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I Have An Eating Disorder and Am In Recovery

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    Hii I just wanted to give everyone an update on

    me. If you've seen my last posts then you would know I was in a very bad situation with starving myself, a little bit of self harming and in a horrible relationship with someone who made me feel down on myself. I'll first start with saying that when I made this I was 12/13 and...
    naysgirmonkeybutt naysgirmonkeybutt 13-15 2 Responses Jan 29, 2014

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    Taken Myself Out

    SO Im no longer in recovery, my doctors were messing me around, and now I feel as though Im not important enough for them to bother about. I suppose I can try on my own... and if not find proper help...   Things have gotten worse in the last few weeks though so what do i...
    SkinandBone SkinandBone 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 18, 2009

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    I've just gained 2kgs,

    is it as bad as I see it right now?
    BubbleHolmes BubbleHolmes 18-21, F Dec 3, 2013

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    My Battle With Bulimia

    In no way shape or form do i condone or wish this disease upon anyone! With that being said... I first became bulimic when a "friend" decided it would be smart to show me how i could eat a whole meal of bad food and not feel bad about it. I wish all the time that she...
    blondy blondy 26-30, F Sep 14, 2008

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    You know you are getting somewhere in recovery

    when you can laugh about all the silly irrational ED rules you had a year ago. Like seriously I was so silly!
    Iwearhistags Iwearhistags 22-25, F Oct 9, 2014

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    Sickness from my immune system being broken

    down is absolutely the worst. Right now I have an infection in my intestines that I feel like I'm never going to kick. Anyone else been through this and know how to help?
    HeatherKittenn HeatherKittenn 18-21, F Jun 18, 2014

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    No More Ed!

    Im am in treatment in a PHP program I go four days a week.  I guess the only advice I can offer is you just have to be willing to work hard and be honest to your self about your feelings. If anyone has suggestions I will gladly accepect them!
    derpdiderp derpdiderp 26-30 Dec 5, 2008

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    So its officially been four weeks

    since i have made myself throw up! Feeling pretty proud of myself. i'm still feeling very fat and disgusting but i am eating healthily and am taking it one day at a time! I have so much more energy now and my dietitian says that in three months i will be able to do exercise...
    LeilaOlivia LeilaOlivia 16-17, F Oct 23, 2014

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    Just Started

    Well I Have Just Started Recovery, Seen the doctor twice and a dietician. If I lose any mroe weight then I will be sent to a clinic, I'm so scared! I don't want it to come to that but I feel that it will!   I am keeping a record of this in my blog, so can kep you updated...
    SkinandBone SkinandBone 18-21, F 4 Responses May 16, 2009

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    My Life With Ed

    i have been anorexic for 10 years. half my life. it then turned into bulimia and life got out of control. i have been in treatment on and off for 7 years. it has been a long hard rewarding battle. i have met so many amazing people. im doing a lot better now. my weight is stable...
    animaluver646 animaluver646 18-21, F Jun 3, 2012

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    Dear Eating Disorder

    I am writing to you to say goodbye, goodbye to your lies, your cruel words, your false images, everyday you beat me up with your negativity. I am going to take back the control you have over me, I can't remember the last time I was able to do something without you being in the...
    LoraJane LoraJane 22-25, F Oct 7, 2013

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    My Eating Disorders

    Hi everyone, I've been struggling with bulimia and binge eating for years now. I go between the two. Sometimes I feel like im recovering and I really am and then something bad happens and i slip right back and the cycle continues.. My family isnt that supportive and ive gotten...
    smiley259 smiley259 22-25 Jun 12, 2013

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    I was anorexic for two years

    before my family finally figured it out. I went to a treatment facility for 81 days, where I celebrated my 17th birthday.
    BwayGirl676 BwayGirl676 22-25, F Dec 15, 2014

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    There Is Hope

    Hey all, I just suddenly felt the need to express that there is hope for ED recovery. I have battled it for eight years. I've been in multiple treatment centers, had several relapses, developed chronic health problems, attempted suicide, and been on the verge of death. My...
    intersex713 intersex713 26-30 1 Response Aug 6, 2013

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    Phew!...almost a Week

    I am halfway through my 6th day of recovery and i feel my body slowly but surely adjusting back to normal (whatever that is). I woke up today with my back and shoulders not as tight as usual, my face, neck and tummy not as swollen, and just a tad bit more energy than usual. Took...
    blondy blondy 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 15, 2009

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    I Just Need To Complain For A Moment.. ED talking in my head

    I am in recovery for my eating disorder for almost a year.. And everytime I think that I am better and that I can just decide that the eating disorder is gone, I realize that it's still there in my head. It's so annoying. The only way to battle it is to eat. Keep...
    lunachi lunachi 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 7, 2010

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    If Only Food Could Just Be Food

    I’ve lived my whole life surrounded by disordered eating. It’s one reason I don’t like to be home. I have too many negative memories of food from home, and too many reminders of food problems. And school, too. Half my class at school had an eating disorder. And before...
    swings56 swings56 18-21, F Jan 8, 2011

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    It's My Anniversary

    May 1st has become a special day for me. Today marks my first year of sobriety from bulimia. I have been struggling with this eating disorder for over 11 years, but this 11th year has been different. This year I won the struggle. Temptations still arise, but God has given me...
    Shonnie Shonnie 22-25, F 2 Responses May 1, 2011

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    Recovery

    I have shared my story many times here but will not here, as want to say something different. But just needed to be in a group with those that are in recovery, as there will be bad days, recovery when decided is not an automatic 100% immediate transition to health. Recovery has...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 15, 2008

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    betruetoyourself14 betruetoyourself14 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    I had an eating disorder onec or twice where I stopped eating but a little bit maybe a bit a day or nothing at all even if there was food infront of me. this would start fights...
    hellokitty206 hellokitty206 18-21, F Feb 11

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    i have a binge eating disorder. this is an eating disorder and i feel completely out of control of it. after going through a healthy weight loss i am back to binge eating and i...
    jermdbt80612 jermdbt80612 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    It sucks being a transguy with an eating disorder. I get viewed as a FEMALE with an eating disorder, and I'm too socially awkward to tell them I'm a male.
    drugsandscales drugsandscales 13-15, T Feb 18

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    I seem to restrict what I eat, only eating at the right times socially and often not eating anything all day until 7pm. I can then often overeat and lose control. EDNOS (Eating...
    Matineeidle79 Matineeidle79 31-35, F Feb 2

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    I feel as if I am really chubby. My family and friends say I am the right size. I have been skipping meals, and limiting calories. Then exercising even when I am sick. I end up...
    puppylove16 puppylove16 16-17, F Feb 14

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    I have a eating disorder but I'm getting better, and eating from once or twice a day, to about 3 times a day but I'm still skinny
    dominick6 dominick6 13-15, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I'm 27, almost 28. I lost my grandmother to a heart attack in May 2013, and I lost my brother to suicide in August 2013. Ever since then, my appetite has severely diminished. Not...
    libbyslice libbyslice 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    I have a weird eating disorder. I love to eat chalk especially after having spicy food.
    Samsalsa Samsalsa 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 7

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    My eating disorder feels like it's coming back to me and I don't want to have it anymore.
    RedDog123321 RedDog123321 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 19

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    I have Depersonalization Disorder for almost a year now.It never stops, I dont feel anything, my thoughts are racing In my head and I am lost all the time.It started when I was in...
    Dusan1234 Dusan1234 13-15, M 1 Response Feb 8

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    Hi,my names alex and i have schizoaffective disorder.i was working for 3 weeks as a phone operater and it didnt work out.i ended up getting to stressed out so i quit.keeping a job...
    weirdalex93 weirdalex93 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 20

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    I go through fazes. If I feel guilty or troubled I wait til I have that aching painful feeling in my stomach. it makes me feel comforted somehow... but I get stressed or light...
    Rabbitt94 Rabbitt94 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    I'm finally motivated to recover again. I need to stop because I can't live my life this way, it's unhealthy and unnatural. After 7 months of supposed recovery, I think I may...
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I would like to discuss my symptoms and share with others who have this condition,I have suffered from jaw pain for almost 3 years,the locking or inflammation is terrible and is...
    sar2015 sar2015 31-35, F 11 hrs ago

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    Just love the feeling of having to force food down my throat and then having the pains in my tummy cuz it's being stretched back to normal. Ugh! Not eating is just easier sometimes...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 14

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    I get a free pizza at work... Pizza is amazing.... Until you're done eating... And then all you wanna do is cry. I'm hungry yet all I can think about is how hard im trying to...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 18

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    Tbh I just joined this site ... So my struggle has been going on since I was little you see I was always compared or go called chubby that I began getting used to it growing up I...
    itsmagsdoe itsmagsdoe 16-17, F a week ago

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    I'm classified as overweight... I'm not sure I'll ever be happy with myself until I'm classified as underweight... Or even on the low end of the healthy weight range... I hate...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 18 hrs ago

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    its harder to quit than smoking. I can't see myself as anything but fat and out of shape until I reach some unobtainable goal. I can't stop withholding, binging, and purging. my...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty 26-30, F Feb 8

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    One of the reasons i want to loose a crap load of weight to have a tiny wrist and wear all my favorite band with out them not fitting and feeling tight
    Millerbabe17 Millerbabe17 18-21, F Feb 13

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    I haven't told anyone that I am doing it. I would usually be working this out with my therapist but I don't have one right now. I just want to tell someone so that I don't think I...
    untamablekitty untamablekitty 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 13

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    I have relapsed back into anorexia/bulimia...the two crept back into my life and now worse then ever...I just want to be 103...I don't eat and if I do its healthy and exercise...
    proudmom16316 proudmom16316 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 14

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    After being bulimic for 2 years I went from 177lbs to 119lbs. 3 months and I've had urges but I've managed to keep my food down. But I've gained...so much, I'm up to 134lbs...
    EvaSFenty EvaSFenty 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 21

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    It started at a young age...i would refuse to eat hide away in a dark corner an cry everytime someone brought it up....id scream when they would try an force the food down my...
    SweetGazePup SweetGazePup 18-21, M