I Have a Monster

This time, I won't be pushing you away
I have tried that countless times and felt the dismay
Pausing to think, perhaps you have something to say
Other than turning my sparkles into mere grey.
Pleasing yourself, you come and you go
Only...

I have a Monster.

I suspect it rages in the heart of every man. I have taken mine and locked it deep, chained in the darkest of places in the hope that it does not tread on a spirit that once desired to be only gentle, caring and...

I have a monster that goes and comes. I never see it coming and it makes me feel numb.

It taunts me and teases, telling me Im not good enough, some days it's easy with me and some, it's pretty rough.

I fight my monster every time it...

I call on the demon from down below
Please come up and take my soul
It is no longer needed for no one else cares
I was in need of love but no one would share
I call on the spirit please hear my cries
I am tired of living surrounded...

I have a monster it lives under my bed
I don't let it out often because he eats people
I have to keep him well hidden or friends will 
Run in fear

I have a monster under my bed
I need him and he needs me 
We share the same thoughts...

That one line...the one where he says "ogres are like onions"
Does that make me an onion? 'Cuz I really have to empathize with that statement.
So many pieces of me spread across so many layers, peeling away in some places and whole in...

I am a gentleman through and through but what you don't see in the raging inferno of carefully repressed passion and a blazing hot intense sexuality that could give the sun a run for it's money. That is my monster, my passion - no not...

My monster is not abusive nor is it passion. It is simply that i tear away at myself i love pain. Cuts, gashes, bits anything it brings me to my knees it is the pain that sets me off and lets it go. If you understand what a Sado...

Some days ( like todays ) I have victory's , some days I dont. I will win the battle.

My husband of 27years ago walked out on me 5 weeks ago while I was at work came home to a noteWe had been having problems over the last two years then recently he had an operation for cancer I thought it would bring us closer,but once...

They live within me, craving all the bad things. They want hate so I hate others. They want pain, so I hurt others to watch their tears. They want anger so I lash out. They want blood so I slit my wrists. They want perfection so I shove...

Today I died, just gave up hope. I jumped, fired, sliced, swallowed whatever I needed to escape… and yet I’m here, breathing, barely functioning, a shadow of myself.
Today I died, I gave control to the monster...

My monster is sometimes my friend… adding to my creativity, allowing me to function days on end with little to no sleep, giving me the power to stand up for what I believe and voice my opinion, allowing me to live life...

Dieing with-in my soul is so painful to watch
Knowing I need to live, but how?
So much was destroyed, so much was taken
How do we go on, how do we move on

It is said the past is the past, so leave it there.
Okay, tell me how? I want to...

my clutter brain

I say my,

comatose state of mine

squeak, squeak, squeak

fining my words to speak

nothing but cries,

cries of many trying to escape

a child born not knowing

grow, my sweets, grow

only to be smashed by hate

grow...

Some are big. Some are small. Some are so loud you can't ignore them and some are shy little things that hide away, whispering.
We've all got monsters.

Monsters like to hide away in places you don't want to go, the dark alleys of...