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I Have a Monster

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    The Demon I Call My Friend

    They live within me, craving all the bad things. They want hate so I hate others. They want pain, so I hurt others to watch their tears. They want anger so I lash out. They want blood so I slit my wrists. They want perfection so I shove my fingers down my throat. They want my...
    Veronica4 Veronica4 18-21, F 1 Response May 31, 2011

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    We've All Got Monsters...

    Some are big. Some are small. Some are so loud you can't ignore them and some are shy little things that hide away, whispering. We've all got monsters. Monsters like to hide away in places you don't want to go, the dark alleys of your heart and mind where the secrets are...
    Yoru Yoru 18-21 1 Response Nov 15, 2011

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    Oh Yes!! The Monster Inside!!

    constantly telling me im not good enough, and im a lowlife and a failure!!! time for me to try and fight the monster inside i think!!!
    cowshed123 cowshed123 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 24, 2010

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    Tools

    She goes through life never knowing left from right love from hate warmth from cold. She is expected to a productive member of society, With no one ever telling her how. Never giving her the tools to know the differenences in feelings and how to feel more than one at a...
    melz1108 melz1108 26-30, F Jan 23, 2011

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    The Death of Peace

    I have a Monster. I suspect it rages in the heart of every man. I have taken mine and locked it deep, chained in the darkest of places in the hope that it does not tread on a spirit that once desired to be only gentle, caring and giving; loving. But as the years go by, and the...
    TheTardyDodo TheTardyDodo 31-35, M 19 Responses Jul 17, 2007

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    Under My Bed!

    I have a monster it lives under my bed I don't let it out often because he eats people I have to keep him well hidden or friends will  Run in fear I have a monster under my bed I need him and he needs me  We share the same thoughts  And the desire to eat people I have a...
    cutout cutout 26-30 5 Responses Oct 15, 2011

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    My Monster

    Not really. He's never truly dead. But all the same he is indeed a monster. I never knew he would sneak up on me like he had. I actually for a while thought my life was normal for a bit. Before he came and reminded me of everything that went wrong. Reminded me of what a freak I...
    Naelextip Naelextip 16-17, F Jun 12, 2013

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    Beast of Black Pike

    Oh my god...it is true,it is all true. Travels upright,175 pounds,vocalizes with screams & mutterings...has a face that has human like qualities with intelligence in it's eyes. ...travels with the biggest racoon anyone has ever seen! First you see the racoon and then the...
    PeaceOnEarth PeaceOnEarth 46-50, F 4 Responses Jun 16, 2008

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    My Monster

    Some days ( like todays ) I have victory's , some days I dont. I will win the battle.
    tootiemcfruity tootiemcfruity 18-21, F Dec 31, 2011

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    My Monster

    My monster is not abusive nor is it passion. It is simply that i tear away at myself i love pain. Cuts, gashes, bits anything it brings me to my knees it is the pain that sets me off and lets it go. If you understand what a Sado-masochist is then you understand me
    PeopleTreatMeLikeCrap PeopleTreatMeLikeCrap 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 21, 2010

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    Today I Died...

      Today I died, just gave up hope. I jumped, fired, sliced, swallowed whatever I needed to escape… and yet I’m here, breathing, barely functioning, a shadow of myself. Today I died, I gave control to the monster… to puppet as he chooses, taking me from...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 6 Responses Jul 17, 2007

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    Clutter Brain

    my clutter brain I say my, comatose state of mine squeak, squeak, squeak fining my words to speak nothing but cries, cries of many trying to escape a child born not knowing grow, my sweets, grow only to be smashed by hate grow, my friend, grow only to be buried by lies...
    melz1108 melz1108 26-30, F Jan 31, 2011

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    Hi Honey I'm Home... Did Ya Miss Me?

    He says casually as he strolls into my head. "I'm back and here to take over... life's been to easy for you the past few days and I wanted to come stir things up a bit." I try to push him out, I fight him with all my might. Maybe if I take another pill it will help...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 4 Responses Sep 11, 2007

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    Monstrous Passion

    I am a gentleman through and through but what you don't see in the raging inferno of carefully repressed passion and a blazing hot intense sexuality that could give the sun a run for it's money. That is my monster, my passion - no not the trouserpython but what lies behind it. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Dec 16, 2009

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    A Wrinkle In Time

    The layers surround her little world a world of pain pain penetrating her layer by layer penetrating her innocence innocence never known by her little world Known as life to her life that she has always struggled to love always feeling cheated feeling within layers of her despair...
    melz1108 melz1108 26-30, F Nov 18, 2010

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    Still Hunting....

    Let me say that I don't actually have a monster...yet.But I have been hot on the trail of one for a couple of years now.It lives in the southeast and has been seen by reliable witnesses.This monster beast is five feet tall and covered with fur.It travels with a huge racoon. Stop...
    PeaceOnEarth PeaceOnEarth 46-50, F 8 Responses Nov 5, 2007

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    I Love Monsters

    but they are in extinction.
    Thought1 Thought1 22-25 3 Responses Jun 25, 2009

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    Norm

    Physical wounds have healed, emotional not so much. This deep blackness that is within absorbs all that is good. I have never known another way of living and now I am supposed to find a way to be "normal" or the new normal. I have no happy place within my soul, I have searched...
    melz1108 melz1108 26-30, F Jan 23, 2011

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    My Monster

    My "Monster" is the family cat. His real name is Cisco but I call him "Crisco" because he has cream colored yellowish tipped hair and is a little ball of blubber from eating the dog's food. His favorite spot is a cavity underneath the last stair in ...
    keepingwarm keepingwarm 31-35 1 Response Jan 4, 2008

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    Sophisticated Hate

    Sophisticated conversations held around the dinner table Similar to a royal family. Only speaking of what is wrong with everyone else and never why. Especially never what could be wrong with your self. Only what you have done, and how you can never act that way, "it is not lady...
    melz1108 melz1108 26-30, F Dec 31, 2010

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    Excess

    I have a monster inside.  It desires terrible things.  When I am alone, or with people, it is asleep, or waiting.  I'm not sure.  It only gets to come out when I've drank too much or am under some substance's influence. It wants me to hurt people...
    flirtswithdisaster flirtswithdisaster 26-30, M 11 Responses Aug 18, 2007

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    Shakespeare's Shadow

    This time, I won't be pushing you away I have tried that countless times and felt the dismay Pausing to think, perhaps you have something to say Other than turning my sparkles into mere grey. Pleasing yourself, you come and you go Only because there is little that I know But...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 6 Responses Mar 9, 2012

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    Shrek...

    That one line...the one where he says "ogres are like onions" Does that make me an onion? 'Cuz I really have to empathize with that statement. So many pieces of me spread across so many layers, peeling away in some places and whole in others. And my deepest layers...those are...
    GoldLikeAutumn GoldLikeAutumn 13-15 Nov 15, 2011

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    My Very Own Monster

    I have a monster that goes and comes. I never see it coming and it makes me feel numb. It taunts me and teases, telling me Im not good enough, some days it's easy with me and some, it's pretty rough. I fight my monster every time it arrives, it cuts me with it's imaginary...
    soulrunher soulrunher 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 20, 2013

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    My Monster

      My monster is sometimes my friend… adding to my creativity, allowing me to function days on end with little to no sleep, giving me the power to stand up for what I believe and voice my opinion, allowing me to live life the way it should be lived, with joy, hope...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 7 Responses Jul 17, 2007

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    I'm Sure I Have Many.

    They only come out on nights like tonight... but when they show up, it's bad.  It's always bad.  Tonight, it's particularly awful.  Nights like this, there is no peace, only torment.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 2, 2008

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    But How?

    Dieing with-in my soul is so painful to watch Knowing I need to live, but how? So much was destroyed, so much was taken How do we go on, how do we move on It is said the past is the past, so leave it there. Okay, tell me how? I want to live a life. I look around a see every-ones...
    melz1108 melz1108 26-30, F Feb 3, 2011

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    Shock

    My husband of 27years ago walked out on me 5 weeks ago while I was at work came home to a noteWe had been having problems over the last two years then recently he had an operation for cancer I thought it would bring us closer,but once he came right he was gone
    Soffeesue Soffeesue 61-65 1 Response Sep 2, 2011

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    Try Again

    I call on the demon from down below Please come up and take my soul It is no longer needed for no one else cares I was in need of love but no one would share I call on the spirit please hear my cries I am tired of living surrounded by lies I need to be happy I need to be...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 5 Responses Sep 8, 2007

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    I Am the Monster Inside

    My brain tells me to do bad things. It tells me to hurt people, to hurt the people who hurt me. It tells me I'll feel better after I punish them. My brain tells me to hurt people who have never hurt me, to punish them for what they might do one day. It tells me I'll be saving...
    eyes eyes 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 14, 2007

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    (Kyle= my 4 year old little brother.) Kyle: Sissy why do you have those marks on your arm? Me: Well Bubs....um, I have these little mean monsters who hurt me on the inside, but...
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    I remember going to see this! I was seven or eight and I always always annoyed because my parents always wanted to say "Monsters Incorporated" instead of just Monsters Inc. I...
    fairytalesandspiderwebs fairytalesandspiderwebs 18-21, F 21 hrs ago

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    I am monster all of the time. Just be careful not to surprise me if you ever meet me in real life. Just a warning ☺ you'll regret it.
    silentlyhurtingeveryday silentlyhurtingeveryday 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I'm the biggest monsters inc fan ever!! I've seen the movie like actually about 5 times and it's my wallpaper and haters can just hate because they're jealous! I'm 15 and male I...
    Hotblondey Hotblondey 13-15, M 21 hrs ago

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    I'm a little late posting this but the other night I went to sleep and l was in some kind of house. There was a white door that went into a bedroom and I happened to notice a foot...
    Sam31905 Sam31905 16-17, F Mar 24

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    2 very engaging and vivid ones last night. I feel like they're important and I'm still trying to decipher them. In the first one it was my brother's birthday again and all his...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F Apr 2

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    You interpret it as you wish. I met Mutato. And I liked it. And I will never be able to admit to anyone my secret. He does not look like a monster. He is no monster. There...
    WickedScullyOfTheWest WickedScullyOfTheWest 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    I have anger management issues, which I have been working on since I've noticed them. However, no matter how long and hard someone has been working on controlling their anger...
    faeriefate faeriefate 18-21 a week ago

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    I wonder what id be like to live on the moon... Ooooh shiny... Is it bad that I cant swim... Bacon, bacon, bacon.... I hate the summer and winter... For my 16th birthday I want KFC...
    Blissfulkissofdeath Blissfulkissofdeath 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 20

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    You're so strange, people occasionally wonder if you're from another world.You don't try to be different, but you see most things from a very unique, very offbeat perspective...
    UnchartedOne UnchartedOne 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 23

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    My boyfriend or whatever I should call him! Is a monster and had tortured me for years and years! I'm in a terribly deep depression and I know i NEED to break it off! I'm so...
    Dracogirl Dracogirl 22-25, F Apr 3

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    i just posted my icon as me. today. the morning after an epic bp on ice cream, chocolate, peanut butter, cereal, and PIZZA! be warned. binge and you will turn into a fat monster...
    discoveringisabel discoveringisabel 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    all these looks I get given. in the supermarket I can't even ******* but gum without the cashier staring at me like im some kind of monster. I am ******* anorexic get over it -.-
    popcornpillows popcornpillows 13-15, F 2 Responses Apr 8

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    Someone here calls it a nihilist attitude. It's true, sometimes I just want everything to burn including myself. Doesn't make sense but when anger takes over the monster is not in...
    GrumpyGrouchy GrumpyGrouchy 22-25, F Apr 8

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    I don't have cancer myself, but I know there are several types of cancer, and also many people fighting cancer. However, there is a large number of people who are unsuccessful in...
    ConcealedWildheart ConcealedWildheart 13-15, F a week ago

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    Me and a girl from school (she weighs about 200 pounds probably) walk to this quick shop every day after school and i buy us each a monster i make sure i get the ones high in...
    BigFatNick BigFatNick 13-15, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I'm always being turned into a multitude of different characters, animals, or monsters in my dreams to which I think is a good thing. And believe it or not it's a reocurring...
    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13 22-25, M Mar 28

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    I have difficulty with letting things go; things I’ve said and done that I regret, I hold them all in and cannot forget them or move on. I feel that I’m a monster at heart...
    HMSaph HMSaph 16-17, M Mar 28

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    I've been through a lot. Partying, rehab, recovery, sobriety, friends, no friends, best friends passing, family passing, passing gas, puking, sh!tting, drinking, loving, caring...
    ninerzoon ninerzoon 36-40, M 1 Response Mar 28

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    Can't figure out what happened in our marriage. It was so perfect to the both of us, until a year ago. Since than he has stopped telling me he loves me and tells me he loves me as...
    OneWayHisWay OneWayHisWay 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 28

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    One should never have to prove their heart before they prove their sanity. A fickle friend indeed, this madness. A fire alight in the depths of my soul. Spurned from the deepest...
    Alexdrunkunc Alexdrunkunc 18-21 Mar 29

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    when I look in the mirror...... I've never been told I was pretty, over the years I've never been given a reason to think i was beautiful, pretty, or anywhere near it, but people...
    musiclover122 musiclover122 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 30

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