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I Have a Love-hate Relationship With My Past

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    Looking Back What I Would Change

    I am now 61 years old and look back and see a life filled with many wrong choises. Although I have make good choises the good ones seem to lie low to the choises that were just plane selfish. I look at others and can see where they stayed true to Jesus and now their life is...
    jewellory jewellory 61-65, F 1 Response Aug 22, 2012

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    Thin Line ..

    What I love about my past is that it has molded me into the person I am today. Without the hardship and pain that I went through I would have never opened my eyes to what I am able to see today. I take full responsibility for every choice I made in my life. I knew what I was...
    buggabooLOVE buggabooLOVE 18-21, F Jan 21, 2013

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    Wouldn't Change a Thing, But Wonder What If...

    I've collected a vast array of wild & exciting experiences from pursuing a "Living on the edge" lifestyle for most of my life. Sure there were bad times too, poor decisions, failed relationships, and my share of pain but it was all necessary for me to arrive...
    zillaron zillaron 51-55, M 2 Responses Jun 29, 2009

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    Yep, I Do

    When I look back at my past, the name of this group describes exactly how I feel about it. Looking behind at where I've come from shows me that I've come a very long way.  I've grown so much and I'm an entirely different and a much stronger person than who I was...
    yoyy yoyy 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 21, 2008

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    Yes.

    I love my past because it has taught me so much... about myself, about others, about life in general. As cliche of a phrase as it is, "My past has made me who I am today." And as horrible as I feel about myself much of the time, I know that I'm truly not too bad of a...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 21, 2008

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    I Have to Stop and Say. 'what In the H*ll Was I Thinking?"

    I am an avid believer that everything - EVERY thing and EVERY person comes into your life for a reason.  You need to learn a lesson. or they are setting you on your path, or they help to clarify something for you. I have had my really rough share of...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72 36-40, F Jan 6, 2009

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    BUT I Love Who It Made Me Turn Out to Be

    MANY HAVE BEEN THROUGH MUCH WORSE BUT I'VE HAD MY FAIR SHARE OF PHYSICAL, MENTAL, AND EMOTIONAL ABUSE IN MY LIFE... AND MY FAIR SHARE OF KNIVES DUG DEEP IN MY BACK TOO. I HATE THE PAIN THAT THE MEMORIES STILL BRING TO ME. I AM OVERLY EMOTIONAL AND FEEL THINGS TOO DEEPLY. THE...
    fukkboii fukkboii 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 23, 2008

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    ....

    its destroys me. but without it I wouldnt be the me being destroyed.   it defines me. it shapes me. probably more than it should. it makes me hurt so deeply. it makes me act out. it makes me desperate and lonely.   it also makes me understanding. compassionate...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Dec 21, 2008

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    Part Of The Story, Part I

    (Originally posted in the I AM INTROSPECTIVE group) First off, let me just say that I like being introspective. I like looking back on certain things and wondering what was my state of mind like or why did I make that decision or etc. It helps me understand ME and I use a lot of...
    ItsJustZ ItsJustZ 18-21, M Oct 20, 2012

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    Very Much So!

    My past was good and bad! the best thing from my past was haveing my childall the other things can go to hell.I am sweet, but my past also made me,the strong ***** I am today.
    angelwithoutwings angelwithoutwings 26-30, F Jun 16, 2011

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    L-H

    easy. love everything i've learn. hate everything that's happened. okay, so i may not hate everything, but if someone were to ask me about the most prominent things that happened it my past, the majority would be memories of things i hated. still hate. live and let live.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F Jan 26, 2009

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    Would I Change It?

    When asked if I would change my past, if I had the chance to, my knee-jerk answer is always "YES!". It's because of all the bad things and pain I had went through, in my life. And it's human to want to avoid pain.... But, when I really think about it, and not act on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 20, 2008

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    I Have Mixed Feelings About It All

    I don't know how I'd live without the stories it gave me to tell and gave me some good times, but I can hardly stand the thought of all the stuff I did and what it makes people think of me. It's one of the worst feelings when someone tells you that they're not aloud to even be...
    MyEmptyBones MyEmptyBones 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 21, 2008

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    Military Attatchment

    I'm a military brat. The longest I've ever stayed in one place is four years at a time, and it was only my last move that I actually got to spend time with peolpe who were not connected to military life. Because of all of the moving, I used to be really detatched, and it was...
    SacchrineSmile SacchrineSmile 16-17, F Apr 10, 2009

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    The Good and Bad

     i have some great memories,but also some very dark and terrible .and i wish i could say i only remember the good,but that would be a lie.i remember my dad`s drunken spells.and i remember my mom`s phycotic breaks.i remember having nowhere to turn,no one to trust.but it...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 Oct 6, 2009

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    Like Everyone

    If I could erase the pain I've already suffered and am still suffering right now, I might just because I long so much to be free. But it might not be a wise thing to do. You see, I've done a lot of stupid things in my life, and I hate them and long to take them back. But if I...
    JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente 18-21, F Jan 9, 2009

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    I Miss You

    How do you deal with situations where you just need closure... Need to share something? It can be difficult. I'll never forget that summer we met. I remember the very first time I saw you. I don't think I could ever forget. Your bad hair cut, navy ******** polo, brown pants and...
    29texasgirl19 29texasgirl19 22-25, F May 29, 2013

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    Learning to love my body has got to be the hardest task I have ever tried! Years of been told you are fat, years of been told you are horrible have taken their toll! I've cried a...
    Sandyshaw13 Sandyshaw13 36-40, F 4 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    I only love my body when I'm thinner. I know I'm beautiful, but when I'm overweight, I feel so ugly. I admire women that are overweight who can love their bodies. I hate fat...
    misslizziemae misslizziemae 22-25, F Apr 13

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    For as long as I can remember, I've been told I'm gorgeous. Not to brag or sound conceited, but I constantly get told by strangers on the street (kids, adults, men, women) that I'm...
    CaliLove87 CaliLove87 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 25

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    Don't all progressive people? I love a good deal, variety and convenience... but I hate what corporatism is doing to the world.
    utahwriter utahwriter 36-40, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Oreos and nutella, oreos and peanut butter, double-stuffed, regular, I just love a damn oreo. I don't know why, maybe because I ate them so much as a kid, there's just something...
    roMANtic14 roMANtic14 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    It's awesome b/c it has a wide variety of super cheap stuff, but it's a ***** to get in and out of quickly..And don't even get me started on when they change the floor layout and I...
    Vixen2010 Vixen2010 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    this seemed pretty random...lol i like this experience
    nessa4ever nessa4ever 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    My fairytale has no ending yet, because I am still living it every day, even though it's filled with drama and heartache. The Love of my Life is my best friend. I believe you have...
    bethrichards bethrichards 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    I think he hates me. He always puts me down no matter how hard I try to do the right thing. He won't look at me, he hardly acknowledges me at all. Love you too, dad. Ha.
    heybby heybby 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    I try, I really do. But every time I look at him all I see his anger, the same anger that was in his eye when he was beating me. When I see fathers in movie or in the street...
    AwkwardnessCentral AwkwardnessCentral 16-17, F Mar 25

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    My dad and I have always been the best of friends, partners in crime. Up until 2 or 3 years ago I started with my social anxiety I stopped hanging around my parents.. I've gotten...
    freeebird freeebird 18-21, F Mar 25

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    My mother and I grew apart after she had my sister which is only natural but the bridge grew and grew over the years. I was to fat, I liked weird things, I was stupid, dramatic, I...
    Cerci575 Cerci575 18-21, F Mar 25

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    Considering I am mixed race I love interracial relationships as I wouldn't be here without it :)
    kittensjpg kittensjpg 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    I am in a relationship with an amazing man! He is one of the most, loving, understanding, supportive, caring, sex men I know! I love him so much, & I consider myself to be one of...
    NYSlilAngel NYSlilAngel 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    ok so recently I've been wanting to have a cute relationship,to have someone,someone I can lean on. I'm a girl but there's this girl in school who's a really good friend to me,(she...
    recoverybemine recoverybemine 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Ending my relationship With a married man. Feel like I'm getting my life back, never knew he was married until 2 years in . I was in love and stupid by then. I have a strong...
    charlotte61 charlotte61 51-55, F Apr 5

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    I am not in one anymore, but I was. Me and my cousin David dated for 3 months. Our parents forced us to break up, but we did have love. Now it just feels like a bad joke, but it...
    ZC343454 ZC343454 18-21, M 6 days ago

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    Earlier in the day the Saturday, the one after Good Friday and before Easter Sunday, about 5 or so, I'd said to someone here, I'd better get going, because I have a feeling the...
    Lgl700 Lgl700 51-55, M 3 days ago

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    Several years ago, I was at a professional women's basketball game, and I noticed one of the assistant coaches. She really stood out as a phenomenal beauty, and I remember for the...
    Silenthawk Silenthawk 46-50, M 6 Responses Apr 1

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    i'd give up all i have just to be with you,i can give away my property and not only that i give each and everything which i have because your one of the most important person in my...
    Roadguy Roadguy 26-30, M Apr 6

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    It bothers me when people imply that you have to be the only person someone loves, or it's not good enough. My partner adores me, we would die for each other. We are committed for...
    softbunny6 softbunny6 26-30, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I know what's in the past should stay that way, but I have a hard time not thinking about my boyfriends sexual past. It was only a few girls, but one in particular I hate because...
    AjLeePunk AjLeePunk 22-25, F Apr 2

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    I know a lot of people dont believe in long distance relationships but I believe in them. I was in 2 long distance relationships in the past. One was for 3 years. And that ended...
    alaskanrose90 alaskanrose90 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    I love when I'm out and about and see interracial couples it literally makes me smile. The city I grew up in really never embraced interracial relationships so I always felt I had...
    daniellexoxo daniellexoxo 22-25, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I have a boyfriend and he's 4th year seminarian this coming June . We are already almost 10mos. in our relationship.We love,care and show respect to each other.We really find time...
    lhangen lhangen 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I am blessed beyond measures to have amazing and magnificent people as family. They are considerate, understanding, supportive and respectful towards me. I love them with all my...
    AloraAraceli AloraAraceli 18-21, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    Here's a confession- I've never been with anyone the same race as myself. I don't know why. It's not that I don't find white guys attractive or anything, but no white guy has...
    NekroNomikon NekroNomikon 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    I love people that are in interracial relationship, I can't help but feel warm and fuzzy inside when I see an interracial family… *happy sighs* one day😌
    ninzaxo ninzaxo 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 1

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    After living with both parents, due to them being divorced, I can finally tell you that the grass is never greener on the other side! I would attempt to fill you in on what us...
    SilverQuaid SilverQuaid 16-17 Apr 7

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    My boyfriend broke up with me today it was my fault I **** everything up I can't seem to be in a relationship for more then I year I feel so ******
    Jadeygirl88 Jadeygirl88 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 12

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    I think about it all the time... New friendships, friendships lost, past events, vacations, etc... So much to remember, yet I'm afraid to forget.
    SgrKtn420 SgrKtn420 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    I am in an interracial relationship as five of my sisters and many of my black girlfriends are. We all love white guys and want to have their babies so much.
    ebonynbill ebonynbill 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I actually met him online. He lived in Europe and I in the US. We fell madly in love, and were in a long distance relationship for 2.5 yrs before I finally was strong enough to...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 27

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    This is one of the stupidest groups on EP. Nearly all my relationships have been with people of different ethnicities than me. Where's my ******* medal?
    AnonymousMe7 AnonymousMe7 41-45, F 4 Responses Mar 31

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