I Have a Phobia of Death

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 150 People

    I Feel Helpless.

    Hello. I'm a 19 year old lad who grew up with a medical condition. At the age of 6, I was told by the doctor at the hospital that I had a very serious condition and that I may die. I burst into tears, as any 6 year old would. Even though I couldn't fully appreciate what death was...
    sammy8 sammy8
    4 Responses Sep 15, 2008

    I'm Scared I Won't Wake Up

    Two years ago i watched my Dad suffer a massive heart attack on his bedroom floor while my Mum was screaming next to him. I watched him turn blue and take his last breaths before the paramedics arrived. Once in hospital we were told it wouldn't be a case of when he woke up but a...
    jsh23 jsh23
    2 Responses Dec 6, 2010

    Before anyone calls me a wimp,

    allow me to explain. I absolutely am squicked out by what happens to the human body after one dies. It's just soo..sooo...ick. I mean what with the decomposition and everything, it's like a real life version of a splatter film from the 80's. I would definitely consider...
    Monstermaster13 Monstermaster13
    22-25, M
    Feb 21, 2014

    i have tanatophobia and its sister cancerophobia

    for the last 4 years. now it became worse and every day of my life is a living hell. thoughts killing me. i am tired and want to sleep all the time, also run away and fast.. anywhere, but i can't. i worry because of it i cannot be a good enough mom for my son. tired..
    ChreliPepela ChreliPepela
    36-40, F
    Jan 1, 2015

    Smell Of Death Haunted Me In 2005

    I bought this body scrub and it used to remind me of a deathly decomposing dead tissue smell, after an animal had died I was constantly overwhelmed by this through out 2005-2006... I could smell it everywhere and in my mind I seen yellowing old dead rotting flesh and I kept...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    Aug 6, 2011

    Why Am I Afraid?

    Hello everyone. I am afraid of dying. I stress so much about the eventual coming of my death to the point sometimes it is the only thing on my mind. With this fear of dying, I no longer ride airplanes, do anything related to heights, and feel uncomfortable in many...
    inthewerks inthewerks
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Mar 8, 2010

    Because Its Scary

    I know its inevitable that's not what worries me. What freaks me out is just the thought of how scary it must be to know that you're dying and how scary it must be to not be able to breathe and to feel your heart stopping. That freaks me out so much! I just don't want it to be...
    explainit2me explainit2me
    26-30, F
    Sep 19, 2010

    I Used To Be Immortal.

    When i was younger I used to think that i could never die. Probably because i live a very cautious.. okay paranoid.. life. I have never done anything extreme or risky, and i don't ever plan to. Back to the point. When i was 17 I had my first baby. Like any other mom-to-be i made...
    MorbidxBeauty MorbidxBeauty
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 21, 2013

    Constantly Afraid To Sleep

    It all started about three weeks ago. I started having these terrible panic attacks. I would wake up at two in the morning with my heart racing and believing I was going to die. It came from nowhere. Since then, I am absolutely gripped by fear at night, always believing I will...
    Michael1985 Michael1985
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Jun 6, 2010

    Irrational Fear

    When I was six, my great-grandmother died. I had no idea what had happened and didn't realize she was gone. It wasn't until I was nine that I knew what death really was. My mother asked me how I would feel if my grandma died. Since then, I have felt immense guilt, and anger...
    Mikixde Mikixde
    2 Responses Jun 28, 2011

    It Never Goes Away

    When I was eight years old my grandmother died; before that I don’t think that I ever actually realised that death was real and so that was a big shocker. I had never really been very close to my grandmother as she was mentally ill, but that didn’t mean that her death didn...
    nikkirox nikkirox
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 30, 2010

    Speeding Towards Finality

    Theres just no escape is there.  It would be so much easier if I were a religious man but unfortuatly I am not.  I believe that once I die I am nothing more than food for the insects, a virtual buffett if I dont lose this extra weight! Seriously though when I actually...
    johnwad3 johnwad3
    26-30, M
    15 Responses Dec 15, 2006

    I'm Tired of Being Afraid?

    Everything that you say you're feeling about death is almost exactly what i think and try to rationalize. I too feel selfish, but then I begin to fear the loss of members of my family. I have and extremely large family, and fortunately we have not had many deaths. come to think...
    Michelita83 Michelita83
    4 Responses Mar 25, 2008

    A Dreading Feeling

    I never knew that this would lead to a type of phobia. I mean like if it gets to the point of never crossing your mind then go see a doctor right? I didn't think it could get this out of hand with all the panic attacks but luckily there is help out there and We can overcome this...
    Tigersluv Tigersluv
    18-21, F
    Apr 5, 2012

    Decomposition is my most fear,

    I want to be cremated.
    pubes102 pubes102
    46-50, F
    1 Response Apr 16, 2016


    I am assuming it's because I have lost alot of people I love and I have anxiety/depression. So you can imagine.
    spooky spooky
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Nov 26, 2006

    Lifelong Phobia of (and Obsession With) Death

    I am a 25 year old female in Oxford (UK). Ever since I was about 4 or 5 I have had a phobia of death. I have also since this age been obsessed with death, to the point where thoughts about death are always present in my mind. Even when I am busy, and happy, and have no reason/no...
    captainshorty captainshorty
    22-25, F
    8 Responses Jul 8, 2009


    is my biggest fear. The thought of it keeps me up all night and drives me insane. I don't know what to do about it =(
    UrbanxXSugar UrbanxXSugar
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 26, 2009

    It's not really a phobia I just don't deal with

    death the same way everyone else does . If someone dies I'll rather forget it ever happened and move on just so I won't be sad.. I do t know if that's a good or bad thing .. I think bad since it's hard for me to accept it and I just run away from it
    Dbell1101 Dbell1101
    22-25, F
    Nov 20, 2014

    Paranoia Starting At A Young Age.

    I found out about death at a rather young age. I have really never been able to let it go, and It has turned into a paranoia. When I get in a car, I imagine a terrible crash. When I'm walking to school or just down the street, I am constantly imagining being brutally murdered and...
    TheSimpsons8 TheSimpsons8
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 8, 2012

    Not Alone...

    Im a 21 year old female, some would say fairly attractive. I have a wonderful boyfriend who I live with, amazing friends and a truly brilliant family. From the outside it appears I am together and confident in myself, yet this is far from the truth. I constantly worry about dying...
    tamsyncarne tamsyncarne
    2 Responses May 31, 2010

    My Phobia Of Death

    It only used to affect me really at night time and only every now and then it would occur to me i was going to die, but since ive left school and am getting older and my life is literally starting it really is true that life is short and it seems to be dwindling away so fast and...
    elliewood elliewood
    May 26, 2012

    My Phobia

    i had a phobia of dying before. like it got so bad that i would cry and cry most of the night thinking of what if i die tomorrow. i would do everything i could to be safe, lock seat belt tight, xtra careful towards cars, etc. well i found out that i was so afraid of dying that i...
    illstaystrongforyou illstaystrongforyou
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 26, 2012
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