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I Have An Eating Disorder

This isn't a "pro" Eating Disorder (ED) Group. If you are "pro-ANA" or "pro-MIA" this Group isn't for you. This group is here for healing and helping. 3,720 People

    ...and I Am Still Overweight

    I am obsessed with putting food into my mouth. I haven't even finished chewing my first bite before I am thinking about the next. I am also thinking about how much I will need to throw up after I am done eating. I stay up later than I want to so that no one will hear me puking. I...
    sammy sammy 21-25, F 2 Responses Jun 12, 2007

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    So hungry... The feeling of control.

    .. Don't eat... I can't eat...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    So lately I've been struggling with food.

    ..I'm always thinking about it and I don't want to eat but I have no self control... I want to lose weight and I want to be skinny...I need someone to keep me on track...
    Brynn8 Brynn8 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 12

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    I have EDNOS (eating disorder not otherwise

    specified). I was a previously recovered anorexic and found myself falling into a bad eating pattern of EDNOS. How my eating disorder works is that I start restricting what I eat severely, which makes me feel good, then someone comments I do t eat which makes me feel anxious...
    OnyxHeart OnyxHeart 18-21, F Nov 13

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    Would anyone like to do this diet with me this

    would be my first time doing this and I keep binge and I need to control what I eat I realized if I starve myself it just ends up with a binge
    Maria134747 Maria134747 13-15, F Nov 10

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    I'm hurt. I just realize i'm too fat.

    Si FAT. I want be Thin. Please help me or i do suicide. ?
    BeThinAndBeauty BeThinAndBeauty 13-15, F 2 hrs ago

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    Those times where the weigh ins are telling you

    you are gaining weight again but you have done everything to lose it.
    ivorianangel ivorianangel 18-21, F Aug 14

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    OMG can I please eat a ******* apple with out

    hating myself?? What the **** ED can you please leave me alone?!?!? FUCKK.
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    I feel like my eating issue is back

    or at least coming back. Idk maybe it is back. As far as I know as of right now I've lost five pounds but I need to lose more. I weighed myself on a thing in a pharmacy a few months back and then went to a doctors appointment and saw I lost five pounds so I've kinda stepped my...
    Spilled Spilled 22-25, F Nov 4

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    Umm... Where Do I Begin Or Where Did I Begin?

    Okay, well, I have strugled with bulimia for almost two years now.  I've struggled with anorexia for eight months.  I have lost so many things to this eating disorder.  I regret doing it everyday.  Yet it's so hard to stop.  I started at 130 pounds. ...
    Arisha09 Arisha09 16-18, F 19 Responses Apr 8, 2007

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    BooBear99 BooBear99 13-15, F 17 Responses Mar 21

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    I need to explain this to those

    who are not listening or severely don't get it: I am anorexic. This means that I take part in starving and restricting myself so that I can become thinner and more beautiful as a person so that people will be more inclined to see me as beautiful as a person on the inside. This...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 6 Responses Jun 23

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    Well my dad used to tell me off

    for eating. I always had a revved up metabolism which continued well into my teens. I could rival any teenage boy. But I was active- I never missed an opportunity to try out a sport. I trained for karate 3-4 times a week, walked everywhere and was hoping to join the military...
    NekroNomikon NekroNomikon 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    My name is Mercedes.

    and I starve myself, binge, chew and spit etc . I am 18 years old. would anyone like to motivate each other to say no to food ? and yes to wanting to be thin ?
    tobethin666 tobethin666 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 11

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    I thought I was over getting sick,

    but I got sick today for the first time in a while, and this time there was like little strings of blood throughout it... What should I do?
    advicegiver01 advicegiver01 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 3

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    My husband knows now.

    All he says is don't do it. I say I have to bc well I do.. It's not a choice anymore. I ate homemade fries and pulled pork I made for us. A sandwich and a few fries later I'm finished. Figured I haven't ate today I need to hold this down. 10 mins later the feeling is clawing on...
    helizb helizb 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 6

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    I have an ED but I'm obese - I'm afraid no one

    will believe me if they found out
    omgawesomeusername omgawesomeusername 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 27

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    gingerjillian gingerjillian 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 4

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    I don't like to eat,

    because that's the only thing I can control in this utterly chaotic life of mine.
    TaylorNicole312 TaylorNicole312 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Hello! My name is T. For about 4 months

    now I've suffered from an eating disorder. But I wouldn't call it "suffered" actually, because I'm enjoying it. I like feeling in control of my body. I eat as little as possible and exercise excessively. But don't worry, I'm still healthy. I guess I just love the feeling of...
    SkinnyIsPerfect SkinnyIsPerfect 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 9

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    My mom told my doctor I was losing a lot of

    weight... I was scared he was going to start asking questions about my eating habits... Thankfully he didn't... I have many problems that I want to fix... But this one needs to stay.. Just a little longer... I'm almost there... My goal weight is almost reached...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Nov 6

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    I had been doing so well with my eating,

    and I just relapsed. I feel like such failure.
    Rmarie17 Rmarie17 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Anorexia And Bulimia.

    Ive been struggling with eating disordered behaviors for 11 years that have run the gamut from restricting, binging and purging, laxative abuse, ipecac syrup on one occasion, and over exercizing. I pretty much have it beat except for the occasional relapse when i feel the need to...
    Lilcuppa Lilcuppa 70+ 6 Responses Sep 19, 2012

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    I just stopped feeding myself.

    It was a train without breaks. A train that can only go faster until it runs out of tracks or it hits a wall.
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 27

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    i havent eaten in days

    and im getting to the point where i just dont care anymore...honestly i would be ok if i just died
    sadlittlefatgirl sadlittlefatgirl 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Eating Disorders/ My Life And Eating Disorders

    Why do people get eating disorders? IN my opinion, it has nothing to do with losing weight, but is to do with control, because food is one of the only things you can control in your life. You can choose to eat, or choose not to, but in reality it's a slow long drawn out suicide...
    roadofdarkness roadofdarkness 36-40 1 Response May 27, 2012

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    I think I'm becoming anorexic.

    Didn't eat anything yesterday and worked out last night. I don't even want food anymore. I can feel the emptiness in my stomach. It gurgles at times. My heart rate went really high when I got out of the shower. It kind of scared me but it slowed back down. But I've never been...
    tenderheart92 tenderheart92 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 4

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    I have an eating disorder.

    I am perfectly fine with it too. I think you should do whatever you need to do in order to become thin. I am pro Ana and I respect those who are not, but let me have my own opinion, while I respect yours. If you need anyone to talk to, I'd love a pro Ana Mia buddy
    Kristenbeane Kristenbeane 18-21 1 Response Nov 13

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    lockedsweetheart lockedsweetheart 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 4

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    Lying In Weight

    I suffered from anorexia nervosa as a teenager. You may have heard that before. You may be like me. I fell into that cadre of teens in the 1980’s, who followed the Jane Fonda doctrine of compulsive fitness. Ever the overachiever, I starved and exercised as well as I, a premed...
    tgura tgura 46, F 13 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    So lately I've been having a bit of acid reflux.

    .. And I take that to my advantage. I just keep bending down and it basically makes me feel like I need to burp, and when I try to burp I actually bring up vomit... And from vomiting I can loose the weight I "put on" from eating during the day... So it's great
    catho catho 18-21, F 4 Responses 4 days ago

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    The Brighter Side

    Well, my actual story needs to be said at some point and somewhere...so why not here? :) Food and I have been at war for about two years and I had lost a lot of weight at times. I have lost over 5 pounds in just two days before. The pounds never came back and for some reason I...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    sadlittlefatgirl sadlittlefatgirl 26-30, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    It's undiagnosed but I'm pretty sure I have a

    disorder. Sometimes I eat just to make me feel better about myself. For instance, I was having a ruff morning the other day. I woke up late, my favorite pants had a hole, I didn't want to go to work. Things just were going my way. So I stopped every donut joint between my home...
    Soccerman5 Soccerman5 31-35, M 1 day ago

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    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 20

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    I Had An Eating Disorder

    Im Stefanie, im 15, barely 5'2" and im finally able to say im a recovered anorexic. i was anorexic for 2 years of my life because i felt worthless. Every guy i had ever liked told me i was hideous and ugly and gross and i believed them. then, being the dumb, 13 year old girl i...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F Sep 8, 2013

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    I threw up multiple times a day every day from

    the time I was 15 until I was 20. I was 5'10 and weighed 103 lbs at one point and I remember being so pleased that I could fit into quadruple 0 skinny jeans at hot topic. People would say I was too skinny but I took it as a compliment, I could barely move most of the time and...
    Tak88 Tak88 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 28

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    Sometimes I wonder why do I

    even bother eating. I mean look at me I'm fat. People don't like me because I'm a whale. I'll always be the fat girl if I don't do anything. Food is poison and its ruining my life. I don't want any of it. I nothing but a weak gluttonous pig. I hate this cycle of Starve, Binge...
    WastedLungs WastedLungs 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I eating , in eating 500 calories per day

    and drinking a lot of water I hate being this fat I want to be skinnier
    purplema purplema 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 5

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    wow I'm so surprised at how many people on here

    have an ED as well. that's so sad😔 I purge, restrict and over exercise. I'm not underweight, though. what's up with EDNOS not being a thing anymore? now it's like OFSED? like wtf. anyone else have mpa? if you ever need support just message me💕😊
    westsidechillin westsidechillin 16-17, F 5 Responses May 13

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    I struggle with the lingering habits of

    starvation I developed during a 5 year bout with adult-onset anorexia. I have realized lately that, even though I'm doing much better, I am still restricting too much. The weirdest thing is, my illness presented without any body-image issues. It's actually the opposite for me...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 2 Responses May 5

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    Fading Away Day By Day.

    I have always have problems with eating disorders in my life... Last year I began to get much better, I began to eat healthy, became more energetic and fortunate! everything was great, I ate what I wanted and did not care about any calories, it was all so great, I felt so...
    Fezzii Fezzii 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    I have an eating disorder

    and I'm obsessed with my body and image altogether
    sheashea333 sheashea333 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 14

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    I am stuffing my face with food all day today.

    I don't care how much I gain because my once loose shorts, squeeze my *** so much I can barely get into them. My thighs rub against each other. I'm 5'2 and 96lbs. (I have very light bones, so it's as if I was 116lbs) I can't believe how fat I've gotten. (my friends were secretly...
    confuziiled confuziiled 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 6

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    cuttinggirl96 cuttinggirl96 18-21, F 1 Response May 15

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    If one more person tells me that

    if you have an eating disorder you are an attention seeker I am going to go mad! I didn't ask to not want to eat, I didn't ask to go round the shop looking at all the calories in food checking that I don't eat above 300 because I feel fat or that sometimes I'll sit there and...
    gingexx gingexx 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 12

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    I Cant Eat Till Im Full and Keep My Food Down.

    In my family being full up is a sign of a good meal.  like after every sunday roast my dad always leans back in his chair pats his stomach proudly and says something about being full and how good a meal it was. Im not sure if I have ever liked being full like the rest...
    pine90apple pine90apple 18-21, F 4 Responses May 13, 2009

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    I Have an eating disorder,

    so I'm Bulimic and it was going on for almost a year and I got kinda slim but I still have some fat on me. My parents judge me almost everyday for it, especially my dad. He acts like I'm a bad person and the devil. He kept looking back at me in the car like I killed someone and...
    Babyblue95 Babyblue95 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 14

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    I think I have an eatig disorder now.

    I was and still am obese. I hated myself and wanted to be skinny at all costs. I began trying to lose weight in Feb, but it was slow (I was losing though). This August I learned that I could vomit hand free and began purging my food. I lost weight fast. But now it happens...
    goldwin64 goldwin64 26-30, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Help !

    i have struggled with my weight my whole life. i am now at a 'healthy weight' . it takes a lot for me just to maintain it, but i want to loose more. i cant help it. i weight myself all the time, and i go for days without really eating anything, then days when i binge eat. i...
    daxil daxil 31-35, F 7 Responses Jun 28, 2010

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