Post

I Have a Secret Eating Me Alive

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 25 People

    A Few Actually.. - Probably silly to most, but they get to me.   Ive been eating recently. Not much of a secret but I havent told anyone, does that make sense? Im the girl...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 8, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I Can't Believe I'm Saying This - I haven't told my therapist, my boyfriend or anyone else for 14 years...   I lost my virginity when I was 13 on a sorta/kinda dare. I am so...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Mar 8, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Cementerygates' Secret - To tell you the truth... I havent told this to anyone, but... this may have been said before... Butthe truth is that the person from my past, hates who I...
    cementerygates cementerygates 16-18, F 1 Response Mar 8, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It Took Me Six Months To Say This - My friend had a much younger, live in boytoy for perhaps a year. None of us were crazy about him because he was clearly using her, but she...
    laniferous laniferous 36-40, F 12 Responses Apr 26, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I Am So Ashame - I have this secret that I want to dress like punky brester and have my man *** me is that sick or what...LMAO 
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 8, 2008

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    I don't know, honestly. Everyone thinks I have an eating disorder. I'm not sure. Honestly....I don't really know what anorexia is...*sigh*. I just know that medically.....I'm...
    Josephineong Josephineong 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 20

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have an eating disorder, but know one in my family takes me seriously. I know I have Binge Eating Disorder and I have had it for a long time now. I can't stop putting food in my...
    Marisa67002 Marisa67002 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Getting sick on a daily basis... What was causing it at first was my stress/anxiety. But I a fine, not stressed or having anxiety attacks as bad at least for now, it's to the point...
    advicegiver01 advicegiver01 16-17, F Mar 16

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have an eating disorder that I struggling with. It started in highschool my junior year and I was cheerleading. Something triggered it again about a year ago and I am traveling...
    Anarai Anarai 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 21

    Your Response

    Cancel
    We all have secrets the kind you only share with special friends you can 100% trust
    tom1851 tom1851 46-50, M 1 Response Mar 19

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have secrets that only my boyfriend and best friend know to their full extent. I have a pretty troubled past and it has led me to some trauma. I was extremely depressed for a...
    MellifluousMilkshake MellifluousMilkshake 18-21, F a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My daughter's birthday is the same day as my recovery birthday. When I tell people that my daughter my angel, I mean exactly that. When she was born, it was the happiest day of my...
    Inherownwords Inherownwords 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 24

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I recently found a few Pro-ana and Mia websites, it's like it flipped a switch in my head that has been dormant for some time. Mia and Ana came back louder then ever, and it's hard...
    FarrahRelates FarrahRelates 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 26

    Your Response

    Cancel
    So, I think my anorexia is coming back. I've been eating a lot recently, but throwing it all up. I'm sick of doing that. All I want is to be skinny. I hate myself and when I...
    just1a2girl3 just1a2girl3 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 3

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Well my dad used to tell me off for eating. I always had a revved up metabolism which continued well into my teens. I could rival any teenage boy. But I was active- I never...
    NekroNomikon NekroNomikon 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I find my biggest confliction with my eating disorder is my weed habit. I smoke pot for my insomnia/depression and I love it. I was on a whole bunch of meds that made me feel...
    FarrahRelates FarrahRelates 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 26

    Your Response

    Cancel
    So yesterday was eating fast food. From getting Arby's, to froyo and then a very greasy pizza. Well when I woke up this morning I thought I gained a lot. Like it feels like my face...
    broadwaybabe99 broadwaybabe99 13-15, F 5 Responses Mar 23

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I am at war... with myself. Actually, it's more like tug-of-war. My Life is in a long game of tug-of-war with My Body (either way, I consider myself a soldier, but you can think...
    Amsch95 Amsch95 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 28

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Ok so last night I saw my friend do Cinderella ballet. Well after that her family took me and my other friend to dinner......at 11 pm. We went to Denny's and it was the first time...
    broadwaybabe99 broadwaybabe99 13-15, F 3 Responses Mar 29

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Yep. I still experience traces of it shining through when I get really paranoid about food, but I remind myself that I never want to go back to that eating disorder hell, and it's...
    twisteduniverse twisteduniverse 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Dear eating disorder, please go away. I thought you were my friend, i thought you were helping me, looking out for me. At the start you reassured me that everything would be ok...
    pinkisperfect pinkisperfect 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 20

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I was in 3rd grade when my best friend moved across the country. I began emotional over eating and gained 64 pounds. I was obese for my age and everyone at my tiny private school...
    BrittneyJean15 BrittneyJean15 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    The meds I'm on for ADHD and depression suppress my appetite so much. But even when I try to eat I hear myself think 'how could you want that? You fatass. You'll never look good...
    underageloner underageloner 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I can't eat bread if it's not toasted, the milk has to be cold not warm or hot,I don't like eating with my hand so I prefer to use utensils,No one is allowed to drink from my...
    lostCake lostCake 22-25, F Apr 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have gone weeks without eating a single bite. I have no clue why I do this. I mean I'm small. Like 4'0" and weigh around 95 pounds. It's not like I'm overweight. I just do it.
    Samchezz Samchezz 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 6

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Absence. I've been gone due to my eating disorder and its repurcussions. I apologize to my friends.
    Toukos Toukos 18-21 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It's equality week this week and at school we had to write down our secrets and they're going to put it on a big wall XD
    YukiiCCX YukiiCCX 13-15, F 4 Responses Apr 8

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My life isn't falling apart, its falling together. Why do I do the things I do? Why do I hurt the people I love most so unexpectedly? Isn't it obvious? I'm done here. In this world...
    Blissfulkissofdeath Blissfulkissofdeath 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    So... i'm around 5'1 and a half, I weigh about 12.5 stone. Needless to say that i'm quite a bit overweight. But holy ****... I don't know what happened, but everything's going...
    Narfypoitzort Narfypoitzort 18-21, F Mar 19

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Every time I start to have progress..... I fall back in the b/p cycle. I just want to be skinny. :'(
    looking4wonderland looking4wonderland 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 24

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I sit around wondering if I truly do have bulimia but I don't at the same time. It hurts to know I may have it. The constant battle with food just kills me.
    babybree527 babybree527 18-21, F Mar 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Day three of my fast, broken. My boyfriend had a day off from work and he's with me all day, 24/7. I was able to blow off breakfast and lunch but he insisted we went grocery...
    FarrahRelates FarrahRelates 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm so pissed! I went to the doctors and I lost two pounds with in a day. My doctor is like if you keep loosing we'll send you back to treatment. Next week is your last chance to...
    broadwaybabe99 broadwaybabe99 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 28

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Now I'm nearly 30 and I was pretty sure this **** would be over by now. I actually have a healthy-ish diet now because I worry about my health too much and I can't hold down my job...
    tenyearsonstillhurting tenyearsonstillhurting 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 31

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm 19, 4'11 ft tall and 104.5 pounds it ranges from 108.7-103.4 at times. I don't know how to keep dropping weight. I don't even know what to do anymore at this point. I restrict...
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 2

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm 32 years old, 5'3 & 96lbs. I just don't eat. I'm a single mom of two and I think the stress I've been going through caused me to relapse. I was doing good for almost 6 years. I...
    SuzieChapstick SuzieChapstick 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 6

    Your Response

    Cancel
    So usually it goes along the lines of overeat, eat only a little bit, spend a day having nothing UNTIL right at the end where I finally snap, but oddly enough, i'm about to go to...
    Narfypoitzort Narfypoitzort 18-21, F a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    i havent eaten a meal since sunday night and today is tuesday. i just had a cup of whole milk and i feel like a fat pig. any tips for other anorexic people? can you help me get...
    ana242 ana242 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have done a lot of things I'm not that proud of and I don't think I would actually ever share them with anyone, at least no time soon
    BLANKstateofmind BLANKstateofmind 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 16

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have so many, hard to believe sometimes but no regrets. Will only share privately..
    kbarbaro kbarbaro 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 25

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Binging and purging yet again. Mum came to visit and I forced her away by telling her I was going out. My face is swollen. I look disgusting.
    natty439 natty439 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 16

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It's sunny out and I'm stuck in binging on every thing I can find. I hate me.
    natty439 natty439 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 16

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Heart palpitations, shrinking teeth, broken blood vessels , aching bones, seizures, severe eczema, allergies, bloating. I got all this from trying to be thin. Before my ed I was a...
    natty439 natty439 26-30, F Mar 16

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Called Samaritans . Not much help ,
    natty439 natty439 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 16

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Feeling a little better today. Still bloated.
    natty439 natty439 26-30, F Mar 17

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I was diagnosed with anorexia in August. The lowest weight I've ever been was 78. I've been I treat ment and came home a couple months. But since I've been home I lost 13 pounds...
    broadwaybabe99 broadwaybabe99 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 20

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I ate so much today I feel disgusting
    hayleynoms hayleynoms 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 20

    Your Response

    Cancel
    In your opinion am I to skinny
    broadwaybabe99 broadwaybabe99 13-15, F 4 Responses Mar 21

    Your Response

    Cancel
    for the past 5 months I've been purging n starving myself. I've lost about 35 pounds and my weight keeps going down. my weight is controlling my life its all I think about. well...
    OriginallyVintage OriginallyVintage 13-15, F Mar 23

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Ed's voice is really loud today. I'm ready to break down and cry. I hate how I look, my face looks dreadful. I mean there are pimples all over. My body I feel so bloated and big. I...
    broadwaybabe99 broadwaybabe99 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 24

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I just failed myself:( I was doing so good and I just ate like 4 cookies...ugh;/ I am so frustrated with myself and feel soo fat.
    Anarai Anarai 26-30, F Mar 24

    Your Response

    Cancel