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I Have An Eating Disorder

This isn't a "pro" Eating Disorder (ED) Group. If you are "pro-ANA" or "pro-MIA" this Group isn't for you. This group is here for healing and helping. 3,783 People

    I don't want to be bulimic anymore.

    But I do. But I don't. Uggg. It's messing up my health. I have a constant sore throat even though I haven't purged in two days and it only gets worse when I eat. My stomach is bloated if I eat anything even a cracker. My teeth are transparent and very sensitive. My skin is...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Dec 2

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    lockedsweetheart lockedsweetheart 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 4

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    Ya know. I'm sick of people judging anorexics

    and bulimics. Plus all the others. Those are just the most common. They tell you you're not fat. And grow meat on them bones. But you can't. You feel so fat. You see a massive number on the scale. You compare. They call you stubborn. Maybe it's not that easy. To just eat when...
    Kailenalovesyou Kailenalovesyou 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 29

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    The worst moment is when you realise you lost

    control of yourself and put on weight...
    catho catho 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 11

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    Will It Ever End?

    When I was 16 I went on a diet to lose a couple of pounds.  I wasn't overweight, mind you, just wanted to do something right for my mom.  She has always had a hard time showing me love, and nothing I ever did seemed good enough for her.  I lost about 10 pounds and...
    Jynx Jynx 31-35, F 24 Responses Jul 1, 2007

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    OMG can I please eat a ******* apple with out

    hating myself?? What the **** ED can you please leave me alone?!?!? FUCKK.
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14

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    Sick of people posting things on here

    that are glorifying the fact that they want to be skinny. That's not what it's about. It's supposed to be a place to ask advice and help. Not brag about how many times you've thrown up or what you're planning on doing to destroy your body. Abusing your body is not big and...
    Tilly95 Tilly95 18-21, F Dec 12

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    I've been eating a lot to gain

    because my clothes are loose but it's not working! I think I just want to gain weight to tell my eating disorder "You don't control me!"but i still want to be skinny.
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    You'd Think....

    after so many good days, weeks, months, really, i am having one hell of a bad food day.  i know that i have to eat to stay well, but at this moment, i cannot force myself to.  the specter of the "perfect 24" hours without food is hanging, only 7 hours away...
    SunnyKris SunnyKris 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 24, 2007

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    I was 220 pounds.... my mom has depression

    and my dad always works so of course all I ate was fast food it was easy on my mom but twist I took ballets from age 2-13 now I'm 17 my mom pulled me out when I got the flu and ended up in the hospital because I hadn't eaten in daysand starved my self down to 160 pounds.... I...
    hsch212 hsch212 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    Feels like I'm going through purging

    withdrawals! I NEED to PURGE!!! Had a stressful day and I just NEED that feeling of discomfort when I binge because that's how I feel now. Then when I purge its like I'm letting all the stress and emotions and food out. It's awesome. But I know I shouldn't do it. I'm afraid ill...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 9

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    I battled anorexia for many years & was

    underweight. Now my body has been fighting back, going to the other extreme with compulsive binge eating. I just want to be a healthy weight and see myself as attractive, not let food control my life or self esteem anymore.
    goodbyeoldme goodbyeoldme 26-30, F 12 hrs ago

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    I struggle with the lingering habits of

    starvation I developed during a 5 year bout with adult-onset anorexia. I have realized lately that, even though I'm doing much better, I am still restricting too much. The weirdest thing is, my illness presented without any body-image issues. It's actually the opposite for me...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 2 Responses May 5

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    Anorexia And Bulimia.

    Ive been struggling with eating disordered behaviors for 11 years that have run the gamut from restricting, binging and purging, laxative abuse, ipecac syrup on one occasion, and over exercizing. I pretty much have it beat except for the occasional relapse when i feel the need to...
    Lilcuppa Lilcuppa 70+ 6 Responses Sep 19, 2012

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    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 11

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    I threw up multiple times a day every day from

    the time I was 15 until I was 20. I was 5'10 and weighed 103 lbs at one point and I remember being so pleased that I could fit into quadruple 0 skinny jeans at hot topic. People would say I was too skinny but I took it as a compliment, I could barely move most of the time and...
    Tak88 Tak88 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 28

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    I'm so mad at myself!

    I gained two pounds over Thanksgiving weekend! ****! My diet has been nothing but a cracker and a bottle of water. And its staying that way until I can see my ribs
    Madis9957 Madis9957 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 12

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    havnt eaten in a couple days

    and just made dinner... cant even look at it. wtf
    Pigmaginny Pigmaginny 22-25, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    ...and I Am Still Overweight

    I am obsessed with putting food into my mouth. I haven't even finished chewing my first bite before I am thinking about the next. I am also thinking about how much I will need to throw up after I am done eating. I stay up later than I want to so that no one will hear me puking. I...
    sammy sammy 21-25, F 2 Responses Jun 12, 2007

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    I'm really struggling lately.

    I managed to go nearly a year with very few slip ups. I gained two stone and felt very happy. But over the past month or two I have relapsed. I feel guilty when I eat, but even more so when I don't. I feel like I'm going to be sick whenever food is mentioned or if I open the...
    Tilly95 Tilly95 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    Im losing weight... But still feel like **** at

    the end of the day... Though I'm so hungry, I don't want to eat... I end up forcing myself to... But I really don't want to... I'm barely eating a meal a day... And then snacking.. I'm losing really slowly... Lately my self control had been poor. I just want to eat.. I tried a...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27

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    cuttinggirl96 cuttinggirl96 18-21, F 1 Response May 15

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    BooBear99 BooBear99 13-15, F 18 Responses Mar 21

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    wow I'm so surprised at how many people on here

    have an ED as well. that's so sad😔 I purge, restrict and over exercise. I'm not underweight, though. what's up with EDNOS not being a thing anymore? now it's like OFSED? like wtf. anyone else have mpa? if you ever need support just message me💕😊
    westsidechillin westsidechillin 16-17, F 5 Responses May 13

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    My mum found out that I have starved myself.

    ..it was getting better for a bit, but she hid the bathroom scale! And now I can't see how much weight I've gained back since up was getting better....and now, I'm just falling back into my old habits :( My plan was to hit a healthy weight for my height...but now I have no idea...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    I weighted myself today.

    ..the first role in months. I lost it. Guess who isn't eating tomorrow.?
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 5 Responses 6 days ago

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    Well my dad used to tell me off

    for eating. I always had a revved up metabolism which continued well into my teens. I could rival any teenage boy. But I was active- I never missed an opportunity to try out a sport. I trained for karate 3-4 times a week, walked everywhere and was hoping to join the military...
    NekroNomikon NekroNomikon 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    I am not diagnoses by a doctor

    but I think it's pretty obvious when you compare yourself to ever girl you see and how many calories and carbs are in one small thing and when you by diet pills and laxatives every time you go the store or make yourself throw up even after a small meal
    DustyVee DustyVee 13-15, F Dec 6

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    Hello! My name is T. For about 4 months

    now I've suffered from an eating disorder. But I wouldn't call it "suffered" actually, because I'm enjoying it. I like feeling in control of my body. I eat as little as possible and exercise excessively. But don't worry, I'm still healthy. I guess I just love the feeling of...
    SkinnyIsPerfect SkinnyIsPerfect 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 9

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    I've been skipping meals

    and purging lately. Latest reason is my ex died and he would have wanted me to be thin. He loved my eating disorder. Feel like I owe it to him to have the self control to not be fat anymore.
    stolenartistalways stolenartistalways 31-35, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    The Brighter Side

    Well, my actual story needs to be said at some point and somewhere...so why not here? :) Food and I have been at war for about two years and I had lost a lot of weight at times. I have lost over 5 pounds in just two days before. The pounds never came back and for some reason I...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    I'm going to start purging again.

    .. Nothing is going right and nothing seems to be getting better... Worse actually... So if nothing else is going right? What's one more wrong? Then I can be happy with what I look like... Eventually...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I last puked from my bulimia a week ago (I'm

    trying so hard to curb My eating disorder and not make it worse) And now My food still doesn't want to stay down. I never purged daily, at the most it was 3 times a week and lasted for three months. It amazes me how messed up my body became with that short amount of time...
    Ginkofishin Ginkofishin 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    Those times where the weigh ins are telling you

    you are gaining weight again but you have done everything to lose it.
    ivorianangel ivorianangel 18-21, F Aug 14

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    I want to purge what I ate today

    but I know I shouldn't. I'll just not eat until tomorrow night. I want to feel empty
    stolenartistalways stolenartistalways 31-35, F 12 hrs ago

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    Lying In Weight

    I suffered from anorexia nervosa as a teenager. You may have heard that before. You may be like me. I fell into that cadre of teens in the 1980’s, who followed the Jane Fonda doctrine of compulsive fitness. Ever the overachiever, I starved and exercised as well as I, a premed...
    tgura tgura 46, F 13 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    I have an eating disorder.

    I am perfectly fine with it too. I think you should do whatever you need to do in order to become thin. I am pro Ana and I respect those who are not, but let me have my own opinion, while I respect yours. If you need anyone to talk to, I'd love a pro Ana Mia buddy
    Kristenbeane Kristenbeane 18-21 1 Response Nov 13

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    If one more person tells me that

    if you have an eating disorder you are an attention seeker I am going to go mad! I didn't ask to not want to eat, I didn't ask to go round the shop looking at all the calories in food checking that I don't eat above 300 because I feel fat or that sometimes I'll sit there and...
    gingexx gingexx 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 12

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    I need to explain this to those

    who are not listening or severely don't get it: I am anorexic. This means that I take part in starving and restricting myself so that I can become thinner and more beautiful as a person so that people will be more inclined to see me as beautiful as a person on the inside. This...
    EmpowermentProject EmpowermentProject 31-35, F 6 Responses Jun 23

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    I Had An Eating Disorder

    Im Stefanie, im 15, barely 5'2" and im finally able to say im a recovered anorexic. i was anorexic for 2 years of my life because i felt worthless. Every guy i had ever liked told me i was hideous and ugly and gross and i believed them. then, being the dumb, 13 year old girl i...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F Sep 8, 2013

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    i want to talk to somebody

    who undrstands this because ive tired to talk to my friends about but it just ends up with them getting mad and saying just eat or something like that and its just not helping
    gramafey gramafey 13-15, F 3 Responses Dec 7

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    Im falling back into my old ways i cant

    even eat dinner or anything else with out counting the calories or thinking how fat i am and hating my self for eating that i want to feel beautiful be skinny not be called fat names or to feel confident in what i wear and to where i can kinda feel skinny and have a slat...
    desitor desitor 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    I never thought I would be going down this road

    so fast again. I started crying yesterday when I couldn't find the scale. I was afraid I had gone over the weight I had in mind. I hate myself and I hate how I look. One day I'll be pretty...one day I'll be happy with myself, and that day...will be when I'm dead. I hope it's one...
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    I have an ED but I'm obese - I'm afraid no one

    will believe me if they found out
    omgawesomeusername omgawesomeusername 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 27

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    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F Dec 6

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    Umm... Where Do I Begin Or Where Did I Begin?

    Okay, well, I have strugled with bulimia for almost two years now.  I've struggled with anorexia for eight months.  I have lost so many things to this eating disorder.  I regret doing it everyday.  Yet it's so hard to stop.  I started at 130 pounds. ...
    Arisha09 Arisha09 16-18, F 19 Responses Apr 8, 2007

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    its co,e to the point,

    that i have panic attacks before or after eating small meals or sometimes a drink
    itsjustlucy123 itsjustlucy123 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    There is a girl who sits next to me in my

    ceramics class and I always thought she must be a lot younger than me. She is really really short and tiny. Today, I talked to her for the first time and she is actually my age. She was born with multiple organs outside of her body and only one ear.. She told me all about her...
    SadKittenOnLine SadKittenOnLine 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    The thoughts of purging are back.

    .. I feel gross... And fat... And I hate myself... I want it out of me... Please! :(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 8

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    Help !

    i have struggled with my weight my whole life. i am now at a 'healthy weight' . it takes a lot for me just to maintain it, but i want to loose more. i cant help it. i weight myself all the time, and i go for days without really eating anything, then days when i binge eat. i...
    daxil daxil 31-35, F 7 Responses Jun 28, 2010

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