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I Have a Mental Illness

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    Support appreciated. These are the diagnoses

    I've received over the years from ages 9-21. Well, not all of them have been diagnosed but there is high probability that I have them or have variations of them. I have been diagnosed with PTSD but quite possibly have C-PTSD (as well as other trauma-related disorders) I show...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 18

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    Say Hello To My Little Friend.

    WHY DEPRESSION IS THE SUCKIEST ACQUAINTANCE OF ALL TIME. I have a friend. Well, he’s not a friend exactly. More of an unruly houseguest who always overstays his welcome. Never announces he’s coming. Always leaves the place a mess. His name is depression, & he’s a pain in...
    blehtolife blehtolife 22-25, F 19 Responses Mar 25, 2012

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    I Have MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder) its

    bc i was abused as a child and to protect myself my brain split into pieces..... meaning theres basically another peron or persons inside of me. No that doesn't make me crazy or dangerous it just means there's many sides to me. its confusing sometimes bc im not sure if me is...
    AiymaSnikies AiymaSnikies 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    When the Japanese mend broken objects,

    they aggrandize the damage by filling the cracks with gold. They believe that when's something's suffered damage and has a history it becomes more beautiful" Barbara Bloom
    SsMcGavin SsMcGavin 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 6, 2014

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    I have depression and social anxiety.

    I struggle with housework, and when I don't have to work, I am home by myself sleeping, or getting drunk and horny. But normally I am by myself and unable to accomplish much except drinking every night. I wish I could keep a clean house and keep my life together
    need2Bcontrolled83 need2Bcontrolled83 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    i do cuts on my hand with anything like pen

    pensil anything sharp i dont know y n i feel pain also but i enjoy that pain!!??
    hybahussyn hybahussyn 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 19, 2014

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    The feeling of impending doom washes over me,

    familiar. Not like how the sea washes over pebbles but instead more like a corrosive liquid, bubbling through just about anything. Then adrenaline.. Fight or flight or if you're sexist I believe its tend and befriend. My mind kickstarts like an out of control carousel. People...
    amillionpeople amillionpeople 22-25 Jan 14

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    With Wings is a group on Facebook

    which offers help and support for those who need it. It is a safe space for members to come together, make friends and help others as well as themselves. If you suffer from a mental illness, self harm or have an eating disorder then this is a place for you to come and be...
    withwingsgroup withwingsgroup 18-21, F Dec 11, 2014

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    On The Borderline...

    A few years ago, I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder.. I had never heard of it.. On the border of what? Sanity and batshit crazy? Probably. but it was a relief to finally have a "name" for the emotional roller coaster is been on for so long. Imagine the emotions...
    SweetGG SweetGG 26-30, F 7 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    I Suffer From Severe Depression And Ptsd

    I was first hospitalized for suicidal behavior at age 13. I was then diagnosed with severe depression and PTSD or post traumatic stress disorder. It's completely ruined my life! I am afraid to be close to anyone, and I can't stop being scared no matter how hard I...
    college101 college101 31-35, F 11 Responses Oct 24, 2009

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    At the mean time I live at supported

    accomadation for people with mental health issue .i have been to psychiatric hospital three times .i have been suffering with depression for many years And I got diagnosed with schitzophernia in 2011 by a psychiatrist down in Bournemouth The reason that I had to see a...
    Anonymous79ea Anonymous79ea 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 21, 2014

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    People think I'm a freak.

    I've lost friends and I can't make new ones. I don't know what to do anymore. I wish I could go back a year before meds and therapy. Just let Emerald live all the time. :'(
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 27, 2014

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    I had a huge mental breakdown today.

    A friend found me in the hallway slumped over clawing at the walls and my forehead. He took me to the school lounge and the others scrambled to make me feel better. I definitely appreciate their help even though it didn't calm me at all. Luckily I'm good at acting and was able...
    HowArtThou HowArtThou 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    i thought i would feel better today

    but it hasnt changed. i thought when u ask for help, help will come. i thought by b praying n being spritual it would save me. Jesus had to die to save us. Jesus wasnt taking seriously until he was on the cross. how can i continue to be in pain.... pain with no understanding...
    tiiedrope tiiedrope 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 3

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    i take personality disorder test in

    similarminds several days ago: here's the result: paranoid 61% schizoid 70% schizotypal 65% antisocial 68% borderline 55% histrionic 43% narcistic 41% avoidant 68% dependent 59% obsessive-compulsive 51% am i really that crazy? is there someone who is crazier than me?
    chocolattee chocolattee 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    I have Osd, I'm bipolar,

    and chemically imbalanced I hate that I was cursed with these illness's I pray constantly to get through the day and God helps me when I ask...
    LoveMessiah LoveMessiah 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    My Story Of Schizophrenia And Bullimia

    I grew up as a really happy, outgoing child. Nothing ever really had seemed to bother me. I had a great imagination and always used to make people laugh. As the years went by my family started to fall apart, I had lost two siblings in a matter of 8months which sent my mother and...
    Skye90 Skye90 22-25, F 12 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    I have recently been diagnosed manic depressive,

    bipolar, and split personality. I'm overwhelmed and don't know what to do. I would like to talk with some people who experience these same illness and do not take meds and people that do take meds (what kinds and our side effects you have personally experienced). I'm trying to...
    Gothika88 Gothika88 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 12, 2014

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    I Have Bipolar

    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, last year while travelling abroad. My episodes are very manic followed by depression once my medication (Lithium and Olanazepine) have stabilised me. Being ill in a psychiatric hospital in a foreign country made it even more traumatic...
    crazyone crazyone 21-25, F 12 Responses Jul 20, 2006

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    Your lack of compassion drives me to the edge

    of insanity.. You are my mental disorder
    rachelbeth6 rachelbeth6 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 5, 2014

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    Paranoid schizophrenia.

    Had it for a long time now. I don't like it when some people pretend they have it just to get sympathy or sound cool, schizophrenia is terrifying sometimes. But at the same time I do believe I sometimes see, notice or hear important things other people can't. My therapist treats...
    Roslein Roslein 18-21, F 9 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    just learnt to accept it.

    ever felt trapped inside your head?
    mxrilynsdxughtxr mxrilynsdxughtxr 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 8

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    I feel that I am suffering from paranoia.

    I always imagine my friends talking **** about me behind my back or think that the whole world is against me.That kind of thing kills me and I can do nothing about it.My big problem is in my head but I can't seem to solve it.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 9, 2014

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    I hurt myself for the first time in over 2

    years. I thought I was doing really well with it, but everything just came crumbling over the smallest of things...and I couldn't stay strong. I don't feel strong right now. All I have are scars and weakness
    rorenchan rorenchan 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 12, 2014

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    Tightness crushes my chest,

    And I can't breath, The only time I can escape, Is when I fall asleep. I fear the walls are closing in, Our time is passing by too slow, Or sometimes it feels as if there's nowhere to go. From high to low, And anxious to calm, From one pole to another, And trying to survive...
    Audrina14 Audrina14 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 17, 2014

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    i have MPD/DID... there are 8 personalities in

    my head.. i'm fine with it.. but everyone else thinks i'm crazy.. its hard to do mundane things like school.. i'm not allowed to drive until 6 months after my last blackout.. i have blackouts daily.. sometimes i don't wake up for a few days... i just ... become someone else for...
    nekkie nekkie 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 16, 2014

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    I have an array of mental illnesses,

    such as schizophrenia, dissociative identity disorder, OCD, anxiety, autism, etc. Sometimes it's hard to live, but I've learned to cope with these many thoughts swirling around in my head.
    CaliginousHeart CaliginousHeart 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 3, 2014

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    I'm not getting the help I need.

    I'm stuck in the same spot I've been in for 3 months. Being stagnant is not human - we are made to change & adapt. I have a limited time on this planet, & I want to experience everything awe inspiring about it. Being trapped in my own mind redefined the word 'prison'.
    lindsaymaegan lindsaymaegan 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 15, 2014

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    Just take the world day by day

    so it doesnt seem to overwhelm you or make seem like its so big of a world that cannot handle living in. If you take it day by day life will be more easier...
    lenee323 lenee323 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2014

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    What I hate most are the people

    who don't even have the disorder/illness/disease whatever you want to call it and they try to take over and tell you what to do. Like no, back up. If you don't have it, how should you know what I'm going through. Autism, A.D.H.D, Narcolepsy, Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, you don't...
    usmcdaughter usmcdaughter 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 1, 2014

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    Lasbutterfly Lasbutterfly 16-17, F Dec 17, 2014

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    I have Adjustment Disorder with mixed anxiety

    and disorder, and yes I was diagnosed with it, not self-diagnosed. I feel depressed most of the times, I always get butterflies in my stomach for no reason, my throat gets really dry, and my hands are clammy all the time. I also get red in the face. I have a bunch of friends...
    xMikayla xMikayla 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 23, 2014

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    I have gone to numerous psychiatrists

    and psychologists throughout the years. I have been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, Bipolar (never really asked I or II), Narcissistic Personality Disorder, ADHD and Alcoholism.. And other substance abuse issues. It always seems like every time I see a new mental...
    sweetqueensbmd sweetqueensbmd 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 10

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    Aspergers

    If I showed you the real me would it still be the same? Explained Ive got a gun, but I've got no aim? No violence or love, just my conscience as a token. That its not my fault my compass is broken. I cant feel what you feel, but why cant I pretend? I know that I would...
    ShadowAce7125 ShadowAce7125 22-25, M 6 Responses Nov 5, 2009

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    I'm leaving. Goodbye

    and thank you.
    gybe gybe 18-21, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    What makes me really upset

    and angry is when people make fun of mental ilness'. Poeple dont just randomly choose to feel like that, for attention or whatever reason some of ye think, they have no control over it happening to them.. I wouldnt wish it on a single person but dont dare ever judge something...
    amyslatts amyslatts 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    i might be at my worst point today i want to

    cut... get wasted n say f it
    tiiedrope tiiedrope 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 19

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    This is my testimony of having a mental illness

    - obsessive compulsive disorder. It does get better, I promise you that! Well I might as well start at the beginning, growing up I was always shy but being an introvert never stopped me from running the roads all the or being involved in activities like soccer, dance, baton, I...
    chelseystorys chelseystorys 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 16, 2014

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    must i say how much more can i really bare.

    .. when i say i newd to be hospitalized im selfish... if i say help i get do the best u can.... i got my wisdom tooth pulled today cuz i had to i was in pain but pain i didnt want to go away... i went in for filling but when she saw it ahe like u have to get it out u have ti...
    tiiedrope tiiedrope 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    i have paranoid schizo affective disorder with

    severe anxiety and a 8 year old son who is autistic i never really think who may have it worse then me but i definitely feel like why me... my life is in shambles in my mind... its like a winding staircase that is never ending and i keep looking up like am i there yet.
    tiiedrope tiiedrope 26-30, F Jan 3

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    I've been in hospital

    for over a year now for anorexia (though the last six months have just been daycare). I'm getting discharged in two weeks. But I'm noticing already that I'm restricting by telling myself that I don't 'need' to eat all my prescribed calorie intake and the compulsion to exercise...
    sunshinehannah sunshinehannah 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 4, 2014

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    I want to start by saying

    that the people who think mental illnesses dont exist are ignorant and lucky because they cant even understand what its like. Anyway, i have serious anxiety that has lead to stomach ulcers. I have depression, panic (attack) disorder, and what my doctors have labeled as "early...
    Ellameno Ellameno 18-21, F 3 Responses May 24, 2014

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    I am bipolar, have suffered with depression

    and ADD. I know this is not as bad as it gets. I have gotten a lot better by my mental choice and strive to do so. I would like to share some wise words from the book "How to Raise Your Vibration" by Sabrina Reber (highly recommended to read even if you are not spiritual). The...
    atellis11 atellis11 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 19

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    I'm not really sure that what I have can be

    classified under anything specific.. I have 26 (and counting) voices in my head...? I mean, they all have there stories and personalities and they treat me as part of their little family. My "father" Maxwell is rich but he's really funny and silly like a child but still really...
    HaHaHarleyQuinn HaHaHarleyQuinn 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    I have an anxiety disorder called GAD

    (generalized anxiety disorder) and I think I might be bipolar because one minute I'm good and fine then when traumatic things come up I start feeling depressed like crazy I have been like since I was in my early to mid teens
    sidney2013 sidney2013 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 4, 2014

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    So I went to the elementary school with my

    sister, her boyfriend, and my nephew for a movie event. My Tourettes was acting up while I was there to the point I had a tic where my arm jerks and hit someone. It's difficult being in public places because of it. I realized it's best that I actually look into getting a...
    MlNUET MlNUET 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 12, 2014

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    Yes, Sadly, I'm Bipolar. ...

    Yes, sadly, I'm bipolar. Not treated at this time, due to a bad experience with the local state-run programme. Maybe if I ever get rich (yeah, right, dream on) I can pick my own person to treat me, who'll treat me like a human being and not a fall asleep during session, and yell...
    whovian whovian 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 1, 2007

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    For some time I believed

    that my illness prevented my ability to see beauty, shrouded it, replaced it with dirt and ugly truth, harsh reality. Something helped me realise that beauty is recognised and created by the heart, not the mind. My illness exists in my mind, but doesn't fill my heart. I can see...
    amillionpeople amillionpeople 22-25 Jan 14

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    I have struggled for years with depression,

    anxiety, and PTSD, all of which led to my struggle with self harm. I have done a lot of work over the years to develop coping skills and crisis management plans for when I have the urge to cut, and it has all paid off. Today is my three year mark of no self harm.
    katnoelle14 katnoelle14 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 2, 2014

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    Trauma Recovery Is Scary!

    I am not one to say, "why me?!" People have had it a lot worse than I have in life. As I get older, I'm finding that therapy just isn't enough. My rage is accelerating at the injustices done to me and done to other children and women. I fear that I will take my own life in...
    Georgie1962 Georgie1962 51-55, F 3 Responses Aug 25, 2013

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    I am in the process of recovering from chronic

    depression, severe anxiety, and anorexia nervosa. I've attempted suicide more than 30 times but am no longer suicidal. I've been clean from cutting for two months. I'm eating healthier, better, and do not delude myself into thinking I am overweight. The number of anxiety attacks...
    losingNemo losingNemo 13-15, F 5 Responses Nov 28, 2014

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