I Have An Eating Disorder and Am In Recovery

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 107 People

    I was anorexic for two years

    before my family finally figured it out. I went to a treatment facility for 81 days, where I celebrated my 17th birthday.
    BwayGirl676 BwayGirl676
    22-25, F
    Dec 15, 2014

    Hii I just wanted to give everyone an update on

    me. If you've seen my last posts then you would know I was in a very bad situation with starving myself, a little bit of self harming and in a horrible relationship with someone who made me feel down on myself. I'll first start with saying that when I made this I was 12/13 and...
    naysgirmonkeybutt naysgirmonkeybutt
    13-15
    1 Response Jan 29, 2014

    If Only Food Could Just Be Food

    I’ve lived my whole life surrounded by disordered eating. It’s one reason I don’t like to be home. I have too many negative memories of food from home, and too many reminders of food problems. And school, too. Half my class at school had an eating disorder. And before...
    swings56 swings56
    18-21, F
    Jan 8, 2011

    Taken Myself Out

    SO Im no longer in recovery, my doctors were messing me around, and now I feel as though Im not important enough for them to bother about. I suppose I can try on my own... and if not find proper help...   Things have gotten worse in the last few weeks though so what do i...
    SkinandBone SkinandBone
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jul 18, 2009

    So its officially been four weeks

    since i have made myself throw up! Feeling pretty proud of myself. i'm still feeling very fat and disgusting but i am eating healthily and am taking it one day at a time! I have so much more energy now and my dietitian says that in three months i will be able to do exercise...
    LeilaOlivia LeilaOlivia
    16-17, F
    Oct 23, 2014

    Hello, I had an eating disorder from the ages

    of 13-16. I wanted to feel control and feel beautiful. I have been eating normally for two years now. Also, I can eat fatten foods without feeling guilty or fat. Stay strong. It's totally worth it and feel confident in my body. 💕
    Beth8 Beth8
    18-21, F
    Dec 7, 2015

    Sickness from my immune system being broken

    down is absolutely the worst. Right now I have an infection in my intestines that I feel like I'm never going to kick. Anyone else been through this and know how to help?
    HeatherKittenn HeatherKittenn
    18-21, F
    Jun 18, 2014

    My Life With Ed

    i have been anorexic for 10 years. half my life. it then turned into bulimia and life got out of control. i have been in treatment on and off for 7 years. it has been a long hard rewarding battle. i have met so many amazing people. im doing a lot better now. my weight is stable...
    animaluver646 animaluver646
    18-21, F
    Jun 3, 2012

    I want to give people hope!

    !! You can recover even from a very serious eating disorder. I basically fully recovered:) I recovered after a five year battle with anorexia nervosa. Including five inpatient stays & tons and tons of intense outpatient. At my worst I weigh 90lbs less than I do today & it made me...
    JuliaHHL JuliaHHL
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 10, 2015

    Just Started

    Well I Have Just Started Recovery, Seen the doctor twice and a dietician. If I lose any mroe weight then I will be sent to a clinic, I'm so scared! I don't want it to come to that but I feel that it will!   I am keeping a record of this in my blog, so can kep you updated...
    SkinandBone SkinandBone
    18-21, F
    4 Responses May 16, 2009

    My Eating Disorders

    Hi everyone, I've been struggling with bulimia and binge eating for years now. I go between the two. Sometimes I feel like im recovering and I really am and then something bad happens and i slip right back and the cycle continues.. My family isnt that supportive and ive gotten...
    smiley259 smiley259
    22-25
    Jun 12, 2013

    I did not realize my childhood was ****** up

    until.. I experienced loads of therapy. As an 8 year old child, I thought I liked cleaning, if you can believe it. "What 8 year old likes cleaning?" might come to mind. What I really liked was not the cleaning, but the reward of affection I was given for cleaning without being...
    katysailinghome katysailinghome
    22-25, F
    Jan 30

    You know you are getting somewhere in recovery

    when you can laugh about all the silly irrational ED rules you had a year ago. Like seriously I was so silly!
    Iwearhistags Iwearhistags
    22-25, F
    Oct 9, 2014

    I've just gained 2kgs,

    is it as bad as I see it right now?
    BubbleHolmes BubbleHolmes
    18-21, F
    Dec 3, 2013

    I just wanna tell u guys

    that u r strong and that ur on the right path. U can do this! I admire people recovering from eatingdisorders and depression and so on, it's so incredibly strong of u, and u've gotten this far. Keep fighting Cuz i know u can make it!
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 11, 2015

    My Battle With Bulimia

    In no way shape or form do i condone or wish this disease upon anyone! With that being said... I first became bulimic when a "friend" decided it would be smart to show me how i could eat a whole meal of bad food and not feel bad about it. I wish all the time that she...
    blondy blondy
    26-30, F
    Sep 14, 2008

    No More Ed!

    Im am in treatment in a PHP program I go four days a week.  I guess the only advice I can offer is you just have to be willing to work hard and be honest to your self about your feelings. If anyone has suggestions I will gladly accepect them!
    derpdiderp derpdiderp
    26-30
    Dec 5, 2008

    Recovery

    I have shared my story many times here but will not here, as want to say something different. But just needed to be in a group with those that are in recovery, as there will be bad days, recovery when decided is not an automatic 100% immediate transition to health. Recovery has...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Sep 15, 2008

    Phew!...almost a Week

    I am halfway through my 6th day of recovery and i feel my body slowly but surely adjusting back to normal (whatever that is). I woke up today with my back and shoulders not as tight as usual, my face, neck and tummy not as swollen, and just a tad bit more energy than usual. Took...
    blondy blondy
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 15, 2009

    I Just Need To Complain For A Moment.. ED talking in my head

    I am in recovery for my eating disorder for almost a year.. And everytime I think that I am better and that I can just decide that the eating disorder is gone, I realize that it's still there in my head. It's so annoying. The only way to battle it is to eat. Keep...
    lunachi lunachi
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 7, 2010

    It's My Anniversary

    May 1st has become a special day for me. Today marks my first year of sobriety from bulimia. I have been struggling with this eating disorder for over 11 years, but this 11th year has been different. This year I won the struggle. Temptations still arise, but God has given me...
    Shonnie Shonnie
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 1, 2011

    Dear Eating Disorder

    I am writing to you to say goodbye, goodbye to your lies, your cruel words, your false images, everyday you beat me up with your negativity. I am going to take back the control you have over me, I can't remember the last time I was able to do something without you being in the...
    LoraJane LoraJane
    22-25, F
    Oct 7, 2013

    Related Experiences

    Hi, I kinda need to say what I keep keeping to myself, and here is the only place I could think of to express all this. So yeah, I know that I don't eat like everybody, I'm...
    BleedingPanda BleedingPanda
    22-25, M
    Apr 20
    As odd as it sounds, hunger pains are one of my triggers. Which is why I'm always eating (that and I'm always hungry). Except the other night, I was so tired I just went to bed...
    2byoung 2byoung
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 19
    Yes I do. And I won't let any of them stop me. *Major-depressive disorder, general anxiety disorder, attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD), and most likely borderline...
    DarkAngel24 DarkAngel24
    18-21, F
    Apr 19
    Hey, So I'm posting this because I'm really struggling and contemplating ending everything because I can't see a way out. Any advice, past experience, hope, people in the same boat...
    ShellFlower119 ShellFlower119
    18-21, F
    Apr 19
    I didn't think that it's a disorder really. I thought I just can't stand the boredom. I may can handle physical pain, at some level of emotional pain but boredom means death for me...
    Nonotu Nonotu
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 19
    Anyone ever had a knee replacement before? If so how long is the recovery? Any specific things that I should know? (Note that I am not getting one as of now, I just want to find...
    DrPepperLuvr82 DrPepperLuvr82
    31-35, M
    1 Response Apr 18
    I've felt with the constant ups and downs for as long as I can remember. I used to think it was just hormones when I was growing up, I wanted it to be hormones. in my 3rd year of...
    wanderlustxxx0 wanderlustxxx0
    18-21, F
    Apr 14
    I battle with depression,OCD,Anxiety and SPD (Schizotypal Personality Disorder). I had some hallucinations too. Having mental disorders is a very sad thing,i wish i was normal :(
    Batwoman1968 Batwoman1968
    18-21, F
    Apr 14
    Hey there! i have this disorder since i was 13. I started to have a strange behaviour and weird thoughts. My obsession with death and sick things got worse,i don't think it's a...
    Batwoman1968 Batwoman1968
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 14
    At Age 12, I started skipping maybe 1-3 lunch breaks a week. It was innocuous. At 14, when I skipped lunch daily, it stooped being innocuous. When I start feeling like I needed to...
    AsYetNameless AsYetNameless
    13-15, T
    Apr 14
    A year ago I attempted suicide for the first time. I don't remember exactly what the reason was at the time but it had to do with my parents and my life being screwed up in the...
    abby3333333 abby3333333
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 13
    i feel stupid and dumb first of all that i havent learned from my past experiences. which to date has lead me to having in total 3 abortions. tuesay 11th april 2016 i underwent a d...
    luvdrunk luvdrunk
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 13
    For those that have been betrayed, I want to leave stories in the archives that they might find helpful should they stumble across this site. One of the first things I would say...
    kpitup kpitup
    56-60, F
    1 Response Apr 13
    For those that have been betrayed, I want to leave stories in the archives that they might find helpful should they stumble across this site. One of the first things I would say...
    kpitup kpitup
    56-60, F
    Apr 13
    After 2 years of being absolutely fine, I have relapsed into my old ways, don't even recognise myself anymore.
    breakersflow breakersflow
    18-21, F
    Apr 13
    So I see people are trying to post more experiences and let more things off their chest and telling their stories before EP closes. So I decided, hey, I might as well join the...
    jaeger053 jaeger053
    16-17
    1 Response Apr 12
    Im currently 24 years old, Ive been suffering with HS since I was 16, didn't get diagnosed till last year in October & went ahead and got surgery under my arms late November due to...
    HelenPaola HelenPaola
    22-25, F
    Apr 12
    Folks, I've been suffering from this disorder since I was a teenager. I'm 46 now. I'm currently in remission. Here's my regimen: no nightshades, animal products, chocolate...
    jenn25601 jenn25601
    46-50, F
    1 Response Apr 11
    I was just diagnosed at age 45. What the heck is going to happen to me?
    Noraathompson Noraathompson
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Apr 11
    I suppose this is where I can speak freely, not revealing my identity. Honestly, writing about my life, a stupid, sob story, I feel skeptical about it. Not knowing if anyone cares...
    Aselfconsciousturtle Aselfconsciousturtle
    13-15, F
    Apr 10
    After years of deleting my profile and moving on from this site convincing myself I didnt need it anymore, here I am in the same group that got me started. I'm glad to see this...
    livefree93 livefree93
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 10
    I have anorexia and I'm trying to recover, but it's so hard. For every small step I take forward, I seem to have a bigger setback after that undoes my progress. I want to get...
    Silent711 Silent711
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 9
    Its funny.........my mom always thought I just had a wild imagination. Turned out it wasn't exactly that. It wasn't til I was 14 I realized what it was. First time Ace came out was...
    Ace43262 Ace43262
    22-25, F
    Apr 9
    9 alters and I wish I didn't have them, but at the same time I love them. Jade- sexual Unknown- sassy, sarcastic, smart *** Goldie- laughs at everything Sadie- bipolar, easily...
    wolftherianGrace wolftherianGrace
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Apr 8
    I'm fat but struggle with anorexia. Labeled as EDNOS.
    ThisPaganChild ThisPaganChild
    18-21, F
    Apr 8
    FOR THE LOVE OF GOD I CANNOT JUST FIX MY EATING DISORDER I FKING CAN'T IF I TOLD SOMEONE TO JUST STOP BEING DEPRESSED OR JUST STOP HAVING ANXIETY ATTACKS I WOULD BE A FKING A...
    Indigo27 Indigo27
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Apr 8
    I'm trying to recover from cutting and making myself throw up… It's so hard to do alone but I have a determination not to reach out to people because I feel guilty for it… I'll...
    musicismyworld16 musicismyworld16
    13-15, F
    Apr 8
    I'm new to this page. My doctor suggested I try and find an online support group. So here I am. Is there anyone here who has been diagnosed with Body Dysmorphic Disorder, An Eating...
    LoopsieLou LoopsieLou
    22-25, F
    Apr 7
    I am finally doing well enough to move out to my own apartment I think and living with my mom has really stunk the last little while but my mom said that if I move out there is no...
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl
    26-30
    Apr 7
    About a year ago I went to my PCP, asking about heavier than normal periods. She blew me off, stating that things change when you're over 40 (I was 43). Over the next few months...
    Readingmaestra Readingmaestra
    41-45, F
    1 Response Apr 7
    Bad experiences coming out as DID: Family (at first!!) *Some* people at school (but I didn't really come out to them I guess, they just noticed or something) Fiancé's family...
    Indigo27 Indigo27
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 7
    I don't know what it is like to feel normal anymore. The pain of being humiliated is to much some days. I try to explain to people that it is a disorder and not bad hygiene. That...
    marylou1967 marylou1967
    46-50, F
    Apr 6
    Well, i find myself coming to the end of my distraction project, and i feel a little sad about that. The only thing left to do now is to add the final page (for now - obviously...
    LoneSouls LoneSouls
    31-35, F
    Apr 6
    3 months in. I've had a lot of good days, I've had more bad. The more time that passes, the good days happen more frequently & the bad days happen less. I find I'm able to deal...
    kchristine7 kchristine7
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 5
    social anxiety, where do i start? lets just say this condition is messing up my life. i havnt ate lunch at school in 3 months cause i cant decide where to sit, or cause im afraid...
    alyssapenn32 alyssapenn32
    13-15, F
    4 Responses Apr 4
    Hey.. I am pretty sure I have MPD.. I have all the symptoms and voices in my head telling me stuff and commenting on things I do. I am here for anyone who wants to talk about it.
    wolftherianGrace wolftherianGrace
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 4
    Does anyone else constantly try to hide their trich? I feel like no one understands and my parents don't believe it's a real disorder. I have basically no eyelashes and I buy eye...
    kellyu22 kellyu22
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Apr 3
    Fighting personality- Sapphire Naughty personality- Jade Protective personality- Jackson Depressed personality- Red Dark personality- Dal Funny personality- Chester Small...
    wolftherianGrace wolftherianGrace
    13-15, F
    Apr 2
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