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I Have An Eating Disorder

This isn't a "pro" Eating Disorder (ED) Group. If you are "pro-ANA" or "pro-MIA" this Group isn't for you. This group is here for healing and helping. 4,197 People

    OMG can I please eat a ******* apple with out

    hating myself?? What the **** ED can you please leave me alone?!?!? FUCKK.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 14, 2014

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    I need to explain this to those

    who are not listening or severely don't get it: I am anorexic. This means that I take part in starving and restricting myself so that I can become thinner and more beautiful as a person so that people will be more inclined to see me as beautiful as a person on the inside. This...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 6 Responses Jun 23, 2014

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    If one more person tells me that

    if you have an eating disorder you are an attention seeker I am going to go mad! I didn't ask to not want to eat, I didn't ask to go round the shop looking at all the calories in food checking that I don't eat above 300 because I feel fat or that sometimes I'll sit there and...
    gingexx gingexx 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 12, 2014

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    Hello! My name is T. For about 4 months

    now I've suffered from an eating disorder. But I wouldn't call it "suffered" actually, because I'm enjoying it. I like feeling in control of my body. I eat as little as possible and exercise excessively. But don't worry, I'm still healthy. I guess I just love the feeling of...
    SkinnyIsPerfect SkinnyIsPerfect 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    I have an eating disorder.

    I am perfectly fine with it too. I think you should do whatever you need to do in order to become thin. I am pro Ana and I respect those who are not, but let me have my own opinion, while I respect yours. If you need anyone to talk to, I'd love a pro Ana Mia buddy
    Kristenbeane Kristenbeane 18-21 2 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    I'm struggling with my body Image a lot lately.

    I cringe just looking at food. Even my favorite foods. And when I do eat, I eat as fast as I can to get it over with because I feel embarrassed. Afterward, I just feel completely awful about myself. I go to the gym everyday. I used to be an athlete. Now it seems that I don't...
    Runnergirl0722 Runnergirl0722 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    Ya know. I'm sick of people judging anorexics

    and bulimics. Plus all the others. Those are just the most common. They tell you you're not fat. And grow meat on them bones. But you can't. You feel so fat. You see a massive number on the scale. You compare. They call you stubborn. Maybe it's not that easy. To just eat when...
    Kailenalovesyou Kailenalovesyou 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 29, 2014

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    I've decided today, that im going to fight this

    eating disorder... I'm not gonna let it win... I've talked with my sister and she's gonna help plan healthy meals for me. Taking into account healthy calorie and fat intake. I'm not gonna let this illness consume me. I want to get out! I want to rise from the ashes and become...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses May 4

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    I am looking for a friend,

    gender/location/age doesn't matter as long as you won't hurt my feelings. I'm struggling with eating disorder and anxiety. I can be supportive and my illness does not define me. I don't have anyone around me currently and this loneliness slowly kills me. xx
    veronicarosy veronicarosy 16-17, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I hate myself so much.

    .. I over eat so much when I need to be skinny.. I need help and advise with sticking to strict diet plan because I can't go on this size.
    stevieluvsyu stevieluvsyu 16-17, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    knowing what I need to do to get myself better

    and not doing so because ED tells me not to. ED seems so strong and powerful over me. I'm drained in fighting. I been losing my strength to beat ED. I hope I can find the strength within me to turn this around. ED seems so loud... I'm lost within myself on how to overcome this...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    I haven't been eating much.

    Started getting really dizzy today. trying to eat and hoping this ED doesn't have me feeling guilty and huge afterwards . i'm just exhausted in fighting and dealing with ED. I hate how my brain is killing me through this. Just wish I knew how to break this awful cycle.
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Will It Ever End?

    When I was 16 I went on a diet to lose a couple of pounds.  I wasn't overweight, mind you, just wanted to do something right for my mom.  She has always had a hard time showing me love, and nothing I ever did seemed good enough for her.  I lost about 10 pounds and...
    Jynx Jynx 31-35, F 24 Responses Jul 1, 2007

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    I hate this struggle.

    Trying to eat and feeling guilty about it all. I'm so exhausted in this....
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 24

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    Struggling so much with losing weight.

    I restrict a such as I can but for some reason I always lose my willpower. Wth is wrong with me.
    justbreathe95 justbreathe95 18-21, F Jul 17

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2014

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    I ate 5 slices of pizza.

    purged. 3 garlic knots. purged. a whole container of cinnamon rolls. purged. I can't stop the constant over load of food and then the purging all the time. I need to go back to my ana ways because Mia is taking a way bigger toll on my mental state
    yafeelmepenguin yafeelmepenguin 18-21, F 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    Umm... Where Do I Begin Or Where Did I Begin?

    Okay, well, I have strugled with bulimia for almost two years now.  I've struggled with anorexia for eight months.  I have lost so many things to this eating disorder.  I regret doing it everyday.  Yet it's so hard to stop.  I started at 130 pounds. ...
    Arisha09 Arisha09 16-17, F 19 Responses Apr 8, 2007

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    Fading Away Day By Day.

    I have always have problems with eating disorders in my life... Last year I began to get much better, I began to eat healthy, became more energetic and fortunate! everything was great, I ate what I wanted and did not care about any calories, it was all so great, I felt so...
    Fezzii Fezzii 18-21, F 8 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    I don't know if I should tell my boyfriend

    that I've started purging again. He had me promise that I wouldn't do this too myself again when I first told him about it. I feel like he'll be so disappointed in me. :/
    itssmee itssmee 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    It annoys me so much,

    it really is ruining my life. I don't understand these girls that say there 'pro mia' god. I wish I wasn't like this and it makes me feel so sad for young girls who will read that. I weigh 90 pounds and I'm 5ft7, my blood results are bad, my heart is slow and I have problems...
    GeorgiaAlicee GeorgiaAlicee 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 30

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    Hey guys. I had eating disorder.

    I was hating my body and everything about me. I made a decision that I will change my life. So I started doing exercises . My body is getting better, Im feeling stronger and Im eating normal. I dont skip breakfast or lunch. When I hate myself I used to cut myself, but now when...
    staystrongandlive staystrongandlive 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    I have an ED but I'm obese - I'm afraid no one

    will believe me if they found out
    omgawesomeusername omgawesomeusername 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    I struggle with the lingering habits of

    starvation I developed during a 5 year bout with adult-onset anorexia. I have realized lately that, even though I'm doing much better, I am still restricting too much. The weirdest thing is, my illness presented without any body-image issues. It's actually the opposite for me...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 2 Responses May 5, 2014

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    The Brighter Side

    Well, my actual story needs to be said at some point and somewhere...so why not here? :) Food and I have been at war for about two years and I had lost a lot of weight at times. I have lost over 5 pounds in just two days before. The pounds never came back and for some reason I...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    For about a year now,

    I have suffered from an eating disorder. During that time I have gone from a beautiful, healthy girl to a grossly, thin stick. At first it was great being slim, but I became obsessed with my appearance and further loosing weight. But now I am on the road to recovery, no longer...
    Emilymay100 Emilymay100 13-15, F 2 Responses May 30

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    BooBear99 BooBear99 16-17, F 25 Responses Mar 21, 2014

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    I feel so guilty after eating everything I put

    in my mouth, even water. I feel so lonely every time all day. I wish there's someone who knew how I felt and just don't nag at me every time I don't eat.. Anyone up for a chat? In the age of 13-18?
    LookAtThatLlama LookAtThatLlama 13-15, F 7 Responses Apr 28

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    my husband has been worried.

    i admitted I been struggling. even after being with my husband all day, I been feeling ill, and he has been trying to help. the ED thoughts and how I feel and see things isn't helping. urggggg... I hate this... just wish this wasn't so hard....
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    lockedsweetheart lockedsweetheart 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    You'd Think....

    after so many good days, weeks, months, really, i am having one hell of a bad food day.  i know that i have to eat to stay well, but at this moment, i cannot force myself to.  the specter of the "perfect 24" hours without food is hanging, only 7 hours away...
    SunnyKris SunnyKris 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 24, 2007

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    So what? I dont have an appetite?

    Is that really that bad? Im perfectly healthy, Im active, Im not insecure about my body, but yet that makes me anorexic? How is that correct? Anorexia is a disorder in which one is insecure about their body so they starve themself. Im not hungry so I dont eat. If I do eat, I...
    hallow1331 hallow1331 13-15, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    so my bf's ex gf is so skinny.

    .. i'm the ugly fat new gf. i hate it!!! i've had an ED for about 6yrs, on & off on recovery... relapse, you know how it is. right now i'm on my fat stage & i can't take it. i can't stop purging. i just wanna stop eating so i don't have to purge.
    screambloodygore screambloodygore 26-30, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I decided that all my ex boyfriends left me

    for someone skinner then me so I'm tired of crying over them I need to lose weight I'm on day 10 of the skinny girl diet I need my focus on losing this weight I want to be perfect
    Maria134747 Maria134747 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    Lying In Weight

    I suffered from anorexia nervosa as a teenager. You may have heard that before. You may be like me. I fell into that cadre of teens in the 1980’s, who followed the Jane Fonda doctrine of compulsive fitness. Ever the overachiever, I starved and exercised as well as I, a premed...
    tgura tgura 46-50, F 13 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    I like the feeling of an empty stomach,

    even though it can be uncomfortable at times.
    rumblingheart rumblingheart 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 4

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    I'm dealing with EDNOS

    and it's so hard for me to continuously lose weight because of parents and I'm so bad at keeping myself controlled and I just want to be thin again I'm tired and just I want things to be ok again
    Demifaun Demifaun 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    I used laxatives for the first time today.

    My sister gave me this tea that's a natural laxative. Considering I've never used them before I figured this would be the least amount of strain on my body. I drank it yesterday so that it will work for today? Idk says it would take a day or so to work. I don't know really how...
    Kimi0 Kimi0 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    sad this will never get better.

    sinking further into behaviors. I don't want to go back to the hospital again. trying my best to get better control of this. not working. :( i see my therapist today. not looking forward to it. I hate being this way.... is there any hope this will stop? :(
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 12 hrs ago

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    Again, another moment of struggling.

    .. Just been wanting to give up on trying to get better. just hate eating and feeling horrible afterwards. I don't know anymore... I hate feeling this way...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 25

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    My mom and brother were talking about eating

    disorders and my mom looked at me and said Emily's the one I worry about she's the one who's always looking at thins proration and knows so much about bulimia
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 23

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    trying to work on beating this ED.

    just can't eat without feeling guilty and feeling huge. why can't I get past this and be happy with who I am? Just been wanting to fall more into ED behaviors. I hate being this way.... :(
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I haven't ate in forever

    which I know will make my boy best friend Amir mad at me but I'm sorry I love you Amir but I don't wanna eat
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F Jul 18

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    admitting I'm struggling to my husband again

    was hard, but glad he knows. i been scared on telling him but became aware that the ED didn't want him knowing so I can continue in this self destructive path. I'm still scared to gain weight and still wanting every ounce on me off. i still don't know how much I weigh because in...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Someone please help me.

    Please. I need to lose this weight. Please help me. Please. I'm desperate.
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 56 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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