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I Have Avoidant Personality Disorder

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    Apd

    My APD started when I lost my leg when I was 11 one day I found the symptoms of APD on one of my online procrastinating rituals and I was shocked to see I met every single description. In the worst form possible too I don't trust my immediate family nor do I like talking to them...
    redoctober2013 redoctober2013 22-25 May 30, 2013

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    I'm just not sure....

    I've been playing with the idea that I have Avoidant personality disorder for awhile now. I'm soon to be 21 just for your reference. I've always been a real shy kid, sensitive to other's emotions, and hyper-aware of what people thought of me. I would cry all the time in class if...
    popcorngoo popcorngoo 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    I Think Too Much.

    I was diagnosed a little over a year ago? It's probably been longer, actually. Back then i had a boyfriend who could deal with me being that way, but then again i took on his personality to escape from my own. Now i'm a lot stronger, i do a lot more things - But i still have...
    AkaiKarasu AkaiKarasu 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 17, 2012

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    Is This Common In Avpd?

    I'm extremely bothered by the amounts of nudity and sexuality in everything these days. It makes me almost not want to be intimate with my bf of more then a year. I want to be the only girl he wants but it's not possible with every chick on tv getting naked at the drop of the hat...
    SheWolf92 SheWolf92 22-25, F 5 Responses Sep 16, 2012

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    I haven't actually been diagnosed with this

    disorder but I have all the symptoms of it. And I have a hard time getting close to people. I'm just trying to start to open up more to people. I've only told one person about this and it was really scary for me because I've read people's stories about when they told someone...
    chaos16 chaos16 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    My Symptoms Of Avpd

    I'm supposed to name 5 things I like about myself and my life a day, but it's nearly impossible. These are the negatives. These are my struggles with my disorder. -I hate everything about my physical appearance. There is nothing beautiful about me, even the ones I like are so...
    Hilarie91 Hilarie91 22-25, F 7 Responses Oct 10, 2012

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    I Love To Meet You But I'd Probably Avoid You

    I don't have a story about this. I don't know how I got it, probably from my childhood experiences. I avoid everything and everyone. I avoid my roommates, I avoid the people at work. It's crazy, I'm charming and liked, but I still avoid everything. Too much anxiety, most like. It...
    Cryptifly Cryptifly 26-30, M 3 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    Preoccupied With The Approval Of Others

    Hello everyone.  I've not been formally diagnosed with this disorder, and as I understand, many of the symptoms are comorbid with many other psychological disorders.  I'm researching the DSM right now, and trying to figure out what I think may be going on with me...
    somegirl12345678 somegirl12345678 26-30 3 Responses May 9, 2010

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    The Hidden Disability - Avoidant Personality Disorder

    I have had this for so many years. People do not understand because they can not see with their eyes any thing wrong. I have went through so many ups and downs. So many different ways of trying to cope. I have a wonderful husband and can go out with him in the car other than that...
    ep31 ep31 46-50, F 2 Responses Aug 25, 2013

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    Down In A Hole

    Bury me softly in this womb I kept this part of me from you Sand rains down and here I sit Holding rare flowers In a tomb... in bloom Down in a hole and I don't know if I can be saved See my heart I decorate it like a grave Well you don't understand who they Thought I was...
    Tbone33 Tbone33 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 1, 2013

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    Has anyone tried daily use of something like

    Ativan? I would much rather develop a benzo addiction and keep my friends / make new friends than be a ******* hermit for the rest of my life.
    StarFox11 StarFox11 22-25, M Apr 11

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    I will never bother you I will never promise

    to I will never follow you I will never bother you Never speak a word again I will crawl away for good I will move away from here You wont be afraid of fear No thought was put in to this I always knew it would come to this Things have never been so swell I have...
    Tbone33 Tbone33 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    It's All So Clear Now. . .

    So there I was, in my usual spot. All by myself against the wall during lunch. I was reading my psychology book, as I have no friends that I talk to at school and I had that class next. I came across a really interesting bit in that book: "People with avoidant personality...
    aday4evr aday4evr 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 28, 2012

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    Where To Start......

    Hi everyone. I am a 51 y/o married woman with one adult child and I have struggled with this "disorder", as I have just recently learned it is referred, my whole life. This is my first time blogging anything let alone such a personal story, and I hardly know where to start. I...
    MarcyDee MarcyDee 51-55, F 1 Response Jun 2, 2012

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    My Life And Avoidant Personality Disorder

    I have never been diagnosed with this disorder and at this point I don't feel the need to see a psychiatrist, as from experiece, I think that their medications do more harm than good for a person such as myself. I certainly don't want this disorder, it doesn't suit me to have a...
    andyjjj andyjjj 26-30, M 9 Responses Apr 2, 2011

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    I Don't Mean To Be Awkward By Avoiding People

    Hahaha, I'm so glad there is a recognized avoidant personality disorder here. I don't know why but I just avoid people when I'm walking through a hallway or anything. I just dont want it to be awkward. Cause it already is awkward. And then it becomes even more awkward because i'm...
    sarisii sarisii 16-17, F Dec 3, 2013

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    I find it easier to talk with strangers in the

    grocery store than to talk to my next door neighbors.
    Beth403 Beth403 41-45, F Feb 11

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    I was recently diagnosed with AvPD.

    This is how I responded when my therapist read the traits. DSM-IV Criteria for Avoidant Personality Disorder (301.82)* A pervasive pattern of social inhibition, feelings of inadequacy, and hypersensitivity to negative evaluation, beginning by early adulthood and present in a...
    Beth403 Beth403 41-45, F 3 Responses Feb 11

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    Recovery Through Mndfullness

    I have struggled with AVP for over 40 years - In the past 6 months I have been practicing Mindfullness and have seen a massive improvement in my behaviour and outlook on life. By becoming mindfull you can give yourself a choice in that split second before it happens to be fearful...
    mindfullness mindfullness 46-50, M 1 Response Aug 30, 2013

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    Life Is Taking Forever.

    Hello all. Long time sufferer, first time writer. Having just been diagnosed with this disorder I just wanted to introduce myself. I am 30 years old and have always thought there was something different about me. Something so deeply ingrained that it was not just shyness or...
    Eyesolated Eyesolated 31-35, M 1 Response Oct 22, 2013

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    AvPD At 30

    I hit the 'BIG THREE OH' this year. It really is a shame that all birthdays after the age of 21, seem to have diminishing returns in terms of being desirable landmarks. I am sure that I, like many other sufferers/endurers of AvPD, need little prompting to partake in a spot of...
    andyjjj andyjjj 26-30, M 7 Responses Oct 16, 2012

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    The first time I heard of this was reading

    peoples posts on here. And reading them makes me feel that there's a good chance I have the same thing!!
    Marriedbutlooking82 Marriedbutlooking82 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 21, 2013

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    I Think I Am...

    I've ALWAYS thought something was wrong with me. For as long as I can remember I've had difficulty interacting with people. I would feel socially awkward because I didn't know how to interact or make "small talk." I felt intimidated because they could talk so easily and strike...
    NaNeenah NaNeenah 31-35, F 3 Responses Apr 4, 2010

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    Where My Energy Gets Lost

    Being in my mid twenties, I feel like everyone my age is so vibrant with energy, so focused on chasing their dreams and finding out where they belong. While they seem to run forward into a bright future full of happiness, I fear that it's only a matter of time until I have fallen...
    IsItMedicine IsItMedicine 22-25 May 30, 2013

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    how can a person have apd

    and be a narcissist. anyone elce have these two disorders? the vulnerable narcissist? im a rare breed .. im self obsessed and avoidant and anxious.
    nikeboy488 nikeboy488 22-25, M 3 Responses Jan 24

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    Hi, I was diagnosed with Avoidant Personality

    Disorder a few months ago. I have always struggled all my life but I also force myself to do things, like go to work, go shopping etc. I have a 8 year old child and I'm a single mum. I recently decided to join a dating website to maybe try to meet Mr Right. I met this guy...
    stephanie29 stephanie29 26-30, F 2 Responses Feb 22

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    Why I'm Thankful

    This disease more even more than others causes us to focus on what goes wrong in life. Rarely do think about what went wrong. So I decided I’m going to list what is good in my life. I’m a hard worker. I go to a first rate university in a booming city. I’m taking steps...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 15, 2011

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    Living Like A Hermit

    Other than my family members and a few of my mother friends I had not talk to anyone for years. I distanced myself from a few friends I had and I had no social life at all. Sometimes I wished that I'm death so I don't have to live like that for the years to come, I have given up...
    milo001 milo001 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 10, 2013

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    I just joined this group in hopes of meeting

    people who might understand me a little. But then I thought about it & got to wondering: does anyone in this group actually talk? This is difficult. I trust you understand.
    self2ostracized self2ostracized 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 17

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    Any Advice Would Be Good...

    Any advice about the general direction I should go, or if there's anything I can do would be very appreciated. Okay, so right now I'm living with my friend and her 2 year old daughter. I get paid to babysit and live here rent free. I've never been amazing with kids. I have a...
    cdas28 cdas28 18-21 3 Responses Oct 20, 2012

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    For The New Semester

    College is a horrible nightmare. You're surrounded by the same people day in and day out. You see them in the dorm. You see them in class. You even see them at the library where you try to fence yourself off from the world and relax so you can get some damn work done. After a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 26, 2011

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    Ya Think?

    Yes, I avoid social situations. I don't work. I assume I wouldn't pass an interview because I could not respond in the way I used to. Takes quick thinking. And I haven't worked since 2008 and don't know how to explain that. Basically, I don't like leaving the house anymore. Its...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Feb 9, 2012

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    Apd

    OK, my story.. I was fine until I reached 13. Something changed in me. I developed what seemed like a school phobia (up all night worrying, withdrawn at school, terrified...) It was a dark time for me. Too much to say... I changed again and seemed ok for a while, for about a...
    zita27 zita27 36-40, F 6 Responses Sep 25, 2012

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    Seems To Fit

    It is hard to admit it but I think this is me. Most of the symptoms match. Years ago I discovered the word Introvert and thought it fitted quite well. I always thought of myself as a rather extreme introvert though. APD seems to fit even better.
    wraithorn wraithorn 41-45, M 6 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    Job Interview

    I feel like I need to get my life on the right track, I'm 25 and I had a couple of jobs while i was in college but now I can't seem to convince myself even to go to the interview. I am way too anxious. I had a job interview the other day, great job, well paid, I just couldn't go...
    karmame karmame 22-25 1 Response Oct 14, 2013

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    An Eternal Struggle?

    As a 27-year old, dealing with my Avoidant Personality Disorder is a constant challenge. As far back as I can remember, I was always a quiet and reserved child. I loved being with my immediate family, but I always felt uncomfortable in some way socializing with other people...
    etherealexistence etherealexistence 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 27, 2012

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    What Lies Beneath

    I was always a painfully shy, awkward child.  My mother once told me that when she came to collect me after my first day at nursery I was sitting in the corner by myself. She spoke to my nursery teacher who told her that I hadn't moved from that spot all day and hadn't...
    MB1980 MB1980 31-35 2 Responses Jun 22, 2013

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    Don't Know What That Is.

    I feel myself withdrawing from life. I live a lie every day. Acting how I see as normal, saying I love you, when I'm not sure if I even know what that means. My feelings becoming more and more distant. My heart becoming harder. I've seen a psychiatrist and a psychologist for 10...
    TeresasTears TeresasTears 56-60, F 3 Responses Oct 14, 2013

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    The Curse

    Before I say anything I would like to add that I was never diagnosed with this, but I do have almost every single symptom of it and live it every single day of my life. But since it isn't curable, I find no real reason to seek help for it. If you have APD I'm sure you will...
    KnightOfJustice KnightOfJustice 18-21, M 3 Responses Jul 25, 2013

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    Wow That Hurt A Little... Or A Lot...

    I went on facebook today after not going on for a month. My worst nightmare came true. The guy I’ve been really liking since the summer, apparently had a girlfriend and broke up or something within that month. I don’t even know how these things happen. I’m just numb now, it...
    Gemma8 Gemma8 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 17, 2013

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    The Long Way Home

    I've been meaning to write in this group for ages but was worried i might say the wrong thing so didn't bother.Shall i walk along the main road to town, or through the forests and hills so as not to bump into anyone?Shall i go to the shops to buy my goods, or order from the...
    jerrychap jerrychap 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 21, 2010

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    Finally, A Diagnosis

    i always knew that something was wrong with me.i once saw a psychologist who diagnosed me with having low self esteem.that is just a symptom of a more serious problem but i could not understand what.that was until i was studying my psychiatry book(i am a medical student)that i...
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    My Life

    I've never heard about APD before this but since reading all the posts I am pretty sure I have it. Take today for example - there were a group of people my age but I didn't speak nor do I ever speak to them because of the what ifs. What if they think I'm weird? what if they think...
    99issues 99issues 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 6, 2012

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    About My Avoidant Behavior And Beliefs

    I've joined this group hoping to find other people who identify with the way I see the world. So, I'm going to attempt to write down some of my own observations about myself and my avoidant belief system. I apologize in advance if I ramble. I have actually tried this before on a...
    AlienInDisguise AlienInDisguise 31-35, M 5 Responses Dec 14, 2010

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    Social mugging: Held at eye point in a crowded

    room having your interests, hobbies, life story and all other precious and valuable social information demanded of you. At every social event I've gone to they want to make EVERYONE feel included, no wallflowers allowed. There always seem to be that one bubbly extrovert who...
    Beth403 Beth403 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 24

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    Hi, I don't have apd

    but my husband does. it's very hard living with someone with this disorder. Everything is on his terms and if something goes wrong it's like walking on egg shells. Is there anyone that can help me understand apd? I love my husband and want to know how to help him.
    Lmm14 Lmm14 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    The Symtoms Of Avoidant Personality Disorder Fit Me To A T.

    As I was growing up, I was always the quiet and shy child. From as long as I can remember it's always been hard for me to make friends, while I saw other people make friends so easily. I struggle in social situations to put my say in because I'm afraid that I'm going to embarrass...
    Gemma8 Gemma8 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 20, 2013

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    I Wonder If I Have Apd?

    so browsing stumble upon one day i came across a page of personality disorders. And as i read it i realized the APD sounded a lot like me. I have always had trouble making friends. i figured it was just shyness. i have a hard time making conversations with people. (usually i can...
    Ch1561 Ch1561 18-21 2 Responses Sep 21, 2012

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    A Lone Wolf

    Damn I hate this disorder. I'm afraid of talking to anybody about it because I've been criticized by my parents my whole childhood, adolescents, and even now and I'm 19! I just can't talk to anyone, whenever someone around me is talking about a subject I like and want to say...
    Tbone33 Tbone33 18-21, M 5 Responses Mar 8, 2013

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    My Life

    I didn't want to wright this down when i am half awake but i want to get it out of my head. The closet diagnosis i have ever gotten from anyone after many years of being thrown around was AVPD. When i got this diognosis i new my parent's would be in pure dis belief and wouldn't...
    RoyalRedNight RoyalRedNight 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 27, 2013

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    Its Like Looking In the Mirror

    Reading the description of Avoidant Personality Disorder is like looking in the mirror. I am an Adult Child of Alcholics who is struggling to outgrow her shyness and fear of rejection. I'd forgotten I had this disorder until I went to church tonight and they were discussing the...
    awannabe74 awannabe74 31-35, F 5 Responses Jul 30, 2008

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    What A Strange Disorder

    Hello everybody, i was searching something about avoidant personality disorder and i found this site and i decided to register just for this group. I see that there is a real partecipation here and i like it because some months ago i wrote my story to a specific site for avoidant...
    Kerouac89 Kerouac89 70+, M 2 Responses Apr 23, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I have not been diagnosed. However, lately I started looking up more information about anxiety disorders. I'm 31 and have been shy and quiet my entire life. I thought it was...
    CamillaRhodes CamillaRhodes 31-35, F 3 hrs ago

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    Recently been told I may have Borderline Personality Disorder. It's not a confirmed diagnosis yet, but I'm pretty sure I have it, definitely makes more sense to me than the...
    atremain atremain 18-21, F Apr 3

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    i have borderline personality disorder maybe i have to join another group lee anne
    maddisongrace maddisongrace 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 29

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    My problem with getting this diagnosis was that I used to not like the fact that everyone gets labels. I mean, I still feel like certain terms get thrown around way too casually...
    showusyoursouls showusyoursouls 18-21, F Apr 1

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