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I Have An Eating Disorder

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    I am anorexic. It started

    when my friends would poke my stomach and say I gained weight and I hate gaining weight I hate it. Then my dad started calling me fat and calling me a pig when i ate. So I stopped eating. I didn't eat for 3 months literally. My friends started noticing and they stopped poking my...
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F Jul 7

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    I thought I defeated my eating disorder,

    i used to starve until I've lost about 10 kg I mean I'm trying to eat better, but today I ate something different from what I eat everyday and I'm feeling so sick I'm just tired of this **** why can't I eat like a normal person? Will I ever eat like a normal person?
    brzdreamer brzdreamer 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    Feeling proud! For the last 8yrs I have been

    struggling with bulimia. My happiness seemed to be in in the hands in a grotesque gremlin that lived in my weighing scales. However over these 8yrs I have been on a journey of recovery and its in general going from strength to strength. My social life has gone up, my...
    EllyC EllyC 26-30, F May 3

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    I've suffered from depression

    so long. It's been depression from so many things. I'm 150 pounds and my height and my want is to be 105. It's so hard to starve myself but I try to because now it's killing me when I eat I'm in pain and I throw up and it's just painful all around
    alexvalen alexvalen 16-17, F Jul 9

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    Waste

    I eat  and throw up when I feel depressed.  I know this is wrong but I cannot seem to stop it.  It's a waste of money and bad for my health but sometimes I don't even provoke it, I just feel nausea after eating and I have to let it out.  This time is even...
    shitsuren shitsuren 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 18, 2007

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    Hoping For The Best

    I'm 15 years old, almost 16. All my life I've moved backwards and fowards between my back-country farm in New Zealand and my glitzy city life in Paris. As a result i never really fit in that much anywhere. But things all got worse one year ago. I had always been a good student...
    Liptongal Liptongal 16-17, F 3 Responses May 4, 2012

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    and i wish people would stop assuming that: i

    will be thin i will starve myself i throw up i'm shallow i have no idea of the consequences of what i'm doing to myself i count calories i'm scared of food i just need to eat a burger and i'll be fine. These aren't necessarily false. But they're not necesarily true either...
    Skirefly Skirefly 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 23

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    Will It Ever End?

    When I was 16 I went on a diet to lose a couple of pounds.  I wasn't overweight, mind you, just wanted to do something right for my mom.  She has always had a hard time showing me love, and nothing I ever did seemed good enough for her.  I lost about 10 pounds and...
    Jynx Jynx 31-35, F 24 Responses Jul 1, 2007

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    Eating Disorders/ My Life And Eating Disorders

    Why do people get eating disorders? IN my opinion, it has nothing to do with losing weight, but is to do with control, because food is one of the only things you can control in your life. You can choose to eat, or choose not to, but in reality it's a slow long drawn out suicide...
    roadofdarkness roadofdarkness 36-40 1 Response May 27, 2012

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    A few months ago, this would have said I HAD an

    eating disorder.... I guess I would call it a relapse. I cook a lot, for other people. I love to cook. I just... hate to eat. I have an obsession with limitation more than with my looks. I feel like a failure if I am satisfied. I actually think I like being hungry, or vomiting...
    xoxomaya93 xoxomaya93 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 7

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    I wanted to recover and I did outpatient

    for 2 months then went to a treatment center for 16 days, now I want to relapse I hate gaining weight and I will do whatever it takes to lose the weight
    rchris96 rchris96 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 16

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    Stuck In It

    I can't feel... I can't sleep... I can't think... damn it feels like I can barely breathe at all! My mind is empty and my heart's just missing. I'm such a quitter. I got afraid, and went back again. I retreated or relapsed or whatever you call it. Even though I am supposed to...
    inhale123exhale inhale123exhale 22-25, F 10 Responses Mar 2, 2011

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    Umm... Where Do I Begin Or Where Did I Begin?

    Okay, well, I have strugled with bulimia for almost two years now.  I've struggled with anorexia for eight months.  I have lost so many things to this eating disorder.  I regret doing it everyday.  Yet it's so hard to stop.  I started at 130 pounds. ...
    Arisha09 Arisha09 16-18, F 19 Responses Apr 8, 2007

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    I Had An Eating Disorder

    Im Stefanie, im 15, barely 5'2" and im finally able to say im a recovered anorexic. i was anorexic for 2 years of my life because i felt worthless. Every guy i had ever liked told me i was hideous and ugly and gross and i believed them. then, being the dumb, 13 year old girl i...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F Sep 8, 2013

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    cuttinggirl96 cuttinggirl96 18-21, F 1 Response May 15

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    Help !

    i have struggled with my weight my whole life. i am now at a 'healthy weight' . it takes a lot for me just to maintain it, but i want to loose more. i cant help it. i weight myself all the time, and i go for days without really eating anything, then days when i binge eat. i...
    daxil daxil 31-35, F 7 Responses Jun 28, 2010

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    ''when U Feel Out Of Control''

    Remind yourself "I'm going to be ok" and "I'm not crazy"... this is a normal part of the recovery process Plant your feet firmly on the ground Count up 1 to 10 then back 10 to 1 Say out loud things you see and smell Touch the wall, the floor and objects close to you...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 17 Responses Dec 11, 2010

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    Well my dad used to tell me off

    for eating. I always had a revved up metabolism which continued well into my teens. I could rival any teenage boy. But I was active- I never missed an opportunity to try out a sport. I trained for karate 3-4 times a week, walked everywhere and was hoping to join the military...
    NekroNomikon NekroNomikon 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    over a year ago i was in a really bad place.

    i hated myself and everyone around me, i was really depressed and i struggled with bulimia. the bulimia was not that bad and i got over it after a few months, so it was pretty much under control. but the last 3-4 months i have been slipping back to old habits. hating my body...
    littlemeonly littlemeonly 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    I had a letter come through the post yesterday

    morning from the eating disorder clinic. I have to see them on 24th July. I'm really nervous and really embarrassed about my eating disorder because I'm too fat to have one. When you think of eating disorders, you think of really thin people but then there's me. I'm not skinny...
    BeautyOfSuffering BeautyOfSuffering 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 12

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    I keep making myself sick again

    and I can't seem to stop myself anymore however I don't want medical help I just want to help myself stop. It's so hard, I keep crying about my weight and it spoils my day because I'm constantly thinking about my stomach. I look in my mirror with disgust and the wish that u...
    ZoeLouise3399 ZoeLouise3399 13-15, F 6 Responses Jun 12

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    I'm sick of everyone telling me I'm 'too skinny'

    and bringing it up in nearly every conversation. I'm trying so hard to fight this and I have those I love trying to force me to eat and making jokes out of my illness which isn't helping! I just want to escape all of this, I wish people would understand that I don't enjoy being...
    gingexx gingexx 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 7

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    I threw up multiple times a day every day from

    the time I was 15 until I was 20. I was 5'10 and weighed 103 lbs at one point and I remember being so pleased that I could fit into quadruple 0 skinny jeans at hot topic. People would say I was too skinny but I took it as a compliment, I could barely move most of the time and...
    Tak88 Tak88 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 28

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    Fading Away Day By Day.

    I have always have problems with eating disorders in my life... Last year I began to get much better, I began to eat healthy, became more energetic and fortunate! everything was great, I ate what I wanted and did not care about any calories, it was all so great, I felt so...
    Fezzii Fezzii 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    I just stopped feeding myself.

    It was a train without breaks. A train that can only go faster until it runs out of tracks or it hits a wall.
    Xingouttheos Xingouttheos 16-17, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    All I ever want to do is eat!

    ! I'm not even hungry all the time I just do it from being bored, stressed, and because well food is just delicious! I am definitely a binge eater and bulimic. I don't make myself puke or anything but I will eat peanut butter straight out of the jar or icecream and other things...
    kortskat kortskat 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I'm not sure if this would truly be considered

    an eating disorder, but I WANT to gain weight. I eat a lot, have no problem with eating as much as I want but at the same time I have an IMMENSE fear of becoming overweight. I'm only about 103lbs, but the thought of becoming 110 or even 115 and up is too much for me. the...
    n0ceur n0ceur 18-21, F Jul 7

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    I Cant Eat Till Im Full and Keep My Food Down.

    In my family being full up is a sign of a good meal.  like after every sunday roast my dad always leans back in his chair pats his stomach proudly and says something about being full and how good a meal it was. Im not sure if I have ever liked being full like the rest...
    pine90apple pine90apple 18-21, F 4 Responses May 13, 2009

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    If one more person tells me that

    if you have an eating disorder you are an attention seeker I am going to go mad! I didn't ask to not want to eat, I didn't ask to go round the shop looking at all the calories in food checking that I don't eat above 300 because I feel fat or that sometimes I'll sit there and...
    gingexx gingexx 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 12

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    Stay away from eating disorders

    and prevent them when you can! They will basically destroy your life, your relationships with friends, love, and family, your body, your mind, YOU. I've been in recovery for almost a year now and I can't believe how far I've come. I still my days when I slip back into my old...
    starsarediamonds starsarediamonds 13-15, F Jul 7

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    I was a gymnast when I was younger

    and gymnastics was my life. When I was about 11, I was getting really conscious about my weight and the way I looked. I started skipping meals and if I went to a party or to a restaurant, I would make myself throw up. When I was 12 all the way thru 13, I would only eat 2 meals...
    caribbeanbabe808 caribbeanbabe808 13-15, F Jul 8

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    There is a girl who sits next to me in my

    ceramics class and I always thought she must be a lot younger than me. She is really really short and tiny. Today, I talked to her for the first time and she is actually my age. She was born with multiple organs outside of her body and only one ear.. She told me all about her...
    SadKittenOnLine SadKittenOnLine 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    People have different reasons

    for the cause of their eating disorders. Mine is from being depressed about my life. I can't help but think that my youth has been a waste. I want to experience and live my life. Everyone else is and I'm alone. Since nothing was happening to make me feel some sort excitement or...
    cringing cringing 16-17, F Jul 8

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    I struggle with the lingering habits of

    starvation I developed during a 5 year bout with adult-onset anorexia. I have realized lately that, even though I'm doing much better, I am still restricting too much. The weirdest thing is, my illness presented without any body-image issues. It's actually the opposite for me...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 36-40, F 2 Responses May 5

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    Lying In Weight

    I suffered from anorexia nervosa as a teenager. You may have heard that before. You may be like me. I fell into that cadre of teens in the 1980’s, who followed the Jane Fonda doctrine of compulsive fitness. Ever the overachiever, I starved and exercised as well as I, a premed...
    tgura tgura 46, F 14 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    wow I'm so surprised at how many people on here

    have an ED as well. that's so sad😔 I purge, restrict and over exercise. I'm not underweight, though. what's up with EDNOS not being a thing anymore? now it's like OFSED? like wtf. anyone else have mpa? if you ever need support just message me💕😊
    westsidechillin westsidechillin 16-17, F 5 Responses May 13

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    My mom (a former bulimic) found out about my

    bulimia last night, so I was planning on keeping tonight's dinner down to keep her happy. Until I found out what we were having: burgers and cheese dip. Aka the most unhealthy thing imaginable. Needless to say, I ended up purging it. I feel like a failure as a daughter and as a...
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    I don't know of this is really an eating

    disorder, but... I lose my appetite sometimes for days at a stretch and can only really eat one meal in the day and sometimes I don't eat at all. Then after a few days my appetite comes back raging and I could eat a whole cow, I eat so much when I'm actually hungry that I feel...
    Loner1990 Loner1990 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 13

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    I know people will probably call me an

    attention seeker, but I'm not. I just want someone to talk to.
    tawnirashelle tawnirashelle 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    Starting up my diet again Message me

    if your serious and need a partner
    lockedsweetheart lockedsweetheart 26-30, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    My tummy aches for food,

    I refuse to give in. My ED has won...again
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 9

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    Crying because I can't take this anymore.

    I get triggered so fast that whatever I put in my mouth comes right back up I'm such a disappointment and I don't deserve to live but die. Anorexia has consumed me completely and it won't be happy until I'm in a coffin buried underground and I don't want that, I want to live and...
    Angelanorexic Angelanorexic 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 16

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    Anorexia And Bulimia.

    Ive been struggling with eating disordered behaviors for 11 years that have run the gamut from restricting, binging and purging, laxative abuse, ipecac syrup on one occasion, and over exercizing. I pretty much have it beat except for the occasional relapse when i feel the need to...
    Lilcuppa Lilcuppa 70+ 6 Responses Sep 19, 2012

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    Three years ago I developed an eating disorder.

    I barely ate anything and lost 10 kg. Then after a while I started bingeing and purging and gained back weight. I really wanted to stop bingeing so I decided to try and eat some more each day. That went well. A year went by of me eating pretty normal, some days I was struggling...
    irisjuuu irisjuuu 18-21, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    ...and I Am Still Overweight

    I am obsessed with putting food into my mouth. I haven't even finished chewing my first bite before I am thinking about the next. I am also thinking about how much I will need to throw up after I am done eating. I stay up later than I want to so that no one will hear me puking. I...
    sammy sammy 21-25, F 2 Responses Jun 12, 2007

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    I'm too fat to have an eating disorder they

    said. People. But I don't eat. And an eating disorder is not something on the outside. Well it may show but it's still all just in your mind. I often faint. And I always feel dizzy. Sometimes I run til I can't run anymore. Sometimes I don't eat in days. My mind is pretty...
    paradiseisbroken paradiseisbroken 13-15, F Jul 10

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    breakersflow breakersflow 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I'm currently blogging about my daily battles

    with my eating disorder and my other mental health problems such as my borderline personality disorder. I try to update it regularly so check out the blog and follow me if you feel like you can relate to the posts. I want to get to know people who are suffering also so we can...
    BeautyOfSuffering BeautyOfSuffering 22-25, F Jul 12

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    I really hate everything about myself.

    . I starve and purge because I am just so fat. I feel so alone, and no one really cares because I'm not dying
    anabrokeme anabrokeme 13-15, F 4 Responses Jul 19

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    Jealousy. It makes me want to starve right now.

    As a social anxiety sufferer, I never get to do anything in my life. I'm always cooped up indoors on the weekends. "Social" is going to the library an 8 minute walk away, or going to the supermarket. Yay me. I'm 49, and I've literally led a very sheltered life. It's a wonder I...
    Misfitbrokentoy Misfitbrokentoy 46-50, F Jul 12

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    It started when people in my school started

    calling me fat , so i started to diet but then i started eating less and less , then i completely stopped eating , i started exercising whenever i got hungry ,then i couldn't do it anymore i had to eat , i was just too hungry so i ate what i thought was alot of food so i made...
    Theworldismyhell Theworldismyhell 18-21, F Jul 6

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    I need to explain this to those

    who are not listening or severely don't get it: I am anorexic. This means that I take part in starving and restricting myself so that I can become thinner and more beautiful as a person so that people will be more inclined to see me as beautiful as a person on the inside. This...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 23

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    I was doing well, I'd got to the point

    where I was forcing myself to eat atleast a meal a day which for me was good. I was doing this for my grandad because he told me he was really worried about me and I didn't want that. But now I've put a little bit of weight on and I feel as though I'm huge and I hate it😭 I...
    gingexx gingexx 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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