Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I Have a Love-hate Relationship With My Past

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 189 People

    The Good and Bad

     i have some great memories,but also some very dark and terrible .and i wish i could say i only remember the good,but that would be a lie.i remember my dad`s drunken spells.and i remember my mom`s phycotic breaks.i remember having nowhere to turn,no one to trust.but it...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 Oct 6, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Military Attatchment

    I'm a military brat. The longest I've ever stayed in one place is four years at a time, and it was only my last move that I actually got to spend time with peolpe who were not connected to military life. Because of all of the moving, I used to be really detatched, and it was...
    SacchrineSmile SacchrineSmile 16-17, F Apr 10, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    ....

    its destroys me. but without it I wouldnt be the me being destroyed.   it defines me. it shapes me. probably more than it should. it makes me hurt so deeply. it makes me act out. it makes me desperate and lonely.   it also makes me understanding. compassionate...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Dec 21, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Miss You

    How do you deal with situations where you just need closure... Need to share something? It can be difficult. I'll never forget that summer we met. I remember the very first time I saw you. I don't think I could ever forget. Your bad hair cut, navy ******** polo, brown pants and...
    29texasgirl19 29texasgirl19 22-25, F May 29, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    L-H

    easy. love everything i've learn. hate everything that's happened. okay, so i may not hate everything, but if someone were to ask me about the most prominent things that happened it my past, the majority would be memories of things i hated. still hate. live and let live.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F Jan 26, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Yes.

    I love my past because it has taught me so much... about myself, about others, about life in general. As cliche of a phrase as it is, "My past has made me who I am today." And as horrible as I feel about myself much of the time, I know that I'm truly not too bad of a...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 21, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Wouldn't Change a Thing, But Wonder What If...

    I've collected a vast array of wild & exciting experiences from pursuing a "Living on the edge" lifestyle for most of my life. Sure there were bad times too, poor decisions, failed relationships, and my share of pain but it was all necessary for me to arrive...
    zillaron zillaron 51-55, M 2 Responses Jun 29, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Yep, I Do

    When I look back at my past, the name of this group describes exactly how I feel about it. Looking behind at where I've come from shows me that I've come a very long way.  I've grown so much and I'm an entirely different and a much stronger person than who I was...
    yoyy yoyy 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 21, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Looking Back What I Would Change

    I am now 61 years old and look back and see a life filled with many wrong choises. Although I have make good choises the good ones seem to lie low to the choises that were just plane selfish. I look at others and can see where they stayed true to Jesus and now their life is...
    jewellory jewellory 61-65, F 1 Response Aug 22, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Have to Stop and Say. 'what In the H*ll Was I Thinking?"

    I am an avid believer that everything - EVERY thing and EVERY person comes into your life for a reason.  You need to learn a lesson. or they are setting you on your path, or they help to clarify something for you. I have had my really rough share of...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72 36-40, F Jan 6, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Would I Change It?

    When asked if I would change my past, if I had the chance to, my knee-jerk answer is always "YES!". It's because of all the bad things and pain I had went through, in my life. And it's human to want to avoid pain.... But, when I really think about it, and not act on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 20, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Have Mixed Feelings About It All

    I don't know how I'd live without the stories it gave me to tell and gave me some good times, but I can hardly stand the thought of all the stuff I did and what it makes people think of me. It's one of the worst feelings when someone tells you that they're not aloud to even be...
    MyEmptyBones MyEmptyBones 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 21, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Part Of The Story, Part I

    (Originally posted in the I AM INTROSPECTIVE group) First off, let me just say that I like being introspective. I like looking back on certain things and wondering what was my state of mind like or why did I make that decision or etc. It helps me understand ME and I use a lot of...
    ItsJustZ ItsJustZ 18-21, M Oct 20, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Like Everyone

    If I could erase the pain I've already suffered and am still suffering right now, I might just because I long so much to be free. But it might not be a wise thing to do. You see, I've done a lot of stupid things in my life, and I hate them and long to take them back. But if I...
    JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente 18-21, F Jan 9, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    BUT I Love Who It Made Me Turn Out to Be

    MANY HAVE BEEN THROUGH MUCH WORSE BUT I'VE HAD MY FAIR SHARE OF PHYSICAL, MENTAL, AND EMOTIONAL ABUSE IN MY LIFE... AND MY FAIR SHARE OF KNIVES DUG DEEP IN MY BACK TOO. I HATE THE PAIN THAT THE MEMORIES STILL BRING TO ME. I AM OVERLY EMOTIONAL AND FEEL THINGS TOO DEEPLY. THE...
    fukkboii fukkboii 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 23, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Thin Line ..

    What I love about my past is that it has molded me into the person I am today. Without the hardship and pain that I went through I would have never opened my eyes to what I am able to see today. I take full responsibility for every choice I made in my life. I knew what I was...
    buggabooLOVE buggabooLOVE 18-21, F Jan 21, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Very Much So!

    My past was good and bad! the best thing from my past was haveing my childall the other things can go to hell.I am sweet, but my past also made me,the strong ***** I am today.
    angelwithoutwings angelwithoutwings 26-30, F Jun 16, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    It's leaning more towards hate atm because we all know I'd be happily asleep right now if I wasn't on my stupid *** phone being entertained by absolutely nothing but the blinding...
    musicforlife0321 musicforlife0321 18-21, F Jan 2

    Your Response

    Cancel
    the most annoying room to clean is always my room,but I love when it's clean haha
    TigerLilly925 TigerLilly925 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 19

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm on a 14 hour train/ bus ride with my 1 1/2 year old. I love my child but Jesus I feel like strangling her. I'm not sure that we will both survive this trip.
    StacyLorraine StacyLorraine 18-21, F 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I hat the App for EP. I constantly have have to check for messages. Well what messages? Lol but yeah urgggg
    Johnnymane Johnnymane 16-17, M Jan 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Running track made my legs so muscular but for some reason people always tell me that I have nice legs and they wish that they had legs like me lol
    amberloves16 amberloves16 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My relationship with my mom is... problematic, I'd say. We are in touch, however the best thing that ever happened to our relationship was distance. We love each other, but our...
    whatsername whatsername 22-25, F Jan 18

    Your Response

    Cancel
    When the mountains fallAnd the tempest roars You are with meWhen creation foldsStill my soul will soar on Your mercyI'll walk through the fireWith my head lifted highAnd my spirit...
    sunnycaramelo sunnycaramelo 46-50, F Jan 10

    Your Response

    Cancel
    well, me and my dad have always fought,and argued. the thing is my dad didn't leave my family hes not absuive hes not an alchoholic. hes really rude and mean and judge mental, as...
    Leahxox Leahxox 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Me: I know I irritated u quite a bit today but I was just eating a block of chocolate...(the top deck) and instead of thinking of the joke about So-d and I being like the Top-Deck...
    Tigercass Tigercass 22-25, F 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It's been this way for ten years now. He married my mom when I was five and has been unkind to me ever since he married her. I can't take it anymore, being disrespected. It...
    ningqin ningqin 13-15, F Jan 11

    Your Response

    Cancel
    yes.but how can i meet a man who wants and can have long distance relationships with me?? i know some interracial couples. they have met on instagram. i'm in Japan. it's impossible...
    juryandrews juryandrews 31-35, F 11 Responses Jan 17

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hello, I am new here. I had something happen to me that I have never seen before and just wanted to talk about. I was beginning to heal from it because of reading other people's...
    Fresh1414 Fresh1414 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Younger women dating older men mainly because younger women are attracted older men. older men mature, confident, stable .Mature guys always know how to treat their women.These...
    paulacc11 paulacc11 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 3

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Before I forget, I will write about this. I guess I have mentioned it already in an earlier bit under this heading, but it's become more poignant, I think, since then. Or...
    Lgl700 Lgl700 51-55, M 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Younger women dating older men mainly because younger women are attracted older men. older men mature, confident, stable .Mature guys always know how to treat their women.These...
    paulacc11 paulacc11 26-30, F Jan 3

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Younger women dating older men mainly because younger women are attracted older men. older men mature, confident, stable .Mature guys always know how to treat their women.These...
    paulacc11 paulacc11 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 3

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Younger women dating older men mainly because younger women are attracted older men. older men mature, confident, stable .Mature guys always know how to treat their women.These...
    vanessacc11 vanessacc11 26-30, F Jan 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Just some observations about Australian passengers compared with their European counterparts. Recently flew with Jetstar to Phuket from Melbourne. It was chockers and all Aussies...
    coolibaz coolibaz 61-65, M Jan 9

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Younger women dating older men mainly because younger women are attracted older men. older men mature, confident, stable .Mature guys always know how to treat their women.These...
    minniecc11 minniecc11 26-30, F Jan 15

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I would love to have an interracial with someone right now. I like men from different races. I want a relationship with a man different from my race.
    winnie19 winnie19 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I too was struggling in my relationship with GOD...after a truly awful 2014....my faith took a few hits.....I raged, and vented against GOD...wondering if HE was really there, and...
    sexygirl39 sexygirl39 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 7

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I've been in a relationship with my boyfriend for a month shy of 3 years. He is only in BT but before now the longest we've spent apart was three weeks and now I am looking at...
    Romero020212 Romero020212 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm technically not in a relationship with this person, but we talked almost every day for two months. We met on a dating site, so I only know his first name and a few other basic...
    worrier07 worrier07 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have been struggling with my relationship with God, because I want to know him before I can surrender myself to him. Last year a friend of mine who went to the same high school...
    Sara600 Sara600 56-60, F 1 Response Jan 7

    Your Response

    Cancel
    "I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too great a burden to bear." -MLK
    Spanishintuition Spanishintuition 46-50, M 3 Responses Jan 19

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I always have and will love to play with cute puppies for hours. I don't know I'm obcessed with puppies. They adore me and I love them
    alexanderpearce alexanderpearce 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 14

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Society has long become more open to the idea of older man - younger woman relationship and older woman - younger man relationship as well. Hollywood has brought in the practice of...
    sarahcc11 sarahcc11 26-30, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My 4 month affair ended suddenly when his wife discovered he had been chatting online with other people, mostly from Craigslist personals. I too found this out and confronted him...
    catsanddogs25 catsanddogs25 31-35, F Jan 13

    Your Response

    Cancel
    this police officer and me have known each other forever now. we weren't so close at the beginning when we first met, I was 7 years old and he was 40 years old. he was my dare...
    IrishGirl428 IrishGirl428 18-21, F Jan 20

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have a friend that I met on here last year... we don't talk so much lately... She's crazy-awesome... she loves like this... I have never asked her... but her life sure challenges...
    AlwaysPersevere71 AlwaysPersevere71 41-45, M 5 Responses a week ago