I Have a Mental Illness

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    Has anyone here ever taken Abilify

    and if so, what are your thoughts? I have just started this new med along with what i'm already taking, and so far, i feel sick to my stomach after taking it and also headachy...Dr said that these symptoms should pass in a few days and to keep taking it? So basically I'm...
    DaydreamingSleepwalker DaydreamingSleepwalker
    41-45, F
    6 Responses Apr 1

    Anyone with PTSD ever taken Prazosin

    for it before? What was your experience starting it?
    Hush92 Hush92
    18-21, F
    Apr 15

    Today has been one of the worst in a while.

    ...i don't even know how I'm here writing this. I have had 3 full blown panic attacks within 2 hours. I felt like I was dying. Then after that, which NOW is still after that, I am crying my eyeballs out. I can barely see the screen. I hate this so much!!!!!!! Im literally just...
    DaydreamingSleepwalker DaydreamingSleepwalker
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Apr 10

    Tomorrow will be my second therapy appointment.

    Let's hope it goes better than last time. Yeah, I'm really not feeling it.
    DaydreamingSleepwalker DaydreamingSleepwalker
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Apr 5

    If you have a mental illness.

    . Anything that makes you happy is clouded. It's black and white, there is no grey area. To find something, or someone that makes me truly happy is a rare occurrence. So when I find something, I don't plan on letting it get away that easily. I like my landlord.. Let's call him 'J...
    EverlyLeex EverlyLeex
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 18

    It's weird because I haven't felt the

    drowsiness from my Zoloft in nearly a week now and suddenly it's back? Coincidentally it's also appearing on a day where my depression started to spike again....this morning I was getting that unbearable feeling again and almost didn't go to class.....and then once I took the...
    Hush92 Hush92
    18-21, F
    Mar 23

    This update will be short

    because there's not much to say. I feel the same mentally (well worse a little) and absolutely terrible physically. I think if I vomit one more time, it will not be good. i don't see what's left. i am hot and cold back and forth, have a headache and a heartache. im so tired of...
    DaydreamingSleepwalker DaydreamingSleepwalker
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 20

    Or that is what I feel I have!

    Im a good guy but when it comes to relationship what matters for me is that the girl Im with be very much dominant I love to be bossed around and humiliated so much! I tried to be with an averange girl you know the classic kind of gfs with all the drama and stuff but I couldn't...
    Redano Redano
    26-30, M
    Mar 28

    I have anixety, ADD,

    and i have OCD tendencies, but not OCD they dont no why i have the tendencies. I sometimes wish i did have offical OCD so at least i can be diagnosed and helped
    whereiamfree whereiamfree
    13-15, F
    Mar 22

    You know what ****** me off?

    When people wish mental illnesses on themselves. As if having Depression, Anxiety, Panic attacks, Borderline Personality Disorder, Complex PTSD and Dissociative Identity Disorder is some kind of fun life to live. I am SO MUCH more than my mental disorders. I have spent...
    Inevitablyflawed Inevitablyflawed
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 30, 2015

    Say Hello To My Little Friend.

    WHY DEPRESSION IS THE SUCKIEST ACQUAINTANCE OF ALL TIME. I have a friend. Well, he’s not a friend exactly. More of an unruly houseguest who always overstays his welcome. Never announces he’s coming. Always leaves the place a mess. His name is depression, & he’s a pain in...
    blehtolife blehtolife
    22-25, F
    19 Responses Mar 25, 2012

    Aspergers

    If I showed you the real me would it still be the same? Explained Ive got a gun, but I've got no aim? No violence or love, just my conscience as a token. That its not my fault my compass is broken. I cant feel what you feel, but why cant I pretend? I know that I would...
    ShadowAce7125 ShadowAce7125
    22-25, M
    6 Responses Nov 5, 2009

    Today I realized I spend at minimum an hour a

    day every day thinking about harming, seriously harming or killing myself. Minimum. I probably spend another hour minimum thinking of harming other people. Not because I necessarily want to hurt other people, it's either a PTSD reaction or a desire to have people realize there...
    Hush92 Hush92
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 23

    This is my testimony of having a mental illness

    - obsessive compulsive disorder. It does get better, I promise you that! Well I might as well start at the beginning, growing up I was always shy but being an introvert never stopped me from running the roads all the or being involved in activities like soccer, dance, baton, I...
    chelseystorys chelseystorys
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 16, 2014

    Paranoid schizophrenia.

    Had it for a long time now. I don't like it when some people pretend they have it just to get sympathy or sound cool, schizophrenia is terrifying sometimes. But at the same time I do believe I sometimes see, notice or hear important things other people can't. My therapist treats...
    Roslein Roslein
    18-21, F
    9 Responses Jul 4, 2014

    sometimes the shittiest things can roam through

    my head. horrible things, I can control it at times but other times they all pop into my head all at once and then I get those overwhelmed/anxiety feeling. as much as I wanna "complain" and just shout out all my bad feelings and thoughts I don't. sometimes it seems like it's too...
    mentallyhigh mentallyhigh
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 16

    Today has been really dark.

    Started out bright and early with complete zombie-like state which quickly turned into anxiety, then all the other crap that goes along with it. I still feel bad for telling that man all of what I told him. So, I go to get my new meds filled (more anxiety leaving) and low and...
    DaydreamingSleepwalker DaydreamingSleepwalker
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Mar 30

    I've never really been officially diagnosed,

    except with ADD, but I've been depressed/anxious/dissociating for as long as I can remember. I have spiritual beliefs but honestly the best way I can describe it is that everything is energy, so I think in terms of energy. My dissociation causes me to be quiet a lot and I can't...
    strawberryletter22 strawberryletter22
    18-21, F
    Apr 5

    My Story Of Schizophrenia And Bullimia

    I grew up as a really happy, outgoing child. Nothing ever really had seemed to bother me. I had a great imagination and always used to make people laugh. As the years went by my family started to fall apart, I had lost two siblings in a matter of 8months which sent my mother and...
    Skye90 Skye90
    22-25, F
    8 Responses Nov 30, 2012

    Trauma Recovery Is Scary!

    I am not one to say, "why me?!" People have had it a lot worse than I have in life. As I get older, I'm finding that therapy just isn't enough. My rage is accelerating at the injustices done to me and done to other children and women. I fear that I will take my own life in...
    Georgie1962 Georgie1962
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Aug 25, 2013

    It's so weird being in a psychology class

    and thinking I have "yep I have that" every time a new disorder is named, but it also helps you understand why you have those conditions it opens your mind to more than the words "you are depressed" you are now playing the psychiatrist and evaluating yourself figuring out why...
    BeautifullyAmiss BeautifullyAmiss
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 14, 2014

    I can't look in the mirror without feeling like

    a lot is missing. I always feel like I'm very unattractive... I don't say it for attention, I've felt that way almost all my life. lately I haven't been able to look in the mirror without wanting to cry. I always think of ways I can look better. lose weight, wear make up...
    mentallyhigh mentallyhigh
    18-21, F
    9 Responses Sep 28, 2015

    I had a massive med issues at the eating

    disorder clinic I was at this December. I started believing full heartily that they were pumping calories in to the air and water making me obese. I thought they were fatting me up to make me in to the stuff they put in feeding tubes. Grinding my fat body in to the creamy liquid...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 18, 2015

    This is my first time writing on here.

    I didn'r know where else to go. I have anxiety and depression . It's 9:40am and I havent slept yet. I've been having suicidal thoughts all night. I went and cut myself instead to relieve all this pain I've been feeling.
    saveme26 saveme26
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 23

    I slept almost all day today

    and when I woke up I felt like I was stoned, just very weird. It took a long time to wear off. Maybe the Zoloft is making me too sleepy.
    Hush92 Hush92
    18-21, F
    Apr 16

    I Have Bipolar

    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, last year while travelling abroad. My episodes are very manic followed by depression once my medication (Lithium and Olanazepine) have stabilised me. Being ill in a psychiatric hospital in a foreign country made it even more traumatic...
    crazyone crazyone
    22-25, F
    11 Responses Jul 20, 2006

    I just had a debate with Jehovah's Witness

    about anxiety and depression. They provided the following bible verse: [Matthew 6:25-34 34: Therefore don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of it's own.] Unfortunately for millions of people, mental illnesses are not that...
    LuckyInTheSkyWithDiamonds LuckyInTheSkyWithDiamonds
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 1, 2015

    Is there anything/app/ site

    where we can have Community?
    Dahlia86 Dahlia86
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 24

    Even if it doesn't stop.

    The voices and the forces with the hallucinations that follow. Even if it doesn't stop, what more can I do besides take my medicine and hope I stay together long enough to pass down my genes? Just long enough to have a child that will be nothing like me. Maybe it'll never...
    Darktooth41 Darktooth41
    18-21, M
    Apr 15

    Hello! This is my personal story of living

    with schizophrenia: I used to tell people "I have a bad brain." I am not going to say I suffer from schizophrenia but rather I endure and cope with it. My name is Amy Kay and I have schizophrenia. I do not want to hurt others or myself. Neither do I hear voices and I no...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    6 Responses Feb 10, 2015

    Dear not mentally ill people trying to give me

    advice: If I had so much control over my illness that I "wouldn't let it affect me", I wouldn't be ******* ill. That is what illnesses do. Thank you
    Atmosfaerie Atmosfaerie
    22-25
    7 Responses Jun 17, 2015

    Okay let's get this done I have A personality

    disorder Bipolar ADD OCD Anxiety Had anorexia Had bulimia MD I think that's it. But I could be missing one. No wonder I'm single
    lexiamber lexiamber
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Nov 26, 2015

    I am beginning to not worry

    as much about it. I guess you could say I choice not to treat it. I have borderline personality disorder. It ******* sucks because well, I just feel mentally exhausted the majority of the time but sometimes when I inhale I can actually smell the air instead of constantly...
    ashless ashless
    22-25, F
    3 Responses May 13, 2015
    sarahbear420 sarahbear420
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jul 26, 2015

    Second visit to psychiatrist.

    He says I'm having a bad reaction to one of the meds and changed it...Now he's saying there may be more to this and wants blood work to check thyroid levels. i barely made it there and back between the nausea (had to stop again...ugh) and the zombie like state I'm in or whatever...
    DaydreamingSleepwalker DaydreamingSleepwalker
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 22

    Yes, i do have a mental illness,

    actually i got a few but mostly severe depression and i know what its like to not have noone there for you and especially when you have came out and no one will except that or be happy for you so if anyone wants to talk or get close you know where to find me
    youngliveandkicking youngliveandkicking
    13-15, F
    Apr 19

    I have at least four,

    diagnosed. Depression, anxiety, OCD, PTSD... And possible bipolar disorder. - "Mental illnesses. They are no less real than physical illnesses, and often *MORE* debilitating. No, I cannot "get over" my depression. I will not "learn to be better" if you practice tough love. I am...
    iFortiTude iFortiTude
    31-35
    1 Response Feb 18, 2015

    You know what I dislike very much?

    When people act like mental illness doesn't exist. You know what I also dislike? The people that force people to think that way, it seems a lot of people, especially teenagers think it's cute or cool to pretend to hear voices, struggle with hurting your self, or like a friend I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Feb 10, 2015

    Thanks to the few of you

    who have supported and offered advice to me. Tomorrow will be the third trip to psych plus start therapy for the first time. I am really not doing so well and am freaking out about my appt. There's this voice I keep hearing telling me that I'm doing the right thing, keep at it...
    DaydreamingSleepwalker DaydreamingSleepwalker
    41-45, F
    1 Response Mar 28

    Feeling really empty

    and super bored!! I hate that feeling, or I guess lack of feelings. lol
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Sep 5, 2015

    Sometimes my anxiety

    and OCD tendencies are so debilitating that i cant type because i know my fingers aren't touching the exact same letters and keys at the exact same time.
    whereiamfree whereiamfree
    13-15, F
    Mar 22

    Myths about the top 10 most common mental

    illnesses: 10. Antisocial Personality Disorder: Myth: Somebody who avoids social interaction is “antisocial”. Truth: Many people refer to someone who is reluctant to participate in social situations as “antisocial”. In fact, these people are often pro-social. Antisocial...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 1, 2015

    I have bipolar depression

    and aspregers with anxiety!
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 6

    Tonight is my first night going to sleep

    without Ativan. (With therapist approval) I'm scared I will have body memories again, or a flashback. I hope everything goes ok. I can't be on benzos forever, I can't. I hope Abilify is enough to stave them off.
    Hush92 Hush92
    18-21, F
    Apr 2

    Question for people on antidepressants

    specifically anyone on zoloft. Do you get a crash after a certain amount of hours? Like where you start trembling and then just feel really awful, like all depression/anxiety hits you at once?
    Hush92 Hush92
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Apr 6

    I Have Bipolar Disorder.

    This is something that I find not easy to talk or write about. Society in general tends to see mental illness as different to other physical illnesses. We all know of the remarks; kids grow up with them; looney, mad, crazy. An illness of the brain is seen as different to an...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    6 Responses Sep 23, 2013

    I rather be dead then alive.

    I'm already dead so it's so much easier to do that then to be alive.
    Ohanablue Ohanablue
    16-17, F
    Apr 9

    So this is day three of the new med

    and i'm still very sick. Physically, the exact same as yesterday. Emotionally, much, much darker. that's it, short and sweet, no need rehashing yesterday i guess.
    DaydreamingSleepwalker DaydreamingSleepwalker
    41-45, F
    Apr 3

    I have a mental illness

    that makes me act younger then what I am I'm 17 yet the doctors say my mind is 7 and I still wet my bed and have accidents during the day too it's embarrassing
    bedwetterjessica2003 bedwetterjessica2003
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Oct 7, 2015

    Anybody else really struggle seeing a therapist?

    I was supposed to go see my new one this past Thursday but skipped it because I was having so much anxiety. Of course the day after I end up having a bad depressive episode and end up quitting my job. Now all I wish I could do is talk to someone to get my life back on track.
    lvk80 lvk80
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 2

    Today I went to my second therapy session.

    It went almost exactly the same as last week. He says I have to learn to breathe correctly and practice, practice, practice. I guess I've been breathing wrong my whole life, he says probably so. Now I have a 400 some odd page workbook to work through until next time I see him...
    DaydreamingSleepwalker DaydreamingSleepwalker
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Apr 6

    Have a good day my friends.

    Life is hard for us but we have survived 100% of our worst days. I admire you guys and how hard you work to deal with life with an mental illness. We are warriors and the hero of our own story.
    Dahlia86 Dahlia86
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 22
    dontcrossmyborderline dontcrossmyborderline
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 30

    On The Borderline...

    A few years ago, I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder.. I had never heard of it.. On the border of what? Sanity and batshit crazy? Probably. but it was a relief to finally have a "name" for the emotional roller coaster is been on for so long. Imagine the emotions...
    SweetGG SweetGG
    31-35, F
    7 Responses Oct 15, 2013

    Those of u who have lots of serious mental

    problems. Do you talk about it with ppl? Do u let them know? Or do u keep completely quiet about it?? I tend to tell ppl but I'm starting to think it's not the best choice.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    12 Responses Aug 18, 2015

    Next week my Abilify dose is going to be raised

    to 4 mg. I'm mildly concerned about this because of the nausea side effect I've been getting. I've never actually thrown up yet, but I've gotten s t r o n g nausea during a) times of exertion, like getting up too fast, waking up too fast, running to catch buses, etc and b) if I...
    Hush92 Hush92
    18-21, F
    Apr 1

    and i feel worse now

    than when i started this journey. I don't know if this new med will work...it makes me sick, which I already said yesterday and i know it's supposed to better in a few days. But what i'm talking about is the mental part. I just feel like giving up. i'm so tired and so sick all...
    DaydreamingSleepwalker DaydreamingSleepwalker
    41-45, F
    1 Response Apr 2

    What makes me really upset

    and angry is when people make fun of mental ilness'. Poeple dont just randomly choose to feel like that, for attention or whatever reason some of ye think, they have no control over it happening to them.. I wouldnt wish it on a single person but dont dare ever judge something...
    amyslatts amyslatts
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jun 27, 2014

    I wish I never told anyone about my mental

    illness I only have anxiety and depression, but now that I have a mental illness it feels like there is a stigma that follows me everywhere I go no matter what relationship I'm in whether family, friends or partners and I can't get away from it it hurts because I find people try...
    theincarnated1 theincarnated1
    31-35
    5 Responses May 20, 2015

    Mental illness changes you.

    You start to do things you always swore you'd never do. You get to a point you always sworw you'd never get to. You look back at who you used to think you were, and it makes you sad because you fear you've gone too far to ever go back. The desperation that comes with mental...
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow
    18-21, T
    4 Responses Aug 27, 2015
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