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I Have An Eating Disorder

This isn't a "pro" Eating Disorder (ED) Group. If you are "pro-ANA" or "pro-MIA" this Group isn't for you. This group is here for healing and helping. 3,771 People

    I weighted myself today.

    ..the first role in months. I lost it. Guess who isn't eating tomorrow.?
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    I was 220 pounds.... my mom has depression

    and my dad always works so of course all I ate was fast food it was easy on my mom but twist I took ballets from age 2-13 now I'm 17 my mom pulled me out when I got the flu and ended up in the hospital because I hadn't eaten in daysand starved my self down to 160 pounds.... I...
    hsch212 hsch212 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    Struggling with wanting to exercise 24/7

    and eat as little as possible
    bambi456 bambi456 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 28

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    Will It Ever End?

    When I was 16 I went on a diet to lose a couple of pounds.  I wasn't overweight, mind you, just wanted to do something right for my mom.  She has always had a hard time showing me love, and nothing I ever did seemed good enough for her.  I lost about 10 pounds and...
    Jynx Jynx 31-35, F 24 Responses Jul 1, 2007

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    Hello! My name is T. For about 4 months

    now I've suffered from an eating disorder. But I wouldn't call it "suffered" actually, because I'm enjoying it. I like feeling in control of my body. I eat as little as possible and exercise excessively. But don't worry, I'm still healthy. I guess I just love the feeling of...
    SkinnyIsPerfect SkinnyIsPerfect 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 9

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    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 20

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    Nov. 20, 2014 5:30pm I don't know what is wrong

    with me. I felt so happy when I got home. I felt so much love for mj and I was just on cloud nine. But I guess my flight reached its destination. I was on fb and mj told me go get ready. I went but I saw how she looked at me like I was stupid or maybe that was just me. Well...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    Seeing the posts on this page makes me

    so sad... :( I used to struggle with anorexia and bulimia daily, and sometimes I still fall into old mindsets. But this is NOT the way to be happy, healthy, or live a fulfilled life. Seeing your bones is NOT attractive. Hungry is NOT happy. I know this won't help everyone. But I...
    CountryQueen623 CountryQueen623 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 2

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    My mum found out that I have starved myself.

    ..it was getting better for a bit, but she hid the bathroom scale! And now I can't see how much weight I've gained back since up was getting better....and now, I'm just falling back into my old habits :( My plan was to hit a healthy weight for my height...but now I have no idea...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    its co,e to the point,

    that i have panic attacks before or after eating small meals or sometimes a drink
    itsjustlucy123 itsjustlucy123 13-15, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    I don't want to be bulimic anymore.

    But I do. But I don't. Uggg. It's messing up my health. I have a constant sore throat even though I haven't purged in two days and it only gets worse when I eat. My stomach is bloated if I eat anything even a cracker. My teeth are transparent and very sensitive. My skin is...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Dec 2

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    OMG can I please eat a ******* apple with out

    hating myself?? What the **** ED can you please leave me alone?!?!? FUCKK.
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    There is a girl who sits next to me in my

    ceramics class and I always thought she must be a lot younger than me. She is really really short and tiny. Today, I talked to her for the first time and she is actually my age. She was born with multiple organs outside of her body and only one ear.. She told me all about her...
    SadKittenOnLine SadKittenOnLine 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    wow I'm so surprised at how many people on here

    have an ED as well. that's so sad😔 I purge, restrict and over exercise. I'm not underweight, though. what's up with EDNOS not being a thing anymore? now it's like OFSED? like wtf. anyone else have mpa? if you ever need support just message me💕😊
    westsidechillin westsidechillin 16-17, F 5 Responses May 13

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    BooBear99 BooBear99 13-15, F 18 Responses Mar 21

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    I'm so mad at myself!

    I gained two pounds over Thanksgiving weekend! ****! My diet has been nothing but a cracker and a bottle of water. And its staying that way until I can see my ribs
    Madis9957 Madis9957 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    lockedsweetheart lockedsweetheart 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 4

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    Ya know. I'm sick of people judging anorexics

    and bulimics. Plus all the others. Those are just the most common. They tell you you're not fat. And grow meat on them bones. But you can't. You feel so fat. You see a massive number on the scale. You compare. They call you stubborn. Maybe it's not that easy. To just eat when...
    Kailenalovesyou Kailenalovesyou 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 29

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    Umm... Where Do I Begin Or Where Did I Begin?

    Okay, well, I have strugled with bulimia for almost two years now.  I've struggled with anorexia for eight months.  I have lost so many things to this eating disorder.  I regret doing it everyday.  Yet it's so hard to stop.  I started at 130 pounds. ...
    Arisha09 Arisha09 16-18, F 19 Responses Apr 8, 2007

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    Lying In Weight

    I suffered from anorexia nervosa as a teenager. You may have heard that before. You may be like me. I fell into that cadre of teens in the 1980’s, who followed the Jane Fonda doctrine of compulsive fitness. Ever the overachiever, I starved and exercised as well as I, a premed...
    tgura tgura 46, F 13 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    ...and I Am Still Overweight

    I am obsessed with putting food into my mouth. I haven't even finished chewing my first bite before I am thinking about the next. I am also thinking about how much I will need to throw up after I am done eating. I stay up later than I want to so that no one will hear me puking. I...
    sammy sammy 21-25, F 2 Responses Jun 12, 2007

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    The Brighter Side

    Well, my actual story needs to be said at some point and somewhere...so why not here? :) Food and I have been at war for about two years and I had lost a lot of weight at times. I have lost over 5 pounds in just two days before. The pounds never came back and for some reason I...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I am extremely depressed.

    I feel so bad. I just want to die or hurt myself really bad. No one likes to be around me. I'm a burden to my family. I feel like I have an anchor tied to my feet and I'm drowning. I just wanna curl up in bed and never ever wake again. But I have to act like I'm at least ok. I...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    Those times where the weigh ins are telling you

    you are gaining weight again but you have done everything to lose it.
    ivorianangel ivorianangel 18-21, F Aug 14

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    Help !

    i have struggled with my weight my whole life. i am now at a 'healthy weight' . it takes a lot for me just to maintain it, but i want to loose more. i cant help it. i weight myself all the time, and i go for days without really eating anything, then days when i binge eat. i...
    daxil daxil 31-35, F 7 Responses Jun 28, 2010

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    I have an eating disorder.

    I am perfectly fine with it too. I think you should do whatever you need to do in order to become thin. I am pro Ana and I respect those who are not, but let me have my own opinion, while I respect yours. If you need anyone to talk to, I'd love a pro Ana Mia buddy
    Kristenbeane Kristenbeane 18-21 1 Response Nov 13

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    sjc95 sjc95 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    havnt eaten in a couple days

    and just made dinner... cant even look at it. wtf
    Pigmaginny Pigmaginny 22-25, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Feels like I'm going through purging

    withdrawals! I NEED to PURGE!!! Had a stressful day and I just NEED that feeling of discomfort when I binge because that's how I feel now. Then when I purge its like I'm letting all the stress and emotions and food out. It's awesome. But I know I shouldn't do it. I'm afraid ill...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 9

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    Well my dad used to tell me off

    for eating. I always had a revved up metabolism which continued well into my teens. I could rival any teenage boy. But I was active- I never missed an opportunity to try out a sport. I trained for karate 3-4 times a week, walked everywhere and was hoping to join the military...
    NekroNomikon NekroNomikon 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    I last puked from my bulimia a week ago (I'm

    trying so hard to curb My eating disorder and not make it worse) And now My food still doesn't want to stay down. I never purged daily, at the most it was 3 times a week and lasted for three months. It amazes me how messed up my body became with that short amount of time...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    I've been eating a lot to gain

    because my clothes are loose but it's not working! I think I just want to gain weight to tell my eating disorder "You don't control me!"but i still want to be skinny.
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    Fading Away Day By Day.

    I have always have problems with eating disorders in my life... Last year I began to get much better, I began to eat healthy, became more energetic and fortunate! everything was great, I ate what I wanted and did not care about any calories, it was all so great, I felt so...
    Fezzii Fezzii 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    I hate myself... In every single way.

    .. I used to eat 1 or 2 meals a day... But I think I'm ready to take it to the next level... Again.. Maybe when I'm thin I can feel better about who I am.. It's working so far... Only 30 more pounds... At least... Let's just speed it up...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 5

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    Im losing weight... But still feel like **** at

    the end of the day... Though I'm so hungry, I don't want to eat... I end up forcing myself to... But I really don't want to... I'm barely eating a meal a day... And then snacking.. I'm losing really slowly... Lately my self control had been poor. I just want to eat.. I tried a...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I am not diagnoses by a doctor

    but I think it's pretty obvious when you compare yourself to ever girl you see and how many calories and carbs are in one small thing and when you by diet pills and laxatives every time you go the store or make yourself throw up even after a small meal
    DustyVee DustyVee 13-15, F Dec 6

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    I am extremely depressed.

    I feel so bad. I just want to die or hurt myself really bad. No one likes to be around me. I'm a burden to my family. I feel like I have an anchor tied to my feet and I'm drowning. I just wanna curl up in bed and never ever wake again. But I have to act like I'm at least ok. I...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Dec 6

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    Sick of people posting things on here

    that are glorifying the fact that they want to be skinny. That's not what it's about. It's supposed to be a place to ask advice and help. Not brag about how many times you've thrown up or what you're planning on doing to destroy your body. Abusing your body is not big and...
    Tilly95 Tilly95 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I don't want to eat. So far I ate 1 mini

    cinnamon roll for breakfast. And a pack of peanuts for lunch. But I really don't want to fall into my habits again
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 7

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    I Cant Eat Till Im Full and Keep My Food Down.

    In my family being full up is a sign of a good meal.  like after every sunday roast my dad always leans back in his chair pats his stomach proudly and says something about being full and how good a meal it was. Im not sure if I have ever liked being full like the rest...
    pine90apple pine90apple 18-21, F 4 Responses May 13, 2009

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    You'd Think....

    after so many good days, weeks, months, really, i am having one hell of a bad food day.  i know that i have to eat to stay well, but at this moment, i cannot force myself to.  the specter of the "perfect 24" hours without food is hanging, only 7 hours away...
    SunnyKris SunnyKris 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 24, 2007

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    I have an ED but I'm obese - I'm afraid no one

    will believe me if they found out
    omgawesomeusername omgawesomeusername 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 27

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    If one more person tells me that

    if you have an eating disorder you are an attention seeker I am going to go mad! I didn't ask to not want to eat, I didn't ask to go round the shop looking at all the calories in food checking that I don't eat above 300 because I feel fat or that sometimes I'll sit there and...
    gingexx gingexx 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 12

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    I never thought I would be going down this road

    so fast again. I started crying yesterday when I couldn't find the scale. I was afraid I had gone over the weight I had in mind. I hate myself and I hate how I look. One day I'll be pretty...one day I'll be happy with myself, and that day...will be when I'm dead. I hope it's one...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    The worst moment is when you realise you lost

    control of yourself and put on weight...
    catho catho 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm really struggling lately.

    I managed to go nearly a year with very few slip ups. I gained two stone and felt very happy. But over the past month or two I have relapsed. I feel guilty when I eat, but even more so when I don't. I feel like I'm going to be sick whenever food is mentioned or if I open the...
    Tilly95 Tilly95 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    Eating Disorders/ My Life And Eating Disorders

    Why do people get eating disorders? IN my opinion, it has nothing to do with losing weight, but is to do with control, because food is one of the only things you can control in your life. You can choose to eat, or choose not to, but in reality it's a slow long drawn out suicide...
    roadofdarkness roadofdarkness 36-40 1 Response May 27, 2012

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    The thoughts of purging are back.

    .. I feel gross... And fat... And I hate myself... I want it out of me... Please! :(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 8

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    cuttinggirl96 cuttinggirl96 18-21, F 1 Response May 15

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    Anorexia And Bulimia.

    Ive been struggling with eating disordered behaviors for 11 years that have run the gamut from restricting, binging and purging, laxative abuse, ipecac syrup on one occasion, and over exercizing. I pretty much have it beat except for the occasional relapse when i feel the need to...