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I Have An Eating Disorder

This isn't a "pro" Eating Disorder (ED) Group. If you are "pro-ANA" or "pro-MIA" this Group isn't for you. This group is here for healing and helping. 4,030 People

    Will It Ever End?

    When I was 16 I went on a diet to lose a couple of pounds.  I wasn't overweight, mind you, just wanted to do something right for my mom.  She has always had a hard time showing me love, and nothing I ever did seemed good enough for her.  I lost about 10 pounds and...
    Jynx Jynx 31-35, F 24 Responses Jul 1, 2007

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    i hide food. lots of junk.

    i binge. i purge. i lie. i cover. i push away. and now? im tired. im sick. and im so lonely. even with Ana constantly by my side. I know I've said this before and I keep going back and forth about it but.. I'm tired of it. of the secrets. and the lies. the self hatred. I'm ready...
    LostGirl1029 LostGirl1029 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    lockedsweetheart lockedsweetheart 26-30, F 3 Responses Aug 4, 2014

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    I've been kinda depressed lately

    and just haven't been eating again.
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    Skip dinner? I think so.

    I'd rather feel hungry than feel sick after eating and angry with myself that I'm gaining weight.
    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 15

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    I'm really scared. I tried to eat a few hours

    ago and bite after bite I just felt so disgusted big time (but I kept forcing me to eat. I couldn't manage to eat the whole plate though) After I ate I was still feeling disgusted and when I was storing the food left I felt more disgusted just by looking at it. I'm scared that...
    AndreaCulea AndreaCulea 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    I was a gymnast when I was younger

    and gymnastics was my life. When I was about 11, I was getting really conscious about my weight and the way I looked. I started skipping meals and if I went to a party or to a restaurant, I would make myself throw up. When I was 12 all the way thru 13, I would only eat 2 meals...
    caribbeanbabe808 caribbeanbabe808 13-15, F Jul 8, 2014

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    Ugh I ate yesterday but I don't wanna eat today

    so I'm not going to and no one will make me and I hope to weigh 30 or 60 soon :)
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 1 Response Apr 12

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    Hello! My name is T. For about 4 months

    now I've suffered from an eating disorder. But I wouldn't call it "suffered" actually, because I'm enjoying it. I like feeling in control of my body. I eat as little as possible and exercise excessively. But don't worry, I'm still healthy. I guess I just love the feeling of...
    SkinnyIsPerfect SkinnyIsPerfect 16-17, F 4 Responses Nov 9, 2014

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    One of my teachers pulled me aside the other day

    and asked if I've been eating. I'm in recovery. I don't know how to react to that.
    galaxyle galaxyle 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 3

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    I like the feeling of an empty stomach,

    even though it can be uncomfortable at times.
    rumblingheart rumblingheart 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 4

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    OMG can I please eat a ******* apple with out

    hating myself?? What the **** ED can you please leave me alone?!?!? FUCKK.
    disasterland disasterland 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2014

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    Eating nothing today.

    .. I want to be skinny. :'(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    my bulimia isnt what defines me.

    It took me awhile to recognize that "hey i have a problem" but i kept quite for a long time. Not just my eating disorder but other things as well. I remember always getting scared of being caught, i still am. One time in dance, my dance instructor walked in on me vomiting. She...
    WhiteRice14 WhiteRice14 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 7

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    It annoys me so much,

    it really is ruining my life. I don't understand these girls that say there 'pro mia' god. I wish I wasn't like this and it makes me feel so sad for young girls who will read that. I weigh 90 pounds and I'm 5ft7, my blood results are bad, my heart is slow and I have problems...
    GeorgiaAlicee GeorgiaAlicee 18-21, F 7 Responses Jan 30

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 27, 2014

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    Lying In Weight

    I suffered from anorexia nervosa as a teenager. You may have heard that before. You may be like me. I fell into that cadre of teens in the 1980’s, who followed the Jane Fonda doctrine of compulsive fitness. Ever the overachiever, I starved and exercised as well as I, a premed...
    tgura tgura 46-50, F 13 Responses Jul 2, 2007

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    I tend to eat very tiny portions

    and I always chew and spit without swallowing most of my food. Yesterday my parents and I were out and we picked up dinner on the go. They kept asking me why am I not eating? I made up an excuse of how I wasn't hungry and will eat it later tonight. Well, I was very hungry, but i...
    imasweetheart imasweetheart 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    It's not a "cool" new thing it's a genuine

    problem. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy and if sickens me that people treat disorders as a trend or as though I made a choice and in some cases people even wish they had them. I would do anything to get back the years I've wasted. You can lose all the weight in the world...
    Nethaly Nethaly 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    BooBear99 BooBear99 16-17, F 24 Responses Mar 21, 2014

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    It's day 4 of the ABC diet

    and my collar bones are showing more. I can't wait for my huge *** stomach to go away :/ I just love the feeling of mastery over my body. It's soothing to have control over something in my life again
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 5

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    I, Caylee, had delayed 2 weeks of my life stuck

    in that hellish hospital, but today is my release date. So I guess I’m sort of happy. Either way I actually missed Anna and Miah. I didn't have them aggravating me with their negativity 24/7. But I felt the abandonment fill up my mind. The doctor had diagnosed me with chronic...
    WhiteRice14 WhiteRice14 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Fading Away Day By Day.

    I have always have problems with eating disorders in my life... Last year I began to get much better, I began to eat healthy, became more energetic and fortunate! everything was great, I ate what I wanted and did not care about any calories, it was all so great, I felt so...
    Fezzii Fezzii 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 13, 2013

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    IF YOUR NAME IS ALEXA OR MATTHEW DONT READ: YAY!

    !! I haven't ate today I hope my pro ana buddy is proud of me u know who u are lol I'm proud of myself for not eating at all now I just gotta get out of eating dinner yay I'm so happy that I'm not going to eat tomorrow either
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 2 Responses Apr 12

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    I just want to sit and cry.

    Every time I start to feel better about myself something triggers in my head and I feel ****. I feel disgusting. I feel like everyone's looking at me and judging me all the time. Even more so if I'm eating. I just want the paranoia to stop and I want to be healthy and...
    Tilly95 Tilly95 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    Someone please help me.

    Please. I need to lose this weight. Please help me. Please. I'm desperate.
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 59 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    Anorexia And Bulimia.

    Ive been struggling with eating disordered behaviors for 11 years that have run the gamut from restricting, binging and purging, laxative abuse, ipecac syrup on one occasion, and over exercizing. I pretty much have it beat except for the occasional relapse when i feel the need to...
    Lilcuppa Lilcuppa 66-70 6 Responses Sep 19, 2012

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    Purging thoughts a back.

    .. My demons are slowly creeping back in.. I really need help, I need someone to save me
    Catho Catho 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    My eating disorder was yesterday diagnosed

    as anorexia. I've fought against this horrible mental illness for half a year, which is way too long. I want to live a normal life again, having fun around my friends and family, not feeling cold all the time, eating normally and not have trouble getting enough sleep so I can...
    ThatCrimson ThatCrimson 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Next time my friends go out to eat

    and want me to come this is my excuse now "sorry I'm too busy being fat"
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 Apr 12

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    my grandma has been making me eat

    but I've been purging at least :)
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 Apr 11

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    I have an ED but I'm obese - I'm afraid no one

    will believe me if they found out
    omgawesomeusername omgawesomeusername 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    If one more person tells me that

    if you have an eating disorder you are an attention seeker I am going to go mad! I didn't ask to not want to eat, I didn't ask to go round the shop looking at all the calories in food checking that I don't eat above 300 because I feel fat or that sometimes I'll sit there and...
    gingexx gingexx 18-21, F 4 Responses Jun 12, 2014

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    I'm 22(23 in 2 weeks!

    ) and I suffer from Bulimia. I hate it. I want to stop but I'm afraid to. It controls my life. But this post isn't about me. This is about the young girls posting about their self hate and eagerness to start down this dark road. This is to the sweet Angel's that are posting...
    heatherrrbee heatherrrbee 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 5

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    Sometimes I eat a lot

    and still hungry...sometimes I don't want to eat at all...and sometimes I feel hungry but I also feel like if I eat something I'll throw up for sure...sigh ..just like my feelings and my mind in general...my "eating disorder" is confusing...idk if I can call it a disorder really...
    anderlr anderlr 13-15, M 3 days ago

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    IF YOUR IS MATTHEW OR ALEXA DO NOT REAF:im glad

    I got outta dinner! My mom came in and I cut the pieces into smaller pieces to make it look like I ate more but I didn't and she took it and threw it away yay!!
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 Apr 12

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    Current Weight: 115 lbs Goal Weight: 95-100

    lbs Biggest Weight I've ever been: 125 lbs Have to lose at least 15-20 pounds. :)
    MariahsLamb MariahsLamb 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    I have an eating disorder.

    I am perfectly fine with it too. I think you should do whatever you need to do in order to become thin. I am pro Ana and I respect those who are not, but let me have my own opinion, while I respect yours. If you need anyone to talk to, I'd love a pro Ana Mia buddy
    Kristenbeane Kristenbeane 18-21 2 Responses Nov 13, 2014

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    Umm... Where Do I Begin Or Where Did I Begin?

    Okay, well, I have strugled with bulimia for almost two years now.  I've struggled with anorexia for eight months.  I have lost so many things to this eating disorder.  I regret doing it everyday.  Yet it's so hard to stop.  I started at 130 pounds. ...
    Arisha09 Arisha09 16-17, F 19 Responses Apr 8, 2007

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    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M a week ago

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    ...and I Am Still Overweight

    I am obsessed with putting food into my mouth. I haven't even finished chewing my first bite before I am thinking about the next. I am also thinking about how much I will need to throw up after I am done eating. I stay up later than I want to so that no one will hear me puking. I...
    sammy sammy 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 12, 2007

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    I struggle with the lingering habits of

    starvation I developed during a 5 year bout with adult-onset anorexia. I have realized lately that, even though I'm doing much better, I am still restricting too much. The weirdest thing is, my illness presented without any body-image issues. It's actually the opposite for me...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 2 Responses May 5, 2014

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    I started eating a little again

    now Im not eating at all I don't deserve to I deserve to did from starvation
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 1 Response Apr 11

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    I haven't eaten today

    and don't plan on it for two weeks. In a manic decision this morning, I took 4 times the normal dose of ADHD meds (which I had forgotten dull appetite). Idk I guess I wanted to get high. I felt weird and jittery all day and didn't even think about food or purging for once in my...
    punicorn1 punicorn1 13-15, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    jackjack600 jackjack600 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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