I Have Agoraphobia

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    Agoraphobia

    hello,i found this site because i was looking for a site that may help me with my agoraphobia,i have had it for most of my life,sometimes its mild&sometimes its so bad my life just stops,am going through a bad patch now!the last time i went out on my own was over 3yrs ago,i...
    karentracey karentracey
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Aug 30, 2009

    It Comes and Goes

    At my best I am a little shy, at my worst I can't leave the house, not even to get the mail at the end of the driveway. It has never been paralyzing or caused panic attacks for me, but it has still been very uncomfortable at times. I have found "alone time" is like wet...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    10 Responses Mar 7, 2008

    Forever Alone

    I'm a very shy 26 year old female that suffers from agoraphobia. I really don't know what happened to me. I used to be outgoing and not nearly as shy. In fact I'm having trouble just writing this... 10 years ago I would have laughed at someone scared to type about themselves. I...
    xNebulax xNebulax
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Feb 22, 2012

    Been stuck in flat past week with a cold.

    Supposed to go to an important thing today but feel anxious to go outside now. Feeling better, health wise, today (not contagious anymore I don't think) but not sure I'm in good enough condition to interact with people. Might be good enough to go out for a walk. Not sure...
    lonelyguybc lonelyguybc
    26-30, M
    1 Response Sep 27, 2015

    I have mild agoraphobia.

    I can leave my home and I do things hours away, so I have a pretty decent sized "comfort zone". The problem is that my agoraphobia has really prevented me from enjoying traveling. The weird thing is that I love going to new places and I have a huge list of places that I want to...
    an2012 an2012
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 23, 2014

    Prison.

    I live in a prison of my mind.  I am eighteen, yet I can't do the things that most people my age do.  I really don't even have anymore friends besides people I talk to online.  I don't have my license or a job.  I'm too afraid to go shopping, which used...
    urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin
    22-25, F
    10 Responses Aug 4, 2008

    I definitely feel incredibly uncomfortable

    when to say the least and it's become worse over time. I feel shaky, nauseous, extremely hyper-vigilant and I feel I need certain terms in case something bad does happen, usually a drink and something to settle my stomach. I only truly feel safe at home. The only time I feel...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 15, 2014

    I'm 14 and I haven't left the house

    since January. My mom texted me this, "How would you like it if I locked myself up in here for months? You saw me getting weak and pale and bored. I didn't go to work, see friends, or anything. How would that make you feel? Would you worry? You're tearing me up with this.". Don...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 26, 2015

    My Story

    Well my story is long... I have actually published a full blog on line that tells about how it happened... therapys ive tried and recommend.. plus useful website links. its www dot livingwithagoraphobia dot blogspot dot com I hope its helpful
    lynnie81 lynnie81
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 2, 2008

    I Walk Through The Valley Of Darkness

    I was recently diagnosed with agoraphobia and PTSD (an addition to my list of disorders..ugh), but I had already diagnosed myself with agoraphobia as I have been unable to leave my home for close to a year’s time. I was diagnosed with major depression and panic disorder many...
    tobelieve tobelieve
    36-40, F
    7 Responses Apr 15, 2012

    I dont even know what to say.

    im not exactly sure why I joined here. All I know is that I am in so much emotional pain. I cant leave the house. I have no car. If I take public transport I'm not sure I know how to go home. I dont know why I decided to migrate to a non-english speaking country. I feel even...
    FeistyGuppy FeistyGuppy
    26-30, F
    Nov 9, 2015

    And and anxiety. I need an income,

    but I can't work outside of the home. Help!! Please. I am great with a computer and can create graphic designs. Any ideas on how I can work from home? Anyone looking for an honest, hard-working person to help them?
    SocialHermit SocialHermit
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jul 5, 2015

    I have agoraphobia bad.

    I didn't even know I suffered anxiety till it got this bad. I kinda thought I was just over thinking everything. till like 3-4 years ago where I started being scared to leave the house. it was so bad I couldn't throw away the garbage. its still bad but I learned a couple of...
    angie1526 angie1526
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 1, 2015

    My life has changed so much in two years.

    I quit my job (unrelated to agoraphobia) in late 2013, and since then I've been at home doing freelance writing. I've always had anxiety and let's just say "related bowel issues," but since I've been home I am more afraid than ever to go to appointments, to the store, to see...
    OttieCat OttieCat
    31-35
    1 Response Mar 31, 2015

    Hi. I'm Chris. I just joined EP today.

    I have agoraphobia.Its caused by chronic fatigue (cfs). I try to do things that help me get through a day. If I need anything I get it home delivered. I dont travel. I miss having a life. Will gladly compare notes.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Feb 22

    Anne Frank

    Yes the title says what it says. I actually had a, what do you call it, ah ha a - "moment" today. Despite our differences in why and how we feel the way we feel, this is someone I really believe I can relate too. For the first time on Netflix, I got around to watching  the movie...
    strivingtobeabetterme strivingtobeabetterme
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 24, 2013

    Where Has My Life Gone/ I Have Agoraphobia

    To start off am 30 and not had a lot of life experience. I have spent the last 10 years stuck in my home Afraid to live life. I have what is call Agoraphobia here is a link I used to spell it right and reading it. it shows what I have. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Agoraphobia...
    animesam animesam
    26-30, M
    23 Responses May 20, 2010

    I had no idea. My Grandma was agoraphobic,

    but I've been free of chemical depression and love to go out. I moved cross country @ 22yo and suddenly got shy. I went through a several month period 8yrs ago where all I could do was stare at the walls and tiptoe (had put cat to sleep, new town and didn't know anyone.) Have...
    MissASC77 MissASC77
    36-40, F
    Feb 21, 2015

    Fighting Agoraphobia & Anxiety

    I purchased the attacking anxiety and depression program by the midwest center and I have learn't alot of copeing skills to cope with anxiety, depression and agoraphobia. It took me about 8 months to get what they were talking about in this program. My severe panic attacks...
    1woody 1woody
    41-45, M
    4 Responses Jan 8, 2012

    Tired of Being Lonely

    I have physical deformities and this has led me to stay indoors. Ive been doing this for a long time now, more than 5 years.  I have no friends, it seems like i have no window to reenter society. Ive dealt with this for a long time, I probably wouldnt call it dealing, Ive...
    lance11 lance11
    22-25, M
    1 Response Oct 7, 2008

    I'm not really sure if I have Agoraphobia

    or not… I think I'm fine going as far as I can away from from home, but when it starts getting late I HAVE to be home. I can panic if its dark out and I'm not home. It's gotten better over time, but I still don't think I could leave over night, without my family member I live...
    UnknownMysteryOne UnknownMysteryOne
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 13, 2014

    Getting Attached To Strangers

    I am 18. I have had agoraphobia for 4 years which is a result of many others problems in my life. I only stay at my house and just recently, my mother's boyfriends house, who I actually like. I do not go out and meet people or attempt to make new friends, and no one visits my own...
    SkippingTheGoldenYears SkippingTheGoldenYears
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 7, 2012

    I have this and a nine-year-old son,

    are there any mothers out there dealing with this? I have missed Christmas programs and parent teacher conferences etc my son is very supportive and understands but I still feel guilty please add me if you have children and are dealing with this
    FightingForNormal FightingForNormal
    31-35, F
    1 Response Aug 16, 2015

    been having this for about a year now,

    bad agoraphobia , don't wanna go anywhere because i'm in risk of a panic attack that lasts long and is pure hell and terror.
    sabbracaddabraa sabbracaddabraa
    22-25, M
    Mar 15, 2015

    You Really Never Know

    What I mean by you really never know is that in life you really never know when things can be taken away from you or how. In my case, I've always had anxiety. I had my first real panic attack when I was a Sophomore in High School. I remember I was at a movie theatre on a date...
    strivingtobeabetterme strivingtobeabetterme
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Mar 15, 2013

    I barely ever leave my room.

    If I do, I'm verbally abused. I can't stand human interaction and it's gotten to the point where I barely want to log onto imvu anymore, because last time I ended up logging out while trembling uncontrollably from the stress that all the drama makes. Do I remind you that imvu is...
    SammiSakura SammiSakura
    16-17, F
    1 Response Oct 17, 2014

    The Longest Story No One Will Ever Read.

    I suppose it doesn't come as a shock to anyone who has this... illness... that I am sitting at home, alone in the dark, afraid of the things that are lurking outside. You could say this all started when I was very young and brutally tormented by my peers but it isn't a story...
    TheKamikazeKid TheKamikazeKid
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Sep 28, 2013

    I love to go out and do stuff.

    I really am an active person at heart but I haven't lately or ever when i think back on it. In hindsight i guess i was always a bit of a "home-body." When ever iwent out during high school and college i traveled with people or along the more isolated routes. With people they...
    Cinnadoodle Cinnadoodle
    18-21, F
    Mar 21, 2014

    I really wanna go back into my room

    and ******* die. I'm so damn tired of being verbally abused. trying to hold in tears when I'm trying to eat dinner is ridiculous and I feel like absolute **** and now I have to lock myself up and recharge so I can put my mask my back up to my face and continue talking to my...
    SammiSakura SammiSakura
    16-17, F
    Nov 19, 2014

    I leave my apartment once

    or twice a week. I go to the same 3 stores at the same times on the same days. I take medication before I leave. I can do my shopping and never make eye contact or talk to anyone other than "thank you" to the cashier. I am terrified of meeting up with people I know, so I...
    absolom absolom
    41-45
    Sep 10, 2014

    My Life With Agoraphonia

    Well i'm a 25 year old female who has suffered with Panic attacks for the past  6 years.    Like with many other people i started to avoid different situations incase i took a panic attack.  I avoided so many things that eventually i never left the house...
    lynnie81 lynnie81
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Dec 11, 2006

    Hi *waves*

    So, no surprise, my social network exists online, lol. Despite having many friends through school and hobbies, most don't like to visit me, and I don't visit them, so the internet has become my only real social tool. I've been agoraphobic for over ten years, with increasing...
    AquaGemini AquaGemini
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Feb 15, 2008

    The most hurtful thing you could ever say to

    some who suffers mentally is ‘nothing’s wrong with you’. I know I may seem like I don’t want help - for ****’s sake, I do and I know it, I’m just not ready for that kind of ‘help’ yet. I keep saying that ‘I’d rather kill myself ’ because honestly? It seems...
    chrisxderp chrisxderp
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Aug 1, 2014

    Figuring Out Agoraphobia

    Sorry, I don't know how to post stories without using the 'share your story' thing. Anyway, I started trying to figure out what in the world panic attacks were in '98. I discovered they actually had a name/term for them in around '02. I began to research what they are tied to...
    DaSSRedemption DaSSRedemption
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Jan 13, 2012

    I Think It Only Matters If We Think It Does

    I can TOTALLY relate to you!! I've ALWAYS been an extremely extroverted, outgoing person. From my mother (with her alcoholic self) I inherited many great qualities...one of them is having a whole bunch of charisma. It is in my nature to find ultimate fulfillment interacting with...
    MysticWriter MysticWriter
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Dec 11, 2006

    Well, I'm not sure I do

    for sure, but I do feel quite uncomfortable being away from home, I'm always a little on edge as well as being fidgety and generally anxious. Even being 10-15 minutes from my house occasionally makes me anxious in case something happens to me. I've always been fine apart from...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 28, 2014

    i hate this so much, i get anxious

    and panicky each time i go out my front door. the further i go the more anxious i get.. i was never like this .. never.. i get the sensation like i'm in a plane that's about to crash sometimes.. even though everything is just fine. and friends are calling me weak and things like...
    sabbracaddabraa sabbracaddabraa
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Apr 8, 2015

    What is a Panic AttackA very important question

    if you're struggling with this condition. You should really understanding exactly what's going on behind the scenes.So what is a PA?A sudden feeling of acute and disabling anxiety.`Ok, that's the textbook definition, but i don't think that clears things up too much so let's go l...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Feb 23, 2014

    Living A Nightmare

    I am 20 years old. 3 years ago I was the most ambitious person. i wanted to hurry and graduate and go straight to college and graduate from there and get my career started. i wanted to get married and have kids. I was always happy, loved walking and getting excercise daily to...
    alexxisirene alexxisirene
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Oct 31, 2012

    Having panic attacks?

    Here's some advice from Tyler Durden. 
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Mar 7, 2014

    I never really knew what anxiety

    or agoraphobia was until I started getting it in my early 20's. all I knew was every time I tried to go somewhere I felt sick to my stomach. it makes me feel like **** when my friends or family invite me out but I'm too afraid to go....but what I really hate is knowing that I'm...
    nolove247 nolove247
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 3, 2015

    I'm 21 and I didn't get diagnosed till last

    year in May. It pretty much explained everything I was going through, the panic attacks, the endless worrying, the nausea and the irrational fear I got whenever I was around people, especially in trains. I'm on medication and monthly counselling and I don't think I'm getting...
    chrisxderp chrisxderp
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 1, 2014

    Does fear cause real diarrhea

    or does it cause the feeling only ? http://livelifetothefullest.live-panic-free.com/2014/03/03/does-fear-cause-real-diarrhea-or-does-it-cause-the-feeling-only-.aspx Hey guys, sorry if this seems spammy, not my intention at all. I used to just paste my experiences in several...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Mar 4, 2014

    Agoraphobic

    I am A 37 year old male who has suffered from panic attacks since I was 18 . My trigger was A crowd of people I did not care how bad I felt alone by myself because no one could see me that way. I have avoidence behavior if it causes panic/anxiety I avoid it If I am afraid i avoid...
    1woody 1woody
    41-45, M
    8 Responses Jan 3, 2012

    It's been so hard for me to leave the house

    lately. Yesterday I pushed myself and took the bus to go shopping. Today I'm soooo tired. I just keep falling asleep, a sign my body is in a depression. I get overwhelmed easily. When I have gone outside, even to my front yard, I have people trying to have a conversation with...
    SocialHermit SocialHermit
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Jun 3, 2015

    I am 21 and what exactly happens

    when I'm under panic attack is suddenly I feel drowsy and my eyes start blacking out... And within no time my heart beats very rapidly (so fast that I can almost hear and can feel the pulse in hands and neck). Then from there I barely hear people or understand the situation...
    notimpp notimpp
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 30, 2015

    New to this community.

    ..and at the same time feeling so familiar. I'd say my case is less severe as some here, mine comes in phases. And I'm not too sure if I have agoraphobia. It started 1-2 years ago, a month where I got sick and very very tired. Before, I was energetic, bubbly, never finding it...
    iVoice iVoice
    18-21, F
    Nov 23, 2015

    I'm not sure if this is what Agoraphobia is,

    but I have trouble going someplace where teens/druggies/sketchy people hang out. At the end of my street, I drive my, a cul-de-sac that I pass by, and sometimes there are cars down there. It makes me nervous everything I drive by there. Also, going certain places, becuase I'm...
    4EverBlissful 4EverBlissful
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jun 7, 2014

    I recently started a blog.

    It's nothing too nice yet as I have just started it but I really would love for people to check it out (if of course you'd like too) :)) but I'm also trying to connect with those dealing with anxiety/agoraphobia. I only have one story but am planning to write about my life with...
    strivingtobeabetterme strivingtobeabetterme
    26-30, F
    Jul 8, 2014

    Am I Recovering

    Panic attacks and severe anxiety has kept me homebound for about 18 years. After being agoraphobic all these years I am now getting out more and more with friends, and there are some days when I am stuck at home I wished I had A place to go just to get out. Am I recovering? or is...
    1woody 1woody
    41-45, M
    3 Responses May 29, 2012
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