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I Have Antisocial Personality Disorder

A Antisocial Personality Disorder anonymous support group with information on diagnosis, treatment, symptoms, along with personal stories and experiences with Antisocial Personality Disorder. You're not alone. 151 People

    I Can Control Myself.

    .. Mostly-- I am and 18 year old highly functioning ASPD patient, and I would like to share with you all what I hide from everyone in my life. Firstly, my "condition" aside, I would also like to add that I am also a Pre-T FTM transgender man. This, amongst other known things...
    OryxTheOculus OryxTheOculus 18-21 1 Response Mar 1

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    Don't Diagnose Yourself With ASPD

    If you have feelings, guilt, or remorse, you don't have ASPD. If you want to change, there's a 99% chance you don't have ASPD. If you have any feelings towards selflessness, you don't have ASPD. Stop diagnosing yourself and talk to an actual therapist about your issues.
    Lucero3 Lucero3 22-25 Oct 1, 2013

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    Everyones Image Of Me Is So Skewed,

    Everyone I've ever met, both friendships and "relationships", have always fallen completely in love with the person I "am." To everyone in my life, I am sweet, caring, loyal, honest, and sexually inviting to some. Little do they know, for a certain amount of time atleast, that I...
    lucyyphurr lucyyphurr 18-21 2 Responses Nov 28, 2011

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    Don't Know Why

    It took losing my job to realize that I'm definitely antisocial. I didn't connect with enough people in that company for them to want to hold on to me and vice versa. I guess that feeling I had back in high school never left me: I've always felt like an outsider. I don't fit in...
    mo1978 mo1978 26-30 8 Responses Jun 29, 2009

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    The Industry Of Sanity: Are We All Insane?

    We people try to put ourselves to often into a box, a cliche i know, and for our dutch phrase that says, "als je een hond wilt slaan, dan vind je een stok!" meaning, if you want to hit a dog, you will find a stick. Lets not try to be so ******* hard on ourselves... Life is...
    volvo850stationwagon volvo850stationwagon 31-35, M 2 Responses Feb 28, 2013

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    I Am Who I Am . Sometimes I Wish I Could Just Get It Through To People But Whatever ..

    i am a socialpath . i dont have feelings like other people around me and i do not always understand how people can feel so strongly about thing like "love" and "death" sad happy stuff like that . i suck at relationships due to i do not know how to treat someone else . to care...
    aaraeaa aaraeaa 31-35 6 Responses Nov 6, 2010

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    Uh...

    So I was diagnosed with conduct disorder when I was 15 and then with ASPD when I was 18. Then I stopped going to therapy. I'm currently in a relationship with someone who is schizotypal, and I care about them in my own way I suppose, more than most people, and I just can't seem...
    anonaspd anonaspd 18-21 1 Response Aug 14, 2013

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    So I'm in need of some desperate help.

    I'm writing a dramatic monologue about a girl with ASPD, and her feelings towards what people around her say and think. You know, things like 'monster', 'not human', 'wolf among sheep', 'should be exposed/euthanised', the usual. For all those people with ASPD out there, I'd...
    ShiveringGaze27 ShiveringGaze27 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 22

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    How can I change? I know im a terrible person,

    with the darkest perverse thoughts. But how do I stop? I'm basically an ******* whose good with getting people to like me, at least for a short amount of time. I've been lying in bed contemplating my future, what will I do? Im dependant, narcisstic, histrionic, paranoid and anti...
    Dryedup Dryedup 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 15

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    One Of Those Days With People...

    I ditched everyone after work. Had to get away. I spent too much energy trying to keep the lid closed. In the worst place to be when you want to get away from people: China. God these people are disgusting, unintelligent, uncivilized piles of meat that act like they are on par...
    Ausweisen Ausweisen 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 19, 2013

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    I Finally Know The Definition Of The Horror I Am Experiencing

    I have researched and found that I have antisocial personality disorder. I have suffered with this for a very long time. Now as an adult this disorder has taken a horrific toll on my life. I have thoughts that I cannot control and I have to cope with them daily. Every since I...
    theunlucky theunlucky 26-30, F 8 Responses May 22, 2012

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    As A Child

    I have always been different. I would get into so much trouble as a kid, ages 13-17. The true tipping point was at age 14 my family and the authorities thought God was that answer for me. All I needed to do was find him and all my issues would disappear. Well after two weeks of...
    rbfh rbfh 22-25, F Jun 12, 2013

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    Just Keep Living

    I must admit that the first time I heard about ASPD I thought that this disorder was only for all the mass murderers that appear on tv, that is until they told me I had it too. I had just been arrested on charges of identity theft and after an hour with a woman who eventually was...
    Jjox Jjox 18-21, F 1 Response May 14, 2011

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    There Is A Way Out

    At 44 iam diagnosed with asdp. Now i have a new problem. Which is difficult to overcome? ASDP or the problems that ASDP created. I dont know. All I know is that Iam in a big trouble and I shud get out of this very soon for myself and my family. What I lost? 1.My career as a...
    aspdbuilder aspdbuilder 41-45, M 3 Responses Aug 9, 2012

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    People Are A Waste Of My Time.

    I was always in trouble in school, but i was always able to get out of it. The teachers were so stupid, i could twist and bend them anyway i pleased. i don't know why i have this, i was meant to destroy. Everything i touch seems to die, But even if i could feel anything besides...
    ZIGMAN ZIGMAN 18-21, M 4 Responses Jul 19, 2011

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    Need Urgent Help

    I'm a 33yo male and have come to the end of my tether. I know fundamentally, that there's something wrong with me. I lie and have left every single person I have ever come into contact with feeling like I'm a waste of space and air. My girlfriend is also at the end of her wits...
    Notgivingin Notgivingin 31-35, M 4 Responses Jul 27, 2013

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    I Have Anti Social Personality Disorder

    I have had trouble with the law and my behavior since age 13, that was the first time i was incarcerated also when i started using marijuana, acid and drinking . I have been in juvenile detention homes at least 20 times with stays ranging from one week to 3 months i also did a...
    osantiago77 osantiago77 31-35 3 Responses May 9, 2011

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    I Have A Point...Honest

    look i have something i want to articulate, however i am struggling to find the words. so i will post this in several different groups and see if someone can enlighten me as to the point i am trying to make! i have done a lot of morally questionable things. i have hurt a lot of...
    g1Fd g1Fd 31-35 4 Responses Sep 9, 2013

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    Diagnosed With Antisocial Personality Disorder Today

    This is my first time in here but i need help i been diagnosed this today i dont know if its true. This situation has me broken i dont feel happy i cannot believe the situation im in. I was interviewed by a doctor and around 20minutes of talking to me he told me this. He does...
    Anunnomus Anunnomus 18-21 2 Responses Mar 28, 2012

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    People Cry

    Fr I hate how people cry over EVERYTHING. My cousin visited me this week, And she gets soooo upset. So i told her to shut her mouth, then my aunt yelled at me. So i told her to shut her mouth too. She asked my mother to say something but my parents are so scared of me they just...
    ZIGMAN ZIGMAN 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 30, 2011

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    A Dialogue Between 'sociopath's?

    I noticed there is a forum option on these Experience pages, but when I clicked on this one's, there were only 2 posts. Why is that? Why are we all on here if not to start a dialogue, and discuss things related to sociopathy or psychopathy with each other? Are we as diagnosed...
    MsKoopa MsKoopa 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 1, 2013

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    Are You Bad?

    Are you BAD (Battling Antisocial Disorders)?I'm a faith-based counselor in Texas and I'm doing my best right now to educate as many people as possible on ASPD. I'm even starting a therapeutic program for ex-offenders with the disorder. It's hard to get people to care about this...
    TheASPDExpert TheASPDExpert 26-30, F 5 Responses Oct 27, 2011

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    Aspd And Me

    I was always "that kid" .. the one with anger problems, aggression issues, the kid you wouldn't want your kid to be friends with. I grew up in a middle class family and I was an only child for 12 years. other then the anger and aggression issues my life was pretty typical. I...
    Canadore Canadore 26-30 1 Response Oct 18, 2012

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    I'm not sure of this is what I have

    or not, and I am not able at this time to see a doctor about it so if someone could help me out and listen and try to give me some insight, I can return the favor somehow and help you out somewhere in the long run when you need it
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    No Matter How Much I Try, My Antisocial Personality Disorder Keeps Controlling My Life

    I can't hold a job longer than 1 solid year. I've had at least 30 different jobs in the last 15 years. Just today I left my current position because of my uncontrollable anger and unrealistic rationalization. I act on spur of the moment emotion. My condition is only worsening...
    Jhaddad66 Jhaddad66 31-35, M 6 Responses Apr 10, 2011

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    Aspd Not Exactly Equal To Sociopath?

    i'm not a sociopath or a cluster B PD sufferer, at least not that i'm aware of, but i've been doing a lot if reading around in relation to narcissism and its cousin sociopathy. i'm interested in learning about this different wiring of the brain, because as an aspergers person who...
    scratchedxthornxwrists scratchedxthornxwrists 36-40, F 7 Responses Jul 1, 2012

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    I Spent 5 Years With You

    I had no idea this disorder existed. Do you know the ravages your dishonesty creates? People can truly love you even if you can't love them. It doesn't make them weak. You need to know you're not correct. People are stronger and smarter then you think. Realize you usually head...
    geojenn2000 geojenn2000 46-50 4 Responses Apr 25, 2013

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    What A Ride?

    So a psychiatrist recently told me I have this disorder but doesn't want to write it down because hes just my treating doc from the locked up ward. My treating doc is a moron, although I begged him for months to lower my antidepressants as I am bipolar too he didn't, ignoring...
    Heavydex Heavydex 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 1, 2012

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    Out Of The Fog

    Striving to overcome my antisocial disorder: stop manipulating, stop lying, stop abusing; start feeling guilt and shame, start trusting. Learning to control my temper, developing self compassion. Accepting I am ASP, acknowledging it has affected my family, my relationships...
    Oman1650 Oman1650 66-70 4 Responses Jun 21, 2013

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    Time To Figure Things Out.

    I am not really sure where to start or go with this. I was officially diagnosed with ASPD and have also stopped seeing the shrink. I now can no longer even afford such services. I have a hard time understanding what is my error though through logical conclusions it must be...
    chaoticwaffle chaoticwaffle 18-21, M Aug 24, 2013

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    For years I always knew I was different

    and I could never explain why I compulsively did stuff regardless of the consequence I just so happened to go through a psychology book and it was as if somebody had watched me all my life. Needless to say I did not like that feeling at all but what's a girl to do?
    Couture21 Couture21 22-25, F Feb 15

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    I'm so sad. I don't know

    where this sadness comes from, but its so powerful and overwhelming and with nothing to rationalize it, I become angry. My job requires me to be positive and yet I'm so furious and I can't stop it. I just want it to stop.
    shepardshigh shepardshigh 18-21, M Feb 2

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    Now I Know - After All These Years

    The other day I was browsing EP groups and I stumbled on Dolly Diva's blog about the 10 Different Types of Personality Disorders...and found an accurate description of me in the Anti-Social Personality Disorder. I've had therapy for years and years and everyone diagnosed me...
    bellatejanita bellatejanita 36-40, F 3 Responses May 5, 2010

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    I'm Afraid To Tell The Truth...

    This page says I'm not alone but I feel alone. I'm so confused and scared. I live with the love of my life, but I've been lying to her since the day I met her. I told her that spirits can come into my body and she feel in love with those "people" instead of me. I manipulated and...
    dan4316 dan4316 26-30 1 Response Nov 4, 2012

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    Fishing In North Carolina

    At this moment my feet are in the sand. My step son and cousin along with his girl are fishing. I am sitting in a chair enjoying the crashing of the waves and the brilliant breeze. It's not bad. I just wish I wasn't a psychopath. I'd enjoy it more.
    Infectious100 Infectious100 36-40 1 Response Aug 11, 2013

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    I Still Feel Alone.

    I came here hoping to find others with ASPD that I could relate to. But I don't necessarily see this as something wrong with me, or a flaw that needs to be fixed. It just clears a lot of things up, now that I know. Things make more sense, and it's helped me embrace myself more...
    MsKoopa MsKoopa 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    WHAT IS - A BREAK DOWN OF IT: Personality disorder involve patterns of behavior, mood, social interaction and impulsiveness that causes distress to the one experiencing them...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 2 Responses Sep 8

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    I had a panic attack Friday night and was suicidal, I went to the hospital and the psychiatrist told me he thinks it's likely I have borderline personality disorder. If this is...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 21

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    I haven't written in a while. Not that there hasn't been anything to share. Simply that... I've been attempting to live my life without diarizing all of it publicly. I started...
    DanicaER DanicaER 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 20

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    Hi, I am new on EP, and I got here because I wanted to talk about this. Sorry if some things aren't clear, English isn't my mother tongue. I didn't went to any therapy or...
    SemperFilthy SemperFilthy 16-17, F Sep 14

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    and it's taken over my entire life. When I read about others having the disorder, I shift from feeling comforted (when I am relating to their symptoms) to utter hopelessness...
    jasiilovely jasiilovely 22-25, F 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    Who the **** am I????? I'm so beyond confused right now. It seems like since I got diagnosed idk what was really me and what was the disorder. My anger is irrational, I fall in...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 4 Responses Sep 11

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    I'm actually an alter in a certain someones system. I posted it here cause they post in the Dissociative Identity disorder experience. I don't think the host would be mad I made an...
    goatmother goatmother 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 16

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    hi just need to vent not feeling well i feel like im going off the deep end i dont like getting up in the morning anymore i want to avoid the night time when i get my cycle my...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 3 Responses Sep 17

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    I am recently out of the "denial" that I have a disorder. I am consciously aware that the thought processes within my neurological wiring are malfunctioning. I have the behaviors...
    utteringartist87 utteringartist87 26-30 1 Response 2 days ago

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    how do you love your self as i loathe myself i need love but cant receive my kid parts super angry at my parents as when i was younger i needproper parents and it so affected big...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 3 Responses Sep 11

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    I want to understand borderline more. No, I don't have it. I was misdiagnosed once, but I do have aspergers. Anyways, I have a friend with BPD and I wish to write a book about BPD...
    nikkianni nikkianni 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 4

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    I have 6 different alters they include a child alter, a happy energetic alter, a sad alter, a angry alter and a protector alter. I have had them ever since I was a child and we all...
    Jasmine368 Jasmine368 16-17, F 7 Responses Sep 4

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    I feel really, really bad... I keep having these dreams about how my parents treated me before they put me in a mental hospital, then about the year I spent in the mental hospital...
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 3 Responses Sep 5

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    have you ever stayed in a relationship because you're afraid of being alone? I don't know if I am.. I don't think I am staying in it for that reason.. I love someone so much but...
    kbeary kbeary 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 5

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    does anyone here to know how to cope i get up struggling everyday is a struggle just to get through the day ive gained so much weight that could be it i smoke to much its so black...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 3 Responses Sep 5

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