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I Have Anhedonia

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    I Have Anhedonia

    my whole life has been nothing but negativity my entire life ive been bullied in public schools picked on by kids being called ugly, fat, stupid... you name it... things dont always turn out the way you would hope they do and i guess thats just my life.. one big letdown after...
    mrbumpkins mrbumpkins 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 20, 2013

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    What Should I Do?

    I HAVE SUFFERED FROM SEVERE ANHEDONIA FOR OVER A DECADE NOW. SADLY; THE ONLY RELIEF/PLEASURE I HAVE FOUND WAS IN AMPHETAMINES...IS THERE ANY OTHER WAY OR MAYBE SOME KIND OF STABLE AMPHETAMINE RELATED MEDICATION THAT COULD BE SATASFACTORY?
    johngg78 johngg78 31-35, M 3 Responses Feb 12, 2010

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    Conditioning

    It seems that pleasure in the brain is all about conditioning.The practice of mindfulness reconditions our minds to receive pleasure from the normal everyday parts of our lives by paying greater attention to them. You basically tell your mind, "Look. This is worth paying...
    Wonderatrix Wonderatrix 31-35, F 8 Responses Nov 16, 2011

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    What Title

    MMmm where to start? I think I may be more screwed up than I thought I was. Getting no pleasure in life seems impossible. Truthfully there is very little that makes me smile anymore. And that is just wrong. I know I have things to smile about... but just can't smile for real...
    melissamel melissamel 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 22, 2011

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    Anhedonia

    I've had bouts of anhedonia on and off since I was eight years old, I'm sixteen now. Its as if i have no feelings and find it hard to express emotions. I become zombie-like, non responsive and so much as lifting a finger tires me out quickly. I don't speak during these short...
    genbug genbug 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 18, 2013

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    Anhedonia Is...

    Anhedonia is the inability to feel pleasure.  But really, I can't feel anything emotional. It started when I was in junior high.  I remember asking people, "Do you ever feel like you're in a movie, just watching your life?"  And everybody would answer...
    Bradford Bradford 26-30, F 26 Responses Jan 17, 2008

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    Nothing in my life is fun anymore.

    I used to be such a bright kid, wanted to be so many things. Art was my greatest passion before this condition took over. Now the most exciting thing I do is reading the news. I never even knew this condition even existed. Depression without sadness. I am glad though, that I...
    RoyalPhase RoyalPhase 18-21, F Apr 19

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    I've dealt with depression on

    and off for over a decade. I realize that anhedonia is a common symptom of depression, but I feel like I have no motivation or excitement even when I'm NOT particularly depressed. It's like...my internal flame has been extinguished. I have a fantastic new boyfriend and just wish...
    MLockeven MLockeven 31-35, F Nov 12

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    Made An Account For This Website Just To Post This.

    I only just heard the term anhedonia for the first time in my life about 2 or 3 weeks ago, and ever since then my life's gotten a little better for it. Finding this website and reading these stories and comments has played a huge part in it getting better too. To know exactly...
    AlTheKiller2113 AlTheKiller2113 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 6, 2012

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    Today Is My Birthday, November 5th

    Today I turn 27. Birthdays are fun, they are your own special day when you are entitled to special attention and a few nice presents. I should be happy right? Well, that's the thing. I cannot feel positive emotion and I feel flat and halfway dead every moment of my life. You...
    StelliumInScorpio StelliumInScorpio 26-30 7 Responses Nov 5, 2011

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    I Have Anhedonia

    I have no pleasure in life. I do not feel any emotions, hardly ever smile or laugh and have a real ''dread''feeling every second of the day and it never goes away. I have had depression on and off for fourteen years and had my second breakdown in november 2011. Since that time...
    cancan12345 cancan12345 36-40 2 Responses Jul 16, 2013

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    Breaking The Bonds Of Anhedonia?

    I used to have feelings, until I experienced several years of relentless traumas.  Then I went into a depression (PTSD) in which I spent three years in bed.  8 years ago today, I went on disability leave and much to my disbelief, I'm still on it.   I feel (i.e., think - I...
    wfbach wfbach 56-60 3 Responses Apr 6, 2011

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    All I Can Say Right Now Is...

    i hate it! feels so bad. and ep is saying this is too short. ok ok ok is this better?
    deeaqua deeaqua 51-55, F 3 Responses Dec 16, 2010

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    My Take On Dealing With Anhedonia- Just Do Stuff.

    I'm posting this in the sincere hope this may help other people stricken with anhedonia. My inability to enjoy things as I should makes me sad, but that sadness makes me motivated instead of depressed now, except on those (rarer and rarer) days where I don't catch myself, and let...
    Wonderatrix Wonderatrix 31-35, F 9 Responses Nov 13, 2011

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    Anhedonia Shock?

    I have anhedonia. Part of me wanted to be shocked into action when I learned of this word, anhedonia.. But, as with anything I do, it's like this big soft bubble which holds me from action stops my care factor from mounting enough energy to take a step. It's like, anytime I...
    narrator narrator 51-55, M 14 Responses Oct 3, 2009

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    I'm Pretty Sure I Have This

    Very little enjoyment with conversations. 99% of people bore me in seconds No hobbies. Within the last few years I have stopped enjoying videogames, movies, books,tv Used to love listening to music.. now it is almost not worth it as the pleasure is so little Have endlessly...
    basino basino 18-21 1 Response Feb 17, 2011

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    Anhedonia - The Feeling Killer

    I was diagnosed with depression when I was 12 years old and have been on multiple variations of anti depressants and mood stabilizers . Along with taking these medications I have developed anhedonia.I've been seeing a psychiatrist for a long time now, but I think I need to seek...
    JH6673 JH6673 22-25 2 Responses Feb 20, 2013

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    Anhedonia After Taking Invega Sustenna

    I have Anhedonia and I don't know how to get rid of it all i know is that i got it after taking my antispychotic and i have no reward system and no pleasure so I want to get off it and I am trying to get off of the antipsychotic so i can get my dopamine back because it has been...
    A107 A107 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    I Keep Forgetting This

    I keep forgetting what I am really trying to fix >_<This insidious poison has a name (anhedonia) and Knowing Thy Enemy is part 1 of getting better, but I keep forgetting that I am anhedonic in the first place. Whenever Aunt Flo makes an appearance, my hormones boost me to the...
    Wonderatrix Wonderatrix 31-35, F 5 Responses Nov 12, 2011

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    What Do I Have?

    i have a sucky feeling in my head. it feels like theres a vacuum cleaner in my head.
    bobbybrewer bobbybrewer 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 25, 2012

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    I Have Anhedonia

    I hate watching tv. Music don't move me. I don't enjoy computer games. I am constantly bored. I have nothing to do. Life is just agony. This is what anhedonia feels like. This is what i have been experiencing for eleven months. This is what makes me so tired of living. What is...
    barrenfield barrenfield 16-17 3 Responses Aug 13, 2012

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    Asking Your Opinion: Do I Have Anhedonia?

    Hi. I used to have a very simple or one dimensional emotional life. Just felt vitality as a child, then around 16-19 life became more interesting and joyous to me - but I only felt happiness no other emotion for the most part except a nagging emptiness. Then I became...
    soberdig soberdig 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 12, 2012

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    Anhedonia Caused By Risperidone

    before taking risperidone, i used to enjoy long listening to music and long walks. i also like to read about different things and was never bored. now all i want to read is things about my condition. i no longer like to walk. i spend all day surfing the internet about this and...
    iwishididnthaveanhedonia iwishididnthaveanhedonia 22-25 2 Responses Mar 23, 2013

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    Where It Got Screwed Up

    I can remember very few things I liked as a child. As an adult, hearing other people's experiences and seeing two therapists taught me that my  childhood was actually a traumatic experience and it's no surprise I blocked (forgot) most of it.Moving on to my teenage years doesn't...
    Wonderatrix Wonderatrix 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2011

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    Frustrating

    Nothing feels good and I long for some positive emotions. Recently at work someone said something that I knew was funny and I laughted but I couldn't feel the emotions. Everything is a drag, even doing things that I once loved to do so much. I am anhedonic because of...
    vivalagloria vivalagloria 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 25, 2008

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    This Really Sounds Like Something I Have

    I've read a couple other stories here, and this is the first I'm hearing about this condition! I can't believe no proffessional has ever bothered to put this on paper. I mean, I still have preferances and desires, but it's only on the good days that I really FEEL anything at all...
    AngelaDark AngelaDark 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 12, 2011

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    Hey friends! I cannot thank you enough for all the amazing posts and comments you all have left me. You all gave me the support and confidence I needed and more! So I have good...
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    People brag about having trust issues but that's how I can tell who does or does not have them because those of us who really have trust issues are at war with it. We don't like it...
    SheIsBroken SheIsBroken 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    People brag about having trust issues but that's how I can tell who does or does not have them because those of us who really have trust issues are at war with it. We don't like it...
    SheIsBroken SheIsBroken 18-21, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Charming, attentive, interested, witty, flirtatious - these are all traits. He knows exactly how to make a woman feel special, different from the rest, and like his one and only...
    stiltcourt stiltcourt 41-45, F 1 Response 47 mins ago

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    I used to have a love. He came to me when I least expected it and blindsided me. Somehow, he got past all my defenses and went straight for that secret place in my heart I'd...
    abrokenlittlegirl abrokenlittlegirl 46-50, F 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I too would like to have nice breasts and bust line. I am man that has breasts. Since I have natural breasts I would like for them to be nice ones. I am currently a B cup. I think...
    Adam59 Adam59 56-60, M 1 hr ago

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    My family and I were in China on a missions trip in my dream. During this trip, my husband, my three year old daughter Angelica and I went to the local market. At first, all...
    WarriorPrincess862 WarriorPrincess862 36-40, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I love her more than i have ever loved anyone but she doesn't feel the same way. It really hurts
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    Life provides a little bit of Everything, a little more of Almost Anything, and much too much of Nothing. So, have a little taste of Everything, drink heartily of Almost Anything...
    paulie138 paulie138 66-70, M 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    In case you haven't checked it out before, this a great site that I've found for OCD. http://beyondocd.org
    Daenerys7 Daenerys7 41-45, F 4 hrs ago

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    I have the biggest, filthiest crush on my coworker at the moment. 'I'd lie' by Taylor swift is my anthem right now.
    ladycaroline ladycaroline 26-30, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I do have a k-ik account but rarely use it
    1losthope 1losthope 18-21, F 3 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Short version: I was groomed for abuse by my father, who is a con artist and not a part of my life anymore. He kidnapped my sibling and I when we were little and we were missing...
    iamowl iamowl 31-35, F 3 hrs ago

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    I am not 18. I'm 17. I'm sorry for lying to you, I wanted to talk to men online, though I should come clean. I am still have sexual consent by the law, but still.
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I want to find here a man who is older than me, sexy, intelligent, witty, handsome and who wants to have online relationship even though he is married.
    ScarlettMelanie84 ScarlettMelanie84 31-35, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    hey! my name is karan i am from hyderabad i got a seat in punjub for my graduation so i left for punjab it was the 1st tym i was away from my family everything was new there and i...
    realysweetguy realysweetguy 22-25, M 2 hrs ago

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    I love the thought of keeping my wife impregnated and filling her with my fertile seed watching out baby grow. I would to have large family
    impregnator69 impregnator69 31-35, M 2 hrs ago

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    Goodmorning everybody , I hope you guys have an amazing day!!(: God bless you all!
    nadiarenee nadiarenee 16-17, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I'm from Australia and have an Australian accent
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M 1 Response Oct 24

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    In high school I had been doing extra work for my chemistry class and along the way I started to see my teacher in a different light. And I knew that if I ever said anything...
    cookii cookii 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 24

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    I believe NO girl is STRAIGHT. LESBIonest; If you are a girl & you have never been sexually attracted to a female, then something is wrong with you. Every girl has to have at least...
    Itsnickijae Itsnickijae 18-21, F 8 Responses Oct 24

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    Wish I didn't have to be trying to do math on how many hours of sleep I will actually get if I go to bed now wake up at 1:30 fall asleep maybe 2:30 or 3 and be up by 7? Hate it...
    patri1 patri1 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 24

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