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I Have Anhedonia

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 76 People

    Breaking The Bonds Of Anhedonia?

    I used to have feelings, until I experienced several years of relentless traumas.  Then I went into a depression (PTSD) in which I spent three years in bed.  8 years ago today, I went on disability leave and much to my disbelief, I'm still on it.   I feel (i.e., think - I...
    wfbach wfbach 56-60 3 Responses Apr 6, 2011

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    Made An Account For This Website Just To Post This.

    I only just heard the term anhedonia for the first time in my life about 2 or 3 weeks ago, and ever since then my life's gotten a little better for it. Finding this website and reading these stories and comments has played a huge part in it getting better too. To know exactly...
    AlTheKiller2113 AlTheKiller2113 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 6, 2012

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    Asking Your Opinion: Do I Have Anhedonia?

    Hi. I used to have a very simple or one dimensional emotional life. Just felt vitality as a child, then around 16-19 life became more interesting and joyous to me - but I only felt happiness no other emotion for the most part except a nagging emptiness. Then I became...
    soberdig soberdig 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 12, 2012

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    Anhedonia Caused By Risperidone

    before taking risperidone, i used to enjoy long listening to music and long walks. i also like to read about different things and was never bored. now all i want to read is things about my condition. i no longer like to walk. i spend all day surfing the internet about this and...
    iwishididnthaveanhedonia iwishididnthaveanhedonia 22-25 2 Responses Mar 23, 2013

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    I Have Anhedonia

    I have no pleasure in life. I do not feel any emotions, hardly ever smile or laugh and have a real ''dread''feeling every second of the day and it never goes away. I have had depression on and off for fourteen years and had my second breakdown in november 2011. Since that time...
    cancan12345 cancan12345 36-40 2 Responses Jul 16, 2013

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    I Have Anhedonia

    I hate watching tv. Music don't move me. I don't enjoy computer games. I am constantly bored. I have nothing to do. Life is just agony. This is what anhedonia feels like. This is what i have been experiencing for eleven months. This is what makes me so tired of living. What is...
    barrenfield barrenfield 16-17 3 Responses Aug 13, 2012

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    Anhedonia

    I've had bouts of anhedonia on and off since I was eight years old, I'm sixteen now. Its as if i have no feelings and find it hard to express emotions. I become zombie-like, non responsive and so much as lifting a finger tires me out quickly. I don't speak during these short...
    genbug genbug 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 18, 2013

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    I Have Anhedonia

    my whole life has been nothing but negativity my entire life ive been bullied in public schools picked on by kids being called ugly, fat, stupid... you name it... things dont always turn out the way you would hope they do and i guess thats just my life.. one big letdown after...
    mrbumpkins mrbumpkins 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 20, 2013

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    What Do I Have?

    i have a sucky feeling in my head. it feels like theres a vacuum cleaner in my head.
    bobbybrewer bobbybrewer 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 25, 2012

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    Anhedonia Shock?

    I have anhedonia. Part of me wanted to be shocked into action when I learned of this word, anhedonia.. But, as with anything I do, it's like this big soft bubble which holds me from action stops my care factor from mounting enough energy to take a step. It's like, anytime I...
    narrator narrator 51-55, M 14 Responses Oct 3, 2009

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    Anhedonia After Taking Invega Sustenna

    I have Anhedonia and I don't know how to get rid of it all i know is that i got it after taking my antispychotic and i have no reward system and no pleasure so I want to get off it and I am trying to get off of the antipsychotic so i can get my dopamine back because it has been...
    A107 A107 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    Where It Got Screwed Up

    I can remember very few things I liked as a child. As an adult, hearing other people's experiences and seeing two therapists taught me that my  childhood was actually a traumatic experience and it's no surprise I blocked (forgot) most of it.Moving on to my teenage years doesn't...
    Wonderatrix Wonderatrix 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2011

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    I'm Pretty Sure I Have This

    Very little enjoyment with conversations. 99% of people bore me in seconds No hobbies. Within the last few years I have stopped enjoying videogames, movies, books,tv Used to love listening to music.. now it is almost not worth it as the pleasure is so little Have endlessly...
    basino basino 18-21 1 Response Feb 17, 2011

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    All I Can Say Right Now Is...

    i hate it! feels so bad. and ep is saying this is too short. ok ok ok is this better?
    deeaqua deeaqua 51-55, F 3 Responses Dec 16, 2010

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    Anhedonia - The Feeling Killer

    I was diagnosed with depression when I was 12 years old and have been on multiple variations of anti depressants and mood stabilizers . Along with taking these medications I have developed anhedonia.I've been seeing a psychiatrist for a long time now, but I think I need to seek...
    JH6673 JH6673 22-25 2 Responses Feb 20, 2013

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    This Really Sounds Like Something I Have

    I've read a couple other stories here, and this is the first I'm hearing about this condition! I can't believe no proffessional has ever bothered to put this on paper. I mean, I still have preferances and desires, but it's only on the good days that I really FEEL anything at all...
    AngelaDark AngelaDark 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 12, 2011

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    I Keep Forgetting This

    I keep forgetting what I am really trying to fix >_<This insidious poison has a name (anhedonia) and Knowing Thy Enemy is part 1 of getting better, but I keep forgetting that I am anhedonic in the first place. Whenever Aunt Flo makes an appearance, my hormones boost me to the...
    Wonderatrix Wonderatrix 31-35, F 5 Responses Nov 12, 2011

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    Nothing in my life is fun anymore.

    I used to be such a bright kid, wanted to be so many things. Art was my greatest passion before this condition took over. Now the most exciting thing I do is reading the news. I never even knew this condition even existed. Depression without sadness. I am glad though, that I...
    RoyalPhase RoyalPhase 18-21, F Apr 19

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    What Title

    MMmm where to start? I think I may be more screwed up than I thought I was. Getting no pleasure in life seems impossible. Truthfully there is very little that makes me smile anymore. And that is just wrong. I know I have things to smile about... but just can't smile for real...
    melissamel melissamel 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 22, 2011

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    My Take On Dealing With Anhedonia- Just Do Stuff.

    I'm posting this in the sincere hope this may help other people stricken with anhedonia. My inability to enjoy things as I should makes me sad, but that sadness makes me motivated instead of depressed now, except on those (rarer and rarer) days where I don't catch myself, and let...
    Wonderatrix Wonderatrix 31-35, F 9 Responses Nov 13, 2011

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    Today Is My Birthday, November 5th

    Today I turn 27. Birthdays are fun, they are your own special day when you are entitled to special attention and a few nice presents. I should be happy right? Well, that's the thing. I cannot feel positive emotion and I feel flat and halfway dead every moment of my life. You...
    StelliumInScorpio StelliumInScorpio 26-30 7 Responses Nov 5, 2011

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    Conditioning

    It seems that pleasure in the brain is all about conditioning.The practice of mindfulness reconditions our minds to receive pleasure from the normal everyday parts of our lives by paying greater attention to them. You basically tell your mind, "Look. This is worth paying...
    Wonderatrix Wonderatrix 31-35, F 8 Responses Nov 16, 2011

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    Frustrating

    Nothing feels good and I long for some positive emotions. Recently at work someone said something that I knew was funny and I laughted but I couldn't feel the emotions. Everything is a drag, even doing things that I once loved to do so much. I am anhedonic because of...
    vivalagloria vivalagloria 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 25, 2008

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    What Should I Do?

    I HAVE SUFFERED FROM SEVERE ANHEDONIA FOR OVER A DECADE NOW. SADLY; THE ONLY RELIEF/PLEASURE I HAVE FOUND WAS IN AMPHETAMINES...IS THERE ANY OTHER WAY OR MAYBE SOME KIND OF STABLE AMPHETAMINE RELATED MEDICATION THAT COULD BE SATASFACTORY?
    johngg78 johngg78 31-35, M 3 Responses Feb 12, 2010

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    Anhedonia Is...

    Anhedonia is the inability to feel pleasure.  But really, I can't feel anything emotional. It started when I was in junior high.  I remember asking people, "Do you ever feel like you're in a movie, just watching your life?"  And everybody would answer...
    Bradford Bradford 26-30, F 25 Responses Jan 17, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    I have a lot of things. It's weird how I go on my daily life blending in with everyone else while my head is so chaotic. I have split personality: the other personality I have is...
    ponycupcake ponycupcake 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    My whole life my younger brother and I have had our ups and downs and his always made me feel like crap but lately since his had a new girlfriend things have gotten worse. Last...
    Mamooshka Mamooshka 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    I have social events I go to like conventions and festivals. I go to these things to make NEW friends. She's always got to be there! She's with me 24/7! When she comes with me to...
    RainbowPastel RainbowPastel 16-17, F 4 hrs ago

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    I Don't Need Many~ I'm just keeping those I have grown close with. I do better having a little list. They've been good friends to me. And I enjoying talking with my little group...
    PrincessSleepy PrincessSleepy 31-35, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    After doing many years of psychology and sociology, I have the factual knowledge to know that some people should not have kids. If you are a parent, even if you think youre a good...
    urlaame urlaame 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Dear Friend, I am so sorry that I hurt you. Please forgive me. You've been such a great friend to me. You've been loyal to me, patient, kind, and gentle . Even at my worst, I want...
    AquariusLife AquariusLife 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    Not many people can say that they still have their virginity, but I can. I feel as if my mind has been corrupted lately. Thoughts of alcohol and sex were the last things to cross...
    anitamigna anitamigna 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    I was in the downstairs bathroom,putting up my hair as the water filled the bath tub.(I was in a bathing suit,weird right?)I sat on the edge of the tub until the water was an inch...
    MarienaMorello MarienaMorello 13-15, F 3 hrs ago

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    I seem to be messing up more and more often and I wonder how much more she will put up with. I seem to take everything to heart that is said and over react and end up pushing her...
    Sirwithherkey Sirwithherkey 31-35, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    What does it feel like to commit yourself to another human being? Do you have expectations of that person going into a relationship? What are you hoping to gain from that...
    AquariusLife AquariusLife 26-30, F 1 Response 28 mins ago

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    So I'm still crushing on my bestfriend... Like the other day I thought for sure maybe my feelings had left since I haven't spent time with her for a whole week but then today I've...
    babii244 babii244 18-21, F 1 Response 22 mins ago

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    I have nightmares all the time Sometimes I'll sit up or partially wake up in the middle which makes it seem more real And a couple times I've been able to feel myself trying to...
    JalenFrankie616 JalenFrankie616 13-15, F Aug 30

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    Literally, all in one night. Scene: Me sitting at the bar with three friends. Man is sitting next to me. Peter (guy who talks to me every time I'm at this bar): "HEYYYYYYY. What...
    YouBeTheAnchor YouBeTheAnchor 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 30

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    I do believe that people that need drugs and alcohol are just throwing their lives away, I personally don't have any troubles with anyone drinking around me but the drugs have got...
    acissej10 acissej10 13-15, F 6 Responses Aug 30

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    I started talking to someone that was in one of my classes. I started to enjoy his company and spent most of my time talking to him we even went hiking together. I don't often have...
    bec413 bec413 18-21, F Aug 30

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    I have seen a lot of people on EP and in real life throwing this word around like a hot potato. The two most inappropriately used words in this generation, in my personal opinion...
    AlexandriaDark AlexandriaDark 18-21, F Aug 30

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    My uterus is the size of a 5 mo. pregnancy and I've had fibroids for over 4 years now that started as a small but noticeable bulge. Most of the doctors I've been to either want to...
    RainyMa RainyMa 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 30

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    dont judge.... its an annoying thing to have.
    heypeoplezz heypeoplezz 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 30

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    Ever since my sexual abuse, I think EVERYONE is out to get me. I'm not brave enough to start a conversation because I think the person either won't hear me or won't care and laugh...
    AlanaLlama AlanaLlama 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 30

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    My last few summers have been a little lackluster. This one has been fantastic. I've spent a lot of time outside getting fresh air and had some great experiences. I've made new...
    SynapticSpark SynapticSpark 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 30

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    ..ever have one of those nights were..you just feel very insignificant. and. meaningless. lower than dirt,i call it. like. crawling into a bottle, or, smoking your lungs like a...
    VoloNoscere VoloNoscere 22-25, M Aug 30

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    I have an issue, an issue or few. My mom thinks I hate her because I talk so horrible 2 her... it's not that I hate her bc I don't I'm just upset with a grudge... see, she was an...
    regarnylkoorb regarnylkoorb 18-21, F Aug 30

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    Hi, I'm Eden, and I have problems: depression, schizophrenia, OCD, and symptoms seen in psychopaths and sociopaths. I feel terrified of myself. I can't believe that my brain...
    FlyingToHell FlyingToHell 13-15, F 6 Responses Aug 30

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    When I have paranormal experiences I only hear them and it was I haven't had one in a long time I heard them behind me once at a computer and then I swear someone poked me on the...
    rickywilliams rickywilliams 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 30

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    This is my last Friday. I'm nervous. I think I might push my suicide date to the 4th, to give myself a little more time to work out details, like when and if the parents will be...
    maydaysirens maydaysirens 13-15, F Aug 30