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I Have Abuse Flashbacks

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    Good Times and Bad, They Are There

    I've wrote a few stories briefly explaining some of the abuse I dealt with as a child, I guess it's time to talk about the flashbacks and triggers. My flashbacks can be so real, so graphic, they cause tunnel vision and take me to my knees. I can most times feel the same feelings...
    ImminentDisaster ImminentDisaster 26-30, M 7 Responses Jul 28, 2009

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    I Cant Believe What I Did. And I Cant Believe The Reason.

    Being abused mentally and physically is something i got used to. Its just something that happened in my house. My Father was around, always was. But he wasnt a dad. He hates me. Hes told me so. The only memorys i have are of being screamed at or hit. So when a guy that was old...
    foreverashamed foreverashamed 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    I dated a murderer

    I once dated someone who I loved so much, I would have done anything for . I was 21 years old, he was 22 . We were the most inseperable couple out there . There wasn't a day that we weren't together . To me it felt like a relief to have someone that close to me in my life . I was...
    remember22 remember22 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 12, 2013

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    The Ultimate Form Of Deception

    Rough night...childhood flashbacks...again. Can't pinpoint any one particular trigger...just seems to be accumulative...the whole big picture...both then and now. Like a ton of bricks it levels you. Out of the blue...blindsided...again...when you thought you were doing fine. Will...
    Solitaire1 Solitaire1 46-50, M 5 Responses Dec 22, 2011

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    Do Not Read If You Don't Want to Know Part of What Happens In the Movie Gran Torino

    I don't really get them a lot.  They're actually very, very, very rare, but when they happen they're pretty nuts.  They last for a couple minutes and then after that I realize that it's stupid to let it plague my mind so I tell myself to stop.  And so I stop. The...
    yoyy yoyy 26-30, F 5 Responses Jul 27, 2009

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    Just Like It's Happening Again.

    The lights are off. Almost asleep, have to get the rest for work in the morning. I shut my eyes, and im back. Back to being 4, remembering exactly, as if it was now. Standing on the side walk. Doing something to make him mad. I cant remember what, but then theres a hand coming at...
    foreverashamed foreverashamed 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    Oh I Remember...

    its always at night, i lay my head on my soft comfy pillow and in flows the thoughts of life and questions and then the memories and flashbacks.oh i remember when i was even younger than today maybe 7 or so. i remember the stove, fire , my fathes bellowing voice, and my burning...
    apml apml 16-17, F Feb 28, 2012

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    Abuse Flashbacks Are Here Again.

    I wondered if my abuse memories would start up again. It's like they have a separate life of their own.  In 1993, I had 12 yrs of sobriety and 7yrs of counseling.  The memories would increase in severity.  Abuse memories can be different...
    WarriorMom WarriorMom 51-55, F 4 Responses Oct 28, 2008

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    They Are the Worse...

    I suffer from abuse flashhbacks, they are no fun living with, and having to deal with on a basis. I hate it more than anyone can possibly understand. I was diagnossed with PTSD, and it explains why I get the flashbacks, as bad as I do. I don't like dealing with them at all...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 27, 2009

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    I Don'T Think I Can Do This

    It's so hard. I just want to be able to drive down the road, go to the grocery store, have coffee, lunch with a friend, a hug, a kiss. I am tortured by my own memories. Some of which I don't even remember properly. I am afraid all the time. I don't want to be here. I don't want...
    LolahP LolahP 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 29, 2013

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    And I Desperately Wish My Mind Would Just Stay In The Present.

    I don't have flashbacks as much as I used to and of that I am very grateful, but sometimes the triggers are simply everywhere...which means that so are my mind and emotions. My family was horribly abusive; those who didn't actively abuse me neglected me, and friends of the...
    ManuNani ManuNani 31-35 Sep 2, 2012

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    Many Times Flash Backs Are Like The Seasons

    they come and go witht he time of the year basic when they happened i thing. many times things in our life trigger them or if we are under stress they seem to be able to attack easyer which there was a pill to make them stop or to remove some of the feelings but so far never...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Jun 19, 2011

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    Is It Real? Or Just A Dream.

    ***Animal cruetly triggers*** I've been having dreams about my uncle laltely. My mom has 7 brothers, this one is stranger than all of her brothers. He's the second oldest brother ( I think) and he acts more childish than all of them. He says strange things to my sister, like...
    LivDragonfly LivDragonfly 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 1, 2011

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    having been a abuse victim myself. child abuse makes me sick
    DeAnnsharon DeAnnsharon 41-45, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    When I was 27 I've been sexual assault, sexual harassment , and threat at work. After that incident my past flashback memories came out of the surface that I kept it in the closet...
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    PTSD, doubled up with anxiety and depression, is a hell of a combination. I had always had anxiety and depression both, as far back as I can remember. Then being attacked at work...
    pag089 pag089 26-30, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    Ok. Here goes nothing. I've not told anyone this. When I was younger (before puberty) me and my sister watched soap operas together. Two of the characters had a love scene. After...
    galaxygurl galaxygurl 26-30, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    i was physically abused by my parents ever since i was 4-5 it was mostly my mother but my father also did sometimes and i absolutely hated how he watched me getting hit and did or...
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    Age 4 to 12 I was sexually abused by my brother who is 7 years older then me. There's two main factors as to what caused this. One, my family was in a strict Christian church. Two...
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    cLight87 cLight87 22-25 Jul 17

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    so what I'm a little slow in the brain so what we're different and our punt of views aren't the same Yeah I mess up but I ain't ashamed to take blame you see, I'm just a kid trying...
    YourPersonalScrewUp YourPersonalScrewUp 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 17

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    And the wealthy promote it. Conquest is promoted. And king of the hill. And luxury. Not quality Not equality Unless slaves. Not health Unless paid for fake fixes...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M 1 Response Jul 16

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    Yes I was emotionally abused emotionally and physically when I was 8 until 19 by my mother and brother and emotionally by my ex husband. My mother had me write letters ( i have...
    meg2014 meg2014 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    I was abused until the age of 24 (almost 25), and when I left the house my mom was finally able to have the courage to divorce my dad. She tried to get custody of my younger sister...
    LyraAlluse LyraAlluse 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    That day you left... I knew you would but I hoped you wouldnt. I understand why you left, but I was constantly screaming in my head. That look you gave me.. God that look killed...
    Bigcat1697 Bigcat1697 16-17, F Jul 14

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    In my childhood, l was physically abused.......as in kicked, punched, slapped. I don't want to go into details at this time, though, don't know if l ever will. Writing this has...
    MistyGoddess MistyGoddess 41-45, F 17 Responses Jul 14

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    I mean, I guess it depends on your opinions on abuse. Everyone is bound to see that differently. Psychologically speaking, I have the signs of abuse - but my childhood had very...
    PersonalApocalypse PersonalApocalypse 22-25, M Jul 11

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    I've been having more flashbacks than usual lately. They vary with intensity but never really go away. I have been living with it for so long that I've come to accept they will...
    ashamedofmyfamily ashamedofmyfamily 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 10

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    I am firmly against child abuse of any kind. I was abused as a child and as an adult female. I personally know what child abuse and abuse in general is all about because I am a...
    susanbornin1969 susanbornin1969 41-45, F 2 Responses Jul 10

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    My memories of being sexually abused is brief, not there mainly. I don't remember anything but glimpse of few events and that's all. Anyway, to me as a child in the age of 5...
    StrongWoman9 StrongWoman9 26-30, F