I Have a Severe Fear of Death

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    My Fear Of Death

    is that once I'm gone I'm just gone, like I never existed, and life goes on on this planet like it didn't even happen, and there's nothing left of me, no trace, no legacy, no statue, no building, not structures to remember me. That's what is left of my great grandparents. I don't...
    andrew604 andrew604
    36-40, M
    1 Response Sep 7, 2013

    I was raised Methodist

    and I still identify as a believer in God. Regardless, I still feel terrified of the thought of death. What if I'm not a good person and my afterlife is bad because of it? I'm so scared.
    healedbydamage healedbydamage
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 27, 2015

    Hello Everyone. I personally don't have this

    fear- or at least not abnormally. I'm currently working as a Media Student and I'm about to start a new film. The plot is still being written and I was wondering if anyone could help me. My main character is called Evangeline - she's a young woman who suffers from Phanatophobia...
    RebeccaDaizee RebeccaDaizee
    16-17, F
    Nov 3, 2014

    Everyone Has To Accept It.

    But I don't want to. My phobia started after my aunt died when I was 13 years old. (6 years ago) Ever since then I have had reoccurring thoughts about dying and what happens when we go. I guess I'm just scared of not knowing what is going to happen after I take my last breath...
    amj904 amj904
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 18, 2011

    Fear Of Death

    Since I crashed my car, a month after passing my driving test, I haven't been the same, I hate going out just in case something happens and I don't come home, I don't sleep because I feel like I won't wake up the next day. I can't get on the bus, or in a car since I crashed, I've...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jan 25, 2012

    I Have A Severe Fear Of Death.

    I have a severe fear of death. Unlike many people here I cannot tell you when this fear stared. However my fear of aging is fairly new. I have had a lot of changes in my life from this past two years. My grandfather past away a couple months back, my aunt past away last...
    Pooh90 Pooh90
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Nov 12, 2011

    My Daily Torment

    Ever since I was 11 years of age I started to think about death but it did'nt seem to affect me to much. However in the last few months the fear I have has become more severe and now virtually every minute of the day is spent dwelling on it. It is not the pain side of it which I...
    BongoBill31629 BongoBill31629
    41-45
    2 Responses Aug 20, 2012

    I have always been fascinated by death.

    Curious as a child. Was very religious growing up, wanted to be a nun. Just wanted to be with Christ in the afterworld. As a young kid, riding her bike, I would ride by the funeral parlor, and if there was a crowd, I would go in and visit the person who died. Didnt know...
    NO12TALK2 NO12TALK2
    61-65, F
    1 Response Mar 20

    I To Fear Death!!

    I can relate to all of your stories. I have had a fear of death since I was 15, mine though only comes every 4 yrs in the fall and winter months. I get so discouraged when I talk about it to family and friends and they tell me they have no fear!! Even talked to my doctor about...
    whtchoc44 whtchoc44
    41-45, F
    3 Responses Feb 7, 2011

    ~ Not Death So Much ~

       IT'S THE NOT KNOWING WHAT COMES AFTER THAT I HAVE A SEVERE FEAR OF................... I'M NOT SCARED OF DYING PERSAY, I'M SCARED OF WHAT COMES AFTER. I DON'T WANT TO END UP BACK HERE, IN PAIN TO RERUN THIS MESSED UP LIFE AGAIN. I DON'T WANT TO JUST DISAPPEAR EITHER...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jun 24, 2009

    The Afterlife Or The Lack Of

    For the last 8 months I have been consumed with my mortality. I know death is inevitable, but I fear it. It is not so much death, but what happens after death. Is there nothing; an empty void with no self-awareness, or is there truely some define place of peace where I can...
    MLTravis MLTravis
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Feb 9, 2013

    Fear

    i don't know what exactly,its a combination of what will happen to me when i die,and whats dieing actually like? its so severe that anytime i hear anything to do with death i panic inside. i feel horrible ever since i can remember it has scared me, it actually keeps me...
    chickensinstilettos chickensinstilettos
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 5, 2010

    I think about it daily.

    I really do get scared. Terrified
    walkinwonder walkinwonder
    18-21, F
    Nov 24, 2014

    This Feeling Will Never Go Away

    i have had a severe fear of death for as long as i remember. it began as panic attacks about twice as a child. these thoughts have come back to me recently. as much as i push them away they return. i do not understand how everyone does not have this extreme fear. i feel like life...
    rocette rocette
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 12, 2013

    Help

    Ever since I was about 10 or 11 I've had a very frightening fear of death. When I was younger I used to obsess about being buried - not because I worried about being buried alive but because I couldn't understand what happened and where I went, that thought still terrifies...
    lawbox18 lawbox18
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Oct 28, 2009

    I have random panic attacks about dying,

    even when I am not thinking about death.
    twistedreality22 twistedreality22
    22-25, F
    Jun 17, 2015

    I'm not religious, even

    though I wish the after life is real, I believe it's not. So because of that I have a severe fear of death. I avoid thinking about it as much as possible because when I do, usually at night when I'm alone, I start shaking and crying. I have panic attacks thinking about it. I...
    MacKenzieRaae MacKenzieRaae
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jan 11

    I Don't Know Why

    Hey everyone, I had no clue that there was a group like this,,but I am very glad that I found it. My story; I have feared death since I was 23 and I'm 48 now, it has not left my mind,,not for one single day. I had an anxiety attack at the age of 23, and thats where it all began...
    Ydoifear23 Ydoifear23
    46-50, M
    4 Responses Jul 21, 2009

    Phobia

    i have a sever fear of death and dying. and its just not me its also fear that my mum, dad and borther would die. i try to stay awake and avoid sleeping to make sure that im still breathing in the morning. i dont want any of my closest family to die alone. everyone needs company...
    ccdo ccdo
    22-25, F
    14 Responses Jul 21, 2009

    Paralyzing Fear

     I have been close to death a few times in my life, as I have struggled with an eating disorder for many years.   At times I thought I wanted death.  The only thing that stopped me at the time was my strict Catholic upbringing that said any form of...
    jesterlover16 jesterlover16
    22-25
    3 Responses Aug 10, 2009

    This Fear Is All Consuming...

    I have been having full out panic attacks about this for years now. I can usually suppress it, but sometimes I just can't. I am absolutely terrified. I think about it at least 5 times a day. Today I became physically ill because of it. It's not so much moving on to a...
    mml411 mml411
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Nov 22, 2013

    Fear

    Hi, I'm not sure why I have never looked this up on the internet before now... Basically ever since I can remember, i mean like my earliest memories when I was a child, I have had this overwelming fear of death...I would have gone to bed and for some reason something would...
    ESME86 ESME86
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Nov 16, 2009

    I Have A Paralyzing Fear Of Being Dead.

    I dont really know how to explain it but I have an extreme fear of being dead. I dont really have much of a story except that this fear has not allowed me to eat, sleep, I have nasty panic attacks, and i throw up alot. I feel this feeling will never go away.
    APbranch APbranch
    26-30, M
    1 Response Dec 22, 2012

    I Won't Go, And You Can't Make Me.

    If I could live forever, I'd be happy. I don't want to leave anyone or anything behind...
    SongsFromTheSoul SongsFromTheSoul
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Mar 16, 2012

    Terrified

    Just within the last few weeks I started this death and dying "phobia." I think it stems from my loneliness and fear that I will die alone. I think about it as soon as I wake up and when Im going to bed. I cannot imagine never seeing this earth and its people again. I...
    clerk66535 clerk66535
    31-35
    2 Responses Jul 1, 2009

    Fear Of Death

    my fear of death is related to not having anyone to relate my death with. there are two life events that matter; birth and death. the rest are just spaces we fill up in between. i am fearful of no one asking deep enough questions while they were alive. i seem to have plunged...
    benbingham benbingham
    31-35, M
    Jan 5, 2012

    I Want This Thought to Leave!

      The thought of dying is getting worse by the day,,and I feel that I fear it more than anyone...I know that many of us do have a severe fear,,but my God!,,,It Will Not Leave My Head!!! I've been online looking at caskets,,,headstones...Is this a sign that I Am going to die...
    Ydoifear23 Ydoifear23
    46-50, M
    6 Responses Aug 18, 2009

    Fear Of Death Is Driving Me Crazy

    Hello Everyone, I guess I will start off by saying my fear of death started as a child.  Any time I think of it, of what happens after (do I just disappear?  Everyone I love?)  I have a panic attack.  Just typing this is unsetting me.  As a child I...
    noemail633 noemail633
    36-40
    5 Responses May 22, 2010

    Fear Of Death

    One day, like a slap across the face, it hit me. I acknowledged my own mortality. This was five years ago when two loved ones passed away. Before that, I saw SO MANY people die. I work in the medical field for goodness sake. People drop like flies! It never bothered me...
    Rlmlm Rlmlm
    46-50, F
    3 Responses Feb 20, 2013

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