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I Have Anorexia Nervosa

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 362 People

    My Constant Struggle With Anorexia Nervosa

    Hi, my name is Gabrielle. I suffer from anorexia nervosa. I have always had anxiety, depression, and OCD. I was doing great at school and I had just gotten a boyfriend who was just perfect. I decided that I wanted to be perfect so that I didn't disappoint anyone. I started...
    5 Responses Jan 12, 2013

    I'm starting to slip back into bad habits cause

    they die hard and I'm not fighting it anymore cause I'm just saying **** it
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    1 Response Dec 21, 2015
    VividMEhot VividMEhot
    18-21, F
    Apr 11

    Am I wrong? People tell me often

    that I have no right to "not want to get better". I am not an advocate for anorexia however I just don't want to be treated. I have suffered with anorexia since I was 16 years old. I have been in and out of group therapy, personal therapy, meetings, doctor visits, you name it I...
    0hSheanBreeze 0hSheanBreeze
    22-25, F
    Jan 3

    Well, I'll start with saying I only saw females

    posting here. Anorexia Nervosa may affect more females than males, but it still does affect males nevertheless. To my story though; I'm a 16 year old male, and I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa. I was always slightly more than skinny, but I wasn't really chubby until I hit...
    jacobpierce122497 jacobpierce122497
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Mar 10, 2014

    I am so terrified of gaining weight.

    I'm eating one small meal a day and it's always salad. Sometimes i skip my meal and it makes me feel better because it really isn't worth it to eat. I love how i feel within when I don't eat... I know that I am getting thinner and that comforts me.
    Skiniamin1 Skiniamin1
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 7, 2015

    I feel so ******* fat

    and gulity when I eat ,I feel better when I just have a healthy smoothie or some kind of liquid with not alot of calories. but it gets worse if I were to eat any kind of solid food that is over 200 calories...I just can't eat it
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    2 Responses Mar 6

    I've been suffering from anorexia nervosa

    for years now with bouts of treatment here and there. I am currently a little over 140 and am trying to get back to my ultimate goal weight, 100. It's a little bit harder for me now that I've gone through some treatment, I feel like I've hit a sort of plateau and can't lose...
    cotteykitten cotteykitten
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 22, 2015

    i recently acquired a small fridge

    for my bedroom, something i'm supposed to bring with me to my dorm in college. getting the fridge was a sign of maturity, proof that i'm growing up. however, all that's in that fridge right now is black tea (2 bottles, 16 ounces each, combined total of 8 calories), apples...
    neuropunk neuropunk
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 7

    OMFG, so I decided tooooo: eat normally

    for 2 days, Only 2!!! And not weigh my self for those 2 days. Okay so before I started I weighed myself and I was 91.2 Now when I weighed myself today I was 93.8!!!! I am so ******* stupid??!!?
    GabriellaFae GabriellaFae
    16-17, F
    1 Response Sep 12, 2014

    I was struggling with anorexia

    and bulimia last year for a few months but seemed to have snapped back from it easily. but now it's back and stronger than ever. I've lost so much weight it's insane but I just can't stop...
    ashleigh143 ashleigh143
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 4, 2015

    When most people hear the words "eating

    disorder", they imagine a white middle-class teenage girl. And they think the girl chooses to restrict, binge, or purge her eating because she just got her allowance taken away, or because she just has to fit into that new dress, or simply because she's bored. So when I tell...
    Musicwillsaveyoursoul Musicwillsaveyoursoul
    18-21, F
    Mar 30, 2015

    Jan 2015-Nov 2015 I've been making journal

    entries for myself for the last 4 years so it might not make any sense. But if you read it I hope you can know anorexia doesn't or shouldn't have to last forever. You never fully recover, you will always be recovering. It will take a long time. You can recover. I took me 3...
    Punchinginadream Punchinginadream
    18-21, F
    Nov 22, 2015
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    Jul 30, 2015

    I want an ana buddy. I'm 5"9'

    and I weigh 158 pounds UGW: 90 pounds
    chillingkat chillingkat
    22-25, F
    5 Responses Feb 18, 2015

    Help! I'm getting a breast reduction on

    Thursday. For two weeks I can't lift my arms above my shoulders or anything over 5 pounds. For a month I can't go to the gym. For two months I can't go to kickboxing. I'm going to lose my mind. How will I stay fit during recovery 😭😭
    ScarletWitch13 ScarletWitch13
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 2, 2015

    I've been diagnosed since I was 9.

    It's kind of a long story, because I'm still suffering today, but I can try to condense it. I started restricting when I was 7, and for about a year it went unnoticed. It took another year for doctors to diagnose me - but I got better. I followed a meal plan; I gained weight...
    maebaldoza maebaldoza
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 20, 2015

    Hey Eveyone what are the best diet to help lose

    weight really quickly, this would really help as I am fat ?
    elsapowelldooley elsapowelldooley
    16-17, F
    Jun 5, 2014

    i have anorexia and i have just been discharged

    from hospital after almost 2 mths of refeeding and sent home with a meal plan and a team of post acute care doctors etc, when i was admitted i was completely emaciated my electrolytes and potassium were at a lethal level and i very narrowly avoided the nasal gastro tube by being...
    deathbecomesher89 deathbecomesher89
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Jan 25, 2014

    I've had a handle on Ana

    for years and now she's back full force
    somebodyiusedtoknow1 somebodyiusedtoknow1
    51-55, M
    Oct 16, 2015

    I managed to fast all day today then tonight my

    family went to dinner and I purged with no control in front of my family and my mom said " I'm fearing that you are developing an eating disorder " to me and I just shushed her but I feel so fat and ugly now
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    Aug 1, 2015

    I was diagnosed in December,

    but I didn't need a doctor to tell me I was anorexic. I could recognize the symptoms of the disease. My boyfriend was the first to start questioning my eating habits. He was with me constantly, and he only saw me eat very rarely. He would ask me every night if I had eaten that...
    ioti ioti
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 19, 2015
    VividMEhot VividMEhot
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 16

    For the past six months,

    I've been in recovery. That's what my mom calls it at least. Basically, recovery just means getting fat. From the time that I was fourteen to late December of last year, I'd been alternating between not eating at all, eating only breakfast, and only.having protein shakes. I...
    colaut colaut
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 15, 2014
    borntobeskinny borntobeskinny
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 13, 2014

    Well it started a year ago I weighed 145 I had

    been called fat far to much. I was sick just sick of it. It started with a diet of 1200 calories. I binged one day and ended up purging that's when it all started. You see for the first 8 months it was bulimia I had lost to 123 pounds but that wasn't good enough I needed to be...
    broken12butterfly broken12butterfly
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Dec 26, 2013

    It started about a year ago,

    i was labelled by my doctors and family as overweight. (Height - 4'10" Weight - 110) At first I didn't care but when my family teased me about my weight and how much I eat, it began to bother me. So I started skipping over lunch at school and exercising to the point of...
    gypsyme gypsyme
    2 Responses Aug 26, 2015

    I'm pregnant. My weight was 139

    when I started. I was 150 about two weeks ago. My smallest pants don't fit anymore. I want to jump on the weight scale. I want to see how much my lard *** has gained but I know for the health of my baby I should. Good I'm struggling so hard. My "morning sickness" I want to say...
    artsydarling artsydarling
    18-21, F
    Jan 30

    I had anorexia when I was 11

    and nearly die if you want to know the full story inbox me x
    elsapowelldooley elsapowelldooley
    16-17, F
    Apr 20, 2014

    I told my mother about it

    and she got really angry and told me to get out, that was a month ago, I've definitely been getting worse. I get tired so easily now and feel weak. I'm used to turning to my mother for everything she's made it pretty clear she wants nothing to do with me
    xxXrozalinaXxx xxXrozalinaXxx
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 22, 2015

    I am lying again. I've stopped eating again.

    I'm letting everyone down and I can't stop. I'm so selfish that I've stopped caring and I feel so numb. I'm just so afraid and frightened. It's horrible and I feel disgusting. I try to recover but I realise that I don't even want to. I'm not thin enough yet. I can't stop it. It...
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    4 Responses Jan 21, 2015

    I just don't know if this makes sense to anyone

    else. Support appreciated. Thanks. I have an eating disorder. I have had an eating disorder off and on since I was 14 or so, maybe 15. I'm 23 now. My eating disorder has been steadily 'on' really bad for a year, for which I've been hospitalized for in a psych ward. At the time...
    ChantelSurvived ChantelSurvived
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Mar 2, 2015

    I Can't Help It!

    I never expected myself to end up with this eating disorder. When I just started my teenage years, I started growing up and gained weight a little faster than usual. My friends did not notice that I am a little chubbier than usual, but my parents did. They are already...
    Kaslyne Kaslyne
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 10, 2012

    I've been on and off with anorexia

    and bulimia for years now. I kind of joke about it and call it anorimia. I don't really feel ready to get better yet... I'm still not at my goal weight. I don't think it's unreasonable to want to be 125 pounds at 5'2. According to the bmi chart I should be 110. I'm hovering...
    ScarletWitch13 ScarletWitch13
    22-25, F
    Oct 22, 2015

    Um... I just told my mother.

    ... Everything. It was NOT my intention it just slipped out and she was really angry and yelling with tears and it was really sad because my mom doesn't deserve that but I don't regret anything
    Skiniamin1 Skiniamin1
    18-21, F
    Aug 4, 2015

    Unsure If I Need Help...

    I'm Pregnant with twins and was told I needed to gain 40#!!! I'm not super thin, not considered over weight, but the idea of gaining that much has caused major anxiety! I'm on anti-anxiety meds to cope. I have found it easy to avoid eating, but feel huge amounts of guilt knowing...
    Monemie13 Monemie13
    1 Response May 17, 2011

    I have had anorexia since I was 10.

    Just the other day I found an old calorie counting pad for January 2011, and I just felt so awful. I've battled with food related thoughts for as long as I can remember, and I always feel like self-starvation is a vice that I can use to get out bad feelings. I've started...
    will1982 will1982
    16-17, M
    1 Response Jul 20, 2015

    Every fairy tale needs a beautiful protagonist.

    Sadly, the maiden at the center of our sweet story is no such protagonist. I am not the fair maiden this tale deserves. Instead, my thighs resemble the sound of thunder, and my stomach leaves wanting. Outside of my sweet fairy tales, I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa last...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Feb 6, 2015

    how do I stop b/p ing.

    .. when I'm alone I sometimes take a bite of something and then I feel guilty and I purge an hour later the same thing happens.... what do I dooo?
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 6

    *Trigger warning* I've been lying about getting

    better to my bf. I want to tell him I've practically dropped 10 more lbs but one part of me wants to keep it a secret because i know what will come. He doesnt understand the sickness very well. How psycological it is and how many things make you not want to eat. Just being put...
    artsydarling artsydarling
    18-21, F
    Dec 2, 2015

    hi I'm new here looking

    for friends and support. I'm here to support people also. message me I'm always happy to have new ana buddies! I'm Gay (mostly pansexual), ftm transgender, and anorexic. cw:127-135 gw1: 120 gw2: 116 gw3: 109 gw4:100 Ugw: 95-98 my favorite bands are: Deftones, Strfkr, Avenged...
    AnaPrinceLucas AnaPrinceLucas
    16-17, T
    1 Response Mar 3, 2015

    Obsessed With My Eating Disorder.

    I love it but I hate it. It is making me more beautiful, making the fat go away. Each week I lose more weight...and I CRAVE it. I work out whenever I can, and I eat a maximum of 700 calories a day. I am trying not to go below 500 because the last time I did that I got very sick...
    NotTheAmericanAveragexx NotTheAmericanAveragexx
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Oct 21, 2013

    I was experiencing a lot

    if joint discomfort around two years ago that was interfering with my cheering, so I started seeing a physical therapist who, after three sessions, told me that I had an eating disorder. I didn't believe her. People with eating disorders are supposed to be skinny, right? I...
    karrotkace karrotkace
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jan 3, 2015

    Im mimi, Im 13 years old

    and I have Anorexia. I remember being 9 years old when I first compared how much fat was around my leg compared to my best friend but I still chose to ignore it. When I was 10 I started to always check the amount of fat that I could pinch off of my stomach every morning, but i'd...
    deleted deleted
    Jan 9

    I am currently in treatment from anorexia

    and it's so scary I feel like without my eating disorder I am nothing I've lost everything that mad me, me.
    lost1234567 lost1234567
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 14, 2014
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    Jul 30, 2015

    I'm new to this website

    so I'm a bit nervous saying stuff :s I was diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa over a year ago now after I had a relationship that went very badly wrong. I was hoping to meet someone who I could talk to whose had similar experience as I've suffered for so long on my own. Hope people...
    LoganCW LoganCW
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 9, 2015

    I've had anorexia since I was 13 my father

    would compare me to ny sisters and I would always be that fat, ugly and stupid one my sisters were both 100 pounds, engaged and in college and I have to rate geometry because I'm such a failure ?? I'm 150 pounds and I hate my body so much
    ankme ankme
    18-21, F
    Nov 28, 2014

    This is a hard one to really talk about,

    I just recently accepted the fact that I had anorexia. I have been diagnosed for a little over a year now and about two weeks ago I was getting dressed after checking my weight. I had just met my goal weight and looked over at the mirror and saw someone else. It was not me at...
    snowunderthestars snowunderthestars
    16-17, F
    2 Responses May 16, 2014
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