I Have A Tendancy To Isolate Myself

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    Whenever I feel really impulsive I isolate

    myself in my room because I don't want to do something stupid like have impulsive sex, buy useless things, and do something that gives me adrenaline. Whenever I'm sad with a combination of happy, I feel like a impulsive self destructive train that will keep going and going till...
    ponycupcake ponycupcake
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 14, 2014

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