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I Have a Poison Person That Comes and Goes

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    My Fiance's Sister...

    She was my best friend from 7th grade thru high school.  Then I started dating her brother.  Suddenly, it was my fault that she had no friends (when in reality, she had become such a crazy raving brat in h.s. that she had already lost all her friends), that she was...
    Chanteuse1984 Chanteuse1984 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 6, 2007

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    Not Consistant

    Theres a poison person in my life who comes and goes. They are one of my close friends but sometimes they just leave my life for long periods of time. There is no consistancy. The thing about my friend is that they aren't exactly what one would call a good influence. They don...
    brighteyed brighteyed 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 15, 2007

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    HYDE Juice

    IT STIRS UP IN MY VEINS AND I GO COMPLETELY INSANE. I HAVE NO CONTROL OVER MY EMOTIONS OR ACTIONS OR THOUGHTS OR WORDS THAT COME OUT OF MY MOUTH... USUALLY AFTER 24 HOURS I CHANGE BACK AND REGRET THE THINGS I'VE DONE. doesn't seem to really effect me anymore though...
    fukkboii fukkboii 36-40, F 4 Responses Mar 21, 2009

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    I Did

    It has been quite a while now since he has been in my life But there was one that loved to jump in when least expected and he was poison as he questionned every element of any faith I had in myself and unfortunately I stupidly invested my trust and respect in him...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    It Used to Be My Ex-boyfriend

    Yeah, it used to be him. He was so stupid 4 leaving me and yet, he kept on hurting me with all his stupid decisions and acts. He wanted us to be friends but he wasn't at all a "friend". And that's when I realized that sometimes, it's really all or nothing. It's not like...
    mistyeyedlass mistyeyedlass 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 28, 2009

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    Let It Go....

    i neva had a bf or so to sae i nva liked or loved ne one bt about an year ago i got in wid a guy i really loved..der was no reason for me to love him like all i knew is i did...to sae my frnds nva liked him..alwas tld me i shud not get too involved n stuff wich i jst ignored to...
    strongsady strongsady 22-25, F Jul 10, 2013

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    Blood Is Not Thicker Than Water.

    I can sit here and say I have some fond memories of her, but truth be known that everything surrounding her for my whole life has been shrouded in sadness. My only sibling, my older sister, has essentially tormented me my whole life with her instability and moodiness. I recently...
    sylvain91 sylvain91 31-35 1 Response Apr 11, 2012

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    It's Called My Mil

    "Poison" is a great description of her. I used to be very sad at the way she treated us, but now, I'm just pissed about it. All these years with her as a mother in law have been wasted. There are great mother in laws out there who want to be an active part if the lives of their...
    bloggerme bloggerme 46-50 Nov 11, 2011

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    BUT NOT ANYMORE

    Closing Doors   When things get to hard too bare, close the door so it's no longer there. Crawl back in the shell you were in, close the door don't let them in.   Don't come out cause if you do, they may come and visit you. Close the door and shut it tight, Lonely...
    fukkboii fukkboii 36-40, F 6 Responses Apr 29, 2009

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    My Poison

    My  poison man has been crossing my life for 7 years now. I have never really known if he loved me at all or if he just stuck around because I let him get away with any thing.My life has been like a play ground he could enter and leave no questions asked. He has won every...
    smileyfaces84 smileyfaces84 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 12, 2011

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    Joyce

    she kills n gave me a nervous breakdown... she raped n abused n she will never be welcome ever again in my life! like some of my inlaws tell em to GGGGEEEETTTTT!!!!
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F Feb 5, 2011

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