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I Have Abuse Flashbacks

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    Just Like It's Happening Again.

    The lights are off. Almost asleep, have to get the rest for work in the morning. I shut my eyes, and im back. Back to being 4, remembering exactly, as if it was now. Standing on the side walk. Doing something to make him mad. I cant remember what, but then theres a hand coming at...
    foreverashamed foreverashamed 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    Do Not Read If You Don't Want to Know Part of What Happens In the Movie Gran Torino

    I don't really get them a lot.  They're actually very, very, very rare, but when they happen they're pretty nuts.  They last for a couple minutes and then after that I realize that it's stupid to let it plague my mind so I tell myself to stop.  And so I stop. The...
    yoyy yoyy 26-30, F 5 Responses Jul 27, 2009

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    The Ultimate Form Of Deception

    Rough night...childhood flashbacks...again. Can't pinpoint any one particular trigger...just seems to be accumulative...the whole big picture...both then and now. Like a ton of bricks it levels you. Out of the blue...blindsided...again...when you thought you were doing fine. Will...
    Solitaire1 Solitaire1 46-50, M 5 Responses Dec 22, 2011

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    I Cant Believe What I Did. And I Cant Believe The Reason.

    Being abused mentally and physically is something i got used to. Its just something that happened in my house. My Father was around, always was. But he wasnt a dad. He hates me. Hes told me so. The only memorys i have are of being screamed at or hit. So when a guy that was old...
    foreverashamed foreverashamed 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    I Don'T Think I Can Do This

    It's so hard. I just want to be able to drive down the road, go to the grocery store, have coffee, lunch with a friend, a hug, a kiss. I am tortured by my own memories. Some of which I don't even remember properly. I am afraid all the time. I don't want to be here. I don't want...
    LolahP LolahP 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 29, 2013

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    Abuse Flashbacks Are Here Again.

    I wondered if my abuse memories would start up again. It's like they have a separate life of their own.  In 1993, I had 12 yrs of sobriety and 7yrs of counseling.  The memories would increase in severity.  Abuse memories can be different...
    WarriorMom WarriorMom 51-55, F 4 Responses Oct 28, 2008

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    I dated a murderer

    I once dated someone who I loved so much, I would have done anything for . I was 21 years old, he was 22 . We were the most inseperable couple out there . There wasn't a day that we weren't together . To me it felt like a relief to have someone that close to me in my life . I was...
    remember22 remember22 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 12, 2013

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    Is It Real? Or Just A Dream.

    ***Animal cruetly triggers*** I've been having dreams about my uncle laltely. My mom has 7 brothers, this one is stranger than all of her brothers. He's the second oldest brother ( I think) and he acts more childish than all of them. He says strange things to my sister, like...
    LivDragonfly LivDragonfly 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 1, 2011

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    They Are the Worse...

    I suffer from abuse flashhbacks, they are no fun living with, and having to deal with on a basis. I hate it more than anyone can possibly understand. I was diagnossed with PTSD, and it explains why I get the flashbacks, as bad as I do. I don't like dealing with them at all...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 27, 2009

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    Many Times Flash Backs Are Like The Seasons

    they come and go witht he time of the year basic when they happened i thing. many times things in our life trigger them or if we are under stress they seem to be able to attack easyer which there was a pill to make them stop or to remove some of the feelings but so far never...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Jun 19, 2011

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    Oh I Remember...

    its always at night, i lay my head on my soft comfy pillow and in flows the thoughts of life and questions and then the memories and flashbacks.oh i remember when i was even younger than today maybe 7 or so. i remember the stove, fire , my fathes bellowing voice, and my burning...
    apml apml 18-21, F Feb 28, 2012

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    Good Times and Bad, They Are There

    I've wrote a few stories briefly explaining some of the abuse I dealt with as a child, I guess it's time to talk about the flashbacks and triggers. My flashbacks can be so real, so graphic, they cause tunnel vision and take me to my knees. I can most times feel the same feelings...
    ImminentDisaster ImminentDisaster 26-30, M 7 Responses Jul 28, 2009

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    It's a problem for me

    that I don't know if I'll explain right but I'll try. My dad was physically and verbally abusive to me and would beat the he'll out of me and intimidate me and my mum was mentally abusive, constantly putting me down and making me feel worthless especially because of my gender...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 31, 2015

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    And I Desperately Wish My Mind Would Just Stay In The Present.

    I don't have flashbacks as much as I used to and of that I am very grateful, but sometimes the triggers are simply everywhere...which means that so are my mind and emotions. My family was horribly abusive; those who didn't actively abuse me neglected me, and friends of the...
    ManuNani ManuNani 31-35 Sep 2, 2012

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    My family rather have me live on the streets then get counseling and stop the verbal, emotional and physical abuse in the household. So now I am forced to wander the streets until...
    Deadlynightshade5 Deadlynightshade5 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I was personally abused as a child. And honestly looking back on it, I have no feelings or thoughts about it. I was hit, smashed, things thrown at me and more. It learned me a lot...
    Ichki Ichki 22-25, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    I have a love hate relationships with narcissists. I was raised by them, conditioned by them, dated plenty of them. I sort of feel bad for narcissists because they are the easiest...
    allinlove allinlove 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    I hate shows and movies that show women getting sexually assaulted. I can't stand it. I get anxious and irritable and I have to leave the room.
    Doomflower Doomflower 31-35, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    It was during the summer. I was out of school and house hopping since I had no stable home to go back to. It was a difficult year. I felt like dying every day. I had bouts of...
    starsheepie starsheepie 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    This is a true story of what happened to Greg Zaffuto. I have just experienced much the same and do not want this to happen to you, so I am sharing the following. I apologize for...
    Grace2U Grace2U 66-70, F 4 days ago

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    It's all i seem to do recently is bicker and cry because Im depressed and dont know what to do I'll be blunt n to point and try explain, I was so happy for last 6 years after years...
    1982Caroline1982 1982Caroline1982 31-35, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    My whole life has been built on abuse of almost every kind but as I see it now, it was a soul forged through fire and it has made my soul strong, as strong as any metal and as...
    Spitbak Spitbak 46-50, M 5 days ago

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    I was just thirteen when I started being abused by my Mum's boyfriend Pierre. A child. It went on for two years, with her collusion, even encouragement. It was ugly, scary. I know...
    Ducostrinity Ducostrinity 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Mine was not physical or mental abuse. Please see my input into "I was sexually abused"
    maturegurl maturegurl 46-50, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    My sexual abuse commenced as far back as I can remember to about 7yo. I do not want to particularly go into great detail except to say it began with a family friend of my older...
    maturegurl maturegurl 46-50, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Yes, all abuse is wrong, sexual or not. I think that other forms of abuse are more overlooked if they are not sexual in nature. I have to say that is just not acceptable. NO...
    ratburn ratburn 18-21 1 Response Feb 2

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    Lately, I decided to dedicate my free time to volunteer.Among other things, I'm helping children with learning disabilities. Among the large group of children, there is this shy 9...
    aloysia aloysia 26-30, F 4 Responses Feb 2

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    I dated a diagnosed psychopath. He showered me with love and affection and showed so much interest in me from the start that I was smitten. Also he was very charming and handsome...
    AnonymousKCQ AnonymousKCQ 22-25, F 6 Responses Feb 1

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    I really need help. I think I may have been sexually abused when I was younger, but I'm not sure? It's really conflicting, because the person who did it was my mom. Nearly every...
    Samuelss17 Samuelss17 16-17 2 Responses Feb 1

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    I was abused many times over the years as a kid. The most frequent/egregious abuser was my stepfather. It made me distant myself from people. It impacted my ability to be intimate...
    GodHatesMe2010 GodHatesMe2010 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    I'm not really sure that I am a victim of emotional abuse. I've lived with my parents in the same house for twenty years, aside from the three semesters I spent in college, which...
    krcb krcb 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 31

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    He feeds off of my suffering. He doesn't just feed off of it, he finds it DELICIOUS. I know this because I have FELT what he feels before. It is HORRIFIC to feel the sheer amount...
    Hush92 Hush92 18-21, F Jan 30

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    PSA: I'm using some rough words here. It occurred to me for the first time some 9 years ago that I was abused. I analyzed this in retrospect and this shocked me. Why did it shock...
    ramblingjules ramblingjules 26-30 1 Response Jan 27

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    I have been both physically and emotionally abused all of my life, but the thing is- bruises heal. Scars fade away. Hair grows back. It's not the physical abuse that makes me want...
    NeonAshes NeonAshes 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    New low: as some of my friends may know, I was violently abused, raped and borderline tortured my my stepmother and stepsister following my fathers passing, and I left when I was...
    Nihl Nihl 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 26

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    I guess i do. I just have obsessive thoughts everyday at times in the day and oh i have demonic dreams that have come true and I also have demonic oppression and Satanic possession...
    Angelinawhitepromdresseveryday Angelinawhitepromdresseveryday 16-17, F Jan 26

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    Today, I had another conversation with my mom. Yes, I love her. Yes, she was there and saw (all of the abuse of me and my siblings.) Hard for her. She spends her days trying to...
    frspch frspch 51-55, F 6 Responses Jan 25

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    But sometimes I wonder if it was abuse at all. I wonder if I'd be way less ****** up if labels like that didn't tell me to be victimized. I was so young I didn't think of myself as...
    apresm0i apresm0i 26-30, F 8 Responses Jan 24

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    i was in a relationship with a man for over 5 years. I don't know when the abuse started, everything is so blurred now. Thinking back I think I was manipulated into believing he...
    JustGotOut2016 JustGotOut2016 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 24

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    Another day of abuse. Yesterday my narcisstic (who only cares about him and herself) mother dearest took out the cord to the monitor. 4-5am this morning when mum and I would be...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 46-50 1 Response Jan 23

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    today my psychology teacher of all people said if he had kids and they misbehaved he would ***** them to their underwear and lock them in a bedroom with no food or water and...
    Kitty1997 Kitty1997 18-21, F Jan 22

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