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I Have a Love-hate Relationship With My Past

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    Thin Line ..

    What I love about my past is that it has molded me into the person I am today. Without the hardship and pain that I went through I would have never opened my eyes to what I am able to see today. I take full responsibility for every choice I made in my life. I knew what I was...
    buggabooLOVE buggabooLOVE 18-21, F Jan 21, 2013

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    BUT I Love Who It Made Me Turn Out to Be

    MANY HAVE BEEN THROUGH MUCH WORSE BUT I'VE HAD MY FAIR SHARE OF PHYSICAL, MENTAL, AND EMOTIONAL ABUSE IN MY LIFE... AND MY FAIR SHARE OF KNIVES DUG DEEP IN MY BACK TOO. I HATE THE PAIN THAT THE MEMORIES STILL BRING TO ME. I AM OVERLY EMOTIONAL AND FEEL THINGS TOO DEEPLY. THE...
    fukkboii fukkboii 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 23, 2008

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    Part Of The Story, Part I

    (Originally posted in the I AM INTROSPECTIVE group) First off, let me just say that I like being introspective. I like looking back on certain things and wondering what was my state of mind like or why did I make that decision or etc. It helps me understand ME and I use a lot of...
    ItsJustZ ItsJustZ 18-21, M Oct 20, 2012

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    Very Much So!

    My past was good and bad! the best thing from my past was haveing my childall the other things can go to hell.I am sweet, but my past also made me,the strong ***** I am today.
    angelwithoutwings angelwithoutwings 26-30, F Jun 16, 2011

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    Looking Back What I Would Change

    I am now 61 years old and look back and see a life filled with many wrong choises. Although I have make good choises the good ones seem to lie low to the choises that were just plane selfish. I look at others and can see where they stayed true to Jesus and now their life is...
    jewellory jewellory 61-65, F 1 Response Aug 22, 2012

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    L-H

    easy. love everything i've learn. hate everything that's happened. okay, so i may not hate everything, but if someone were to ask me about the most prominent things that happened it my past, the majority would be memories of things i hated. still hate. live and let live.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F Jan 26, 2009

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    ....

    its destroys me. but without it I wouldnt be the me being destroyed.   it defines me. it shapes me. probably more than it should. it makes me hurt so deeply. it makes me act out. it makes me desperate and lonely.   it also makes me understanding. compassionate...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Dec 21, 2008

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    Military Attatchment

    I'm a military brat. The longest I've ever stayed in one place is four years at a time, and it was only my last move that I actually got to spend time with peolpe who were not connected to military life. Because of all of the moving, I used to be really detatched, and it was...
    SacchrineSmile SacchrineSmile 16-17, F Apr 10, 2009

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    I Have Mixed Feelings About It All

    I don't know how I'd live without the stories it gave me to tell and gave me some good times, but I can hardly stand the thought of all the stuff I did and what it makes people think of me. It's one of the worst feelings when someone tells you that they're not aloud to even be...
    MyEmptyBones MyEmptyBones 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 21, 2008

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    The Good and Bad

     i have some great memories,but also some very dark and terrible .and i wish i could say i only remember the good,but that would be a lie.i remember my dad`s drunken spells.and i remember my mom`s phycotic breaks.i remember having nowhere to turn,no one to trust.but it...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 Oct 6, 2009

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    Yes.

    I love my past because it has taught me so much... about myself, about others, about life in general. As cliche of a phrase as it is, "My past has made me who I am today." And as horrible as I feel about myself much of the time, I know that I'm truly not too bad of a...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 21, 2008

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    I Have to Stop and Say. 'what In the H*ll Was I Thinking?"

    I am an avid believer that everything - EVERY thing and EVERY person comes into your life for a reason.  You need to learn a lesson. or they are setting you on your path, or they help to clarify something for you. I have had my really rough share of...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72 36-40, F Jan 6, 2009

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    I Miss You

    How do you deal with situations where you just need closure... Need to share something? It can be difficult. I'll never forget that summer we met. I remember the very first time I saw you. I don't think I could ever forget. Your bad hair cut, navy ******** polo, brown pants and...
    29texasgirl19 29texasgirl19 22-25, F May 29, 2013

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    Yep, I Do

    When I look back at my past, the name of this group describes exactly how I feel about it. Looking behind at where I've come from shows me that I've come a very long way.  I've grown so much and I'm an entirely different and a much stronger person than who I was...
    yoyy yoyy 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 21, 2008

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    Wouldn't Change a Thing, But Wonder What If...

    I've collected a vast array of wild & exciting experiences from pursuing a "Living on the edge" lifestyle for most of my life. Sure there were bad times too, poor decisions, failed relationships, and my share of pain but it was all necessary for me to arrive...
    zillaron zillaron 51-55, M 2 Responses Jun 29, 2009

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    Like Everyone

    If I could erase the pain I've already suffered and am still suffering right now, I might just because I long so much to be free. But it might not be a wise thing to do. You see, I've done a lot of stupid things in my life, and I hate them and long to take them back. But if I...
    JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente 18-21, F Jan 9, 2009

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    Would I Change It?

    When asked if I would change my past, if I had the chance to, my knee-jerk answer is always "YES!". It's because of all the bad things and pain I had went through, in my life. And it's human to want to avoid pain.... But, when I really think about it, and not act on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 20, 2008

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