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I Have An Eating Disorder

This isn't a "pro" Eating Disorder (ED) Group. If you are "pro-ANA" or "pro-MIA" this Group isn't for you. This group is here for healing and helping. 4,234 People

    Hello! My name is T. For about 4 months

    now I've suffered from an eating disorder. But I wouldn't call it "suffered" actually, because I'm enjoying it. I like feeling in control of my body. I eat as little as possible and exercise excessively. But don't worry, I'm still healthy. I guess I just love the feeling of...
    SkinnyIsPerfect SkinnyIsPerfect 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    Will It Ever End?

    When I was 16 I went on a diet to lose a couple of pounds.  I wasn't overweight, mind you, just wanted to do something right for my mom.  She has always had a hard time showing me love, and nothing I ever did seemed good enough for her.  I lost about 10 pounds and...
    Jynx Jynx 31-35, F 24 Responses Jul 1, 2007

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    I have an ED but I'm obese - I'm afraid no one

    will believe me if they found out
    omgawesomeusername omgawesomeusername 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    just got weighed at the dr's office.

    not sure what the dr will say about it. I'm waiting for her now. :/ ED has me wanting to lose more weight. :( I probably should get weighed backwards. I'm just not happy.
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    I either eat too much

    or I don't eat at all. I hate myself for both
    bonyknees bonyknees 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 9

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    Ya know. I'm sick of people judging anorexics

    and bulimics. Plus all the others. Those are just the most common. They tell you you're not fat. And grow meat on them bones. But you can't. You feel so fat. You see a massive number on the scale. You compare. They call you stubborn. Maybe it's not that easy. To just eat when...
    Kailenalovesyou Kailenalovesyou 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 29, 2014

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    I am looking for a friend,

    gender/location/age doesn't matter as long as you won't hurt my feelings. I'm struggling with eating disorder and anxiety. I can be supportive and my illness does not define me. I don't have anyone around me currently and this loneliness slowly kills me. xx
    veronicarosy veronicarosy 16-17, F 5 Responses Jul 28

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    omg i'm going to kill someone

    because someone decided to make a anorexia Halloween costume and called it "ana rexia" like its basically making fun of ppl with anorexia
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm starting the skinny pink diet tomorrow

    and I want someone to do it with
    Maria134747 Maria134747 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 11

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    When I tell people I am addicted to food,

    they often respond like this: "me too! I love food, love eating it, food is great" I can't exactly judge, but I doubt those people actually know what it's like to really be addicted to food, not having the ability to stop eating once you start, to eat until you're abou to throw...
    DanaJuliana DanaJuliana 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    Lying In Weight

    I suffered from anorexia nervosa as a teenager. You may have heard that before. You may be like me. I fell into that cadre of teens in the 1980’s, who followed the Jane Fonda doctrine of compulsive fitness. Ever the overachiever, I starved and exercised as well as I, a premed...
    tgura tgura 46-50, F 13 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    just finished throwing up.

    .. I feel so fat... I don't even deserve to eat... I have eaten so much today... I had 2 hot pockets and a lil bit of fruit with some peanut butter... I'm disgusting...
    IDontEvenKnowAnymore1 IDontEvenKnowAnymore1 16-17, M 2 Responses Aug 13

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    I feel so guilty after eating everything I put

    in my mouth, even water. I feel so lonely every time all day. I wish there's someone who knew how I felt and just don't nag at me every time I don't eat.. Anyone up for a chat? In the age of 13-18?
    LookAtThatLlama LookAtThatLlama 13-15, F 7 Responses Apr 28

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    I can feel my eating disorder coming on again.

    .. I was on prozac until recently- which got rid of my anxiety. since getting off of it, I have been abusing stimulants, laxatives, and I feel anxious about every bite. I want the heroine girl look... But, with out the heroine. I haven't felt this way since my early 20s...
    PoshPoet PoshPoet 22-25, F Aug 8

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    For as long as I can remember,

    I have been using food as a means to cope with difficulties. That's why I was overweight even as a kid. Whenever I felt bad or my parents were angry with me or I was lonely, I would eat. Of course I was bullied because of my weight. When I was about 13 years old, I started to...
    TheVisionBleak TheVisionBleak 26-30, F Aug 18

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    BooBear99 BooBear99 16-17, F 25 Responses Mar 21, 2014

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    ...and I Am Still Overweight

    I am obsessed with putting food into my mouth. I haven't even finished chewing my first bite before I am thinking about the next. I am also thinking about how much I will need to throw up after I am done eating. I stay up later than I want to so that no one will hear me puking. I...
    sammy sammy 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 12, 2007

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    I can't stop eating lately.

    it's not even that I eat a lot, it's that it's bad food. and I feel guilty after eating everytime... It doesn't satisfy, it's a compulsion. I feel trapped.
    PoshPoet PoshPoet 22-25, F Aug 16

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    I have EDNOS. I'm 18

    and I've been suffering for about 5 years now. Five years of starving , binging , purging , abusing laxatives and alongside my disordered eating behaviors I have been self harming for as long as I've had an eating disorder. I have gotten a lot better at hiding it over the years...
    coffeentea coffeentea 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    The Brighter Side

    Well, my actual story needs to be said at some point and somewhere...so why not here? :) Food and I have been at war for about two years and I had lost a lot of weight at times. I have lost over 5 pounds in just two days before. The pounds never came back and for some reason I...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I don't really have an eating disorder.

    here lately I've lost a bunch of weight fast. Everyone is telling me i'm too skinny but its because they aren't use to it. I want to continue to lose. I not at my goal yet. i still have a fast stomach and thighs. I just don't want to stop. i guess there was really no point in...
    artsydarling artsydarling 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    I'm falling back to my old ways again I'm just

    done with people telling me **** and calling me names and saying ghat I'm thick or chubby I'm prove them wrong I'm tired of crying of what they say I feel so empty like I hate my self everything about me
    Dezitorsmilez Dezitorsmilez 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 16

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    I wish people understood what I go through

    everyday instead of criticize me.
    Lexy96 Lexy96 18-21, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    OMG can I please eat a ******* apple with out

    hating myself?? What the **** ED can you please leave me alone?!?!? FUCKK.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 14, 2014

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    I'm starting the 2 weeks challenge tomorrow.

    Idk how I'm going to go through it because I always end up binging the first day at night. Any suggestions for night binges? Don't says 'lots of water' I've heard that many times.
    katherinejenner katherinejenner 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    my parents won't let me use the treadmill

    anymore because i over do it haha and i don't eat so they don't want me losing anymore weight which sucks but as long as i don't eat i'm fine and ill find my happiness in losing weight
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I like the feeling of an empty stomach,

    even though it can be uncomfortable at times.
    rumblingheart rumblingheart 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 4

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    Someone please help me.

    Please. I need to lose this weight. Please help me. Please. I'm desperate.
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 56 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    Fading Away Day By Day.

    I have always have problems with eating disorders in my life... Last year I began to get much better, I began to eat healthy, became more energetic and fortunate! everything was great, I ate what I wanted and did not care about any calories, it was all so great, I felt so...
    Fezzii Fezzii 18-21, F 8 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    I Had An Eating Disorder

    Im Stefanie, im 15, barely 5'2" and im finally able to say im a recovered anorexic. i was anorexic for 2 years of my life because i felt worthless. Every guy i had ever liked told me i was hideous and ugly and gross and i believed them. then, being the dumb, 13 year old girl i...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F Sep 8, 2013

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    I binge uncontrollably.

    I just have to eat. I am also so fat because of it. I hate myself. in the last 6 hours I've eaten a while bag of chips, one and a hal bar of chocolate, a pizza and a greek yoghurt. Not keeping any food at hope is not a solution as if I crave badly enough I will go to the store...
    DanaJuliana DanaJuliana 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 13

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    I struggle with the lingering habits of

    starvation I developed during a 5 year bout with adult-onset anorexia. I have realized lately that, even though I'm doing much better, I am still restricting too much. The weirdest thing is, my illness presented without any body-image issues. It's actually the opposite for me...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 2 Responses May 5, 2014

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    I have an eating disorder.

    I am perfectly fine with it too. I think you should do whatever you need to do in order to become thin. I am pro Ana and I respect those who are not, but let me have my own opinion, while I respect yours. If you need anyone to talk to, I'd love a pro Ana Mia buddy
    Kristenbeane Kristenbeane 18-21 2 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2014

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    I feel so weak in side I don't want to eat

    but then I do eat and I hate my self so much for it I look in the mirror and I think I'm discusting and the same day my mom mom called me fat in Spanish and told me I'm not going to give u cookies any more like wtf u know ur words fwaking hurt and when I'm pushing my food away...
    Dezitorsmilez Dezitorsmilez 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    ...since age 8. i started binge eating,

    then became very restrictive and selective, and then developed ednos. i am 34 and am currently struggling with overeating and binging. i weigh about 145 pounds at the moment. talk to me if you need consolation.
    cosmosdrift cosmosdrift 31-35, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    And am now officially diagnosed.

    .. I'm just back from my talk with the psychologist. I feel emotionally heavy, but at the same time as if a burden has been lifted. I eat to fill a hole in me, I eat because I can't let emotion out. I eat because I am so extremely lonely. I eat because in my 22 years I have had...
    DanaJuliana DanaJuliana 22-25, F Aug 17

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    If one more person tells me that

    if you have an eating disorder you are an attention seeker I am going to go mad! I didn't ask to not want to eat, I didn't ask to go round the shop looking at all the calories in food checking that I don't eat above 300 because I feel fat or that sometimes I'll sit there and...
    gingexx gingexx 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 12, 2014

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    I have an eating disorder.

    I have an unhealthy relationship with food, and it's a daily struggle. Something that you need to sustain life taunts me everyday.
    Charper44 Charper44 18-21, F Aug 15

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    One of my teachers pulled me aside the other day

    and asked if I've been eating. I'm in recovery. I don't know how to react to that.
    galaxyle galaxyle 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 3

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    I feel horrible. I haven't been feeling well.

    my 8 year old daughter has been wanting to help me feel better- she even wants to be a doctor - she drew in her notebook I got her for school (she decided to use it for something else). She wrote, "Listen to your body. Take care of your body." "Eat more." she brought it over to...
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    possible trigger warning.

    ... I been eating enough these past few days. trying to fight this ED. i look bloated and feel horrible and huge. my thoughts has me think all this is wrong. why can't recovery be easy? just hate this battle... :(
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    never happy, never happy with how I look.

    So tired of struggling with ED... I been trying to just take care of this body the past couple of days. Just some improvement hoping might help me to see things differently then self hatred. Hoping for self love. Hoping to see things differently. Hoping things will change.
    brknsilence79 brknsilence79 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    It annoys me so much,

    it really is ruining my life. I don't understand these girls that say there 'pro mia' god. I wish I wasn't like this and it makes me feel so sad for young girls who will read that. I weigh 90 pounds and I'm 5ft7, my blood results are bad, my heart is slow and I have problems...
    GeorgiaAlicee GeorgiaAlicee 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 30

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    IDontEvenKnowAnymore1 IDontEvenKnowAnymore1 16-17, M 5 Responses Aug 12