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I Have Abuse Flashbacks

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    Abuse Flashbacks Are Here Again.

    I wondered if my abuse memories would start up again. It's like they have a separate life of their own.  In 1993, I had 12 yrs of sobriety and 7yrs of counseling.  The memories would increase in severity.  Abuse memories can be different...
    WarriorMom WarriorMom 51-55, F 4 Responses Oct 28, 2008

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    I Cant Believe What I Did. And I Cant Believe The Reason.

    Being abused mentally and physically is something i got used to. Its just something that happened in my house. My Father was around, always was. But he wasnt a dad. He hates me. Hes told me so. The only memorys i have are of being screamed at or hit. So when a guy that was old...
    foreverashamed foreverashamed 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    I Don'T Think I Can Do This

    It's so hard. I just want to be able to drive down the road, go to the grocery store, have coffee, lunch with a friend, a hug, a kiss. I am tortured by my own memories. Some of which I don't even remember properly. I am afraid all the time. I don't want to be here. I don't want...
    LolahP LolahP 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 29, 2013

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    Do Not Read If You Don't Want to Know Part of What Happens In the Movie Gran Torino

    I don't really get them a lot.  They're actually very, very, very rare, but when they happen they're pretty nuts.  They last for a couple minutes and then after that I realize that it's stupid to let it plague my mind so I tell myself to stop.  And so I stop. The...
    yoyy yoyy 26-30, F 5 Responses Jul 27, 2009

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    Good Times and Bad, They Are There

    I've wrote a few stories briefly explaining some of the abuse I dealt with as a child, I guess it's time to talk about the flashbacks and triggers. My flashbacks can be so real, so graphic, they cause tunnel vision and take me to my knees. I can most times feel the same feelings...
    ImminentDisaster ImminentDisaster 26-30, M 7 Responses Jul 28, 2009

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    Just Like It's Happening Again.

    The lights are off. Almost asleep, have to get the rest for work in the morning. I shut my eyes, and im back. Back to being 4, remembering exactly, as if it was now. Standing on the side walk. Doing something to make him mad. I cant remember what, but then theres a hand coming at...
    foreverashamed foreverashamed 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    Is It Real? Or Just A Dream.

    ***Animal cruetly triggers*** I've been having dreams about my uncle laltely. My mom has 7 brothers, this one is stranger than all of her brothers. He's the second oldest brother ( I think) and he acts more childish than all of them. He says strange things to my sister, like...
    LivDragonfly LivDragonfly 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 1, 2011

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    Many Times Flash Backs Are Like The Seasons

    they come and go witht he time of the year basic when they happened i thing. many times things in our life trigger them or if we are under stress they seem to be able to attack easyer which there was a pill to make them stop or to remove some of the feelings but so far never...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Jun 19, 2011

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    Oh I Remember...

    its always at night, i lay my head on my soft comfy pillow and in flows the thoughts of life and questions and then the memories and flashbacks.oh i remember when i was even younger than today maybe 7 or so. i remember the stove, fire , my fathes bellowing voice, and my burning...
    apml apml 16-17, F Feb 28, 2012

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    And I Desperately Wish My Mind Would Just Stay In The Present.

    I don't have flashbacks as much as I used to and of that I am very grateful, but sometimes the triggers are simply everywhere...which means that so are my mind and emotions. My family was horribly abusive; those who didn't actively abuse me neglected me, and friends of the...
    ManuNani ManuNani 31-35 Sep 2, 2012

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    The Ultimate Form Of Deception

    Rough night...childhood flashbacks...again. Can't pinpoint any one particular trigger...just seems to be accumulative...the whole big picture...both then and now. Like a ton of bricks it levels you. Out of the blue...blindsided...again...when you thought you were doing fine. Will...
    Solitaire1 Solitaire1 46-50, M 5 Responses Dec 22, 2011

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    I dated a murderer

    I once dated someone who I loved so much, I would have done anything for . I was 21 years old, he was 22 . We were the most inseperable couple out there . There wasn't a day that we weren't together . To me it felt like a relief to have someone that close to me in my life . I was...
    remember22 remember22 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 12, 2013

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    They Are the Worse...

    I suffer from abuse flashhbacks, they are no fun living with, and having to deal with on a basis. I hate it more than anyone can possibly understand. I was diagnossed with PTSD, and it explains why I get the flashbacks, as bad as I do. I don't like dealing with them at all...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 27, 2009

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    Question: How long into getting to know someone should you share your triggers with them? Like you want them to know so that way there not feeling upset that you may act a...
    Ana8939 Ana8939 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 10

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    during flashback right now so terrible.so frustrated. i just wonderd writing my feelings here would make me feel bit better...i hope.and i'm doing that. drunk ignorant people are...
    JerryJerryA JerryJerryA 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    Since I'm new here, I won't go into a lot of details. To be honest, I remember very little of my life before I was adopted at age 6. Before that is mostly blank. What I do...
    WilliamBennett WilliamBennett 61-65, M 4 Responses Feb 15

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    Begging for a rope to save me from drowning in vicious childhood flashbacks and i am thrown an anchor instead. He must be starving because no matter where i am, his ghost demands...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 14

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    My step dad used to try and 'toughen me up' when he realised I just wasn't like that he started mentally abusing me, he would say I was a girl for not liking fighting and would...
    LeighUK LeighUK 41-45, M 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    I was sexually abused by my uncle at the age of 5 till 11.... Im 17 now and i finally went to the police it was the best decision i ever made, please if this has happend to you i...
    helpmeplease1973 helpmeplease1973 18-21, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Myths about the top 10 most common mental illnesses: 10. Antisocial Personality Disorder: Myth: Somebody who avoids social interaction is “antisocial”. Truth: Many people...
    BananaSmoothiee BananaSmoothiee 18-21, F 4 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Okay, here's a weird picture. In fact, it probably tells nothing to absolutely nobody. But if anyone happens to be Googling for how to take apart a Nescafe Dolce Gusto Circolo...
    Faust76 Faust76 36-40, M 1 hr ago

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    Hey, I was in an abusive relationship for 5 years and ill tell you my story. I have two children with this man they are still very young. He physically abused me basically everyday...
    maddzt maddzt 22-25, F 3 Responses 14 hrs ago

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    I sometimes have moments where time and space doesn't exist. Meaning, something that was 5 years ago feels just like it happened yesterday. And the feelings I felt 5 years ago...
    Undeadly Undeadly 41-45, F 4 Responses Feb 7

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    When I was 13 I was in a really unhealthy relationship. I wouldn't say he forced me to do anything. But he would ask for things. I would keep saying no but he kept begging.. It...
    maddyxchar maddyxchar 13-15, F Feb 17

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    When you try your best and it all gets thrown back in your face 😔 last year I paid for an overnight birthday treat in Liverpool and I got repaid by him getting a cob on...
    Heartbroken46 Heartbroken46 41-45, F 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    THE MORE THEY TELL ME THEY CAN'T HELP ME OR COMPLETELY IGNORE ME OR MY ISSUES, THE MORE I LOOSE FAITH IN HUMANITY AND MY FELLOW MAN. "DISCRIMINATION", IS A LIFE LESSON FOR A PERSON...
    JEM404 JEM404 41-45, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I don't really talk about it. It started happening when I was around 11 and did not end until I was 17. At first I thought I was essentially emotionally unharmed. Years later, I...
    WeMermaid WeMermaid 18-21, F 11 mins ago

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    Does anyone else have flashbacks? Cause they suck!
    Kru24 Kru24 18-21 1 Response Feb 16

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    Nothing But Pain And Questions My parents were never bad parents. They weren't alcoholics, they never hit me and they always made sure there was food on the table. But I always...
    CoopSmith CoopSmith 26-30, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I think I'm going crazy and really depressed after 3 years of emotional abuse from my ex that continued for a year after i left him and got with someone else that I completly fell...
    lrrrx lrrrx 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 6

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    I've known for a long time that I was emotionally abused by my mom and dad. Separately. Recently though I've started having memories slowly leak in that tell me that I was sexually...
    chococat159 chococat159 18-21 2 Responses Feb 14

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    Absolutely beyond a shadow of a doubt they should. I'm not a major believer in the death penalty. But child abusers, pedophiles, animal abusers, and cold blooded murderers all...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 16

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    Breaking The Cycle Of Abuse With GOD'S help, I am working on breaking the cycle of abuse that seems to keep following me....I talk about writing a book, Well just on this chapter...
    faithful77 faithful77 51-55, F 2 Responses Feb 20

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    I was abused from the time that I was 4 until 21 years old. I was sexually abused when I was 4 years old. When I tried to tell my mom, she threatened to beat me. Then I was...
    KateMorrow92 KateMorrow92 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 9

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    I was in an abusive relationship about 4 years ago. Although that was a long time ago, the flashbacks I have from it are constant. I'm terrified that one day he's going to fulfill...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 16

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    My brother is being seriously abused by his fiance. No doubt, she is plotting to divorce him so that he will not be able to feel secure ever again - not being allowed to have his...
    ResidentGoddessAstraea ResidentGoddessAstraea 18-21 6 days ago

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    I just became aware that the police were at my CPA meeting at parkside ,no body from the early intervention told me that there will be police presence at my meeting so I'm chocked...
    Anonymous79ea Anonymous79ea 31-35, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    i was adopted when I was 5 and molested for twelve years by my adopted father after two additions and put back in foster care...I was diagnosed with PTSD ...I'm 24 now and I...
    swishy0914 swishy0914 22-25, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    This is what saddens me... The lack of real & authentic love between two people. "The Notebook" of love, the Marvin Gaye of love. You see, I've never experienced any kind of...
    NaomisJourneyToTheSun NaomisJourneyToTheSun 31-35, F a week ago

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    You have no idea how much I have cried today. I have so much pain and she only concerns herself with that abuser and expects me to as well. Except she's mad at him, I should too...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 5 days ago

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    The thing about growing up in a family harboring systemic abuse is there is a culture of silence. This isn't an order to be silent, it is a subtle hint in the air that lets you...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    I have shared the details of my nightmarish childhood in a previous post. But as I was looking over my profile page and saw this group I had to be thankful that while I was abused...
    LadyHawke68 LadyHawke68 46-50, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    My dad is more than likely a psychopath. He takes delight in physically, verbally, and emotionally abusing others. He especially liked hurting his kids. He loved to beat us...
    MarieLund53 MarieLund53 61-65, F 1 Response Feb 7

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    Am I the only one that feels this way? I was sexually abused at a young age, and then about three years ago I was abused by my brother in law when living with my sister. I lived...
    MissSeaGal452 MissSeaGal452 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 19

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    Once I was so young and wanted. Everyone cared for me. But like a new toy, I was broken and discarded by everyone. I actually hate the people who left me more than the abuser. Now...
    Wounduponwound Wounduponwound 18-21, M 5 Responses a week ago

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    survivor! NOT a victim, but in fact a survivor! If you are reading this and are being abused, you CAN get out.theres always a way out. dont let the abuser cut you down to...
    amtired amtired 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I feel a lil un easy about posting this..but that's what this app is all about right? Being ourselves without judgment ect ..but I feel stuck ..at home...Im abused daily by my...
    glisteningheartz glisteningheartz 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 6