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I Have a Mental Illness

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    Another brief mental hospital story: During my

    initial evaluation upon entering the enchanted kingdom for the third time, I told the doctor that I have a reasonable grasp of self-knowledge. His reaction? "Oh bullshit!" Or something to that effect. I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder (a BS diagnosis, vindicated by...
    DanteBlake23 DanteBlake23 36-40, M Jul 30

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    I Have Bipolar

    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, last year while travelling abroad. My episodes are very manic followed by depression once my medication (Lithium and Olanazepine) have stabilised me. Being ill in a psychiatric hospital in a foreign country made it even more traumatic...
    crazyone crazyone 18-21, F 11 Responses Jul 20, 2006

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    I suffer from clinophobia

    or Hypnophobia. It's a constant fear of falling asleep due to various reasons, like nightmares, night terrors or sleep paralysis, to name my reasons. I am in therapy for 5 years now. Treatment is progressing slowly. The worst of that stupid condition is, it changes you. you get...
    Kettunainen Kettunainen 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I use to think it was OK

    for me to want someone to love me with the intensity I felt I might be able to love. I wanted to be the center of their world. Have them worship the ground I walked on. Love me so much that it hurt. Just absorb me into them and wear me like there favorite outfit. I've come to...
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 24

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    sarahbear420 sarahbear420 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 26

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    I have struggled for years with depression,

    anxiety, and PTSD, all of which led to my struggle with self harm. I have done a lot of work over the years to develop coping skills and crisis management plans for when I have the urge to cut, and it has all paid off. Today is my three year mark of no self harm.
    katnoelle14 katnoelle14 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 2, 2014

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    I have at least four,

    diagnosed. Depression, anxiety, OCD, PTSD... And possible bipolar disorder. - "Mental illnesses. They are no less real than physical illnesses, and often *MORE* debilitating. No, I cannot "get over" my depression. I will not "learn to be better" if you practice tough love. I am...
    iFortiTude iFortiTude 31-35 1 Response Feb 18

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    I am beginning to not worry

    as much about it. I guess you could say I choice not to treat it. I have borderline personality disorder. It ******* sucks because well, I just feel mentally exhausted the majority of the time but sometimes when I inhale I can actually smell the air instead of constantly...
    ashless ashless 22-25, F 3 Responses May 13

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    I have been dealing with severe depression

    since I was in high school, which was years and years ago. Didnt think much of it, got some therapy once in a while and that was that. All came to a head a few months ago when I tried to kill myself. Am now finally on medication that helps and getting therapy weekly but thats...
    FalseSmile FalseSmile 22-25, M Aug 10

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    On The Borderline...

    A few years ago, I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder.. I had never heard of it.. On the border of what? Sanity and batshit crazy? Probably. but it was a relief to finally have a "name" for the emotional roller coaster is been on for so long. Imagine the emotions...
    SweetGG SweetGG 26-30, F 7 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    What I hate most are the people

    who don't even have the disorder/illness/disease whatever you want to call it and they try to take over and tell you what to do. Like no, back up. If you don't have it, how should you know what I'm going through. Autism, A.D.H.D, Narcolepsy, Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, you don't...
    usmcdaughter usmcdaughter 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 1, 2014

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    I'm glad for the first time in my life I can

    talk about my mental illness. For 40 years or so I have only had a few close friends that I can really talk to about "it". Even if I don't get answers , it helps me to talk about it, thanks for listening.
    Golondrinas Golondrinas 51-55, M 2 Responses Aug 16

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    I have been battling most of my life health

    issues I didn't understand until now. I have physical and emotional issues and cannot get long term disability although I keep trying. Right now I am on disability till January 2016 because of anxiety. Because of Fibromyalgia I cannot even work as Pharmacy Technician even though...
    BrokenAndDown BrokenAndDown 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 25

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    Guys, take some time off

    and read this The Fluttering Hearted Flirt - http: //wp.me/p67thY-C May give you a fresh look at your own vision. I write to inspire.
    whatishappening15 whatishappening15 22-25, F Aug 4

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    I don't know what normal is,

    yet it's what I'd like to be.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 6

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    Paranoid schizophrenia.

    Had it for a long time now. I don't like it when some people pretend they have it just to get sympathy or sound cool, schizophrenia is terrifying sometimes. But at the same time I do believe I sometimes see, notice or hear important things other people can't. My therapist treats...
    Roslein Roslein 18-21, F 9 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    Trauma Recovery Is Scary!

    I am not one to say, "why me?!" People have had it a lot worse than I have in life. As I get older, I'm finding that therapy just isn't enough. My rage is accelerating at the injustices done to me and done to other children and women. I fear that I will take my own life in...
    Georgie1962 Georgie1962 51-55, F 3 Responses Aug 25, 2013

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    Aspergers

    If I showed you the real me would it still be the same? Explained Ive got a gun, but I've got no aim? No violence or love, just my conscience as a token. That its not my fault my compass is broken. I cant feel what you feel, but why cant I pretend? I know that I would...
    ShadowAce7125 ShadowAce7125 22-25, M 6 Responses Nov 5, 2009

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    Say Hello To My Little Friend.

    WHY DEPRESSION IS THE SUCKIEST ACQUAINTANCE OF ALL TIME. I have a friend. Well, he’s not a friend exactly. More of an unruly houseguest who always overstays his welcome. Never announces he’s coming. Always leaves the place a mess. His name is depression, & he’s a pain in...
    blehtolife blehtolife 22-25, F 19 Responses Mar 25, 2012

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    problem is they treat you like a case to study ,

    i am just a job to them,how could i trust some psychologist look at me as something have to be fixed ,i am not an object i am a human being with feelings
    duffyjun duffyjun 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 18

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    Dissociative Identity Disorder/DID/formally

    known as MPD or multiple personality disorder. A lot of people have no idea what it means so I decided to write something about it and get some things out of the way. First of all I will answer the questions people ask me most:-So, you are schizophrenic?*No! Absolutely not, that...
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F Aug 22

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    I was diagnosed as a functioning psychopath

    last month. The weeks leading up to that were full of surprising discoveries about myself. For example, I've always been curious how people would react to certain things, but I've always made sure the things I do won't hurt anyone but me. I've never been scared of things most...
    reaperthejack reaperthejack 13-15, M Aug 20

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    Evil Speaks Yet Do Not Listen

    So evil speaks to you and tells lies about you to make you feel BAD about yourself and pretends to be the voices of other people so you think that person is talking about you when they are not! Clever, but not so clever because I know and I have read parts of The Bible! People...
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    emetophobic247 emetophobic247 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    Iris Iris is one of my alters

    who is really hard to control. She is very strong minded and loves to break people mentally. I've lost some of my best friends because they couldn't deal with Iris. Somehow I can understand that but it also makes me sad. Iris really hates me and absolutely believes we don't...
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 16

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    I think I might have psychosis.

    I have depression and social anxiety, but there are things that have happened that lead me to believe I also have psychotic episodes. If anyone has an experience with this, please help me.
    Dawhead Dawhead 13-15, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    people who believe that dissociative identity

    disorder can be cured by 'giving yourself to god' and 'stop playing with ghosts (Wtf???) really have no idea how they can hurt people by saying things like that.
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 10

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    Mental illness changes you.

    You start to do things you always swore you'd never do. You get to a point you always sworw you'd never get to. You look back at who you used to think you were, and it makes you sad because you fear you've gone too far to ever go back. The desperation that comes with mental...
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow 18-21, T 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    ArtemistheHunter ArtemistheHunter 13-15, F 7 Responses Aug 18

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    Dear not mentally ill people trying to give me

    advice: If I had so much control over my illness that I "wouldn't let it affect me", I wouldn't be ******* ill. That is what illnesses do. Thank you
    Atmosfaerie Atmosfaerie 22-25, T 8 Responses Jun 17

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    I personally feel as

    though this needs to be said. Please do not demean those with clinical anxiety by claiming that you, too, have anxiety. As human beings, we all experience anxiety. There's a huge divide between "having anxiety" and being diagnosed with anxiety. The feeling of constant anxiety...
    Blizzardpaw Blizzardpaw 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 5

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    I just had a debate with Jehovah's Witness

    about anxiety and depression. They provided the following bible verse: [Matthew 6:25-34 34: Therefore don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of it's own.] Unfortunately for millions of people, mental illnesses are not that...
    LuckyInTheSkyWithDiamonds LuckyInTheSkyWithDiamonds 22-25, F 4 Responses 19 hrs ago

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    A little story about life in a mental hospital.

    I have bipolar 2 and I drink, so a guy like that is bound to wind up in the hospital. Several years ago, I was inpatient and sitting near the nurse's desk reading a magazine. A hardcore schizophrenic was standing near one of the room doors going through a handbag looking for a...
    DanteBlake23 DanteBlake23 36-40, M Jul 26

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    Hello! This is my personal story of living

    with schizophrenia: I used to tell people "I have a bad brain." I am not going to say I suffer from schizophrenia but rather I endure and cope with it. My name is Amy Kay and I have schizophrenia. I do not want to hurt others or myself. Neither do I hear voices and I no...
    Amyloukay Amyloukay 26-30, F 6 Responses Feb 10

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    You know what ****** me off?

    When people wish mental illnesses on themselves. As if having Depression, Anxiety, Panic attacks, Borderline Personality Disorder, Complex PTSD and Dissociative Identity Disorder is some kind of fun life to live. I am SO MUCH more than my mental disorders. I have spent...
    Inevitablyflawed Inevitablyflawed 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 30

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    Myths about the top 10 most common mental

    illnesses: 10. Antisocial Personality Disorder: Myth: Somebody who avoids social interaction is “antisocial”. Truth: Many people refer to someone who is reluctant to participate in social situations as “antisocial”. In fact, these people are often pro-social. Antisocial...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 1

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    What makes me really upset

    and angry is when people make fun of mental ilness'. Poeple dont just randomly choose to feel like that, for attention or whatever reason some of ye think, they have no control over it happening to them.. I wouldnt wish it on a single person but dont dare ever judge something...
    amyslatts amyslatts 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    I'm wondering if anyone has had the same weird

    experience as me. Recently when i leave the house, I have these brief moments like blackouts for a few seconds (at least thats what they seem like and I'm hoping ??) and I can't account for what happened during those seconds... They only happen outside of home and when i get...
    auroraskyy auroraskyy 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have narcissism and bipolar ,

    these 2 collide which lead me thinking im great all poweful ect.. the narcissism makes me emit this through my actions which is strange because you are what you think , so which leads me to believe anything not normal is an advantage to you in some way
    andrewsomeone andrewsomeone 18-21, M 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    i have extreme PTSD. my mother passed away

    when I was one, and when I was 2, i got adopted. the woman who adopted me only did it so she could look good for her church... she didn't do it because she actually cared. i came from a foster home who neglected me, and then when I aged out of my family's house, I became...
    Charityhope87 Charityhope87 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 7

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    one of my other personalities told someone she

    would jump in front of a train, now they forced me to get help again I'm just a mess at the moment
    Meliantha Meliantha 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 8

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    It's so weird being in a psychology class

    and thinking I have "yep I have that" every time a new disorder is named, but it also helps you understand why you have those conditions it opens your mind to more than the words "you are depressed" you are now playing the psychiatrist and evaluating yourself figuring out why...
    BeautifullyAmiss BeautifullyAmiss 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 14, 2014

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    You know what I dislike very much?

    When people act like mental illness doesn't exist. You know what I also dislike? The people that force people to think that way, it seems a lot of people, especially teenagers think it's cute or cool to pretend to hear voices, struggle with hurting your self, or like a friend I...
    Euphoricbunnymaster Euphoricbunnymaster 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 10

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    very sick of dealing with bipolar.

    all i want is to be done with it.
    EvilPrincess87 EvilPrincess87 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 26

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    This is my testimony of having a mental illness

    - obsessive compulsive disorder. It does get better, I promise you that! Well I might as well start at the beginning, growing up I was always shy but being an introvert never stopped me from running the roads all the or being involved in activities like soccer, dance, baton, I...
    chelseystorys chelseystorys 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2014

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    And I'm tired of everyone pretty much trying to

    shove medicine down my throat. I hate the way it makes me feel. I don't want to lay around like a zombie. It makes me feel like I have no energy. Not even enough to hold my eyes open. Why can't I just be myself?
    HappilyMrsLetson HappilyMrsLetson 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 28