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I Have Anhedonia

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    Breaking The Bonds Of Anhedonia?

    I used to have feelings, until I experienced several years of relentless traumas.  Then I went into a depression (PTSD) in which I spent three years in bed.  8 years ago today, I went on disability leave and much to my disbelief, I'm still on it.   I feel (i.e., think - I...
    wfbach wfbach 56-60 3 Responses Apr 6, 2011

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    Frustrating

    Nothing feels good and I long for some positive emotions. Recently at work someone said something that I knew was funny and I laughted but I couldn't feel the emotions. Everything is a drag, even doing things that I once loved to do so much. I am anhedonic because of...
    vivalagloria vivalagloria 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 25, 2008

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    Asking Your Opinion: Do I Have Anhedonia?

    Hi. I used to have a very simple or one dimensional emotional life. Just felt vitality as a child, then around 16-19 life became more interesting and joyous to me - but I only felt happiness no other emotion for the most part except a nagging emptiness. Then I became...
    soberdig soberdig 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 12, 2012

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    Today Is My Birthday, November 5th

    Today I turn 27. Birthdays are fun, they are your own special day when you are entitled to special attention and a few nice presents. I should be happy right? Well, that's the thing. I cannot feel positive emotion and I feel flat and halfway dead every moment of my life. You...
    StelliumInScorpio StelliumInScorpio 26-30 7 Responses Nov 5, 2011

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    Anhedonia Shock?

    I have anhedonia. Part of me wanted to be shocked into action when I learned of this word, anhedonia.. But, as with anything I do, it's like this big soft bubble which holds me from action stops my care factor from mounting enough energy to take a step. It's like, anytime I...
    narrator narrator 51-55, M 14 Responses Oct 3, 2009

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    Conditioning

    It seems that pleasure in the brain is all about conditioning.The practice of mindfulness reconditions our minds to receive pleasure from the normal everyday parts of our lives by paying greater attention to them. You basically tell your mind, "Look. This is worth paying...
    Wonderatrix Wonderatrix 31-35, F 8 Responses Nov 16, 2011

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    My Take On Dealing With Anhedonia- Just Do Stuff.

    I'm posting this in the sincere hope this may help other people stricken with anhedonia. My inability to enjoy things as I should makes me sad, but that sadness makes me motivated instead of depressed now, except on those (rarer and rarer) days where I don't catch myself, and let...
    Wonderatrix Wonderatrix 31-35, F 9 Responses Nov 13, 2011

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    I Have Anhedonia

    I have no pleasure in life. I do not feel any emotions, hardly ever smile or laugh and have a real ''dread''feeling every second of the day and it never goes away. I have had depression on and off for fourteen years and had my second breakdown in november 2011. Since that time...
    cancan12345 cancan12345 36-40 2 Responses Jul 16, 2013

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    What Do I Have?

    i have a sucky feeling in my head. it feels like theres a vacuum cleaner in my head.
    bobbybrewer bobbybrewer 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 25, 2012

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    Anhedonia Caused By Risperidone

    before taking risperidone, i used to enjoy long listening to music and long walks. i also like to read about different things and was never bored. now all i want to read is things about my condition. i no longer like to walk. i spend all day surfing the internet about this and...
    iwishididnthaveanhedonia iwishididnthaveanhedonia 22-25 2 Responses Mar 23, 2013

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    I Have Anhedonia

    my whole life has been nothing but negativity my entire life ive been bullied in public schools picked on by kids being called ugly, fat, stupid... you name it... things dont always turn out the way you would hope they do and i guess thats just my life.. one big letdown after...
    mrbumpkins mrbumpkins 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 20, 2013

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    All I Can Say Right Now Is...

    i hate it! feels so bad. and ep is saying this is too short. ok ok ok is this better?
    deeaqua deeaqua 51-55, F 3 Responses Dec 16, 2010

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    This Really Sounds Like Something I Have

    I've read a couple other stories here, and this is the first I'm hearing about this condition! I can't believe no proffessional has ever bothered to put this on paper. I mean, I still have preferances and desires, but it's only on the good days that I really FEEL anything at all...
    AngelaDark AngelaDark 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 12, 2011

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    What Should I Do?

    I HAVE SUFFERED FROM SEVERE ANHEDONIA FOR OVER A DECADE NOW. SADLY; THE ONLY RELIEF/PLEASURE I HAVE FOUND WAS IN AMPHETAMINES...IS THERE ANY OTHER WAY OR MAYBE SOME KIND OF STABLE AMPHETAMINE RELATED MEDICATION THAT COULD BE SATASFACTORY?
    johngg78 johngg78 31-35, M 3 Responses Feb 12, 2010

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    Nothing in my life is fun anymore.

    I used to be such a bright kid, wanted to be so many things. Art was my greatest passion before this condition took over. Now the most exciting thing I do is reading the news. I never even knew this condition even existed. Depression without sadness. I am glad though, that I...
    RoyalPhase RoyalPhase 18-21, F Apr 19

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    Anhedonia

    I've had bouts of anhedonia on and off since I was eight years old, I'm sixteen now. Its as if i have no feelings and find it hard to express emotions. I become zombie-like, non responsive and so much as lifting a finger tires me out quickly. I don't speak during these short...
    genbug genbug 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 18, 2013

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    Made An Account For This Website Just To Post This.

    I only just heard the term anhedonia for the first time in my life about 2 or 3 weeks ago, and ever since then my life's gotten a little better for it. Finding this website and reading these stories and comments has played a huge part in it getting better too. To know exactly...
    AlTheKiller2113 AlTheKiller2113 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 6, 2012

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    I Have Anhedonia

    I hate watching tv. Music don't move me. I don't enjoy computer games. I am constantly bored. I have nothing to do. Life is just agony. This is what anhedonia feels like. This is what i have been experiencing for eleven months. This is what makes me so tired of living. What is...
    barrenfield barrenfield 16-17 3 Responses Aug 13, 2012

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    I Keep Forgetting This

    I keep forgetting what I am really trying to fix >_<This insidious poison has a name (anhedonia) and Knowing Thy Enemy is part 1 of getting better, but I keep forgetting that I am anhedonic in the first place. Whenever Aunt Flo makes an appearance, my hormones boost me to the...
    Wonderatrix Wonderatrix 31-35, F 5 Responses Nov 12, 2011

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    Anhedonia Is...

    Anhedonia is the inability to feel pleasure.  But really, I can't feel anything emotional. It started when I was in junior high.  I remember asking people, "Do you ever feel like you're in a movie, just watching your life?"  And everybody would answer...
    Bradford Bradford 26-30, F 25 Responses Jan 17, 2008

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    Anhedonia After Taking Invega Sustenna

    I have Anhedonia and I don't know how to get rid of it all i know is that i got it after taking my antispychotic and i have no reward system and no pleasure so I want to get off it and I am trying to get off of the antipsychotic so i can get my dopamine back because it has been...
    A107 A107 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    I'm Pretty Sure I Have This

    Very little enjoyment with conversations. 99% of people bore me in seconds No hobbies. Within the last few years I have stopped enjoying videogames, movies, books,tv Used to love listening to music.. now it is almost not worth it as the pleasure is so little Have endlessly...
    basino basino 18-21 1 Response Feb 17, 2011

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    Where It Got Screwed Up

    I can remember very few things I liked as a child. As an adult, hearing other people's experiences and seeing two therapists taught me that my  childhood was actually a traumatic experience and it's no surprise I blocked (forgot) most of it.Moving on to my teenage years doesn't...
    Wonderatrix Wonderatrix 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2011

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    What Title

    MMmm where to start? I think I may be more screwed up than I thought I was. Getting no pleasure in life seems impossible. Truthfully there is very little that makes me smile anymore. And that is just wrong. I know I have things to smile about... but just can't smile for real...
    melissamel melissamel 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 22, 2011

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    Anhedonia - The Feeling Killer

    I was diagnosed with depression when I was 12 years old and have been on multiple variations of anti depressants and mood stabilizers . Along with taking these medications I have developed anhedonia.I've been seeing a psychiatrist for a long time now, but I think I need to seek...
    JH6673 JH6673 22-25 2 Responses Feb 20, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    Here’s something that I am sure that not most of you would think about. And don’t go saying I have no life now. I just think of things and put them into my own theory about...
    Artz4Life Artz4Life 16-17, F 10 hrs ago

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    Not that i want a relationship with the piece of Sh1t ...but i really wish i could have a father...Any kind of figure that is like a father to me...I have always been without a...
    EmoNekoNiki EmoNekoNiki 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    To be socially accepted you have to look the part, walk the walk or have a large enough group who have similarities. But what if someone doesn't have things in common with anyone...
    MaraIsNotKawaii MaraIsNotKawaii 13-15, F 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    It's been awhile friends... Ive been in no contact for over a year. It's been GREAT. I waited to share this story until I was ok, and then came a period of not wanting to talk...
    Misstaco Misstaco 26-30, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Since i was a little girl i have had nothing but trouble. I'm 18 now i have issues but if i say i need help my brother tells me there's nothing wrong and i just want something...
    EmoNekoNiki EmoNekoNiki 18-21, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I have a Narcissistic Mother-In-Law who is such a piece of work! My husband and I have endured blatant rejection at her hands. He was the scapegoat in her little manipulative world...
    springstarbaby springstarbaby 31-35, F 2 hrs ago

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    I am a 44 yr old male who passed my first kidney stone when I was 12 and I was diagnosed with Medullary Sponge Kidney in 2004 when I had to give up my job as an X-Ray Tech because...
    stoner2 stoner2 41-45, M 11 hrs ago

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    One of the benefits of being me, is that my hair grows fairly quickly. A lot of guys my age are starting to lose theirs! Consequently. I have to get it cut. Now. I don't have the...
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M 7 hrs ago

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    When I was a teenager I was in perfect health, mentally and physically. I haven't been completely sober since I was 19, and I am 32. I have either been high or drunk. Those two...
    iamokaynow iamokaynow 31-35, M 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    A couple months ago I found out I have lung cancer. I haven't told my younger brother yet for fear that he will get hurt. Im doing chemo pills and they are really taking a toll on...
    19alexanderknight95 19alexanderknight95 18-21, M 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    i don't know.. i have these twisted feelings about everything.. confusion on what is wrong based on what i know and what i feel tomorrow is the day that my mother gave birth to me...
    shenghuidai shenghuidai 26-30, F 6 hrs ago

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    (Filipino-English) Well,here I am, a typical teenager. I'm 18 and NBSB (No Boyfriend Since Birth). I don't know, maybe I'm just not that beautiful for guys to have an interest...
    higalove higalove 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    My loneliness is starting to take a toll on my body. I never thought I could experience loneliness this deep. Maybe its equivalent to the counterpart of how I felt happiness with...
    Listening2us Listening2us 26-30, F 4 hrs ago

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    Thanks very much on your opinions. We are grateful in your evaluation on our solutions & services and it feels terrific to understand that our effort in delivering you unparalleled...
    Temple2516ja Temple2516ja 31-35, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I keep feeling an irregular level of anxiety whenever people don't reply my texts right away. I start to think I've said the wrong thing, and then I try to reason with myself with...
    lonelyavenger lonelyavenger 22-25, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I was molested when I was 6 by my baby sitters son. I was date raped twice. I have been physically and emotionally abused by a past boy friend. I never said a word to anyone. I hid...
    kc07 kc07 36-40, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    So here is the story. I am 36yrs old, back in april I met a girl who had just turned 19 a few days earlier. She said she liked my motorcycle and I offered her a ride and she...
    OldViking OldViking 36-40, M 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    The constant attraction and repulsion of thoughts in general is a delicate but turbulent prone. One must be careful when handling their thoughts. The juggling act is meant to...
    AquariusLife AquariusLife 26-30, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    My experience is a result of two adoptions. First my son at 3 weeks of age and secondly my daughter a year later also 3 weeks old. Both children had the same love, opportunities...
    Joeyandjana Joeyandjana 66-70, M 8 hrs ago

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    They're generally very boring, blogs. I have one but I don't write anything, I think I made one entry, no one replied or probably ever saw it. Occasionally there are some good...
    dontcareforlabels dontcareforlabels 41-45, M 5 hrs ago

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    I have some awesome EP friends: Dancingbear70, IZZYNUDIST, Toymanx ,StarLily71, Kandi41 ,Izzypie, mistervince, and many more. I love to have a great place to vent. Thank you...
    NotmyCircusNotmymonkeys NotmyCircusNotmymonkeys 41-45, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I had a fight with a female relative. And just like my mom, whenever she doesn't get something her way, or feels she's losing the argument, I'm told that I'm the one at fault and...
    Sourminds Sourminds 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    It's turned it's tables. The stress from so so so many things have made me just not be able to swallow anymore. I taste. Spit.. I don't even want to binge anymore. But what's...
    skinfeeder skinfeeder 26-30 12 hrs ago

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    Okay.. I'm willing to skype with those people who wants somebody to listen to them .. Or if you have any problem.. I'll be your friend:)
    Toffee23 Toffee23 22-25, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    Me and my girlfriend have maintained a very good relationship for the past years despite the difficulties and problems that cropped up. One of these problems has been my girlfriend...
    fireblastm fireblastm 26-30, M 12 hrs ago

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