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I Have A Terminal Illness

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 26 People

    Leukemia

    I had a bone marrow transplant in 2003 and I am still alive and I am not on any medication.
    Pat111 Pat111 51-55 Dec 8, 2011

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    My best friend finally returned my call today

    and I did not have the heart to tell him I was unwell. First of all he is a blabber mouth and telling him would mean dozens of people I know would know and that would be a pain in the ***. Secondly I did not want to bum him out. He's had a rough spell that has recently turned...
    onefootoutthedoor onefootoutthedoor 51-55, M 2 Responses Jan 1

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    I Had A Long Day

    So I thought I'd take a long week to type it hereThe very slow process of my death is, exhausting to say the least.I tried to through myself a celebration party for passing my terimal date, I had to pay for everything lol and all these people I dont really know and invited ended...
    LateNightOwl LateNightOwl 22-25, M Jun 6, 2011

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    I have been told I may need heart bypass

    surgery. That is not the hard part. I also may have cardiomyopathy. If I do, I know I have a short time to live. This illness is known to be in my family. More later. This is not good bye.
    oldclerk oldclerk 61-65, M Dec 8

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    Party Girl Who Wishes She Could Change The Past

    I was a heavy drinker all my life.  Now, I am terminal.  I come from a family of heavy drinkers and my grandpa lived to be 92.  The thought of cirrhosis never entered my mind.   I recently had warning signs that something was wrong; my nose bled, bruises were all over my...
    11chuleta 11chuleta 46-50, F 1 Response May 9, 2012

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    My only remaining kidney has entered stage 3

    failure. I'm not ready to die. Not like this. I continue to fight as I have been. I hope soon I can go home. I really hate it here at the hospital. The people are all really nice here but this place makes me think of pain and death. I have dialysis again tomorrow, but I'm not...
    cartermurrows cartermurrows 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 17

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    Finding it hard to deal with.

    I push it to the back of my mind. I don't want this. If I ignore it it will go away wont it??? Maybe the doctors have it all wrong? What am I exactly supposed to do now? Pulmonary fibrosis..... sounds harmless so why is it a killer? I have a three year old... I want to...
    girl1e girl1e 31-35, F 4 Responses May 25

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    My Story

    i was diagnosed with a (then) non-operable brain tumor in 2001 and was told I had less than a 50% to survive the next 5 years.  it's been 10 years now since the diagnosis and i should be happy to be alive, but i'm not.  I've had at least 4 surgeries and radiotherapy and most...
    omelettegod omelettegod 41-45 6 Responses Jul 16, 2011

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    I have a neurological illness called MSA

    (Multiple System Atrophy), almost nobody has ever heard of it. I am married and have 4 kids. I am 40 yo. The average ligespan is 7-9 years. I am in my fourth year and it is getting harder every day. patients with MSA start to loose the ability to move, and eventually talk...
    tanustt tanustt 41-45, F 3 Responses Feb 10

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    My body is rejecting itself it's a genetic

    illness that skips some generations in my family first guy to get it so god dam do I feel lucky. I'm 18 and I walk with a cane for gods sake and my body is just gonna decay and break until I can't walk or do anything myself but hey...I'm having a good hair day today so...things...
    lewismurray16 lewismurray16 18-21, M Nov 11

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    Diphtheria

    I'm 21 years old and I've had a terrible life and maybe like most people have wished for my life to end. I haven't actually attempted suicide or hurt myself, I've already been physically hurt too many times to want to do that anyway. But I never wanted a terminal illness, I don't...
    InmemoryofLifelessStar InmemoryofLifelessStar 18-21, F 35 Responses Jul 18, 2011

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    Life looks different today.

    I was diagnosed yesterday with a disease expected to destroy my mind and be very painful in the end too. What fun! It's weird the clarity this brings. Every moment counts even though the end is years away still for me, and I am not going down without a fight. I started...
    onefootoutthedoor onefootoutthedoor 51-55, M 12 Responses Dec 12, 2013

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    after a bust up again last night, we went to bed without even saying goodnight.. That's something I never do, you never know if you're gonna wake up in the morning, however as he...
    081275fizz 081275fizz 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    I have schizoaffective disorder. I'm sitting at home on a friday night by myself. First of all I didn't have the energy to go out, secondly, I just never seem to have plans...
    krome13 krome13 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 12

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    I was 50 y/o when my Dr. told me I have terminal cancer. It was like setting my hair on fire and trying to put it out with a sludge hammer. Up until that point, I always knew I was...
    Steveduster4050 Steveduster4050 51-55, M Nov 27

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    Hey, my name is Daniel, I`m 19 and have panhypopituitarism. This post is to encourage everyone of you who also have this illness. I know that we are all tired of being restricted...
    DanielMR DanielMR 18-21 1 Response Nov 24

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    I have undiagnosed condition since age 14 I'm now 22.I missed out on a lot on my life because of it .Over time it's only getting worst and the medication are not working anymore .I...
    kellner27 kellner27 18-21, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    What if you lost your ability to Love ? What if the ability to enjoy everything was taken away from one day to the next ? This is a glimpse into my life suffering from a mental...
    jeromeleegriffin jeromeleegriffin 41-45, M Nov 30

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    I am still so angry. I don't know how to process these feelings and they are eroding my adult life, holding me back from being a successful person. Mental illness runs in my...
    momshelle momshelle 26-30, F Dec 9

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    I have met a number of Ascended Masters during my lifetime, some like Rama, I just met in passing. But aside from Kuthumi, there are three that stand out: Hilarion, Babaji and...
    Orion33 Orion33 51-55, M Nov 28

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    i think this group should be ashamed of themselves. mental illness is not normal. it destroys the lives of many. if it was so normal everyone would commit suicide. if mental...
    msworstlife msworstlife 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    Hi everyone. I never saw myself as the type to join any sort of online forum. Truth is, it makes me very uncomfortable to read my own words. I felt like I needed to join today...
    TheGeiser TheGeiser 18-21, F Nov 25

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    I am in the process of recovering from chronic depression, severe anxiety, and anorexia nervosa. I've attempted suicide more than 30 times but am no longer suicidal. I've been...
    losingNemo losingNemo 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 28

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    I have an array of mental illnesses, such as schizophrenia, dissociative identity disorder, OCD, anxiety, autism, etc. Sometimes it's hard to live, but I've learned to cope with...
    CaliginousHeart CaliginousHeart 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 3

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    OCD is when: Numbers remind you of the worst moments of your life. You can't walk into that room because you have a bad feeling. You can't hurt that stuffed animal because it has...
    simplyOCD simplyOCD 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 6

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    THERE IS HOPE! New meds, new therapist, good advice and fresh hope. My 21 year old son is bipolar, he self diagnosed when he was 12, and told his doctor. The doctor was...
    Deedle623 Deedle623 51-55, F Dec 6

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    I enlisted for the military in early March. I had wanted to join since the 8th grade despite the depression and anxiety I suffered again and again. I worked hard to lose weight and...
    KeiKeiChan KeiKeiChan 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    With Wings is a group on Facebook which offers help and support for those who need it. It is a safe space for members to come together, make friends and help others as well as...
    withwingsgroup withwingsgroup 18-21, F Dec 11

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    So I went to the elementary school with my sister, her boyfriend, and my nephew for a movie event. My Tourettes was acting up while I was there to the point I had a tic where my...
    MlNUET MlNUET 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 12

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    I have recently been diagnosed manic depressive, bipolar, and split personality. I'm overwhelmed and don't know what to do. I would like to talk with some people who experience...
    Gothika88 Gothika88 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 12

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    Sadness and Loss Tears falling Like sprays of salt From a sea wave Like rain from The skies above To fall from sad eyes' Eyes that see into A soul filled with sadness A soul that...
    dragonfang dragonfang 51-55, M a week ago

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    As much as I've tried not to let this effect me and define who I am, I've been out of work all year due to this illness, had 2 weeks training for a new job and my illness has...
    deejay2605 deejay2605 22-25, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I watched my Father die of cancer. For 3 years my dad fought terminal lung cancer. He died 3 years ago. I was by his side the whole time. I can never stop thinking about him. I can...
    heathermal123 heathermal123 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I have always felt like I want to die but can't kill myself because of what it would do to my family but mainly my daughter who I am so close to, I just don't want to face the hell...
    tealc2961 tealc2961 36-40, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    My boyfriend just got back yesterday from basic training for winter solstice for a couple weeks. I am so happy! Seeing him for the first time in months was crazy. He is just the...
    Mollyvdb Mollyvdb 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    My Mom has cancer. But I don't know what kind it is. I've been mad and sad. Like I didnt think she had cancer when she told me. But she showed me her medicine and she has cancer. I...
    belongtoLyann belongtoLyann 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I have a Demyelinating Disease. MS is also one of these diseases but mine is a new type. I have lesions scattered through out my brain and on the underside of my Corpus Collosum...
    BCulp38 BCulp38 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    My mom has had persistent vertigo for the past week. She was confined a few days ago, but wanted to be discharged when the doctors couldn't figure out what's causing the dizziness...
    twelves twelves 22-25 Nov 24

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    I suffer severely with mental problems, I have so many cos of some ****** up things that have happened, plus I was never a "normal kid" anyway. I hate it, I can't make friends cos...
    kyleishurt kyleishurt 16-17, M 1 Response Nov 24

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    It bites hard. Meds made it worse. And heart attacks on seroquel. But they can debate diagnosis. Was in phoenix. Had a doctor. He left. New doctor came. She...
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M Nov 24

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    i dont know but i just dont think rght. i do stupid things. i believe things that arent really happening. i have always been an idiot in my thinking i dont know why. is it because...
    msworstlife msworstlife 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 25

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    i feeling desperate i want to hurt myself i want to take all my frustrations on aeveryone this illness consumes you no trears habits i feel so ill its pouring rain i just wanted a...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response Nov 25

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    I am 99.999999% certain that this will be my last Thanksgiving with my mother. She hasn't slept since Friday (she sleeps for about 30 minutes at a time and then is up for hours...
    Myzery Myzery 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 26

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    A really good friend of mine passed away in the last week. He got sober about the same time as me about a couple of months after I stopped drinking so did he. I met him on his...
    nunos nunos 51-55, M 4 Responses Nov 27

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    Reading about other people who have this also has been very encouraging. I've had EN for about 6 months and like many of you, doctors have NO idea what caused it. I spent the...
    sawheet sawheet 31-35, F Nov 28

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    I need and interpretation of this one, so please read it carefully, and I'll try to put in as much information as I can. It was the start of the new semester, apparently, because...
    ReesesPeaces ReesesPeaces 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 28

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    It's like I have two sides. One side isn't really confident, but fine with people not liking her. The other is full of depression and anxiety ridden; unable to even speak to others...
    HarleyQuinn326 HarleyQuinn326 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 29