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I Have Anhedonia

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    Anhedonia - The Feeling Killer

    I was diagnosed with depression when I was 12 years old and have been on multiple variations of anti depressants and mood stabilizers . Along with taking these medications I have developed anhedonia.I've been seeing a psychiatrist for a long time now, but I think I need to seek...
    JH6673 JH6673 22-25 2 Responses Feb 20, 2013

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    What Title

    MMmm where to start? I think I may be more screwed up than I thought I was. Getting no pleasure in life seems impossible. Truthfully there is very little that makes me smile anymore. And that is just wrong. I know I have things to smile about... but just can't smile for real...
    melissamel melissamel 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 22, 2011

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    I Have Anhedonia

    I hate watching tv. Music don't move me. I don't enjoy computer games. I am constantly bored. I have nothing to do. Life is just agony. This is what anhedonia feels like. This is what i have been experiencing for eleven months. This is what makes me so tired of living. What is...
    barrenfield barrenfield 16-17 3 Responses Aug 13, 2012

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    I Have Anhedonia

    I have no pleasure in life. I do not feel any emotions, hardly ever smile or laugh and have a real ''dread''feeling every second of the day and it never goes away. I have had depression on and off for fourteen years and had my second breakdown in november 2011. Since that time...
    cancan12345 cancan12345 36-40 2 Responses Jul 16, 2013

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    I'm Pretty Sure I Have This

    Very little enjoyment with conversations. 99% of people bore me in seconds No hobbies. Within the last few years I have stopped enjoying videogames, movies, books,tv Used to love listening to music.. now it is almost not worth it as the pleasure is so little Have endlessly...
    basino basino 18-21 1 Response Feb 17, 2011

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    What Do I Have?

    i have a sucky feeling in my head. it feels like theres a vacuum cleaner in my head.
    bobbybrewer bobbybrewer 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 25, 2012

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    All I Can Say Right Now Is...

    i hate it! feels so bad. and ep is saying this is too short. ok ok ok is this better?
    deeaqua deeaqua 51-55, F 3 Responses Dec 16, 2010

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    This Really Sounds Like Something I Have

    I've read a couple other stories here, and this is the first I'm hearing about this condition! I can't believe no proffessional has ever bothered to put this on paper. I mean, I still have preferances and desires, but it's only on the good days that I really FEEL anything at all...
    AngelaDark AngelaDark 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 12, 2011

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    Made An Account For This Website Just To Post This.

    I only just heard the term anhedonia for the first time in my life about 2 or 3 weeks ago, and ever since then my life's gotten a little better for it. Finding this website and reading these stories and comments has played a huge part in it getting better too. To know exactly...
    AlTheKiller2113 AlTheKiller2113 22-25, M 1 Response Oct 6, 2012

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    My Take On Dealing With Anhedonia- Just Do Stuff.

    I'm posting this in the sincere hope this may help other people stricken with anhedonia. My inability to enjoy things as I should makes me sad, but that sadness makes me motivated instead of depressed now, except on those (rarer and rarer) days where I don't catch myself, and let...
    Wonderatrix Wonderatrix 31-35, F 9 Responses Nov 13, 2011

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    Breaking The Bonds Of Anhedonia?

    I used to have feelings, until I experienced several years of relentless traumas.  Then I went into a depression (PTSD) in which I spent three years in bed.  8 years ago today, I went on disability leave and much to my disbelief, I'm still on it.   I feel (i.e., think - I...
    wfbach wfbach 56-60 3 Responses Apr 6, 2011

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    Asking Your Opinion: Do I Have Anhedonia?

    Hi. I used to have a very simple or one dimensional emotional life. Just felt vitality as a child, then around 16-19 life became more interesting and joyous to me - but I only felt happiness no other emotion for the most part except a nagging emptiness. Then I became...
    soberdig soberdig 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 12, 2012

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    Anhedonia Is...

    Anhedonia is the inability to feel pleasure.  But really, I can't feel anything emotional. It started when I was in junior high.  I remember asking people, "Do you ever feel like you're in a movie, just watching your life?"  And everybody would answer...
    Bradford Bradford 26-30, F 25 Responses Jan 17, 2008

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    Conditioning

    It seems that pleasure in the brain is all about conditioning.The practice of mindfulness reconditions our minds to receive pleasure from the normal everyday parts of our lives by paying greater attention to them. You basically tell your mind, "Look. This is worth paying...
    Wonderatrix Wonderatrix 31-35, F 8 Responses Nov 16, 2011

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    Anhedonia

    I've had bouts of anhedonia on and off since I was eight years old, I'm sixteen now. Its as if i have no feelings and find it hard to express emotions. I become zombie-like, non responsive and so much as lifting a finger tires me out quickly. I don't speak during these short...
    genbug genbug 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 18, 2013

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    Anhedonia After Taking Invega Sustenna

    I have Anhedonia and I don't know how to get rid of it all i know is that i got it after taking my antispychotic and i have no reward system and no pleasure so I want to get off it and I am trying to get off of the antipsychotic so i can get my dopamine back because it has been...
    A107 A107 13-15, F 6 Responses Dec 28, 2012

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    I Keep Forgetting This

    I keep forgetting what I am really trying to fix >_<This insidious poison has a name (anhedonia) and Knowing Thy Enemy is part 1 of getting better, but I keep forgetting that I am anhedonic in the first place. Whenever Aunt Flo makes an appearance, my hormones boost me to the...
    Wonderatrix Wonderatrix 31-35, F 5 Responses Nov 12, 2011

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    What Should I Do?

    I HAVE SUFFERED FROM SEVERE ANHEDONIA FOR OVER A DECADE NOW. SADLY; THE ONLY RELIEF/PLEASURE I HAVE FOUND WAS IN AMPHETAMINES...IS THERE ANY OTHER WAY OR MAYBE SOME KIND OF STABLE AMPHETAMINE RELATED MEDICATION THAT COULD BE SATASFACTORY?
    johngg78 johngg78 31-35, M 3 Responses Feb 12, 2010

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    I Have Anhedonia

    my whole life has been nothing but negativity my entire life ive been bullied in public schools picked on by kids being called ugly, fat, stupid... you name it... things dont always turn out the way you would hope they do and i guess thats just my life.. one big letdown after...
    mrbumpkins mrbumpkins 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 20, 2013

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    Anhedonia Caused By Risperidone

    before taking risperidone, i used to enjoy long listening to music and long walks. i also like to read about different things and was never bored. now all i want to read is things about my condition. i no longer like to walk. i spend all day surfing the internet about this and...
    iwishididnthaveanhedonia iwishididnthaveanhedonia 22-25 2 Responses Mar 23, 2013

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    Where It Got Screwed Up

    I can remember very few things I liked as a child. As an adult, hearing other people's experiences and seeing two therapists taught me that my  childhood was actually a traumatic experience and it's no surprise I blocked (forgot) most of it.Moving on to my teenage years doesn't...
    Wonderatrix Wonderatrix 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2011

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    Frustrating

    Nothing feels good and I long for some positive emotions. Recently at work someone said something that I knew was funny and I laughted but I couldn't feel the emotions. Everything is a drag, even doing things that I once loved to do so much. I am anhedonic because of...
    vivalagloria vivalagloria 22-25, F 5 Responses Aug 25, 2008

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    Today Is My Birthday, November 5th

    Today I turn 27. Birthdays are fun, they are your own special day when you are entitled to special attention and a few nice presents. I should be happy right? Well, that's the thing. I cannot feel positive emotion and I feel flat and halfway dead every moment of my life. You...
    StelliumInScorpio StelliumInScorpio 26-30 7 Responses Nov 5, 2011

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    Anhedonia Shock?

    I have anhedonia. Part of me wanted to be shocked into action when I learned of this word, anhedonia.. But, as with anything I do, it's like this big soft bubble which holds me from action stops my care factor from mounting enough energy to take a step. It's like, anytime I...
    narrator narrator 51-55, M 14 Responses Oct 3, 2009

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    Nothing in my life is fun anymore.

    I used to be such a bright kid, wanted to be so many things. Art was my greatest passion before this condition took over. Now the most exciting thing I do is reading the news. I never even knew this condition even existed. Depression without sadness. I am glad though, that I...
    RoyalPhase RoyalPhase 18-21, F Apr 19

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    Well it's been 6 months with 10.5 to go. It hasn't been easy but we are becoming stronger together everyday. I miss him so much. I'm lucky to have him close by. We talk almost...
    DeniseMarie72 DeniseMarie72 41-45, F 3 hrs ago

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    Two years ago today I never thought my life would change forever. October 20, 2012. I got pregnant at 16. All of these emotions are flooding in. I never thought I would actually...
    forgottenheart forgottenheart 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Come from a family of idiots who are currently trying to destroy each other, and am caught in the crossroads. The guy who stayed with me through it all cheated and left, and then...
    roza96 roza96 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    I really think I've given up. I've literally thrown my hands in the air and said to HE LL with it. I begged, I pleaded , I've worried myself sick, and I've cried enough to fill an...
    zanyzoey zanyzoey 36-40, F 1 hr ago

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    Political systems through out the world are just an updated version of old religions. They had sun gods earth gods water gods wind gods. Gods of the dead and beautiful among...
    thefisch thefisch 22-25, M 27 mins ago

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    I have crippling social anxiety. I have the worst times during the day because I am afraid to ask for help at work even when I really need it. Or even at stores. Even when a group...
    nwrner nwrner 16-17, M 4 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    For many years ever since i was a boy, i have always felt like a wolf, not human or anything just a wolf trapped in the wrong body and at this time in my life i knew nothing about...
    papaKwolf papaKwolf 22-25, M 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    Hm IF i were hugged, would i have the courage to hug back? Hm or would i just make a joke? Hm and how would u know when u like-like someone and isnt just a wrong thought? Hm i have...
    Crossfire14 Crossfire14 13-15, M 3 hrs ago

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    It's weird because for a long time I would irrationally hate and fear men who were really, really masculine. They would really intimidate me. Last year I had a teacher who just...
    motp motp 16-17, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    What's so wrong about being a spoiled brat? I have no life and I'm losing weight like crazy everyone's commenting about it even when they see me often. Can't I too have some sense...
    Concerto Concerto 22-25, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I won't. A lesson learned after years of trying to get along with ppl and being disappointed repeatedly. I am complex, complicated, and on the edge. I don't judge other people...
    sassyg1rl sassyg1rl 36-40, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    He molested me during childhood (he didn't drink back then) and my mother knew. I'm so sick of living at home...I don't even like looking at him and I can't stand that my parents...
    whereismyl0ve whereismyl0ve 18-21, F 6 hrs ago

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    I don't know if I'm just really dense or what, but based on my experience I don't recall having someone who shows that they're interested to me..thus I still don't have a boyfriend...
    aintamuggle aintamuggle 18-21, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    My dog keeps peeing and pooing in the house. I let him outside to do his business on an hourly basis but he holds it till he gets inside then goes in the house. What do I do? P.s...
    shelby270 shelby270 18-21, F 4 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Follow me!! I have nice photography on there :) @jennifer_wheat
    cawnbread cawnbread 18-21, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    i stubbed my toe and no i didn't cry like a baby babies don't have the lung capacity to do what i just did XD
    DDT97 DDT97 16-17, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I have this condition and it really gets me down, I've battled through depression all my life and dented my confidence to having any kind of relationship, feel like I'm stuck in a...
    stupot8484 stupot8484 26-30, M 3 hrs ago

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    If my wife (if I had one) ever asked me if love her with all my heart, I would reply, "No, because I can't just have you in my heart but also myself, my family, and all those who...
    TheTofuMaster TheTofuMaster 22-25, M 2 hrs ago

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    thats my dog don't ask what she's doing I have no idea
    chuckzares chuckzares 26-30, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    When I lived with my mum I used to literally run away and/or scream when she coughed. I have it to a lesser degree with my husband, and I also don't like mouth noises. It's...
    papercastles papercastles 22-25, F 1 hr ago

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    I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder. (GAD) I think I may also have borderline personality disorder. (BPD)
    imJboy2001 imJboy2001 13-15, M 1 hr ago

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    Since starting my own business 2 months ago, my anxiety has calmed down so much and I'm shocked what I've been able to do! It's also helped with my depression and I don't self harm...
    SecretGirl14 SecretGirl14 18-21, F 2 Responses 33 mins ago

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    There's no ugly women, only lazy women. So if you don't feel happy with your looks get up! Dress up! And wear makeup! You're pretty and kind and beautiful! You're all better than...
    Concerto Concerto 22-25, F 1 Response 20 mins ago

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    Do you ever think about those "almost relationships"? The ones where you meet someone, click, feelings start to develop and then it just stops. It's over before it even had the...
    diablesse34 diablesse34 46-50, F 1 Response 19 mins ago

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    They always seem to work out fine for me.... I'm black,white and Puerto Rican so naturally I have no problem with people loving whoever they want it has worked out fine for...
    Forbiddenkisses Forbiddenkisses 22-25, F 12 Responses Sep 20

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