I Have Antisocial Personality Disorder

A Antisocial Personality Disorder anonymous support group with information on diagnosis, treatment, symptoms, along with personal stories and experiences with Antisocial Personality Disorder. You're not alone. 235 People

    I Am Who I Am . Sometimes I Wish I Could Just Get It Through To People But Whatever ..

    i am a socialpath . i dont have feelings like other people around me and i do not always understand how people can feel so strongly about thing like "love" and "death" sad happy stuff like that . i suck at relationships due to i do not know how to treat someone else . to care...
    aaraeaa aaraeaa
    7 Responses Nov 6, 2010

    I'm not sure of this is what I have

    or not, and I am not able at this time to see a doctor about it so if someone could help me out and listen and try to give me some insight, I can return the favor somehow and help you out somewhere in the long run when you need it
    kxCobra kxCobra
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 10, 2014

    I Still Feel Alone.

    I came here hoping to find others with ASPD that I could relate to. But I don't necessarily see this as something wrong with me, or a flaw that needs to be fixed. It just clears a lot of things up, now that I know. Things make more sense, and it's helped me embrace myself more...
    MsKoopa MsKoopa
    26-30, F
    1 Response Aug 15, 2013

    What A Ride?

    So a psychiatrist recently told me I have this disorder but doesn't want to write it down because hes just my treating doc from the locked up ward. My treating doc is a moron, although I begged him for months to lower my antidepressants as I am bipolar too he didn't, ignoring...
    Heavydex Heavydex
    31-35, M
    1 Response Dec 1, 2012

    I've been clinically diagnosed with sociopathy,

    ' I said. 'Do you know what that means?''It means you're a freak,' he said.'It means that you're about as important to me as a carboard box,' I said. 'You're just a thing - a piece of garbage that no one's thrown away yet. Is that what you want me to say?''Shut up,' said Rob. He...
    saffronlooby saffronlooby
    22-25, F
    Aug 30, 2015

    Out Of The Fog

    Striving to overcome my antisocial disorder: stop manipulating, stop lying, stop abusing; start feeling guilt and shame, start trusting. Learning to control my temper, developing self compassion. Accepting I am ASP, acknowledging it has affected my family, my relationships...
    Oman1650 Oman1650
    5 Responses Jun 21, 2013

    No Matter How Much I Try, My Antisocial Personality Disorder Keeps Controlling My Life

    I can't hold a job longer than 1 solid year. I've had at least 30 different jobs in the last 15 years. Just today I left my current position because of my uncontrollable anger and unrealistic rationalization. I act on spur of the moment emotion. My condition is only worsening...
    Jhaddad66 Jhaddad66
    31-35, M
    6 Responses Apr 10, 2011

    Aspd Not Exactly Equal To Sociopath?

    i'm not a sociopath or a cluster B PD sufferer, at least not that i'm aware of, but i've been doing a lot if reading around in relation to narcissism and its cousin sociopathy. i'm interested in learning about this different wiring of the brain, because as an aspergers person who...
    scratchedxthornxwrists scratchedxthornxwrists
    36-40, F
    6 Responses Jul 1, 2012
    SpitesPanties SpitesPanties
    31-35, M
    Sep 13, 2015

    Don't Know Why

    It took losing my job to realize that I'm definitely antisocial. I didn't connect with enough people in that company for them to want to hold on to me and vice versa. I guess that feeling I had back in high school never left me: I've always felt like an outsider. I don't fit in...
    mo1978 mo1978
    8 Responses Jun 29, 2009

    I Can Control Myself.

    .. Mostly-- I am and 18 year old highly functioning ASPD patient, and I would like to share with you all what I hide from everyone in my life. Firstly, my "condition" aside, I would also like to add that I am also a Pre-T FTM transgender man. This, amongst other known things...
    OryxTheOculus OryxTheOculus
    2 Responses Mar 1, 2014

    I Finally Know The Definition Of The Horror I Am Experiencing

    I have researched and found that I have antisocial personality disorder. I have suffered with this for a very long time. Now as an adult this disorder has taken a horrific toll on my life. I have thoughts that I cannot control and I have to cope with them daily. Every since I...
    theunlucky theunlucky
    26-30, F
    8 Responses May 22, 2012

    The panicked feeling of a guilty conscience

    never squeezes at your heart or wakes you in the middle of the night. Despite your lifestyle, you never feel irresponsible, neglectful, or so much as embarrassed, although for the sake of appearances, sometimes you pretend that you do. For example, if you are a decent observer...
    saffronlooby saffronlooby
    22-25, F
    Sep 8, 2015

    I'm so sad. I don't know

    where this sadness comes from, but its so powerful and overwhelming and with nothing to rationalize it, I become angry. My job requires me to be positive and yet I'm so furious and I can't stop it. I just want it to stop.
    shepardshigh shepardshigh
    22-25, M
    1 Response Feb 2, 2014

    The Industry Of Sanity: Are We All Insane?

    We people try to put ourselves to often into a box, a cliche i know, and for our dutch phrase that says, "als je een hond wilt slaan, dan vind je een stok!" meaning, if you want to hit a dog, you will find a stick. Lets not try to be so ******* hard on ourselves... Life is...
    volvo850stationwagon volvo850stationwagon
    36-40, M
    1 Response Feb 28, 2013

    Alienation. It seems to be the only thing I

    understand. The only of my own emotions that I'm not confused by.
    psychoticpsy psychoticpsy
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 3, 2014

    Time To Figure Things Out.

    I am not really sure where to start or go with this. I was officially diagnosed with ASPD and have also stopped seeing the shrink. I now can no longer even afford such services. I have a hard time understanding what is my error though through logical conclusions it must be...
    chaoticwaffle chaoticwaffle
    22-25, M
    Aug 24, 2013

    People Are A Waste Of My Time.

    I was always in trouble in school, but i was always able to get out of it. The teachers were so stupid, i could twist and bend them anyway i pleased. i don't know why i have this, i was meant to destroy. Everything i touch seems to die, But even if i could feel anything besides...
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Jul 19, 2011

    How can I change? I know im a terrible person,

    with the darkest perverse thoughts. But how do I stop? I'm basically an ******* whose good with getting people to like me, at least for a short amount of time. I've been lying in bed contemplating my future, what will I do? Im dependant, narcisstic, histrionic, paranoid and anti...
    Dryedup Dryedup
    18-21, M
    5 Responses Sep 15, 2014

    Are You Bad?

    Are you BAD (Battling Antisocial Disorders)?I'm a faith-based counselor in Texas and I'm doing my best right now to educate as many people as possible on ASPD. I'm even starting a therapeutic program for ex-offenders with the disorder. It's hard to get people to care about this...
    TheASPDExpert TheASPDExpert
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Oct 27, 2011

    I Spent 5 Years With You

    I had no idea this disorder existed. Do you know the ravages your dishonesty creates? People can truly love you even if you can't love them. It doesn't make them weak. You need to know you're not correct. People are stronger and smarter then you think. Realize you usually head...
    geojenn2000 geojenn2000
    4 Responses Apr 25, 2013

    Aspd And Me

    I was always "that kid" .. the one with anger problems, aggression issues, the kid you wouldn't want your kid to be friends with. I grew up in a middle class family and I was an only child for 12 years. other then the anger and aggression issues my life was pretty typical. I...
    Canadore Canadore
    2 Responses Oct 18, 2012

    hello i am an 18 yr old with aspd first thing

    is i have these moments that i call my laughing problem so well basically i thinks i can relate it to euphoria i get really excited sometimes even turned on my bosy get chills that feel good its almost like a high of sorts but the reason why i call it my laughing problem is...
    ipodman2134 ipodman2134
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jan 16, 2015

    I Have Anti Social Personality Disorder

    I have had trouble with the law and my behavior since age 13, that was the first time i was incarcerated also when i started using marijuana, acid and drinking . I have been in juvenile detention homes at least 20 times with stays ranging from one week to 3 months i also did a...
    osantiago77 osantiago77
    3 Responses May 9, 2011

    and if I read one bull **** fake arse kid going

    on about psychopaths I will start a psychiatry lecture. there is so much more to it. I have manners and morals, but despise stupidity and ignorance (unless it's me of course coz i will find an excuse for why whatever was said or done)
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 22, 2015

    i've this disorder from my bad environment.

    people bully me and i cannot do anything to fight back because of my weak body. now, i always bring stuntgun in my bag i also bring folded knife in my purse. i will use them when i meet someone that bully me.
    chocolattee chocolattee
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

    I've been diagnosed with APD

    for 3 years now, I'm sure I've had it my entire life because I cant remember the last time I cared, or had empathy for anything. Maybe I'm a psychopath, maybe I'm a sociopath, I have no clue on which value I belong. I know that everyday I wake up like any other human in the...
    DakotaMuffin DakotaMuffin
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Jan 6, 2015

    A Dialogue Between 'sociopath's?

    I noticed there is a forum option on these Experience pages, but when I clicked on this one's, there were only 2 posts. Why is that? Why are we all on here if not to start a dialogue, and discuss things related to sociopathy or psychopathy with each other? Are we as diagnosed...
    MsKoopa MsKoopa
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 1, 2013

    For years I always knew I was different

    and I could never explain why I compulsively did stuff regardless of the consequence I just so happened to go through a psychology book and it was as if somebody had watched me all my life. Needless to say I did not like that feeling at all but what's a girl to do?
    Couture21 Couture21
    26-30, F
    Feb 15, 2014

    As A Child

    I have always been different. I would get into so much trouble as a kid, ages 13-17. The true tipping point was at age 14 my family and the authorities thought God was that answer for me. All I needed to do was find him and all my issues would disappear. Well after two weeks of...
    rbfh rbfh
    26-30, F
    Jun 12, 2013

    One Of Those Days With People...

    I ditched everyone after work. Had to get away. I spent too much energy trying to keep the lid closed. In the worst place to be when you want to get away from people: China. God these people are disgusting, unintelligent, uncivilized piles of meat that act like they are on par...
    Ausweisen Ausweisen
    22-25, M
    1 Response Aug 19, 2013

    Need Urgent Help

    I'm a 33yo male and have come to the end of my tether. I know fundamentally, that there's something wrong with me. I lie and have left every single person I have ever come into contact with feeling like I'm a waste of space and air. My girlfriend is also at the end of her wits...
    Notgivingin Notgivingin
    36-40, M
    5 Responses Jul 27, 2013
    saffronlooby saffronlooby
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 13, 2015

    Don't Diagnose Yourself With ASPD

    If you have feelings, guilt, or remorse, you don't have ASPD. If you want to change, there's a 99% chance you don't have ASPD. If you have any feelings towards selflessness, you don't have ASPD. Stop diagnosing yourself and talk to an actual therapist about your issues.
    Lucero3 Lucero3
    Oct 1, 2013

    hello i am an 18 yr old with aspd first thing

    is i have these moments that i call my laughing problem so well basically i thinks i can relate it to euphoria i get really excited sometimes even turned on my bosy get chills that feel good its almost like a high of sorts but the reason why i call it my laughing problem is...
    ipodman2134 ipodman2134
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jan 15, 2015

    Though it's far f rom being the worst thing in

    the world, being a psychopath is an odd thing to journey through life as. I choose to not physically hurt other people, and mostly shy away from even correcting animals as I see fit. I lack nearly 100% of what people describe as being empathy, I can't remember a time that I've...
    bigwags239 bigwags239
    31-35, M
    1 Response Mar 16, 2015

    Just Keep Living

    I must admit that the first time I heard about ASPD I thought that this disorder was only for all the mass murderers that appear on tv, that is until they told me I had it too. I had just been arrested on charges of identity theft and after an hour with a woman who eventually was...
    Jjox Jjox
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 14, 2011

    I'm not a person seeking attention.

    Nor do I delude myself, or others, about who I am. I've been faking emotions since I was a young teen, just like the majority of us. I work alone, and from home, to make sure that I don't involve myself in others' lives. Because of my criminal history, I have no choice. Even if...
    poetrygonebad poetrygonebad
    36-40, M
    3 Responses Dec 16, 2014

    I'm Afraid To Tell The Truth...

    This page says I'm not alone but I feel alone. I'm so confused and scared. I live with the love of my life, but I've been lying to her since the day I met her. I told her that spirits can come into my body and she feel in love with those "people" instead of me. I manipulated and...
    dan4316 dan4316
    2 Responses Nov 4, 2012


    So I was diagnosed with conduct disorder when I was 15 and then with ASPD when I was 18. Then I stopped going to therapy. I'm currently in a relationship with someone who is schizotypal, and I care about them in my own way I suppose, more than most people, and I just can't seem...
    anonaspd anonaspd
    1 Response Aug 14, 2013

    Fishing In North Carolina

    At this moment my feet are in the sand. My step son and cousin along with his girl are fishing. I am sitting in a chair enjoying the crashing of the waves and the brilliant breeze. It's not bad. I just wish I wasn't a psychopath. I'd enjoy it more.
    Infectious100 Infectious100
    1 Response Aug 11, 2013
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