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I Have Abuse Flashbacks

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    They Are the Worse...

    I suffer from abuse flashhbacks, they are no fun living with, and having to deal with on a basis. I hate it more than anyone can possibly understand. I was diagnossed with PTSD, and it explains why I get the flashbacks, as bad as I do. I don't like dealing with them at all...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 27, 2009

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    Abuse Flashbacks Are Here Again.

    I wondered if my abuse memories would start up again. It's like they have a separate life of their own.  In 1993, I had 12 yrs of sobriety and 7yrs of counseling.  The memories would increase in severity.  Abuse memories can be different...
    WarriorMom WarriorMom 51-55, F 4 Responses Oct 28, 2008

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    I Don'T Think I Can Do This

    It's so hard. I just want to be able to drive down the road, go to the grocery store, have coffee, lunch with a friend, a hug, a kiss. I am tortured by my own memories. Some of which I don't even remember properly. I am afraid all the time. I don't want to be here. I don't want...
    LolahP LolahP 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 29, 2013

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    Just Like It's Happening Again.

    The lights are off. Almost asleep, have to get the rest for work in the morning. I shut my eyes, and im back. Back to being 4, remembering exactly, as if it was now. Standing on the side walk. Doing something to make him mad. I cant remember what, but then theres a hand coming at...
    foreverashamed foreverashamed 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    Oh I Remember...

    its always at night, i lay my head on my soft comfy pillow and in flows the thoughts of life and questions and then the memories and flashbacks.oh i remember when i was even younger than today maybe 7 or so. i remember the stove, fire , my fathes bellowing voice, and my burning...
    apml apml 16-17, F Feb 28, 2012

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    And I Desperately Wish My Mind Would Just Stay In The Present.

    I don't have flashbacks as much as I used to and of that I am very grateful, but sometimes the triggers are simply everywhere...which means that so are my mind and emotions. My family was horribly abusive; those who didn't actively abuse me neglected me, and friends of the...
    ManuNani ManuNani 31-35 Sep 2, 2012

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    Good Times and Bad, They Are There

    I've wrote a few stories briefly explaining some of the abuse I dealt with as a child, I guess it's time to talk about the flashbacks and triggers. My flashbacks can be so real, so graphic, they cause tunnel vision and take me to my knees. I can most times feel the same feelings...
    ImminentDisaster ImminentDisaster 26-30, M 7 Responses Jul 28, 2009

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    The Ultimate Form Of Deception

    Rough night...childhood flashbacks...again. Can't pinpoint any one particular trigger...just seems to be accumulative...the whole big picture...both then and now. Like a ton of bricks it levels you. Out of the blue...blindsided...again...when you thought you were doing fine. Will...
    Solitaire1 Solitaire1 46-50, M 5 Responses Dec 22, 2011

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    I Cant Believe What I Did. And I Cant Believe The Reason.

    Being abused mentally and physically is something i got used to. Its just something that happened in my house. My Father was around, always was. But he wasnt a dad. He hates me. Hes told me so. The only memorys i have are of being screamed at or hit. So when a guy that was old...
    foreverashamed foreverashamed 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    Do Not Read If You Don't Want to Know Part of What Happens In the Movie Gran Torino

    I don't really get them a lot.  They're actually very, very, very rare, but when they happen they're pretty nuts.  They last for a couple minutes and then after that I realize that it's stupid to let it plague my mind so I tell myself to stop.  And so I stop. The...
    yoyy yoyy 26-30, F 5 Responses Jul 27, 2009

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    Many Times Flash Backs Are Like The Seasons

    they come and go witht he time of the year basic when they happened i thing. many times things in our life trigger them or if we are under stress they seem to be able to attack easyer which there was a pill to make them stop or to remove some of the feelings but so far never...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Jun 19, 2011

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    Is It Real? Or Just A Dream.

    ***Animal cruetly triggers*** I've been having dreams about my uncle laltely. My mom has 7 brothers, this one is stranger than all of her brothers. He's the second oldest brother ( I think) and he acts more childish than all of them. He says strange things to my sister, like...
    LivDragonfly LivDragonfly 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 1, 2011

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    I dated a murderer

    I once dated someone who I loved so much, I would have done anything for . I was 21 years old, he was 22 . We were the most inseperable couple out there . There wasn't a day that we weren't together . To me it felt like a relief to have someone that close to me in my life . I was...
    remember22 remember22 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 12, 2013

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    I jut started my first year at university and I got into a relationship with a guy for 6 months and he abused me throughout. Emotionally, physically and sexually. He broke my...
    Experience780 Experience780 18-21, F 4 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I want to escape from the reality of having flashbacks on a daily basis. I want to forget that I ever knew you. Forget that I ever dated you. You were the biggest mistake I ever...
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    I will forever be scarred by the emotional abuse that I have endured. How can a relationship that started off so great take such a drastic turn? How can the man you love turn into...
    kait52 kait52 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    In the past few years I have been shamed blamed and ridiculed for a decision to choose myself and my health over my own child. I had an abortion. Since then I have been diagnosed...
    MoonFlowerCloud MoonFlowerCloud 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    This divorce is taking far too long. It's ridiculous. Every time there seems to be some glimmer of hope, it's fake. Court dates get postponed multiple times. There's a new law for...
    newchick11 newchick11 26-30, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have social anxiety, depression, PTSD, agoraphobia, and other extreme health issues that I don't get any assistance for, and I can't afford healthcare, so I have to deal with...
    LyraAlluse LyraAlluse 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I was in foster care for a few years when I was younger and it was the worst time of my life. One family in particular made me into who I am today by making every day a living hell...
    lubesh lubesh 16-17, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I hate my flashbacks nd how pain Rises and kill me
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Hi ok so I have been a victim of emotional and mental nd a little bit of physical abuse in the past. I have been in about 4 relationships that were like that not all were physical...
    LuvLostSoul LuvLostSoul 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Final episode in history of my inner life. Senior year and hs. Like I mentioned previously, senior year was absolutely chaotic. I had left the house I'd lived in the longest of...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I've been experiencing ptsd over the past 2 years and its left my life in pieces: my whole world came crashing down after I was tortured not once but twice by men of the law the...
    luckbealadytonight luckbealadytonight 36-40, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Please look at my page about the abuse I was forced to endure by my mother Letters to the My mother and anyone that thinks child abuse is ok
    letters2mymother letters2mymother 41-45, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I've always had a problem with my dad. I never felt like I was living up to my sister or being the kid he wanted. He pushed me to join sports but I had no interest in them. He made...
    emaseraptor emaseraptor 18-21, F a week ago

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    A few years ago on April 20 2013 Dad and I were on are way to the New Lenox Public Library for a half hour before going to Oak Park Illinois to see my Psychologist who is my...
    Jolietillinois Jolietillinois 22-25, M Jun 23

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    Sexual abuse. I was sexually abused as a child and it's the biggest secret I have. I suppressed the memories because I was very young but I always had flashbacks. They came...
    Dezaria Dezaria 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 23

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    I have experienced both. My parents never hit (except if they had a reason), but at elementary school I was always being hit by kids that didn't like me for whatever reason. They...
    evreno evreno 13-15, M 2 Responses Jun 21

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    I am a domestic violence survivor. I joined a support group recently. And have been going back ever since. I cry every time I go. Because I am feeling more and more safe. I've been...
    CreoleItalianwoman CreoleItalianwoman 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 20

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    Right now anyway. I'm not complaining I just sort of wanted to vent. As some of you know I got ran over and my leg is broken in two places and my shoulder is cracked. My leg has...
    DeIuxedEdition DeIuxedEdition 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 19

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    I personally think that emotional abuse is worse then physical abuse. I've been through both and emotional hurt more for me.
    Suicidekisses Suicidekisses 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 19

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    Coupled with severe depression, although I've never and probably will never tell anyone. I rarely get flashbacks any more as I try my best to stay away from where it happened and...
    TheOtherOne17 TheOtherOne17 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 18

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    I know to many people who abuse/have abused thier wife/girlfriend. That list includes my dad (may he rest in peace), my uncle, my friends boyfriend, another uncle, and my moms...
    catsandmusic13 catsandmusic13 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 18

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    I am 44 years old I have experienced Bi polar with mixed episodes, Mania and depression Anxiety and panic PTSD and Scizophrenia. never diagnosed but clearly have dealt with...
    smalltownwitch smalltownwitch 41-45, F Jun 18

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    I was very verbally abused as a child, as well as mentally and emotionally and it took me years to realize and believe I was a victim of abuse even though I wasn't bruised and...
    TheSundanceGal TheSundanceGal 18-21, F 7 Responses Jun 17

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    Although the title word is missing an "L", this doesn't limit my experience. Earlier tonight I asked if a woman being abused and was more innocent in what she knew would impact...
    QuiriousMe QuiriousMe 41-45, F 10 Responses Jun 16

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    I am a victim of child abuse . I've been abused by my dad ever since i was 3 years old. It stopped about a year ago right after I went to childcare .
    emmie278 emmie278 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 15

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    I am a victim of child abuse . I have been abused by my dad every since i was 3 years old. It stopped about a year ago
    empje3 empje3 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 15

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    After the panic attack, I started having dreams about my brother and mother, the dreams were black but there was a sense of intense fear. Spoke with the counsellor and decided to...
    singlemom1254 singlemom1254 36-40 Jun 15

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    Hi so when I was little my life was horrible terrible u have no idea. I remember getting hit so hard by a vacuum cleaner cable so much for idk what reason but my butt was so black...
    Adviceornah Adviceornah 16-17, F Jun 15