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I Have a Mental Illness

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    So I went to the elementary school with my

    sister, her boyfriend, and my nephew for a movie event. My Tourettes was acting up while I was there to the point I had a tic where my arm jerks and hit someone. It's difficult being in public places because of it. I realized it's best that I actually look into getting a...
    MlNUET MlNUET 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 12

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    Lasbutterfly Lasbutterfly 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    I hurt myself for the first time in over 2

    years. I thought I was doing really well with it, but everything just came crumbling over the smallest of things...and I couldn't stay strong. I don't feel strong right now. All I have are scars and weakness
    rorenchan rorenchan 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 12

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    I've been in hospital

    for over a year now for anorexia (though the last six months have just been daycare). I'm getting discharged in two weeks. But I'm noticing already that I'm restricting by telling myself that I don't 'need' to eat all my prescribed calorie intake and the compulsion to exercise...
    sunshinehannah sunshinehannah 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 4

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    With Wings is a group on Facebook

    which offers help and support for those who need it. It is a safe space for members to come together, make friends and help others as well as themselves. If you suffer from a mental illness, self harm or have an eating disorder then this is a place for you to come and be...
    withwingsgroup withwingsgroup 18-21, F Dec 11

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    I Suffer From Severe Depression And Ptsd

    I was first hospitalized for suicidal behavior at age 13. I was then diagnosed with severe depression and PTSD or post traumatic stress disorder. It's completely ruined my life! I am afraid to be close to anyone, and I can't stop being scared no matter how hard I...
    college101 college101 31-35, F 11 Responses Oct 24, 2009

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    Do you ever get so upset

    and hyped up that you feel like you could literally snap and "accidentally" stab or throw yourself off the balcony without realising you were doing it??
    neelyon neelyon 18-21, F Nov 29

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    I have bipolar disorder

    and live in fear of the psych ward.
    crossproduct crossproduct 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 10

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    Say Hello To My Little Friend.

    WHY DEPRESSION IS THE SUCKIEST ACQUAINTANCE OF ALL TIME. I have a friend. Well, he’s not a friend exactly. More of an unruly houseguest who always overstays his welcome. Never announces he’s coming. Always leaves the place a mess. His name is depression, & he’s a pain in...
    blehtolife blehtolife 22-25, F 19 Responses Mar 25, 2012

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    Paranoid schizophrenia.

    Had it for a long time now. I don't like it when some people pretend they have it just to get sympathy or sound cool, schizophrenia is terrifying sometimes. But at the same time I do believe I sometimes see, notice or hear important things other people can't. My therapist treats...
    Roslein Roslein 18-21, F 9 Responses Jul 4

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    princesskarin princesskarin 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 11

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    I've been diagnosed with BPD

    and I feel like there's so much going on in my head... I think I'm a compulsive liar too. I don't feel bad about lying to people at all and half the time I don't even realize I'm doing it until after the fact. And it's like I'm proud of it...I know I'm a good liar and its...
    Brynn8 Brynn8 18-21, F Nov 12

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      Im feeling lost in my own emotion Held

    prisoner causing all commotion I’m wound up like a hurricane With shreds of thoughts that are causing pain I try so hard to calm things down Instead to be pulled deeper, drown. I’m a puppet controlled by unseen forces That are refusing to let me change my courses. I see my...
    cme4u cme4u 22-25, F Nov 12

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    I have struggled for years with depression,

    anxiety, and PTSD, all of which led to my struggle with self harm. I have done a lot of work over the years to develop coping skills and crisis management plans for when I have the urge to cut, and it has all paid off. Today is my three year mark of no self harm.
    katnoelle14 katnoelle14 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 2

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    What makes me really upset

    and angry is when people make fun of mental ilness'. Poeple dont just randomly choose to feel like that, for attention or whatever reason some of ye think, they have no control over it happening to them.. I wouldnt wish it on a single person but dont dare ever judge something...
    amyslatts amyslatts 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 27

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    i dont know whether to be ashamed i have mental

    ollness or whether to be angry at myself for messing up my life because of it
    msworstlife msworstlife 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 5

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    I hate to say it, but I think I'm a borderline

    sociopath. I have very little empathy for others, and what little I do have I think is dumb most of the time. I hate being so... Hateful. I seriously try to be nice.... I do. But I just want to shout my true feelings every now and then..... Suck it up. You don't know what real...
    KingApathy KingApathy 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 10

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    I feel I'm going a little crazy again,

    I feel I don't know what to do with myself, who to turn to or where to even go. I have felt okay these past few months but something has come over me this last week. I've fell into the trap of wanting the person I know I haven't got around me to be around me and this time the...
    ExPButterfly ExPButterfly 16-17, F Dec 12

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    I Have Bipolar Disorder.

    This is something that I find not easy to talk or write about. Society in general tends to see mental illness as different to other physical illnesses. We all know of the remarks; kids grow up with them; looney, mad, crazy. An illness of the brain is seen as different to an...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Sep 23, 2013

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    I suffer from anxiety

    and depression . I posted this to let everyone know that there not alone !
    adaytothehorizon adaytothehorizon 16-17, F 2 Responses May 15

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    Your lack of compassion drives me to the edge

    of insanity.. You are my mental disorder
    rachelbeth6 rachelbeth6 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 5

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    It's so weird being in a psychology class

    and thinking I have "yep I have that" every time a new disorder is named, but it also helps you understand why you have those conditions it opens your mind to more than the words "you are depressed" you are now playing the psychiatrist and evaluating yourself figuring out why...
    nottheaveragegirl nottheaveragegirl 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 14

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    i dont know but i just dont think rght.

    i do stupid things. i believe things that arent really happening. i have always been an idiot in my thinking i dont know why. is it because i lack knowledge. or i wasnt raised right. im stupid enough to ruin my face. because i thought i could do self surgery. im stupid enough to...
    msworstlife msworstlife 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 25

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    Having A Mental Illness Is A Very Lonely Existance

    It is very hard to live a normal life with mental disabilites, and especially hard to make friends with them. I have bipolar, anxiety, post traumatic stress, borderline personality, dermatillomania, and fear of abandonment. Oh, I know how I developed these issues. I had a...
    iskykabibblez iskykabibblez 41-45, F 7 Responses Mar 20, 2012

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    People think I'm a freak.

    I've lost friends and I can't make new ones. I don't know what to do anymore. I wish I could go back a year before meds and therapy. Just let Emerald live all the time. :'(
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 27

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    What I hate most are the people

    who don't even have the disorder/illness/disease whatever you want to call it and they try to take over and tell you what to do. Like no, back up. If you don't have it, how should you know what I'm going through. Autism, A.D.H.D, Narcolepsy, Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, you don't...
    usmcdaughter usmcdaughter 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 1

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    i have MPD/DID... there are 8 personalities in

    my head.. i'm fine with it.. but everyone else thinks i'm crazy.. its hard to do mundane things like school.. i'm not allowed to drive until 6 months after my last blackout.. i have blackouts daily.. sometimes i don't wake up for a few days... i just ... become someone else for...
    nekkie nekkie 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 16

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    I'm diagnosed with Borderline Personality

    Disorder & Bipolar disorder. Does anyone else ever feel like they have MORE than what they're diagnosed with? At times, I feel like I do...& like my life is constantly spiraling, because of my recent choices. It amazes (not in a good way) me how it's like I've gone from being...
    psychoticepisode psychoticepisode 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 8

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    Just take the world day by day

    so it doesnt seem to overwhelm you or make seem like its so big of a world that cannot handle living in. If you take it day by day life will be more easier...
    lenee323 lenee323 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 6

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    On The Borderline...

    A few years ago, I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder.. I had never heard of it.. On the border of what? Sanity and batshit crazy? Probably. but it was a relief to finally have a "name" for the emotional roller coaster is been on for so long. Imagine the emotions...
    SweetGG SweetGG 26-30, F 7 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    It's like I have two sides.

    One side isn't really confident, but fine with people not liking her. The other is full of depression and anxiety ridden; unable to even speak to others. Sometimes it's easy to pull up the first one, other times clawing to surface is damn near impossible. I always pay for...
    HarleyQuinn326 HarleyQuinn326 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 29

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    This is my testimony of having a mental illness

    - obsessive compulsive disorder. It does get better, I promise you that! Well I might as well start at the beginning, growing up I was always shy but being an introvert never stopped me from running the roads all the or being involved in activities like soccer, dance, baton, I...
    chelseystorys chelseystorys 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 16

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    I'm not really sure that what I have can be

    classified under anything specific.. I have 26 (and counting) voices in my head...? I mean, they all have there stories and personalities and they treat me as part of their little family. My "father" Maxwell is rich but he's really funny and silly like a child but still really...
    HaHaHarleyQuinn HaHaHarleyQuinn 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    I can't do this anymore.

    I'm tired of being lonely. I'm tired of being rejected. Why didn't my suicide attempts work when I was younger? I thought I was supposed to be here for something. Apparently I'm not. I long for the day I don't wake up. May it come sooner rather than later.
    dexter450 dexter450 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 10

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    When the Japanese mend broken objects,

    they aggrandize the damage by filling the cracks with gold. They believe that when's something's suffered damage and has a history it becomes more beautiful" Barbara Bloom
    SsMcGavin SsMcGavin 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 6

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    I Have Bipolar

    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, last year while travelling abroad. My episodes are very manic followed by depression once my medication (Lithium and Olanazepine) have stabilised me. Being ill in a psychiatric hospital in a foreign country made it even more traumatic...
    crazyone crazyone 21-25, F 12 Responses Jul 20, 2006

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    An emotionless void. Endless pain.

    Doubt. Fear. Misery. Insecurity. These have been my constant companions for so much of my life. Joy. Happiness. Love. Laughter. What are those? Fake it until you make it. My attempts to go through the motions have met in seeming failure. I feel like a fake, a flake, a shell of a...
    dawnzerleelight dawnzerleelight 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 11

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    Aspergers

    If I showed you the real me would it still be the same? Explained Ive got a gun, but I've got no aim? No violence or love, just my conscience as a token. That its not my fault my compass is broken. I cant feel what you feel, but why cant I pretend? I know that I would...
    ShadowAce7125 ShadowAce7125 22-25, M 6 Responses Nov 5, 2009

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    I have an anxiety disorder called GAD

    (generalized anxiety disorder) and I think I might be bipolar because one minute I'm good and fine then when traumatic things come up I start feeling depressed like crazy I have been like since I was in my early to mid teens
    sidney2013 sidney2013 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 4

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    I have OCD, AvPD, PAPD,

    and chronic depression
    amaui1 amaui1 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    I feel that I am suffering from paranoia.

    I always imagine my friends talking **** about me behind my back or think that the whole world is against me.That kind of thing kills me and I can do nothing about it.My big problem is in my head but I can't seem to solve it.
    Namidanoregret Namidanoregret 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    My Story Of Schizophrenia And Bullimia

    I grew up as a really happy, outgoing child. Nothing ever really had seemed to bother me. I had a great imagination and always used to make people laugh. As the years went by my family started to fall apart, I had lost two siblings in a matter of 8months which sent my mother and...
    Skye90 Skye90 22-25, F 12 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    Trauma Recovery Is Scary!

    I am not one to say, "why me?!" People have had it a lot worse than I have in life. As I get older, I'm finding that therapy just isn't enough. My rage is accelerating at the injustices done to me and done to other children and women. I fear that I will take my own life in...
    Georgie1962 Georgie1962 51-55, F 3 Responses Aug 25, 2013

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    I have recently been diagnosed manic depressive,

    bipolar, and split personality. I'm overwhelmed and don't know what to do. I would like to talk with some people who experience these same illness and do not take meds and people that do take meds (what kinds and our side effects you have personally experienced). I'm trying to...
    Gothika88 Gothika88 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 12

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    I'm not getting the help I need.

    I'm stuck in the same spot I've been in for 3 months. Being stagnant is not human - we are made to change & adapt. I have a limited time on this planet, & I want to experience everything awe inspiring about it. Being trapped in my own mind redefined the word 'prison'.
    lindsaymaegan lindsaymaegan 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 15

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    I have an array of mental illnesses,

    such as schizophrenia, dissociative identity disorder, OCD, anxiety, autism, etc. Sometimes it's hard to live, but I've learned to cope with these many thoughts swirling around in my head.
    CaliginousHeart CaliginousHeart 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 3

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    I have Adjustment Disorder with mixed anxiety

    and disorder, and yes I was diagnosed with it, not self-diagnosed. I feel depressed most of the times, I always get butterflies in my stomach for no reason, my throat gets really dry, and my hands are clammy all the time. I also get red in the face. I have a bunch of friends...
    xMikayla xMikayla 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 23

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    its very difficult just to cope with my own

    mind. i have to be super in tune to look after my health or else i go nuts and irrational doing inappropriate stuff ( apparently ,i think its fine but guess its not)
    catnip246 catnip246 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 29

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    I suffer severely with mental problems,

    I have so many cos of some ****** up things that have happened, plus I was never a "normal kid" anyway. I hate it, I can't make friends cos when they be kind I think they are working to hurt me so I hit or cut them and say I will kill them cos I would because they shouldn't work...
    kyleishurt kyleishurt 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 24

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    Tightness crushes my chest,

    And I can't breath, The only time I can escape, Is when I fall asleep. I fear the walls are closing in, Our time is passing by too slow, Or sometimes it feels as if there's nowhere to go. From high to low, And anxious to calm, From one pole to another, And trying to survive...
    Audrina14 Audrina14 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 17

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    I want to start by saying

    that the people who think mental illnesses dont exist are ignorant and lucky because they cant even understand what its like. Anyway, i have serious anxiety that has lead to stomach ulcers. I have depression, panic (attack) disorder, and what my doctors have labeled as "early...
    Ellameno Ellameno 18-21, F 3 Responses May 24

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