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I Have A Terminal Illness

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 25 People

    Finding it hard to deal with.

    I push it to the back of my mind. I don't want this. If I ignore it it will go away wont it??? Maybe the doctors have it all wrong? What am I exactly supposed to do now? Pulmonary fibrosis..... sounds harmless so why is it a killer? I have a three year old... I want to...
    girl1e girl1e 31-35, F 4 Responses May 25

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    I Had A Long Day

    So I thought I'd take a long week to type it hereThe very slow process of my death is, exhausting to say the least.I tried to through myself a celebration party for passing my terimal date, I had to pay for everything lol and all these people I dont really know and invited ended...
    LateNightOwl LateNightOwl 22-25, M Jun 6, 2011

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    Party Girl Who Wishes She Could Change The Past

    I was a heavy drinker all my life.  Now, I am terminal.  I come from a family of heavy drinkers and my grandpa lived to be 92.  The thought of cirrhosis never entered my mind.   I recently had warning signs that something was wrong; my nose bled, bruises were all over my...
    11chuleta 11chuleta 46-50, F 1 Response May 9, 2012

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    Life looks different today.

    I was diagnosed yesterday with a disease expected to destroy my mind and be very painful in the end too. What fun! It's weird the clarity this brings. Every moment counts even though the end is years away still for me, and I am not going down without a fight. I started...
    onefootoutthedoor onefootoutthedoor 51-55, M 9 Responses Dec 12, 2013

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    My Story

    i was diagnosed with a (then) non-operable brain tumor in 2001 and was told I had less than a 50% to survive the next 5 years.  it's been 10 years now since the diagnosis and i should be happy to be alive, but i'm not.  I've had at least 4 surgeries and radiotherapy and most...
    omelettegod omelettegod 41-45 6 Responses Jul 16, 2011

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    My best friend finally returned my call today

    and I did not have the heart to tell him I was unwell. First of all he is a blabber mouth and telling him would mean dozens of people I know would know and that would be a pain in the ***. Secondly I did not want to bum him out. He's had a rough spell that has recently turned...
    onefootoutthedoor onefootoutthedoor 51-55, M 2 Responses Jan 1

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    I have a neurological illness called MSA

    (Multiple System Atrophy), almost nobody has ever heard of it. I am married and have 4 kids. I am 40 yo. The average ligespan is 7-9 years. I am in my fourth year and it is getting harder every day. patients with MSA start to loose the ability to move, and eventually talk...
    tanustt tanustt 41-45, F 3 Responses Feb 10

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    My only remaining kidney has entered stage 3

    failure. I'm not ready to die. Not like this. I continue to fight as I have been. I hope soon I can go home. I really hate it here at the hospital. The people are all really nice here but this place makes me think of pain and death. I have dialysis again tomorrow, but I'm not...
    cartermurrows cartermurrows 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 17

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    Diphtheria

    I'm 21 years old and I've had a terrible life and maybe like most people have wished for my life to end. I haven't actually attempted suicide or hurt myself, I've already been physically hurt too many times to want to do that anyway. But I never wanted a terminal illness, I don't...
    InmemoryofLifelessStar InmemoryofLifelessStar 18-21, F 35 Responses Jul 18, 2011

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    Leukemia

    I had a bone marrow transplant in 2003 and I am still alive and I am not on any medication.
    Pat111 Pat111 51-55 Dec 8, 2011

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    My body is rejecting itself it's a genetic

    illness that skips some generations in my family first guy to get it so god dam do I feel lucky. I'm 18 and I walk with a cane for gods sake and my body is just gonna decay and break until I can't walk or do anything myself but hey...I'm having a good hair day today so...things...
    lewismurray16 lewismurray16 18-21, M Nov 11

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    last night I had a very bad nightmare, I wear elbow supports when in bed which in real life are quite painful as are my elbows, anyways the horrid person I saw in my dream had...
    081275fizz 081275fizz 36-40, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I have a mental disease ... Today I was walking on the street,and the sky turned into darker...I felt depression and I wanted to cry on the street...Totally loneliness and scary...
    Farmerwork Farmerwork 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 5

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    lord jesus be with me, my story sounds so familiar to many that i've read on this forum, I have a 7 year old that was resently diagnose as adhd. right now my world have been turn...
    ldydreamer83 ldydreamer83 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 1

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    Anyone else here have this illness?
    leyla29 leyla29 26-30, F 5 days ago

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    are these mental illnesses caused by genetics or loneliness? when u are mentally ill do u feel very naive?
    unlovednbroken unlovednbroken 18-21, F 3 Responses 54 mins ago

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    My son snapped at school again today. Threatened to jump out the window and kill himself. Councilor told him that wasn't an option because the window doesn't open enough obviously...
    ThistleAndWeeds ThistleAndWeeds 31-35, F 7 hrs ago

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    This is my testimony of having a mental illness - obsessive compulsive disorder. It does get better, I promise you that! Well I might as well start at the beginning, growing up I...
    chelseystorys chelseystorys 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I hate it when people say they're depressed, or they think they have depression, because their partner split with them, or they have extra homework. Just because you get a problem...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 27

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    I'm gonna talk to you this time about my life and experience in Bournemouth I moved to Bournemouth at the end of September 2009 for the fact that it was a beautiful town and it...
    lostsouluk lostsouluk 31-35, F Nov 9

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    "Never give up on someone with a mental illness. When "I" is replaced by "We", illness becomes wellness."
    JesseVicious JesseVicious 22-25, T Oct 20

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    I have been living with an undiagnosed illness since birth. I think its time that we join together in making sure doctors take our cases seriously. In that spirit I have created...
    iamundiagnosed iamundiagnosed 22-25, M Oct 21

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    I hope you all know that I love you so much but you are killing me with so much pain and illness. When I feel you and all your pain it brings me to my knees with the intensity of...
    TheBlessedOne TheBlessedOne 46-50, F 2 Responses Oct 22

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    My father had schizophrenia. I have not been diagnosed with schizophrenia, but I have been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, OCD, schizoaffective disorder, and...
    euphorian euphorian 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 23

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    I started having symptoms at age twelve but I had a complete brake down my junior year of high school. I was trying to balance high school, cosmetology school, and my pots symptoms...
    alyssaanna alyssaanna 18-21, F a week ago

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    Once my doc looked at my chart and saw _, he stopped looking for a reason for why I felt bad. Illnesses like MS are just labels. They describe a collection of symptoms.
    ceahope ceahope 36-40, F Oct 31

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    I thought this would be people with actual mental illness not this depression hippy bullshit
    WeSeeWeJudge WeSeeWeJudge 13-15, M 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I am sick, but not of a very serious illness. Still, up to now they told me it is not curable, and I have to live with it my whole life. My whole digestive system is ****** up, my...
    Serenahil Serenahil 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 20

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    Since I was little I had a huge fear of talking to people. I'd always been labelled 'shy' by people. I always thought it was shyness that I couldn't talk to people out of fear...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response Oct 24

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    Hi can spopme1 helppppp me I'm suffering 4rm a mental conditioppn my mind is creating a illness in me that's nopt there like they say its all in the mind. My mind create nuasea all...
    mentalslavery mentalslavery 26-30 Nov 1

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    Both my children off meds... Grand daughter frightened and being hurt. Illness or not, it's on!!!! Bring it!
    WarriorPrincess862 WarriorPrincess862 36-40, F Nov 3

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    im feeling angry and fructrated i dont know how to copw with this sick illness i dont wan to do nothing i treat myself like a piece of **** i dont want tobe around know one i feel...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 2 Responses Nov 3

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    So my story, let’s see. I have not yet seen a therapist to diagnose me with this phobia, but after reading so much about it and hearing the experiences of others, I’m 100...
    ListenPlease00 ListenPlease00 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 11

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    An emotionless void. Endless pain. Doubt. Fear. Misery. Insecurity. These have been my constant companions for so much of my life. Joy. Happiness. Love. Laughter. What are those...
    dawnzerleelight dawnzerleelight 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 11

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    I have struggled with major depression, as a direct result of complex high betrayal trauma, ever since I was a little girl. From the time I was 7 years old until the time I was 9...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 20 Responses 2 days ago

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    First time we realized when I was 5. I passed out while I was watching cartoons. Once my sister didn't realized what the hell happened. But she decided to take me to the neurology...
    gregoryraven17 gregoryraven17 18-21, M Nov 9

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    My ex-wife was raped, twice, by the same man on different days. From time to time, I imagine tracking him down, chaining him to a metal bed, and holding a torch to his clothes; he...
    PhresnoPhoenix PhresnoPhoenix 36-40, M 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder. (GAD) I think I may also have borderline personality disorder. (BPD)
    imJboy2001 imJboy2001 13-15, M 1 Response Oct 20

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    Round 6 for my son at the hospital? Maybe...I don't know. Just got a call from the school saying he tried to strangle himself with the blind cord because it became too noisy and he...
    ThistleAndWeeds ThistleAndWeeds 31-35, F Oct 20

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    I have a restraining order not coz I'm criminal or a stalker .it just because I went through a lot of abuse and oppression through my life and I was feeling angry with a certain...
    lostsouluk lostsouluk 31-35, F 4 Responses Oct 21

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    His name is Snickers. The image I attached is of him. He is my baby <3 I love him. I planned getting him for months and actually ended up getting him on my 19th birthday this...
    GiftedChoctaw GiftedChoctaw 18-21, F Oct 22

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    The situation or series of situations we find ourselves in will bring us to a crossroads. They will shape us into who we will become, what we will believe in, and will either...
    WarriorPrincess862 WarriorPrincess862 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 23

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    I suffer from Bipolar Disorder with rapid cycles. I become suicidal, extremely happy, irritable and homocidal. Im sick of my emotions and wish i didn't have any
    Danae102 Danae102 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 23

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    I was officially diagnosed with depression, social anxiety, general anxiety, and obsessive compulsive disorder. Over the past years OCD has been in remission, depression has turned...
    kandieekainee kandieekainee 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 25

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    I was diagnosed with depression & psychosis at 15. Then at 17 bipolar & psychosis, then schizoeffective disorder then paranoid schizophrenia. I don't believe it but I have bad...
    GeorgiaAlicee GeorgiaAlicee 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 25

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    so before this illness I use to be so fit and healthy and active but since..... I have gained so much weight ???? so I'm going to TRY and do some light exercise today despite not...
    tljsmtc tljsmtc 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 26

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