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I Have An Eating Disorder

This isn't a "pro" Eating Disorder (ED) Group. If you are "pro-ANA" or "pro-MIA" this Group isn't for you. This group is here for healing and helping. 4,133 People

    I have a compulsive disorder

    that revolves around my intake on food. I am constantly thinking about how much I intake because the fear of gaining weight weighs so heavily on me. When I have that full feeling after I do eat, I get an overwhelming feeling of guilt and disappointment in myself for not making...
    Charper44 Charper44 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 17

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 18

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    I canceled my doctors appointment

    because I didn't want to be weighed. I just got back from vacation and I was forced to eat (meals were prepaid months ago). The fear of getting on the scale is too real!
    Charper44 Charper44 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    There is a girl who sits next to me in my

    ceramics class and I always thought she must be a lot younger than me. She is really really short and tiny. Today, I talked to her for the first time and she is actually my age. She was born with multiple organs outside of her body and only one ear.. She told me all about her...
    SadKittenOnLine SadKittenOnLine 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 23, 2014

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    I've had an ED for 9 years

    but I'm currently at my highest weight ever and im so beyond disgusted with myself. It started with a medication that made me gain 30lbs in just 2 months (what moron puts an anorexic on a med thats top side effect is rapid weight gain)! I rarely leave the house now because I don...
    lostinpurgatoryy lostinpurgatoryy 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 21

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    Trigger Warning... .

    .. .... ... I started restricting again and everything I been eating, I been wanting to purge - but fighting it. I can't stand feeling so huge!!! 21 years off and on.... is there any hope on recovery?? or is this eating disorder going to end up kill me??
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 2 days ago

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    I feel so guilty after eating everything I put

    in my mouth, even water. I feel so lonely every time all day. I wish there's someone who knew how I felt and just don't nag at me every time I don't eat.. Anyone up for a chat? In the age of 13-18?
    LookAtThatLlama LookAtThatLlama 13-15, F 7 Responses Apr 28

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    I wasn't at my goal when I got home today.

    I was so mad I just cut myself. I ate a whole jar of peanut butter. I didn't know what to do so I ran outside with a gallon bag and purged everything while hiding in the garage. Why am I like this. I'm so ******* stupid.
    torijoy torijoy 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 15

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    I hate that my body's not

    as resilient as it was when I was a teen. I've only just started purging again yet I'm already getting some of the side effects.
    lostinpurgatoryy lostinpurgatoryy 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I was a gymnast when I was younger

    and gymnastics was my life. When I was about 11, I was getting really conscious about my weight and the way I looked. I started skipping meals and if I went to a party or to a restaurant, I would make myself throw up. When I was 12 all the way thru 13, I would only eat 2 meals...
    caribbeanbabe808 caribbeanbabe808 16-17, F Jul 8, 2014

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    Everything I eat and drink tastes aweful except

    water, and artificial foods... even then they taste like nothing. someone please tell me what cake and cheesecake,burgers, pizza, and sandwiches taste like...
    Waqasauce01 Waqasauce01 18-21, M Jun 16

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    I only have an eating disorder to tackle now,

    losing weight even when I'm eating normally. Back then when I was losing weight rapidly my mother wasn't worried much the first time it's because depression and I couldn't eat much but I was overweight and she's happy I got skinnier. The second time around she was worried...
    Nual Nual 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 20

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    Idontknowsometimes Idontknowsometimes 18-21, F Jun 14

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    I feel bad for lying to my mom.

    She thinks I'm fine. I have been hiding this for 3 years. I'm sorry.
    dafttendirektt dafttendirektt 18-21, F Jun 11

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    Please read with care,

    and take steps to keep yourself feeling safe and secure, if reading about body image and associated topics are triggering for you. I’m your stereotypical short and fat person. I’m 5’2”, currently a size 22, and currently weighing somewhere around the 17st mark. At my...
    ChocolateCurvesModel ChocolateCurvesModel 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    I struggle with the lingering habits of

    starvation I developed during a 5 year bout with adult-onset anorexia. I have realized lately that, even though I'm doing much better, I am still restricting too much. The weirdest thing is, my illness presented without any body-image issues. It's actually the opposite for me...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 2 Responses May 5, 2014

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2014

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    Someone please help me.

    Please. I need to lose this weight. Please help me. Please. I'm desperate.
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 56 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    Will It Ever End?

    When I was 16 I went on a diet to lose a couple of pounds.  I wasn't overweight, mind you, just wanted to do something right for my mom.  She has always had a hard time showing me love, and nothing I ever did seemed good enough for her.  I lost about 10 pounds and...
    Jynx Jynx 31-35, F 24 Responses Jul 1, 2007

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    It annoys me so much,

    it really is ruining my life. I don't understand these girls that say there 'pro mia' god. I wish I wasn't like this and it makes me feel so sad for young girls who will read that. I weigh 90 pounds and I'm 5ft7, my blood results are bad, my heart is slow and I have problems...
    GeorgiaAlicee GeorgiaAlicee 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 30

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    Fading Away Day By Day.

    I have always have problems with eating disorders in my life... Last year I began to get much better, I began to eat healthy, became more energetic and fortunate! everything was great, I ate what I wanted and did not care about any calories, it was all so great, I felt so...
    Fezzii Fezzii 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    I'm currently underweight

    and have a low BF% but I still hate my body. I'm 30 yrs old and afraid I'll never find peace.
    Daninhell Daninhell 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    I need an ana/mia buddy please!

    ! Im 5'9 1474 pounds 😞
    blondebitch929 blondebitch929 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Has anyone ever done the abc diet

    and lost a lot of weight? I need to lose around 2-3 stone in a month! Please if you could let me know that would be great! Thanks
    missann97 missann97 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    It's not a "cool" new thing it's a genuine

    problem. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy and if sickens me that people treat disorders as a trend or as though I made a choice and in some cases people even wish they had them. I would do anything to get back the years I've wasted. You can lose all the weight in the world...
    Nethaly Nethaly 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    I have an eating disorder.

    I am perfectly fine with it too. I think you should do whatever you need to do in order to become thin. I am pro Ana and I respect those who are not, but let me have my own opinion, while I respect yours. If you need anyone to talk to, I'd love a pro Ana Mia buddy
    Kristenbeane Kristenbeane 18-21 2 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    Hello! My name is T. For about 4 months

    now I've suffered from an eating disorder. But I wouldn't call it "suffered" actually, because I'm enjoying it. I like feeling in control of my body. I eat as little as possible and exercise excessively. But don't worry, I'm still healthy. I guess I just love the feeling of...
    SkinnyIsPerfect SkinnyIsPerfect 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    I was diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa

    and I have been doing weekly check ups with a doctor and a psychologist. They check my weight but don't know that I drink a lot before they weigh me, so I appear to weigh more to them. Recently I was also put on a meal plan but I keep on cheating. Ana is a demon, I constantly...
    ginawexler ginawexler 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 13

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    I need to explain this to those

    who are not listening or severely don't get it: I am anorexic. This means that I take part in starving and restricting myself so that I can become thinner and more beautiful as a person so that people will be more inclined to see me as beautiful as a person on the inside. This...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 6 Responses Jun 23, 2014

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    lockedsweetheart lockedsweetheart 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    One of my teachers pulled me aside the other day

    and asked if I've been eating. I'm in recovery. I don't know how to react to that.
    galaxyle galaxyle 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 3

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    The Brighter Side

    Well, my actual story needs to be said at some point and somewhere...so why not here? :) Food and I have been at war for about two years and I had lost a lot of weight at times. I have lost over 5 pounds in just two days before. The pounds never came back and for some reason I...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I'm having a panic attack!

    !! I gained a lot of weight! I'm 12 stone and need to get down too 9 in a matter of weeks,will someone please help me!!is this possible?? And if so HOW!!!!!!! Please. Help. Me.
    missann97 missann97 18-21, F Jun 19

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    BooBear99 BooBear99 16-17, F 24 Responses Mar 21, 2014

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    When your appetite pretty much doesn't exist.

    . Finally at 60.2kg or like 132 pounds. Lost like a kilo this week :)
    Catho Catho 18-21, F Jun 20

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    vicxoria vicxoria 13-15, F 2 Responses Jun 14

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    I feel as though I can't break free from this

    endless cycle. Just been struggling with food again... I hate this...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    For about a year now,

    I have suffered from an eating disorder. During that time I have gone from a beautiful, healthy girl to a grossly, thin stick. At first it was great being slim, but I became obsessed with my appearance and further loosing weight. But now I am on the road to recovery, no longer...
    Emilymay100 Emilymay100 13-15, F 2 Responses May 30

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    i slipped. 21 years of struggling off

    and on from anorexia and bulimia, I'm still not recovered. ugggg.... :(
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 4 days ago

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    OMG can I please eat a ******* apple with out

    hating myself?? What the **** ED can you please leave me alone?!?!? FUCKK.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 14, 2014

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    I've decided today, that im going to fight this

    eating disorder... I'm not gonna let it win... I've talked with my sister and she's gonna help plan healthy meals for me. Taking into account healthy calorie and fat intake. I'm not gonna let this illness consume me. I want to get out! I want to rise from the ashes and become...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses May 4

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    It's getting worse. The bulimia.

    And I'm not losing weight. So I'm gonna start working out again. A lot. And eating less. I just want to be thin. Is that too much to ask ?
    LoserMaterial LoserMaterial 16-17, F a week ago

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    I'll get skinnier no matter what it takes.

    I'll get skinnier even if I die cause death is better than being fat.
    iSceneGirl iSceneGirl 13-15, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Ya know. I'm sick of people judging anorexics

    and bulimics. Plus all the others. Those are just the most common. They tell you you're not fat. And grow meat on them bones. But you can't. You feel so fat. You see a massive number on the scale. You compare. They call you stubborn. Maybe it's not that easy. To just eat when...
    Kailenalovesyou Kailenalovesyou 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 29, 2014

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    I am going on a three day fast

    because I had a three day binge. Yay me. Hopefully I get back down because I am doing my best to not freak out.
    artsydarling artsydarling 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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