Post

I Have A Terminal Illness

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 21 People

    Finding it hard to deal with.

    I push it to the back of my mind. I don't want this. If I ignore it it will go away wont it??? Maybe the doctors have it all wrong? What am I exactly supposed to do now? Pulmonary fibrosis..... sounds harmless so why is it a killer? I have a three year old... I want to...
    girl1e girl1e 31-35, F 4 Responses May 25

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Party Girl Who Wishes She Could Change The Past

    I was a heavy drinker all my life.  Now, I am terminal.  I come from a family of heavy drinkers and my grandpa lived to be 92.  The thought of cirrhosis never entered my mind.   I recently had warning signs that something was wrong; my nose bled, bruises were all over my...
    11chuleta 11chuleta 46-50, F 1 Response May 9, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Leukemia

    I had a bone marrow transplant in 2003 and I am still alive and I am not on any medication.
    Pat111 Pat111 51-55 Dec 8, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Had A Long Day

    So I thought I'd take a long week to type it hereThe very slow process of my death is, exhausting to say the least.I tried to through myself a celebration party for passing my terimal date, I had to pay for everything lol and all these people I dont really know and invited ended...
    LateNightOwl LateNightOwl 22-25, M Jun 6, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Diphtheria

    I'm 21 years old and I've had a terrible life and maybe like most people have wished for my life to end. I haven't actually attempted suicide or hurt myself, I've already been physically hurt too many times to want to do that anyway. But I never wanted a terminal illness, I don't...
    InmemoryofLifelessStar InmemoryofLifelessStar 18-21, F 35 Responses Jul 18, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My Story

    i was diagnosed with a (then) non-operable brain tumor in 2001 and was told I had less than a 50% to survive the next 5 years.  it's been 10 years now since the diagnosis and i should be happy to be alive, but i'm not.  I've had at least 4 surgeries and radiotherapy and most...
    omelettegod omelettegod 41-45 5 Responses Jul 16, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I have a neurological illness called MSA

    (Multiple System Atrophy), almost nobody has ever heard of it. I am married and have 4 kids. I am 40 yo. The average ligespan is 7-9 years. I am in my fourth year and it is getting harder every day. patients with MSA start to loose the ability to move, and eventually talk...
    tanustt tanustt 36-40, F 3 Responses Feb 10

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Life looks different today.

    I was diagnosed yesterday with a disease expected to destroy my mind and be very painful in the end too. What fun! It's weird the clarity this brings. Every moment counts even though the end is years away still for me, and I am not going down without a fight. I started...
    onefootoutthedoor onefootoutthedoor 51-55, M 9 Responses Dec 12, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My best friend finally returned my call today

    and I did not have the heart to tell him I was unwell. First of all he is a blabber mouth and telling him would mean dozens of people I know would know and that would be a pain in the ***. Secondly I did not want to bum him out. He's had a rough spell that has recently turned...
    onefootoutthedoor onefootoutthedoor 51-55, M 2 Responses Jan 1

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My only remaining kidney has entered stage 3

    failure. I'm not ready to die. Not like this. I continue to fight as I have been. I hope soon I can go home. I really hate it here at the hospital. The people are all really nice here but this place makes me think of pain and death. I have dialysis again tomorrow, but I'm not...
    cartermurrows cartermurrows 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 17

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    I have mental illness on my mother's side of the family. Schizophrenia to be exact. Horrible things have been endured by family members. My father has anxiety and so do I. I...
    caramelLova1 caramelLova1 31-35, F a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Sometimes I wish BPD was a terminal illness. Right now in my mind I want to die. I don’t want to wake up tomorrow, in fact I want to close my eyes and instantly have life go out...
    distraughtmind distraughtmind 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 24

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Sometimes it's really hard, but I always need to keep going. I was hospitalized for two days for extreme panic attacks. The whole thing was absolute Hell. I've struggled with...
    stephaanicole stephaanicole 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    This is my first post on EP. I'm so glad I found this app! :) I was diagnosed with Adult ADHD (predominantly inattentive) in the summer of 2011. My first experience with...
    I4n3 I4n3 22-25, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm new here. And I really wanted to post this, because I struggle with it everyday. And it is that I fear I have multiple mental illnesses. It feels really strange to post that...
    iHack iHack 13-15, F 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hi, I just found this site. I've been struggling with Hidradenitis since the beginning of my fifth grade year, it's been my constant companion for ten years now. I was lucky and...
    Krissy2014 Krissy2014 18-21, F 8 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have Adjustment Disorder with mixed anxiety and disorder, and yes I was diagnosed with it, not self-diagnosed. I feel depressed most of the times, I always get butterflies in my...
    Mikaylaxo Mikaylaxo 13-15, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Or, at least, that's one of the things I was diagnosed for, and I don't think it's right. I started taking lithium, and about three days in, I had a STELLAR day. Then it went down...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 13 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Just under a year ago I revelled in believing I had discovered the equation of the meaning of life: 1 + (2+2) = 2 which I believed would cure cancer. I also believed I had found...
    rewindme rewindme 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 8

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have major depression, along with some other labels. And the one thing I learned about having this illness is that you can't let it win. I would have episodes that made...
    redhope redhope 18-21, F Jul 8

    Your Response

    Cancel
    In my opinion, I don't think people really understand Mental Illness unless they experience too.
    nathanieljlaw nathanieljlaw 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 10

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm torn. I'm torn about accepting the mental illness labels doctors have diagnosed me with, such as having bipolar and depression, because I don't want the labels to define me...
    JadedDivinity JadedDivinity 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 15

    Your Response

    Cancel
    One trend in particular that has been really getting to me, is the people who wear the "I Beat Anorexia" shirts as a joke. It ****** me off especially as someone who has dealt with...
    EowynElf EowynElf 16-17, F 1 Response a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have never realized the lack of resources ratio to the assistance that people needed in order to get the help they need until it hit close to home. I have a parent that has been...
    Bumblehbee Bumblehbee 22-25, F Jun 23

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I beat the urge to pick. I understand I can relapse, but the urge is gone for now. I hope someone reads this and is inspired. You need to start somewhere. Stop wallowing in the...
    saviscool saviscool 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 23

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My dad left before I was born. After I was born my mom was diagnosed with Huntington's Disease...it's a genetic disease. I was only 10. In those 10 years I watched her slowly die...
    blackbird08 blackbird08 18-21, F Jun 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    What I hate most are the people who don't even have the disorder/illness/disease whatever you want to call it and they try to take over and tell you what to do. Like no, back up...
    usmcdaughter usmcdaughter 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    People absolutely misunderstand mental illness. They would never tell a person with cancer to' get over it' or 'just cheer up'. But it goes deeper than that. There is not a...
    accidentalme accidentalme 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    For about a year I've been considering divorcing my wife of nearly 8 years. Our relationship has never been great. We are great friends, but horrible lovers/spouses. We do things...
    randomtiger45 randomtiger45 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    UK SUFFERERS - PLEASE GET IN CONTACT! So, I've never really wanted to write my story. Not because I am afraid or ashamed, but because I am so bored of talking about it, it makes...
    scharx scharx 18-21 Jul 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    UK SUFFERERS - PLEASE GET IN CONTACT! So, I've never really wanted to write my story. Not because I am afraid or ashamed, but because I am so bored of talking about it, it makes...
    scharx scharx 18-21 1 Response Jul 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Not by proxy, just Munchausen. This is not diagnosed, but I have extremely strong suspicions that my mother has this disease. I cannot even begin to list the myriad of "illnesses...
    keroseneyes keroseneyes 26-30, F Jul 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have had POTS since the last two months of my eighth grade year. It took until December for my illness to finally be diagnosed as POTS. But even though I had a diagnoses I still...
    POTSforever POTSforever 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 5

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Hello.my names Alex and i have schizoaffective disorder, its a combination of schizophrenia and bipolar or depression in my case its depression. it feels so strange when i think...
    cutealex21 cutealex21 18-21, F Jul 9

    Your Response

    Cancel
    This is a response I wrote to an anorexic woman. I'm bipolar, but I've talked to enough people with other kinds of mental illnesses to see we have a lot in common. I wrote this to...
    wundayatta wundayatta 56-60, M Jul 13

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My mother is terminally ill and is expected to die soon. I love her very much and have many regrets. I dont tell people because I do not like the sympathy but I juat want those...
    meli2 meli2 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 8

    Your Response

    Cancel
    A No-frills Airline You'll Know It's a No-Frills Airline If: 1. They don't sell tickets, they sell chances. 2. All the insurance machines in the terminal are sold out. 3...
    jml2000 jml2000 56-60, M 2 Responses Jul 14

    Your Response

    Cancel
    This is such a pain in the ***! Knowing my bladder can never be healed is SO upsetting! I found out I had this about 2.5 years ago. Treatment helped tremendously! But even with...
    PinkUnicorn26 PinkUnicorn26 26-30, F Jun 24

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Is there anyone who has a mother who suffers from the mental illness schizophrenia ?
    ladydove20 ladydove20 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 26

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Remember when EP first started and it was about MS? Then, they decided to spread the love and make it about experiences... about anything. It's a wonderful idea, but there are...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 1 Response Jun 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    What makes me really upset and angry is when people make fun of mental ilness'. Poeple dont just randomly choose to feel like that, for attention or whatever reason some of ye...
    amyslatts amyslatts 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    A year and a half apart, both of accidental prescription drug overdoses. So odd because they'd been divorced and had really nothing to do with each other for almost 20 years. I...
    Drechavo Drechavo 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 29

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Uncle Gary. Stage 4 pancreatic cancer. It had spread to his liver and lymph nodes. He died May 18 2014. He has three children. My younger cousins. Kara 10, Adriana 8, and...
    cat13wolfjb cat13wolfjb 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 30

    Your Response

    Cancel
    That awkward moment when you realise that having multiple mental illnesses and the way you've been treated in life has completely ruined your life and you don't see how you can...
    LewisCollins LewisCollins 31-35 Jul 1

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Paranoid schizophrenia. Had it for a long time now. I don't like it when some people pretend they have it just to get sympathy or sound cool, schizophrenia is terrifying sometimes...
    Roslein Roslein 18-21, F 9 Responses Jul 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It's so hard. My teachers seem to think its my fault, but I can't control if I forget something. If I daydream about something worth my time. My iq is 117, so why can't I do...
    100problems 100problems 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 4

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I was born in Paris, France, only daughter to a Franco-Spanish father, and an Irish mother.We lived in Paris for my first two years, then with my grandmothers illness we moved to...
    Paca24 Paca24 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 6

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Well I've had bi-polar for yrs now...I was diagnosed at 19 when I had my first break down...I've been on a lot of different type of medication over the years. I found that Abilify...
    dmlongobardo23 dmlongobardo23 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 8

    Your Response

    Cancel