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I Have a Secret Eating Me Alive

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    Probably silly to most, but they get to me.   Ive been eating recently. Not much of a secret but I havent told anyone, does that make sense? Im the girl who doesnt eat, or who purges. Not lately. And Im not proud of my weakness. I slept with Dan. Many times. And I will do...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 8, 2008

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    Cementerygates' Secret

    To tell you the truth... I havent told this to anyone, but... this may have been said before... Butthe truth is that the person from my past, hates who I am now. And she will never like me now. She hates the changes that have so unwelcomely controled my every word and action...
    cementerygates cementerygates 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 8, 2008

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    I Am So Ashame

    I have this secret that I want to dress like punky brester and have my man *** me is that sick or what...LMAO 
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 8, 2008

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    I Can't Believe I'm Saying This

    I haven't told my therapist, my boyfriend or anyone else for 14 years...   I lost my virginity when I was 13 on a sorta/kinda dare. I am so ashamed of it. I hate myself for it. It has the ability to make me feel dirty still. I don't know when or how I'm going to tell my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Mar 8, 2008

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    so my bf's ex gf is so skinny... i'm the ugly fat new gf. i hate it!!! i've had an ED for about 6yrs, on & off on recovery... relapse, you know how it is. right now i'm on my fat...
    screambloodygore screambloodygore 26-30, F 2 hrs ago

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    338 calories today Then burned 1000 Feeling great
    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    trying to work on beating this ED. just can't eat without feeling guilty and feeling huge. why can't I get past this and be happy with who I am? Just been wanting to fall more into...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I hate myself so much... I over eat so much when I need to be skinny.. I need help and advise with sticking to strict diet plan because I can't go on this size.
    stevieluvsyu stevieluvsyu 16-17, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Guys I'm gonna start the lemonade detox diet for the next 40 days!!do u think i would be able to lose 3 stone in the next 6 weeks on it?
    missann97 missann97 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I am looking for a friend, gender/location/age doesn't matter as long as you won't hurt my feelings. I'm struggling with eating disorder and anxiety. I can be supportive and my...
    veronicarosy veronicarosy 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have an attraction to boys and young guys arm, but with only certain qualities
    tbaf tbaf 41-45 4 days ago

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    Three...that cold day reminds me of the mistakes of lust and stupidity that defined the person I am. Three pairs of eyes staring at mine, they have different stories, but they all...
    redguitardude redguitardude 16-17, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Again, another moment of struggling... Just been wanting to give up on trying to get better. just hate eating and feeling horrible afterwards. I don't know anymore... I hate...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I feel like I want to tell someone about my eating disorder but I think they will judge me and I'm not at my goal weight so I don't know what to do I just hate feel like this....
    Maria134747 Maria134747 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    U know those secrets u have that ur just like idk if I can trust this person it people enough but if u ever say that ur not hanging with the right people because u should know that...
    marz2020 marz2020 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    So many of my secrets involve fear and anxiety. Right now, I'm afraid that I'll go through life, float from one event to another, and the only thought in my pretty little head when...
    Emeryael Emeryael 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    I have secrets that I feel will make others think wrong of me.
    KittyDaYT KittyDaYT 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I hate this struggle. Trying to eat and feeling guilty about it all. I'm so exhausted in this....
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    The only thing worse than bearing a heavy weight alone is carrying it yourself.
    Onebellaheart Onebellaheart 36-40, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My mom and brother were talking about eating disorders and my mom looked at me and said Emily's the one I worry about she's the one who's always looking at thins proration and...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 23

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    I decided that all my ex boyfriends left me for someone skinner then me so I'm tired of crying over them I need to lose weight I'm on day 10 of the skinny girl diet I need my focus...
    Maria134747 Maria134747 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    I have never officially come out and told anybody that I have/had any type of eating disorder. I used to be very restrictive with what I ate. I would have a spoon of peanut butter...
    MaraSD MaraSD 18-21, F Jul 22

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    Thank god for this site, a place where my desires aren't so secret...
    ishFET ishFET 26-30, M Jul 22

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    this may sound bad but I don't want to recover at all I can't just stop starving it's hard I want to talk to be just like me trying to lose weight and trying to be skinny I can't...
    anaskitty anaskitty 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    I want to lose weight I weigh 130 and I hate looking in the mirror someone please be talk to me and give me things to do instead of eat
    anaskitty anaskitty 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    my husband has been worried. i admitted I been struggling. even after being with my husband all day, I been feeling ill, and he has been trying to help. the ED thoughts and how I...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    I don't know if I should tell my boyfriend that I've started purging again. He had me promise that I wouldn't do this too myself again when I first told him about it. I feel like...
    itssmee itssmee 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    while I do not have an eating disorder I can relate to these kind of people a little. when I was a teen I used to make myself puke on purpose after eating ( I think it's call...
    PetiteChica PetiteChica 18-21, F Jul 19

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    I haven't ate in forever which I know will make my boy best friend Amir mad at me but I'm sorry I love you Amir but I don't wanna eat
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F Jul 18

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    my knee has been hurting me. I'm not sure if it's caused by the ED or something else. Anyone else get joint pain? If so, is it from the ED?
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    Struggling so much with losing weight. I restrict a such as I can but for some reason I always lose my willpower. Wth is wrong with me.
    justbreathe95 justbreathe95 18-21, F Jul 17

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    Idk where else to write/post so I'll just vent here I guess. I was doing okay but now its like hell all over again. I hate my body so much and recovery was ok while it lasted but...
    naoto naoto 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 17

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    Im not sure if i have an eating disorder but i dont eat alot & when i do eat i throw up...
    TahirC TahirC 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    I'm dealing with EDNOS and it's so hard for me to continuously lose weight because of parents and I'm so bad at keeping myself controlled and I just want to be thin again I'm...
    Demifaun Demifaun 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    He leaned in, giving me a gentle kiss and my heart fluttered. Oh, the things this man could do to me....
    000Camilla 000Camilla 31-35, F Jul 15

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    I'm struggling with my body Image a lot lately. I cringe just looking at food. Even my favorite foods. And when I do eat, I eat as fast as I can to get it over with because I feel...
    Runnergirl0722 Runnergirl0722 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    I been trying to eat today because I felt my body drained and weak. i just ate dinner. just struggling. i feel so huge...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 14

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    I have been struggling with EDNOS for 20 years. I finally decided to get better. This is so much more difficult than I thought it would be! After restricting a few weeks ago...
    nrsjess nrsjess 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 14

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    I often feel my secrets inside me, stacked up like boxes inside my organs. Sometimes they ooze like some giant toxic slug, wanting badly to come out. But I also wonder if I am...
    Emeryael Emeryael 26-30, F Jul 13

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    These 'pro ana' people are ridiculous. Eating disorders aren't a choice. You don't get to choose to be anorexic or not. How stupid.
    Tilly95 Tilly95 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    i hate struggling with food... if I'm eating it's some times unhealthy. then I just want to restrict because of all the bad foods I been eating. uggg....
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 11

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