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I Have A Terminal Illness

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    Finding it hard to deal with.

    I push it to the back of my mind. I don't want this. If I ignore it it will go away wont it??? Maybe the doctors have it all wrong? What am I exactly supposed to do now? Pulmonary fibrosis..... sounds harmless so why is it a killer? I have a three year old... I want to...
    girl1e girl1e 31-35, F 4 Responses May 25, 2014

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    Life looks different today.

    I was diagnosed yesterday with a disease expected to destroy my mind and be very painful in the end too. What fun! It's weird the clarity this brings. Every moment counts even though the end is years away still for me, and I am not going down without a fight. I started...
    onefootoutthedoor onefootoutthedoor 51-55, M 11 Responses Dec 12, 2013

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    Diphtheria

    I'm 21 years old and I've had a terrible life and maybe like most people have wished for my life to end. I haven't actually attempted suicide or hurt myself, I've already been physically hurt too many times to want to do that anyway. But I never wanted a terminal illness, I don't...
    InmemoryofLifelessStar InmemoryofLifelessStar 18-21, F 35 Responses Jul 18, 2011

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    My only remaining kidney has entered stage 3

    failure. I'm not ready to die. Not like this. I continue to fight as I have been. I hope soon I can go home. I really hate it here at the hospital. The people are all really nice here but this place makes me think of pain and death. I have dialysis again tomorrow, but I'm not...
    cartermurrows cartermurrows 18-21, F 8 Responses Apr 17, 2014

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    Leukemia

    I had a bone marrow transplant in 2003 and I am still alive and I am not on any medication.
    Pat111 Pat111 51-55 Dec 8, 2011

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    Party Girl Who Wishes She Could Change The Past

    I was a heavy drinker all my life.  Now, I am terminal.  I come from a family of heavy drinkers and my grandpa lived to be 92.  The thought of cirrhosis never entered my mind.   I recently had warning signs that something was wrong; my nose bled, bruises were all over my...
    11chuleta 11chuleta 46-50, F 1 Response May 9, 2012

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    My best friend finally returned my call today

    and I did not have the heart to tell him I was unwell. First of all he is a blabber mouth and telling him would mean dozens of people I know would know and that would be a pain in the ***. Secondly I did not want to bum him out. He's had a rough spell that has recently turned...
    onefootoutthedoor onefootoutthedoor 51-55, M 2 Responses Jan 1, 2014

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    I Had A Long Day

    So I thought I'd take a long week to type it hereThe very slow process of my death is, exhausting to say the least.I tried to through myself a celebration party for passing my terimal date, I had to pay for everything lol and all these people I dont really know and invited ended...
    LateNightOwl LateNightOwl 22-25, M Jun 6, 2011

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    I have a neurological illness called MSA

    (Multiple System Atrophy), almost nobody has ever heard of it. I am married and have 4 kids. I am 40 yo. The average ligespan is 7-9 years. I am in my fourth year and it is getting harder every day. patients with MSA start to loose the ability to move, and eventually talk...
    tanustt tanustt 41-45, F 3 Responses Feb 10, 2014

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    I have been told I may need heart bypass

    surgery. That is not the hard part. I also may have cardiomyopathy. If I do, I know I have a short time to live. This illness is known to be in my family. More later. This is not good bye.
    oldclerk oldclerk 61-65, M Dec 8, 2014

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    My Story

    i was diagnosed with a (then) non-operable brain tumor in 2001 and was told I had less than a 50% to survive the next 5 years.  it's been 10 years now since the diagnosis and i should be happy to be alive, but i'm not.  I've had at least 4 surgeries and radiotherapy and most...
    omelettegod omelettegod 41-45 6 Responses Jul 16, 2011

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    My body is rejecting itself it's a genetic

    illness that skips some generations in my family first guy to get it so god dam do I feel lucky. I'm 18 and I walk with a cane for gods sake and my body is just gonna decay and break until I can't walk or do anything myself but hey...I'm having a good hair day today so...things...
    lewismurray16 lewismurray16 18-21, M Nov 11, 2014

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    I'm tired of life. As far as I can remember, negative emotions have been the ones controlling my actions/decisions. I mentioned before that I've tried to kill myself using my gun...
    bhabhablacksheep bhabhablacksheep 22-25, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I like the saying..."Mental illness doesn't run in my family it gallops". I've managed mine very well for a long time...until now. The doctors put me on 400 mg a day of Prednisone...
    Morrgin Morrgin 31-35, F 15 hrs ago

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    I have PLS or so they tell me. I feel like I am at an AA meeting or a Gambler's Anonymous meeting admitting to a problem I have. Luckily, I don't have those type of problems...
    olivesandartichokes olivesandartichokes 56-60, F 16 hrs ago

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    My boyfriend is a year younger than me and is currently getting ready for his final year of A levels. From the word go his parents have been incredibly strict. School is all they...
    tinyheart8888 tinyheart8888 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    At first glance , you'd never assume I was sick. Too young, too pretty, too normal ... 20 years young, hetero white woman, smart, vivacious.... I've yet to find any body else with...
    skippandyouube1 skippandyouube1 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I just had a debate with Jehovah's Witness about anxiety and depression. They provided the following bible verse: [Matthew 6:25-34 34: Therefore don't worry about tomorrow, for...
    LuckyInTheSkyWithDiamonds LuckyInTheSkyWithDiamonds 22-25, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    Mental illness changes you. You start to do things you always swore you'd never do. You get to a point you always sworw you'd never get to. You look back at who you used to think...
    RandomInkFlow RandomInkFlow 18-21, T 4 Responses Aug 27

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    I was diagnosed when I was 13. And I've gotten worse and worse. It's so exhausting even getting to the toilet. Headaches every day, noise just goes right through me. My muscles...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 26

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    I go to an all girls school. Not just any all girls school, it's also a private catholic school. I purposely don't get into detail about that part with people. Why? Not because I...
    anonamanda001 anonamanda001 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 26

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    Don't remember much of my dreams last night. The first one was very dark in atmosphere. My friends and I had bought a house together, but it was this really old house that was...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    I have a chronic illness it's hard to work through it.
    bradytales8530 bradytales8530 26-30, F Aug 24

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    I don't like to smoke it, but when I smoke it make me enter into some sorta of level where my thoughts should be written down on a paper of paper where I can gather a group of...
    silverboym silverboym 18-21 Aug 24

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    24th August 2015 Joining EP, to vent a few of my problems, sounded like a good idea but now I'm not so sure. Here goes I suppose. My wife is dying. I can say it now without...
    NottsProfGent NottsProfGent 46-50, M Aug 24

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    Why do woman all ways say child birth is the worst pain ever cos i beg to differ i think chronic pain and illness is after all childbirth only last a few hours chronic pain can...
    CandiceAllcoxx CandiceAllcoxx 26-30, T 2 Responses Aug 24

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    According to Wikipedia, I sport "The pecto-sterno-infraclavicular pattern (of chest hair), in which the breast, sternum and medial end of the clavicle is covered with terminal hair...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 23

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    I hate it when Im feeling depressed and my dad or sister tell me to snap out of it or use my willpower, or ull feel better when u talk a walk. they havent been through severe...
    sugarpuffs sugarpuffs 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    Hi all! I do not have BPD but I am getting worried about Sarah, who is a friend of mine, and I am wondering if you could please help me? I think she has BPD because of the...
    Thia999 Thia999 56-60, F 3 Responses Aug 21

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    Due to illness and medical issues I am out of work nearly 6 years, now since moving out of a bad environment and beginning to really focus on finding work I am very confused as to...
    CelticBoxingGuy CelticBoxingGuy 41-45, M Aug 19

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    Major depression, moderate anxiety and schizophrenia have affected my life since I was age six. I recently started a tumblr blog writing about how coping and suffering with these...
    CelticBoxingGuy CelticBoxingGuy 41-45, M Aug 19

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    I think some people shouldn't have kids. I'm not trying to be mean or rude, but I think in many casses, it's simply irresponsible. It's irresponsible as a inhabitor or this planet...
    FallenButterflies FallenButterflies 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 19

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    I am ranting now cos I am dying from cancer. I was surprised that I didn't cry or freak out after my diagnosis of terminal cancer 2 weeks ago. Instead of trying to preserve my...
    TickleTortureMoi TickleTortureMoi 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    Hello. I do not suffer from PTSD but am friends with someone who does and in his case it's actually C'PTSD. I would like to help him and provide him good advice on socializing...
    eternal22talibat eternal22talibat 22-25, F Aug 18

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    Hello. I do not suffer from PTSD but am friends with someone who does and in his case it's actually C'PTSD. I would like to help him and provide him good advice on socializing...
    eternal22talibat eternal22talibat 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 18

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    Does Adhd count as a mentle illness or not?
    ArtemistheHunter ArtemistheHunter 13-15, F 7 Responses Aug 18

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    problem is they treat you like a case to study ,i am just a job to them,how could i trust some psychologist look at me as something have to be fixed ,i am not an object i am a...
    duffyjun duffyjun 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 18

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    Those of u who have lots of serious mental problems. Do you talk about it with ppl? Do u let them know? Or do u keep completely quiet about it?? I tend to tell ppl but I'm...
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 20 Responses Aug 18

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    I had a cluster of seizures and was intubated for 3 days. Caught aspiration pneumonia and stayed there for a week after I was home I noticed my breathing being different. Walking...
    nicoledn nicoledn 18-21, F Aug 18

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    i hate everything about this stupid illness BPD.. because of this i have lost friendships made my mom look like a terrible person. it is making me live like the "little boy who...
    xxcaylaxx xxcaylaxx 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    Hello. I do not suffer from PTSD but am friends with someone who does and in his case it's actually C'PTSD. I would like to help him and provide him good advice on socializing...
    eternal22talibat eternal22talibat 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 16

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    You arnt special. You don't get special treatment. Your devils fight them. And all this bullshit with these pill pushing therapist is getting out of hand. You have a personality...
    howmanylettercantiputhere howmanylettercantiputhere 16-17, M 3 Responses Aug 16

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