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I Have Abuse Flashbacks

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    Oh I Remember...

    its always at night, i lay my head on my soft comfy pillow and in flows the thoughts of life and questions and then the memories and flashbacks.oh i remember when i was even younger than today maybe 7 or so. i remember the stove, fire , my fathes bellowing voice, and my burning...
    apml apml 16-17, F Feb 28, 2012

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    I Don'T Think I Can Do This

    It's so hard. I just want to be able to drive down the road, go to the grocery store, have coffee, lunch with a friend, a hug, a kiss. I am tortured by my own memories. Some of which I don't even remember properly. I am afraid all the time. I don't want to be here. I don't want...
    LolahP LolahP 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 29, 2013

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    Is It Real? Or Just A Dream.

    ***Animal cruetly triggers*** I've been having dreams about my uncle laltely. My mom has 7 brothers, this one is stranger than all of her brothers. He's the second oldest brother ( I think) and he acts more childish than all of them. He says strange things to my sister, like...
    LivDragonfly LivDragonfly 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 1, 2011

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    Good Times and Bad, They Are There

    I've wrote a few stories briefly explaining some of the abuse I dealt with as a child, I guess it's time to talk about the flashbacks and triggers. My flashbacks can be so real, so graphic, they cause tunnel vision and take me to my knees. I can most times feel the same feelings...
    ImminentDisaster ImminentDisaster 26-30, M 7 Responses Jul 28, 2009

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    The Ultimate Form Of Deception

    Rough night...childhood flashbacks...again. Can't pinpoint any one particular trigger...just seems to be accumulative...the whole big picture...both then and now. Like a ton of bricks it levels you. Out of the blue...blindsided...again...when you thought you were doing fine. Will...
    Solitaire1 Solitaire1 46-50, M 5 Responses Dec 22, 2011

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    And I Desperately Wish My Mind Would Just Stay In The Present.

    I don't have flashbacks as much as I used to and of that I am very grateful, but sometimes the triggers are simply everywhere...which means that so are my mind and emotions. My family was horribly abusive; those who didn't actively abuse me neglected me, and friends of the...
    ManuNani ManuNani 31-35 Sep 2, 2012

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    Do Not Read If You Don't Want to Know Part of What Happens In the Movie Gran Torino

    I don't really get them a lot.  They're actually very, very, very rare, but when they happen they're pretty nuts.  They last for a couple minutes and then after that I realize that it's stupid to let it plague my mind so I tell myself to stop.  And so I stop. The...
    yoyy yoyy 26-30, F 5 Responses Jul 27, 2009

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    They Are the Worse...

    I suffer from abuse flashhbacks, they are no fun living with, and having to deal with on a basis. I hate it more than anyone can possibly understand. I was diagnossed with PTSD, and it explains why I get the flashbacks, as bad as I do. I don't like dealing with them at all...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 27, 2009

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    I dated a murderer

    I once dated someone who I loved so much, I would have done anything for . I was 21 years old, he was 22 . We were the most inseperable couple out there . There wasn't a day that we weren't together . To me it felt like a relief to have someone that close to me in my life . I was...
    remember22 remember22 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 12, 2013

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    Abuse Flashbacks Are Here Again.

    I wondered if my abuse memories would start up again. It's like they have a separate life of their own.  In 1993, I had 12 yrs of sobriety and 7yrs of counseling.  The memories would increase in severity.  Abuse memories can be different...
    WarriorMom WarriorMom 51-55, F 4 Responses Oct 28, 2008

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    I Cant Believe What I Did. And I Cant Believe The Reason.

    Being abused mentally and physically is something i got used to. Its just something that happened in my house. My Father was around, always was. But he wasnt a dad. He hates me. Hes told me so. The only memorys i have are of being screamed at or hit. So when a guy that was old...
    foreverashamed foreverashamed 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    Many Times Flash Backs Are Like The Seasons

    they come and go witht he time of the year basic when they happened i thing. many times things in our life trigger them or if we are under stress they seem to be able to attack easyer which there was a pill to make them stop or to remove some of the feelings but so far never...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Jun 19, 2011

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    Just Like It's Happening Again.

    The lights are off. Almost asleep, have to get the rest for work in the morning. I shut my eyes, and im back. Back to being 4, remembering exactly, as if it was now. Standing on the side walk. Doing something to make him mad. I cant remember what, but then theres a hand coming at...
    foreverashamed foreverashamed 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    I was married to a woman who emotionally abused me. We have kids and she does it still through them or the silent treatment I'm not the type to stay with ex girlfriends If it's...
    cutie7710 cutie7710 36-40, F 6 hrs ago

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    Long story short,middle aged woman took me into a room and said I had to try on some clothes. Being young I obeyed and in short she forced herself on me. I get horrible flashbacks...
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    I'm done trying to be happy for people who (don't) even care about me! I just want to End it all I have been Cutting my Arms,Legs,Hips and not only that I have been drinking wine...
    KristinaChero KristinaChero 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 2

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    This week has been full of nightmares and flashbacks. I've been working with severely disabled children, some of whom were physically abused by their parents. It brings everything...
    ScarredScared ScarredScared 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 6

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    It will now be almost a month since I left my abuser. But the pain, however, is still affecting my life. Right after I left him I was feeling numb--I couldn't experience the grief...
    LiveKindly LiveKindly 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    About a week ago I was snuggling my fiancé. I am usually big spoon so that means his back is too me. He asked if I could scratch his back for him because it itched. I did for a...
    Jeradactyl Jeradactyl 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 22

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    I am afraid I will never get over what happened. It makes me physically shake sometimes when flashbacks come to mind. My therapist tried to make me describe what happened and I...
    shelleigh1978 shelleigh1978 51-55, F Dec 9

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    I frequently get flashbacks of previous dreams that I had years ago. Is that normal? I'll see something familiar while driving in the car or on tv and I'll instantly be brought...
    cicisays13 cicisays13 26-30, F Nov 22

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    When I was 6 years old, my parents separated and I ended up moving in with my mom and step-dad, visiting my dad on the weekends. When I was 10 years old, the abuse started. It...
    sunisburning sunisburning 18-21, F Nov 24

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    I hate anyone who abuses others. the reason I will write this story is because men are always considered to be the abusers because a lot of people think women are weak compared to...
    ponycupcake ponycupcake 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 2

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    My mother married a terrible guy in my tween years. I remember meeting him for the first time and telling my mom that I didn't like him. I remember feeling really uncomfortable...
    2infinityandbeyond 2infinityandbeyond 26-30, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    It is an awful thing to see on the outside a child that has been abused. The problem is that there are so many varying degrees of abuse and dysfunctional families especially from...
    teekitten teekitten 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 19

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    I guess I can't quite say that I'm a survivor of emotional abuse since I am still in the relationship. By the time I knew what emotional abuse was or that it even existed I already...
    LOMD LOMD 31-35, M 3 Responses Nov 22

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    hey everyone! how are you all doing? well last time when posted another such experience, people said like "show them your rebellion, go veg!" or "time to stop this, let's go veg...
    shadowhunter221 shadowhunter221 13-15, M Nov 29

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    I have experience abuse from law enforcement. My ordeal started in Cincinnati, Ohio about 2 years ago. It has been a terrifying experience. The abuse included Cincinnati Police...
    JuggllingForACure JuggllingForACure 26-30, M Nov 29

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    I'm so tired of this... I'm so tired of wanting someone who I'll never have, tired of denying my own feelings, tired of not being able to tell any of my friends about this, tired...
    auntnichole auntnichole 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 19

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    I worked at a Boy Scout camp, one of four women on the 50 person staff. I had heard that likewise, women at a Boy Scout camp are "boy magnets", but I wanted to work there because...
    thelonelyhapa thelonelyhapa 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 19

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    You made me afraid of everything. everything. I can't even work or go to school without being afraid. I can't even go to class because of how emotionally unstable I am after I...
    somegirl117 somegirl117 18-21 2 Responses Nov 21

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    I've been having recurring nightmares about the day I was raped... Its gotten so bad I have a phobia of sleeping and I get anxiety attacks... I've been dealing with this for 8...
    EbbyLeve EbbyLeve 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 22

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    My gf is concerned I take too many meds and about drug interactions. I hate being dependent on meds but when I tried to cut back it was really bad. I am upset because I was on...
    mslvr01 mslvr01 46-50, M 3 Responses Nov 25

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    Yeah I have been in hell. I have had my life taken away from me and sent into hell for 3 yrs and it took 5 yrs after just to cope. Dehumanized, captive, mentally tortured...
    mslvr01 mslvr01 46-50, M 3 Responses Nov 28

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    I want these stupid flashbacks to end. I need to be able to sleep, but it's impossible.... I hate you for all that you put me through. I'm so done with letting you break me down...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 1

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    I have PTSD for a multitude of years. Today, I still have nightmares and flashbacks from these episodes of violence against me. When watching a TV program or movie and this...
    joanwilliams joanwilliams 36-40, F 4 Responses Dec 4

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    It was horrible.. I have flashbacks all the time.
    captaindani captaindani 13-15, F Dec 4

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    it has been 4 years since beginning of my recovery ! yes 4 continuous years :) I was bulimic too , or let's say used to be bulimic . Bulimia can be recovered , you can recover too...
    developer developer 22-25 Dec 9

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    I was never abused by my parents as a child but my best friend of 13 years was by his Dad. When we were 9 years old, I knew his Dad beat him but if someone was in the house he...
    Gemz2411 Gemz2411 18-21, F Dec 9

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    I joined this experience, not because I am a victim of emotional abuse by somebody else, but because I am emotional abuse's victim. in other words, I am the emotional abuser. I...
    WeArePilots WeArePilots 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I would like to begin by stating my thanks to all those who have continuously supported me through everything (a few I should mention are RowenaBrana, loveyourselfalwaysxx, and...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    This is a good article for whatever kind of abusive relationship you may be in. Mine currently just happens to be verbal and emotional. And for those of you who want to whine...
    trayomis trayomis 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    We see stories all day long - how powerful entities abuse thier power or how those who belong to such entities, use them as a shield to abuse the power given to them. It's time...
    DreamWizard DreamWizard 41-45, F 1 Response 2 days ago