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I Have a Poison Person That Comes and Goes

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    Blood Is Not Thicker Than Water.

    I can sit here and say I have some fond memories of her, but truth be known that everything surrounding her for my whole life has been shrouded in sadness. My only sibling, my older sister, has essentially tormented me my whole life with her instability and moodiness. I recently...
    sylvain91 sylvain91 31-35 1 Response Apr 11, 2012

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    Let It Go....

    i neva had a bf or so to sae i nva liked or loved ne one bt about an year ago i got in wid a guy i really loved..der was no reason for me to love him like all i knew is i did...to sae my frnds nva liked him..alwas tld me i shud not get too involved n stuff wich i jst ignored to...
    strongsady strongsady 22-25, F Jul 10, 2013

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    Ms. Hyde

    I have two. One is more mean-spirited and I call her Devere and the other is sad and cynical and she used to be called Sadira but she wants to be called Catatonia now. I hate it when my thoughts change into their thinking. Criticising my TV show! I've had these sides since I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 19, 2010

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    Whoever She Is.

    Who knows what to call her? You give 'er a name, and you get attached. She's a brat. She doesn't love her boyfriend, she uses him for sex, and justifies it by telling me that he's doing the same to her. She drinks and smokes and swears. She's mean to other people, she...
    Crazybunnygirl Crazybunnygirl 18-21 1 Response Feb 19, 2010

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    Not Consistant

    Theres a poison person in my life who comes and goes. They are one of my close friends but sometimes they just leave my life for long periods of time. There is no consistancy. The thing about my friend is that they aren't exactly what one would call a good influence. They don...
    brighteyed brighteyed 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 15, 2007

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    Myself

    I am very hard on myself and never allow the same concessions, empathy or understanding I naturally extended to others.  The same rules just don't seem to apply, and I will constantly beat myself up.  If I am faced with situation A, it will lead to self...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 11, 2009

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    It Used to Be My Ex-boyfriend

    Yeah, it used to be him. He was so stupid 4 leaving me and yet, he kept on hurting me with all his stupid decisions and acts. He wanted us to be friends but he wasn't at all a "friend". And that's when I realized that sometimes, it's really all or nothing. It's not like...
    mistyeyedlass mistyeyedlass 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    My Poison

    My  poison man has been crossing my life for 7 years now. I have never really known if he loved me at all or if he just stuck around because I let him get away with any thing.My life has been like a play ground he could enter and leave no questions asked. He has won every...
    smileyfaces84 smileyfaces84 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 12, 2011

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    Joyce

    she kills n gave me a nervous breakdown... she raped n abused n she will never be welcome ever again in my life! like some of my inlaws tell em to GGGGEEEETTTTT!!!!
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Feb 5, 2011

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    It's Called My Mil

    "Poison" is a great description of her. I used to be very sad at the way she treated us, but now, I'm just pissed about it. All these years with her as a mother in law have been wasted. There are great mother in laws out there who want to be an active part if the lives of their...
    bloggerme bloggerme 46-50 Nov 11, 2011

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    My Fiance's Sister...

    She was my best friend from 7th grade thru high school.  Then I started dating her brother.  Suddenly, it was my fault that she had no friends (when in reality, she had become such a crazy raving brat in h.s. that she had already lost all her friends), that she was...
    Chanteuse1984 Chanteuse1984 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 6, 2007

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    I Did

    It has been quite a while now since he has been in my life But there was one that loved to jump in when least expected and he was poison as he questionned every element of any faith I had in myself and unfortunately I stupidly invested my trust and respect in him...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    But I'm pretty unique to other Borderlines. Anybody else feel alone, even with this?
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    I find a lot of people on EP have misunderstandings about what borderline personality disorder is (like mixing up different disorders). So for anyone coming on this page for...
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    It All Makes Sense Now. A chance encounter and some independent research resulted in my realization that for the last 5 years my behavior, experiences, and relationships would...
    Missluhvlee Missluhvlee 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    If you have this disorder can you please message me? I have some questions and I am wondering if I , myself might be.! thanks
    LunaDove LunaDove 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I'm taking control of my disorder. I'll ride through the emotions it brings me, feel them fully, and let them go as they pass rather than clinging for dear life and desperately...
    nicaea nicaea 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    A few days ago I posted how my head hurts and how I have to let ago of a relationship. Also to use it as an opportunity to reflect on my issues. So here goes. The thing that sucks...
    allinlove allinlove 26-30, F 3 days ago

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    Your Personality is Very Rare (ENTP) Your personality type is optimistic, curious, enthusiastic, and open. Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 3% of all...
    PrimadonnaKitten PrimadonnaKitten 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    ... Blank ... I feel like that sums up me right now. I feel like I'm losing hope.
    Jlb13592 Jlb13592 26-30, M 4 days ago

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    Yes, I am who I am partly because of them, I hate that they cause drama for me sometimes, I hate that I can never get any peace, always hearing them complain in my head, especially...
    Silverfeather1993 Silverfeather1993 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    But I am NOT: -Crazy -Manipulative -A promiscous person
    Blueborder21 Blueborder21 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    One day I asked the DBT therapist to lead a mindfulness activity as a repair for showing up to the previous group late. My individual therapist encouraged me to give an explanation...
    allinlove allinlove 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    One of my other personalities took control and started strangling my boyfriend. This happened 3 different times. Thankfully, he never got hurt.
    Elisidizzle Elisidizzle 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    I have 2 other personalities. But none of them have a background. Fred is a homocidal sadist that takes over whenever someone starts to irritate me to the point that it gives me...
    Elisidizzle Elisidizzle 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    I accepted that there's going to be up and downs. The downs doesn't make me a failure, however, it is an opportunity to explore what is inflicting me and sharpen my skills. I'm...
    allinlove allinlove 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I don't have BPD but my (ex) boyfriend may have it so coming here to learn. Hopefully that is okay.
    Lann2015 Lann2015 31-35, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I can't live like this forever. I'm not in physical danger, but I'm feeling hopeless. Is there reason to hope?
    mymaidenname mymaidenname 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I really dislike it when people presume to know you from one brief EP post
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My head hurts. For the past couple of months my symptoms were being triggered by what I suspect to be a narcissist. I was sucked in to his cycle of discard and being placed on...
    allinlove allinlove 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    There's a part of me, which would like to meet a girl that has BPD just so she can meet a few of my darker needs just because I think the others don't get it. Any girls out there...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses 6 days ago

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    Recently diagnosed, learning coping strategies... Feels like if I even go near the thoughts I'm supposed to challenge, it amplifies them and makes them so scary... I fight against...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response 6 days ago

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    He feeds off of my suffering. He doesn't just feed off of it, he finds it DELICIOUS. I know this because I have FELT what he feels before. It is HORRIFIC to feel the sheer amount...
    Hush92 Hush92 18-21, F a week ago

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    I have a question for those of you who have also been given this diagnosis. I was diagnosed about 1.5 years ago, and it has certainly been the worst period of my life. I feel...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 7 Responses Jan 29

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    I like to see my blood... I like to vomit after I drunk a lot of wine and hard liquor... I do not like to eat too much and wrong foods, as medicines make me do... I do not like to...
    bpd86it bpd86it 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 27

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    Having borderline personality is like being normal but intensified. You feel like your mind is pure chaos and you try to act as normal as you can be so no one’s figures it out...
    Blueborder21 Blueborder21 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    I feel like this describes me. Ive been diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety. None of the medications ever made things better? And I've tried numerous kinds. I don't know.
    aBlackRoseBurial aBlackRoseBurial 26-30, M Jan 27

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    Does anybody struggle with feelings of low self worth, even though they know it not to be true?
    deej200 deej200 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 26

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    I am so tired of not being understood whatsoever. I feel like there is an insane and massive distance between me and everyone I know. It's like a vast space that just keeps them...
    NarcissisticCartman NarcissisticCartman 26-30 5 Responses Jan 26

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