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I Have Anhedonia

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    Today Is My Birthday, November 5th

    Today I turn 27. Birthdays are fun, they are your own special day when you are entitled to special attention and a few nice presents. I should be happy right? Well, that's the thing. I cannot feel positive emotion and I feel flat and halfway dead every moment of my life. You...
    StelliumInScorpio StelliumInScorpio 26-30 7 Responses Nov 5, 2011

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    Nothing in my life is fun anymore.

    I used to be such a bright kid, wanted to be so many things. Art was my greatest passion before this condition took over. Now the most exciting thing I do is reading the news. I never even knew this condition even existed. Depression without sadness. I am glad though, that I...
    RoyalPhase RoyalPhase 18-21, F Apr 19

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    I Have Anhedonia

    I have no pleasure in life. I do not feel any emotions, hardly ever smile or laugh and have a real ''dread''feeling every second of the day and it never goes away. I have had depression on and off for fourteen years and had my second breakdown in november 2011. Since that time...
    cancan12345 cancan12345 36-40 2 Responses Jul 16, 2013

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    Made An Account For This Website Just To Post This.

    I only just heard the term anhedonia for the first time in my life about 2 or 3 weeks ago, and ever since then my life's gotten a little better for it. Finding this website and reading these stories and comments has played a huge part in it getting better too. To know exactly...
    AlTheKiller2113 AlTheKiller2113 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 6, 2012

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    Frustrating

    Nothing feels good and I long for some positive emotions. Recently at work someone said something that I knew was funny and I laughted but I couldn't feel the emotions. Everything is a drag, even doing things that I once loved to do so much. I am anhedonic because of...
    vivalagloria vivalagloria 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 25, 2008

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    My Take On Dealing With Anhedonia- Just Do Stuff.

    I'm posting this in the sincere hope this may help other people stricken with anhedonia. My inability to enjoy things as I should makes me sad, but that sadness makes me motivated instead of depressed now, except on those (rarer and rarer) days where I don't catch myself, and let...
    Wonderatrix Wonderatrix 31-35, F 9 Responses Nov 13, 2011

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    Anhedonia Is...

    Anhedonia is the inability to feel pleasure.  But really, I can't feel anything emotional. It started when I was in junior high.  I remember asking people, "Do you ever feel like you're in a movie, just watching your life?"  And everybody would answer...
    Bradford Bradford 26-30, F 25 Responses Jan 17, 2008

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    I Have Anhedonia

    I hate watching tv. Music don't move me. I don't enjoy computer games. I am constantly bored. I have nothing to do. Life is just agony. This is what anhedonia feels like. This is what i have been experiencing for eleven months. This is what makes me so tired of living. What is...
    barrenfield barrenfield 16-17 3 Responses Aug 13, 2012

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    Breaking The Bonds Of Anhedonia?

    I used to have feelings, until I experienced several years of relentless traumas.  Then I went into a depression (PTSD) in which I spent three years in bed.  8 years ago today, I went on disability leave and much to my disbelief, I'm still on it.   I feel (i.e., think - I...
    wfbach wfbach 56-60 3 Responses Apr 6, 2011

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    Anhedonia

    I've had bouts of anhedonia on and off since I was eight years old, I'm sixteen now. Its as if i have no feelings and find it hard to express emotions. I become zombie-like, non responsive and so much as lifting a finger tires me out quickly. I don't speak during these short...
    genbug genbug 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 18, 2013

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    Where It Got Screwed Up

    I can remember very few things I liked as a child. As an adult, hearing other people's experiences and seeing two therapists taught me that my  childhood was actually a traumatic experience and it's no surprise I blocked (forgot) most of it.Moving on to my teenage years doesn't...
    Wonderatrix Wonderatrix 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2011

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    Anhedonia Caused By Risperidone

    before taking risperidone, i used to enjoy long listening to music and long walks. i also like to read about different things and was never bored. now all i want to read is things about my condition. i no longer like to walk. i spend all day surfing the internet about this and...
    iwishididnthaveanhedonia iwishididnthaveanhedonia 22-25 2 Responses Mar 23, 2013

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    Asking Your Opinion: Do I Have Anhedonia?

    Hi. I used to have a very simple or one dimensional emotional life. Just felt vitality as a child, then around 16-19 life became more interesting and joyous to me - but I only felt happiness no other emotion for the most part except a nagging emptiness. Then I became...
    soberdig soberdig 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 12, 2012

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    All I Can Say Right Now Is...

    i hate it! feels so bad. and ep is saying this is too short. ok ok ok is this better?
    deeaqua deeaqua 51-55, F 3 Responses Dec 16, 2010

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    This Really Sounds Like Something I Have

    I've read a couple other stories here, and this is the first I'm hearing about this condition! I can't believe no proffessional has ever bothered to put this on paper. I mean, I still have preferances and desires, but it's only on the good days that I really FEEL anything at all...
    AngelaDark AngelaDark 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 12, 2011

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    I Keep Forgetting This

    I keep forgetting what I am really trying to fix >_<This insidious poison has a name (anhedonia) and Knowing Thy Enemy is part 1 of getting better, but I keep forgetting that I am anhedonic in the first place. Whenever Aunt Flo makes an appearance, my hormones boost me to the...
    Wonderatrix Wonderatrix 31-35, F 5 Responses Nov 12, 2011

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    Conditioning

    It seems that pleasure in the brain is all about conditioning.The practice of mindfulness reconditions our minds to receive pleasure from the normal everyday parts of our lives by paying greater attention to them. You basically tell your mind, "Look. This is worth paying...
    Wonderatrix Wonderatrix 31-35, F 8 Responses Nov 16, 2011

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    I'm Pretty Sure I Have This

    Very little enjoyment with conversations. 99% of people bore me in seconds No hobbies. Within the last few years I have stopped enjoying videogames, movies, books,tv Used to love listening to music.. now it is almost not worth it as the pleasure is so little Have endlessly...
    basino basino 18-21 1 Response Feb 17, 2011

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    What Title

    MMmm where to start? I think I may be more screwed up than I thought I was. Getting no pleasure in life seems impossible. Truthfully there is very little that makes me smile anymore. And that is just wrong. I know I have things to smile about... but just can't smile for real...
    melissamel melissamel 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 22, 2011

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    Anhedonia After Taking Invega Sustenna

    I have Anhedonia and I don't know how to get rid of it all i know is that i got it after taking my antispychotic and i have no reward system and no pleasure so I want to get off it and I am trying to get off of the antipsychotic so i can get my dopamine back because it has been...
    A107 A107 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    What Should I Do?

    I HAVE SUFFERED FROM SEVERE ANHEDONIA FOR OVER A DECADE NOW. SADLY; THE ONLY RELIEF/PLEASURE I HAVE FOUND WAS IN AMPHETAMINES...IS THERE ANY OTHER WAY OR MAYBE SOME KIND OF STABLE AMPHETAMINE RELATED MEDICATION THAT COULD BE SATASFACTORY?
    johngg78 johngg78 31-35, M 3 Responses Feb 12, 2010

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    What Do I Have?

    i have a sucky feeling in my head. it feels like theres a vacuum cleaner in my head.
    bobbybrewer bobbybrewer 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 25, 2012

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    I Have Anhedonia

    my whole life has been nothing but negativity my entire life ive been bullied in public schools picked on by kids being called ugly, fat, stupid... you name it... things dont always turn out the way you would hope they do and i guess thats just my life.. one big letdown after...
    mrbumpkins mrbumpkins 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 20, 2013

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    Anhedonia Shock?

    I have anhedonia. Part of me wanted to be shocked into action when I learned of this word, anhedonia.. But, as with anything I do, it's like this big soft bubble which holds me from action stops my care factor from mounting enough energy to take a step. It's like, anytime I...
    narrator narrator 51-55, M 14 Responses Oct 3, 2009

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    Anhedonia - The Feeling Killer

    I was diagnosed with depression when I was 12 years old and have been on multiple variations of anti depressants and mood stabilizers . Along with taking these medications I have developed anhedonia.I've been seeing a psychiatrist for a long time now, but I think I need to seek...
    JH6673 JH6673 22-25 2 Responses Feb 20, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    It's real hell to live with it.I can't make friends,i have hard time talking to some people,i avoid eye contact,i walk around in circles all the time,i shake my hands,twirl my...
    00pleasehelpme00 00pleasehelpme00 18-21 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I really need to tell this story without revealing who I am. Thank you for reading if you are and thank you ep for letting me let it all out. It's a long story and I really can't...
    seabird9 seabird9 16-17, F 2 Responses 18 hrs ago

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    How do you find a happy? What is a happy? People say get a hobby it makes you happy.yes I have this disorder I think but I am self diagnosing myself people think I have bipolar and...
    char3249 char3249 18-21, F 17 hrs ago

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    I literally have no life what so ever, I have been going through a tough time with depression latey and the only time I interact with people is on EP, when I was 17 I was in a real...
    Youmeansomething Youmeansomething 18-21, M 14 hrs ago

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    I really have a dysfunctional family. It was an arranged marriage for my parents. My father married my mother out of greed. My mother is a high ranking government official and...
    Kurecca Kurecca 22-25, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    This is my blessing. I love gardening, nothing better than fresh food you have put the time and energy to grow...I grew with a very big garden, always fruit and vegetables to be...
    quianominorleo quianominorleo 36-40, M 8 hrs ago

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    nothing has changed since all of this begun...every effort i make to return to god only makes things worse...i have prayed, tried to stand on faith, cried[still do] begged and...
    brokenhope4ever brokenhope4ever 46-50, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    Wow...Just a bleep of a journey. Here's my story. I was working at a doctor's office in an eyeglass store. January 2013 came around. I started noticing increasing pain in my lower...
    Slayme Slayme 36-40, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    hiya! I'm 16, and I have congenital cholesteatoma. I've had them since I was born (duh) and I was actually that one kid who was the youngest to have one removed, go me! Articles...
    janelisbet janelisbet 16-17, F 38 mins ago

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    Still in school, feeling stuck. This feeling is old now, its been a part of me for so long. A new feeling has come around though. Lately I've felt disconnected from everyone, like...
    John992 John992 22-25, M 17 hrs ago

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    There is a part of me who thinks this is just too good to be true. I still miss my ex and of course I am sad...but i am been released from the feelings of utter and complete...
    Beckarae Beckarae 31-35, F 12 hrs ago

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    I was 11, the only person who sees me naked is my lil brother at the time, we were close and i saw him too. One time when I was waking up I felt pain on one of my balls and I then...
    Roan1990 Roan1990 22-25, M 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    So about three weeks ago I got this odd pain that went from my neck into my left scapula area. I went to the chiropractor and had an adjustment. Felt somewhat better for just a...
    ornursetab ornursetab 41-45, F 11 hrs ago

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    My BDD was under control for one month and now it's back again. It was triggered after looking at my Facebook profile picture. At the time I uploaded it I really liked how I looked...
    fluffyunicorn fluffyunicorn 18-21, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I haven't in a while though. Life's been so good lately and I don't plan on thinking about it ever again. But when I was younger I did. I've thought about it seriously three times...
    genericidiot genericidiot 16-17, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Hi guys. I'm 22 years old. The History with my girlfriend and I: We dated briefly in high school before she went off to college. She's a girl who is well kept and doesn't look...
    daveR80 daveR80 22-25, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    If you have a bunch of children, you don't have any clue on how to raise them, then all you are accomplishing is creating future psychology patients. Anyone can have sex and...
    lifelifeishard lifelifeishard 46-50, M 46 mins ago

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    The most amazing place I have been to after visiting many countries. They have so much culture and such warm people, the beaches are amazing and they just seem so content with life...
    SumoN87 SumoN87 26-30, M 17 hrs ago

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    I'm CJ from Alabama. I'm 15 years old. I was straight with a girlfriend, but I've recently had gay fantasies. I've imagined making love to a cute and sexy bottom boy. I just wasn't...
    cjfrombama cjfrombama 13-15, M 2 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    Sometimes we forget what we do have because were always looking at what we don't have
    willowknight willowknight 22-25, F 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Do not read or scroll down first!!!!! WOMEN! Is it true? :( Do we men always have s3x on our minds? Is this all you think about us?? *makes a sad face* OK! B4 scrolling down...
    Sazzio Sazzio 22-25, M 4 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    My sister is such and narcissistic idiot that it pains me to be around her. She blames everyone for her horrible lot in life and believes people owe her things. She whines about...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 22-25, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I am. 45 years old, throughout my childhood, I would have dizzy spells and blackouts, doctors said I was making it up for attention. At 18, I had a serious attack, heart began...
    i1u4eel2 i1u4eel2 41-45, M 11 hrs ago

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    It may sound complete B.S so you are warned in advance. Still want to read? OK then. Knowing that I don't have the valid means to defends my actions, my point of view or my logic...
    YMITheWayIM YMITheWayIM 36-40, M 9 hrs ago

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    I Am Getting Bored Of Humanity And myself. All of it. I don't want to act. Or to step up to the plate and "become" something. I just want to chill out. And be whatever I am. I feel...
    brushfirefairytales brushfirefairytales 26-30, F 8 hrs ago

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