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I Have An Eating Disorder

This isn't a "pro" Eating Disorder (ED) Group. If you are "pro-ANA" or "pro-MIA" this Group isn't for you. This group is here for healing and helping. 4,415 People

    I am looking for a friend,

    gender/location/age doesn't matter as long as you won't hurt my feelings. I'm struggling with eating disorder and anxiety. I can be supportive and my illness does not define me. I don't have anyone around me currently and this loneliness slowly kills me. xx
    veronicarosy veronicarosy 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 28, 2015

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    Hi there. My name is Bulim-- wait nope.

    My name is Larkin and I was diagnosed with Bulimia halfway through my sophomore year of high school. I bet you're wondering about the second sentence.. it's really quite simple. When I was diagnosed, my mother was heartbroken. However, when we returned home from the dreaded...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Feb 5

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    I struggle with the lingering habits of

    starvation I developed during a 5 year bout with adult-onset anorexia. I have realized lately that, even though I'm doing much better, I am still restricting too much. The weirdest thing is, my illness presented without any body-image issues. It's actually the opposite for me...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 2 Responses May 5, 2014

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    Anyone else going through recovery &

    experiencing massive bloating??
    kchristine7 kchristine7 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 24, 2015

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    It annoys me so much,

    it really is ruining my life. I don't understand these girls that say there 'pro mia' god. I wish I wasn't like this and it makes me feel so sad for young girls who will read that. I weigh 90 pounds and I'm 5ft7, my blood results are bad, my heart is slow and I have problems...
    GeorgiaAlicee GeorgiaAlicee 18-21, F 8 Responses Jan 30, 2015

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    It doesn't just affect me.

    It affects everyone who knows. Hell, it may even affect friends I haven't told. All I know is that I am able to hurt and turn away from the help that people try and give me. I never knew I was making those around me feel like this until I was told. Now I feel like I'm putting a...
    eemoo eemoo 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    I started a diet some months ago.

    I was doing workouts 1,5 hours every day but I hurter my legs so bad so I finished it. I lost some weight but I don't look too thin, I would say, I look normal but now it is all too much. I'm afraid to eat. I feel hungry all the time and I like eating but I just eat a normal...
    Dreamingoflife01 Dreamingoflife01 18-21 1 Response Jan 20

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    How do u purge quietly?

    So my mom won't hear me
    sugarlips4 sugarlips4 16-17, F 4 Responses Jan 30

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    Someone please help me.

    Please. I need to lose this weight. Please help me. Please. I'm desperate.
    Kelnea Kelnea 16-17, F 56 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    I don't get this. In one point people say,

    restricting food is not good, not healthy. We should listen to our bodies and treat eat well. On the other hand, many people say we should be always careful what we eat and we should eat smaller portions of food to be healthy. Two totally different views in life. One of those...
    Dreamingoflife01 Dreamingoflife01 18-21 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    It's not a "cool" new thing it's a genuine

    problem. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy and if sickens me that people treat disorders as a trend or as though I made a choice and in some cases people even wish they had them. I would do anything to get back the years I've wasted. You can lose all the weight in the world...
    Nethaly Nethaly 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    I'm checking in to residential treatment on

    Tuesday. I'm terrified. I'm far too fat to be in treatment, and will likely be the largest one there. I'm having to take a leave from work, which is a really big deal because of what my career is. It's an unpaid leave, so I have the cost of treatment on top of no paycheck. I'm...
    fight4life fight4life 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 16

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    Hello! My name is T. For about 4 months

    now I've suffered from an eating disorder. But I wouldn't call it "suffered" actually, because I'm enjoying it. I like feeling in control of my body. I eat as little as possible and exercise excessively. But don't worry, I'm still healthy. I guess I just love the feeling of...
    SkinnyIsPerfect SkinnyIsPerfect 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    I've decided today, that im going to fight this

    eating disorder... I'm not gonna let it win... I've talked with my sister and she's gonna help plan healthy meals for me. Taking into account healthy calorie and fat intake. I'm not gonna let this illness consume me. I want to get out! I want to rise from the ashes and become...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 3 Responses May 4, 2015

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    I just started going through recovery a few

    weeks ago. It's so difficult. Some days I'm so proud of myself & loving my weight-restored body. Other days my head's dark & I'm so close to relapse. Are there any kik groups for recovery? I know there are for those still suffering, but what about for those currently trying to...
    kchristine7 kchristine7 18-21, F Feb 2

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    I Had An Eating Disorder

    Im Stefanie, im 15, barely 5'2" and im finally able to say im a recovered anorexic. i was anorexic for 2 years of my life because i felt worthless. Every guy i had ever liked told me i was hideous and ugly and gross and i believed them. then, being the dumb, 13 year old girl i...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 18-21, F Sep 8, 2013

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    I don't think of it as a disorder.

    I've been skipping meals and I'm tryigbto go for my go of one day without eating then the next day I'll eat but I'm just trying to get healthier by forcing myself to drink more water and eat less unhealthy things. I also need to exercise more.
    XDeadxNxAliveX XDeadxNxAliveX 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I either eat too much

    or I don't eat at all. I hate myself for both
    bonyknees bonyknees 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 9, 2015

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    I have been scared of being fat

    or overweight for a long time. Due to events in the past. I hate how my body looks so much, and I constantly see places to lose weight. I don't know how to stop or see myself any differently; although I'm trying to get help with it. Tonight, my parents found out about this...
    eemoo eemoo 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 22

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    I used to have some anorexic tendencies.

    .. Never considered myself an anorexic because it was that severe or drastic. I just skipped some meals just because I didn't feel the need to eat, I wasn't hungry. But, idk if this is good... Lately I'm not feeling hungry at all, it's just y stomach that makes noises but like I...
    LittleUnicorn LittleUnicorn 18-21 Jan 4

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 11, 2015

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    So yeah, I suffer from depression,

    anxiety trouble and I have an eating disorder. I sometimes don't eat for days just to keep my weight low because I'm terrified to be fat again. Having food inside me makes me sick so I usually make myself vomit. No one in my family or friends have noticed the eating disorder ( I...
    BleedingPanda BleedingPanda 22-25, M 3 Responses Jan 8

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    lockedsweetheart lockedsweetheart 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    Having a minor freak out

    because over the past 6 months I've put on 5kg? Now it's not much.. But my F*cked up brain is like that's heaps! And I have to loose it.. Why? Because even though I hated the comments of how "skinny" I looked (even though I wasn't) or "I was wasting away slowly" ... I don't...
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    Yep. I am one of those types of girls

    who is always insecure about her body. No matter how much weight I lose, I still think I am fat. Even though I still fit in my clothes from fifth grade it doesn't make me happy. Even if my boyfriend calls me beautiful every single day, it's hard to believe. Although I have been...
    Ashbarg Ashbarg 16-17, F Jan 29

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    Why the hell can't I just live a normal life

    as before? Even though I know and understand that this is wrong, that I should change the things around, I just can't. I restrict all the time even though I still think I eat too much (yeah, much more than someone who tries to live on an apple and water every day) but this is...
    Dreamingoflife01 Dreamingoflife01 18-21 Jan 29

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    BooBear99 BooBear99 22-25, F 22 Responses Mar 21, 2014

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    I suffered from bulimia

    when I was in my mid 20s. It surfaced after we lost our second baby. I have always struggled with self image but it never got the better of me. After we lost our son I was out on antidepressants and sleeping pills. I started to put in some weight and things spiraled. I began...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 8

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    I haven't eaten even a quarter of recommended

    calorie intake for the last week ugh
    estarella estarella 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 19

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    I'm relapsing. Bad. I have purged pretty much

    everything this week and haven't eaten in two days. I never want to eat again. I must go back to my lowest weight. Do you know what recovery has granted me? A sixty pound weight increase. That's ridiculous. I was just eating healthily, or as healthily as I could. It's not fair...
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I didn't eat today. I ate a little yesterday.

    I lost 15 pounds. Idk what I'm doing.
    BrokeAssBxtch BrokeAssBxtch 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 3

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    I like the feeling of an empty stomach,

    even though it can be uncomfortable at times.
    rumblingheart rumblingheart 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 4, 2015

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    I've been doing great

    for the past six months. But today something changed. The dark cloud appeared in my head and behind my eyes and the anger came back. I'm angry at myself and everyone else and everything. The dark, dark thoughts are back. Perhaps they'll go away again when I'm finished dealing...
    kayla459 kayla459 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 30

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    I feel so gross and fat.

    I just want to stop eating. I do so well during the day and then at night I'm so hungry. I just want to live off of coffee and gum. But I get hungry. And since I don't eat if I eat like something small my body clings on to it like its the end of the world. Due to my job I can...
    aestrada91 aestrada91 22-25, F Jan 15

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    I looked in the mirror today

    and almost had an anxiety attack because of the way I look.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 30, 2015

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    One of my teachers pulled me aside the other day

    and asked if I've been eating. I'm in recovery. I don't know how to react to that.
    galaxyle galaxyle 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 3, 2015

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2014

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    Been In Recovery For Almost A Year,

    I Actually Thought I Was Getting SomeWhere But Nope. These Past Few Days I've Been Pushing My Body On 200 Calories And I'm Starting To Feel The Buzz. I Guess Recovery Is Over, Now Onto Relapse
    justwaitingtobethin justwaitingtobethin 13-15, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I have an eating disorder.

    I am perfectly fine with it too. I think you should do whatever you need to do in order to become thin. I am pro Ana and I respect those who are not, but let me have my own opinion, while I respect yours. If you need anyone to talk to, I'd love a pro Ana Mia buddy
    Kristenbeane Kristenbeane 18-21 2 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    OMG can I please eat a ******* apple with out

    hating myself?? What the **** ED can you please leave me alone?!?!? FUCKK.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Aug 14, 2014

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    Will It Ever End?

    When I was 16 I went on a diet to lose a couple of pounds.  I wasn't overweight, mind you, just wanted to do something right for my mom.  She has always had a hard time showing me love, and nothing I ever did seemed good enough for her.  I lost about 10 pounds and...
    Jynx Jynx 31-35, F 24 Responses Jul 1, 2007

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    If one more person tells me that

    if you have an eating disorder you are an attention seeker I am going to go mad! I didn't ask to not want to eat, I didn't ask to go round the shop looking at all the calories in food checking that I don't eat above 300 because I feel fat or that sometimes I'll sit there and...
    gingexx gingexx 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 12, 2014

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    Ya know. I'm sick of people judging anorexics

    and bulimics. Plus all the others. Those are just the most common. They tell you you're not fat. And grow meat on them bones. But you can't. You feel so fat. You see a massive number on the scale. You compare. They call you stubborn. Maybe it's not that easy. To just eat when...
    Kailenalovesyou Kailenalovesyou 13-15, F 3 Responses Jul 29, 2014

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    Yes, I'm still struggling with this disordered

    eating things but here is something I don't understand. As I try to pull myself up from this I check what "normal" people eat a day. Normally people eat a normal breakfast like toasts with ham, eggs or oatmeals or sandwiches, morning snack like yoghurt or fruits, lunch like a...
    Dreamingoflife01 Dreamingoflife01 18-21 1 Response Feb 2

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    Fading Away Day By Day.

    I have always have problems with eating disorders in my life... Last year I began to get much better, I began to eat healthy, became more energetic and fortunate! everything was great, I ate what I wanted and did not care about any calories, it was all so great, I felt so...
    Fezzii Fezzii 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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