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    I have bipolar and was diagnosed 5 years ago.

    Since then I've suffered from major depression. My therapist says that I will be able to live a fulfilling life but I have my doubs about that. Depression has been and still is a huge part of my life, I honestly can't see myself without it nor can I imgine living a life with...
    Ennah Ennah 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 24

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    I've been off of medication

    for several months. I went cold turkey when I found out I was pregnant. It was amazing not to be on meds and feel "normal". When I lost my baby I was numb, I couldn't cry. Now I'm back to being up and down. I have a mild form of bipolar and I think I need to go back on them. I...
    Audreydarling Audreydarling 26-30, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    My Story Of Schizophrenia And Bullimia

    I grew up as a really happy, outgoing child. Nothing ever really had seemed to bother me. I had a great imagination and always used to make people laugh. As the years went by my family started to fall apart, I had lost two siblings in a matter of 8months which sent my mother and...
    Skye90 Skye90 22-25, F 10 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    I wish I never told anyone about my mental

    illness I only have anxiety and depression, but now that I have a mental illness it feels like there is a stigma that follows me everywhere I go no matter what relationship I'm in whether family, friends or partners and I can't get away from it it hurts because I find people try...
    theincarnated1 theincarnated1 31-35 5 Responses May 20, 2015

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    I am beginning to not worry

    as much about it. I guess you could say I choice not to treat it. I have borderline personality disorder. It ******* sucks because well, I just feel mentally exhausted the majority of the time but sometimes when I inhale I can actually smell the air instead of constantly...
    ashless ashless 22-25, F 3 Responses May 13, 2015

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    I Have Bipolar

    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, last year while travelling abroad. My episodes are very manic followed by depression once my medication (Lithium and Olanazepine) have stabilised me. Being ill in a psychiatric hospital in a foreign country made it even more traumatic...
    crazyone crazyone 18-21, F 12 Responses Jul 20, 2006

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    Okay let's get this done I have A personality

    disorder Bipolar ADD OCD Anxiety Had anorexia Had bulimia MD I think that's it. But I could be missing one. No wonder I'm single
    lexiamber lexiamber 18-21, F 13 Responses Nov 26, 2015

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    I can't look in the mirror without feeling like

    a lot is missing. I always feel like I'm very unattractive... I don't say it for attention, I've felt that way almost all my life. lately I haven't been able to look in the mirror without wanting to cry. I always think of ways I can look better. lose weight, wear make up...
    xdizzybutterflyx xdizzybutterflyx 18-21, F 11 Responses Sep 28, 2015

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    I have at least four,

    diagnosed. Depression, anxiety, OCD, PTSD... And possible bipolar disorder. - "Mental illnesses. They are no less real than physical illnesses, and often *MORE* debilitating. No, I cannot "get over" my depression. I will not "learn to be better" if you practice tough love. I am...
    iFortiTude iFortiTude 31-35 1 Response Feb 18, 2015

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    Those of u who have lots of serious mental

    problems. Do you talk about it with ppl? Do u let them know? Or do u keep completely quiet about it?? I tend to tell ppl but I'm starting to think it's not the best choice.
    deleted deleted 26-30 15 Responses Aug 18, 2015

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    Trauma Recovery Is Scary!

    I am not one to say, "why me?!" People have had it a lot worse than I have in life. As I get older, I'm finding that therapy just isn't enough. My rage is accelerating at the injustices done to me and done to other children and women. I fear that I will take my own life in...
    Georgie1962 Georgie1962 51-55, F 3 Responses Aug 25, 2013

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    sometimes the shittiest things can roam through

    my head. horrible things, I can control it at times but other times they all pop into my head all at once and then I get those overwhelmed/anxiety feeling. as much as I wanna "complain" and just shout out all my bad feelings and thoughts I don't. sometimes it seems like it's too...
    xdizzybutterflyx xdizzybutterflyx 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    I had a massive med issues at the eating

    disorder clinic I was at this December. I started believing full heartily that they were pumping calories in to the air and water making me obese. I thought they were fatting me up to make me in to the stuff they put in feeding tubes. Grinding my fat body in to the creamy liquid...
    tobehere tobehere 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 18, 2015

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    So in an update from my last post.

    . I took my lexapro and klonopin today after my work out and forewent the lamictal. The nerves and pit in my stomach aren't there today. Im going to take the lamictal when I get home from work and see if I get it. But like I thought I really think my meds are messing each...
    AvaLennon1 AvaLennon1 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    I don't want to romanticise what I go through,

    but I also don't feel like I've been dealt ****** cards. it's a part of me, not the whole. every bag of popcorn has an un-popped kernel.
    twidle01 twidle01 26-30, F Jan 16

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    TRIGGER WARNING!!! I don't really understand

    why people self harm on their wrists instead of on thighs or some other place where people are less likely to see? Maybe not as much blood but it could just be done more to the same effect on thighs? Sorry this is a very morbid question and I'm sorry if I offended anyone by this...
    Dawhead Dawhead 16-17, M 2 Responses Jan 25

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    Aspergers

    If I showed you the real me would it still be the same? Explained Ive got a gun, but I've got no aim? No violence or love, just my conscience as a token. That its not my fault my compass is broken. I cant feel what you feel, but why cant I pretend? I know that I would...
    ShadowAce7125 ShadowAce7125 22-25, M 6 Responses Nov 5, 2009

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    Saw my councillor today,

    agreeing to see him is possibly one of the best things I have done for myself. He wants me to have a psychiatric assessment, up my dosage of fluoxetine and get anti-psychotics too, based on the psychiatric's assessment. He's done his job for 25 years now, he makes me feel like...
    EverlyLeex EverlyLeex 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    Has anyone ever heard of

    or experienced depersonalization?
    Ssanabanana Ssanabanana 22-25, F 12 Responses Jan 15

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    I have just been rang by my care coordinator

    being short with me because I haven't rang to say I'm out of hospital or I didn't tell her I was in hospital I'm fuming I had more than enough on my plate being diagnosed with a rare form of Ms that I didn't think to ring her I'm pissed off
    binxxy binxxy 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 7

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    I developed a mental illness

    while I was at psychological ward that was supposed to help me.
    TowerJimmyDabzs TowerJimmyDabzs 31-35, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I don't get mad or sad anymore.

    My friend and stepbrothers make me laugh, but that's about it. I have been a hermit or recluse whatever the word is for about 15 years now I have very severe mental illness's like a some of people do too. I'm to scared to talk to strangers in person so I thought I'd try this.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Feeling really empty

    and super bored!! I hate that feeling, or I guess lack of feelings. lol
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Sep 5, 2015

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    eastcoast2westcoast eastcoast2westcoast 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 24

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    I Have Bipolar Disorder.

    This is something that I find not easy to talk or write about. Society in general tends to see mental illness as different to other physical illnesses. We all know of the remarks; kids grow up with them; looney, mad, crazy. An illness of the brain is seen as different to an...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Sep 23, 2013

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    I haven't heard from my (ex?

    ) boyfriend in almost three weeks. He is still not well and continues to be delusional and aggressive. I don't know what to do so I sent him a card. It is a cute card. I wrote a lot but nothing really complex, just how work is, how the kitties are, that I miss him and love him. I...
    Lann2015 Lann2015 31-35, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    I literally hate change

    so much, I get a little upset when the seasons change. -_-
    haileyx3 haileyx3 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 28

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    Myths about the top 10 most common mental

    illnesses: 10. Antisocial Personality Disorder: Myth: Somebody who avoids social interaction is “antisocial”. Truth: Many people refer to someone who is reluctant to participate in social situations as “antisocial”. In fact, these people are often pro-social. Antisocial...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 1, 2015

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    I'm tired of the way I've been living my life.

    I've hit rock bottom and I want to find my way back up. I miss the way my life used to be, before I graduated highschool. I've been out of school for a year now because I can't go to college, or anywhere for that matter. I really would love to go back to school one day...
    2Flawed4Life 2Flawed4Life 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    sarahbear420 sarahbear420 16-17, F 6 Responses Jul 26, 2015

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    I've been struggling with dissociative episodes,

    caused by traumatic abuses of my childhood. It's like being half conscious, and I feel no will to move. I'm heavy. I'm numb or depressed. It takes a deliberate effort to speak coherently. I want to let my boyfriend comfort me, but afraid of being a burden. I feel alone, because...
    malanxious malanxious 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 1

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    If you have a mental illness.

    . Anything that makes you happy is clouded. It's black and white, there is no grey area. To find something, or someone that makes me truly happy is a rare occurrence. So when I find something, I don't plan on letting it get away that easily. I like my landlord.. Let's call him 'J...
    EverlyLeex EverlyLeex 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 18

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    I have post traumatic stress,

    anxiety depression & borderline personality disorder and I'm okay with that
    fakeisforbidden fakeisforbidden 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 14, 2015

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    You know what I dislike very much?

    When people act like mental illness doesn't exist. You know what I also dislike? The people that force people to think that way, it seems a lot of people, especially teenagers think it's cute or cool to pretend to hear voices, struggle with hurting your self, or like a friend I...
    Euphoricbunnymaster Euphoricbunnymaster 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 10, 2015

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    I need someone to rant at.

    I can't take how terrible life is.
    Dawhead Dawhead 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 23

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    Mental illness changes you.

    You start to do things you always swore you'd never do. You get to a point you always sworw you'd never get to. You look back at who you used to think you were, and it makes you sad because you fear you've gone too far to ever go back. The desperation that comes with mental...
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow 18-21, T 4 Responses Aug 27, 2015

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    Dear not mentally ill people trying to give me

    advice: If I had so much control over my illness that I "wouldn't let it affect me", I wouldn't be ******* ill. That is what illnesses do. Thank you
    Atmosfaerie Atmosfaerie 22-25 7 Responses Jun 17, 2015

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    I'm not so sure about this

    but after i read many articles and medical site i think i suffer from PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder). It caused by unpleasant or grisly experience and also violence. When i was young, i often saw my dad hit my mom. But know they've been nice to each other. Though it...
    elishahr elishahr 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Is being twenty two a mental illness?

    How about unemployed, on the verge of getting kicked out of college your almost senior year, being lazy, a slacker, unmotivated, confused, tired, depressed... are any of those mental illnesses? Is missing someone you lost? Is generally being useless and a waste of space a mental...
    Sickntiredoflife Sickntiredoflife 22-25, F 6 Responses Jan 25

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    Paranoid schizophrenia.

    Had it for a long time now. I don't like it when some people pretend they have it just to get sympathy or sound cool, schizophrenia is terrifying sometimes. But at the same time I do believe I sometimes see, notice or hear important things other people can't. My therapist treats...
    Roslein Roslein 18-21, F 9 Responses Jul 4, 2014

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    What makes me really upset

    and angry is when people make fun of mental ilness'. Poeple dont just randomly choose to feel like that, for attention or whatever reason some of ye think, they have no control over it happening to them.. I wouldnt wish it on a single person but dont dare ever judge something...
    amyslatts amyslatts 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    I have a question. Dose anyone get triggered by

    a celebrity death? I have with with Kurt Cobain, Michael Jackson, Robert Williams, I was actually in the hospital when he passed. And now caught myself with David Bowie. These are my idols and I'm always manic around their deaths. I was listening to his playlist today and a...
    Dahlia86 Dahlia86 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    Remember the time you said "Son,

    it'll be alright." Remember the time you said "Son, it will be just fine." Well I'm waiting for the day that my mind says it's had enough And I pray that day comes soon so I can finally feel loved I just wanna feel loved I just wanna feel loved Remember the time I said "God, I...
    BrokeAssBxtch BrokeAssBxtch 18-21, F Jan 19

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    I learned a knew word

    that is effecting me right now. Indefatigable incapable of being tired out; not yielding to fatigue; untiring.
    Dahlia86 Dahlia86 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    I don't know if I have a mental illness

    but I suffer from anxiety and don't like taking tablets for it as it will make me feel funny I have trouble taking medication only ibuprofen or paracetamol or I'll start pannicing I worry about everything I don't like my daughter earing lolly pops couse she might shoke I just...
    Pszkit1990 Pszkit1990 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 29

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