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I Have a Scar On My Heart

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    Something intense happened to me today.

    I was in the library studying when suddenly the world began to spin. I have had panic attacks before so I wondered if maybe it was some type of anxiety. But it wouldn't stop. I couldn't walk, my vision was blurred. I was experiencing intense depersonalization; I was no longer a...
    danii92 danii92 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 14, 2014

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    It Isn't Fair

    I haven't slept on a dry pillow in almost 6 months, I've been crying myself to sleep almost every night, I hate that you've disappeared and cut yourself out of my life, I feel like I open a brand new wound every day that I don't hear your voice every week that goes by that I don...
    unluckylove unluckylove 22-25, F 5 Responses Jun 28, 2012

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    There was so many times I just want to grab my

    phone and dial his number then tell him how much I miss him, how badly I want to talk to him, how I long to spend times with him, how much I love him.. But there's a small voice inside me says 'what if you get hurt again' -_-..
    PrincessTales84 PrincessTales84 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 2, 2014

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    Help Me, Save Me

    Where are you when I call your name? With open arms, your supposed to wait!  I'm breakin down I'm full of hate, I'm getting tired , fed up , it's too late , is this my destiny ? is this my fate? Help me please I'm going insane.  I loose sleep and cry, I cry and weep, the pain...
    Ewalkerc Ewalkerc 22-25, F May 11, 2012

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    Starzhhead Cures Broken Heart!

    ::kisses on scar on the heart:: See? All better now. OK, I lied. I can't kiss it & make it better. Scars like that really show the intensity of your feelings, what your love means to you. I don't want to change that. But give me, please, one kiss. Hold me...
    StarznHead StarznHead 51-55, M Dec 26, 2008

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    Used.

    I doubt i will ever be able to trust again. Its crazy how much boys can take from you. You once trusted this person with everything; He was perfect in your eyes. The two of you together were perfect. But as time goes by, he slowly starts to change. The romance begins to fade, but...
    tzeller tzeller 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 13, 2009

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    My Perfect Heart!

    Tell me that EP is not one of the greatest places to meet caring people.  I received this story below in the mail today from one of my friends that is no longer part of EP.  I won’t include the sentiments that he included in the letter that he sent me but I will...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 76 Responses Dec 25, 2008

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    I've Had Many

    Scars. That is. On my heart. Even though the heart is just an organ and has no vital feelings for such a thing. But it clearly does hurt when someone hurts you. And badly. So much that it traumatizes you, that you will never forget, and never quite understand, as to, why they...
    RivoltaSilenziosa RivoltaSilenziosa 18-21, F 1 Response May 30, 2010

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    I Want Sex...... Intimacy And My Husband Feels More Like A Roomate Than A Lover

    I feel as though my husband is more like a roomate to me than my lover, I am in my prime right know and I just want sex not so much sex as the intimacy and closeness that comes with it. He sees it as being a nympho. I see it as he should be thankful I want it at all most men...
    tamikens tamikens 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 15, 2011

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    Im Partly To Blame ...

    For this "scar" on my heart.  I loved this person, but at the time when we were together it became all too much so I gave up on our releationship. It seemed like I couldn't do anything right. He would complain about how I dressed, I was was a tomboy and dressed that part...
    SukYoung SukYoung 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 30, 2010

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    My First Love

    I fall in love the first time i meet him, he was amazing we hit it off so well . I was 13 he was 16 and wow he made me crazy . we where together 6 moths then we took a brake and then got back 2 moths later and i was 14 he was still 16. well out of no where i found out i had to...
    skylarblueness skylarblueness 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 26, 2013

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    Locked Up and Sealed

    I don't have any inclinations to allow anyone into my heart at the moment. I have locked it up and sealed it tight and no one is getting in.  My friends who are already in residence, of course I love you and always will...  You are my rocks. As far as the...
    HeavenBesideYou HeavenBesideYou 41-45, F 11 Responses Jul 7, 2009

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    What I Wish I Could Explain To You

    I'm sitting here this morning, alone in my house and thinking of you- once again. I'm wondering how it came to be like this, what was the point of it all, but most of all ...do you really understand me? I really thought I was going to see you again...after all you said you wanted...
    Oso41412 Oso41412 41-45, F 6 Responses Sep 9, 2013

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    Protensive State Of Melancholy

    Here She lay, in the black of the night, quiet melancholy music playing beside her pillow. Her inner confidence that she had earlier some how managed to muster , has now ran and hid, her sad, self hatred rearing  it's ugly head.. mulling over painful memories in her head, her...
    Ewalkerc Ewalkerc 22-25, F 2 Responses May 9, 2012

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    My Scar

    It is on my heart.It has been broken so many times but recently it was broken yet again.Its so hard to understand why I can't find someone.I think its because I'm not good enough and that I'm ugly,I'm not sure but one day hopfly this scar will mend.
    kime kime 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 7, 2008

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    Just start writing your love

    wherever you are.
    diurnallyours diurnallyours 51-55, M May 11

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    I got a scar on my heart

    and its bleeding out I got a scar on my heart and its touching the clouds I got a scar on my heart and its fading out I got a scar on my heart and its not gone now
    Angel2345 Angel2345 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 1

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    Getting Over Him

    So I went to see the movie "Oz the great and powerful" and it left me something to think about. Huge Spoiler (so if you haven't seen it); So in the movie Oz is a womanizer. He crawls into the hearts of women and does his destruction from the inside out...LBVS. Anyway, to make a...
    365singlemoments 365singlemoments 46-50, F Mar 17, 2013

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    You Rejected Me For My Best Friend.

    Her name was Nikki and she was a good friend, until she went behind my back and dated my bestfriend Sean. Now, she told me that she was going to Homecoming with him, and I was fine with that. However, she togued him at the dance and then dumped me w/o telling me. What a B!TCH.
    nemo1246 nemo1246 16-17, M May 25, 2010

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    I had my 1st serious relationship in my

    freshman year in college in 1978/1979.In the summer before my sophomore year,she left suddenly with no warning no forwarding address even though our relationship was going strong.In my apartment was a dear john letter and her favorite album-Pablo Cruise's 1978 "Worlds Away"(I'm...
    Golondrinas Golondrinas 51-55, M Jul 6

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    Only A Name And A Memory

    How do you find someone when all you have is a memory and a first name? This started 9 years ago. Back then I had a different name. I was living in Portland, OR, the city I love. I was 19 years old and just realizing that I could be the person the I always new that I was. I...
    Ellygirl1 Ellygirl1 26-30, T Aug 13, 2012

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    Miss Understood

    He stood there, screaming, his breath heavily reeking of bottle after bottle of beer. His words piercing through her like bullets fired at close range. Each word exploded from his lips, he judged her , staring into her broken soul with narrow eyes, no understanding of her pain...
    Ewalkerc Ewalkerc 22-25, F May 17, 2012

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    The lord is close to the brokenhearted.

    He saves those whose spirits have been crushed. ~Proverbs 34:18
    StahpCopyingMyName StahpCopyingMyName 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    My Loss Feels Like It Will Never End...

    Six months ago, I met someone else. I wasn't interested in any kind of relationship. He was not going to be my "rebound" replacement guy. I only wanted someone to spend time with. I was just so lonely and missed my husband so much. I never expected to have any real feelings...
    teagranny teagranny 51-55, F 1 Response Feb 18, 2011

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    Then She Walked Away.

    I was married to someone I thought I would be with forever, sure we had some ups and downs, but through it all our love didn't seem to waiver. Then slowly something changed, she built a wall around her heart and refused to let me back in. I tried every way I could to breach that...
    308shooter 308shooter 56-60, M May 8, 2012

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    this scar will stay with me forever,

    no matter where i go. its apart of me now.
    classylips classylips 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    Broke Two Hearts With One Stone

    it hurts me just as bad to say it as it does for you to hear it and since the day i met you ive feared it i knew it was too good to be true you were my angel i loved you like a fat kid love food but i gobbled you up and **** you out im such a fool treated you just like my...
    Navystud19 Navystud19 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 25, 2011

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    It Has Been Said..

    The age old saying, that all wounds heal in time has yet to apply. Years pass and at every opportunity painful memories make an appearance, thrashing against her heart.  The ancient saying that all people have a soul mate, does prove its self true, however who your soul mates...
    Ewalkerc Ewalkerc 22-25, F May 10, 2012

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    He Died.

    I recently lost someone very close to me. Josh Lively. He was my boyfriend, but we had broken up just months earlier because our relationship was too serious. I wanted to get out of school before we started dating again. We were perfect for each other. He was my everything, and I...
    efm1509 efm1509 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 14, 2013

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    She Tore My Heart, Then Just Walked Away

    I was married to someone I thought I would be with forever, sure we had some ups and downs, but through it all our love didn't seem to waiver. Then slowly something changed, she built a wall around her heart and refused to let me back in.I tried every way I could to breach that...
    1sabre 1sabre 61-65, M 3 Responses Oct 15, 2012

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    My heart is filled with

    so much pain.
    adekue adekue 18-21, F Dec 28, 2014

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    After 13 Years 3 Kids .. I Don'T Know Who U Are

    I married the man I thought of my dreams. It truly was love at first sight. I knew he was a drug addict and a drinker but I thought it was because we where young still in high-school so I thought h wanted to party. I should have realized at from the moment he shook our premature...
    Diznme00 Diznme00 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 10, 2013

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    A Battle Wound

    I like to think of it as a battle wound. The deepest scar on my heart was when I was truly in love and devoted to this guy... run now, if you don't want to hear this tale of a broken heart! XD His name was Neil and we met at this friendship site. I forget the name of it now...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Dec 30, 2008

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    Broken

    they were frends since first year in college but she fell for him along the way.he used her and she let him do it over and over again bcoz she loved him.he didnt care for her of coz and she knew but wat could she do.she was so deep in love alone.then he just dumped her and left...
    queendani queendani 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2012

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    Forgiveness Hurts

    I wish I could forget about him for cheating before and during my pregnancy... Hurting us as if we are nothing. Ignoring us. I learned to forgive. I feel as if the other women were worth more than my name tatted on his chest and his first born son to carry his name. I feel like...
    mzjazzymae mzjazzymae 18-21, T Aug 15, 2011

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    God knows who belongs in your life

    and who doesn't.. Trust and let go.. Whoever is meant to be there, will still be there.....
    Faith0615 Faith0615 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 24

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    The Dream

    Impossible it is, for one to fathom My passion that lies most deep within my soul. Passion surges feverishly through my veins. When Mine eyes are closed , I see my innermost dreams. My heart rate increased, my breath hitched, my entire being, embraced in bliss.  All I had longed...
    Ewalkerc Ewalkerc 22-25, F May 18, 2012

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    Hats Off to the Guy!

    A girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on a motorcycle) Girl: Slow down. Im scared. Guy: No this is fun. Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary! Guy: Then tell me you love me. Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down! Guy: Now give me a BIG hug. (Girl hugs him) Guy: Can you...
    Floydian Floydian 22-25, M 38 Responses Dec 25, 2008

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    Torn

    I know your fine, but what about me? You left me with pain as deep as the sea, I feel trapped in this anguish I just want to break free, I wish you could comprehend the half of what you did to me.  You took my heart and broke it and left me with a scar, years have passed I...
    Ewalkerc Ewalkerc 22-25, F 1 Response May 13, 2012

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    No bond, To hold us close,

    Broken, Between time, And, Bad words, Numbness, No tears, Just time, Lost in space, All the feelings, Gone! x
    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F Jun 29, 2014

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    It Still Hurts And It'S Been Six Months

    Why does it still feel so painful? We have been broken up for about six months already and it still feels as if it was just yesterday. I can't take it anymore. I want to rip out the pain. I hate feeling so vulnerable. I hate dedicating most of my day to thinking about him. It...
    LightUpMyWorld LightUpMyWorld 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 13, 2013

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    My Scars

    I love you. And it hurts that you don't see me the same way I see you. But why should you? I have a scar on my heart. But I love you, and it's most important that you are good. Please love God.
    Ste11aeres Ste11aeres 26-30, F Nov 8, 2012

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    Raised

    The scar on my heart is from a love lost. He was wedged into my heart like a bad weed, unwilling to go. When the root was ripped out, it tore a huge hole, throbbing and gushing, jagged edges. Now, after time, it's edges form a raised scar. Puckered and twisted, it marrs my heart...
    Veronica4 Veronica4 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 3, 2011

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    My heart hurts really bad like I swear to God I

    can feel it it's physical pain and I hate it I am like half crying I can't cry fully and idk why
    Angel2345 Angel2345 13-15, F Jul 14, 2014

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    It's been almost a year

    since he left..and I am still not over the pain that he caused..how he ruined me..disrespected me. .and just left me with his unborn baby..now my little one is here and it's like we don't exist. It is a hurt I think sometimes will never heal.
    Crazy2LetUknow Crazy2LetUknow 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 19

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