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I Have Abuse Flashbacks

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    Do Not Read If You Don't Want to Know Part of What Happens In the Movie Gran Torino

    I don't really get them a lot.  They're actually very, very, very rare, but when they happen they're pretty nuts.  They last for a couple minutes and then after that I realize that it's stupid to let it plague my mind so I tell myself to stop.  And so I stop. The...
    yoyy yoyy 26-30, F 5 Responses Jul 27, 2009

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    The Ultimate Form Of Deception

    Rough night...childhood flashbacks...again. Can't pinpoint any one particular trigger...just seems to be accumulative...the whole big picture...both then and now. Like a ton of bricks it levels you. Out of the blue...blindsided...again...when you thought you were doing fine. Will...
    Solitaire1 Solitaire1 46-50, M 5 Responses Dec 22, 2011

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    And I Desperately Wish My Mind Would Just Stay In The Present.

    I don't have flashbacks as much as I used to and of that I am very grateful, but sometimes the triggers are simply everywhere...which means that so are my mind and emotions. My family was horribly abusive; those who didn't actively abuse me neglected me, and friends of the...
    ManuNani ManuNani 31-35 Sep 2, 2012

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    I dated a murderer

    I once dated someone who I loved so much, I would have done anything for . I was 21 years old, he was 22 . We were the most inseperable couple out there . There wasn't a day that we weren't together . To me it felt like a relief to have someone that close to me in my life . I was...
    remember22 remember22 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 12, 2013

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    Is It Real? Or Just A Dream.

    ***Animal cruetly triggers*** I've been having dreams about my uncle laltely. My mom has 7 brothers, this one is stranger than all of her brothers. He's the second oldest brother ( I think) and he acts more childish than all of them. He says strange things to my sister, like...
    LivDragonfly LivDragonfly 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 1, 2011

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    Good Times and Bad, They Are There

    I've wrote a few stories briefly explaining some of the abuse I dealt with as a child, I guess it's time to talk about the flashbacks and triggers. My flashbacks can be so real, so graphic, they cause tunnel vision and take me to my knees. I can most times feel the same feelings...
    ImminentDisaster ImminentDisaster 26-30, M 7 Responses Jul 28, 2009

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    They Are the Worse...

    I suffer from abuse flashhbacks, they are no fun living with, and having to deal with on a basis. I hate it more than anyone can possibly understand. I was diagnossed with PTSD, and it explains why I get the flashbacks, as bad as I do. I don't like dealing with them at all...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 27, 2009

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    I Cant Believe What I Did. And I Cant Believe The Reason.

    Being abused mentally and physically is something i got used to. Its just something that happened in my house. My Father was around, always was. But he wasnt a dad. He hates me. Hes told me so. The only memorys i have are of being screamed at or hit. So when a guy that was old...
    foreverashamed foreverashamed 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    I Don'T Think I Can Do This

    It's so hard. I just want to be able to drive down the road, go to the grocery store, have coffee, lunch with a friend, a hug, a kiss. I am tortured by my own memories. Some of which I don't even remember properly. I am afraid all the time. I don't want to be here. I don't want...
    LolahP LolahP 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 29, 2013

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    Abuse Flashbacks Are Here Again.

    I wondered if my abuse memories would start up again. It's like they have a separate life of their own.  In 1993, I had 12 yrs of sobriety and 7yrs of counseling.  The memories would increase in severity.  Abuse memories can be different...
    WarriorMom WarriorMom 51-55, F 4 Responses Oct 28, 2008

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    Many Times Flash Backs Are Like The Seasons

    they come and go witht he time of the year basic when they happened i thing. many times things in our life trigger them or if we are under stress they seem to be able to attack easyer which there was a pill to make them stop or to remove some of the feelings but so far never...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Jun 19, 2011

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    Oh I Remember...

    its always at night, i lay my head on my soft comfy pillow and in flows the thoughts of life and questions and then the memories and flashbacks.oh i remember when i was even younger than today maybe 7 or so. i remember the stove, fire , my fathes bellowing voice, and my burning...
    apml apml 16-17, F Feb 28, 2012

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    Just Like It's Happening Again.

    The lights are off. Almost asleep, have to get the rest for work in the morning. I shut my eyes, and im back. Back to being 4, remembering exactly, as if it was now. Standing on the side walk. Doing something to make him mad. I cant remember what, but then theres a hand coming at...
    foreverashamed foreverashamed 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    HisLittleLady HisLittleLady 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    I was just officially diagnosed in December 2014. I've talked about past traumas with my therapists before, but never got a formal dx. I have the flashbacks, nightmares and major...
    Shonnie Shonnie 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 19

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    I've been sexually abused by my father since I was a little girl, around 9. Whenever my mom travelled for work, which was often, he would come to me and touch me, kiss me, force me...
    Kris94 Kris94 18-21, T 1 hr ago

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    First of all, sorry for the length of this. So I had an appointment for my fibromyalgia. I've been told I have it but was getting some more tests ran. I've never seen this doctor...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    I have witnessed animal cruelty in a lot of ways, and I have also kicked the **** out of most of those people - literally. (I wont hesitate to do it again even though I am now in...
    DaSlayer DaSlayer 31-35, M 53 mins ago

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    I carry scars that no one can see. I'm in college now. Thankfully, my roommate is an understanding person. On the other hand, it seems that people can only deal with me for a short...
    survivorthrujesus survivorthrujesus 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 11

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    This is only a small amount of the abuse that has happened in my childhood. It happened by many people for a long time. But this is what I need to talk about right now. I have a...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Once the flashbacks start, they won't stop. How can I' snap myself out of it, ' so to speak. I'm working on long term stuff, but what about immediate help during flashbacks? anyone...
    Ztun7856 Ztun7856 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 8

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    The Alter that found this website, created this profile hadn't been around in a while, it's been about a month and They feel like They did when they joined, alone. In a few days...
    Anubis111 Anubis111 22-25, T 1 Response Mar 2

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    the memories and flashbacks are going to ruin me more!!! i just had bad flashback me at about 6 sitting on bed with a new girl at the day care playing candyland with cameras...
    littleangelscared littleangelscared 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 7

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    Was diagnosed with symptoms of ptsd and trauma, 3 years ago.i've been going to therapy for 4 years. different therapists. I find therapy helpful. The struggle can be difficult...
    mixieloca mixieloca 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 13

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    Age of offense: 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, and 9 Age I spoke up: 14 Current age: 15 Number of therapists: 4 going on 5 Number who listened so far: 0 Friends I told: 7 Friends I lost: 5 2...
    Sarabell00 Sarabell00 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 15

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    I was 16, my rapist was a classmate. It last until I was 20 years old. He took my virginity. I never knew it was rape. I don't hate him, I'm not angry. I'm 21 years old now and I'm...
    iamaphrodite iamaphrodite 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 16

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    -TRIGGER WARNING- I was told today that I'm taking attention from Veterans, and that it's impossible to have PTSD without being in the military. I was abused. He beat me, and...
    yourfavpet yourfavpet 18-21, F Mar 23

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    I was diagnosed with PTSD last year after a nervous breakdown. I was abused as a child it really messed me up but some reason something happened to me last year and i reached a...
    notmymothersdaughter notmymothersdaughter 36-40, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    It's all the same. Nothing changes. Faces, situations and places it occurs... I feel like it's all part of my life. I smell blood so thick even tho it's not around, causing me to...
    CowboysAndAngels CowboysAndAngels 36-40, F Mar 4

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    I'm DID so triggers are a daily part if life that I have to manage...years of therapy has calmed me immensely, but OMG it Sucks!!!! had two flashbacks and a body memory today and...
    karisasam karisasam 31-35, F a week ago

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    I’ve come to terms with my inability to form relationships, this stems from multiple factors in my life including abuse, unavailable/narcissistic parents, and giftedness. I now...
    Deadinsideguy Deadinsideguy 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 17

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    I was abused by my father countless of times already. Just lateky, he abused me again. Just because I forgot to get uniform outside, I left it there overnight. I did not even know...
    IAmStrongerNow IAmStrongerNow 13-15, F Mar 19

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    I just want to crawl in a hole today. I left my emotionally abusive husband over five years ago, and yet I'm still dealing with the aftermath of his bullsh*t. The really hard...
    beesknees12 beesknees12 41-45, F 2 Responses Mar 10

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    The most destructive emotional abuse is the emotional abuse we learned to inflict upon ourselves. We formed our core relationship with self in early childhood and have been...
    sweetartventure sweetartventure 31-35, F 1 Response a week ago

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    It's taken me a few years to understand what exactly was happening but when I finally did because of this cop that came to talk to my class about all sorts of stuff, sexual abuse...
    disparateyouth disparateyouth 13-15, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    Name is William kerns ... Yes I have flash backs .. I am ex military ... Army .. Was station to the 82nd airborne .... Was sent to afghastain ... I seen my buddy's during a mission...
    william2490 william2490 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 7

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    I am beginning to think there is something wrong with me that my boyfriend has to cheat on me. Although he has not physically cheated on me, I have caught him on a dating website...
    creepinbeauty creepinbeauty 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    I keep getting sudden flashbacks of random childhood memories.. mainly random locations :L
    SammiSakura SammiSakura 13-15, F Mar 20

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    *** this. Having to wake up an hour after asleep from nightmares to flashbacks. this is not worth it. It's not going to change, why the *** do i try
    Theaudienceofdeath Theaudienceofdeath 70+, F 3 Responses Mar 21

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    The educated call them ideations. The educated merely know big words. Grossly wasted time and money. Or debt. My ideations are like flashbacks. Fictional second...
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M a week ago

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    I have PTSD and screaming or sudden sounds terrify me. It's not as bad if I'm expecting it, like I know if I'm going to a concert it'll be loud, so I'm prepared and all good. It's...
    lillolipop lillolipop 18-21, F a week ago

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    When I was 13 years old, I was up at the farm with my grandma. She was my idol growing up and still is to this day. I looked up to her and have always considered her my favorite...
    boklenHolley7 boklenHolley7 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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