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I Have a Poison Person That Comes and Goes

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 75 People

    It Used to Be My Ex-boyfriend

    Yeah, it used to be him. He was so stupid 4 leaving me and yet, he kept on hurting me with all his stupid decisions and acts. He wanted us to be friends but he wasn't at all a "friend". And that's when I realized that sometimes, it's really all or nothing. It's not like...
    mistyeyedlass mistyeyedlass 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    Let It Go....

    i neva had a bf or so to sae i nva liked or loved ne one bt about an year ago i got in wid a guy i really loved..der was no reason for me to love him like all i knew is i did...to sae my frnds nva liked him..alwas tld me i shud not get too involved n stuff wich i jst ignored to...
    strongsady strongsady 22-25, F Jul 10, 2013

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    I Did

    It has been quite a while now since he has been in my life But there was one that loved to jump in when least expected and he was poison as he questionned every element of any faith I had in myself and unfortunately I stupidly invested my trust and respect in him...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    HYDE Juice

    IT STIRS UP IN MY VEINS AND I GO COMPLETELY INSANE. I HAVE NO CONTROL OVER MY EMOTIONS OR ACTIONS OR THOUGHTS OR WORDS THAT COME OUT OF MY MOUTH... USUALLY AFTER 24 HOURS I CHANGE BACK AND REGRET THE THINGS I'VE DONE. doesn't seem to really effect me anymore though...
    fukkboii fukkboii 36-40, F 4 Responses Mar 21, 2009

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    BUT NOT ANYMORE

    Closing Doors   When things get to hard too bare, close the door so it's no longer there. Crawl back in the shell you were in, close the door don't let them in.   Don't come out cause if you do, they may come and visit you. Close the door and shut it tight, Lonely...
    fukkboii fukkboii 36-40, F 6 Responses Apr 29, 2009

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    Blood Is Not Thicker Than Water.

    I can sit here and say I have some fond memories of her, but truth be known that everything surrounding her for my whole life has been shrouded in sadness. My only sibling, my older sister, has essentially tormented me my whole life with her instability and moodiness. I recently...
    sylvain91 sylvain91 31-35 1 Response Apr 11, 2012

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    My Fiance's Sister...

    She was my best friend from 7th grade thru high school.  Then I started dating her brother.  Suddenly, it was my fault that she had no friends (when in reality, she had become such a crazy raving brat in h.s. that she had already lost all her friends), that she was...
    Chanteuse1984 Chanteuse1984 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 6, 2007

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    Whoever She Is.

    Who knows what to call her? You give 'er a name, and you get attached. She's a brat. She doesn't love her boyfriend, she uses him for sex, and justifies it by telling me that he's doing the same to her. She drinks and smokes and swears. She's mean to other people, she...
    Crazybunnygirl Crazybunnygirl 18-21 1 Response Feb 19, 2010

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    Ms. Hyde

    I have two. One is more mean-spirited and I call her Devere and the other is sad and cynical and she used to be called Sadira but she wants to be called Catatonia now. I hate it when my thoughts change into their thinking. Criticising my TV show! I've had these sides since I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 19, 2010

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    Joyce

    she kills n gave me a nervous breakdown... she raped n abused n she will never be welcome ever again in my life! like some of my inlaws tell em to GGGGEEEETTTTT!!!!
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Feb 5, 2011

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    Not Consistant

    Theres a poison person in my life who comes and goes. They are one of my close friends but sometimes they just leave my life for long periods of time. There is no consistancy. The thing about my friend is that they aren't exactly what one would call a good influence. They don...
    brighteyed brighteyed 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 15, 2007

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    My Poison

    My  poison man has been crossing my life for 7 years now. I have never really known if he loved me at all or if he just stuck around because I let him get away with any thing.My life has been like a play ground he could enter and leave no questions asked. He has won every...
    smileyfaces84 smileyfaces84 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 12, 2011

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    Myself

    I am very hard on myself and never allow the same concessions, empathy or understanding I naturally extended to others.  The same rules just don't seem to apply, and I will constantly beat myself up.  If I am faced with situation A, it will lead to self...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 11, 2009

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    It's Called My Mil

    "Poison" is a great description of her. I used to be very sad at the way she treated us, but now, I'm just pissed about it. All these years with her as a mother in law have been wasted. There are great mother in laws out there who want to be an active part if the lives of their...
    bloggerme bloggerme 46-50 Nov 11, 2011

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    I attempt to have many personalities but I'm not very good at any of them.I try to be the obedient sub....fail....I have a big mouth and I cannot follow instructions without...
    desirabledreams desirabledreams 46-50, F 1 Response Oct 5

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    My dear fellow BPDs We have to remind each other that we are strong enough to get through another day. I know it's hard to breathe, and to smile, but push forward! We all have...
    betelgeusex3 betelgeusex3 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Yes I'm still alive, if it wasn't for my bf (now ex) and sister and her bf Doug I would have killed myself last night. I am checking myself in to a mental institution today to see...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 2 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    I am recently out of the "denial" that I have a disorder. I am consciously aware that the thought processes within my neurological wiring are malfunctioning. I have the behaviors...
    utteringartist87 utteringartist87 26-30 2 Responses Sep 29

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    The title might be misleading, its not like I have an alter ego or something like that, but I found two sides of myself that comes out in different and certain types of situation...
    theresaye theresaye 18-21, F Oct 11

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    I see people so happy, with friends and a significant other. And then there's me. I'm so terrified I will spend my life alone. My loneliness is all thanks to my BPD. I just push...
    betelgeusex3 betelgeusex3 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 29

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    It's weird. I can't...er I don't know what it really is. But first off...Personality one is like an Angel..and the other is a devil. Right now I'm in my angel personality :D I'm...
    TheSpookyPotato TheSpookyPotato 18-21, F Sep 29

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    Yes and i am about to tell you about them. Xaphan- he is dark and evil Seth- he is my sexual personality ZOZO-she is my crazy acting personality Abigor- he is my lying...
    MessengerofDeath MessengerofDeath 18-21, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Hello Guys, I am just new here. I see myself as a normal college student who has different group of friends. But other people sees me as a person who has BPD. I dont what it is at...
    rui1074 rui1074 16-17, M 2 Responses Sep 26

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    Hello, I was recently diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I am really freaking out about it. Since I was 18, I thought I had Bipolar disorder and now I am 25 and they...
    SouthernBella89 SouthernBella89 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 16

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    Well to be honest there is nothing borderline with it lol I have quite a few personalities and they are all different. I can't see these myself, only once when I was being...
    ultimatehacker ultimatehacker 26-30, M 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    All the time. Regardless, I don't take it personally. Makes me sad for their lives that they have to brew so much hate, I wonder what pain they are harboring, why they can live...
    wingeyes wingeyes 31-35, F Sep 28

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    My wife of 8 years has reached the end and can no longer put up with my BPD-like personality. I only say "like" because I haven't been diagnosed yet. I have however been diagnosed...
    choloch choloch 36-40, M 2 Responses Oct 5

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    I believe my mothers behaviour and the emotional abuse she put my sister and I through as kids is a significant factor as to why I've developed brain damage. I'm at a family dinner...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    I have it.. I have had it since I was 12. I found out after talking to a psychologist. Turns out, I was emotionally unstable. It's hard to have people around me since I'm more of a...
    PureLies PureLies 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 13

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    I've been feeling so worthless lately. I've applied for numerous jobs, and I can't even be called in for one interview. It's like having a college degree is a negative thing. I'm...
    jwest230 jwest230 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    Hi, Kyle there, I'm one of the alters. I just wanted to know if some of you alters already fell in love with a real person, or if you hosts already fell in love with alters. I did...
    SemperFilthy SemperFilthy 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Well its that time again, my monthly therapy appointment to try and deal with the monsterous multiflavored monkey on my back called APD. I almost feel its useless to go but i keep...
    shinjorai shinjorai 36-40, M 2 Responses Oct 2

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    To all with BPD- have you found someone who truly loves you for you? And who is willing to take care of you when you are having an episode? I'm so scared I will never find someone...
    kbeary kbeary 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 25

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    i need to vent i just feel like i cant go on i dont like men sorry yesterdsy imade myself step out in the world go to my friends store to visit i diidnt get home until ten then i...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 26

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    It's getting harder and harder at work to control my mood changes. I'm a teacher and must be positive at all times at work and it's hard to do when you are screaming on the inside...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 4 Responses Sep 26

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    I have BPD and am in a serious live-in relationship. Things are rough, at best, mostly because of my own debilitating issues. Also, I feel so alone. How can you BE with someone...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 3 Responses Sep 28

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    These past few days have been a blur. I'm constantly switching whenever I get stressed, which is almost every time and everyday. Some freshmen kid at my high school started a fight...
    MultipleRex MultipleRex 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 28

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    i need to write i get up in the morning im tired all the time im probably in my head i believe being overweight for me i cant stand do i stick to something know last nite i called...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    Do you ever have that feeling where you *need* to finish everything important you've ever wanted to do right now, end up with several messes, failed projects and an extreme feeling...
    AlleywayGospel AlleywayGospel 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 2

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    Hey Guys! I need some advice. My boyfriend of two years, has BPD traits. We met in college and it was a whirlwind of romance. Although, after some time together I began to notice...
    Nicoleashleyxo Nicoleashleyxo 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 3

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    I was just diagnosed today. I need information.. If you know a lot about this disorder or have it yourself, could you please tell me a bit about it? I know lots about it but I need...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 6

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    And I have FINALLY broken up with and moved out from the boyfriend. It means I'm living at home with my ailing elderly father and 40 year old unemployed brother... But at least I...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 8

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    My husband and I are going on vacation tomorrow for 8 days. I truly pray we have a fun trip and that I can keep my emotions in check and don't have any "episodes". I really want to...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 2 Responses Oct 9

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    But it's Me. Just Me with other Me's or something, because one minute I could be all serious making an entry than go all happy and cheerful messaging my friend, after I send it I...
    Owlshirt Owlshirt 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 11

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    Is it just me or is there a link between BPD and an aversion to being touched or touching someone else? I get creeped out, disgusted, or just feel awkward when people tend to touch...
    EngulfingBreeze EngulfingBreeze 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 12

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    Do you tell your boss about BPD ? Hi. Before the BPD took over I was a Cert 4 in local govt operational works, Cert 4 in Human resources and qualified computer technician who owned...
    AussieAZ AussieAZ 41-45, M 4 Responses Oct 13

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    A few actually, I have myself, Cody, scarlet, and Ai
    bisexuwhale bisexuwhale 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 14

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    I went to a job interview today. That was a highly social job, where you have to interact with people and do similar stuff. I really wanted it and felt motivated to do it; because...
    Gegete Gegete 22-25, F Oct 14

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