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I Have A Terminal Illness

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 26 People

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    i was diagnosed with a (then) non-operable brain tumor in 2001 and was told I had less than a 50% to survive the next 5 years.  it's been 10 years now since the diagnosis and i should be happy to be alive, but i'm not.  I've had at least 4 surgeries and radiotherapy and most...
    omelettegod omelettegod 41-45 6 Responses Jul 16, 2011

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    Party Girl Who Wishes She Could Change The Past

    I was a heavy drinker all my life.  Now, I am terminal.  I come from a family of heavy drinkers and my grandpa lived to be 92.  The thought of cirrhosis never entered my mind.   I recently had warning signs that something was wrong; my nose bled, bruises were all over my...
    11chuleta 11chuleta 46-50, F 1 Response May 9, 2012

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    My best friend finally returned my call today

    and I did not have the heart to tell him I was unwell. First of all he is a blabber mouth and telling him would mean dozens of people I know would know and that would be a pain in the ***. Secondly I did not want to bum him out. He's had a rough spell that has recently turned...
    onefootoutthedoor onefootoutthedoor 51-55, M 2 Responses Jan 1, 2014

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    I have a neurological illness called MSA

    (Multiple System Atrophy), almost nobody has ever heard of it. I am married and have 4 kids. I am 40 yo. The average ligespan is 7-9 years. I am in my fourth year and it is getting harder every day. patients with MSA start to loose the ability to move, and eventually talk...
    tanustt tanustt 41-45, F 3 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    Finding it hard to deal with.

    I push it to the back of my mind. I don't want this. If I ignore it it will go away wont it??? Maybe the doctors have it all wrong? What am I exactly supposed to do now? Pulmonary fibrosis..... sounds harmless so why is it a killer? I have a three year old... I want to...
    girl1e girl1e 31-35, F 4 Responses May 25, 2014

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    Diphtheria

    I'm 21 years old and I've had a terrible life and maybe like most people have wished for my life to end. I haven't actually attempted suicide or hurt myself, I've already been physically hurt too many times to want to do that anyway. But I never wanted a terminal illness, I don't...
    InmemoryofLifelessStar InmemoryofLifelessStar 18-21, F 35 Responses Jul 18, 2011

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    Leukemia

    I had a bone marrow transplant in 2003 and I am still alive and I am not on any medication.
    Pat111 Pat111 51-55 Dec 8, 2011

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    My body is rejecting itself it's a genetic

    illness that skips some generations in my family first guy to get it so god dam do I feel lucky. I'm 18 and I walk with a cane for gods sake and my body is just gonna decay and break until I can't walk or do anything myself but hey...I'm having a good hair day today so...things...
    lewismurray16 lewismurray16 18-21, M Nov 11, 2014

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    Life looks different today.

    I was diagnosed yesterday with a disease expected to destroy my mind and be very painful in the end too. What fun! It's weird the clarity this brings. Every moment counts even though the end is years away still for me, and I am not going down without a fight. I started...
    onefootoutthedoor onefootoutthedoor 51-55, M 12 Responses Dec 12, 2013

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    I have been told I may need heart bypass

    surgery. That is not the hard part. I also may have cardiomyopathy. If I do, I know I have a short time to live. This illness is known to be in my family. More later. This is not good bye.
    oldclerk oldclerk 61-65, M Dec 8, 2014

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    My only remaining kidney has entered stage 3

    failure. I'm not ready to die. Not like this. I continue to fight as I have been. I hope soon I can go home. I really hate it here at the hospital. The people are all really nice here but this place makes me think of pain and death. I have dialysis again tomorrow, but I'm not...
    cartermurrows cartermurrows 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 17, 2014

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    I Had A Long Day

    So I thought I'd take a long week to type it hereThe very slow process of my death is, exhausting to say the least.I tried to through myself a celebration party for passing my terimal date, I had to pay for everything lol and all these people I dont really know and invited ended...
    LateNightOwl LateNightOwl 22-25, M Jun 6, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    I have several chronic illnesses, but one that I don't much about that I have is MTHFR a mutation, anybody else here have it? If so what are your symptoms?
    TheStrangestOneOfThemAll TheStrangestOneOfThemAll 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    Hi, I am not a writer,as you will see. I have been living with a terminal illness. I have end stage cirrhosis for about 4 years now. They have been telling me I had about a...
    namve69t namve69t 51-55 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I just got transferred from one community mental health center to another, and today the new psychiatrist asked me what I was diagnosed with during my last hospital stay. I said...
    sarahk85 sarahk85 26-30, F 5 hrs ago

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    My sister and mother just laid the law down on me by severe arguing only coz I didnt want my kids to here my sister's convo after midnight with her friends as I have set rules for...
    Fizzy0875 Fizzy0875 36-40, F 25 mins ago

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    I have severe OCD, depression, generalized anxiety disorder, social anxiety disorder, and borderline personality disorder. I would rather have a deadly illness and be happy than...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm 30. I live alone. But yet my parents control me. I can't drink, self harm or see my husband. I have a mental illness, I have been in hospital many times. My parents threaten to...
    sarahk85 sarahk85 26-30, F 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    Mental illness is nothing to be ashamed of. So why is there so much stigma attached to them? Because if you're physically ill, you can usually see it somehow? It doesn't often...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    When most people hear the words "eating disorder", they imagine a white middle-class teenage girl. And they think the girl chooses to restrict, binge, or purge her eating because...
    Musicwillsaveyoursoul Musicwillsaveyoursoul 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    I have Bipolar disorder, depression, anger issues, anxiety of all types, PTSD, and ADHD. Hospitalized February 11 for a suicide attempt. It's been hard dealing with all this, the...
    ReannaLee ReannaLee 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    Who is this bright eyed, smiling, handsome young man? He's not the same person that was so frighteningly ill two years ago. I am so proud of him and his determination to live a...
    Deedle623 Deedle623 51-55, F 3 Responses Mar 20

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    I was told I had it 20 years ago & felt insulted. This is because I believed hypochondria is a fixation with being ill. I thought people were telling me Im exaggerating my illness...
    michellekandro michellekandro 36-40 Mar 22

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    My latest Dx is MDD with psychotic features and PTSD. I am also a cutter and in recovery from bulimia. Previous Dx included schizoaffective disorder NOS, Bipolar 1 rapid cycling...
    Shonnie Shonnie 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Katie Hopkins is a disgusting human She seriously needs a ******* punch in the face how dare she slag us off for having an illness we can't ******* help it , and it's not just...
    lauj16 lauj16 16-17, F 10 hrs ago

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    My friends are amazing, but can't feel my loss. I dated a woman, briefly, who was in my circle of friends and it didn't work out (her decision). Over the next two years, we...
    illbaround illbaround 26-30, M 6 days ago

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    i dont even know what to write about im in a dark spot thisi is scary me im tired and angry rageful but i vant cry i will not open up im very closed off i dont want to be i cant...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F Mar 6

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    Only five people?? i need someone who can talk about this illness. i've been suffer this about 4yrs.
    Juri0902 Juri0902 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    Mental illnesses suck. I was informed that a relative will be staying over tonight out of the blue. During the course of roughly 2 hours I went into a mini panic. I immediately...
    Sunnycorr Sunnycorr 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 21

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    Hello everyone, I am 37years old and sick. I've been diagnosed congestive heart failure, and diabetes. My life right now is about meds and side effects. every day is different and...
    tman3737 tman3737 36-40, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Ever since I can remember I've had vitiligo. its very visual. I try my best to have ppl look around it. but now that I'm older. I'm starting to remember how I've been treated (not...
    Curieln Curieln 31-35, M 6 days ago

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    I only found out that I had this diagnosis when I requested access to my medical notes. I had been diagnose with BPD for a long time and no one told me. I was initially diagnosed...
    LinkinParkMuse LinkinParkMuse 26-30, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    It has now been almost five years. I have spent my entire teenage years wondering what I am going to do to make it through tomorrow, because heaven knows I don't know how I made it...
    Jengi Jengi 18-21, F Mar 4

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    Depression and anxiety run strong in my family. I suffer from both of these, and like most, I have my good days, and I have my bad days. These past three months have been filled...
    hanban0320 hanban0320 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 4

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    Don't give up; there is hope. I'm 19 and when I was 16, I got my first symptoms of rumination syndrome. Like a lot of others, I thought it was a 24 hour sick bug but it just...
    alexxblanch alexxblanch 18-21, F Mar 4

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    my boyfriend left for fort Jackson on Monday. we've been together for 3 years. its so hard seeing this as an easy thing to get over. he's my best friend. when he first enlisted he...
    krypto1221 krypto1221 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 5

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    Here is what I know from my life experiences. I can never trust anyone. Nobody cares about anyone but themselves. People will lie to your face and pretend to care about you just...
    Zzzwriter Zzzwriter 41-45, M 3 Responses Mar 5

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    Today started with a visit from the neurologist. He asked how I was feeling and what I was able to accomplish. He had obviously already read what the nurses wrote though, since...
    ncbarr ncbarr 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 5

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    You think you know me... But you don't know the first thing about me... You think you've been through depression... But you haven't... How long did it last?? Oh two weeks? That's...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 10

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    How could the one who vowed to love and protect me, the one man I shared my dreams with, bring me such misery and pain? How could he hurt me and think I should forgive so easily? I...
    flirtinglove flirtinglove 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    How many of you really wanted to sacrifice their life for their love one? Funny, how some of you can easily say that you are willing to have someone's illness just to see them okay...
    msj02 msj02 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 15

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    I have Depression and it showed me I have no true friends.
    colasc41 colasc41 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    Other than my soulmate I have no close friends. I missed out on so much because of invisible illnesses and I live in a fishbowl. Can't drive or work. Stuck in a house hoping to get...
    Besillybeyou Besillybeyou 26-30, F Mar 17