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I Have a Mental Illness

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    I was officially diagnosed with depression,

    social anxiety, general anxiety, and obsessive compulsive disorder. Over the past years OCD has been in remission, depression has turned into recurrent major depressive disorder, and borderline personality disorder, and sexual masochism have been added. (I am still diagnosed...
    kandieekainee kandieekainee 22-25, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Aspergers

    If I showed you the real me would it still be the same? Explained Ive got a gun, but I've got no aim? No violence or love, just my conscience as a token. That its not my fault my compass is broken. I cant feel what you feel, but why cant I pretend? I know that I would...
    ShadowAce7125 ShadowAce7125 22-25, M 6 Responses Nov 5, 2009

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    Here for anyone who needs to talk <3 I was

    diagnosed with depression, then later diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Don't let a day go by that you think that it's not worth living <3 This will be tough, but they have to get worse in order to get better, but they will ALWAYS get better <3
    ModifiedMamaofTwo ModifiedMamaofTwo 16-17, F 6 Responses Oct 17

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    I have Asperger's Syndrome It helps me find it

    difficult to talk to girls in the real world that probably why I'm single but I can't change it I was born with it but it upsets me sometimes
    JonnyBurrows10 JonnyBurrows10 18-21, M 3 Responses Aug 31

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    With Borderline Personality Disorder,

    it is very hard to do much. recently i have been very good about going to the gym every day, but today not so much. it is also nearly impossible to hold a relationship or a job because we are known to burn bridges at the drop of a hat. anyone else out there with bpd?
    ana95j ana95j 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    Mental😞🔫 Two years straight I barely

    finished a plate Whenever I did eat I purged not too long after All the weight I was losing My bones were protruding My food still barely stays down Now I'm stuck at 80 pounds I see my bones I cry at night No one knew About my daily fight I also used to cut into my...
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 15

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    I'm starting to feel defeated.

    I am not allowed to attend college due to my mental disorders. Mainly my dissociativeness. And the frequency of my lows - borderline. I want nothing more than to become a psychiatric nurse via art therapy. But doctors are doubting me, and schools aren't accepting me. I don't...
    iMinnow iMinnow 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 5

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    Sometimes it's really hard,

    but I always need to keep going. I was hospitalized for two days for extreme panic attacks. The whole thing was absolute Hell. I've struggled with multiple mental illnesses including panic disorder, extreme OCD, anxiety, depression, ednos, and now I've been extremely angry and I...
    stephaanicole stephaanicole 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 5

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    And lately I'm really struggling.

    My job felt like the only thing good... And now that's going bad. I feel so happy not being there but I don't think I can just quit and manage with no income. It's hard to weigh up what's worse. My job is killing me and they know I battle mental illness but rather then support...
    lilbirdydoll lilbirdydoll 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 3

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    Having A Mental Illness Is A Very Lonely Existance

    It is very hard to live a normal life with mental disabilites, and especially hard to make friends with them. I have bipolar, anxiety, post traumatic stress, borderline personality, dermatillomania, and fear of abandonment. Oh, I know how I developed these issues. I had a...
    iskykabibblez iskykabibblez 41-45, F 7 Responses Mar 20, 2012

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    I suffer from OCD and sometimes hate myself

    for it and feel that everyone it's slightly resentful towards me.
    almaoscura almaoscura 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    When the Japanese mend broken objects,

    they aggrandize the damage by filling the cracks with gold. They believe that when's something's suffered damage and has a history it becomes more beautiful" Barbara Bloom
    SsMcGavin SsMcGavin 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 6

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    I Have Bipolar Disorder.

    This is something that I find not easy to talk or write about. Society in general tends to see mental illness as different to other physical illnesses. We all know of the remarks; kids grow up with them; looney, mad, crazy. An illness of the brain is seen as different to an...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Sep 23, 2013

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    Sometimes it's just impossible to tell what is

    only in my head and what is really going on. It's just hard to believe people when they are being nice to me... Maybe I'm just paranoid...
    mymasochismtango mymasochismtango 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 14

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    Evil Speaks Yet Do Not Listen

    So evil speaks to you and tells lies about you to make you feel BAD about yourself and pretends to be the voices of other people so you think that person is talking about you when they are not! Clever, but not so clever because I know and I have read parts of The Bible! People...
    Jan 15, 2013

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    I'm not getting the help I need.

    I'm stuck in the same spot I've been in for 3 months. Being stagnant is not human - we are made to change & adapt. I have a limited time on this planet, & I want to experience everything awe inspiring about it. Being trapped in my own mind redefined the word 'prison'.
    lindsaymaegan lindsaymaegan 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 15

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    My Story Of Schizophrenia And Bullimia

    I grew up as a really happy, outgoing child. Nothing ever really had seemed to bother me. I had a great imagination and always used to make people laugh. As the years went by my family started to fall apart, I had lost two siblings in a matter of 8months which sent my mother and...
    Skye90 Skye90 22-25, F 11 Responses Nov 30, 2012

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    I have major depression,

    along with some other labels. And the one thing I learned about having this illness is that you can't let it win. I would have episodes that made everything come crashing down. I would cry for hours and sometimes it would continue on to the next day. When I start seeing things...
    redhope redhope 18-21, F Jul 8

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    Just been discharged from being in a mental

    hospital for 4 months clinical depression ednos BPD suicidal tendencies childhood trauma insomnia anxiety dsh (deep self harm) schizophrenia all diagnosed guess I'm a bit messed up
    chazstella chazstella 13-15, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    It's so weird being in a psychology class

    and thinking I have "yep I have that" every time a new disorder is named, but it also helps you understand why you have those conditions it opens your mind to more than the words "you are depressed" you are now playing the psychiatrist and evaluating yourself figuring out why...
    nottheaveragegirl nottheaveragegirl 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 14

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    AnOtHaJaZzYDrEaMeR AnOtHaJaZzYDrEaMeR 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 31

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    I was diagnosed with depression & psychosis at

    15. Then at 17 bipolar & psychosis, then schizoeffective disorder then paranoid schizophrenia. I don't believe it but I have bad anxiety and an eating disorder. I'm just lonely. Meds don't make me better, hospitals don't make me better. I am a lone wolf but now I want people in...
    GeorgiaAlicee GeorgiaAlicee 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I was diagnosed a couple of years ago finally

    with depression although I've pretty much been depressed all my life. It's definitely a struggle at times but I guess I'm still here so I must be doing something right
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M 2 Responses Oct 20

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    Journey To Recovery

    When I experienced my first battle with depression, I was eleven years old. I could never accept that I had it at first. I would make up many excuses; I’m too young, it’s just a low mood etc. It all makes sense now, I had struggled with panic disorder since I was eight and it...
    milzmouse milzmouse 16-17, F Mar 18, 2013

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    I suffer from Bipolar Disorder with rapid

    cycles. I become suicidal, extremely happy, irritable and homocidal. Im sick of my emotions and wish i didn't have any
    Danae102 Danae102 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I have Adjustment Disorder with mixed anxiety

    and disorder, and yes I was diagnosed with it, not self-diagnosed. I feel depressed most of the times, I always get butterflies in my stomach for no reason, my throat gets really dry, and my hands are clammy all the time. I also get red in the face. I have a bunch of friends...
    xMikayla xMikayla 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 23

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    What makes me really upset

    and angry is when people make fun of mental ilness'. Poeple dont just randomly choose to feel like that, for attention or whatever reason some of ye think, they have no control over it happening to them.. I wouldnt wish it on a single person but dont dare ever judge something...
    amyslatts amyslatts 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 27

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    So I'm a borderline, I have borderline

    personality disorder. I feel I'm more on the mild side, as in I don't have (many) fits of uncontrollable rage. I'm also bisexual. I have a past, of not healthy sexual encounters. I feel it still follows me, it hasn't been that long sense one of the worst. I have never really...
    StormFairy StormFairy 18-21, F Sep 10

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    I have struggled for years with depression,

    anxiety, and PTSD, all of which led to my struggle with self harm. I have done a lot of work over the years to develop coping skills and crisis management plans for when I have the urge to cut, and it has all paid off. Today is my three year mark of no self harm.
    katnoelle14 katnoelle14 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 2

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    On The Borderline...

    A few years ago, I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder.. I had never heard of it.. On the border of what? Sanity and batshit crazy? Probably. but it was a relief to finally have a "name" for the emotional roller coaster is been on for so long. Imagine the emotions...
    SweetGG SweetGG 26-30, F 7 Responses Oct 15, 2013

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    What I hate most are the people

    who don't even have the disorder/illness/disease whatever you want to call it and they try to take over and tell you what to do. Like no, back up. If you don't have it, how should you know what I'm going through. Autism, A.D.H.D, Narcolepsy, Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, you don't...
    usmcdaughter usmcdaughter 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 1

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    Tightness crushes my chest,

    And I can't breath, The only time I can escape, Is when I fall asleep. I fear the walls are closing in, Our time is passing by too slow, Or sometimes it feels as if there's nowhere to go. From high to low, And anxious to calm, From one pole to another, And trying to survive...
    Audrina14 Audrina14 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 17

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    I'm not really sure that what I have can be

    classified under anything specific.. I have 26 (and counting) voices in my head...? I mean, they all have there stories and personalities and they treat me as part of their little family. My "father" Maxwell is rich but he's really funny and silly like a child but still really...
    HaHaHarleyQuinn HaHaHarleyQuinn 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    Trauma Recovery Is Scary!

    I am not one to say, "why me?!" People have had it a lot worse than I have in life. As I get older, I'm finding that therapy just isn't enough. My rage is accelerating at the injustices done to me and done to other children and women. I fear that I will take my own life in...
    Georgie1962 Georgie1962 51-55, F 3 Responses Aug 25, 2013

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    i have MPD/DID... there are 8 personalities in

    my head.. i'm fine with it.. but everyone else thinks i'm crazy.. its hard to do mundane things like school.. i'm not allowed to drive until 6 months after my last blackout.. i have blackouts daily.. sometimes i don't wake up for a few days... i just ... become someone else for...
    nekkie nekkie 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 16

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    I'm 20 years old and I have borderline

    personality disorder. I haven't told any of my friends because I know they won't understand it. I'm terrified of being alone, but because of that I scared away the person that I loved the most. Some days I love my friends and other days I can't stand them. I feel like my mind...
    Brynn8 Brynn8 18-21, F 5 Responses Oct 2

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    So i have borderline personality disorder,

    schizo affective affective disorder, anxiety and panic disorder. All i ever wanted my mom to say is i love. But no im 37 years old and i never got a hugs or and I love you. crazy right? probably hard to believe but is true
    uvet123 uvet123 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 12

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    I know im young, but i've experienced things

    that make me feel like im too young. They are mental illnesses but you'd jever expect that from a 13 year old, right? Well im here to tell my story and hope people can relate and talk to me about it. I first noticed bad anxiety when i was kindergarten. I was scares that whenever...
    blankaspaper blankaspaper 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 18

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    I Have Bipolar

    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, last year while travelling abroad. My episodes are very manic followed by depression once my medication (Lithium and Olanazepine) have stabilised me. Being ill in a psychiatric hospital in a foreign country made it even more traumatic...
    crazyone crazyone 21-25, F 12 Responses Jul 20, 2006

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    My father had schizophrenia.

    I have not been diagnosed with schizophrenia, but I have been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, OCD, schizoaffective disorder, and psychosis. I am treated for the illnesses so 90% of the time, the illnesses are controlled. It has really affected my family and...
    euphorian euphorian 16-17, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I suffer from anxiety

    and depression . I posted this to let everyone know that there not alone !
    adaytothehorizon adaytothehorizon 16-17, F 2 Responses May 15

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    My official diagnosis is borderline-rapid

    cycling manic depressive disorder with anxiety. For those who don't understand that completely it means I have borderline personality disorder and rapid cycling bipolar and I have panic attacks, the kind that leave you on the floor rocking back and forth mumbling things you don...
    SeraphineL SeraphineL 22-25, F Aug 3

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    Paranoid schizophrenia.

    Had it for a long time now. I don't like it when some people pretend they have it just to get sympathy or sound cool, schizophrenia is terrifying sometimes. But at the same time I do believe I sometimes see, notice or hear important things other people can't. My therapist treats...
    Roslein Roslein 18-21, F 9 Responses Jul 4

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    Diagnosed with Bipolar,

    BDD and PTSD. And all of them developed because of my mother. Man must be great not being able to move out and stay with the woman that triggers you and kills you from inside every day, huh. Lately my aggressive behavior got worse too but I can't get help because my mom...
    weidenkaetzchen weidenkaetzchen 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2008,

    a diagnosis which my family has refused to accept and just think I have mood swings and just choose to be difficult. I also struggle with binge eating disorder and feelings of self loathing as well as constantly fighting the urge to end it all. I feel so misunderstood and alone...
    Thin234 Thin234 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 15

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    For about 4 years now I have suffered with

    depression, and each year it has gotten worse. Starting out with avoiding people amd feeling sad more than normal, to feeling even sadder, then eventually suicidal thoughts and now suicidal attempts. I have no one I can go to for help, people where I live are either complete...
    Halcandra Halcandra 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 15

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    Since I was little I had a huge fear of talking

    to people. I'd always been labelled 'shy' by people. I always thought it was shyness that I couldn't talk to people out of fear. After all, I was labelled as shy all along. It wasn't till I turned around 16 or 17 I was told I had social phobia. I didn't take any notice of the...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45, T 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Totally new to this..

    ... So here you go! I've been struggling with mental illnesses for well over 18 years now. At first I was diagnosed as manic-depressive which the psychiatrist wanted to put me on meds, great right? Wrong, my mother refused the medication, the diagnoses, and so on. This continued...
    accaliaraynne accaliaraynne 26-30, F 4 Responses Sep 11

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    I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety

    disorder. (GAD) I think I may also have borderline personality disorder. (BPD)
    imJboy2001 imJboy2001 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 20

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    Yes, Sadly, I'm Bipolar. ...

    Yes, sadly, I'm bipolar. Not treated at this time, due to a bad experience with the local state-run programme. Maybe if I ever get rich (yeah, right, dream on) I can pick my own person to treat me, who'll treat me like a human being and not a fall asleep during session, and yell...
    whovian whovian 46-50, F 1 Response Apr 1, 2007

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    It's simple I want to die.

    For the past year it's what I've wanted. Too bad I could never do it
    Sara2255 Sara2255 13-15, F 4 Responses Sep 11

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    People think I'm a freak.

    I've lost friends and I can't make new ones. I don't know what to do anymore. I wish I could go back a year before meds and therapy. Just let Emerald live all the time. :'(
    fieryred808 fieryred808 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I want to start by saying

    that the people who think mental illnesses dont exist are ignorant and lucky because they cant even understand what its like. Anyway, i have serious anxiety that has lead to stomach ulcers. I have depression, panic (attack) disorder, and what my doctors have labeled as "early...
    Ellameno Ellameno 18-21, F 2 Responses May 24

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