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I Have a Secret Eating Me Alive

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    Probably silly to most, but they get to me.   Ive been eating recently. Not much of a secret but I havent told anyone, does that make sense? Im the girl who doesnt eat, or who purges. Not lately. And Im not proud of my weakness. I slept with Dan. Many times. And I will do...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 8, 2008

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    I Can't Believe I'm Saying This

    I haven't told my therapist, my boyfriend or anyone else for 14 years...   I lost my virginity when I was 13 on a sorta/kinda dare. I am so ashamed of it. I hate myself for it. It has the ability to make me feel dirty still. I don't know when or how I'm going to tell my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Mar 8, 2008

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    I Am So Ashame

    I have this secret that I want to dress like punky brester and have my man *** me is that sick or what...LMAO 
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 8, 2008

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    Cementerygates' Secret

    To tell you the truth... I havent told this to anyone, but... this may have been said before... Butthe truth is that the person from my past, hates who I am now. And she will never like me now. She hates the changes that have so unwelcomely controled my every word and action...
    cementerygates cementerygates 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 8, 2008

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    I'm trapped inside my body
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 day ago

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    I'm hating this struggle. been trying my best to get better and feeling huge and disgusting. ED behaviors seems so tempting but hoping sleep might help me forget it. So exhausted...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I feel horrible. I haven't been feeling well. my 8 year old daughter has been wanting to help me feel better- she even wants to be a doctor - she drew in her notebook I got her for...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I have been really stuffing myself like crazy the last few days. The scale is saying it's paying off. My belt is saying to go up a notch.
    chubbyhubby250 chubbyhubby250 36-40, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    omg i'm going to kill someone because someone decided to make a anorexia Halloween costume and called it "ana rexia" like its basically making fun of ppl with anorexia
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    possible trigger warning.... I been eating enough these past few days. trying to fight this ED. i look bloated and feel horrible and huge. my thoughts has me think all this is...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I barely eat. I'm just never hungry. and I don't like alot of food. but I eat a bunch of junk. and yet no matter what or how much I eat I'm still a twig. I ate a 5 pound chocolate...
    SeanDR SeanDR 16-17, M 5 days ago

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    never happy, never happy with how I look. So tired of struggling with ED... I been trying to just take care of this body the past couple of days. Just some improvement hoping might...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 5 days ago

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    my parents won't let me use the treadmill anymore because i over do it haha and i don't eat so they don't want me losing anymore weight which sucks but as long as i don't eat i'm...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    I'm starting the 2 weeks challenge tomorrow. Idk how I'm going to go through it because I always end up binging the first day at night. Any suggestions for night binges? Don't says...
    katherinejenner katherinejenner 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I feel so weak in side I don't want to eat but then I do eat and I hate my self so much for it I look in the mirror and I think I'm discusting and the same day my mom mom called me...
    Dezitorsmilez Dezitorsmilez 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I hate having secrets. They eat at me and eventually I want to tell them. I can keep others secrets it's just hard for my own. I just don't like having to hide things.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 23

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    Anyone here with EDNOS? Diagnosed or not, doesn't matter.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 22

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    Anyone here with EDNOS? Diagnosed or not, doesn't matter.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 22

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    I wish people understood what I go through everyday instead of criticize me.
    Lexy96 Lexy96 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 22

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    its not my thing all my life but im trying to eat better and have been eating healthyer now then i was a year ago!...
    sugarbiscuts sugarbiscuts 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    i just made myself throw up for the first time because i ate a cookie i told myself i wouldn't. Ive gained at least 3 kilos this summer and i feel so fat and disgusting i need to...
    iniar iniar 16-17, F Aug 21

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    For as long as I can remember, I have been using food as a means to cope with difficulties. That's why I was overweight even as a kid. Whenever I felt bad or my parents were angry...
    TheVisionBleak TheVisionBleak 26-30, F Aug 18

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    And am now officially diagnosed... I'm just back from my talk with the psychologist. I feel emotionally heavy, but at the same time as if a burden has been lifted. I eat to fill a...
    DanaJuliana DanaJuliana 22-25, F Aug 17

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    the one i will never tell anyone is me and my wife like bi sex sometimes.
    stlguy45 stlguy45 41-45, M 4 Responses Aug 16

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    I can't stop eating lately. it's not even that I eat a lot, it's that it's bad food. and I feel guilty after eating everytime... It doesn't satisfy, it's a compulsion. I feel...
    PoshPoet PoshPoet 22-25, F Aug 16

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    I'm falling back to my old ways again I'm just done with people telling me **** and calling me names and saying ghat I'm thick or chubby I'm prove them wrong I'm tired of crying of...
    Dezitorsmilez Dezitorsmilez 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 16

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    i dont know when i first decided i would rather be beautiful than alive and i hate when ppl tell me i'm pretty because i know they're lying so amir stop saying i look cute!
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 16

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    my stepmother in particular
    dirtyteenguy dirtyteenguy 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 15

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    I have EDNOS. I'm 18 and I've been suffering for about 5 years now. Five years of starving , binging , purging , abusing laxatives and alongside my disordered eating behaviors I...
    coffeentea coffeentea 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    When I tell people I am addicted to food, they often respond like this: "me too! I love food, love eating it, food is great" I can't exactly judge, but I doubt those people...
    DanaJuliana DanaJuliana 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    Hot and Bothered................
    ireallylovetacos ireallylovetacos 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    I have an eating disorder. I have an unhealthy relationship with food, and it's a daily struggle. Something that you need to sustain life taunts me everyday.
    Charper44 Charper44 18-21, F Aug 15

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    I know I'm in a relapse, I keep telling myself to get it together and start eating normally again (I was really good for about a year). In January I went vegan, and on looking back...
    tryingtohelp21 tryingtohelp21 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    just got weighed at the dr's office. not sure what the dr will say about it. I'm waiting for her now. :/ ED has me wanting to lose more weight. :( I probably should get weighed...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    Today I was forced by my school to go to a nutritionist my weight is 50,4 kgs and I am 169 cm but luckily I drank water before I went to her so I was 52,4 kgs she said if I reach 5...
    liveoli liveoli 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 14

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    I don't really have an eating disorder. here lately I've lost a bunch of weight fast. Everyone is telling me i'm too skinny but its because they aren't use to it. I want to...
    artsydarling artsydarling 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    I am 5'5", 113lbs, have given birth to 3 kids naturally, wear a size 2/XS and can eat you under the table any day, lol. No but seriously I LOVE food. I do not have nor have ever...
    Jonsey3 Jonsey3 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    I eat peanuts like a lizard (eating with my tongue) I like saving my patty for last when I'm eating a Maccas double cheese burger I like to skin Maccas nuggets and eat nuggets...
    StarsxSunsets StarsxSunsets 18-21, F Aug 13

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    I'm struggling with both anorexia and bulimia. Everyday is a constant battle on what I'm going to eat and if I'm going to purge or even if I'm going to put anything in me. My whole...
    Silentedd Silentedd 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 13

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    just finished throwing up... I feel so fat... I don't even deserve to eat... I have eaten so much today... I had 2 hot pockets and a lil bit of fruit with some peanut butter... I'm...
    IDontEvenKnowAnymore1 IDontEvenKnowAnymore1 16-17, M 2 Responses Aug 13

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    I binge uncontrollably. I just have to eat. I am also so fat because of it. I hate myself. in the last 6 hours I've eaten a while bag of chips, one and a hal bar of chocolate, a...
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