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I Have An Eating Disorder and Am In Recovery

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 98 People

    My Battle With Bulimia

    In no way shape or form do i condone or wish this disease upon anyone! With that being said... I first became bulimic when a "friend" decided it would be smart to show me how i could eat a whole meal of bad food and not feel bad about it. I wish all the time that she...
    blondy blondy 26-30, F Sep 14, 2008

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    No More Ed!

    Im am in treatment in a PHP program I go four days a week.  I guess the only advice I can offer is you just have to be willing to work hard and be honest to your self about your feelings. If anyone has suggestions I will gladly accepect them!
    derpdiderp derpdiderp 26-30 Dec 5, 2008

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    Recovery

    I have shared my story many times here but will not here, as want to say something different. But just needed to be in a group with those that are in recovery, as there will be bad days, recovery when decided is not an automatic 100% immediate transition to health. Recovery has...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 15, 2008

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    Sickness from my immune system being broken

    down is absolutely the worst. Right now I have an infection in my intestines that I feel like I'm never going to kick. Anyone else been through this and know how to help?
    HeatherKittenn HeatherKittenn 18-21, F Jun 18, 2014

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    My Eating Disorders

    Hi everyone, I've been struggling with bulimia and binge eating for years now. I go between the two. Sometimes I feel like im recovering and I really am and then something bad happens and i slip right back and the cycle continues.. My family isnt that supportive and ive gotten...
    smiley259 smiley259 22-25 Jun 12, 2013

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    Hii I just wanted to give everyone an update on

    me. If you've seen my last posts then you would know I was in a very bad situation with starving myself, a little bit of self harming and in a horrible relationship with someone who made me feel down on myself. I'll first start with saying that when I made this I was 12/13 and...
    naysgirmonkeybutt naysgirmonkeybutt 13-15 2 Responses Jan 29, 2014

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    My Life With Ed

    i have been anorexic for 10 years. half my life. it then turned into bulimia and life got out of control. i have been in treatment on and off for 7 years. it has been a long hard rewarding battle. i have met so many amazing people. im doing a lot better now. my weight is stable...
    animaluver646 animaluver646 18-21, F Jun 3, 2012

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    Just Started

    Well I Have Just Started Recovery, Seen the doctor twice and a dietician. If I lose any mroe weight then I will be sent to a clinic, I'm so scared! I don't want it to come to that but I feel that it will!   I am keeping a record of this in my blog, so can kep you updated...
    SkinandBone SkinandBone 18-21, F 4 Responses May 16, 2009

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    I was anorexic for two years

    before my family finally figured it out. I went to a treatment facility for 81 days, where I celebrated my 17th birthday.
    BwayGirl676 BwayGirl676 22-25, F Dec 15, 2014

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    So its officially been four weeks

    since i have made myself throw up! Feeling pretty proud of myself. i'm still feeling very fat and disgusting but i am eating healthily and am taking it one day at a time! I have so much more energy now and my dietitian says that in three months i will be able to do exercise...
    LeilaOlivia LeilaOlivia 16-17, F Oct 23, 2014

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    Taken Myself Out

    SO Im no longer in recovery, my doctors were messing me around, and now I feel as though Im not important enough for them to bother about. I suppose I can try on my own... and if not find proper help...   Things have gotten worse in the last few weeks though so what do i...
    SkinandBone SkinandBone 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 18, 2009

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    If Only Food Could Just Be Food

    I’ve lived my whole life surrounded by disordered eating. It’s one reason I don’t like to be home. I have too many negative memories of food from home, and too many reminders of food problems. And school, too. Half my class at school had an eating disorder. And before...
    swings56 swings56 18-21, F Jan 8, 2011

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    I just wanna tell u guys

    that u r strong and that ur on the right path. U can do this! I admire people recovering from eatingdisorders and depression and so on, it's so incredibly strong of u, and u've gotten this far. Keep fighting Cuz i know u can make it!
    lynnewolf99 lynnewolf99 16-17, F May 11

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    It's My Anniversary

    May 1st has become a special day for me. Today marks my first year of sobriety from bulimia. I have been struggling with this eating disorder for over 11 years, but this 11th year has been different. This year I won the struggle. Temptations still arise, but God has given me...
    Shonnie Shonnie 22-25, F 2 Responses May 1, 2011

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    Phew!...almost a Week

    I am halfway through my 6th day of recovery and i feel my body slowly but surely adjusting back to normal (whatever that is). I woke up today with my back and shoulders not as tight as usual, my face, neck and tummy not as swollen, and just a tad bit more energy than usual. Took...
    blondy blondy 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 15, 2009

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    I've just gained 2kgs,

    is it as bad as I see it right now?
    BubbleHolmes BubbleHolmes 18-21, F Dec 3, 2013

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    I want to give people hope!

    !! You can recover even from a very serious eating disorder. I basically fully recovered:) I recovered after a five year battle with anorexia nervosa. Including five inpatient stays & tons and tons of intense outpatient. At my worst I weigh 90lbs less than I do today & it made me...
    JuliaHHL JuliaHHL 18-21, F 1 Response May 10

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    You know you are getting somewhere in recovery

    when you can laugh about all the silly irrational ED rules you had a year ago. Like seriously I was so silly!
    Iwearhistags Iwearhistags 22-25, F Oct 9, 2014

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    Dear Eating Disorder

    I am writing to you to say goodbye, goodbye to your lies, your cruel words, your false images, everyday you beat me up with your negativity. I am going to take back the control you have over me, I can't remember the last time I was able to do something without you being in the...
    LoraJane LoraJane 22-25, F Oct 7, 2013

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    I Just Need To Complain For A Moment.. ED talking in my head

    I am in recovery for my eating disorder for almost a year.. And everytime I think that I am better and that I can just decide that the eating disorder is gone, I realize that it's still there in my head. It's so annoying. The only way to battle it is to eat. Keep...
    lunachi lunachi 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 7, 2010

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    There Is Hope

    Hey all, I just suddenly felt the need to express that there is hope for ED recovery. I have battled it for eight years. I've been in multiple treatment centers, had several relapses, developed chronic health problems, attempted suicide, and been on the verge of death. My...
    intersex713 intersex713 26-30 1 Response Aug 6, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    It seems like having body image issues is a rite of passage for girls in this day and age. If you want to fit in, you need to hate how you look - and be expressive about it. Which...
    Storiesnotforthefaintofheart Storiesnotforthefaintofheart 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    So what? I dont have an appetite? Is that really that bad? Im perfectly healthy, Im active, Im not insecure about my body, but yet that makes me anorexic? How is that correct...
    hallow1331 hallow1331 13-15, F 5 Responses 2 days ago

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    admitting I'm struggling to my husband again was hard, but glad he knows. i been scared on telling him but became aware that the ED didn't want him knowing so I can continue in...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I feel like I'm falling into past problems. I've eaten about 210 calories today and already feel like it's too much.
    palewildfox palewildfox 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I used laxatives for the first time today. My sister gave me this tea that's a natural laxative. Considering I've never used them before I figured this would be the least amount of...
    Kimi0 Kimi0 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    how horrible is it that I want to be anorexic again. even though that stage of my life ruined me, this whole binge eating and bulimia is doing me way more harm. I need to just fast...
    yafeelmepenguin yafeelmepenguin 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I need a friend for support when I want to binge and purge. and to help keep me from being consumed in eating disorder land
    yafeelmepenguin yafeelmepenguin 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I haven't been eating much. Started getting really dizzy today. trying to eat and hoping this ED doesn't have me feeling guilty and huge afterwards . i'm just exhausted in fighting...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Hey guys. I had eating disorder. I was hating my body and everything about me. I made a decision that I will change my life. So I started doing exercises . My body is getting...
    staystrongandlive staystrongandlive 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    Listen to me please, you reading this right now I know you're going through a very very hard time but you will get better you will get through this, you're growing as a person I...
    Itsgoingtobeokayipromise Itsgoingtobeokayipromise 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    so my bf's ex gf is so skinny... i'm the ugly fat new gf. i hate it!!! i've had an ED for about 6yrs, on & off on recovery... relapse, you know how it is. right now i'm on my fat...
    screambloodygore screambloodygore 26-30, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    The psychiatrist that I spoke with today also said that doctors who would have to do autopsies on people that they knew back in the day and they would have to depersonalize...
    Jackinabox123 Jackinabox123 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    So I got to talk with a psychiatrist today about depersonalization disorder he said that it is part of a defense mechanism that your body uses when a great amount of stress is put...
    Jackinabox123 Jackinabox123 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I was just diagnosed with this today. So I'm trying to learn as much as I can. Anyone taking Topamax for it? My Dr prescribed it. We'll see how it works. What has ur experience...
    BeautifullySickkk BeautifullySickkk 31-35, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I completely understand I've been wondering what is happening to me for a year and a half because I haven't been able to explain what is wrong with me. Then I was searching up what...
    Jackinabox123 Jackinabox123 18-21, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I am looking for a friend, gender/location/age doesn't matter as long as you won't hurt my feelings. I'm struggling with eating disorder and anxiety. I can be supportive and my...
    veronicarosy veronicarosy 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 28

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    im surrounded by amazing people and I found out that being skinny wouldn't make me happy, they would. that's what helped me.
    circledletters circledletters 16-17, F Jul 26

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    Hi I am 16. I have been ruminating for as long as I can remember, but always thought it was normal for everyone. Well when I realized it was not, I felt ashamed and tried to hide...
    Girlnamedgirl Girlnamedgirl 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 26

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    Again, another moment of struggling... Just been wanting to give up on trying to get better. just hate eating and feeling horrible afterwards. I don't know anymore... I hate...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 25

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    I feel like I want to tell someone about my eating disorder but I think they will judge me and I'm not at my goal weight so I don't know what to do I just hate feel like this....
    Maria134747 Maria134747 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 25

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    Is there such a thing as an off day with dpd? Is there a day where you don't notice it, but then you have an off day where it just hits you? The stress of not trying to have...
    Flylikeabutterfly Flylikeabutterfly 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    Accepting or loving my body is a daily battle. But the worst is being constantly self-conscious wherever I go and whomever I'm with. I'd pass a group and immediately feel like they...
    yxfx yxfx 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 25

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