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I Have a Huge Wall Up Around My Heart

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    Love - i let u in , u knew how alone i felt. i believed the lies u spoke, i thought this time its going to be allright. but like all the rest, u never even tried once u had me, u...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 25, 2009

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    Berlin? Meh! Call That A Wall? -   It separates the Palestinians from the Israelis, 600km of steel reinforced concrete, 12m high... A wall? Pah! It's a three thousand...
    amberdextrous amberdextrous 51-55, M 3 Responses Nov 14, 2009

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    Do Walls Shut Out Others Or Imprison the One Who Builds Them? - What a gift to have a kind and caring heart!  Yet, kind and caring hearts can and do ultimately risk being...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    Ouch. - I've been analyzing this for a pretty long tiem and yes, fianlly realozed that i have built an impenetrabel wall around me. My friends? All women. So what guys do i get...
    dearstranger dearstranger 18-21, F Jun 2, 2013

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    Love - i will let u in, i know my hearts been broke oh , so many times before. but am still willing to take a chance. if only i could find the love am looking 4.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 30, 2009

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    The Bigest Wall - I have many walls around my heart when people hurt me . it takes alot for me to put up my walls .
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F Dec 22, 2009

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    I Won´t Disturb the Slumber of Feelings That Have Died - A  winter´s day In a deep and dark December I am alone, Gazing from my window to the streets below On a...
    underconstruction underconstruction 41-45, F 12 Responses Sep 25, 2009

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    Wall Around My Heart - I've built this wall around my heart, and slowly over time. With every loss that I endure, higher and higher it climbs. A fortress shielding me from pain...
    adorablefreak adorablefreak 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2010

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    Life - i would let u in, but am to afraid. u tell me all the things i want to hear. its to much like a game. so i close my heart off to try n shield out the pain. all i want is 4...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 25, 2009

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    Why Would U Want To Tho - yes, i try to keep my heart locked away, its been broken so often there is not much left, but if u try if u really want to u just might succed , i may let...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Nov 13, 2009

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    Made Of Stone - My skin is ice. My heart is stone. My blood is lead. My voice is cold. My brain is metal. My eyes so dark its like staring into death. No kindness can get past all...
    RebalLover RebalLover 13-15, F Mar 21, 2013

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    Troubles - Ever since last year when the one girl that I met on my own with out having anyone introduce me to her betrayed me I haven't been able to open up to anyone new. I made...
    WinterWisper WinterWisper 22-25 Apr 22, 2013

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    If Only - can u promise me u will love ME?will u hold me close when i need to feel anothers touch? will u promise me to never turn away from me?i can promise u all that n so much...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 4, 2009

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    How My Wall Works - I very rarely make a close friend. Rarely ever. I see what a person is like by getting to know them, but never letting them know me. This wall is a challenge...
    SmilesGoForMiles SmilesGoForMiles 18-21, M Dec 16, 2012

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    No More Pain - if i could lock up my heart (so to speak),so as not to let anyone hurt me again, i would. my heart has been broke so many times, i will never be whole again. i let...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 5, 2009

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