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I Have a Poison Person That Comes and Goes

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    It Used to Be My Ex-boyfriend

    Yeah, it used to be him. He was so stupid 4 leaving me and yet, he kept on hurting me with all his stupid decisions and acts. He wanted us to be friends but he wasn't at all a "friend". And that's when I realized that sometimes, it's really all or nothing. It's not like...
    mistyeyedlass mistyeyedlass 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    HYDE Juice

    IT STIRS UP IN MY VEINS AND I GO COMPLETELY INSANE. I HAVE NO CONTROL OVER MY EMOTIONS OR ACTIONS OR THOUGHTS OR WORDS THAT COME OUT OF MY MOUTH... USUALLY AFTER 24 HOURS I CHANGE BACK AND REGRET THE THINGS I'VE DONE. doesn't seem to really effect me anymore though...
    fukkboii fukkboii 36-40, F 4 Responses Mar 21, 2009

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    My Fiance's Sister...

    She was my best friend from 7th grade thru high school.  Then I started dating her brother.  Suddenly, it was my fault that she had no friends (when in reality, she had become such a crazy raving brat in h.s. that she had already lost all her friends), that she was...
    Chanteuse1984 Chanteuse1984 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 6, 2007

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    Not Consistant

    Theres a poison person in my life who comes and goes. They are one of my close friends but sometimes they just leave my life for long periods of time. There is no consistancy. The thing about my friend is that they aren't exactly what one would call a good influence. They don...
    brighteyed brighteyed 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 15, 2007

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    Ms. Hyde

    I have two. One is more mean-spirited and I call her Devere and the other is sad and cynical and she used to be called Sadira but she wants to be called Catatonia now. I hate it when my thoughts change into their thinking. Criticising my TV show! I've had these sides since I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 19, 2010

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    My Poison

    My  poison man has been crossing my life for 7 years now. I have never really known if he loved me at all or if he just stuck around because I let him get away with any thing.My life has been like a play ground he could enter and leave no questions asked. He has won every...
    smileyfaces84 smileyfaces84 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 12, 2011

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    Myself

    I am very hard on myself and never allow the same concessions, empathy or understanding I naturally extended to others.  The same rules just don't seem to apply, and I will constantly beat myself up.  If I am faced with situation A, it will lead to self...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 11, 2009

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    Joyce

    she kills n gave me a nervous breakdown... she raped n abused n she will never be welcome ever again in my life! like some of my inlaws tell em to GGGGEEEETTTTT!!!!
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Feb 5, 2011

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    Let It Go....

    i neva had a bf or so to sae i nva liked or loved ne one bt about an year ago i got in wid a guy i really loved..der was no reason for me to love him like all i knew is i did...to sae my frnds nva liked him..alwas tld me i shud not get too involved n stuff wich i jst ignored to...
    strongsady strongsady 22-25, F Jul 10, 2013

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    I Did

    It has been quite a while now since he has been in my life But there was one that loved to jump in when least expected and he was poison as he questionned every element of any faith I had in myself and unfortunately I stupidly invested my trust and respect in him...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    Blood Is Not Thicker Than Water.

    I can sit here and say I have some fond memories of her, but truth be known that everything surrounding her for my whole life has been shrouded in sadness. My only sibling, my older sister, has essentially tormented me my whole life with her instability and moodiness. I recently...
    sylvain91 sylvain91 31-35 1 Response Apr 11, 2012

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    It's Called My Mil

    "Poison" is a great description of her. I used to be very sad at the way she treated us, but now, I'm just pissed about it. All these years with her as a mother in law have been wasted. There are great mother in laws out there who want to be an active part if the lives of their...
    bloggerme bloggerme 46-50 Nov 11, 2011

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    Whoever She Is.

    Who knows what to call her? You give 'er a name, and you get attached. She's a brat. She doesn't love her boyfriend, she uses him for sex, and justifies it by telling me that he's doing the same to her. She drinks and smokes and swears. She's mean to other people, she...
    Crazybunnygirl Crazybunnygirl 18-21 1 Response Feb 19, 2010

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    BUT NOT ANYMORE

    Closing Doors   When things get to hard too bare, close the door so it's no longer there. Crawl back in the shell you were in, close the door don't let them in.   Don't come out cause if you do, they may come and visit you. Close the door and shut it tight, Lonely...
    fukkboii fukkboii 36-40, F 6 Responses Apr 29, 2009

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    Nov. 20, 2014 5:30pm I don't know what is wrong with me. I felt so happy when I got home. I felt so much love for mj and I was just on cloud nine. But I guess my flight reached...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 12

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    I think I might have borderline personality disorder. I am bulimic and am also diagnosed with general anxiety disorder and major depressive disorder. I am taking medication to help...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Nov 26

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    Technically, I'm very hard to deal with for I have multiple personalities. But If you know me very well at all, I think It'll be easier for you to get along with me.
    Choirayla Choirayla 22-25, F a week ago

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    Hello there. My name is Tristan and I'm 15 years old. And Male. If anyone asks.. So. For years, I've had to deal with a second personality of mine. It's like he lives in my head...
    ThatOnePerson5467 ThatOnePerson5467 13-15, M 2 Responses Dec 18

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    It's hard being the way we are, Always watching, Always hesitant, Always on guard for the next person who comes up to us claiming that they will be our "Friend" What happens when...
    SecondFiddle SecondFiddle 18-21, M Dec 17

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    Why is recovery so bad? Because you need to bring up the worst **** to then move on. You need to get so much worse before getting better. So being semi stable goes to **** as I'm...
    bananananaxo bananananaxo 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 3

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    I feel that way! by now! i have been alone most of them! i travel alone, go to eat or do other things alone, i always wanted to a nice lovely and beautiful gf! but it never got one...
    Idontknowwhomiam Idontknowwhomiam 22-25 2 Responses Dec 3

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    The women with BPD can relate to this: I hate when I am pmsing or on my cycle. It seems like every depressing feeling or emotion that I could ever have comes out 100 times stronger...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    I keep having these premonitions and dejavu's either from dreams or visions that really come true either days, weeks or months after i dream about. I actually had it all my life...
    TheWorldVsJ TheWorldVsJ 26-30, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Today I have seen so many of my personalities come out. I hate it. I wish I could go back to being who I was before all my mental problems started. I love that personality.
    sadly203 sadly203 18-21 Dec 7

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    I'm a dramatic person. I used to think its because I'm an artist but then I got diagnosed. It made everything so clear, all the pieces fell into place. When I love someone or...
    DustInTheWind92 DustInTheWind92 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 16

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    Every time I meet someone in person I get really close to them and like them a lot and then the next second I want to distant myself from them and feel like their two faced for no...
    T055 T055 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 4

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    Recently I was honest with a friend about my BPD and he is the first person I've told that took it extremely well. I just hate admitting it. I've known my whole life that my...
    nvragain1024 nvragain1024 31-35, F Dec 8

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    I always want to be a different person. I always find myself being different and makes me wonder who i really am. High school all i wanted was to please others.
    yesiigarciaa yesiigarciaa 18-21, F Dec 14

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    I'm not a person seeking attention. Nor do I delude myself, or others, about who I am. I've been faking emotions since I was a young teen, just like the majority of us. I work...
    poetrygonebad poetrygonebad 36-40, M 2 Responses Dec 16

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    I self diagnosed about a year ago and regardless of my efforts it took that long to get a real diagnosis, which I just received. It was such a huge relief in some ways and more...
    Pchipsnbrips Pchipsnbrips 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    I saw my psychiatrist today and I have new hope of being able to integrate all my personalities through therapy! YAY! The only alter I really don't like is the one that expresses...
    TeriJessie TeriJessie 56-60, F 2 days ago

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    My mpd, at least the one that i register most with, is named Savannah Mae Carter. On my profile that's what it says, so people i know personally can't find me online. Anyway her...
    iamaphrodite iamaphrodite 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Just got officially diagnosed with it (though I had some idea of possibly having it for some time now). It's like having two personalities: one child and one adult. One day I'll...
    Kckiss88 Kckiss88 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    once I was at this birthday party thing with my family and we shared a table. plus I have an anxiety of tight places. I get unhappy and I can't control what's going on, I just...
    VictoriaHall VictoriaHall 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 29

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    Super happy! Went to the park with fam. At first I wanted to be alone but then I sucked it up and my dad got me to have fun. I was on cloud 9! Held a baby alligator. We went eat...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Nov 29

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    I want to be in control. In control of my actions in control about my thoughts but I don't think I ever will be. And that's terrifying. Does anyone know what will help me? I have...
    bananananaxo bananananaxo 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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    Hiya im a Mike an im a alter.. heh the Host just kinda up an left locked himself up an well we dont really have anyone in charge... but lately iv been aware most an iv been finding...
    LoonyBinOffical LoonyBinOffical 16-17, M Dec 3

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    I must be really dense. About a year ago, my wife had some bad panic attacks...and we found she had OCD...and upon finding out what it was... she said she's been this way forever...
    WtfAmIHearing WtfAmIHearing 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 4

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    Omfg! I hate myself so much right now. I felt like literal **** because we went to a pizza buffet place and I ate 3 cinnamon sticks, 3 pizzas and a pie. I felt fine but like 30...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Dec 4

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    I was diagnosed 4 years ago and completed my therapy. I think I am relapsing. I had everything under control. I was functioning better then ever before. Now my mood is so unstable...
    lauraslark lauraslark 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 5

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    Yo. I think I have BPD. All the things people talk about experiencing and the symptoms of borderline are things I experience. Eating disorder, self harm, self-hatred, etc. Any...
    Emilyyyyy Emilyyyyy 18-21 Dec 6

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    I really dog feel ok right now. I'm tired and feel drained emotionally and physically. I just want to cry my eyes out for a reason I'm not sure of. I really want to die. Or maybe I...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 7 Responses Dec 7

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    I was holding my nephew today, little one year old sweet little thing. He fell asleep on my shoulder and I let him stay there for a while. When I went to go put him down in his bed...
    missmalky missmalky 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    Today was my bffs first bday since passing away in Sept. My bday is in 16 days. As kids we often celebrated together. Last night a family friend passed away from old age. It was...
    nvragain1024 nvragain1024 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 8

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    I think I'm going crazy again. I can feel the parts of my brain that aren't right. But of course, none of you care. I am as I have been from the beginning. Alone.
    Explorerofknowledge Explorerofknowledge 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 12

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    Only two people know about this. One of my best friends, and me (and my alters). My family don't know and I'm un-diagnosed (obviously)... I'm not sure if I should tell my family...
    TheDylanWorld TheDylanWorld 13-15, M 1 Response Dec 13