I Have A Mind That Keeps Me Awake At Night

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    It's 3am and my mind won't stop thinking about

    the worst possible scenarios. What if I end up getting kidnapped? What if I end up in the hospital? What if I finally admit I have feelings for someone (I seriously hope I'm not in love...)? My head is full of "what ifs." Sometimes, I can't even walk outside without getting a...
    MeeeKazz MeeeKazz
    18-21, F
    Feb 5, 2016
    boo864 boo864
    31-35, F
    Nov 23, 2015

    I believe i have a submissive nature i realized

    i have never been able to look a man in the eye i always cast my eyes down i always catch myself saying yes sir or no sir in my soft voice i always feel i need to please him.......
    Eroticwriter34 Eroticwriter34
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 29, 2015

    I sometimes wish there was an off button.

    Sometimes I'm awake all night just thinking about everything that I'm going through and it just makes me insane. It's like insomnia but 20 times worse. I just wish everything in my life would just stop being as crazy as it is. I just need some time to relax I guess some time for...
    lovedownunder lovedownunder
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 6, 2014

    Sometimes I have so much to think about!

    It's especially true of me on the evenings after I've been to Kabbalah classes. It's also true when those sexual 'accidents' have happened.
    Astrucbmt Astrucbmt
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Sep 19, 2015

    When I go to sleep, I end up thinking about

    everything, my past and all the mistakes I have all the people meaning ex's I wish I never met anyone else do this??
    charbarx charbarx
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 27, 2014

    Don't know why but whenever I'm ready to hit

    the hay, when I close my eyes I just imagine nightmarish stuff like creepy dolls by my bed, things coming out at me and all that. Not sure why though 0.o
    GiddyX GiddyX
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 3, 2016

    Both good and bad, but it never seems to keep

    quiet. No wonder I can't sleep at night.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Oct 25, 2015

    I just got a whole 2 hours

    or so of sleep!!! somebody just shoot me! or better yet, knock me out!
    riverswillows riverswillows
    36-40, F
    1 Response Dec 31, 2015

    My first time at sex a long long time before,

    i was just 10 when my uncle introduced me to the wonderful world of sex, now i just can not get enough. I am at it morning, afternoon,evening and again at night. The more the m├ętier and i like fat men who have rolls of fat that i can jiggle and rub .
    kiity953 kiity953
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Jun 2, 2014

    Don't you hate it when you're lying in bed,

    wrapped up comfortably, waiting for the sweet blissful wave of sleep to pull you in... And suddenly you're like, "****, I could really do with some waffles."
    Endstar Endstar
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 16, 2014
    Hornesty Hornesty
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Aug 9, 2015

    I started taking a sleeping aid at night.

    I still wake up a couple of times, but I easily drift away again. No more thinking/analyzing/worrying in the darkness for me.
    sooz32 sooz32
    36-40, F
    Jan 16, 2016

    I feel maybe in another life I was possibly an

    owl, it's like the night is my day
    howlergirl18 howlergirl18
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Sep 28, 2015

    It's 2:15 a.m. ....I feel

    so tired and that usual headache.I really need to get some rest but I'm still wide awake and listening to this irritating sound,tik tok tik tok....It's my weakness, I can't stop thinking cause my life is being a mess...I'm trying to make some changes and I hope it works. Anyways...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Apr 23, 2015

    ever have that feeling

    that you are so tired you could fall asleep any second but then you lay down and your brain's like "LOL Jk"
    xmonsterx xmonsterx
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Jul 9, 2014

    Its never stops thinking!

    just thoughts racing all the time
    Dwgrlg Dwgrlg
    41-45, M
    Mar 31, 2016

    I have way too much energy.

    If I go out with my friends. They are usually asleep in the car on the way home.... And I'm singing and dancing as I'm driving home. Wondering where our next stop will be. I usually will exhaust my kids as well! I have a hard time sitting still during a movie (I'm better in a...
    deleted deleted
    6 Responses Feb 7, 2014

    So, I'm nearing 30. How is this possible?

    I remember being 17 like it was ******* yesterday. I still remember the **** I wore to school. I still miss the people I experienced it with. But I'm almost 30, and I'm married and we have a child and I own a home and we have dogs and I stay here while he works. I cook and clean...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Jan 4, 2015

    I. Can't. Stop. Thinking.

    The only thing that keeps me from going crazy is some melatonin and staying up until I just pass out.
    brattybitch13 brattybitch13
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Nov 23, 2015

    Sometimes at night I suddenly become aware of

    all the things I'm missing out on right now, and all the people who I'm not close to anymore, and all of the good times that will never happen again, and all the people who meant the world to me who have forgotten about me, and I get this kind of awful feeling that's kind of...
    marianajohnson marianajohnson
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 12, 2015

    My Lord do I!!! It sometimes goes to dark places

    where it shouldn't be and won't shut the **** up!
    ajb234 ajb234
    46-50, M
    1 Response Mar 25, 2015

    So to deal with my late night anxiety I've

    chosen two books the bible and 50 shades of grey. I was doing good with the bible but then I saw the 50SOG movie and wanted to check out the raved book. "JEEEEZ CRAP,term, down there". My goodness that's annoying but aside from Anastasias thoughts it's a good read. Movie was...
    KMBJuneBaby14 KMBJuneBaby14
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Sep 24, 2015

    I will go to bed tired

    as ever an wake up in 3 or 4 hrs. an watch TV an go to sleep after 3 hrs. of watching it.
    marblemuck marblemuck
    66-70, M
    1 Response Nov 4, 2015
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 8, 2015

    Nobody knows how I often feel throughout the

    nights, but it is not unusual to feel that I am dying. I have these weird thoughts going on trough my head when I log off EP and go to bed. I may seem so normal... Well I am not. Tonight is one of these nights and I can't find enough peace that would put me to sleep. I am...
    MissGaga MissGaga
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Jan 4, 2016
    Dahlia86 Dahlia86
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jan 26, 2016

    Ive been there man, I know how it is.

    I'm straight and handsome and smart, I have money and an awesome job. I talk to girls all the time and we have fun. I've been in fifty Herero relationships and one gay relationship a long time ago. I've travelled the world and done everything from farming to acting to marketing...
    SammyJD11 SammyJD11
    31-35, M
    Jan 25, 2014

    My mind is always going at a million miles an

    hour analysing everything and over thinking and keeping me up at night. Even when I have everything figured out, something always comes along for me to over analyse.
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Feb 9, 2015

    Well, it's 1am... my mind isn't going to let me

    sleep again... so it's a normal night!
    saigebeck101 saigebeck101
    16-17, F
    Dec 1, 2015
    Th3M00d Th3M00d
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 23, 2015

    I'm waiting for the one to decide.

    I just hope I am not let down once again. Ironically, people I don't value much want to be with me and ones I love more than myself just leave in despair.
    deleted deleted
    Sep 19, 2015
    Reynastaxx Reynastaxx
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 6, 2014

    I sure do, ...and it sucks.

    .the only good thing that comes out of staying up all hours of the night is the book that I am writing...though I had many sleepless nights ...I've written 3chapters so far....I guess I'll many many more sleepless nights before I actually finish the damn thing...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Oct 25, 2015

    I like sleeping, but I'll wake up at midnight

    when everyone else is in bed and think about everything. Especially in the hours 1am to 3am, which will then lead to wander around the house and outside. I sometimes wish i could become noctournal.
    WolfConstellation WolfConstellation
    18-21, F
    Feb 16, 2016

    My mind bullies me. I'm convinced

    that its goal is to make me cry myself to sleep every night. wtf.. teamwork, dear mind!... no?..ok
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 12, 2015

    Is there anyone awake

    and maybe chat?
    deleted deleted
    Sep 22, 2015


    I have lots of thoughts that keep me awake. Often they stop me from sleeping so a couple of nights ago I decided to whip out my ipod and type in what I was thinking...There's a piece of elastic tugging me back, wrapped around my body, tying me to this life.I strain against it...
    FallenAngelWOOT FallenAngelWOOT
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Mar 13, 2013

    I admit it. I have a mind

    that stays on overdrive. When I'm not doing something (rare) I'm thinking about doing something. Couple that with my being a night owl and it's a wonder that I ever sleep.
    savoy2 savoy2
    46-50, M
    1 Response Sep 24, 2015

    Well this might sounds stupid

    but sometimes I have dreams that zombies will soon attack our world so am awake all night thinking about how I will survive and how to kill them is that stupid
    ashanaB ashanaB
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Mar 20, 2016

    I can't sleep a lot. I think about everything.

    About the past. All my memories haunt me, even the good ones because I know things will never feel the same way twice. I can't make moments last forever but I know there's something beautiful in having something amazing and losing it. I also think a lot about how much pain amd...
    beastylox beastylox
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Nov 6, 2014

    I want to sleep right away

    and it is a decent hour to get an 8 hour sleep but because of my messed up schedule, I am unable to focus. I have already taken 6 sedatives for BPD but I'm missing a warm hug or at least a hand to hold and sleep.
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 22, 2015

    Raise your hand if it's time to sleep

    but your brain is like... nah girl. Let's review every tiny failure in your life, but then remember good things, and then get an annoying song in our head. ****!
    TheMeanReds28 TheMeanReds28
    31-35, F
    2 Responses May 24, 2015

    A momentary lapse in reason.

    "It's all your fault", the woman in the mirror silently began her torment. Her face hung haggard, there's a crinkle of accusation she wore in a scowl. Her soft brown eyes now tainted in pain, a crimson shade they wore with troublesome arrogance. "Oh look, another glass of red...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 25, 2015
    oddpodd oddpodd
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Feb 8, 2016

    It's really annoying

    if you ask me. I think of anything and everything ranging from what I'm going to wear tomorow to what time I'm gonna actually end up sleeping that night to how puffy my eyes will be the next day to what my life goals are to my body image to my defaults to my love life (non...
    hibs186 hibs186
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 30, 2014

    So I ask again, Am I

    so alone and full of pride? To never speak out This is my world? This is my world! Don't tell me now, I won't feel those words, I won't feel the lies they tell Can you hear my scream? It's for everyone, for everyone I am so afraid of living in oblivion... I am so afraid of...
    Alphaman223 Alphaman223
    41-45, M
    1 Response Dec 1, 2015
    soulmaz soulmaz
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 24, 2015
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