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I Have a Secret Eating Me Alive

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    Probably silly to most, but they get to me.   Ive been eating recently. Not much of a secret but I havent told anyone, does that make sense? Im the girl who doesnt eat, or who purges. Not lately. And Im not proud of my weakness. I slept with Dan. Many times. And I will do...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 8, 2008

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    I Am So Ashame

    I have this secret that I want to dress like punky brester and have my man *** me is that sick or what...LMAO 
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 8, 2008

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    I Can't Believe I'm Saying This

    I haven't told my therapist, my boyfriend or anyone else for 14 years...   I lost my virginity when I was 13 on a sorta/kinda dare. I am so ashamed of it. I hate myself for it. It has the ability to make me feel dirty still. I don't know when or how I'm going to tell my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Mar 8, 2008

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    Cementerygates' Secret

    To tell you the truth... I havent told this to anyone, but... this may have been said before... Butthe truth is that the person from my past, hates who I am now. And she will never like me now. She hates the changes that have so unwelcomely controled my every word and action...
    cementerygates cementerygates 16-18, F 1 Response Mar 8, 2008

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    It's hard to admit that I have an eating disorder. I never asked for this, and I'm sure no one ever asks for this. Overcoming my problem should be as easy as eating, but it's not...
    InsaneFlowerGirl InsaneFlowerGirl 22-25, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    I just don't know if this makes sense to anyone else. Support appreciated. Thanks. I have an eating disorder. I have had an eating disorder off and on since I was 14 or so, maybe...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I have a eating disorder but I'm getting better, and eating from once or twice a day, to about 3 times a day but I'm still skinny
    dominick6 dominick6 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 24

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    Who feel like everytime people finally notice that you have an eating disorder, they try to compliment you and tell you that.you lost reeeeally much just in fact to TRY to STOP YOU...
    TheBlueBee TheBlueBee 16-17, F 21 hrs ago

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    i have a binge eating disorder. this is an eating disorder and i feel completely out of control of it. after going through a healthy weight loss i am back to binge eating and i...
    jermdbt80612 jermdbt80612 18-21, F a week ago

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    I feel as if I am really chubby. My family and friends say I am the right size. I have been skipping meals, and limiting calories. Then exercising even when I am sick. I end up...
    puppylove16 puppylove16 16-17, F Feb 14

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    We were in shadow, but the field around us was painted in the spectral stillness of moonlight, and what does the moon say except that there are secrets? There are secrets in our...
    Brunette4U Brunette4U 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    I fear that my boss is catching on to my eating disorder... He commented on it... In a way... Not towards me about having an eating disorder, but he notices that I don't eat much...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have a weird eating disorder. I love to eat chalk especially after having spicy food.
    Samsalsa Samsalsa 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 7

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    Just love the feeling of having to force food down my throat and then having the pains in my tummy cuz it's being stretched back to normal. Ugh! Not eating is just easier sometimes...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 14

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    I get a free pizza at work... Pizza is amazing.... Until you're done eating... And then all you wanna do is cry. I'm hungry yet all I can think about is how hard im trying to...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 18

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    My eating disorder feels like it's coming back to me and I don't want to have it anymore.
    RedDog123321 RedDog123321 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 19

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    I'm classified as overweight... I'm not sure I'll ever be happy with myself until I'm classified as underweight... Or even on the low end of the healthy weight range... I hate...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    One of my teachers pulled me aside the other day and asked if I've been eating. I'm in recovery. I don't know how to react to that.
    galaxyle galaxyle 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Developing orthorexia, if not already there. I don't know how to eat carbs and feel good about myself and not eat healthy and feel good about myself, so protein all the time seems...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    Never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever gonna tell you my secrets.
    YouCantEscapeMyDemons YouCantEscapeMyDemons 13-15, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    One of the reasons i want to loose a crap load of weight to have a tiny wrist and wear all my favorite band with out them not fitting and feeling tight
    Dezitorsmilez Dezitorsmilez 18-21, F Feb 13

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    I have relapsed back into anorexia/bulimia...the two crept back into my life and now worse then ever...I just want to be 103...I don't eat and if I do its healthy and exercise...
    proudmom16316 proudmom16316 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 14

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    After being bulimic for 2 years I went from 177lbs to 119lbs. 3 months and I've had urges but I've managed to keep my food down. But I've gained...so much, I'm up to 134lbs...
    EvaSFenty EvaSFenty 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    I have mia and Ana problems, but I have been doing better for a couple weeks. Then tonight I purged, im 135 I just want to be 110-115): anyone want to be my Ana,fit buddy?
    ahideekai1 ahideekai1 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 24

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    Why is it that I want to cry when I have to buy a shirt in large? :'(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 24

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    I can't believe this! My two best friends have REPORTED me skipping meals to my guidance teacher, and I had to survive through her giving me a two-hour lecture. They keep...
    zosienka777 zosienka777 13-15, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I don't think I have one yet, but I think I'm developing one. I used to always love food, but now I don't. I skip at least one meal a day. I get nauseous when I eat and I was also...
    MsLyleDylandy MsLyleDylandy 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I go through fazes. If I feel guilty or troubled I wait til I have that aching painful feeling in my stomach. it makes me feel comforted somehow... but I get stressed or light...
    Rabbitt94 Rabbitt94 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I have bulimic tendencies now. Only I don't eat very much but no matter what it is I throw it up. I'm 116 lbs and I want to be 98, as scary as it sounds no ones going to stop me...
    paradise58 paradise58 18-21, F 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I'm so ******* hungry... I'm gonna eat a lot of food tonight... And then fast tomorrow. And eat very minimally on Tuesday... And same with wednesday. I need to stop being so damn...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses Feb 15

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    I'm trying not to fast, but I'm falling back into it. I hate myself for not being able to recover Dx I'm an idiot. Why do I do this to myself?? Better than purging blood I guess.
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F Feb 19

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    Ugh God I'm so fat. :( Need to lose weight again. Fast
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Feb 21

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    My size eight pants fit again!! Unfortunately I've been throwing up and fasting again to accomplish that...
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    Lately I've been trying to eat healthy amounts of food... But honestly... Makes me feel worse... Been getting worse stomach aches and the lowest of mind sets... I need to start...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 22

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    I'm finally motivated to recover again. I need to stop because I can't live my life this way, it's unhealthy and unnatural. After 7 months of supposed recovery, I think I may...
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 24

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    I ordered Chinese tonight, and I overate. But my roommate is home, and I can't purge. She's not doing anything, and the walls are thin, she'll definitely hear me. But I'll put on...
    WhereThereIsHope WhereThereIsHope 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I can take this anymore. My mom doesn't understand nor my sisters. She made these comments how I binge, and how I eat late at night. First of all I eat at night so nobody has to...
    WhiteRice14 WhiteRice14 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    you ain't.gonna stop me from being skinny. You are not doing this.
    TheBlueBee TheBlueBee 16-17, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    My mom gives me money to buy snacks or something to eat at school but I've been saving it up id rather save it up for my laptop and camera and make her think that I eat and she ask...
    Dezitorsmilez Dezitorsmilez 18-21, F 14 hrs ago

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    Today's intake: - two small wafer cookies - Dr pepper
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 5 hrs ago

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    i liked to be beated as a child, and when someone hit me i always showed another cheeck and laughed and waited for more. This made me stronger.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 21

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    I never share this irl, including facebook, although I trust someone in person. I want to grow bigger, I want to become a giant. In the process, I would love to watch myself...
    Profweird Profweird 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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