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I Have An Eating Disorder

This isn't a "pro" Eating Disorder (ED) Group. If you are "pro-ANA" or "pro-MIA" this Group isn't for you. This group is here for healing and helping. 4,004 People

    It's getting out of control,

    eating becomes something so diffucult that it makes interaction with others very difucult. I throw up, I run.. everyone keeps telling me that I'm doing and looking great when I'm drowning on the inside. I don't know what to do or how to stop this. I need to be in control or...
    Ennah Ennah 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Someone please help me.

    Please. I need to lose this weight. Please help me. Please. I'm desperate.
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 59 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    Weighing in today at 105lbs that's 4lbs lost.

    I just feel and look so huge. The past 7 almost 8 years of my life has been controlled by ana, my life is with ana. It's like were in a relationship together and nothing will split us up.
    NavyGirlfriend94 NavyGirlfriend94 18-21, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    OMG can I please eat a ******* apple with out

    hating myself?? What the **** ED can you please leave me alone?!?!? FUCKK.
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2014

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    I have an ED but I'm obese - I'm afraid no one

    will believe me if they found out
    omgawesomeusername omgawesomeusername 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    Hello! My name is T. For about 4 months

    now I've suffered from an eating disorder. But I wouldn't call it "suffered" actually, because I'm enjoying it. I like feeling in control of my body. I eat as little as possible and exercise excessively. But don't worry, I'm still healthy. I guess I just love the feeling of...
    SkinnyIsPerfect SkinnyIsPerfect 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    Fading Away Day By Day.

    I have always have problems with eating disorders in my life... Last year I began to get much better, I began to eat healthy, became more energetic and fortunate! everything was great, I ate what I wanted and did not care about any calories, it was all so great, I felt so...
    Fezzii Fezzii 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    I was a gymnast when I was younger

    and gymnastics was my life. When I was about 11, I was getting really conscious about my weight and the way I looked. I started skipping meals and if I went to a party or to a restaurant, I would make myself throw up. When I was 12 all the way thru 13, I would only eat 2 meals...
    caribbeanbabe808 caribbeanbabe808 13-15, F Jul 8, 2014

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    skinnyheart skinnyheart 16-17 1 Response Mar 19

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    Umm... Where Do I Begin Or Where Did I Begin?

    Okay, well, I have strugled with bulimia for almost two years now.  I've struggled with anorexia for eight months.  I have lost so many things to this eating disorder.  I regret doing it everyday.  Yet it's so hard to stop.  I started at 130 pounds. ...
    Arisha09 Arisha09 16-17, F 19 Responses Apr 8, 2007

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    One of my teachers pulled me aside the other day

    and asked if I've been eating. I'm in recovery. I don't know how to react to that.
    galaxyle galaxyle 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 3

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    Im writing in to about the fear of eating at

    someone's house or eating out. I don't know when it started actually I use to be able to do these things often but not anymore. I also have a fear about being around large groups of people especially in an enclosed area. I did seek help I was told for the eating part eat before...
    cherylm61 cherylm61 51-55, F 14 hrs ago

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    If one more person tells me that

    if you have an eating disorder you are an attention seeker I am going to go mad! I didn't ask to not want to eat, I didn't ask to go round the shop looking at all the calories in food checking that I don't eat above 300 because I feel fat or that sometimes I'll sit there and...
    gingexx gingexx 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 12, 2014

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    The Brighter Side

    Well, my actual story needs to be said at some point and somewhere...so why not here? :) Food and I have been at war for about two years and I had lost a lot of weight at times. I have lost over 5 pounds in just two days before. The pounds never came back and for some reason I...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    So yeah, I have an eating disorder,

    I'm an anorexic with bulimic tendencies. I know some people might think that I can't ever be an anorexic just because anorexics are thin and not fat, but the truth is ANYONE can be an anorexic, the thin anorexics are just stereotypical. My friend, Lorna asked me why I don't eat...
    s0ciety s0ciety 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 15

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    I'm losing the muscle I

    once had in my arms... I'm not sure how I feel... Glad I lost some weight I guess...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M a week ago

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    You'd Think....

    after so many good days, weeks, months, really, i am having one hell of a bad food day.  i know that i have to eat to stay well, but at this moment, i cannot force myself to.  the specter of the "perfect 24" hours without food is hanging, only 7 hours away...
    SunnyKris SunnyKris 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 24, 2007

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    I have a freaking eating disorder

    since my depression got worse and start feeling lonely I started eating like a freak and I took 17 kg in 6 months I'm desperate
    emmadarko emmadarko 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    cuttinggirl96 cuttinggirl96 18-21, F 1 Response May 15, 2014

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    Really wanting some new ana friends on snapchat

    to share pics and help along. I've had an eating disorder since I was younger, I'm now 20. 7 years down the line I'm still here, lowest weight was 5st 2, currently at 109lbs and feeling so ******* fat! Add me on snapchat charleyrexxic Tell me you're from here and I'll know...
    NavyGirlfriend94 NavyGirlfriend94 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    Oh hey... Ana is back.

    .. Time to cut down on food, create a diet of healthy, low calorie food and, cut out sugar!! Start drinking more water and no bad food!! I might even go for a quick walk once a week..
    catho catho 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    All I can eat now without purging is fruit.

    I'm supposed to be recovering!! Wtf is wrong with me?
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    lockedsweetheart lockedsweetheart 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    So today at supper I had quite a heated

    discussion with my mom. She doesn't know how I feel about myself. She doesn't know I feel fat and ugly. At the dinner table she showed me and my brother a picture of my cousin that won the title Mr Montana (Montana is his school's name). So I said that I'm very against these...
    Lemons2000 Lemons2000 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I can't stand to look at a mirror anymore.

    Went shopping with my younger sister and trying on clothes gave me anxiety I'm so fat...I need to lose weight I don't want to eat anymore. I've made myself sick over it I can't think about anything but this. None of my friends understand, they are getting pissed because I just...
    lovelybones14 lovelybones14 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    It annoys me so much,

    it really is ruining my life. I don't understand these girls that say there 'pro mia' god. I wish I wasn't like this and it makes me feel so sad for young girls who will read that. I weigh 90 pounds and I'm 5ft7, my blood results are bad, my heart is slow and I have problems...
    GeorgiaAlicee GeorgiaAlicee 18-21, F 7 Responses Jan 30

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    BooBear99 BooBear99 16-17, F 24 Responses Mar 21, 2014

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    I need to explain this to those

    who are not listening or severely don't get it: I am anorexic. This means that I take part in starving and restricting myself so that I can become thinner and more beautiful as a person so that people will be more inclined to see me as beautiful as a person on the inside. This...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 8 Responses Jun 23, 2014

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    There is a girl who sits next to me in my

    ceramics class and I always thought she must be a lot younger than me. She is really really short and tiny. Today, I talked to her for the first time and she is actually my age. She was born with multiple organs outside of her body and only one ear.. She told me all about her...
    SadKittenOnLine SadKittenOnLine 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 23, 2014

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    I constantly belittle my self,

    questioning why I don't look like this.
    MariahsLamb MariahsLamb 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 16

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    Is it weird my eating disorder feels comforting

    like I don't need anyone else as long as I have a eating disorder
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 2 Responses Mar 19

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    Ya know. I'm sick of people judging anorexics

    and bulimics. Plus all the others. Those are just the most common. They tell you you're not fat. And grow meat on them bones. But you can't. You feel so fat. You see a massive number on the scale. You compare. They call you stubborn. Maybe it's not that easy. To just eat when...
    Kailenalovesyou Kailenalovesyou 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 29, 2014

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    All I think about is how fat I am.

    .. I love when people call me fat... I get upset... And gives me more motivation to starve myself... I want to be skinny...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 16

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    Will It Ever End?

    When I was 16 I went on a diet to lose a couple of pounds.  I wasn't overweight, mind you, just wanted to do something right for my mom.  She has always had a hard time showing me love, and nothing I ever did seemed good enough for her.  I lost about 10 pounds and...
    Jynx Jynx 31-35, F 24 Responses Jul 1, 2007

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    So my friend asked me

    if he is ugly. My response was quite amazing to me. I must have been on something cause I've never heard myself talk like that. This is what I said: No one is ugly. And that is honestly my opinion. Every person is unique, a piece of artwork. You can look at all the features...
    Lemons2000 Lemons2000 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2014

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    Feeling unbelievably fat right

    now in strugglinG please help x
    skinnyheart skinnyheart 16-17 Mar 19

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    I'm relapsing into the ana thought process

    and I know its bad for me, I feel absolutely sick, thinking about it again, but I fell like I've lost control of everything now.
    callXmeXrose callXmeXrose 13-15, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Lying In Weight

    I suffered from anorexia nervosa as a teenager. You may have heard that before. You may be like me. I fell into that cadre of teens in the 1980’s, who followed the Jane Fonda doctrine of compulsive fitness. Ever the overachiever, I starved and exercised as well as I, a premed...
    tgura tgura 46-50, F 13 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    Someone said something to me the other day.

    .. Now I feel an even bigger urge to be skinny ... :'(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 15

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    Empty is full-filling

    and skinny is pretty
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 Mar 19

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    Started dieting about 7 months ago,

    started at around 550 and I'm now down to 426. I just wanted to get healthy, living a life full of unhealthy foods and dealing with obesity seemed awful. I started out by cutting out all soda and unhealthy snacks, started losing around 15-20 pounds a week for a little while...
    Piralite Piralite 18-21, M Mar 11

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    Anorexia And Bulimia.

    Ive been struggling with eating disordered behaviors for 11 years that have run the gamut from restricting, binging and purging, laxative abuse, ipecac syrup on one occasion, and over exercizing. I pretty much have it beat except for the occasional relapse when i feel the need to...
    Lilcuppa Lilcuppa 66-70 6 Responses Sep 19, 2012

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    I struggle with the lingering habits of

    starvation I developed during a 5 year bout with adult-onset anorexia. I have realized lately that, even though I'm doing much better, I am still restricting too much. The weirdest thing is, my illness presented without any body-image issues. It's actually the opposite for me...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 2 Responses May 5, 2014

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    Those times where the weigh ins are telling you

    you are gaining weight again but you have done everything to lose it.
    ivorianangel ivorianangel 18-21, F Aug 14, 2014