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I Have An Eating Disorder

This isn't a "pro" Eating Disorder (ED) Group. If you are "pro-ANA" or "pro-MIA" this Group isn't for you. This group is here for healing and helping. 4,144 People

    Hello! My name is T. For about 4 months

    now I've suffered from an eating disorder. But I wouldn't call it "suffered" actually, because I'm enjoying it. I like feeling in control of my body. I eat as little as possible and exercise excessively. But don't worry, I'm still healthy. I guess I just love the feeling of...
    SkinnyIsPerfect SkinnyIsPerfect 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    Lying In Weight

    I suffered from anorexia nervosa as a teenager. You may have heard that before. You may be like me. I fell into that cadre of teens in the 1980ā€™s, who followed the Jane Fonda doctrine of compulsive fitness. Ever the overachiever, I starved and exercised as well as I, a premed...
    tgura tgura 46-50, F 13 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    I feel so guilty after eating everything I put

    in my mouth, even water. I feel so lonely every time all day. I wish there's someone who knew how I felt and just don't nag at me every time I don't eat.. Anyone up for a chat? In the age of 13-18?
    LookAtThatLlama LookAtThatLlama 13-15, F 7 Responses Apr 28

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    For about a year now,

    I have suffered from an eating disorder. During that time I have gone from a beautiful, healthy girl to a grossly, thin stick. At first it was great being slim, but I became obsessed with my appearance and further loosing weight. But now I am on the road to recovery, no longer...
    Emilymay100 Emilymay100 13-15, F 2 Responses May 30

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2014

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Jun 18

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    i slipped. 21 years of struggling off

    and on from anorexia and bulimia, I'm still not recovered. ugggg.... :(
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F Jun 25

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    It's not a "cool" new thing it's a genuine

    problem. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy and if sickens me that people treat disorders as a trend or as though I made a choice and in some cases people even wish they had them. I would do anything to get back the years I've wasted. You can lose all the weight in the world...
    Nethaly Nethaly 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    It annoys me so much,

    it really is ruining my life. I don't understand these girls that say there 'pro mia' god. I wish I wasn't like this and it makes me feel so sad for young girls who will read that. I weigh 90 pounds and I'm 5ft7, my blood results are bad, my heart is slow and I have problems...
    GeorgiaAlicee GeorgiaAlicee 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 30

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    I've had an ED for 9 years

    but I'm currently at my highest weight ever and im so beyond disgusted with myself. It started with a medication that made me gain 30lbs in just 2 months (what moron puts an anorexic on a med thats top side effect is rapid weight gain)! I rarely leave the house now because I don...
    lostinpurgatoryy lostinpurgatoryy 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 21

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    I like the feeling of an empty stomach,

    even though it can be uncomfortable at times.
    rumblingheart rumblingheart 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 4

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    BooBear99 BooBear99 16-17, F 24 Responses Mar 21, 2014

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    I only have an eating disorder to tackle now,

    losing weight even when I'm eating normally. Back then when I was losing weight rapidly my mother wasn't worried much the first time it's because depression and I couldn't eat much but I was overweight and she's happy I got skinnier. The second time around she was worried...
    Nual Nual 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 20

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    Has anyone ever done the abc diet

    and lost a lot of weight? I need to lose around 2-3 stone in a month! Please if you could let me know that would be great! Thanks
    missann97 missann97 18-21, F a week ago

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    I'm currently underweight

    and have a low BF% but I still hate my body. I'm 30 yrs old and afraid I'll never find peace.
    Daninhell Daninhell 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    i got weighed today. not happy with it.

    trying to fight this ED.
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 22

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    I need an ana/mia buddy please!

    ! Im 5'9 1474 pounds šŸ˜ž
    blondebitch929 blondebitch929 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    Someone please help me.

    Please. I need to lose this weight. Please help me. Please. I'm desperate.
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 56 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    I wasn't at my goal when I got home today.

    I was so mad I just cut myself. I ate a whole jar of peanut butter. I didn't know what to do so I ran outside with a gallon bag and purged everything while hiding in the garage. Why am I like this. I'm so ******* stupid.
    torijoy torijoy 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 15

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    I'm not underweight or anything,

    but today I had surgery to have my gallbladder taken out. The doctor told my family that they had an easy time removing it because they didn't have any fat in the way. She told them they I need to gain weight. Ha! I still have ten pounds to lose lady! thanks but no thanks
    itssmee itssmee 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Anorexia And Bulimia.

    Ive been struggling with eating disordered behaviors for 11 years that have run the gamut from restricting, binging and purging, laxative abuse, ipecac syrup on one occasion, and over exercizing. I pretty much have it beat except for the occasional relapse when i feel the need to...
    Lilcuppa Lilcuppa 66-70 6 Responses Sep 19, 2012

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    I am bulimic. selfishly,

    stupidly, gluttonously bulimic. I binge on just about anything, even if I don't like it much. If it has a flavour and I can get my hands on it, I'm gonna binge on it. Food has become my only interest. eating is my only hobby. I can't get out of bed unless I know I can binge...
    perrytctctc perrytctctc 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I am going on a three day fast

    because I had a three day binge. Yay me. Hopefully I get back down because I am doing my best to not freak out.
    artsydarling artsydarling 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    I hate that my body's not

    as resilient as it was when I was a teen. I've only just started purging again yet I'm already getting some of the side effects.
    lostinpurgatoryy lostinpurgatoryy 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    I have an eating disorder.

    I am perfectly fine with it too. I think you should do whatever you need to do in order to become thin. I am pro Ana and I respect those who are not, but let me have my own opinion, while I respect yours. If you need anyone to talk to, I'd love a pro Ana Mia buddy
    Kristenbeane Kristenbeane 18-21 2 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    It's getting worse. The bulimia.

    And I'm not losing weight. So I'm gonna start working out again. A lot. And eating less. I just want to be thin. Is that too much to ask ?
    LoserMaterial LoserMaterial 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    You'd Think....

    after so many good days, weeks, months, really, i am having one hell of a bad food day.  i know that i have to eat to stay well, but at this moment, i cannot force myself to.  the specter of the "perfect 24" hours without food is hanging, only 7 hours away...
    SunnyKris SunnyKris 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 24, 2007

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    I struggle with the lingering habits of

    starvation I developed during a 5 year bout with adult-onset anorexia. I have realized lately that, even though I'm doing much better, I am still restricting too much. The weirdest thing is, my illness presented without any body-image issues. It's actually the opposite for me...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 2 Responses May 5, 2014

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    I feel as though I can't break free from this

    endless cycle. Just been struggling with food again... I hate this...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F Jun 26

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    I'm on a fast downward spiral

    and I don't even care
    lostinpurgatoryy lostinpurgatoryy 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I need to explain this to those

    who are not listening or severely don't get it: I am anorexic. This means that I take part in starving and restricting myself so that I can become thinner and more beautiful as a person so that people will be more inclined to see me as beautiful as a person on the inside. This...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 6 Responses Jun 23, 2014

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    One of my teachers pulled me aside the other day

    and asked if I've been eating. I'm in recovery. I don't know how to react to that.
    galaxyle galaxyle 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 3

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    I have an ED but I'm obese - I'm afraid no one

    will believe me if they found out
    omgawesomeusername omgawesomeusername 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    Everything I eat and drink tastes aweful except

    water, and artificial foods... even then they taste like nothing. someone please tell me what cake and cheesecake,burgers, pizza, and sandwiches taste like...
    Waqasauce01 Waqasauce01 18-21, M Jun 16

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    Please read with care,

    and take steps to keep yourself feeling safe and secure, if reading about body image and associated topics are triggering for you. Iā€™m your stereotypical short and fat person. Iā€™m 5ā€™2ā€, currently a size 22, and currently weighing somewhere around the 17st mark. At my...
    ChocolateCurvesModel ChocolateCurvesModel 31-35, F Jun 26

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    I canceled my doctors appointment

    because I didn't want to be weighed. I just got back from vacation and I was forced to eat (meals were prepaid months ago). The fear of getting on the scale is too real!
    Charper44 Charper44 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 22

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    Trigger Warning... .

    .. .... ... I started restricting again and everything I been eating, I been wanting to purge - but fighting it. I can't stand feeling so huge!!! 21 years off and on.... is there any hope on recovery?? or is this eating disorder going to end up kill me??
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F a week ago

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    I have a compulsive disorder

    that revolves around my intake on food. I am constantly thinking about how much I intake because the fear of gaining weight weighs so heavily on me. When I have that full feeling after I do eat, I get an overwhelming feeling of guilt and disappointment in myself for not making...
    Charper44 Charper44 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 17

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    Ya know. I'm sick of people judging anorexics

    and bulimics. Plus all the others. Those are just the most common. They tell you you're not fat. And grow meat on them bones. But you can't. You feel so fat. You see a massive number on the scale. You compare. They call you stubborn. Maybe it's not that easy. To just eat when...
    Kailenalovesyou Kailenalovesyou 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 29, 2014

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    There is a girl who sits next to me in my

    ceramics class and I always thought she must be a lot younger than me. She is really really short and tiny. Today, I talked to her for the first time and she is actually my age. She was born with multiple organs outside of her body and only one ear.. She told me all about her...
    SadKittenOnLine SadKittenOnLine 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 23, 2014

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    ...and I Am Still Overweight

    I am obsessed with putting food into my mouth. I haven't even finished chewing my first bite before I am thinking about the next. I am also thinking about how much I will need to throw up after I am done eating. I stay up later than I want to so that no one will hear me puking. I...
    sammy sammy 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 12, 2007

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    Do you ever really recover from an eating

    disorder? Six years on and off bulimic turned binge eating disorder.. Binge eating was a result of recovering from bulimia. I haven't purged in 3 months now but the thoughts surrounding food are still there. How much to eat, what to eat, what not to eat, who's watching me, how...
    Messytree Messytree 22-25, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    If one more person tells me that

    if you have an eating disorder you are an attention seeker I am going to go mad! I didn't ask to not want to eat, I didn't ask to go round the shop looking at all the calories in food checking that I don't eat above 300 because I feel fat or that sometimes I'll sit there and...
    gingexx gingexx 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 12, 2014

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    I was a gymnast when I was younger

    and gymnastics was my life. When I was about 11, I was getting really conscious about my weight and the way I looked. I started skipping meals and if I went to a party or to a restaurant, I would make myself throw up. When I was 12 all the way thru 13, I would only eat 2 meals...
    caribbeanbabe808 caribbeanbabe808 16-17, F Jul 8, 2014

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    Will It Ever End?

    When I was 16 I went on a diet to lose a couple of pounds.  I wasn't overweight, mind you, just wanted to do something right for my mom.  She has always had a hard time showing me love, and nothing I ever did seemed good enough for her.  I lost about 10 pounds and...
    Jynx Jynx 31-35, F 24 Responses Jul 1, 2007

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