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I Have An Eating Disorder and Am In Recovery

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 82 People

    My Battle With Bulimia

    In no way shape or form do i condone or wish this disease upon anyone! With that being said... I first became bulimic when a "friend" decided it would be smart to show me how i could eat a whole meal of bad food and not feel bad about it. I wish all the time that she...
    blondy blondy 26-30, F Sep 14, 2008

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    Just Started

    Well I Have Just Started Recovery, Seen the doctor twice and a dietician. If I lose any mroe weight then I will be sent to a clinic, I'm so scared! I don't want it to come to that but I feel that it will!   I am keeping a record of this in my blog, so can kep you updated...
    SkinandBone SkinandBone 18-21, F 4 Responses May 16, 2009

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    No More Ed!

    Im am in treatment in a PHP program I go four days a week.  I guess the only advice I can offer is you just have to be willing to work hard and be honest to your self about your feelings. If anyone has suggestions I will gladly accepect them!
    derpdiderp derpdiderp 26-30 Dec 5, 2008

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    Taken Myself Out

    SO Im no longer in recovery, my doctors were messing me around, and now I feel as though Im not important enough for them to bother about. I suppose I can try on my own... and if not find proper help...   Things have gotten worse in the last few weeks though so what do i...
    SkinandBone SkinandBone 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 18, 2009

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    I've just gained 2kgs,

    is it as bad as I see it right now?
    BubbleHolmes BubbleHolmes 18-21, F Dec 3, 2013

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    Phew!...almost a Week

    I am halfway through my 6th day of recovery and i feel my body slowly but surely adjusting back to normal (whatever that is). I woke up today with my back and shoulders not as tight as usual, my face, neck and tummy not as swollen, and just a tad bit more energy than usual. Took...
    blondy blondy 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 15, 2009

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    So its officially been four weeks

    since i have made myself throw up! Feeling pretty proud of myself. i'm still feeling very fat and disgusting but i am eating healthily and am taking it one day at a time! I have so much more energy now and my dietitian says that in three months i will be able to do exercise...
    LeilaOlivia LeilaOlivia 16-17, F Oct 23

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    Sickness from my immune system being broken

    down is absolutely the worst. Right now I have an infection in my intestines that I feel like I'm never going to kick. Anyone else been through this and know how to help?
    HeatherKittenn HeatherKittenn 18-21, F Jun 18

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    Dear Eating Disorder

    I am writing to you to say goodbye, goodbye to your lies, your cruel words, your false images, everyday you beat me up with your negativity. I am going to take back the control you have over me, I can't remember the last time I was able to do something without you being in the...
    LoraJane LoraJane 22-25, F Oct 7, 2013

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    My Eating Disorders

    Hi everyone, I've been struggling with bulimia and binge eating for years now. I go between the two. Sometimes I feel like im recovering and I really am and then something bad happens and i slip right back and the cycle continues.. My family isnt that supportive and ive gotten...
    smiley259 smiley259 22-25 Jun 12, 2013

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    There Is Hope

    Hey all, I just suddenly felt the need to express that there is hope for ED recovery. I have battled it for eight years. I've been in multiple treatment centers, had several relapses, developed chronic health problems, attempted suicide, and been on the verge of death. My...
    intersex713 intersex713 26-30 1 Response Aug 6, 2013

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    I was anorexic for two years

    before my family finally figured it out. I went to a treatment facility for 81 days, where I celebrated my 17th birthday.
    BwayGirl676 BwayGirl676 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    Recovery

    I have shared my story many times here but will not here, as want to say something different. But just needed to be in a group with those that are in recovery, as there will be bad days, recovery when decided is not an automatic 100% immediate transition to health. Recovery has...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 15, 2008

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    Hii I just wanted to give everyone an update on

    me. If you've seen my last posts then you would know I was in a very bad situation with starving myself, a little bit of self harming and in a horrible relationship with someone who made me feel down on myself. I'll first start with saying that when I made this I was 12/13 and...
    naysgirmonkeybutt naysgirmonkeybutt 13-15 2 Responses Jan 29

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    I Just Need To Complain For A Moment.. ED talking in my head

    I am in recovery for my eating disorder for almost a year.. And everytime I think that I am better and that I can just decide that the eating disorder is gone, I realize that it's still there in my head. It's so annoying. The only way to battle it is to eat. Keep...
    lunachi lunachi 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 7, 2010

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    It's My Anniversary

    May 1st has become a special day for me. Today marks my first year of sobriety from bulimia. I have been struggling with this eating disorder for over 11 years, but this 11th year has been different. This year I won the struggle. Temptations still arise, but God has given me...
    Shonnie Shonnie 22-25, F 2 Responses May 1, 2011

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    My Life With Ed

    i have been anorexic for 10 years. half my life. it then turned into bulimia and life got out of control. i have been in treatment on and off for 7 years. it has been a long hard rewarding battle. i have met so many amazing people. im doing a lot better now. my weight is stable...
    animaluver646 animaluver646 18-21, F Jun 3, 2012

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    You know you are getting somewhere in recovery

    when you can laugh about all the silly irrational ED rules you had a year ago. Like seriously I was so silly!
    Iwearhistags Iwearhistags 22-25, F Oct 9

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    If Only Food Could Just Be Food

    I’ve lived my whole life surrounded by disordered eating. It’s one reason I don’t like to be home. I have too many negative memories of food from home, and too many reminders of food problems. And school, too. Half my class at school had an eating disorder. And before...
    swings56 swings56 18-21, F Jan 8, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    The worst aspect of them is that even in recovery, you never entirely let go of the thought-patterns and emotions that link so deeply with the behaviours that drove you there...
    morea morea 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    I don't think I could say that I "had" an eating disorder. I think it's like being an alcoholic. You're just constantly in recovery. I relapsed this week. Mentally and physically...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    When I was younger I never ate. Not because I was scared to gain, but because when I was hungry I never felt like actually eating. The thought of it even made me nauseous at times...
    MiniMe57 MiniMe57 13-15, F Dec 6

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    And it was terrible. It developed over a period of years, years that I remember only perfectionism, anxiety, and self consciousness. I wanted to change myself. At age 10, I went...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 3

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    PART 1 Went through other posts on Binge Eating Disorder, glad I'm not alone. However, its still not a good thing. I've been binging for a while now, and if counting calories work...
    TJLK TJLK 18-21, F Dec 8

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    I've been eating a lot to gain because my clothes are loose but it's not working! I think I just want to gain weight to tell my eating disorder "You don't control me!"but i still...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    I last puked from my bulimia a week ago (I'm trying so hard to curb My eating disorder and not make it worse) And now My food still doesn't want to stay down. I never purged daily...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    I struggle with eating disorders. I chew and spit, I starve myself and sometimes I overeat junk food and then sometimes take diet pills and laxatives. Please someone message me and...
    kristen18p kristen18p 18-21, F Dec 9

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    It's undiagnosed but I'm pretty sure I have a disorder. Sometimes I eat just to make me feel better about myself. For instance, I was having a ruff morning the other day. I woke up...
    Soccerman5 Soccerman5 31-35, M Nov 21

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    I have schizoaffective disorder. I'm sitting at home on a friday night by myself. First of all I didn't have the energy to go out, secondly, I just never seem to have plans...
    krome13 krome13 31-35, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Nov. 20, 2014 5:30pm I don't know what is wrong with me. I felt so happy when I got home. I felt so much love for mj and I was just on cloud nine. But I guess my flight reached...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    Idk, i guess i've always been this way...it simply got worse with time. I'm not anorexic, or bulimic or a binge eater or anything along those lines. I don't have issues with my...
    IAmOptimusPrime IAmOptimusPrime 22-25, F Nov 30

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    Purged last night. Saw so much blood but I'm so used to seeing blood when I purge it doesn't scare me. I know I should be more worried but I just don't care. I'm feeled with apathy...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Nov 27

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    I had been doing so well with my eating, and I just relapsed. I feel like such failure.
    Rmarie17 Rmarie17 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 21

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    Day 4 not eating. where tf is my appetite. I licked a spoon with tomato soup on it earlier today and that's the closest I've gotten to food. My body rejects even the thought of...
    Minnowshi Minnowshi 18-21, F Nov 24

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    I want to stop eating again.
    reverofniht reverofniht 16-17, F Nov 24

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    Hi. A few weeks ago i started this 'diet'..which isn't a diet..it's my way to death...i know that. I have a really good breakfast everyday. My friends, my parents, my teachers...
    BeancaBiaa BeancaBiaa 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 26

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    Never eating a ******* thing again!
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Dec 6

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    I was 220 pounds.... my mom has depression and my dad always works so of course all I ate was fast food it was easy on my mom but twist I took ballets from age 2-13 now I'm 17 my...
    hsch212 hsch212 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    Im falling back into my old ways i cant even eat dinner or anything else with out counting the calories or thinking how fat i am and hating my self for eating that i want to feel...
    desitor desitor 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    There was this one time I was going to make enough tuna to make sandwiches for a few days but i ended up just eating all the tuna probably within 15 seconds.
    mypawshaveprints mypawshaveprints 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Im losing weight... But still feel like **** at the end of the day... Though I'm so hungry, I don't want to eat... I end up forcing myself to... But I really don't want to... I'm...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I weighted myself today...the first role in months. I lost it. Guess who isn't eating tomorrow.?
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Hi. I'm fifteen, 5'2", and I don't know how much I weigh. I know that four months ago I was 150 pounds. I skip breakfast ad lunch and sometimes I only have my snack after school...
    Lbh1999 Lbh1999 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    its co,e to the point, that i have panic attacks before or after eating small meals or sometimes a drink
    itsjustlucy123 itsjustlucy123 13-15, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    I haven't update any experience with this statement in a really long time. 5'3, 84lbs I think that explains it. I finally succeeded^^ my goal has been reached. But I'm scared...
    roseinsurvival roseinsurvival 13-15 2 Responses Nov 26

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    Seeing the posts on this page makes me so sad... :( I used to struggle with anorexia and bulimia daily, and sometimes I still fall into old mindsets. But this is NOT the way to be...
    CountryQueen623 CountryQueen623 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 2

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    They want and make me eat so I have to... Sadly I don't want to so I'm sitting here crying... I'm sorry I'm not perfect for you two..
    vyrlox vyrlox 18-21, F Dec 6

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    I'm really struggling lately. I managed to go nearly a year with very few slip ups. I gained two stone and felt very happy. But over the past month or two I have relapsed. I feel...