I Have Abused My Body

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    Living With This Fate..

    It's nothing I am proud of believe me, but sometimes I feel there is no other way. I love pain and always have apparently. I used to get beat and my dad left and I start beating myself, kinda ****** up and I don't know it started, but I feel like it is never going to stop. I like...
    SecretSpirit SecretSpirit
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Nov 14, 2011

    It Has Been Through A Lot.

    I have been abusing my body for along time. Internal and external. When I was 9 I started cutting my left calf. Luckily, all the scars have faded by now. You can only see the remnants of them in the dark under a light . I moved onto my wrist when I was about 11. My left wrist has...
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 28, 2011

    Sad to say. Always was a fat kid.

    But when I think of all the times I've probably eaten for comfort rather than need! And I haven't always been one for exercise either:( Then there were the times when alcohol consumption was hardly at safety levels!!! Lack of sleep. Years of stress. Smoking. Was at thirty a day...
    picklebobble picklebobble
    51-55, M
    1 Response Jan 27, 2015

    At the moment I'm feeling

    so f*cking angry that for the first time in YEARS I'm thinking about cutting myself again. Goddamnit, I'm lost for words right now and that's the reason why I feel like hurting myself. Why can't my mom be only ONCE the f*cking adult of the two of us?! Why am I always giving in...
    LunaInvicta LunaInvicta
    26-30, F
    May 31, 2014

    Sorry, Body

    I kind of feel bad, really, when I think over it all. Whoever or whatever being or bad luck put me in this body must be really pissed off at the way I've treated it thus far into my life. From when I was young and used to romp around with my sisters or my friends, skinning...
    fadingvioletdawn fadingvioletdawn
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Aug 3, 2011

    I Did It All... Almost

    In my on darkness... I had did much abuse to myself, in response to the abuse I suffered from others. It doesn't make sense nor am I proud of it! I have hurt myself physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. :-/ I use to cut myself, throw myself in walls in rage...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Mar 4, 2009

    I've been a cutter since I was 12 years old.

    My life isn't the worse, but i didn't have the greatest childhood. Cutting got rid of the pain.
    babykaykez19 babykaykez19
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jan 27, 2014

    "It's Been a While Since I Could Say That I Wasn't Addicted and It's Been a While Since I Could Say I Love Myself As Well."

    I'd always assumed the inclination toward self-destruction started when I was thirteen, when I woke up that morning on April the first, and suddenly found myself without the will to live. I'd always thought I had been okay prior to that morning. When I think on it, though, I...
    SheistheLorax SheistheLorax
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jul 2, 2009

    I have abused my body

    so much and it's only been on earth for seventeen years . I have cut , scratched , smoked , drugged and many more , I let my body be ruined , scars everywhere , the drugs and alcohol who know what they've done to my body , I'm starved for days , purged everything I ate , let...
    brookieboo8090 brookieboo8090
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 16, 2014

    I have done some questionable

    and painful things to my body. I don't think I have it in me to take care of a body I don't want or care about. I should care but I honestly don't.
    poeticdiva poeticdiva
    26-30, F
    5 Responses May 19, 2014

    I used to abuse my body.

    I cut, i hit, i punch walls just to feel pain. But then i realized how stupid i was. Appreciate your body, what you have. Appreciate what God has given you. If you feel like cutting i suggest you get a journal and express your feelings in the journal instead of cutting. Say no...
    nanantsha nanantsha
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 12, 2014

    My Problem

    I have trictotilimania (probably spelled that wrong) which means I obsessively pull out my hair, eyelashes, eyebrows, ect. I don't know what to do.
    leftykat8 leftykat8
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Nov 17, 2009

    I have many scars from self infliction.

    I was a drug addict, I was a cutter, I would punch walls, I would burn myself with my lite cigarettes, I'd punch myself in the face etc. I felt better if I caused pain to myself, and man do I have the scars to prove it. I don't do all the stuff anymore I fight my way not to hurt...
    UnstableSammi UnstableSammi
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Aug 20, 2014

    Cut💨 Scratched💨 Bitten💨 Burned💨 Starved💨 Bruised💨 Scarred.... You name it and I've probably done it. I have been self harming since the age of seven and still continue to do it to this day. I've always been alone😔 and always will be. My mother hates...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 7, 2014

    Not Sure Where To Start

    To be honest i'm not sure what to say on here but i want to get this out somewhere, For a number of years now i have abused my body, it started with burning myself by putting my cigarettes out on my arms when the pain inside was just to much, almost like a relief almost like...
    pleaseneverfindout pleaseneverfindout
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Oct 7, 2011

    I've reached the end ,

    I cat think straight any more I think I'm going to end it all now 😪
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 2, 2015

    I've done pretty much everything to harm my

    body. I cut myself for eight years, ate too much, ate too little and did drugs. I'm literally scarred for life. Only about one year ago I started to feel all the pain I did to my body. I felt and still feel so deeply sorry for her. This was the point in my life when the...
    LunaInvicta LunaInvicta
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 19, 2014

    Burned, cut, scraped,

    bruised, you name it. I have been a self mutilator since I was 9 or 10. I started getting serious in seventh grade. By serious I mean actual self harming. I would give myself second degree burns, cut to where you could see past the white layer of skin and leave large gashes, and...
    IamMorbid IamMorbid
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 5, 2014

    Self harm, substance abuse,

    starving, binge eating, reckless behaviour. Miss them all.
    iaintcomingupwithausername iaintcomingupwithausername
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 17, 2014

    Your body is sacred. Don't give it away to

    anyone who can finesse you for the moment. You'll feel used and empty. Even though you want to be connected make him work for you. Know your worth. Look how hard you work to be you, no one deserves that in one second.
    healthybeautysquad healthybeautysquad
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 29, 2014

    "i Have Abused My Body"

    i know anyone reading this might be sick of hearing the same stories over and over, and it probably won't matter you, but i guess it helps to type on here rather than talk where somebody can judge you, i have bulimia, and i know its wrong, but started cutting myself a few months...
    alishhaaa alishhaaa
    2 Responses Nov 27, 2011

    I got so mad that I scratched my arm

    so hard with a pencil and now i regret it :( it looks like i self harm but i really dont yet i wish i could just cope with all this stress and pain on the inside Ill be better
    Stressed14 Stressed14
    18-21, F
    Aug 31, 2015

    I overcame abusing my body

    when is was 12 years old. I used to cut the back of my thighs because I didn't want anyone to see my pain. I had a tough time with my home life and bullying. Things got out of my control and I panicked and began to cut myself. I regret doing that and if I could go back and re do...
    oliviathesmall oliviathesmall
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 17, 2014

    Everyday It Seems

    I cut my arms and repeat the cut in the same spot, going as deep as I can before the pain makes me drop the knife. I've made my own cat--nine tails whip, which i fling over my shoulders onto my back. I take thumb tacks and jab them into my legs through my pants. I punch myself...
    Rysdullieth Rysdullieth
    18-21, M
    2 Responses May 17, 2010

    And I'm Amazed At The Recovery!

    When it comes to doing dumb things and taking way too many chances by keeping that atttitude of adolescent invincablitiy for far too long, I'm sure there are some with bigger and better stories, but I doubt there are many. In my case, when I turned 40, I knew it was time to...
    AlbertSAT AlbertSAT
    66-70, M
    2 Responses Jun 13, 2011

    I Still ..

    Cut my wrists but I just hide it better .
    morganx97 morganx97
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 23, 2013

    Before medication and counselling,

    I would go out for a drive and scream bloody murder, argue, accuse, question other people in my life, including myself. My throat would become raspy, my lungs would be on fire, and tears would be streaming down my cheeks so bad I'd have to pull over for seeing. On some...
    just2curious2 just2curious2
    56-60, M
    Aug 27, 2015

    I use to cut.........

    thatonegirl156 thatonegirl156
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 29, 2014

    A Girl's Best Friend!

    A girl's best friend that's how i used to see the blade. Everytime something would go wrong i would cut myslef led myself to bleed and for a a little while all my worries would disappear. My counsellor used to say that was my way of coping with things happening around me and i...
    bornconfused bornconfused
    18-21, F
    11 Responses Oct 31, 2012

    My Body Is A Temple

    My behavioursDon't do it any favours.My bad habitsAnnoy it.A future immersed in formaldehydeAwaits my traits.Poisons, burns,I've treasonously filled it with germs.I've starved it, carved it and laughed at it.And worse,I tried to outsmart it.
    CrookedMan CrookedMan
    Jan 17, 2011

    I've selfharmed sense I was 7 started

    as scraches then as I got older it proceeded to cutting, burning and other things I was in and out of mental hospitals growing up. because why try and Fix me if they can just send me away. I stoped for awhile but it's something I always go back to
    Alexismarie9314 Alexismarie9314
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 29, 2015

    My Bodies Punishment.

    I made my body suffer for events in my life I blamed myself for. For such a long time I blamed myself and as a consequence punished myself. I abused alcohol and drugs, I self harmed and I had an eating disorder. Even though I have come out the winner from these battles I did...
    randomdriftwood randomdriftwood
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Aug 4, 2007

    For some who have switched religions

    or have started eating healthy, taking care of themselves, treating their bodies as temples. To that I say, this what makes this country great, because I treat my body like an amusement park.
    Dantescircle Dantescircle
    41-45, M
    1 Response Aug 20, 2014

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    sawanch sawanch
    22-25, M
    May 14, 2015

    I am so blessed to still be alive!

    For years I was a drug addict and alcoholic. The veins in my arms collapsed and hid under the muscles so that now, after being clean for over 7 years, the doctors can't draw blood using the usual procedure. Last time I had blood work done the nurses stuck me 4 times before...
    somerbunni703 somerbunni703
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Aug 20, 2014

    My body has become a symbol

    for who I am. I'm so small showing my deepest desire to slip away into nothingness. I have cut my arms to mar the skin as if to be a constant reminder of the failure I constant am. But the scars don't remain they go away so I continue to suffer in my pain and loneliness. The...
    PoetGirl97 PoetGirl97
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 8, 2014

    i binge eat. i starve.

    i slide razors on my skin. i go hungry for days. i cry till my face tingles so vigorously it goes numb. i stick with people who can break my heart. i go through situations that has a bad influence on my mind. i have abused my body … 🔫
    meowshelbs meowshelbs
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 11, 2014
    Frozengirl20 Frozengirl20
    22-25, F
    4 Responses May 13, 2015
    MatildaBlack MatildaBlack
    16-17, F
    1 Response Dec 7, 2014

    I have only eaten 140 calories today

    and cut up both my arms. I can't take this. Time to drink and take sleeping pills. Sleep is the closest I can come to death so lets sleep.
    blahlahblah599 blahlahblah599
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 17, 2014

    Bad food, hard drinks,

    questionable drugs, sharp knives, ice, fire, needles, and just plain wearing it down...each of these things hasn't killed me and therefore makes me stronger, tougher, but also bitter and scarred. It's amazing what a human can live through. I haven't had a bullet yet, but I'm...
    Sinjintiger Sinjintiger
    41-45, M
    Jul 8, 2014

    I scratch myself instead of cutting

    because it doesn't bleed as much. I tell My mom I did it in my sleep so I don't have to hide them at home.
    pyrodexx46 pyrodexx46
    18-21, F
    May 13, 2015

    I have been at both extreme

    and still am near an extreme I have cut but now I abuse my body with the amount of work and training I but it through If anyone has any ideas how I can relax more without saying just not doing it, that probably would help because I'm always exhausted and I don't think it's to...
    ryanmona ryanmona
    18-21, M
    Jul 8, 2014
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