unfair to you. My wall was built to hide the scars...
    adorablefreak adorablefreak 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2010

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    How My Wall Works

    I very rarely make a close friend. Rarely ever. I see what a person is like by getting to know them, but never letting them know me. This wall is a challenge for those who claim they can love anyone. I push people away, and block them from seeing me. If the person can pick up on...
    SmilesGoForMiles SmilesGoForMiles 16-17, M Dec 16, 2012

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    Pink Floyd's "the Wall"

    To me this album was about someone who was hurt for most of their life. This person became numb to the world and everyone within. He withdrew into the walls of his mind and eventually went insane and craved the contact from the outside world. I have been in many relationships...
    Phreeek Phreeek 26-30 Jul 19, 2011

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    Do Walls Shut Out Others Or Imprison the One Who Builds Them?

    What a gift to have a kind and caring heart!  Yet, kind and caring hearts can and do ultimately risk being broken...intentionally or accidentally.  Sometimes the pieces can be put back together again and the heart mended...sometimes, the wound is primal and perhaps...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    I've been hurt so many times that I've resorted to building walls around my heart to ensure that I won't be hurt. When I meet someone new and I feel like they are trying to get to...
    BabyGirlCleo BabyGirlCleo 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    The more I get hurt, the walls are growing higher. I guess, it's already completely surrounded. The last brick was set lately. Just my kids are able to pass the walls without any...
    Brokenshadowwings Brokenshadowwings 31-35, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Luckily, my walls build a solid foundation for a house. Now I got shelter for both me and whoever else I have over
    NewBeginnings5 NewBeginnings5 26-30 1 Response Feb 7

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    I have walls that need to be knocked down.
    hellokitty206 hellokitty206 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    keep blessings in your heart for me.. even if we lose touch with each other
    sister11 sister11 36-40, F Feb 7

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    As sad as reality might be even if I am over you, my heart will always have a spot for you.
    SummerMacabre SummerMacabre 18-21, M Feb 16

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    All the things I kept inside
    justhatgurl justhatgurl 16-17, F Feb 8

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    You know I like my chicken fried And cold beer on a Friday night A pair of jeans that fit just right And the radio on Well I was raised up beneath the shade of a Georgia Pine And...
    FreedomRise98 FreedomRise98 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    It's true I can't be rude to people, it's really hard unless you really pis me off and I know you won't beat me up :,D people take advantage of me bc they know I'm too nice to...
    Uhilikepizza Uhilikepizza 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 7

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    I have huge walls. after my last relationship, I took years off of dating. recently I found someone I really enjoy and could fall for. our chemistry was perfect And our...
    Joeyschnepel Joeyschnepel 22-25, M Feb 16

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    Want to know how to lose 10lbs in two weeks? First of all, fall madly and deeply in love, make sure you can't imagine life without him, use every ounce of yourself and your energy...
    oliibaba oliibaba 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 13

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    All the Time I never let my guard down. I maintain a wall around my mind, to keep me in and others out. I speak little, lest in talking I let something out. My mouth is shut and my...
    CilaCuil CilaCuil 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    The more I learn about human nature, the more I despair and lament. Adaption from indoctrination is the only option. But, that is a hard thing, indeed. It's always better to know...
    Thanatos24 Thanatos24 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    It's been 3 years since my boyfriend left this place, it could be yesterday and it could be an eternity, all I know is nothing will ever prepare you for the sight of a body with a...
    littlesnowyeti littlesnowyeti 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 3

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    One of my many dreams is to have kids..... I am very affectionate and would not miss caring for my children and my boyfriend, because they are people I love and will love with all...
    000Thallensjaan 000Thallensjaan 16-17, M 3 Responses Feb 11

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    You know what once drove me confused.. Is how much we give to some of the people in our lives and never get appreciation, how much we try our best to stay in their life, but they...
    Starz93 Starz93 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    ok so i have some weird/ bad news. the other night (sunday i think) i was trying to get to sleep and i could hear my heart beating. then, thats when i noticed it skips a beat and...
    wannaloveyou wannaloveyou 13-15, F 9 Responses Feb 3

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    I work in a very male dominated industry, and to say a pretty girl no matter what the age, sticks out like a Yankee jersey in Fenway Park, is an understatement. With that being...
    Padiwan Padiwan 46-50, M 2 Responses Feb 22

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    I've been in treatment for years and nothing seems to work. I go through my manic episodes so full of energy and wanting to try new things like learn to play piano or go back to...
    angelique422 angelique422 22-25, F a week ago

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    No. Just no. That is not the kind of person I want to be. Marriage isn't perfect, but my husband and I are perfect for each other. I don't want to have the mess and heartache that...
    1forHIM 1forHIM 22-25, F Feb 4

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    Those millions of disposable coo find that FEMA ordered are not what you think. They are coffin liners that have been shipped around the country to certain areas. Some cemeteries...
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 18-21, M Feb 17

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    Is it weird I even have social phobia around my own mother and I've lived with her all my life. I know she does judge me and has said things.
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 4 Responses a week ago

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    I like to have a nice boyfriend. I work full time and am a single mother. I don't have any family around me and don't have many friends. It would be really fun to have a nice...
    marion13 marion13 36-40, F 2 days ago

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    Creepy Warning My name is Chris. I have had sleep paralysis recently. It is not my first time dealing with sleep paralysis, i have it rather frequently like 1-3 times a month, it...
    Footedeal Footedeal 70+, M Feb 6

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    These four walls can no longer contain her. These four walls will no longer confine her. These four walls can no longer shield her and keep her out of harm’s way. These four...
    dancingWATERz dancingWATERz 51-55, F 3 Responses Feb 4