I Have An Hiv Aids Phobia

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 66 People

    Hiv Phobia Creating Symptoms

    I have suffered from this anxiety for 2 years now. Three different incidents each time more far fetched than the last (that's what the drs and my family tell me) most recently I was going to a bar and getting into a taxi cab and touched the seat and something sharp stuck me...
    Anxietyhasme Anxietyhasme
    18-21
    2 Responses Dec 20, 2011

    Hello I am in very fear

    now about life.my question is I done mistake about 21 her ago with unknown sex only one time.unprotected.I done reppid test HIV as a NAGATIVE.6 month ago..but not change my mind I so in panic now..someone pls help me..how accurate test is ?
    siddudon siddudon
    31-35, M
    Jan 5

    Someone Help !!!!

    Back story...I dated this guy for a little while in 2000. I knew his wife and child died during child birth in 1994. He didn't take any medication. I asked him how his wife died, and he said she was week. Being a mom myself, I thought she may have died of toxemia or placenta...
    SolSkinn SolSkinn
    31-35
    3 Responses Sep 15, 2009

    I had an egyptian boyfriend

    who kept slipping off condoms during sex. So I started using a female condom and he pulled the condom out of me during sex. I tried getting the District Attorney to press charges against him not just because of this but also because he attempted to rape me twice. The District...
    cottoncandyday cottoncandyday
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Oct 5, 2014

    Hey

    who wouldnt have a phobia from this disease...we are still humans just like everyone else and we still have feelings
    fashionave24 fashionave24
    22-25
    1 Response Apr 16, 2012

    Living Over 20 Yrs Whit Hiv Been At Aids Doors Twice

    hey all  am going to share my story whit you  as a symbol of hope for you guys ;-) was born aug 30 -65     was out in  gay bars at an early age  as a young gay man was in  search of who i was    and had unprotected  sex  the more of it i had  well the more i...
    hryrob hryrob
    41-45
    7 Responses May 10, 2012

    Hiv Phobia

    Ever since I was in school and first learned of hiv it bothered me. I went and started getting tested at age 13 before I even ever had sex several times I was tested. I had a nervous breakdown the first time I actually did have sex because of my hiv phobia. It completely...
    christine1112 christine1112
    26-30
    2 Responses Nov 19, 2013

    Scared To Death

    I was normal until this stupid mistake. I'm 23 ,white, very sweet, girl, that has her head on her sholders. There is just one thing. It all started April 9th 2011. I had a one night stand. I didn’t use protection. He said he was a medical student and just got tested. A few...
    Astupidfear Astupidfear
    22-25
    1 Response Sep 11, 2011

    Going Crazy

    So I KNOW I SHOULD JUST MOVE ON BUT I LIKE TO DRIVE MYSELF CRAZY.  I HAD PROTECTED SEX TWICE ONCE 4 MONTHS AGO AND ONE A MO RH AGO. I KNOW THERE WAS NO RISK BUT I LIKE THINKING IWILL BE THEFIRST PROTECTED PERSON TO GET HIV
    John613 John613
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Dec 27, 2009

    I Am Very Scared,what Should I Do ??please Help Me

    Hello everyone,   My name is vik and i am 24 years old.I have always had an HIV phoebia since i turned 18.I have had unprotected sex with my girlfriends only ,have never been to any prostitutes,never had any needles injected.I got so mad at one point that i started...
    vikster24 vikster24
    22-25, M
    1 Response Mar 8, 2010

    Plz Answer I Am Afraid..!!!!

    One of my friend tested Positive. And he is my room mate. From then the phobia started, I read a lot of online articles about HIV. I am not afraid that I will get it through unsafe sex. The only way worries me a lot is I am afraid is through causual contact like hand shaking...
    lotta123 lotta123
    26-30, M
    2 Responses May 26, 2012

    This hiv Phobia Is Ruining Me:-(

    It began about 6 months ago.. I had gone through something traumatic.. and it seemed as if the switch tripped.. I became paranoid.. this hiv phobia took over my life.. it ruined me.. I became crazy as some ''NORMAL'' people would think.. I went to china town and I got a scratch...
    babygirl026 babygirl026
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jun 21, 2013

    I Just Want To Leave It Behind

    This phobia started because I was very sick last year; nothing seemed to help, I was sick for about 4 months, I had all kind of exams, and I got tested on my own for HIV, I was happy for the negative result, however I continued to be sick for more time. IT WAS STRESS THAT...
    ImTheSearcher ImTheSearcher
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jun 12, 2012

    Living In Disbeleif

    i live in a small town and everyone talks about everyone. i have heard that my ex was exposed to hiv while we were together. i dont have the facts all i know is i get tested every year because of this rumor. This has been since 2003. i have never tested positive but its likeim...
    jsmith3131 jsmith3131
    31-35
    3 Responses Feb 29, 2012

    I grew up in a science oriented family

    and i was always exposed to health news..unfortunately when I was little HIV was at it's highest peak and it seemed to be the discussion of every room! It really scared me for life..ever since then I've had a terrible HIV OCD and PHOBIA..It's ruining my life.I always find a...
    HIVmadnees HIVmadnees
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 29, 2013

    Calm Me Down Pleaaaase

    Ok, so this summer I have tryied having sex with two guys (not at the same time). Tried, and by that I mean just a little bit of penetration with a condom, that stopped right away because it hurted me too much. What else happened was a little bit of oral sex, but not all the way...
    notnownotever notnownotever
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 23, 2012

    Hiv Phobia

    It has started 6.5 years ago,i had protected sex and a body massage. I was extreamly obsessed about the fear that my penis would slip in during body massage. I went to test my blood and during testing,my heart was beating so heavily ,my blood pressure went so high. It was...
    Possy008 Possy008
    31-35, M
    3 Responses Jul 15, 2013

    Paranoid

    I'm a 24 year old lesbian, who has been with the same bisexual partner for 3 years. We had talked about having an open relationship, but i didn't really know how i would take it when she actually was with someone else. She had a one night stand with a 25ish man, army guy and says...
    km000 km000
    22-25
    Nov 17, 2011

    I Know It Is Totally Irrational, But I Am Still Afaid Of Contracting It

    I am a very conservative person. But I have very severe HIV phbia. I have being tested several times for HIV, every time the result is negative. I read a lot of online articles about HIV. I am not afraid that I will get it through sexual behavior. The only way worries me a lot is...
    suntechniks suntechniks
    41-45
    4 Responses Apr 24, 2011

    Consequences For Guj Fobia

    Friends I had foreplay with girl of unknown hiv status,this is of my first time after that from next day an wards started HIV fobia &mental depression for about last 5 months,after 4 and1/2 had test got negative doctor suggested me to no problem .But I am unable to come out of...
    cymo cymo
    22-25
    1 Response Sep 27, 2012

    Aids Phobia

    Ok first of all here is my story. Six weeks ago I had this one night "sex" encounter. I had MM and oral sex. I'm pretty sure that was all. I was worried that it might have been some corporal fluids(blood, vaginal fluids or fecal matter) on the lube she used on me. Any way that...
    quasimodo1492 quasimodo1492
    22-25
    2 Responses Jul 19, 2011

    I Keep Getting Blood Tests In Case

    Ive been told it can lay dormant for at least 8 or more years ... so since the date rape... I have had test after test after testwhat if he gave me aids? hiv .... ?
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Feb 19, 2012

    This Is Killing Me...Literally !!!!!!

    Hello Everyone, I am new here, it was finally nice to find a site with people that have the same fears I do. Everywhere else I have tried to seek help, they just say I have mental issues and brush me off. Anywho, here is my story; I have been sexually active for eight years and...
    3 Responses Feb 11, 2013

    Hey

    being born with hiv... my mom died when i was very young. Alot of family members made me feel bad. growing up family members would hide spoons and forks ... wouldnt want me to use there bathroom. and wont allow me to play with there children. it wasnt right
    fashionave24 fashionave24
    22-25
    4 Responses Apr 16, 2012

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