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I Have Attempted Suicide

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 180 People

    To Help Others

    I have always had a fascination with death. Turns out, I also had undiagnosed bipolar disorder. I was struggling through my last year of college, fighting depression. A doctor at the student health center put me on antidepressants and, as we tweaked the dosage, I experienced...
    Anthrogirl Anthrogirl
    1 Response Dec 23, 2009

    Never Again

    In 1996 I tried to commit suicide. I had been battling depression for a long time and thought it was the only way out not thinking about friends and family I took a bunch of pills and when I started feeling tired I realized I didn't want to die, that I wanted attention someone to...
    Teshaann Teshaann
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Apr 29, 2008

    Once Again

    Ive been in a really bad head space the last few weeks, my psychiatrist started me on 75mg of Effexor and I have already been on 100mg seroquel a night for years in just few weeks my seroquel has jumped to 300mg a night and the Effexor also to 300mg a day. I still don't feel any...
    secretalexis1 secretalexis1
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Sep 17, 2008

    Destined to Die?

    In all honesty, I don't know how I let it get that bad. I was a scholarship student at a private school, the quiet one in a group of rowdy teens. If someone were to ask me, how did it all start, what would my answer be? Most likely, I don't know, it just did. Somehow I forced...
    DaughterDestiny DaughterDestiny
    18-21, F
    Feb 15, 2008

    Things to do today: 1-Donate some of my clothes.

    2- Reconnect with my old acquaintances and apologize for being an a s s h o l e. 3- Put anger into concrete expressive productions that do not include any form of selfdestruction. 4- meditate. 5- Buy something for myself from you. 6- sit down and eat.
    Thesystem Thesystem
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Feb 2, 2015

    My Story

    Well 20 years ago I got married,  following this I was sent away on a course.  I was in the armed forces then,  I was travelling back home at the weekend and haed a head on crash with a lorry (truck).  I recieved brain damage and other injures,  I went...
    deleted deleted
    May 3, 2010

    A Dumb Reason.

    yes, I have attempted suicide in my past. and I had such a foolish reason for it. when I was 13, I fell into a big crush on my pastor's son. it was a strong infatuation, but at the time I mistook it for love. when he rejected me, it wasn't because he liked someone else or he had...
    inoatheart inoatheart
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 16, 2008

    I've tried three times,

    once when I was 13 (but that one only sort of counts, I didn't really think It'd work), once when I was 15, and once about six months ago. I'm damn good at failing! One of those times, I changed my mind and got help myself, and the other time a friend dragged me to the hospital...
    KittyCunt KittyCunt
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 31, 2015

    and for some reason,

    after 10 attempts, I'm still here.
    octopieyes octopieyes
    22-25, F
    1 Response Sep 25, 2014

    Forget Me

    Here's how things are supposed to work out. You grow up go to college (or maybe not), get a successful career, maybe get married or not, have children or not--but mainly you get to lead the life you want. I wish this had happened to me. I was fifteen when I first attempted...
    sheisme sheisme
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Nov 11, 2007

    I Have Attempted Suicide Too & to Be Honest I Want to Now If Not For..........well My Family

    I have decided to write this after answering the third letter here. I was doing quite well with my CBT. DBT and psychotherapy etc. but my physical body is conspiring against me that is for sure. This is not something temporary but I have ME/CFS/FM,because of this I catch...
    angelcat angelcat
    41-45, F
    Oct 7, 2008

    So Close Yet So Far

    i have tried many times but fate always has stepped in. breaking the rope multiple times. but one particular time i tried something different. i took a bottle of prescription strength ibprofin about 40 or so 800mg pills so 32,000mg within 45 minutes. taking them was so easy, i...
    deleted deleted
    Dec 31, 2009

    How Many More Times Must I Try?

    I really hate life some days. It is difficult to find much to live for anymore. I have already attempted suicide 3 times: the first was pills and I didn't take enough; the second was pills (sleeping pills this time) and I ended up throwing them up while I was asleep; the third...
    BrooklynCat BrooklynCat
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 2, 2013

    A Knife For Bread and a Knife For....?

    Quite simply, I've only ever attempted suicide twice. Both involved knives, and both involved my eventual taking it out on the kitchen counter. The context of why and discussions and revalations after are the more important pieces of information.   When I was 10, I had my...
    PhilosphicalNonsense PhilosphicalNonsense
    18-21, M
    Oct 5, 2009

    May 2007 And September 2011

    I was 17 years old... My boyfriend who was in the military was in Chicago. High school was coming to an end and i would be going on the college at the University of Nevada, Reno the following fall. From the outside everything seemed okay, but, the truth is, I have bottled up my...
    seemeforme2112 seemeforme2112
    22-25, F
    Feb 19, 2012

    Mt Attempts 2011- Current

    I was 20 around September 29th. when i tried to commit suicide for the first time. I tried jumping into a pool at an Apartment complex, little did i know that the gate was locked. I was sent to Cedar rapids "Mercy Hospital" there in Iowa for about 2 and a half days. It wasn't a...
    Shaunagloden Shaunagloden
    18-21, F
    Oct 26, 2012

    Would You Like Some Seppuku Or Jigai Or Suicide With That Order?

    My attempted self murder was really stupid on my part which led me to extensive research on methods and "How To Kill Yourself For Dummies", later on I found out how stupid I was.   I used a plastic bag... Someone had said in an article...
    Neur0ticism Neur0ticism
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Feb 7, 2008

    Mad World.

    I feel like my life is empty. I find pleasure in nothing. I usually go outside to see friends and alike but all my smiles are fake ones, my thoughts are disturbed. Even now when writing this I'm under painkillers and alcohol. I've done so many drugs, drank so much and popped so...
    belyv belyv
    18-21, M
    Sep 7, 2012


    i have attepted suicide many times but in vain.though about a month ago i nearly died but thanks to me best friend im still here today.i took 90 tablets of anti-psycotics nd sedatives.i had to be intubated for 48 hrs nd was on the neurology critical ward for another 48hrs.goosh...
    bootyb bootyb
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Nov 14, 2007

    When I Was 12

    I woke up that morning with the idea in my head.  I waited until everyone was gone, and then went to the medicine cabinet and grabbed any pills I could find, then went to the kitchen counter where my old anti-depressants were and grabbed the FULL bottle...And a few...
    moonlit1 moonlit1
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Nov 1, 2008

    Still Here Damnit.

    Well, I have tried since I was a kid various attempts at killing myself.  I remember at a really young age trying to stab myself in the stomach in my mother's kitchen, but being to scared of the physical pain.    I'm 27 now.  I still wish I was...
    FlyingNinjas FlyingNinjas
    26-30, F
    Dec 5, 2009

    The Pills

    I remember doing this back when I was in the like the sixth grade.  My dad had finished yelling at me about how much of an idiot I was and walked out of the house.  He doesn't know it, but I swallowed a large pile of aspirin right after he left.  I felt sick as...
    rorschach246 rorschach246
    18-21, M
    Nov 27, 2009

    I just got back from the hospital 2 weeks ago.

    Dec 5th my car was totaled. I've been dealing with a lot of issues legal wise, adding this was what broke me. When I got home, I couldn't get the thought out of my head that "nothing good ever happens to me". It wouldn't leave. I grabbed all my prescription meds. I sorted out...
    DaFufinator DaFufinator
    22-25, M
    Feb 3, 2015

    I Forget How Many Times I Have Tried...

    The first time I tried to kill myself was when I was 16. I lived in a hostel for homeless people after my parents kicked me out, I so wanted to go back home. Living there was hell and I had no money. I took a whole pack of headache tablets and then confessed to the...
    nerd8192 nerd8192
    26-30, M
    Dec 15, 2009

    Death Becomes the Guilty

    Sixteen years old, deeply traumatized by psychotic and violent "friends" and suffering from Dissociative Identity Disorder as well as Depression (the former not diagnosed at the time). Already I hated Tuesdays, although I wasn't sure why at the time. But it was a...
    DaughterDestiny DaughterDestiny
    18-21, F
    Jul 19, 2008

    Several Times Actually

    There was the time I attempted to smother myself which obviously didn't work. I attempted to hang myself once and would have succeeded if I had kicked the ladder away more effectively and not given in to survival instinct. I recently tried to drown myself but I made too much...
    UnhappinessPersonified UnhappinessPersonified
    18-21, M
    Aug 27, 2011


      my dad left me at age 11 after raping me multiple times and my mom just told me a few months ago she made a mistake having me, i guess it as 3 months ago and i had a big blowout with my mom and so i took 35 extra strength pain killers hoping i would just fall asleep...
    stillthinkingaboutdoingit stillthinkingaboutdoingit
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Sep 26, 2009

    The Dark Journey

     Throughout my life, I have tempted fate. At 19, I turned the propane on myself in my parent's camper when we traveled back east. At 21, on a dare, I attempted to hang myself. At 32, I took sominex with beer to wash it down. I ended up sleeping like a baby, and awoke with a...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jan 1, 2010

    Please Help Me Prevent Suicide

    Is there anyone who has attempted suicide and is now living a wonderful, happy life, that would like to shoot a short testimonial video telling their story and offering their words of advice and inspiration to teenagers who may be considering taking their own life? I am going...
    nysspf nysspf
    1 Response Apr 19, 2011

    Dual Diagnosis Major Depression With Mood Disorder Nos, Recovering Alcoholic

      I am using KarateDawn as my user name.  Not ready to share my real name I guess.  I attempted suicide in Feb 2008 by over dosing on Xanax and alcohol, and had my stomach pumped.  Of course I was in a blackout so I don't remember it.  Then recently in...
    KarateDawn KarateDawn
    2 Responses Aug 22, 2010

    First Time

    I was 4 or 5 years old, i was tired of the pain of being sick i was tired of what others were doing to me at the baby sittiers i took my teddy wolf a blanket and knew a train would be by soon and went and sat down on the railroads tracks with my back to the train call it poor...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2
    61-65, M
    Mar 1, 2011

    Suicide I Tried It

    for the last five years i have been down a very dark road and when i realy feel i am not getting anywhere i jst end up taking the easy way out for on several occasions i have attempted suicide i have taken painkillers and alo my diebetic medication only in januaryi truly felt...
    bearsdenguy bearsdenguy
    46-50, M
    Jul 6, 2010

    I tried to kill myself 8 years ago,

    but failed, now I'm considering it again. I'm sick of hearing people say, "It's not that bad." Yes, it is, actually it's worse. Someone save me... I don't know if I can save myself again.
    justmeaguy justmeaguy
    31-35, M
    1 Response Feb 22, 2015

    Wasn't My Time.

    It was in 1999 that I attemped suicide.My Husband was a heavy drinker and a complusive cheater.He wanted to have Me at home,taking care of Kids and washing,cooking and sex when He wanted,But He wanted to run off and drink all day,Have sex with whoever,whenever.He also has a habit...
    HeartOnnaLiveWire HeartOnnaLiveWire
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Aug 25, 2008

    I Never Tried To Kill Myself...

    Two years ago, I was admitted into a psych ward from rehab cuz I was slitting my wrist up. A year later, I was admitted into a different hospital for taking a bunch of tylenol and cutting again. I never doubted, even once, that I wanted to die back then. I didn't know why, I just...
    xxdreamchas3r913 xxdreamchas3r913
    18-21, M
    1 Response May 18, 2011

    The Reaper Apparently Doesn't Want Me

     But I will wear him down eventually. We all do. I spend my days waiting for him to take pity on me finally. To allow the mortal body & all that goes with it to die. Yes, I have attempted suicide a couple of times. One got me put into a home for suicide watch (I was...
    MysticWynds MysticWynds
    Sep 1, 2009

    Last Weekend

    I nearly lost the battle with depression and loneliness, and was taken tae the Hospital Psych Ward, I just got out today. I feel some better thanks tae the meds and the counseling. I am however still depressed and not sure if I would be missed if I died. But it seems that even at...
    Raibeart Raibeart
    51-55, M
    10 Responses May 7, 2008

    I attempted 3 times while living with my

    boyfriend. I had never attempted before. I had come close to attempting. The first time was a week or two after getting there. He, her and I had spent the weekend's at his dad's house. I was anxious and scared, and she was bored, and that pissed him off. He became angry and we...
    C0llin C0llin
    Dec 28, 2013
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