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I Have a Secret Eating Me Alive

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    Probably silly to most, but they get to me.   Ive been eating recently. Not much of a secret but I havent told anyone, does that make sense? Im the girl who doesnt eat, or who purges. Not lately. And Im not proud of my weakness. I slept with Dan. Many times. And I will do...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 8, 2008

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    Cementerygates' Secret

    To tell you the truth... I havent told this to anyone, but... this may have been said before... Butthe truth is that the person from my past, hates who I am now. And she will never like me now. She hates the changes that have so unwelcomely controled my every word and action...
    cementerygates cementerygates 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 8, 2008

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    I Can't Believe I'm Saying This

    I haven't told my therapist, my boyfriend or anyone else for 14 years...   I lost my virginity when I was 13 on a sorta/kinda dare. I am so ashamed of it. I hate myself for it. It has the ability to make me feel dirty still. I don't know when or how I'm going to tell my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Mar 8, 2008

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    I Am So Ashame

    I have this secret that I want to dress like punky brester and have my man *** me is that sick or what...LMAO 
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 8, 2008

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    and I never ever will either. not ever!
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    so we are not supposed to share our secrets here..
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    I'm currently underweight and have a low BF% but I still hate my body. I'm 30 yrs old and afraid I'll never find peace.
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    Trigger Warning... ... .... ... I started restricting again and everything I been eating, I been wanting to purge - but fighting it. I can't stand feeling so huge!!! 21 years...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 5 days ago

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    I feel as though I can't break free from this endless cycle. Just been struggling with food again... I hate this...
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    I know many things. I've never divulged another person's secret. So I have a lot of secrets. Secrets cause lots of damage to the people chained to them.
    lespectrement lespectrement 18-21, M Jun 24

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    I hate that my body's not as resilient as it was when I was a teen. I've only just started purging again yet I'm already getting some of the side effects.
    lostinpurgatoryy lostinpurgatoryy 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    I am going on a three day fast because I had a three day binge. Yay me. Hopefully I get back down because I am doing my best to not freak out.
    artsydarling artsydarling 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    I need an ana/mia buddy please!! Im 5'9 1474 pounds šŸ˜ž
    blondebitch929 blondebitch929 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    Not sure if it qualifies as disorder, but one week I can eat 5 times a day and big portions as well. The next week I am lucky if I feel hungry even once every third day.
    GCWhiskey GCWhiskey 22-25, M Jun 23

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    I canceled my doctors appointment because I didn't want to be weighed. I just got back from vacation and I was forced to eat (meals were prepaid months ago). The fear of getting on...
    Charper44 Charper44 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    i got weighed today. not happy with it. trying to fight this ED.
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    It's getting worse. The bulimia. And I'm not losing weight. So I'm gonna start working out again. A lot. And eating less. I just want to be thin. Is that too much to ask ?
    LoserMaterial LoserMaterial 16-17, F Jun 22

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    I was bulimic in the past, and in the past year I think I've only purged twice. But lately I haven't been able to keep any food down and went to the doctor to find out that it's my...
    itssmee itssmee 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 21

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    I've had an ED for 9 years but I'm currently at my highest weight ever and im so beyond disgusted with myself. It started with a medication that made me gain 30lbs in just 2 months...
    lostinpurgatoryy lostinpurgatoryy 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 21

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    I have many secrets and I'm pretty sure everyone else do too. Like this ep account i keep secret from people i know off the internet
    velloric velloric 18-21, M Jun 20

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    I only have an eating disorder to tackle now, losing weight even when I'm eating normally. Back then when I was losing weight rapidly my mother wasn't worried much the first time...
    Nual Nual 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 20

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    When your appetite pretty much doesn't exist.. Finally at 60.2kg or like 132 pounds. Lost like a kilo this week :)
    Catho Catho 18-21, F Jun 20

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    I'm having a panic attack!!! I gained a lot of weight! I'm 12 stone and need to get down too 9 in a matter of weeks,will someone please help me!!is this possible?? And if so HOW...
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    I have an eating disorder, message me
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    Everything I eat and drink tastes aweful except water, and artificial foods... even then they taste like nothing. someone please tell me what cake and cheesecake,burgers, pizza...
    Waqasauce01 Waqasauce01 18-21, M Jun 16

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    torijoy torijoy 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 15

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    I starve myself (Only have a kiwi or an apple a day usually) and I always have dreams of eating a ton, does this happen to anyone else?
    Idontknowsometimes Idontknowsometimes 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 14

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    I CAN'T STAND PRO ANA STUFF.
    Idontknowsometimes Idontknowsometimes 18-21, F Jun 14

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    Throughout the last 2-3 months I haven't really been eating much, I've started to stop caring about food and I eat very minimal amounts of food, unfortunately my friends and some...
    AlexVaughan1999 AlexVaughan1999 22-25, M 1 Response Jun 14

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    i need a pro ana/mia buddy i can't be fat anymore
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    I feel bad for lying to my mom. She thinks I'm fine. I have been hiding this for 3 years. I'm sorry.
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