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I Have An Eating Disorder

This isn't a "pro" Eating Disorder (ED) Group. If you are "pro-ANA" or "pro-MIA" this Group isn't for you. This group is here for healing and helping. 3,651 People

    morganmiles morganmiles 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    This is such bullshit.

    I know food is important for me , but it feels like the enemy. I know food nourishes people but i feel so disgusting after eating it. I know food is a normal part of everyday life but i feel like such a failure when i do eat. I know food gives you energy but when i dont eat i...
    LeilaOlivia LeilaOlivia 13-15, F Oct 7

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    I have a new job since I got fired from my old

    one at an art supply store. It's in the kitchen as dishwasher and prep in a restaurant. I'm constantly around food. It's uncomfortable really...but it makes money so that's what counts...
    Spilled Spilled 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    ...and I Am Still Overweight

    I am obsessed with putting food into my mouth. I haven't even finished chewing my first bite before I am thinking about the next. I am also thinking about how much I will need to throw up after I am done eating. I stay up later than I want to so that no one will hear me puking. I...
    sammy sammy 21-25, F 2 Responses Jun 12, 2007

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    I am not diagnosed but I am bulimic

    and I starve.. Try to anyway it's hard because I'm type 1 diabetic
    AnasFailure AnasFailure 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    frustrated. been eating one salad a day

    before fasted for two days which ended today, while taking new meds and no weight loss. i can't take this shyt.
    arewehuman arewehuman 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Umm... Where Do I Begin Or Where Did I Begin?

    Okay, well, I have strugled with bulimia for almost two years now.  I've struggled with anorexia for eight months.  I have lost so many things to this eating disorder.  I regret doing it everyday.  Yet it's so hard to stop.  I started at 130 pounds. ...
    Arisha09 Arisha09 16-18, F 19 Responses Apr 8, 2007

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    I Cant Eat Till Im Full and Keep My Food Down.

    In my family being full up is a sign of a good meal.  like after every sunday roast my dad always leans back in his chair pats his stomach proudly and says something about being full and how good a meal it was. Im not sure if I have ever liked being full like the rest...
    pine90apple pine90apple 18-21, F 4 Responses May 13, 2009

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    wow I'm so surprised at how many people on here

    have an ED as well. that's so sad😔 I purge, restrict and over exercise. I'm not underweight, though. what's up with EDNOS not being a thing anymore? now it's like OFSED? like wtf. anyone else have mpa? if you ever need support just message me💕😊
    westsidechillin westsidechillin 16-17, F 5 Responses May 13

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    I have been battling Bulimia

    for nearly 4 years. It has been a struggle dealing with it but I take it day by day. I exercise regularly and manage to stay slender but my obsession is with food. It has been my comfort my whole life and it's become my addiction.
    BelieveInU BelieveInU 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    I can't take it anymore I have to lose more

    weight my goal is 75. I can't take this fat anymore why am I so freaking fat. Why can't I lose the weight. I wanna die skinny and beautiful. But it's so soon. I only have a week left.
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Been struggling today

    and ate a slice of white bread
    Fluffyness Fluffyness 18-21, F 2 Responses 24 mins ago

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    I'm sick of everyone telling me I'm 'too skinny'

    and bringing it up in nearly every conversation. I'm trying so hard to fight this and I have those I love trying to force me to eat and making jokes out of my illness which isn't helping! I just want to escape all of this, I wish people would understand that I don't enjoy being...
    gingexx gingexx 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 7

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    Finally I'm starting to see my ribs like I used

    to.. Finally my hip bones are kinda starting to show. Kinda.... I know it's wrong but I'm so close. I just binged on pizza with a really good friend I haven't seen in a long time! :/ and the need to purge is coming back... :/ I'm not going to do it... I'm gonna fight it! And I'm...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I threw up multiple times a day every day from

    the time I was 15 until I was 20. I was 5'10 and weighed 103 lbs at one point and I remember being so pleased that I could fit into quadruple 0 skinny jeans at hot topic. People would say I was too skinny but I took it as a compliment, I could barely move most of the time and...
    Tak88 Tak88 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 28

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    Just found out by accident

    that I am WEIGHT RESTORED!!! I'm so excited you guys! They've been doing blind weights on me which has been kinda stressful because I actually want to gain weight and be healthy but everyone is treating me like my ednos has to do with my body image, when that hasn't been the...
    misanthropemeow misanthropemeow 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    Help !

    i have struggled with my weight my whole life. i am now at a 'healthy weight' . it takes a lot for me just to maintain it, but i want to loose more. i cant help it. i weight myself all the time, and i go for days without really eating anything, then days when i binge eat. i...
    daxil daxil 31-35, F 7 Responses Jun 28, 2010

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    I hate this disorder with all of the scrapes of

    passion I have left in me. I've lost 90 pounds but I still perceive myself the same way I did when I was obese. I have a split down my epiglottis from purging and cannot have children due to malnutrition. My hair has thinned and I can no longer be a proper soprano in my choir...
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 12

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    I need to explain this to those

    who are not listening or severely don't get it: I am anorexic. This means that I take part in starving and restricting myself so that I can become thinner and more beautiful as a person so that people will be more inclined to see me as beautiful as a person on the inside. This...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 6 Responses Jun 23

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    I struggle with the lingering habits of

    starvation I developed during a 5 year bout with adult-onset anorexia. I have realized lately that, even though I'm doing much better, I am still restricting too much. The weirdest thing is, my illness presented without any body-image issues. It's actually the opposite for me...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 2 Responses May 5

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    At first it started out by eating too much

    and then throwing up because it was uncomfortable. I thought it was my body's way of saying I was too fat and needed to be bulimic. Life was hard. I was a poor college kid living in a different state with a mentally abusive boyfriend who bought beer instead of food. I didn't eat...
    heatherrrbee heatherrrbee 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 20

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    Tigerlily53 Tigerlily53 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 7

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    OMG can I please eat a ******* apple with out

    hating myself?? What the **** ED can you please leave me alone?!?!? FUCKK.
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    I'm tempted to purge in the bathroom.

    .. I can't do this.... I feel disgusting...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I Had An Eating Disorder

    Im Stefanie, im 15, barely 5'2" and im finally able to say im a recovered anorexic. i was anorexic for 2 years of my life because i felt worthless. Every guy i had ever liked told me i was hideous and ugly and gross and i believed them. then, being the dumb, 13 year old girl i...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F Sep 8, 2013

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    cuttinggirl96 cuttinggirl96 18-21, F 1 Response May 15

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    I am 17 years old - 18 in November -

    and I have struggled with my weight and wanting to lose weight since I was 15 years old. I've been told many times that I do the things I do for attention, which discourages me from talking to anyone about what I've been through, therefore not many people know. I was diagnosed...
    kaylxlynn kaylxlynn 16-17, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I just stopped feeding myself.

    It was a train without breaks. A train that can only go faster until it runs out of tracks or it hits a wall.
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 3 Responses Jul 27

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    There is a girl who sits next to me in my

    ceramics class and I always thought she must be a lot younger than me. She is really really short and tiny. Today, I talked to her for the first time and she is actually my age. She was born with multiple organs outside of her body and only one ear.. She told me all about her...
    SadKittenOnLine SadKittenOnLine 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    For me, it has been going on

    for several years. I'm just growing more angry, stressed, and depressed as this goes on. I do it as some form of punishment, I love the pain... I love being smaller, I love being sick. I just want somebody to look at me and think "How unhealthy she is! She really needs to...
    Aliviah Aliviah 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 7

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    Well my dad used to tell me off

    for eating. I always had a revved up metabolism which continued well into my teens. I could rival any teenage boy. But I was active- I never missed an opportunity to try out a sport. I trained for karate 3-4 times a week, walked everywhere and was hoping to join the military...
    NekroNomikon NekroNomikon 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    Yes I have one. And I'm not ashamed.

    I can't be fat anymore so I will starve and purge what I do eat. I can't be fat.
    magicalabundance magicalabundance 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I want a girl to talk to

    that understands.
    KyleeNichole94 KyleeNichole94 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    'Ana' buddies? Not going to give tips

    or aid in weight loss, glorify whatever ED you have or anything of the like. I just want someone to speak with who i can empathize with and vice versa, please.
    CanisCanem CanisCanem 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Eating Disorders/ My Life And Eating Disorders

    Why do people get eating disorders? IN my opinion, it has nothing to do with losing weight, but is to do with control, because food is one of the only things you can control in your life. You can choose to eat, or choose not to, but in reality it's a slow long drawn out suicide...
    roadofdarkness roadofdarkness 36-40 1 Response May 27, 2012

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    Anorexia And Bulimia.

    Ive been struggling with eating disordered behaviors for 11 years that have run the gamut from restricting, binging and purging, laxative abuse, ipecac syrup on one occasion, and over exercizing. I pretty much have it beat except for the occasional relapse when i feel the need to...
    Lilcuppa Lilcuppa 70+ 6 Responses Sep 19, 2012

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    Or so they say 😶 i eat,

    not a lot & i do admit i meet most of the criteria for my diagnosis of anorexia nervousa. Still i cannot convince myself it's true 😕 i am too obsessed with it...& it ruins so much of my life and time. I suck.
    TheHiddenMoon TheHiddenMoon 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    The Brighter Side

    Well, my actual story needs to be said at some point and somewhere...so why not here? :) Food and I have been at war for about two years and I had lost a lot of weight at times. I have lost over 5 pounds in just two days before. The pounds never came back and for some reason I...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    You'd Think....

    after so many good days, weeks, months, really, i am having one hell of a bad food day.  i know that i have to eat to stay well, but at this moment, i cannot force myself to.  the specter of the "perfect 24" hours without food is hanging, only 7 hours away...
    SunnyKris SunnyKris 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 24, 2007

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    I've been perfectly fine

    for the last 1.5 years, but I think I'm going back to my old ways. It started with me being sick, I've last my appetite for the whole month afterwards, I ended up barely eating anything, but now I'm 100% again, I still don't want to eat anything. I like ignoring the hunger. ( ._...
    ChanelLove12 ChanelLove12 70+, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    Relapsing bad these past few days.

    My insurance isn't covering my day treatment anymore because I need more help than they're providing. Not sure what my next step is going to be But I haven't eaten anything today and all I had yesterday was a small soup. I feel so awful because I recently restored my weight...
    misanthropemeow misanthropemeow 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    I start my first day in an eating disorder

    treatment tmw. I really want to be okay with myself
    tokitten tokitten 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 8

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    Lying In Weight

    I suffered from anorexia nervosa as a teenager. You may have heard that before. You may be like me. I fell into that cadre of teens in the 1980’s, who followed the Jane Fonda doctrine of compulsive fitness. Ever the overachiever, I starved and exercised as well as I, a premed...
    tgura tgura 46, F 13 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    I was a gymnast when I was younger

    and gymnastics was my life. When I was about 11, I was getting really conscious about my weight and the way I looked. I started skipping meals and if I went to a party or to a restaurant, I would make myself throw up. When I was 12 all the way thru 13, I would only eat 2 meals...
    caribbeanbabe808 caribbeanbabe808 13-15, F Jul 8

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    If one more person tells me that

    if you have an eating disorder you are an attention seeker I am going to go mad! I didn't ask to not want to eat, I didn't ask to go round the shop looking at all the calories in food checking that I don't eat above 300 because I feel fat or that sometimes I'll sit there and...
    gingexx gingexx 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 12

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    SimpleShares SimpleShares 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 10

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    I keep making myself sick again

    and I can't seem to stop myself anymore however I don't want medical help I just want to help myself stop. It's so hard, I keep crying about my weight and it spoils my day because I'm constantly thinking about my stomach. I look in my mirror with disgust and the wish that u...
    ZoeLouise3399 ZoeLouise3399 13-15, F 6 Responses Jun 12

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    I became controlled by my partner,

    an had no control over my life. So I decided to control my weight an lost so much I ended up in hospital, a few years ago an had a mini hart attack at 23, that was when I got help not because I was wanting to get well but I saw the ones close to me hurting, I have been getting...
    10hayleigh85 10hayleigh85 26-30, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    lockedsweetheart lockedsweetheart 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 4

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    Ya know. I'm sick of people judging anorexics

    and bulimics. Plus all the others. Those are just the most common. They tell you you're not fat. And grow meat on them bones. But you can't. You feel so fat. You see a massive number on the scale. You compare. They call you stubborn. Maybe it's not that easy. To just eat when...
    Kailenalovesyou Kailenalovesyou 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 29

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    Fading Away Day By Day.

    I have always have problems with eating disorders in my life... Last year I began to get much better, I began to eat healthy, became more energetic and fortunate! everything was great, I ate what I wanted and did not care about any calories, it was all so great, I felt so...
    Fezzii Fezzii 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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