I Have a Mental Illness

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    Dear not mentally ill people trying to give me

    advice: If I had so much control over my illness that I "wouldn't let it affect me", I wouldn't be ******* ill. That is what illnesses do. Thank you
    Atmosfaerie Atmosfaerie
    7 Responses Jun 17, 2015

    I Have Bipolar

    I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, last year while travelling abroad. My episodes are very manic followed by depression once my medication (Lithium and Olanazepine) have stabilised me. Being ill in a psychiatric hospital in a foreign country made it even more traumatic...
    crazyone crazyone
    22-25, F
    11 Responses Jul 20, 2006

    Hello! This is my personal story of living

    with schizophrenia: I used to tell people "I have a bad brain." I am not going to say I suffer from schizophrenia but rather I endure and cope with it. My name is Amy Kay and I have schizophrenia. I do not want to hurt others or myself. Neither do I hear voices and I no...
    deleted deleted
    6 Responses Feb 10, 2015

    I can't look in the mirror without feeling like

    a lot is missing. I always feel like I'm very unattractive... I don't say it for attention, I've felt that way almost all my life. lately I haven't been able to look in the mirror without wanting to cry. I always think of ways I can look better. lose weight, wear make up...
    mentallyhigh mentallyhigh
    22-25, F
    9 Responses Sep 28, 2015
    sarahbear420 sarahbear420
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 26, 2015

    Myths about the top 10 most common mental

    illnesses: 10. Antisocial Personality Disorder: Myth: Somebody who avoids social interaction is “antisocial”. Truth: Many people refer to someone who is reluctant to participate in social situations as “antisocial”. In fact, these people are often pro-social. Antisocial...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Mar 1, 2015

    My Story Of Schizophrenia And Bullimia

    I grew up as a really happy, outgoing child. Nothing ever really had seemed to bother me. I had a great imagination and always used to make people laugh. As the years went by my family started to fall apart, I had lost two siblings in a matter of 8months which sent my mother and...
    Skye90 Skye90
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Nov 30, 2012

    Feeling really empty

    and super bored!! I hate that feeling, or I guess lack of feelings. lol
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Sep 5, 2015

    You know what ****** me off?

    When people wish mental illnesses on themselves. As if having Depression, Anxiety, Panic attacks, Borderline Personality Disorder, Complex PTSD and Dissociative Identity Disorder is some kind of fun life to live. I am SO MUCH more than my mental disorders. I have spent...
    Inevitablyflawed Inevitablyflawed
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 30, 2015

    Trauma Recovery Is Scary!

    I am not one to say, "why me?!" People have had it a lot worse than I have in life. As I get older, I'm finding that therapy just isn't enough. My rage is accelerating at the injustices done to me and done to other children and women. I fear that I will take my own life in...
    Georgie1962 Georgie1962
    51-55, F
    2 Responses Aug 25, 2013


    If I showed you the real me would it still be the same? Explained Ive got a gun, but I've got no aim? No violence or love, just my conscience as a token. That its not my fault my compass is broken. I cant feel what you feel, but why cant I pretend? I know that I would...
    ShadowAce7125 ShadowAce7125
    26-30, M
    6 Responses Nov 5, 2009

    You know what I dislike very much?

    When people act like mental illness doesn't exist. You know what I also dislike? The people that force people to think that way, it seems a lot of people, especially teenagers think it's cute or cool to pretend to hear voices, struggle with hurting your self, or like a friend I...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Feb 10, 2015

    Those of u who have lots of serious mental

    problems. Do you talk about it with ppl? Do u let them know? Or do u keep completely quiet about it?? I tend to tell ppl but I'm starting to think it's not the best choice.
    deleted deleted
    12 Responses Aug 18, 2015

    I am beginning to not worry

    as much about it. I guess you could say I choice not to treat it. I have borderline personality disorder. It ******* sucks because well, I just feel mentally exhausted the majority of the time but sometimes when I inhale I can actually smell the air instead of constantly...
    ashless ashless
    26-30, F
    3 Responses May 13, 2015

    I wish I never told anyone about my mental

    illness I only have anxiety and depression, but now that I have a mental illness it feels like there is a stigma that follows me everywhere I go no matter what relationship I'm in whether family, friends or partners and I can't get away from it it hurts because I find people try...
    theincarnated1 theincarnated1
    4 Responses May 20, 2015

    I just had a debate with Jehovah's Witness

    about anxiety and depression. They provided the following bible verse: [Matthew 6:25-34 34: Therefore don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of it's own.] Unfortunately for millions of people, mental illnesses are not that...
    LuckyInTheSkyWithDiamonds LuckyInTheSkyWithDiamonds
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Sep 1, 2015

    I have a mental illness

    that makes me act younger then what I am I'm 17 yet the doctors say my mind is 7 and I still wet my bed and have accidents during the day too it's embarrassing
    bedwetterjessica2003 bedwetterjessica2003
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Oct 7, 2015

    It's so weird being in a psychology class

    and thinking I have "yep I have that" every time a new disorder is named, but it also helps you understand why you have those conditions it opens your mind to more than the words "you are depressed" you are now playing the psychiatrist and evaluating yourself figuring out why...
    BeautifullyAmiss BeautifullyAmiss
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 14, 2014

    Mental illness changes you.

    You start to do things you always swore you'd never do. You get to a point you always sworw you'd never get to. You look back at who you used to think you were, and it makes you sad because you fear you've gone too far to ever go back. The desperation that comes with mental...
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow
    18-21, T
    4 Responses Aug 27, 2015

    I had a massive med issues at the eating

    disorder clinic I was at this December. I started believing full heartily that they were pumping calories in to the air and water making me obese. I thought they were fatting me up to make me in to the stuff they put in feeding tubes. Grinding my fat body in to the creamy liquid...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 18, 2015

    Okay let's get this done I have A personality

    disorder Bipolar ADD OCD Anxiety Had anorexia Had bulimia MD I think that's it. But I could be missing one. No wonder I'm single
    lexiamber lexiamber
    22-25, F
    8 Responses Nov 26, 2015

    sometimes the shittiest things can roam through

    my head. horrible things, I can control it at times but other times they all pop into my head all at once and then I get those overwhelmed/anxiety feeling. as much as I wanna "complain" and just shout out all my bad feelings and thoughts I don't. sometimes it seems like it's too...
    mentallyhigh mentallyhigh
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 16, 2016

    If you have a mental illness.

    . Anything that makes you happy is clouded. It's black and white, there is no grey area. To find something, or someone that makes me truly happy is a rare occurrence. So when I find something, I don't plan on letting it get away that easily. I like my landlord.. Let's call him 'J...
    EverlyLeex EverlyLeex
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 18, 2016

    On The Borderline...

    A few years ago, I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder.. I had never heard of it.. On the border of what? Sanity and batshit crazy? Probably. but it was a relief to finally have a "name" for the emotional roller coaster is been on for so long. Imagine the emotions...
    SweetGG SweetGG
    31-35, F
    7 Responses Oct 15, 2013

    I Have Bipolar Disorder.

    This is something that I find not easy to talk or write about. Society in general tends to see mental illness as different to other physical illnesses. We all know of the remarks; kids grow up with them; looney, mad, crazy. An illness of the brain is seen as different to an...
    deleted deleted
    6 Responses Sep 23, 2013

    Paranoid schizophrenia.

    Had it for a long time now. I don't like it when some people pretend they have it just to get sympathy or sound cool, schizophrenia is terrifying sometimes. But at the same time I do believe I sometimes see, notice or hear important things other people can't. My therapist treats...
    Roslein Roslein
    22-25, F
    9 Responses Jul 4, 2014

    This is my testimony of having a mental illness

    - obsessive compulsive disorder. It does get better, I promise you that! Well I might as well start at the beginning, growing up I was always shy but being an introvert never stopped me from running the roads all the or being involved in activities like soccer, dance, baton, I...
    chelseystorys chelseystorys
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 16, 2014

    What makes me really upset

    and angry is when people make fun of mental ilness'. Poeple dont just randomly choose to feel like that, for attention or whatever reason some of ye think, they have no control over it happening to them.. I wouldnt wish it on a single person but dont dare ever judge something...
    amyslatts amyslatts
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jun 27, 2014

    I have at least four,

    diagnosed. Depression, anxiety, OCD, PTSD... And possible bipolar disorder. - "Mental illnesses. They are no less real than physical illnesses, and often *MORE* debilitating. No, I cannot "get over" my depression. I will not "learn to be better" if you practice tough love. I am...
    iFortiTude iFortiTude
    1 Response Feb 18, 2015

    Today has been really dark.

    Started out bright and early with complete zombie-like state which quickly turned into anxiety, then all the other crap that goes along with it. I still feel bad for telling that man all of what I told him. So, I go to get my new meds filled (more anxiety leaving) and low and...
    DaydreamingSleepwalker DaydreamingSleepwalker
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Mar 30, 2016

    anyone been experiencing 'brain fog' what

    causes this? I can't tell what's real anymore..
    deleted deleted
    8 Responses Jan 21, 2016
    kittenmajor kittenmajor
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Feb 20, 2016

    I have post traumatic stress,

    anxiety depression & borderline personality disorder and I'm okay with that
    fakeisforbidden fakeisforbidden
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Oct 14, 2015

    Evil Speaks Yet Do Not Listen

    So evil speaks to you and tells lies about you to make you feel BAD about yourself and pretends to be the voices of other people so you think that person is talking about you when they are not! Clever, but not so clever because I know and I have read parts of The Bible! People...
    Jan 15, 2013

    I have struggled for years with depression,

    anxiety, and PTSD, all of which led to my struggle with self harm. I have done a lot of work over the years to develop coping skills and crisis management plans for when I have the urge to cut, and it has all paid off. Today is my three year mark of no self harm.
    katnoelle14 katnoelle14
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Oct 2, 2014

    What I hate most are the people

    who don't even have the disorder/illness/disease whatever you want to call it and they try to take over and tell you what to do. Like no, back up. If you don't have it, how should you know what I'm going through. Autism, A.D.H.D, Narcolepsy, Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, you don't...
    usmcdaughter usmcdaughter
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jul 1, 2014

    Im happy to say I reached my goal today; it's

    been a year since I have been out of the hospital! There's been times that I thought I wouldn't make it but I did it!
    Dahlia86 Dahlia86
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Jul 11, 2015

    I have catatonic schizophrenia.

    It causes hallucinations, self harm urges, and loss of motor control. I have become very paranoid because of it. I have a dark and scary mind. I need help.
    EmilyM18 EmilyM18
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Sep 16, 2015

    Bulimia isn't a long haired,

    pretty girl bending over the toilet with a tragically beautiful face on. It's a puffed, miserable face with vomit dripping from its chin and a burning nose bleed. Anorexia isn't a thin figure shyly refusing a cupcake. It's hair growing all over your malnourished body, skin...
    RicksRightNip420 RicksRightNip420
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 22, 2015

      My name is Jaydie

    and I am 15 years old. A few months ago, I was diagnosed with depersonalisation/derealisation, which causes symptoms such as feeling unreal, not alive, numb, in a dream like world and extremely depressed. I have been dealing with this for a while now and it is causing me great...
    Jaydkins Jaydkins
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 3, 2015

    counseling meditation walking talking to good

    friends reading good books Even though i have been trying to do my best..this couple of months. Sometimes i just have to waiting for the storm to pass.
    JerryJerryA JerryJerryA
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Feb 16, 2015

    ...and that is really hard

    for me to say. When I was a kid I would try and act 'crazy' to get people's attention, a cry for help kind of. I wanted to be sick, or hurt or mental because I was hurting so much on the inside all the time and no one knew it. I was desperate for someone to see my anguish. But I...
    PrettiestPirate PrettiestPirate
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Nov 29, 2015

    I am very scarred, Oh

    so SCARRED. I go to court next week for my SSDI clam. This well be the 3rd time in front of a Judge. i have been denied 3 times already and i am worried it will happen again. My lawyer tells me not worry about the outcome. I do. The last day i worked was 4/11/11 and my last...
    nevets68 nevets68
    46-50, M
    4 Responses Nov 18, 2015

    I'm soon to be 45, been diagnosed with

    depression, anxiety & panic disorders. I grew up in an alcoholic house & at wound up in a coma @ 16 so my mind is truly screwed. been sober 11 months & am still struggling ...
    Bbwasssniffer Bbwasssniffer
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Feb 20, 2016

    I personally feel as

    though this needs to be said. Please do not demean those with clinical anxiety by claiming that you, too, have anxiety. As human beings, we all experience anxiety. There's a huge divide between "having anxiety" and being diagnosed with anxiety. The feeling of constant anxiety...
    Blizzardpaw Blizzardpaw
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 5, 2015

    anxiety and ptsd. I control it with meditation

    and yoga :) and keeping busy
    siciliana88 siciliana88
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 4, 2016

    Dissociative Identity Disorder/DID/formally

    known as MPD or multiple personality disorder. A lot of people have no idea what it means so I decided to write something about it and get some things out of the way. First of all I will answer the questions people ask me most:-So, you are schizophrenic?*No! Absolutely not, that...
    Meliantha Meliantha
    18-21, F
    Aug 22, 2015

    Support appreciated. These are the diagnoses

    I've received over the years from ages 9-21. Well, not all of them have been diagnosed but there is high probability that I have them or have variations of them. I have been diagnosed with PTSD but quite possibly have C-PTSD (as well as other trauma-related disorders) I show...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived
    26-30, F
    7 Responses Jan 18, 2015

    I'm not getting the help I need.

    I'm stuck in the same spot I've been in for 3 months. Being stagnant is not human - we are made to change & adapt. I have a limited time on this planet, & I want to experience everything awe inspiring about it. Being trapped in my own mind redefined the word 'prison'.
    lindsaymaegan lindsaymaegan
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jul 15, 2014

    Tightness crushes my chest,

    And I can't breath, The only time I can escape, Is when I fall asleep. I fear the walls are closing in, Our time is passing by too slow, Or sometimes it feels as if there's nowhere to go. From high to low, And anxious to calm, From one pole to another, And trying to survive...
    HolidaySpice HolidaySpice
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 17, 2014

    I've lived my life Flying with broken wings A

    shattered soul And destroyed dreams My mind makes up lies Things that are not true Saying things like you're ugly And no one loves you Killing myself would be a sin But myself killing me is fine Either way I end up dead The cause being suicide I'm tortured by my...
    Piercedprincess17 Piercedprincess17
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 12, 2015

    I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia1980

    at age 19. Hey, when I first got sick, I was REALLY sick. Now I have a semblance of a normal life. But when I was psychotic my first two years of my illness when I was 19-21, I had no idea or clue if I would EVER get better. I remember in the middle of my suffering that I read...
    555calif 555calif
    51-55, M
    1 Response Sep 15, 2015

    I am both bipolar type 1 (manic/mixed episodes)

    and I have dissociative identity disorder. (DID) if you're not sure what to make of that diagnosis, it used to be called multiple personality disorder, so that should give you an idea. I was just prescribed Prozac because I was stuck in a really bad depressive episode. It's...
    Jakesantiiinked Jakesantiiinked
    22-25, M
    Jul 6, 2015

    Woke up with absolutely no motivation to do

    anything. I don't want to be here. I can't face leaving the house and pretending to be happy at my evening class tonight. I just can't do it. I just feel completely blank, empty and lifeless. There's really no other way to explain it than those three words. The feeling is so...
    EverlyLeex EverlyLeex
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 26, 2016

    Last night I told someone in my life about my

    psychotic disorder for the first time ever. She responded really well. She didn't really know anything about psychotic disorders and wanted to learn more about them because her brother had also been diagnosed with one. We talked for a while. She promised she would stay my friend...
    Hush92 Hush92
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 13, 2016

    The thing with borderline personality is

    that the lows are always the ******* same. The same thoughts cycle through your mind just as they did the first time. But they feel like new. They're fresh, and they're raging wild and strong. But people don't get that. They don't feel that lump in your throat you're fighting...
    Inevitablyflawed Inevitablyflawed
    22-25, F
    Nov 7, 2015
    Itsssnatalie Itsssnatalie
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 15, 2015

    Yes, Sadly, I'm Bipolar. ...

    Yes, sadly, I'm bipolar. Not treated at this time, due to a bad experience with the local state-run programme. Maybe if I ever get rich (yeah, right, dream on) I can pick my own person to treat me, who'll treat me like a human being and not a fall asleep during session, and yell...
    whovian whovian
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Apr 1, 2007

    I want to start by saying

    that the people who think mental illnesses dont exist are ignorant and lucky because they cant even understand what its like. Anyway, i have serious anxiety that has lead to stomach ulcers. I have depression, panic (attack) disorder, and what my doctors have labeled as "early...
    Ellameno Ellameno
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 24, 2014

    I'm not entirely sure how cast my illnesses are,

    but I know for a fact that I have more than anxiety and depression. I hear voices, I act a lot differently around a lot of people, I hear things and see things at night, and there are a few more things but I can't seem to remember them. NO I DONT HAVE ALZHEIMER'S! XD Anyways...
    MadiofAsgard MadiofAsgard
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Apr 28, 2015
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