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I Have a Love-hate Relationship With My Past

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 189 People

    L-H

    easy. love everything i've learn. hate everything that's happened. okay, so i may not hate everything, but if someone were to ask me about the most prominent things that happened it my past, the majority would be memories of things i hated. still hate. live and let live.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F Jan 26, 2009

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    Would I Change It?

    When asked if I would change my past, if I had the chance to, my knee-jerk answer is always "YES!". It's because of all the bad things and pain I had went through, in my life. And it's human to want to avoid pain.... But, when I really think about it, and not act on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Dec 20, 2008

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    Wouldn't Change a Thing, But Wonder What If...

    I've collected a vast array of wild & exciting experiences from pursuing a "Living on the edge" lifestyle for most of my life. Sure there were bad times too, poor decisions, failed relationships, and my share of pain but it was all necessary for me to arrive...
    zillaron zillaron 51-55, M 2 Responses Jun 29, 2009

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    Part Of The Story, Part I

    (Originally posted in the I AM INTROSPECTIVE group) First off, let me just say that I like being introspective. I like looking back on certain things and wondering what was my state of mind like or why did I make that decision or etc. It helps me understand ME and I use a lot of...
    ItsJustZ ItsJustZ 18-21, M Oct 20, 2012

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    I Have to Stop and Say. 'what In the H*ll Was I Thinking?"

    I am an avid believer that everything - EVERY thing and EVERY person comes into your life for a reason.  You need to learn a lesson. or they are setting you on your path, or they help to clarify something for you. I have had my really rough share of...
    MizzBlue72 MizzBlue72 36-40, F Jan 6, 2009

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    Like Everyone

    If I could erase the pain I've already suffered and am still suffering right now, I might just because I long so much to be free. But it might not be a wise thing to do. You see, I've done a lot of stupid things in my life, and I hate them and long to take them back. But if I...
    JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente 18-21, F Jan 9, 2009

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    Very Much So!

    My past was good and bad! the best thing from my past was haveing my childall the other things can go to hell.I am sweet, but my past also made me,the strong ***** I am today.
    angelwithoutwings angelwithoutwings 26-30, F Jun 16, 2011

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    Thin Line ..

    What I love about my past is that it has molded me into the person I am today. Without the hardship and pain that I went through I would have never opened my eyes to what I am able to see today. I take full responsibility for every choice I made in my life. I knew what I was...
    buggabooLOVE buggabooLOVE 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 21, 2013

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    I Have Mixed Feelings About It All

    I don't know how I'd live without the stories it gave me to tell and gave me some good times, but I can hardly stand the thought of all the stuff I did and what it makes people think of me. It's one of the worst feelings when someone tells you that they're not aloud to even be...
    MyEmptyBones MyEmptyBones 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 21, 2008

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    Yep, I Do

    When I look back at my past, the name of this group describes exactly how I feel about it. Looking behind at where I've come from shows me that I've come a very long way.  I've grown so much and I'm an entirely different and a much stronger person than who I was...
    yoyy yoyy 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 21, 2008

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    The Good and Bad

     i have some great memories,but also some very dark and terrible .and i wish i could say i only remember the good,but that would be a lie.i remember my dad`s drunken spells.and i remember my mom`s phycotic breaks.i remember having nowhere to turn,no one to trust.but it...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 Oct 6, 2009

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    Yes.

    I love my past because it has taught me so much... about myself, about others, about life in general. As cliche of a phrase as it is, "My past has made me who I am today." And as horrible as I feel about myself much of the time, I know that I'm truly not too bad of a...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax 18-21, F 6 Responses Dec 21, 2008

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    Military Attatchment

    I'm a military brat. The longest I've ever stayed in one place is four years at a time, and it was only my last move that I actually got to spend time with peolpe who were not connected to military life. Because of all of the moving, I used to be really detatched, and it was...
    SacchrineSmile SacchrineSmile 16-17, F Apr 10, 2009

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    I Miss You

    How do you deal with situations where you just need closure... Need to share something? It can be difficult. I'll never forget that summer we met. I remember the very first time I saw you. I don't think I could ever forget. Your bad hair cut, navy ******** polo, brown pants and...
    29texasgirl19 29texasgirl19 22-25, F May 29, 2013

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    ....

    its destroys me. but without it I wouldnt be the me being destroyed.   it defines me. it shapes me. probably more than it should. it makes me hurt so deeply. it makes me act out. it makes me desperate and lonely.   it also makes me understanding. compassionate...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Dec 21, 2008

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    Looking Back What I Would Change

    I am now 61 years old and look back and see a life filled with many wrong choises. Although I have make good choises the good ones seem to lie low to the choises that were just plane selfish. I look at others and can see where they stayed true to Jesus and now their life is...
    jewellory jewellory 61-65, F 1 Response Aug 22, 2012

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    He was a physical and emotional abuser of my mom, me & Siblings, I don't know how my mom married this stupid guy.... !!! But to be honest he changed my life to choose right path...
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    I love a man with a hairy chest. There is nothing sexier to me than a manly rugged man who looks like a real man. A hairy chest is so masculine and sexy.
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    I started school and normally I get s text saying have a good first day of school but I didn't and I'm breaking down like a little ****! I lost it today so bad! he can't just...
    steal11 steal11 18-21, F 12 hrs ago

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    "Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts"(Psalm 95: 9).This word can be said at all times of life, even to the old Sunset, because repentance does not require...
    lamlom lamlom 56-60, M 12 hrs ago

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    I met this really tall guy who was a friend of my friend. This guy and I stayed at my friend's house when my friend and my brother went to go pizza. He and I talked for two hours...
    lucretiainthenight lucretiainthenight 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Almost every night now for the past months. I guess its hard to accept some things eventually ends.
    thelastgoodbye thelastgoodbye 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    My mother was and is a terrible mother to me. I am 29 years old, live in a third world country and was blessed to be born in a well off family. In a nutshell, when I was born my...
    gsamsa gsamsa 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    http://youtu.be/GAstxqgkzZc Ladies watch this video its called "Military Love" it'll make ya'lls day knowing that we really are being appreciated and men do notice all the...
    abbyrodriguez abbyrodriguez 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    After going through a lot of bad experiences with "love" I come to think that love is just an illusion. You can disagree with me all you want, but is not going to change my mind...
    Twilight333 Twilight333 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Over many years I have gained some valuable information. It doesn't matter of how you look like to people, just to you. That might seem kinda hard because everyone's opinion...
    DavidHamilton1 DavidHamilton1 16-17, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    growing up me and my dad would love to watch movies and hang out but over the years he got to busy and would only talk to me when he wanted to yell so now I can't stand him
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 days ago

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    I like interracial relationship, but when it comes to black women I don't think America is the best place for you.Foreign men overseas are bold and more open and welcoming to race...
    cherrycokes cherrycokes 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    me and my boyfriend have been together for almost 2 years now and this is the first day with out him.. I feel horrible since I'm so used to him already I cried so much because I...
    etrigo etrigo 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    So I messaged a random number thinking it was someone I knew... Turns out it was a random "22" year old... But I didn't know this at the time... All I knew is that he was kinda...
    ImBatmanShhh ImBatmanShhh 16-17, T a week ago

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    Sometimes my parents do and say things that make me feel like I'm 10 years old and I'm clearly not I'm fricken 23 and have the brain of an 80 year old. The dumb things they say and...
    jhns1029 jhns1029 22-25, M a week ago

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    Just thinking about it makes me sick. I am not willing to put in the effort or talk on the phone for long hours, because I think I have alot going on in my life that's waaay more...
    SandyProwess SandyProwess 16-17, F a week ago

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    I love any kind of bread. Even ones I haven't tried. Toasted... With butter... So many varieties. And I can't forget a little thick sweetness in the form of jam, jelly, or preserve...
    RealmRunner RealmRunner 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    You guys know I'm in a relationship with my boss.I'm gonna tell you how it all started.Me and my friends have lunch together and he often shows up.He often asks us what are you...
    ishita004 ishita004 26-30, F 5 Responses Aug 23

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    I'm asian. Filipino guy. And I have never been attracted to my fellow countrymen than I am to foreign ones, especially if they were American or European. I don't know why though...
    LeoNyxus LeoNyxus 18-21, M Aug 23

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    it's deeply frustrating trying to find a guy to fool around with, but they all want to hide **** from their girlfriend. what ever happened to honesty?
    dontneed2know dontneed2know 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 23

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    I just wish he cared. I just wish my mom didn't have to put up with so much crap. I wish there was somebody to take care of us in our bad times. After my parents divorced, he...
    Demonizer Demonizer 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 22

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    I've been in a FWB relationship w/ this guy for over 5yrs. We both are in a relationship yet still get it on monthly. I even had his kid. He hasn't met his daughter who is now 4...
    Ariesgirl81 Ariesgirl81 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    I think they're cool. I think you need to tell them up front as soon as it happens, maybe they don't know. Maybe an old timey slap in the face for the real jerks. But I don't...
    Denzebarrrn Denzebarrrn 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    My mom is a control freak, my dad is always screaming and in a bad mood, I feel like I'm suffocating every time i walk in this house. The mere thought of them depresses me. My mom...
    imnotarobot98 imnotarobot98 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 20

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    i have an open relationship. i feel bad for my hubby all the people he has talked to are either cheating, only interested in me and the females think he is a lieing bastard even...
    brudeofthemonster brudeofthemonster 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    I used to have a great relationship with my father he was an alcoholic but he wasn't mean. after I moved away from home he found Christ which is wonderful but it changed him and so...
    shawncie shawncie 46-50, F 1 Response Aug 18

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