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I Have a Huge Wall Up Around My Heart

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    If Only

    can u promise me u will love ME?will u hold me close when i need to feel anothers touch? will u promise me to never turn away from me?i can promise u all that n so much more. if only love like that was real.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 4, 2009

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    The Wall... I have a wall you cannot see

    Because its deep inside of me. It blocks my heart on every side And helps emotions there to hide. You cant reach in, I cant reach out, You wonder what its all about. The wall i built that you cant see Results from insecurity. Each time my tender heart was hurt...
    submissivelittlewoman submissivelittlewoman 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 14, 2014

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    How My Wall Works

    I very rarely make a close friend. Rarely ever. I see what a person is like by getting to know them, but never letting them know me. This wall is a challenge for those who claim they can love anyone. I push people away, and block them from seeing me. If the person can pick up on...
    SmilesGoForMiles SmilesGoForMiles 16-17, M Dec 16, 2012

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    Do Walls Shut Out Others Or Imprison the One Who Builds Them?

    What a gift to have a kind and caring heart!  Yet, kind and caring hearts can and do ultimately risk being broken...intentionally or accidentally.  Sometimes the pieces can be put back together again and the heart mended...sometimes, the wound is primal and perhaps...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 27, 2009

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    Wall Around My Heart

    I've built this wall around my heart, and slowly over time. With every loss that I endure, higher and higher it climbs. A fortress shielding me from pain, nobody can break through. You met me at it's highest point, this is so unfair to you. My wall was built to hide the scars...
    RiotGrrrll RiotGrrrll 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 14, 2010

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    Love

    i will let u in, i know my hearts been broke oh , so many times before. but am still willing to take a chance. if only i could find the love am looking 4.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 30, 2009

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    The Bigest Wall

    I have many walls around my heart when people hurt me . it takes alot for me to put up my walls .
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F Dec 22, 2009

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    I Won´t Disturb the Slumber of Feelings That Have Died

    A  winter´s day In a deep and dark December I am alone, Gazing from my window to the streets below On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow. I am a rock, I am an island. I´ve built walls, A fortress deep and mighty, That none may penetrate. I have no...
    underconstruction underconstruction 41-45, F 12 Responses Sep 25, 2009

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    Why Would U Want To Tho

    yes, i try to keep my heart locked away, its been broken so often there is not much left, but if u try if u really want to u just might succed , i may let u in. but why would u want to, when there is barely anything left of me.
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Nov 13, 2009

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    Pink Floyd's "the Wall"

    To me this album was about someone who was hurt for most of their life. This person became numb to the world and everyone within. He withdrew into the walls of his mind and eventually went insane and craved the contact from the outside world. I have been in many relationships...
    Phreeek Phreeek 26-30 Jul 19, 2011

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    No More Pain

    if i could lock up my heart (so to speak),so as not to let anyone hurt me again, i would. my heart has been broke so many times, i will never be whole again. i let people in , but only a few. i now i will be hurt again, its a part of life. but now i guard my feelings, n i have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 5, 2009

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    I Am The Opposite Way....

    ...I am completely vulnerable, and I get hurt too easily. I have a great deal of love to share, but I can't seem to share it anywhere. I get attached to someone, and set my heart upon them - and them alone - and when I feel like I might lose them, or when I am reminded of all...
    BonVie BonVie 41-45, M 4 Responses Jun 26, 2011

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    Love

    i let u in , u knew how alone i felt. i believed the lies u spoke, i thought this time its going to be allright. but like all the rest, u never even tried once u had me, u threw my feelings aside. i look at u know, n i wonder how, was i such a fool, to believe in love once again...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 25, 2009

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    Troubles

    Ever since last year when the one girl that I met on my own with out having anyone introduce me to her betrayed me I haven't been able to open up to anyone new. I made no new friends, but some acquaintances that I play sports with time to time to keep me sane. Today one of my...
    WinterWisper WinterWisper 22-25 Apr 22, 2013

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    Well, Sometimes

    But the damn thing keeps getting broken down. In late 2004, I mentally constructed a high wall of stone which I was in, and that no one could get through. How foolish it feels to keep vowing this, and having it crumbled again by the right words.
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Sep 26, 2009

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    Ouch.

    I've been analyzing this for a pretty long tiem and yes, fianlly realozed that i have built an impenetrabel wall around me. My friends? All women. So what guys do i get along with? My bros. And that's only because i have huge blackmail bombs hanging on their personal lives...
    dearstranger dearstranger 18-21, F Jun 2, 2013

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    Made Of Stone

    My skin is ice. My heart is stone. My blood is lead. My voice is cold. My brain is metal. My eyes so dark its like staring into death. No kindness can get past all of my defences.No words of love or care could enter my heart of stone. No warth of a persons touch could melt the...
    RebalLover RebalLover 16-17, F Mar 21, 2013

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    Life

    i would let u in, but am to afraid. u tell me all the things i want to hear. its to much like a game. so i close my heart off to try n shield out the pain. all i want is 4 just one man to prove to me he is different from the rest. n i would let him in.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 25, 2009

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    Berlin? Meh! Call That A Wall?

      It separates the Palestinians from the Israelis, 600km of steel reinforced concrete, 12m high... A wall? Pah! It's a three thousand kilometre stone fence linking a series of armed fortresses, keeping the forbidden kingdom safe from the marauding barbarian hordes... Great...
    amberdextrous amberdextrous 51-55, M 3 Responses Nov 14, 2009

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    I've noticed when I had been in school I would having these weird.. Uhm. "staring spells" but my science teacher thought I was daydreaming when I would stare at the wall for a long...
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    I feel so bad every day that I just wish something or someone could take my life. I was doing better for a short while, but again I'm being pulled back to the way I was before. I...
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    it's hard because my brains louder than my heart and my hearts quiet and my gut will be telling me something and I don't know what to listen to listen to everything but follow the...
    lela201465 lela201465 16-17, F 11 hrs ago

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    incagem incagem 31-35, F 14 hrs ago

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    two month ago I went to my ex's place and found a girl who he described as a friend only sleeping on the pile of wood because she was meditating earlier. I offered her a ride home...
    arina130 arina130 41-45, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    How very softly you tiptoed into my world. Almost silently! Only a moment you stayed. But what an imprint your footprints have left in the heart!
    blueboyblue blueboyblue 22-25, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I have a best friend of the opposite gender. Funny, nice, sincere guy. We've been very close for two years now, and many people see us as inseparable. He is probably the best...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    i didn't think I'd see 30 im sooo blessed
    miimii0069 miimii0069 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    It's actually pretty funny to think that growing up, everything seemed so normal, I never even considered that every other "normal" kid doesn't grow up like I did. Any how, I...
    TheHippieBitch TheHippieBitch 16-17, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Ok I am 13 years old in year 9. And I am gay when I was born. Don't know why but I am gay. My parents don't know that I am gay but I am looking for someone to f***. I am addicted...
    MuscleSlaved MuscleSlaved 36-40, T 3 days ago

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    Last week I tested positive for HSV1 and HSV2. My ex-boyfriend let me know he had it for 15 years. I guess it was a parting gift. He dropped the knowledge on me the night we broke...
    annab01 annab01 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I am so broken. Some of the people who I wanted to grow up with and have our kids be friends with each other..they just left me hanging. They're my only friendship group - I have...
    Lillemon Lillemon 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    KitsuneNinja KitsuneNinja 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Pain24 Pain24 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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