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I Have a Huge Wall Up Around My Heart

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 166 People

    If Only

    can u promise me u will love ME?will u hold me close when i need to feel anothers touch? will u promise me to never turn away from me?i can promise u all that n so much more. if only love like that was real.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 4, 2009

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    Made Of Stone

    My skin is ice. My heart is stone. My blood is lead. My voice is cold. My brain is metal. My eyes so dark its like staring into death. No kindness can get past all of my defences.No words of love or care could enter my heart of stone. No warth of a persons touch could melt the...
    RebalLover RebalLover 13-15, F Mar 21, 2013

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    No More Pain

    if i could lock up my heart (so to speak),so as not to let anyone hurt me again, i would. my heart has been broke so many times, i will never be whole again. i let people in , but only a few. i now i will be hurt again, its a part of life. but now i guard my feelings, n i have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 5, 2009

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    Life

    i would let u in, but am to afraid. u tell me all the things i want to hear. its to much like a game. so i close my heart off to try n shield out the pain. all i want is 4 just one man to prove to me he is different from the rest. n i would let him in.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 25, 2009

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    Why Would U Want To Tho

    yes, i try to keep my heart locked away, its been broken so often there is not much left, but if u try if u really want to u just might succed , i may let u in. but why would u want to, when there is barely anything left of me.
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Nov 13, 2009

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    The Wall... I have a wall you cannot see

    Because its deep inside of me. It blocks my heart on every side And helps emotions there to hide. You cant reach in, I cant reach out, You wonder what its all about. The wall i built that you cant see Results from insecurity. Each time my tender heart was hurt...
    submissivelittlewoman submissivelittlewoman 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 14, 2014

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    Pink Floyd's "the Wall"

    To me this album was about someone who was hurt for most of their life. This person became numb to the world and everyone within. He withdrew into the walls of his mind and eventually went insane and craved the contact from the outside world. I have been in many relationships...
    Phreeek Phreeek 26-30 Jul 19, 2011

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    Well, Sometimes

    But the damn thing keeps getting broken down. In late 2004, I mentally constructed a high wall of stone which I was in, and that no one could get through. How foolish it feels to keep vowing this, and having it crumbled again by the right words.
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Sep 26, 2009

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    Wall Around My Heart

    I've built this wall around my heart, and slowly over time. With every loss that I endure, higher and higher it climbs. A fortress shielding me from pain, nobody can break through. You met me at it's highest point, this is so unfair to you. My wall was built to hide the scars...
    adorablefreak adorablefreak 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2010

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    Berlin? Meh! Call That A Wall?

      It separates the Palestinians from the Israelis, 600km of steel reinforced concrete, 12m high... A wall? Pah! It's a three thousand kilometre stone fence linking a series of armed fortresses, keeping the forbidden kingdom safe from the marauding barbarian hordes... Great...
    amberdextrous amberdextrous 51-55, M 3 Responses Nov 14, 2009

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    Do Walls Shut Out Others Or Imprison the One Who Builds Them?

    What a gift to have a kind and caring heart!  Yet, kind and caring hearts can and do ultimately risk being broken...intentionally or accidentally.  Sometimes the pieces can be put back together again and the heart mended...sometimes, the wound is primal and perhaps...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    I Am The Opposite Way....

    ...I am completely vulnerable, and I get hurt too easily. I have a great deal of love to share, but I can't seem to share it anywhere. I get attached to someone, and set my heart upon them - and them alone - and when I feel like I might lose them, or when I am reminded of all...
    BonVie BonVie 41-45, M 4 Responses Jun 26, 2011

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    Troubles

    Ever since last year when the one girl that I met on my own with out having anyone introduce me to her betrayed me I haven't been able to open up to anyone new. I made no new friends, but some acquaintances that I play sports with time to time to keep me sane. Today one of my...
    WinterWisper WinterWisper 22-25 Apr 22, 2013

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    How My Wall Works

    I very rarely make a close friend. Rarely ever. I see what a person is like by getting to know them, but never letting them know me. This wall is a challenge for those who claim they can love anyone. I push people away, and block them from seeing me. If the person can pick up on...
    SmilesGoForMiles SmilesGoForMiles 16-17, M Dec 16, 2012

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    Love

    i will let u in, i know my hearts been broke oh , so many times before. but am still willing to take a chance. if only i could find the love am looking 4.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 30, 2009

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    Love

    i let u in , u knew how alone i felt. i believed the lies u spoke, i thought this time its going to be allright. but like all the rest, u never even tried once u had me, u threw my feelings aside. i look at u know, n i wonder how, was i such a fool, to believe in love once again...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 25, 2009

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    I Won´t Disturb the Slumber of Feelings That Have Died

    A  winter´s day In a deep and dark December I am alone, Gazing from my window to the streets below On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow. I am a rock, I am an island. I´ve built walls, A fortress deep and mighty, That none may penetrate. I have no...
    underconstruction underconstruction 41-45, F 12 Responses Sep 25, 2009

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    Ouch.

    I've been analyzing this for a pretty long tiem and yes, fianlly realozed that i have built an impenetrabel wall around me. My friends? All women. So what guys do i get along with? My bros. And that's only because i have huge blackmail bombs hanging on their personal lives...
    dearstranger dearstranger 18-21, F Jun 2, 2013

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    The Bigest Wall

    I have many walls around my heart when people hurt me . it takes alot for me to put up my walls .
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F Dec 22, 2009

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    Infact there has been only one person who has gotten through those walls ever! Not only did she care enough to get in but she actually tried and succeeded. She just slowly burrowed...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I am a girl. I was dating a guy but suddenly got feelings for a girl. I broke with my bf to be with her and now she doesn't war wasn't me. I don't understand why. we've been...
    sssusy sssusy 18-21, F 3 Responses May 4

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    It's easier.. And then you don't have to deal with people letting you down constantly.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 11

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    once you fall your screwed and once your weak you fall farther cause they tell you what you want to hear . something everyone tries to avoid but you always fall
    nightmare06 nightmare06 13-15, F May 10

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    I wear a mask which I hid behind for so long, I forgot what it was like to be me. I hide my sadness and emptiness with a fake smile
    MidnightDragons MidnightDragons 13-15, F 1 Response May 15

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     I don't hve the resources to follow myself. let alone hire someone and whay would I? you have no idea who I am or was. You make up things and believe them. You are f'ed up . I...
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    when people ask why I lost my faith I tell them because I lost my gf while trying to be a good brother to my dying sister.then they say so you will only have faith if you get...
    skykidx1 skykidx1 22-25, M 3 Responses May 3

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    My friends get mad at me because i don't have a wallpaper on my lock or home screen.
    Garcinia Garcinia 16-17, F 1 Response May 7

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    More like my heart is broken. There is a girl I fell for, and I expressed my feelings to her. We fought a lot about it. Our friendship was up and down for months. Until today she...
    AaliyahRobinson AaliyahRobinson 18-21 6 days ago

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    I have huge daddy issues!!
    CatalinaPetrova CatalinaPetrova 16-17, F 1 Response May 14

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    I have huge crushes on majority of the male MCU actors.
    aclockworkmegan aclockworkmegan 13-15, F May 17

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    Today is the day. I find out if I have to have a procedure to see if have blockage to my heart.
    TCL009 TCL009 41-45, F 4 Responses May 6

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    I've always found it hard to relate to other people. Just being around people stresses me out. I had to go to an alternative school because I couldn't handle being around so many...
    MissJessieGurl MissJessieGurl 18-21, F May 8

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    Crushes should be the last thing on my mind with the fact I've been in a relationship for 8 years. I did have a crush on a co-worker until a few weeks ago but she suddenly was...
    Dreamer19845 Dreamer19845 31-35, M 2 Responses May 5

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    When my wife left me caring for two young boys I decided that I would get their names tattooed on me. I had thought about it for a long time, but thought it would be an indication...
    Jacksmoker Jacksmoker 26-30, M 1 Response May 20

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    Exactly that... I don't have talent but I have a big adventurous heart and love social events
    SkyBeaST SkyBeaST 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    He knows I have told him my heart fell for him a few months ago. He sees the things I write and I see the things he writes, still I have to wonder if he wants more, if he and I...
    1 Response May 10

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    I know I am not a big prize...I have issues from the past and present. I need good amount of some type of therapy. When i look at myself realistically...its so depressing. My...
    1 Response May 18

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    Iv'e had pica pretty much my whole life.It started innocent i was a baby but grew and grew has i got older. i started off eating baby powder, i stopped foe awhile but once i got...
    MiloLove3 MiloLove3 18-21, F May 10

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    Depression is this complicated chemical imbalance in the brain. Neurotransmitters go lazy, neurons don't comunnicate, hippocampus produces less neurons and starts to shrink...
    Lucije Lucije 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    I have wolves hanging around my room that make me feel protected and help not to get night mares.
    hazelSweet hazelSweet 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    So i'm a relatively positive person and I guess that comes across to the people I surround myself with. I have been asked. "After everything you've been through and everything you...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 9 hrs ago

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    When I was a little 9 year old girl, my mother worked full time. My parents were young compared to other parents, so they were new in their professions, yet they desperately wanted...
    OMGMeToo OMGMeToo 51-55, F 13 hrs ago

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