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I Have Alot of Sadness In My Heart

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    I Wish It Were Different....

       I have always been a fragile girl emotionally. I haven't been through a lot of terrible things.... but what I have been through I just can't seem to let go of. It's gotten to the point where the sadness and depression is almost as comfortable as my blankets...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Feb 10, 2009

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    Each Day...

    Each day I try to be better than the previous day....but I feel I have lost the battle....I have a lot many things which has left scars in my life...many memories which still make me speechless...many memories which just flash before my eyes which I have happened long time ago...
    papri papri 26-30, F 13 Responses Apr 11, 2012

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    I Cut Because Of Dylan Aune

    he cheated on me with my best friend and now im plotting revenge
    jonny3tears jonny3tears 13-15, F 2 Responses May 25, 2012

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    I Want To Help But Dont Know How

    So here is the story...We met online at the end of last month...so in a few days it will be a month since we are in touch.It is fusional, we exchanged emails every day for the past 3 weeks. Irresistible.He opened up to me like a book...- he is divorced, no children- his father...
    diaphane diaphane 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2013

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    Hey everyone I'm sorry to be all depressing like

    but i just really need to get this off my chest 😔 Most days are really hard for me anyways (long story lol -_-*) but today was harder than others, i come from a culture where it's WONG the be gay, bi, to lose ur virginity before ur married... No i think i it it's wrong to be...
    Prettygirl345 Prettygirl345 16-17, T 1 Response Aug 26

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    The Pain Of Yesteryear

    i feel as my time is coming farther along that i have lost to much of my heart to to many women who have just each one by one took my heart piece by piece i feel as though i am a shell of my former self that i am weak because all of what i have done is my fault and that it is...
    PhazonMario PhazonMario 18-21, M Oct 14, 2012

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    hey ya friends.......

    ......been long no words from my side was going gud with my love life,bt situation changing like and wind changes its path..........i love an girls she love me too bt still in contact wit his Ex,he hampers her to came back bt she wont leave me coz she love me and finds me prefect...
    vegeta420 vegeta420 22-25, M May 30

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    the new truth I found out about love: That you

    cannot make another happy just with your love. That there are times that you need to choose parting to give the best to each other.
    BlueberryCheeseCakeIcecream BlueberryCheeseCakeIcecream 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 8

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    On The Outside...

    ...I'm just fine, but in the inside, I'm breaking apart. I used to be able to fake a smile before, but now, I'm just too sad to fake one. People keep saying that everyone has been through the same thing as you, but they haven't been through the same thing as me. Every single day...
    SoLonely1471 SoLonely1471 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 29, 2012

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    It Seems Never Ending

    I have so much pain in my heart and it's really taking a toll on me. Im greatly haunted by my past, i know there isn't any point in dwelling on it but I can't seem to stop. I guess I feel like things were better back then but now they have just went down hill. I constantly think...
    roseofthedevilsgarden roseofthedevilsgarden 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 19, 2012

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    A goody two shoes girl clothed with branded

    clothes, holding a purse on the right hand and a cellphone on the other. That is how most people can describe me. Yes, I score good grades and have all these clothes and cold stuff around me but, do you know that those stuff does not actually fill the emptiness that one person...
    FloatingWithHope FloatingWithHope 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 26

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    Lost Souls

    Two lost souls Thats what we are We found each other While we're bruised and scarred We shared each other's story We shared each other's grief We tried to fight our misery  We made each other happy We made our own world We set aside our current lives We made way for brief stolen...
    prettierinpink prettierinpink 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 8, 2012

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    My now ex-girlfriend broke up with me

    because she wanted to stay friends since school is ending but now I'm really sad, I see her point but I'm just so lost and now I won't be in the same school as her so I'm pretty much just a heart wondering in space with tears wondering if she loved me back the same way I did
    Djflipboom Djflipboom 13-15, M 2 Responses Apr 19

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    I feel like my life is going from bad to worse

    today. :( Last night somebody who I worked closely with died, and it was an unexpected death, I will miss him, it has really shocked me :( Also its not helped that the guy that broke my heart is all happy on face book with his wife of one week, after only knowing her for over...
    wishfulsoul wishfulsoul 31-35, F 3 Responses Mar 3

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    I want to be happy. That's all I think about.

    ....me potentially being happy someday...but everyday comes and everyday is the same. Everyday I continue to pray, but happiness still has refused to come my way.
    analisalane analisalane 22-25, F Mar 8

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    KINGDARKNESS1 KINGDARKNESS1 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 11

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    I just broke down crying at an image in my head.

    He leaves me at the bus station. No anything. He's perfect willing to let me go. He's angry though. I dk. It doesn't seem to want me here so why he's mad. I know he would be. My hearts breaking and I dk why at this thought. I'd feel better if wasn't angry cause then maybe it...
    tristaspuella tristaspuella 22-25, F Sep 3

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    43steel 43steel 41-45, F 2 Responses May 13

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    Living A Nightmare........................

    Loving him is something I'll always do. I pray that he still loves me too. We were for us to only find out that we were together for so long. For us to only find out that we where did I go wrong? Was it being there for him even on the slighest whim. I was there through all the...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F Jul 2, 2012

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    I always talk to myself

    because I wonder " am I always going to get rejected by anymore boys?" Because I have been rejected by 2 in 4th grade but I hope this doesn't happen to me in 5th grade
    bela5562 bela5562 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 25

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    So for sometime now the gf

    and I have been having issues, mainly due to communication and practice on our part. It all started amazing for me, I had met the girl I wanted to Marry. Now I know we all feel like that about the person we're with in a relationship, anywyas, we started going out, I wanted to...
    duplexoutlet duplexoutlet 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 25

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    I just had a baby boy 5 months ago with my

    boyfriend of 2 years. I'm only 17 and my boyfriend went to jail for 3 months and now that he's been out he's broke my heart. When he got out I chose to leave him for many reason instead of excepting it he took me to court to get custody of our boy. In this process my little boy...
    Aligirl1 Aligirl1 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 5

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    The World We Live In Is Full Of Hatred, Prejudice, Racism And Not Enough Of Love, Mercy, And Understanding!

    If I could I would buy up all of. the love in the world and give it out for free. I wish the world would be free from fighting and killing. I wish people would respect one another and their differences. I wish people would not hate one another just because their beliefs are...
    Realove4u Realove4u 46-50, M May 30, 2013

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    I just feel as if I don't belong in this world

    as if no one cares like my family they just push me out the way as if I am not a family member it puts me down 😭😭
    xjxoxdxy xjxoxdxy 13-15, F 4 Responses May 31

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    When one day you see your life not going the

    way of how you pictured it, and when you're so overcome by sadness, just put your whole trust in god for he is our creator and no one knows us better than he himself and when you really start to believe in this, you'll see your sadness slowly diminishing into the abyss.
    Nazakj Nazakj 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 6

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    hi just had a bit a bad news

    and would love to chat with my best friend
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 23

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    Mandy

    I'm almost 16, so I've had my share of experiences with lots of people. Usually, I just felt like it wasn't working, I wouldn't really like the person after a while, or I'd think I liked them a lot but then they'd break up with me and I'd be like "Oh, that wasn't as devastating...
    iwillalwaysrefusetosink iwillalwaysrefusetosink 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 15, 2013

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    Need someone to talk to I need a friend

    that will be there for me all the time not just **** around then leave
    Lauraaaa221 Lauraaaa221 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 3

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    I'm not being pathetic.

    I just wanted to release this pain in my heart. I really hate this feeling, why some people brings out bad vibes for you? They do such annoying things for no reason. Why do someone loves to hurt other people? They are so mean? Why the hell they still exist in this planet?? Why...
    smjuap21 smjuap21 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I have a tight grip on the "what ifs" of the

    past and I just can't let go no matter how desperate I am to shut that sh*t way of thinking off. That's all it is...destructive poisonous thinking that doesn't let you truly move the **** on. Wondering what you could have done differently, why you didn't have the courage to take...
    Miamortis Miamortis 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 16

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    We met online back in march You said you loved

    me and I loved you And everyday the feeling grew... Between the two of us And at times when you were scared And all so sad You said my love for you Made you all so glad In the morning when I wake up And I open up my eyes,I feel an aching in my heart That's when I realize How...
    nivanvc nivanvc 36-40, M Mar 4

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    My Heart Has A Mind Of Its Own

    Why do I have a heart?When it’s never learnedHow to establish itselfAnd do it’s jobWhy bother keeping the thingIt doesn’t pay its wayIts always hogging the lime liteAnd even I’m ready to walk out It gets real hard when I want controlI can’t get it to stay inside my...
    clarkee clarkee 51-55 1 Response Jul 31, 2012

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    Well I am gay Lonely depression has me.

    Sadness has ruled me. I'm shy but outgoing , love to make others feel good but I purposely abandoned myself. I want to be loved but from past childhood not loved I taught myself to push away I push those who care but sad when I don't have love or friendship. I'm a fragile...
    poeticBrokenSoul poeticBrokenSoul 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 26

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    Lots to Be Sad About, of Course -- But I Keep Trying

    All of my sadness and major disappointments have been pretty dormant and subdued lately.  I think because I keep so busy these days, or else do things I enjoy, that I don't end up dwelling on them much.  Also, I think I've accepted that a lot of the hurt is in the past...
    UnderEli UnderEli 41-45, M 6 Responses Jun 18, 2009

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    Throw Me A Fricken Bone!

    I give my all only to be torn apart an ripped to shreds an stomped on an mashed to the ground an spit on an kicked around an set on fire an tossed aside an screwed around an made a fool of an taken advantage of an made a mockery of an robbed of love, trust, honor, respect, time...
    Basinkim Basinkim 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 10, 2012

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    I wish he loved me as much

    as i love him, i wish I wouldn't have to practically beg for his attention, i wish he wasn't the father of our son because then it would be so much easier to let go, we used to be so happy everything felt right and we were in love. I wish things were better i wish he gave as...
    SincerelyJasmineXO SincerelyJasmineXO 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 22

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    My Family Circle of Pain

    Hello  I have so much sadness inside me there is no room for nothing else .I come from a family of 8.  brothers 3 and 4 sister's and myself .We was always very close to each other And in one day one second our world turned upside down.My baby sister age 28 whom I loved...
    farruggia farruggia 41-45 5 Responses Feb 10, 2009

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    My heart is aching for something.

    It's bringing me down. I cried yesterday and I had no idea why I just had a wave of unbelievable sadness come to me. I'm not sure why i cried though. I have a lot of things happening but i can never bring myself to talk about something. I feel embarrassed. The fact that I feel...
    truthtobetold truthtobetold 13-15, F Feb 15

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    I can't remember the last time I was

    consistently happy and content, and it kills me because I don't know how to fix it. I'm just so scared of wasting my life away,of not mattering that much to the people I've met before I die, of not being WORTH something or living a life that's fulfilling as the person I want to...
    rawanabanana rawanabanana 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 16

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    I question myself a lot asking time

    and time again if what I do is reasonable or if it will hurt others around me. I feel selfish and empty even though I think I know what is right. This will be my last entry in EP. This place does not mean the same thing to me that it used too. Even when I reach out, I...
    ChaoticReason ChaoticReason 36-40, F Feb 11

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    I do. Really... sometimes it feels like

    nothing's going to be right again.. And i hate that feeling.. but i can't do anything about to stop it. ;( what a waste. :(
    ppavarotti ppavarotti 16-17, F 5 Responses Jan 3

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    Wasting Time

    I feel like I haven't accomplished anything this past year. It's been almost a year and a half since I've moved back home and the happiness that I thought that I would get isn't really there. I'm happy to finally be physically away from a relationship that took so much out of me...
    redpill2013 redpill2013 26-30 Sep 2, 2013

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    Does Anyone Else Feel It?

    I get a feeling in my heart, like it's cold, or like its ice just sitting there. I feel it when Im alone and when Im sad, especially when I've just had a fight with someone. It builds up in my chest, growing bigger and colder. Does anyone else get this too?
    imperfectionz imperfectionz 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 25, 2011

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    It's so true. I don't want to live

    yet I don't want to die. This is so sickening. I even cannot hold my breath. I want to lose all my memory, so I can start a new life
    jalanyanglurus jalanyanglurus 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 30

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    I used to feel really depressed there was

    so much bad stuff I was suicidal I don't want to talk about it but I was a mess I was mostly sad not to much angry but then something changed I was happy once agian but now I'm going back into my depression but now it's mostly anger not to much sadness going on I just want to be...
    jordan1hunnit jordan1hunnit 13-15 Mar 16

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    Title Uneccessary, W.H.Auden says it all.

    She was my North, my South, my East and West, My working week and my Sunday rest, My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song; I thought that love would last forever; I was wrong. The stars are not wanted now; put out every one; Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun; Pour...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jan 27, 2012

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    How can her feelings

    for another be so strong so soon 😔💔
    JaixxNinexx JaixxNinexx 31-35, F Aug 27

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    So i was feeling a bit neglected by my husband

    and a bit hurt. I had sent him flirty texts and he never replied so i gave myself two days to calm down and basically just told him literally i am upset with you. So he asked why and i told him so i got it out of my system. He didnt apologize but since i told him he's been...
    midooosa midooosa 26-30, F Feb 9

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    I wish the pain would dissolve,

    I wish the suffering would diminish, I wish the tears would be blown away.... I wish someone could fill the spaces of that special someone I'm craving....
    sch4denfr3ude sch4denfr3ude 18-21, M Mar 18

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    I love to listen to music

    so much but every time I do it just makes me really sad and depressed. I'm back to thinking about cutting. I havnt for 2 weeks ever since I got back from the suicide clinic, but I can't find any razors in my grandmas house. I'm terrified of going back home and seeing my dad. I...
    NPkid97 NPkid97 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 31

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    Being molested as a child,

    having drug addicted parents, abandoned by my dad, my brother dying at 21, mothering my alcoholic mother and younger brother for years because of my older brother death, then being disowned by my whole family for moving out with my fiancé, has been a tough time all right
    lostsoul4888 lostsoul4888 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 25

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    Lost So Much

    i have lost so much in the last couple of years,freinds ,family now dead and gone.i miss their voices and there companionship.my health isn`t what it was.and both of my brothers are addicted to drugs.what they have done to my family has effected every thing.i don`t know if i will...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 3 Responses Mar 12, 2009

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    Sadness

    Sadness is an emotion that can cripple a person and prevent them from moving forward. There's always a reason for feeling sad; some thing creates it. For example: I think the world we live in can bring about a lot of sadness; actually people make up the world therefore it's...
    Alark1 Alark1 56-60, F 3 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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