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I Have a Secret Eating Me Alive

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    I Am So Ashame

    I have this secret that I want to dress like punky brester and have my man *** me is that sick or what...LMAO 
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 8, 2008

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    Cementerygates' Secret

    To tell you the truth... I havent told this to anyone, but... this may have been said before... Butthe truth is that the person from my past, hates who I am now. And she will never like me now. She hates the changes that have so unwelcomely controled my every word and action...
    cementerygates cementerygates 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 8, 2008

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    A Few Actually..

    Probably silly to most, but they get to me.   Ive been eating recently. Not much of a secret but I havent told anyone, does that make sense? Im the girl who doesnt eat, or who purges. Not lately. And Im not proud of my weakness. I slept with Dan. Many times. And I will do...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 8, 2008

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    I Can't Believe I'm Saying This

    I haven't told my therapist, my boyfriend or anyone else for 14 years...   I lost my virginity when I was 13 on a sorta/kinda dare. I am so ashamed of it. I hate myself for it. It has the ability to make me feel dirty still. I don't know when or how I'm going to tell my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Mar 8, 2008

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    I can talk the leg off a chair, but the hardest words that I struggle to even mouth when I'm alone is saying out loud 'I have an eating disorder'...
    Messytree Messytree 22-25, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Except for I do not have the eating disorder that most of you have. I have binge eating disorder. Binge Eating Disorder, for those of you who do not know, is kind of like Bulimia...
    brriittttaannyy brriittttaannyy 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 27

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    I've always struggled with my body image. My mom began using MyFitnessPal to track her calories. At the same time my dad started dieting for his body building competition. So, I...
    lms2001 lms2001 31-35, F 4 days ago

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    I told my bff meadow I have a eating disorder today when we were at school she kept asking me to tell her what was up so I wrote her a note telling her about my eating disorder and...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 4 days ago

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    I need an Ana coach to help me lose weight...AND YES I HAVE AN EATING DISORDER...I just feel like the voices in my head aren't enough... Message me please if you are available!
    OriginalJuli3 OriginalJuli3 18-21, F 1 Response May 5

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    If anyone does have issues eating at all, I've just discovered Carnation: Breakfast Essentials. Works great for what it is. And the chocolate flavor tastes like hot chocolate. Just...
    Thanatos24 Thanatos24 22-25, M May 12

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    Well the fear of food is back. I have been struggling with weight my whole life due to a medical condition I was over 250 pounds at one point but had lost over a hundred pounds and...
    fractalpterodactyl fractalpterodactyl 26-30, F 2 Responses May 11

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    I actually had anorexia for five years that included five inpatient/hospital stays for it; loads of medical/ nutritional counseling & even way more therapy. I was quote/unquote...
    JuliaHHL JuliaHHL 18-21, F May 10

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    I'm not sure what to think right now. I've gained about five unwanted pounds this year. Nothing major, still thin. Just a little bit of excess fat that I recently gained. I wanted...
    Justventingg Justventingg 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 26

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    I still struggle on eating much or enough but hey I'm proud to say that atleast I haven't starve in like two weeks. I've been eating all three meals and some snacks. A few times I...
    AndreaCulea AndreaCulea 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 29

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    eating disorders are much more difficult to cope with than your bad eating habits. eat less and exercise if you want to lose weight. it's sad that people actually WANT an eating...
    imverylost imverylost 18-21, F May 11

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    I hate it. I really do. I always relapse back into restricting/fasting for up to a month, then I'll go back to normal. Why this ******* constant up and down thing? I am so...
    SilencesLullaby SilencesLullaby 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 29

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    Well they aren't secret anymore. Which is the real problem.. I get embarrassed but I know I can't change myself. My secret desires have literally changed my destiny, which kind of...
    LilVixen17 LilVixen17 16-17, F 7 Responses May 4

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    Just ******* love it when my breakfast doesn't want to stay down -.- The pains I get from eating hurt so much, makes it worth just not eating.
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response May 6

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    *posted this on I had an eating disorder." I thought and want to give people hope on here too!!! You can recover even from a very serious eating disorder. I am basically fully...
    JuliaHHL JuliaHHL 18-21, F 1 Response May 10

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    I struggle with my body image and what I eat all the time. I spend some days eating nothing, and others eating too much then forcing myself to puke.
    Ellytheoutcast Ellytheoutcast 13-15, F May 11

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    I think I started to have so. I started eating in much less amount and it actually satisfies me. Problem is, I lose weight easily so it drops by like 3-5 Kgs in 3 days so if I'm...
    ReemNoctis ReemNoctis 16-17, F 4 Responses May 12

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    Going to start dieting... Forcing myself to exercise.. Stick to mostly liquids rather than food. I've started to put on weight and that makes me unhappy... I feel sick after...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 28

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    I feel so guilty after eating everything I put in my mouth, even water. I feel so lonely every time all day. I wish there's someone who knew how I felt and just don't nag at me...
    LookAtThatLlama LookAtThatLlama 13-15, F 7 Responses Apr 28

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    I've decided today, that im going to fight this eating disorder... I'm not gonna let it win... I've talked with my sister and she's gonna help plan healthy meals for me. Taking...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses May 4

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    Know what's the best feeling? Eating one meal that's slightly more than "average".. And feeling that you've just ingested a weeks worth of food... FML.
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response May 7

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    Not like bullimia or anorexia or anything like that. I, am an extremely fussy eater. Its not like im saying that i dont want this to touch that blah blah etc. On the contrary, ive...
    imme163 imme163 13-15, F 2 Responses May 10

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    I want to give people hope!!! You can recover even from a very serious eating disorder. I basically fully recovered:) I recovered after a five year battle with anorexia nervosa...
    JuliaHHL JuliaHHL 18-21, F 1 Response May 10

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    I just wanna tell u guys that u r strong and that ur on the right path. U can do this! I admire people recovering from eatingdisorders and depression and so on, it's so incredibly...
    lynnewolf99 lynnewolf99 16-17, F May 11

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    Eating disorders are not fun to have they are very hard to fix and sometimes they lead to depression
    mackenziep71 mackenziep71 13-15, F May 11

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    I am really struggling. I need someone to talk to about my eating habits. I have had bulimia for around three years now and no matter what I do I can't seem to stop
    lilypad017 lilypad017 18-21, F 1 Response May 17

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    It 's daydream for me that 's why I keep it secret
    nimkansiri nimkansiri 22-25, F 3 Responses May 3

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    My secret desire is to have sex with a male-to-female preoperative transsexual.
    ClothingOptional ClothingOptional 26-30, M 5 days ago

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    I have never really talked about it but every time someone very stressful happens I get my old habits back. all this year has been hard and this death in my family really triggered...
    zoeyB zoeyB 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    I haven't ate in so many days I'm so proud of myself
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 1 Response Apr 26

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    When I'm hungry I listen to this song here are some of the lyrics Self hatred grows on me like cancer, I can't locate its whereabouts but it's feasting on its host. I expected him...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 2 Responses Apr 29

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    gave into my urge to purge... i dont like purging.. but i do it if i have to.. maybe ill learn to love it?
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 30

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    I have such a horrible relationship with food. It's literally feast or famine in my life.
    sugarbabysub sugarbabysub 31-35, F 1 Response May 7

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    I harder I work the worse I feel. Why? I wish I could love myself and have a good relationship with food.
    mbennett87 mbennett87 26-30, F May 11

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    I haven't ate in like 3 days and when I did eat I purged im so happy with myself! If anyone makes me eat I'll kill them #darklordofdeath
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 4 Responses May 11

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    Today was a good day. I haven't over eaten once and am stopping myself from overeating by asking myself if I am really hungry or just thirsty. Boyfriend has been great with...
    marlett marlett 41-45, F May 14

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    I haven't ate in SOOO long and no one cares I've only know one person in my whole entire life who spent more than a hour telling me I have to eat and im perfect the way I am but I...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 2 Responses May 16

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    Anyone else have anorexia? Just want to talk to people who understand what I'm going through!?
    aimeex18 aimeex18 18-21, F 2 Responses