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I Have An Eating Disorder and Am In Recovery

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    Recovery

    I have shared my story many times here but will not here, as want to say something different. But just needed to be in a group with those that are in recovery, as there will be bad days, recovery when decided is not an automatic 100% immediate transition to health. Recovery has...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 15, 2008

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    It's My Anniversary

    May 1st has become a special day for me. Today marks my first year of sobriety from bulimia. I have been struggling with this eating disorder for over 11 years, but this 11th year has been different. This year I won the struggle. Temptations still arise, but God has given me...
    Shonnie Shonnie 22-25, F 2 Responses May 1, 2011

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    Hii I just wanted to give everyone an update on

    me. If you've seen my last posts then you would know I was in a very bad situation with starving myself, a little bit of self harming and in a horrible relationship with someone who made me feel down on myself. I'll first start with saying that when I made this I was 12/13 and...
    naysgirmonkeybutt naysgirmonkeybutt 13-15 2 Responses Jan 29, 2014

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    Sickness from my immune system being broken

    down is absolutely the worst. Right now I have an infection in my intestines that I feel like I'm never going to kick. Anyone else been through this and know how to help?
    HeatherKittenn HeatherKittenn 18-21, F Jun 18, 2014

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    My Battle With Bulimia

    In no way shape or form do i condone or wish this disease upon anyone! With that being said... I first became bulimic when a "friend" decided it would be smart to show me how i could eat a whole meal of bad food and not feel bad about it. I wish all the time that she...
    blondy blondy 26-30, F Sep 14, 2008

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    You know you are getting somewhere in recovery

    when you can laugh about all the silly irrational ED rules you had a year ago. Like seriously I was so silly!
    Iwearhistags Iwearhistags 22-25, F Oct 9, 2014

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    No More Ed!

    Im am in treatment in a PHP program I go four days a week.  I guess the only advice I can offer is you just have to be willing to work hard and be honest to your self about your feelings. If anyone has suggestions I will gladly accepect them!
    derpdiderp derpdiderp 26-30 Dec 5, 2008

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    I Just Need To Complain For A Moment.. ED talking in my head

    I am in recovery for my eating disorder for almost a year.. And everytime I think that I am better and that I can just decide that the eating disorder is gone, I realize that it's still there in my head. It's so annoying. The only way to battle it is to eat. Keep...
    lunachi lunachi 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 7, 2010

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    My Eating Disorders

    Hi everyone, I've been struggling with bulimia and binge eating for years now. I go between the two. Sometimes I feel like im recovering and I really am and then something bad happens and i slip right back and the cycle continues.. My family isnt that supportive and ive gotten...
    smiley259 smiley259 22-25 Jun 12, 2013

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    Phew!...almost a Week

    I am halfway through my 6th day of recovery and i feel my body slowly but surely adjusting back to normal (whatever that is). I woke up today with my back and shoulders not as tight as usual, my face, neck and tummy not as swollen, and just a tad bit more energy than usual. Took...
    blondy blondy 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 15, 2009

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    Just Started

    Well I Have Just Started Recovery, Seen the doctor twice and a dietician. If I lose any mroe weight then I will be sent to a clinic, I'm so scared! I don't want it to come to that but I feel that it will!   I am keeping a record of this in my blog, so can kep you updated...
    SkinandBone SkinandBone 18-21, F 4 Responses May 16, 2009

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    Hello, I had an eating disorder from the ages

    of 13-16. I wanted to feel control and feel beautiful. I have been eating normally for two years now. Also, I can eat fatten foods without feeling guilty or fat. Stay strong. It's totally worth it and feel confident in my body. 💕
    Beth8 Beth8 18-21, F Dec 7, 2015

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    There Is Hope

    Hey all, I just suddenly felt the need to express that there is hope for ED recovery. I have battled it for eight years. I've been in multiple treatment centers, had several relapses, developed chronic health problems, attempted suicide, and been on the verge of death. My...
    intersex713 intersex713 26-30 1 Response Aug 6, 2013

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    So its officially been four weeks

    since i have made myself throw up! Feeling pretty proud of myself. i'm still feeling very fat and disgusting but i am eating healthily and am taking it one day at a time! I have so much more energy now and my dietitian says that in three months i will be able to do exercise...
    LeilaOlivia LeilaOlivia 16-17, F Oct 23, 2014

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    If Only Food Could Just Be Food

    I’ve lived my whole life surrounded by disordered eating. It’s one reason I don’t like to be home. I have too many negative memories of food from home, and too many reminders of food problems. And school, too. Half my class at school had an eating disorder. And before...
    swings56 swings56 18-21, F Jan 8, 2011

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    I just wanna tell u guys

    that u r strong and that ur on the right path. U can do this! I admire people recovering from eatingdisorders and depression and so on, it's so incredibly strong of u, and u've gotten this far. Keep fighting Cuz i know u can make it!
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 11, 2015

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    I want to give people hope!

    !! You can recover even from a very serious eating disorder. I basically fully recovered:) I recovered after a five year battle with anorexia nervosa. Including five inpatient stays & tons and tons of intense outpatient. At my worst I weigh 90lbs less than I do today & it made me...
    JuliaHHL JuliaHHL 22-25, F 1 Response May 10, 2015

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    Dear Eating Disorder

    I am writing to you to say goodbye, goodbye to your lies, your cruel words, your false images, everyday you beat me up with your negativity. I am going to take back the control you have over me, I can't remember the last time I was able to do something without you being in the...
    LoraJane LoraJane 22-25, F Oct 7, 2013

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    I've just gained 2kgs,

    is it as bad as I see it right now?
    BubbleHolmes BubbleHolmes 18-21, F Dec 3, 2013

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    Taken Myself Out

    SO Im no longer in recovery, my doctors were messing me around, and now I feel as though Im not important enough for them to bother about. I suppose I can try on my own... and if not find proper help...   Things have gotten worse in the last few weeks though so what do i...
    SkinandBone SkinandBone 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 18, 2009

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    I was anorexic for two years

    before my family finally figured it out. I went to a treatment facility for 81 days, where I celebrated my 17th birthday.
    BwayGirl676 BwayGirl676 22-25, F Dec 15, 2014

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    My Life With Ed

    i have been anorexic for 10 years. half my life. it then turned into bulimia and life got out of control. i have been in treatment on and off for 7 years. it has been a long hard rewarding battle. i have met so many amazing people. im doing a lot better now. my weight is stable...
    animaluver646 animaluver646 18-21, F Jun 3, 2012

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    I did not realize my childhood was ****** up

    until.. I experienced loads of therapy. As an 8 year old child, I thought I liked cleaning, if you can believe it. "What 8 year old likes cleaning?" might come to mind. What I really liked was not the cleaning, but the reward of affection I was given for cleaning without being...
    katysailinghome katysailinghome 22-25, F a week ago

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    Related Experiences

    It was during the summer. I was out of school and house hopping since I had no stable home to go back to. It was a difficult year. I felt like dying every day. I had bouts of...
    starsheepie starsheepie 22-25, F 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    This anxiety is bad on me and bad on my husband . He doesnt treat me like he used to, If i had a better man who knows anxiety and be willing to take me in Id be willing Am...
    52modellady 52modellady 61-65, F 21 hrs ago

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    This is a true story of what happened to Greg Zaffuto. I have just experienced much the same and do not want this to happen to you, so I am sharing the following. I apologize for...
    Grace2U Grace2U 66-70, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    This is horrible, but it's nice to know I'm not the only one with all three of these. I also have an anxiety-based eating disorder, body dysmorphic disorder, mild OCD, and PTSD...
    MidnightLaughter MidnightLaughter 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    Valentine season is so difficult. I haven't binged in months, but I am so emotional and depressed knowing that I will spend Valentine's Day alone (I just went through a break up...
    verymoofishy verymoofishy 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I hate the way I look. I'm to fat I should stop eating why can't I be pretty like other girls
    anestacia anestacia 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Hi there. My name is Bulim-- wait nope. My name is Larkin and I was diagnosed with Bulimia halfway through my sophomore year of high school. I bet you're wondering about the second...
    spark97 spark97 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Stuff it I'm eating a big packet of sugar biscuits
    anestacia anestacia 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    i have several mental illnesses. i have been hospitalized many times and in rehabs. i take medication every day. i hate stigma and discrimination. it is wrong. i have...
    cosmosdrift cosmosdrift 31-35, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    If you have this disorder can you please message me? I have some questions and I am wondering if I , myself might be.! thanks
    LunaDove LunaDove 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    Feeling Fleeting To my embarrassment, it was only recently that I discovered depersonalization-derealization is classified as its own disorder. I've spent many years falling into...
    SourPennies SourPennies 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    ...i have had ednos for many years, but before that was a strict eating dancer. ...i want to be skinnier, but i hate it when i binge. i am eating less today and yesterday, a...
    cosmosdrift cosmosdrift 31-35, F 4 days ago

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    I didn't eat today. I ate a little yesterday. I lost 15 pounds. Idk what I'm doing.
    BrokeAssBxtch BrokeAssBxtch 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I am and 18 year old female. I guess my depersonalization set in after I smoked weed this one time. It was pretty "loud" you could say but anyways I smoked and felt fine and ever...
    kgb5432111 kgb5432111 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I just started going through recovery a few weeks ago. It's so difficult. Some days I'm so proud of myself & loving my weight-restored body. Other days my head's dark & I'm so...
    kchristine7 kchristine7 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Yes, I'm still struggling with this disordered eating things but here is something I don't understand. As I try to pull myself up from this I check what "normal" people eat a day...
    Dreamingoflife01 Dreamingoflife01 18-21 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Yes, I'm still struggling with this disordered eating things but here is something I don't understand. As I try to pull myself up from this I check what "normal" people eat a day...
    Dreamingoflife01 Dreamingoflife01 18-21 1 Response 5 days ago

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    How do u purge quietly? So my mom won't hear me
    sugarlips4 sugarlips4 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 30

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    I've been doing great for the past six months. But today something changed. The dark cloud appeared in my head and behind my eyes and the anger came back. I'm angry at myself and...
    kayla459 kayla459 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 30

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    She threw herself at me. I took things slowly. After a few months, we were official. I was a part of her family's dinners. She was "the happiest they've ever seen her." She treated...