I Have Anxiety Forum & Chat Board | girlfriend in Asia.

Hi, seeing im 55 and single now, it is silly that I dont have no one to take to. I guess I want someone who doesnt know me, who wont judge me. Well I have been chatting to a lady in the Philippines for 10 months now. I said to myself, I would go there to meet her in person and see what happens. I have been to the phils before, as i use to do missionary before, and have volunteered in the phils before.
The last time I was there, 4 years ago, I got very sick, i got food poison and was in the hospital for 6 days.
So I am suppost to leave on May 3rd, but part of me is so worried, to go there. Lately I have not been feeling good, with stomach problems. One day i feel ok, but then next day my stomack is not good. I think I have IBS, Irratable bowel sysdrum. that many times if i eat something that dont agree with me, I am running to the wash room. so i feel stressed from thinking that. I guess i am thinking too much.
So I know it is very hot there, and I dont really like filying,, I will take 4 airplanes to go there. one flight is 14 hours long, from Vancouver to Hong Kong. and then 2 more short flights. then take a 5 hour bus ride... so it is a very long trip.
I did it before, 5 years ago. but im older now..and more aware of the area. and how hot it gets there. so I know If I want to meet her, i have to go there. I can make 20 excuses not to go..but I am not sure, I know how my stomach is.. so what do I do? I have 3 weeks to decide to go or not.