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I Have a Love-hate Relationship With My Past

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 186 People

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    its destroys me. but without it I wouldnt be the me being destroyed.   it defines me. it shapes me. probably more than it should. it makes me hurt so deeply. it makes me act out. it makes me desperate and lonely.   it also makes me understanding. compassionate...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Dec 21, 2008

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    I Miss You

    How do you deal with situations where you just need closure... Need to share something? It can be difficult. I'll never forget that summer we met. I remember the very first time I saw you. I don't think I could ever forget. Your bad hair cut, navy ******** polo, brown pants and...
    29texasgirl19 29texasgirl19 22-25, F May 29, 2013

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    Would I Change It?

    When asked if I would change my past, if I had the chance to, my knee-jerk answer is always "YES!". It's because of all the bad things and pain I had went through, in my life. And it's human to want to avoid pain.... But, when I really think about it, and not act on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 20, 2008

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    Yes.

    I love my past because it has taught me so much... about myself, about others, about life in general. As cliche of a phrase as it is, "My past has made me who I am today." And as horrible as I feel about myself much of the time, I know that I'm truly not too bad of a...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 21, 2008

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    Looking Back What I Would Change

    I am now 61 years old and look back and see a life filled with many wrong choises. Although I have make good choises the good ones seem to lie low to the choises that were just plane selfish. I look at others and can see where they stayed true to Jesus and now their life is...
    jewellory jewellory 61-65, F 1 Response Aug 22, 2012

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    Wouldn't Change a Thing, But Wonder What If...

    I've collected a vast array of wild & exciting experiences from pursuing a "Living on the edge" lifestyle for most of my life. Sure there were bad times too, poor decisions, failed relationships, and my share of pain but it was all necessary for me to arrive...
    zillaron zillaron 51-55, M 2 Responses Jun 29, 2009

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    Thin Line ..

    What I love about my past is that it has molded me into the person I am today. Without the hardship and pain that I went through I would have never opened my eyes to what I am able to see today. I take full responsibility for every choice I made in my life. I knew what I was...
    buggabooLOVE buggabooLOVE 18-21, F Jan 21, 2013

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    L-H

    easy. love everything i've learn. hate everything that's happened. okay, so i may not hate everything, but if someone were to ask me about the most prominent things that happened it my past, the majority would be memories of things i hated. still hate. live and let live.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F Jan 26, 2009

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    The Good and Bad

     i have some great memories,but also some very dark and terrible .and i wish i could say i only remember the good,but that would be a lie.i remember my dad`s drunken spells.and i remember my mom`s phycotic breaks.i remember having nowhere to turn,no one to trust.but it...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 Oct 6, 2009

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    Military Attatchment

    I'm a military brat. The longest I've ever stayed in one place is four years at a time, and it was only my last move that I actually got to spend time with peolpe who were not connected to military life. Because of all of the moving, I used to be really detatched, and it was...
    SacchrineSmile SacchrineSmile 16-17, F Apr 10, 2009

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    Yep, I Do

    When I look back at my past, the name of this group describes exactly how I feel about it. Looking behind at where I've come from shows me that I've come a very long way.  I've grown so much and I'm an entirely different and a much stronger person than who I was...
    yoyy yoyy 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 21, 2008

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    I Have Mixed Feelings About It All

    I don't know how I'd live without the stories it gave me to tell and gave me some good times, but I can hardly stand the thought of all the stuff I did and what it makes people think of me. It's one of the worst feelings when someone tells you that they're not aloud to even be...
    MyEmptyBones MyEmptyBones 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 21, 2008

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    Part Of The Story, Part I

    (Originally posted in the I AM INTROSPECTIVE group) First off, let me just say that I like being introspective. I like looking back on certain things and wondering what was my state of mind like or why did I make that decision or etc. It helps me understand ME and I use a lot of...
    ItsJustZ ItsJustZ 18-21, M Oct 20, 2012

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    I Have to Stop and Say. 'what In the H*ll Was I Thinking?"

    I am an avid believer that everything - EVERY thing and EVERY person comes into your life for a reason.  You need to learn a lesson. or they are setting you on your path, or they help to clarify something for you. I have had my really rough share of...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72 36-40, F Jan 6, 2009

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    Very Much So!

    My past was good and bad! the best thing from my past was haveing my childall the other things can go to hell.I am sweet, but my past also made me,the strong ***** I am today.
    angelwithoutwings angelwithoutwings 26-30, F Jun 16, 2011

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    Like Everyone

    If I could erase the pain I've already suffered and am still suffering right now, I might just because I long so much to be free. But it might not be a wise thing to do. You see, I've done a lot of stupid things in my life, and I hate them and long to take them back. But if I...
    JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente 18-21, F Jan 9, 2009

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    Did that on holiday with my new husband when first married. We were walking by the sea and the evening was hot. I wanted to swim up we haven't got any swimming costumes with us so...
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    I Refer To My Depression As If It Were An Intimate Friend She, (because it must be a "she," for who else could hold such a constant draw on me for the last thirty years,) is a...
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    I am officially in an open relationship. I'm both excited and nervous as hell.
    ErraticallyGrey ErraticallyGrey 22-25, F 20 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    To my father, my abuser for 25 years: I am writing to inform you that I know exactly who and what you are. Additionally, despite your many years of bullying & brainwashing...
    wowodeals wowodeals 26-30, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    I was freaking out when I saw a claw machine in the mall with a ipad mini in it. I tried it like 2 or 3 times but it's almost impossible to get it. The prizes are suspended by zip...
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    I'm larger at the bottom than I am at the top (meaning I barely have boobs but my butt is the size of a Thanksgiving turkey). The rest of my family is the opposite with huge boobs...
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    Truthfully I have never been in an interracial relationship but I love seeing a happy couple this is interracial!! I have thought about dating outside of my race. I think it would...
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    We knew (and secretly liked) each other for four years before we started talking every day and realized that our friendship was more than that. We are (still) so in love. I love...
    HardlySherlock HardlySherlock 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I don`t know what I`m going to say,but I had an argue with my parents just a minute ago.I didn`t like to write that down in my notebook diary cause I was afraid someone would read...
    kianamk kianamk 13-15 3 days ago

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    yea i love to get my hair played and also love to play with someone hair,someone some woman or girl lol
    boobilicious4you boobilicious4you 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    Im just a normal bi guy whos just now discovering furries and i want to have a gay experience with somebody
    Rogue2224 Rogue2224 22-25, M 4 days ago

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    Hey guys. I've posted here in the past because my boyfriend and I were considering an open relationship. Well now we're actually going through with it. We're coming up with rules...
    ErraticallyGrey ErraticallyGrey 22-25, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I am considering an open relationship because I don't think my bf and I are sexually compatable but we love each other very much. After 3 years I realized that he is more about...
    meow1085 meow1085 26-30, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    In a new relationship with a solider who has been deployed for 6months, this will be our first deployment together And currently a week into the deployment. Don't have much of a...
    rosierosa rosierosa 22-25, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    I am interested in dating a man outside of my race. Although the opposite attracts. I am a African Americans/ Indian female and I love myself. 5ft.7in. I am beautiful on the inside...
    Parislee Parislee 36-40, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I adore white men.. but I can only deal with the ones who have an appreciation for black women... on a deeper level. Not the ones who only fantasize about intimacy..
    HazelBliss85 HazelBliss85 26-30, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    If someone would love me then definitely I'd love her back more than my life but it must be real love not just attraction or lie..,
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    We used to be best friends and talk about everything and tell one another everything with out judging, now it's not like that anymore. We have faded slowly and it sucks so bad cuz...
    LuvLostSoul LuvLostSoul 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    These are real thoughts/quotes/things that happened during my work days. Yes mam I understand what you want, I'm just unable to provide that service. Stop b**ching at me I'm...
    DreamlessDesire DreamlessDesire 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Personally, I love interracial relationships. How do you feel about them? Tomorrow, my blog will list positive stuff about #interraciallove , so let's talk about the dark side of...
    RedDotLove RedDotLove 31-35, M 6 days ago

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    I never knew that who I cared about so much was really just a sad sack of ****. We became friends, and then we were both at a point in our lives to begin to date. I had kept my...
    heyashree heyashree 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Don't do that, unless they'll give up all they have just to be with you.
    lifealwayschanges lifealwayschanges 41-45, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    And that's EXACTLY what I'm doing. My cat comes with me... But all my silly material possessions... Gotta go. I need to get unshackled from my presence in this area and flock to...
    prettyprude prettyprude 31-35, F a week ago

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    I know I've already posted about this but it seems to be getting worse. Tonight we got in the shower and i pulled him to start making out with him to lead to other things..you know...
    RavinFury RavinFury 18-21, F Jun 24

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    I first met him at a street crossing, we were both on bikes going to the same direction to work. At the time he worked with my little sister at McDonald's while I worked as an...
    LeeWalker06 LeeWalker06 18-21, F Jun 23

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    I had another dream last night where I was being intimate with a beautiful dark skinned black girl. My feelings for her were like nothing I've ever felt before. I wish that was my...
    NJguitarist NJguitarist 41-45, M 2 Responses Jun 23

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