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I Have An Eating Disorder and Am In Recovery

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    Phew!...almost a Week

    I am halfway through my 6th day of recovery and i feel my body slowly but surely adjusting back to normal (whatever that is). I woke up today with my back and shoulders not as tight as usual, my face, neck and tummy not as swollen, and just a tad bit more energy than usual. Took...
    blondy blondy 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 15, 2009

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    I Just Need To Complain For A Moment.. ED talking in my head

    I am in recovery for my eating disorder for almost a year.. And everytime I think that I am better and that I can just decide that the eating disorder is gone, I realize that it's still there in my head. It's so annoying. The only way to battle it is to eat. Keep...
    lunachi lunachi 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 7, 2010

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    You know you are getting somewhere in recovery

    when you can laugh about all the silly irrational ED rules you had a year ago. Like seriously I was so silly!
    Iwearhistags Iwearhistags 22-25, F Oct 9, 2014

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    Dear Eating Disorder

    I am writing to you to say goodbye, goodbye to your lies, your cruel words, your false images, everyday you beat me up with your negativity. I am going to take back the control you have over me, I can't remember the last time I was able to do something without you being in the...
    LoraJane LoraJane 22-25, F Oct 7, 2013

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    So its officially been four weeks

    since i have made myself throw up! Feeling pretty proud of myself. i'm still feeling very fat and disgusting but i am eating healthily and am taking it one day at a time! I have so much more energy now and my dietitian says that in three months i will be able to do exercise...
    LeilaOlivia LeilaOlivia 16-17, F Oct 23, 2014

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    Recovery

    I have shared my story many times here but will not here, as want to say something different. But just needed to be in a group with those that are in recovery, as there will be bad days, recovery when decided is not an automatic 100% immediate transition to health. Recovery has...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 15, 2008

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    There Is Hope

    Hey all, I just suddenly felt the need to express that there is hope for ED recovery. I have battled it for eight years. I've been in multiple treatment centers, had several relapses, developed chronic health problems, attempted suicide, and been on the verge of death. My...
    intersex713 intersex713 26-30 1 Response Aug 6, 2013

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    My Battle With Bulimia

    In no way shape or form do i condone or wish this disease upon anyone! With that being said... I first became bulimic when a "friend" decided it would be smart to show me how i could eat a whole meal of bad food and not feel bad about it. I wish all the time that she...
    blondy blondy 26-30, F Sep 14, 2008

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    Just Started

    Well I Have Just Started Recovery, Seen the doctor twice and a dietician. If I lose any mroe weight then I will be sent to a clinic, I'm so scared! I don't want it to come to that but I feel that it will!   I am keeping a record of this in my blog, so can kep you updated...
    SkinandBone SkinandBone 18-21, F 4 Responses May 16, 2009

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    If Only Food Could Just Be Food

    I’ve lived my whole life surrounded by disordered eating. It’s one reason I don’t like to be home. I have too many negative memories of food from home, and too many reminders of food problems. And school, too. Half my class at school had an eating disorder. And before...
    swings56 swings56 18-21, F Jan 8, 2011

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    I was anorexic for two years

    before my family finally figured it out. I went to a treatment facility for 81 days, where I celebrated my 17th birthday.
    BwayGirl676 BwayGirl676 22-25, F Dec 15, 2014

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    No More Ed!

    Im am in treatment in a PHP program I go four days a week.  I guess the only advice I can offer is you just have to be willing to work hard and be honest to your self about your feelings. If anyone has suggestions I will gladly accepect them!
    derpdiderp derpdiderp 26-30 Dec 5, 2008

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    It's My Anniversary

    May 1st has become a special day for me. Today marks my first year of sobriety from bulimia. I have been struggling with this eating disorder for over 11 years, but this 11th year has been different. This year I won the struggle. Temptations still arise, but God has given me...
    Shonnie Shonnie 22-25, F 2 Responses May 1, 2011

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    My Life With Ed

    i have been anorexic for 10 years. half my life. it then turned into bulimia and life got out of control. i have been in treatment on and off for 7 years. it has been a long hard rewarding battle. i have met so many amazing people. im doing a lot better now. my weight is stable...
    animaluver646 animaluver646 18-21, F Jun 3, 2012

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    I've just gained 2kgs,

    is it as bad as I see it right now?
    BubbleHolmes BubbleHolmes 18-21, F Dec 3, 2013

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    Taken Myself Out

    SO Im no longer in recovery, my doctors were messing me around, and now I feel as though Im not important enough for them to bother about. I suppose I can try on my own... and if not find proper help...   Things have gotten worse in the last few weeks though so what do i...
    SkinandBone SkinandBone 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 18, 2009

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    Sickness from my immune system being broken

    down is absolutely the worst. Right now I have an infection in my intestines that I feel like I'm never going to kick. Anyone else been through this and know how to help?
    HeatherKittenn HeatherKittenn 18-21, F Jun 18, 2014

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    My Eating Disorders

    Hi everyone, I've been struggling with bulimia and binge eating for years now. I go between the two. Sometimes I feel like im recovering and I really am and then something bad happens and i slip right back and the cycle continues.. My family isnt that supportive and ive gotten...
    smiley259 smiley259 22-25 Jun 12, 2013

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    Hii I just wanted to give everyone an update on

    me. If you've seen my last posts then you would know I was in a very bad situation with starving myself, a little bit of self harming and in a horrible relationship with someone who made me feel down on myself. I'll first start with saying that when I made this I was 12/13 and...
    naysgirmonkeybutt naysgirmonkeybutt 13-15 2 Responses Jan 29, 2014

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    Related Experiences

    Growing up, weight was always an issue. Not my own weight but my mothers. She's struggled with an eating disorder since her late teens. She "has been in recovery for 20 years". I...
    DizzieDazie DizzieDazie 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    I had an eating disorder for almost 4 years. it started with the fact that I hate eating around people and I don't like chewing noises and then progressed to not just avoiding...
    shannonjade shannonjade 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Like many mental health issues, eating disorders are simply not recognized as severe public health problems and carries a great stigma. But there is POWER in collective...
    MSWatUSC MSWatUSC 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    Is it weird my eating disorder feels comforting like I don't need anyone else as long as I have a eating disorder
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 2 Responses Mar 19

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    It has taken me years to admit that I, in fact, do have an eating disorder. Ever since I was young, I've been obsessed with my weight. I was always heavier than other girls, even...
    angelique422 angelique422 22-25, F Mar 26

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    I used to be bulimic in high school and a while after hs too but I stopped because im just so sick of doing that. I hated it. Id cry and get mad everytime in was in the bathroom...
    DeeDoubleYoux DeeDoubleYoux 22-25, F Apr 3

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    I have a freaking eating disorder since my depression got worse and start feeling lonely I started eating like a freak and I took 17 kg in 6 months I'm desperate
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    Really wanting some new ana friends on snapchat to share pics and help along. I've had an eating disorder since I was younger, I'm now 20. 7 years down the line I'm still here...
    NavyGirlfriend94 NavyGirlfriend94 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    my bulimia isnt what defines me. It took me awhile to recognize that "hey i have a problem" but i kept quite for a long time. Not just my eating disorder but other things as well...
    WhiteRice14 WhiteRice14 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 7

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    been having it for all my life really but it manifested itself truly little over a year ago and my weight has just been one big yoyo one minute im skin and bones and the next im...
    confusednormalness confusednormalness 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 8

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    I was diagnosed last year around September. I basically just went crazy, no one in my house knew what was wrong with me. My mom took me to a hospital, then they sent me to a mental...
    Saphyyyy Saphyyyy 16-17, F 5 hrs ago

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    My school had health screenings today and they weighed me. I've gained SO MUCH since recovery. I hate myself so much. In starting the ABC diet with an EP friend tomorrow and I can...
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    Im writing in to about the fear of eating at someone's house or eating out. I don't know when it started actually I use to be able to do these things often but not anymore. I also...
    cherylm61 cherylm61 51-55, F Mar 29

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    oh decreased appetite... i guess i can welcome you with open arms.. i lost like 1 kg over 24 hours from not eating.. im now at my lowest weight ive been. 60 kg, which is around...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    I started eating a little again now Im not eating at all I don't deserve to I deserve to did from starvation
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 1 Response a week ago

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    IF YOUR NAME IS ALEXA OR MATTHEW DONT READ: YAY!!! I haven't ate today I hope my pro ana buddy is proud of me u know who u are lol I'm proud of myself for not eating at all now I...
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I had anorexia since the middle of seventh grade.it's difficult and Ive actually been anorexic for a total of two and a half years and bulimic off and on. some days for me Its...
    ansleyOneal ansleyOneal 13-15, F Mar 23

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    It's getting out of control, eating becomes something so diffucult that it makes interaction with others very difucult. I throw up, I run.. everyone keeps telling me that I'm...
    Ennah Ennah 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 22

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    Every time I think I'm over it, it comes back. It always comes back, in the back of my mind taunting me and letting me know everything that I can do to lose those few pounds. I...
    troubledbody troubledbody 16-17, F Apr 2

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    I've been kinda depressed lately and just haven't been eating again.
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    I just want to sit and cry. Every time I start to feel better about myself something triggers in my head and I feel ****. I feel disgusting. I feel like everyone's looking at me...
    Tilly95 Tilly95 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    For a long time in my youth I struggled with food. I was painfully conscious of others and craved the approval of my peers. I became obsessive about what stared back at me from the...
    Superficialsaint Superficialsaint 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 5

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    Skip dinner? I think so. I'd rather feel hungry than feel sick after eating and angry with myself that I'm gaining weight.
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I tend to eat very tiny portions and I always chew and spit without swallowing most of my food. Yesterday my parents and I were out and we picked up dinner on the go. They kept...
    imasweetheart imasweetheart 13-15, F 11 hrs ago

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