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I Have Abuse Flashbacks

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    They Are the Worse...

    I suffer from abuse flashhbacks, they are no fun living with, and having to deal with on a basis. I hate it more than anyone can possibly understand. I was diagnossed with PTSD, and it explains why I get the flashbacks, as bad as I do. I don't like dealing with them at all...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 27, 2009

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    And I Desperately Wish My Mind Would Just Stay In The Present.

    I don't have flashbacks as much as I used to and of that I am very grateful, but sometimes the triggers are simply everywhere...which means that so are my mind and emotions. My family was horribly abusive; those who didn't actively abuse me neglected me, and friends of the...
    ManuNani ManuNani 31-35 Sep 2, 2012

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    Do Not Read If You Don't Want to Know Part of What Happens In the Movie Gran Torino

    I don't really get them a lot.  They're actually very, very, very rare, but when they happen they're pretty nuts.  They last for a couple minutes and then after that I realize that it's stupid to let it plague my mind so I tell myself to stop.  And so I stop. The...
    yoyy yoyy 26-30, F 5 Responses Jul 27, 2009

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    Oh I Remember...

    its always at night, i lay my head on my soft comfy pillow and in flows the thoughts of life and questions and then the memories and flashbacks.oh i remember when i was even younger than today maybe 7 or so. i remember the stove, fire , my fathes bellowing voice, and my burning...
    apml apml 16-17, F Feb 28, 2012

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    Good Times and Bad, They Are There

    I've wrote a few stories briefly explaining some of the abuse I dealt with as a child, I guess it's time to talk about the flashbacks and triggers. My flashbacks can be so real, so graphic, they cause tunnel vision and take me to my knees. I can most times feel the same feelings...
    ImminentDisaster ImminentDisaster 26-30, M 8 Responses Jul 28, 2009

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    Is It Real? Or Just A Dream.

    ***Animal cruetly triggers*** I've been having dreams about my uncle laltely. My mom has 7 brothers, this one is stranger than all of her brothers. He's the second oldest brother ( I think) and he acts more childish than all of them. He says strange things to my sister, like...
    LivDragonfly LivDragonfly 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 1, 2011

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    I dated a murderer

    I once dated someone who I loved so much, I would have done anything for . I was 21 years old, he was 22 . We were the most inseperable couple out there . There wasn't a day that we weren't together . To me it felt like a relief to have someone that close to me in my life . I was...
    remember22 remember22 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 12, 2013

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    Abuse Flashbacks Are Here Again.

    I wondered if my abuse memories would start up again. It's like they have a separate life of their own.  In 1993, I had 12 yrs of sobriety and 7yrs of counseling.  The memories would increase in severity.  Abuse memories can be different...
    WarriorMom WarriorMom 51-55, F 4 Responses Oct 28, 2008

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    Just Like It's Happening Again.

    The lights are off. Almost asleep, have to get the rest for work in the morning. I shut my eyes, and im back. Back to being 4, remembering exactly, as if it was now. Standing on the side walk. Doing something to make him mad. I cant remember what, but then theres a hand coming at...
    foreverashamed foreverashamed 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    I Don'T Think I Can Do This

    It's so hard. I just want to be able to drive down the road, go to the grocery store, have coffee, lunch with a friend, a hug, a kiss. I am tortured by my own memories. Some of which I don't even remember properly. I am afraid all the time. I don't want to be here. I don't want...
    LolahP LolahP 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 29, 2013

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    Many Times Flash Backs Are Like The Seasons

    they come and go witht he time of the year basic when they happened i thing. many times things in our life trigger them or if we are under stress they seem to be able to attack easyer which there was a pill to make them stop or to remove some of the feelings but so far never...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Jun 19, 2011

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    I Cant Believe What I Did. And I Cant Believe The Reason.

    Being abused mentally and physically is something i got used to. Its just something that happened in my house. My Father was around, always was. But he wasnt a dad. He hates me. Hes told me so. The only memorys i have are of being screamed at or hit. So when a guy that was old...
    foreverashamed foreverashamed 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    The Ultimate Form Of Deception

    Rough night...childhood flashbacks...again. Can't pinpoint any one particular trigger...just seems to be accumulative...the whole big picture...both then and now. Like a ton of bricks it levels you. Out of the blue...blindsided...again...when you thought you were doing fine. Will...
    Solitaire1 Solitaire1 46-50, M 5 Responses Dec 22, 2011

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    when i was 16 i was attacked and ever since i have had flashbacks, panic attacks and hear voices, i also have a range of other mental health problems aswell, never thought an...
    fantasycaver fantasycaver 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 2

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    I have abused a pretty girl💃 here over ep....nd you may find it strange that she simply loved it !!!
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    It shouldn't hurt to be a child. No child should feel like they are alone in the world, and nothing that they can do is right, but so many do, and the ones who do, feel like they...
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    It has been a while since I have posted here. I've restarted the videos on Survivors of Child Abuse and Maladaptive daydreaming. My latest video is about flashbacks and tips on how...
    Ishtaria Ishtaria 41-45, F Aug 7

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    My ex abused me physically, mentally, and sexually. He would grab my arms so hard he left bruises, and there was one day I remember he tried to crush my head into the seat of his...
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    It happened to me twice with two different people. Both men were friends of family members. The first time i was 3. It was my fathers best friend. I don't recall much of that...
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    Before, i was unable to tell this story. It was very hard. The only way i have managed to come through in speaking of it was to talk to a friend about it, then soon another friend...
    iris801 iris801 16-17, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    It seems like every time I have a good day and anxiety is no longer apparent it comes back worse than before. I was totally ready to fall asleep, and then I started having...
    TheSongPlaysWithin TheSongPlaysWithin 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 27

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    Once u was abused, i tell u honestly- u will never get over it. Never. You can do a therapy , it will help you to bring all the repressed hurt out but it wouldnt make the abuse...
    angel8i angel8i 31-35, F Jul 22

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    Once u was abused, i tell u honestly- u will never get over it. Never. You can do a therapy , it will help you to bring all the repressed hurt out but it wouldnt make the abuse...
    angel8i angel8i 31-35, F Jul 22

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    AshTheShade AshTheShade 31-35, M Aug 10

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    I'm having one right now :'( I'm having horrible flashbacks of the day a guy asked my love to prom and they started dating :'(
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    More recent, I was in Manchester. I don't go out that often due to work and everything. So this was a once in a blue moon event. I called at a bar and ordered a bottle of bud. I...
    jetetter jetetter 41-45, M 2 Responses Jul 29

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    It was my grandfather. He was basically my father - he had raised me since I was an infant. He was the only constant in my world, he knew everything, and even though he was sick...
    roseblossom90 roseblossom90 22-25, F Aug 4

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    What to do when you can't talk about it? Will it ever subside? The flashbacks, the anger and hostility. Heavily medicated for other mental illnesses, but there are none to take...
    howlingfantods howlingfantods 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 6

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    Finding out that someone else within the family was abused by the same person as I was as a child breaks my ******* heart. I would never wish abuse of any sort on my worst enemy...
    herebutinvisible herebutinvisible 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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    really :/ , when i have nothing to do , those embarrasing moments come to mind and i think "how on hell can you do such an idiotic thing? what was going on our mind in that time...
    Hugo655 Hugo655 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 21

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    After reading someones story about a rape the other night it got me thinking a little about my past. I laid in bed thinking about it and started to drift off to sleep. Suddenly my...
    BrokenOneX BrokenOneX 31-35 Jul 26

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    I had a horrible father when I was young. He never cared about me, he kicked, punched, and slapped me everyday. I remembered he one time broke my arm when I had ask him to play...
    96Samuel96 96Samuel96 18-21, M Jul 28

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    I just want to die. I had to delete my other ep account due to harassment. I was raped and I have flashbacks really bad. It makes me so frustrated. I feel like I have no where to...
    Rayven1997 Rayven1997 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 1

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    ever since I was a little girl running around in my cinderella pjs, I always have flashbacks of when I would have bad panic attacks over some little things kids shouldn't worry...
    suicidegetout suicidegetout 13-15, F 7 Responses Aug 5

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    I will be having a good time and then all of a sudden I will have a flashback. It's terrifying and exhausting to deal with. I see his face and hear his voice. He gets louder and...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F Aug 8

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    When I was young, probably around second grade, a girl moved to my school. I didn't know her but she started to pick on me. It went on until 5th grade. At one point she decided to...
    elizabethcalvin elizabethcalvin 13-15, F Aug 9

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    I was raped. I have nightmares bc of it, flashbacks too.
    angkath80 angkath80 31-35, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    My sister (3 yrs older) sexually abused me when I was 11. She was abused by my grandfather. I get flashes of her holding me down kissing and touching me - I felt guilty, sick and...
    lulumonta lulumonta 13-15, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I cheated on my husband, then i left him. He was mean, and I'm tired of repeating the details, but by mean I intend to say that he fits into many of the descriptors of an...
    Regrets472 Regrets472 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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    I cheated on my husband, then i left him. He was mean, and I'm tired of repeating the details, but by mean I intend to say that he fits into many of the descriptors of an...
    Regrets472 Regrets472 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 21

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    I cheated on my husband, then i left him. He was mean, and I'm tired of repeating the details, but by mean I intend to say that he fits into many of the descriptors of an...
    Regrets472 Regrets472 26-30, F Jul 21

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