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I Have a Secret Eating Me Alive

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    Probably silly to most, but they get to me.   Ive been eating recently. Not much of a secret but I havent told anyone, does that make sense? Im the girl who doesnt eat, or who purges. Not lately. And Im not proud of my weakness. I slept with Dan. Many times. And I will do...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 8, 2008

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    I Can't Believe I'm Saying This

    I haven't told my therapist, my boyfriend or anyone else for 14 years...   I lost my virginity when I was 13 on a sorta/kinda dare. I am so ashamed of it. I hate myself for it. It has the ability to make me feel dirty still. I don't know when or how I'm going to tell my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Mar 8, 2008

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    Cementerygates' Secret

    To tell you the truth... I havent told this to anyone, but... this may have been said before... Butthe truth is that the person from my past, hates who I am now. And she will never like me now. She hates the changes that have so unwelcomely controled my every word and action...
    cementerygates cementerygates 16-18, F 1 Response Mar 8, 2008

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    I Am So Ashame

    I have this secret that I want to dress like punky brester and have my man *** me is that sick or what...LMAO 
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 8, 2008

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    Yes, I have an eating disorder. And yes, I'm still fat. Fat people can have eating disorders too. which makes everything worse since no one will suspect you for having it. What I...
    roseinsurvival roseinsurvival 13-15 Jan 21

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    I didn't try too... I didn't notice... but now it's taking over my life, when I first joined cross country I felt bad cause I was one of the bigger girls on the team I weighed 120...
    AngelinaMilano AngelinaMilano 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 17

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    I have secrets that, if I told someone, I would be looked at as unstable and out of my mind. I'll leave it at that.
    IngensImpetum IngensImpetum 18-21, M 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    I've had so many incarnations of ED. Right now, I'm overweight. People have no idea that when they tell me that I should just stop eating, that they are triggering my ED... :(
    sugarbabysub sugarbabysub 31-35, F 46 mins ago

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    I've struggled with my weight most of my life. I'm really short, and it almost seems like I put on weight if I just look at too many cupcakes. I can drop about 30 lbs if I stick...
    justsomegirloutthere89 justsomegirloutthere89 22-25, F Jan 7

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    I'm skinny, but recently I've been gaining weight due to eating unhealthy stuff and eating a lot due to stress. I recently visited my older sister and she slapped me on my thighs...
    laubrown1 laubrown1 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 15

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    I need help and advice ive had a eating disorder and i kinda been getting better eating better or eating a little bit but i have a bf (long distance ) and im scared because what if...
    Millerbabe17 Millerbabe17 16-17, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    ive been diagnosed with depression and wow I just feel so fat. I often get the urge to go bulimic when im angry because im angry at myself and im a ******* fat *** and I just want...
    idkhby idkhby 13-15, F Dec 30, 2014

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    I'm not sure if its an eating disorder or not but this is what happens: 90% of the time I'm not hungry and i rarely eat not because I'm punishing myself but I just don't feel like...
    LilahWolf LilahWolf 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    I have been struggling with an eating disorder (Ana Mia) for almost 15 years. I have had outpatient therapy on and off for the last several years. My boyfriend knows, I was very...
    meanoldstepmom meanoldstepmom 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I have so many secrets that I can never tell anyone......sometimes I wish I could just open up to someone trustworthy and basically be an open book telling them all of the things I...
    GirlWithADangerousMind GirlWithADangerousMind 22-25, F Jan 6

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    I eat a lot when I'm stressed out and lately I've been extremely down and depressed... I've been eating so much and I've even gained like 4 pounds.... This phase needs to end real...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    after 11 years of battling my eating disorder ive finally been admitted to the right therapy and im starting to question if i have the strength in me to do it
    laulaulauuu laulaulauuu 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 1

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    I am 177cm and 45 kg and has been suffering with anorexia for 3 years. I didn't start full out "starving" myself. Actually it started out as an innocent diet (exercising, eating...
    Horse10202 Horse10202 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 3

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    And here I find myself bent over my bin... After eating a microwave meal... I feel really full, so I'm now forcing my stomach contents up :/ fun.... But it's for the better right...
    catho catho 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 6

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    The urges and habits are back... First it starts with not eating... But within a couple days... I'll be back to throwing up what I don't want... :/ here we go... It's about to get...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 6

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    I used to, then I fell in love, felt beautiful, ate more, threw up less, got fat, then got dumped. Now a lone fat single pringle. I wish I could go back to the days when I actually...
    EvaSFenty EvaSFenty 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 11

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    I haven't been diagnosed with a specific eating disorder. My doctors just like ehhyeahhh dere is someting vrong wit yerr appetite little miss. no ****. I go 2-3 days forgetting...
    Minnowshi Minnowshi 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 12

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    I hate having an eating disorder. it makes me feel awful. It doesn't matter if I binge or just eat a regular meal, I always feel like a cow afterward.
    BabeFett BabeFett 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    I've been stress eating lately and I haven't been able to lose any weight!! :'( I've even gained 2 or 3 pounds... I'm thinking about starting to work out... But I'm scared it'll...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 15

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    Why is that I'm scared that i don't want to eat anything to gain weight i hate feeling fat i like the feeling of my close when they are loose or the emptiness i get when I'm Hungry...
    Millerbabe17 Millerbabe17 16-17, F Jan 17

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    I'm afraid to tell anyone about having an eating disorder
    PixelChibi PixelChibi 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 20

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    I feel so terrible. I was confident this week so I ate a lot and now I just hate myself for eating so much. I didn't even eat that much. I ate the recommended amount of calories...
    whatsupgirly whatsupgirly 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I need someone to talk to. I dont want them to tell me I'm stupid for not eating. I just want someone who is going through what I am and who also needs someone to talk to.
    heyj96 heyj96 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Anytime I have a long streak of depression I stop eating and it's very hard to start again.
    glidetiger glidetiger 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    Can guys have eating disorders because i'm the only guy know that has one
    dominick6 dominick6 13-15, M 5 Responses 1 day ago

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    I literally have so many secrets, I try to talk about them, sometimes but it doesn't help. I still feel the guilt and will always have the memories of it. nobody understands how...
    SweeterThanFiction SweeterThanFiction 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    secrets that I have never shared with anyone. painful and shameful. wonder if you can let them go without sharing.
    serendipitousone serendipitousone 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 13

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    I've struggled with an ED for over 10 years now and have started to seek help but there's still part of me that is resistant towards getting the help I really need. How do I truly...
    yval711 yval711 22-25, F Jan 3

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    Successfully haven't eaten real food in over 16 hours... Feeling starved and so hungry... But remember.... That's a good thing...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 5

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    I havent eaten anything in the last three days. I lost another 2lb. I can't even remember the last time I had an actual meal.
    Justanothergirl2000 Justanothergirl2000 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    Im 5'4 and weigh 74lb and can't eat anything without throwing it up two seconds later. I struggle with self harm and thoughts of suicide. Would I have to through inpatient...
    thefallenones thefallenones 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 11

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    I thought I had this under control. what have I done...
    LostGirl1029 LostGirl1029 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    So after the Christmas holidays the weight thy I barely put on, is making it's way off.. Back to 63kg which I can sit at happily.... But I have camp coming up next week, and...
    catho catho 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 18

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    Can i have her bod plz i hate how i feel i wish i could feel beautiful and be confident who i am but i stead im so insecure with who i am just hide behind a fake smile but just...
    Millerbabe17 Millerbabe17 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 19

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    I am an average sized person and even i know that people can be naturally skinny. People who stereotype skinny people and shame them ought to be ashamed of themselves. It isn't...
    goagainsttheflow goagainsttheflow 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    I can't look at myself without wanting to cry anymore... **** this... I'm going to start purging as soon as my lip piercing heals... I need to lose 30 more pounds and I WILL get...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Before you read the title and go "ohhhh yeah it's gonna be one of *those* where he writes about some perverted topic" it's not one of those. .. In my deepest heart of hearts what...
    CaptainMarvelous CaptainMarvelous 18-21, M Jan 3

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    Because of a medial condition, my wife can never make love with me again, ever. I have been faithful to her in RL, so I do mature role playing online to release my frustration.
    TokyoDaddy TokyoDaddy 51-55, M 2 days ago

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    So I ate a lot today I've been snacking a lot and I think I should think I'm fat but people tell me I I'm not like my friends and family
    dominick6 dominick6 13-15, M 1 hr ago

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    So hungry.. But I must starve myself... I will lose more weight. :/
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Please read the book going hungry by Kate taylor.
    laxprincess laxprincess 13-15, F Dec 30, 2014