I Have An Eating Disorder

I was abandoned by my mother before my 5th birthday. She blamed my dad for the abuse that she wrought on my 2 younger brothers and I, so he went to jail. We disappeared for a while, she brought us up to NC and left us there. Apparently...

Seriously, I can live my life without thinking about food: the food i'll avoid so I won't get fat and the food I'll binge on as a reward of the effort put on avoiding a specific range of foods (that usually contains all the food I'll...

i have struggled with my weight my whole life. i am now at a 'healthy weight' . it takes a lot for me just to maintain it, but i want to loose more. i cant help it. i weight myself all the time, and i go for days without really eating...

I walk into the bathroom and turn the lights on

Look in the mirror

Pull up my shirt so I can see my stomach

Then turn to the side

I am disappointed

Barely an hipbone sticking out

My stomach isn't as flat as I wanted

Tears...

Im five feet tall and always weighed between 120 and 130. When I was about 22, my co workers and I had a bet on who could lose the most weight by a certain time period. The second part of the bet was we all had to take laxatives and the...

My best friend's dad, along with my both my parents, some friends, and my teacher, all said to me at different points that they noticed I've really lost weight... Like, drastically, they all estimated I've lost around 10 pounds, I mean...

Okay, well, I have strugled with bulimia for almost two years now.  I've struggled with anorexia for eight months.  I have lost so many things to this eating disorder.  I regret doing it everyday.  Yet it's so hard...

In my family being full up is a sign of a good meal.  like after every sunday roast my dad always leans back in his chair pats his stomach proudly and says something about being full and how good a meal it was. Im not sure if I...

About two years ago it started... I was a nice, slim twelve year old. I'm not quite sure what happened, but I do know I started gaining weight, and quickly.
Now I'm five foot two, and about 185 pounds. I eat stupid amounts in one...

In P.E, we get our weight checked. Now, we do this every semester. We check to see how much we've lost weight, or how much we've gained and the school uses it to see if we're 'healthy.' Well, I purposefully skipped the first time...

I had always been a thin girl with enough self confidence, excellent student without effort and nothing dramatic happened to my life. However the last few years I felt too much pressure. Like everybody was expecting from me more than I...

Why do people get eating disorders?
IN my opinion, it has nothing to do with losing weight, but is to do with control, because food is one of the only things you can control in your life. You can choose to eat, or choose not to, but in...

Ive been struggling with eating disordered behaviors for 11 years that have run the gamut from restricting, binging and purging, laxative abuse, ipecac syrup on one occasion, and over exercizing. I pretty much have it beat except for...

I've long battled an eating disorder, which started as disordered eating when I was about 16, then morphed into full-blown bulimia once I attempted to diet to lose weight.

It's been over 30 years later, and the disease has never left...

I am constantly trying to find new ways of losing weight, sadly to say, whether it's healthy or not. Recently I've been doing a lot of exercise. As soon as I get home from school, I binge, purge, and workout. It's very unhealthy, and I...

EDIT: Rewrote this from scratch since I calmed down so it's actually readable.
Okay, so basically I've always had anorexic tendencies. One day I'm upset with my body image, or upset at something else, then I look in the mirror, and...

I'm 15 years old, almost 16. All my life I've moved backwards and fowards between my back-country farm in New Zealand and my glitzy city life in Paris. As a result i never really fit in that much anywhere. But things all got worse one...

Remind yourself "I'm going to be ok" and "I'm not crazy"... this is a normal part of the recovery process

Plant your feet firmly on the ground

Count up 1 to 10 then back 10 to 1

Say out loud things you see and smell

Touch the...

When I was 16 I went on a diet to lose a couple of pounds.  I wasn't overweight, mind you, just wanted to do something right for my mom.  She has always had a hard time showing me love, and nothing I ever did seemed good...

I suffered from anorexia nervosa as a teenager. You may have heard that before. You may be like me. I fell into that cadre of teens in the 1980’s, who followed the Jane Fonda doctrine of compulsive fitness. Ever the overachiever, I...