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I Have Abuse Flashbacks

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    The Ultimate Form Of Deception

    Rough night...childhood flashbacks...again. Can't pinpoint any one particular trigger...just seems to be accumulative...the whole big picture...both then and now. Like a ton of bricks it levels you. Out of the blue...blindsided...again...when you thought you were doing fine. Will...
    Solitaire1 Solitaire1 46-50, M 5 Responses Dec 22, 2011

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    I Cant Believe What I Did. And I Cant Believe The Reason.

    Being abused mentally and physically is something i got used to. Its just something that happened in my house. My Father was around, always was. But he wasnt a dad. He hates me. Hes told me so. The only memorys i have are of being screamed at or hit. So when a guy that was old...
    foreverashamed foreverashamed 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    I Don'T Think I Can Do This

    It's so hard. I just want to be able to drive down the road, go to the grocery store, have coffee, lunch with a friend, a hug, a kiss. I am tortured by my own memories. Some of which I don't even remember properly. I am afraid all the time. I don't want to be here. I don't want...
    LolahP LolahP 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 29, 2013

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    Do Not Read If You Don't Want to Know Part of What Happens In the Movie Gran Torino

    I don't really get them a lot.  They're actually very, very, very rare, but when they happen they're pretty nuts.  They last for a couple minutes and then after that I realize that it's stupid to let it plague my mind so I tell myself to stop.  And so I stop. The...
    yoyy yoyy 26-30, F 5 Responses Jul 27, 2009

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    Is It Real? Or Just A Dream.

    ***Animal cruetly triggers*** I've been having dreams about my uncle laltely. My mom has 7 brothers, this one is stranger than all of her brothers. He's the second oldest brother ( I think) and he acts more childish than all of them. He says strange things to my sister, like...
    LivDragonfly LivDragonfly 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 1, 2011

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    Many Times Flash Backs Are Like The Seasons

    they come and go witht he time of the year basic when they happened i thing. many times things in our life trigger them or if we are under stress they seem to be able to attack easyer which there was a pill to make them stop or to remove some of the feelings but so far never...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2 61-65, M Jun 19, 2011

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    And I Desperately Wish My Mind Would Just Stay In The Present.

    I don't have flashbacks as much as I used to and of that I am very grateful, but sometimes the triggers are simply everywhere...which means that so are my mind and emotions. My family was horribly abusive; those who didn't actively abuse me neglected me, and friends of the...
    ManuNani ManuNani 31-35 Sep 2, 2012

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    I dated a murderer

    I once dated someone who I loved so much, I would have done anything for . I was 21 years old, he was 22 . We were the most inseperable couple out there . There wasn't a day that we weren't together . To me it felt like a relief to have someone that close to me in my life . I was...
    remember22 remember22 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 12, 2013

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    They Are the Worse...

    I suffer from abuse flashhbacks, they are no fun living with, and having to deal with on a basis. I hate it more than anyone can possibly understand. I was diagnossed with PTSD, and it explains why I get the flashbacks, as bad as I do. I don't like dealing with them at all...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 27, 2009

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    Oh I Remember...

    its always at night, i lay my head on my soft comfy pillow and in flows the thoughts of life and questions and then the memories and flashbacks.oh i remember when i was even younger than today maybe 7 or so. i remember the stove, fire , my fathes bellowing voice, and my burning...
    apml apml 16-17, F Feb 28, 2012

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    Abuse Flashbacks Are Here Again.

    I wondered if my abuse memories would start up again. It's like they have a separate life of their own.  In 1993, I had 12 yrs of sobriety and 7yrs of counseling.  The memories would increase in severity.  Abuse memories can be different...
    WarriorMom WarriorMom 51-55, F 4 Responses Oct 28, 2008

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    Just Like It's Happening Again.

    The lights are off. Almost asleep, have to get the rest for work in the morning. I shut my eyes, and im back. Back to being 4, remembering exactly, as if it was now. Standing on the side walk. Doing something to make him mad. I cant remember what, but then theres a hand coming at...
    foreverashamed foreverashamed 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 14, 2012

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    Good Times and Bad, They Are There

    I've wrote a few stories briefly explaining some of the abuse I dealt with as a child, I guess it's time to talk about the flashbacks and triggers. My flashbacks can be so real, so graphic, they cause tunnel vision and take me to my knees. I can most times feel the same feelings...
    ImminentDisaster ImminentDisaster 26-30, M 7 Responses Jul 28, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    I have terrible flashbacks still from the abuse. They're back to coming on nearly a daily basis. The nights they don't come are the nights of the nightmares instead. The...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 12

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    By a 49 year old kidnapper.. I used to think nothing would ever happen to me. This thinking and naivety led me down the path of being abused by him and manipulated greatly. I am...
    LilVixen17 LilVixen17 16-17, F 5 Responses Apr 23

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    Being a victim of domestic abuse it took years for the nightmares to start to diminish. Yes, men too can be victims. Even 15 years later things as simple as a movie or television...
    luv2fish luv2fish 56-60, M 6 Responses Apr 21

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    I hate having a flashbacks specially when it's about the things I don't want to rember. It's 1:53 am here and i'm still awake because I remember how my my boyfriend kissed his...
    mielrovi mielrovi 13-15, F Apr 10

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    I had another weird dream Im almost forgetting it so here it goes Theres this craze or news craze about a girl who died/burn herself as what they say, in a tower of a university...
    Chiscuit Chiscuit 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 14

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    For a few weeks now I have been picking up my life and found a way to leave things behind as much as I could. But I noticed at quiet times or at times where I should relax that I...
    GuiltBear GuiltBear 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 20

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    OCTOBER 29, 2014 BY B. ROBERT FARZAD How to Protect Your Child From a Narcissistic Father or Mother? How to protect your child from a narcissistic father or mother Protecting...
    rescueme99 rescueme99 41-45 1 Response Apr 15

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    I am 14 let me start off before I was born my mom smoked drank got on roller coasters and she knew that she was pragnat she tired to she tried to have an abortion but she was too...
    whocaresaboutme14 whocaresaboutme14 13-15, F 3 Responses 11 hrs ago

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    This is an experience involving suspected child abuse and when to report it. It is an issue that some may face and it is a difficult subject on which many will disagree. It...
    curmudgeon curmudgeon 70+, M 2 Responses Apr 11

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    I was physically, verbally and emotionally abused as a child...Im bipolar and have to deal with anixiety and depression issues..As an adult I was almost free from all of the abuse...
    serenityshadow serenityshadow 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 12

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    I just heard the front door open and it terrifies me...Im in my room, but Im filled with overwhelming fear and anxiety...I know that they wont physically abuse me, but I was badly...
    serenityshadow serenityshadow 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 12

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    When I developed Social Anxiety during middle school I became extremely isolated, socially and physically. I stopped going to school and stopped talking to people, even my family...
    KnightOfJustice KnightOfJustice 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 4

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    They say all these things, to make you feel guilty. To make you stay quiet. To make you think it's normal. Their words are in your mind constantly. They won't ever leave. "It's ok...
    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F Apr 5

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    As a child i was abused by my cousin who was 8 years older. he used to wait for play time with all our siblings and call me his favorite to keep me around. as a 6 year old i was...
    ineedtotalk92 ineedtotalk92 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 5

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    Looking at old photos.... I couldn't seem to believe I'm am still me. I have problems with looking myself in the mirror now... what do I do ?!
    monatonie monatonie 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    Almost my entire childhood, I was a victim of my mother's abusive boyfriend's violence. My father was out of the picture due to illness. He was hospitalized for most of my...
    Kenpachi00 Kenpachi00 26-30 2 Responses Apr 12

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    Only recently found out this memory loss has a name. My mother died in 1996 and then my father went through a mental breakdown, I had so much stress in the timeline between my...
    BLUEFISH66 BLUEFISH66 61-65, F Apr 16

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    -Father. Sociopathic. Physically and mentally abusive to both my mother and myself. I lived with him for thirteen years. My current household: -Mother. I live with her now. Was...
    SilencesLullaby SilencesLullaby 16-17, F Apr 26

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    You would always tell me that emotional and mental abuse were never real, that it was always something I was imagining. You would tell me I'm overreacting or throwing a fit all...
    OhNeekaMaraj OhNeekaMaraj 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I need to write this, I need to get this off my chest. This isn't me being a victim, this is me saying that my life has been extremely hard and still is sometimes because of my...
    KAlexxx KAlexxx 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    Phoebe, is my most recent rescue. She's 4 years old and should weigh about 15lbs. She's been in and out of the shelter 4 times. It's almost been a year with her and it's painfully...
    Twichl Twichl 18-21, F Apr 11

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    I said I would stop but after seeing other girls go through this in just one week I had to share He told me to wait for him near the bus stop and we would walk to school from there...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 16

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    Didn't know where else to post this. Anyway me as a mother, as a friend, at work are all ways of being I'm very comfortable with. Me in a relationship I am completely uncomfortable...
    paliglass paliglass 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 17

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    She gets worse and worse every single day. I'm so tired of rolling my eyes. She comes home and I'm out of sight and then he is no longer he one she was verbally abusing when I was...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 6 Responses Apr 21

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    I wonder if rapists ever see their victims as human beings like them. Their animalistic urge seem to shut down all other mental functions and abuse their fellow being even at the...
    mareliberum mareliberum 26-30 1 Response Apr 23

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    (1980) I was born while my parents were getting divorced. I saw my dad a handful of times. (1983) my mom remarries a man who likes little girls. My mom knew what was going on but...
    wingedvalkyrie7 wingedvalkyrie7 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 24

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    Yesterday the brother of the man i am in love with said i 'abuse' people verbally, including him and his brother. it has upset me bcs i have been verbally abused in my lifetime a...
    hayleyusa hayleyusa 46-50, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I was emotionally abused for 4 years before he started to physically abuse me. It started with him being drunk and grabbing my arm at a bar until I almost screamed, I had a bruise...
    osafloja osafloja 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Another random person who I've never personally talked to has blocked me, yet again. And, just like 90% of all the other times I've been blocked, it was for absolutely no reason...
    PsychGirl94 PsychGirl94 18-21, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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