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I Have Avoidant Personality Disorder

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    Its Like Looking In the Mirror

    Reading the description of Avoidant Personality Disorder is like looking in the mirror. I am an Adult Child of Alcholics who is struggling to outgrow her shyness and fear of rejection. I'd forgotten I had this disorder until I went to church tonight and they were discussing the...
    awannabe74 awannabe74 31-35, F 5 Responses Jul 30, 2008

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    I sometimes wonder if I'm just an extremely

    gifted/cursed empath. It's almost as if I can read people too well...I'm falling apart over it lately. Life used to be so easy and then all of a sudden here I am...quit my job, just left and can't answer the phone, won't even pick up my check, all my friends are gone because I...
    SoCalSoBeIt SoCalSoBeIt 26-30, M Apr 30, 2014

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    About My Avoidant Behavior And Beliefs

    I've joined this group hoping to find other people who identify with the way I see the world. So, I'm going to attempt to write down some of my own observations about myself and my avoidant belief system. I apologize in advance if I ramble. I have actually tried this before on a...
    AlienInDisguise AlienInDisguise 31-35, M 5 Responses Dec 14, 2010

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    I Feel Like I'm Wasting My Life And Its Frustrating..

    I'm not too sure where to start, but i've always struggled incredibly in social situations and with extreme negativity.  I've always tried to overcome my difficulties, whether its counselling or hypnosis tapes, but i've been really struggling lately. I started Uni last...
    sarahsummer sarahsummer 18-21 4 Responses Feb 7, 2011

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    I Love To Meet You But I'd Probably Avoid You

    I don't have a story about this. I don't know how I got it, probably from my childhood experiences. I avoid everything and everyone. I avoid my roommates, I avoid the people at work. It's crazy, I'm charming and liked, but I still avoid everything. Too much anxiety, most like. It...
    Cryptifly Cryptifly 26-30, M 3 Responses Nov 29, 2013

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    Why I'm Thankful

    This disease more even more than others causes us to focus on what goes wrong in life. Rarely do think about what went wrong. So I decided I’m going to list what is good in my life. I’m a hard worker. I go to a first rate university in a booming city. I’m taking steps...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Sep 15, 2011

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    And sometimes it feels like a death sentence on

    long nights like tonight when you realize your only friends in the world are on other continents or halfway across the country all because you cant talk to people like a "normal" person. Ive been living this way so damn long sometimes i dont even feel human. The loneliness...
    shinjorai shinjorai 36-40, M 2 Responses Sep 13, 2014

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    Ya Think?

    Yes, I avoid social situations. I don't work. I assume I wouldn't pass an interview because I could not respond in the way I used to. Takes quick thinking. And I haven't worked since 2008 and don't know how to explain that. Basically, I don't like leaving the house anymore. Its...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Feb 9, 2012

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    I'm just not sure....

    I've been playing with the idea that I have Avoidant personality disorder for awhile now. I'm soon to be 21 just for your reference. I've always been a real shy kid, sensitive to other's emotions, and hyper-aware of what people thought of me. I would cry all the time in class if...
    popcorngoo popcorngoo 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    Avoidant 4ever

    We avoidants are often depressed, lonely, self-pitying thinking how bad is our life. But is it really so bad? We could end up worse. Because of AVPD I never had real close friends, never had any girl-friend, nor get laid. Geez.. I'm 26 so you can say "holy sh*t do something about...
    Crematory Crematory 26-30, M Sep 14, 2011

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    Seems To Fit

    It is hard to admit it but I think this is me. Most of the symptoms match. Years ago I discovered the word Introvert and thought it fitted quite well. I always thought of myself as a rather extreme introvert though. APD seems to fit even better.
    wraithorn wraithorn 41-45, M 7 Responses Apr 15, 2012

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    AvPD At 30

    I hit the 'BIG THREE OH' this year. It really is a shame that all birthdays after the age of 21, seem to have diminishing returns in terms of being desirable landmarks. I am sure that I, like many other sufferers/endurers of AvPD, need little prompting to partake in a spot of...
    andyjjj andyjjj 26-30, M 7 Responses Oct 16, 2012

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    I have spent most of my life by myself.

    I never really had much for fiends. There are very few people i keep in regular contact with only 3/4 if you count my brother who lives with me. I try to get out I go to the ymca to work out or play basketball but I never talk to anyone just keep to myself criticize myself when...
    Deathofall Deathofall 31-35, M 2 Responses Oct 22, 2014

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    I will never bother you I will never promise

    to I will never follow you I will never bother you Never speak a word again I will crawl away for good I will move away from here You wont be afraid of fear No thought was put in to this I always knew it would come to this Things have never been so swell I have...
    Tbone33 Tbone33 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    My Symptoms Of Avpd

    I'm supposed to name 5 things I like about myself and my life a day, but it's nearly impossible. These are the negatives. These are my struggles with my disorder. -I hate everything about my physical appearance. There is nothing beautiful about me, even the ones I like are so...
    Hilarie91 Hilarie91 22-25, F 7 Responses Oct 10, 2012

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    Has anyone tried daily use of something like

    Ativan? I would much rather develop a benzo addiction and keep my friends / make new friends than be a ******* hermit for the rest of my life.
    StarFox11 StarFox11 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 11, 2014

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    I know what could have made me like this.

    I've never been tested for reasons behind my problems, (I was told I have social phobia and I know that but I'm sure I also have APD too) but I don't think I need no examination to prove it. For one thing there is my DNA. My grandmother was in the war and had gotten physical and...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response Jan 14

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    For The New Semester

    College is a horrible nightmare. You're surrounded by the same people day in and day out. You see them in the dorm. You see them in class. You even see them at the library where you try to fence yourself off from the world and relax so you can get some damn work done. After a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jul 26, 2011

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    The first time I heard of this was reading

    peoples posts on here. And reading them makes me feel that there's a good chance I have the same thing!!
    Clivedonaldson82 Clivedonaldson82 31-35, M 1 Response Dec 21, 2013

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    I first discovered this in my junior year of

    high school. Being trans in high school is probably the worst, but being trans and having a personality disorder in high school is just a double-whammy of awful. An acquaintance of mine brought it up, and being that I'm interested in psychology and never heard of it, I looked it...
    noyoubro noyoubro 18-21, T 1 Response Mar 25

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    It's All So Clear Now. . .

    So there I was, in my usual spot. All by myself against the wall during lunch. I was reading my psychology book, as I have no friends that I talk to at school and I had that class next. I came across a really interesting bit in that book: "People with avoidant personality...
    aday4evr aday4evr 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 28, 2012

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    It took me years of searching,

    but I finally found it. The answer to pretty much everything wrong with me. Why I do what I do. It's beautiful. In an awful, you have a personality disorder, kind of way. I have never identified with anything as much as I do AvPD. I found the list of symptoms and said yes to...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 8 Responses Nov 23, 2014

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    I've always had it. I never played with the

    other kids at recess from pre school to 5th grade. Middle school was a living hell and now I go to an alternative high school. I have a lot of mental disorders, but then again so do my parents.
    classAteam classAteam 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    Well its that time again,

    my monthly therapy appointment to try and deal with the monsterous multiflavored monkey on my back called APD. I almost feel its useless to go but i keep going because at least im doing something and it beats the heck out of doing nothing i suppose. Its such a weird illness...
    shinjorai shinjorai 36-40, M 1 Response Oct 2, 2014

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    Preoccupied With The Approval Of Others

    Hello everyone.  I've not been formally diagnosed with this disorder, and as I understand, many of the symptoms are comorbid with many other psychological disorders.  I'm researching the DSM right now, and trying to figure out what I think may be going on with me...
    somegirl12345678 somegirl12345678 26-30 3 Responses May 9, 2010

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    I find being social extremely tiring

    and a bit timid to bring the stress on myself. It's not that I don't act myself around friends, I do. It's just a constant battle with myself to do so. You know how sometimes you can second guess yourself? Well for me that negative voice works overtime. I can get...
    Socalsunset Socalsunset 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    I've always had the feeling of being superior

    to people I have to keep myself under control and realize it's not a good thing. I always have to be careful of where I step and how I stand on a subject, over the years I've gotten better. I'm proud of my improvements that I have made. But nobody seems to understand I struggle...
    Autumnflowers Autumnflowers 18-21, F May 2, 2014

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    I just joined this group in hopes of meeting

    people who might understand me a little. But then I thought about it & got to wondering: does anyone in this group actually talk? This is difficult. I trust you understand.
    self2ostracized self2ostracized 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 17, 2014

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    Dont you hate the feeling of incapable of

    trusting people around you, just because you think they would never love you like you did to them?
    TroglodyteWallflower TroglodyteWallflower 31-35, F 1 Response May 17, 2014

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    I Think Too Much.

    I was diagnosed a little over a year ago? It's probably been longer, actually. Back then i had a boyfriend who could deal with me being that way, but then again i took on his personality to escape from my own. Now i'm a lot stronger, i do a lot more things - But i still have...
    AkaiKarasu AkaiKarasu 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 17, 2012

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    Isn't this basically social phobia?

    Or is there some difference? Because I have been diagnosed with social phobia and have had that all my life. But the symptoms are exactly the same as APD.
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response Jan 10

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    Were supposed to go out tonight.

    Me my wife, and our roommate to a local bar. Im just hoping i dont make an *** out of myself. Im going to try not to drink too much but i get so damn nervous i tend to do that. Just want to have fun, but ive been in this funk the past few weeks i cant seem to shake. Just tired...
    shinjorai shinjorai 36-40, M 1 Response Aug 1, 2014

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    I'm so lonely. Yet it is

    for the best. The best of myself, and the people who force themselves to be around me due to pity. I spent the most part of my life being so scared, so terrified of people hating who I am. It has been proven by those that are supposed to love you, your family, that I am not...
    SilentJamie SilentJamie 18-21, M 5 Responses Jul 2, 2014

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    I was recently diagnosed with AvPD.

    This is how I responded when my therapist read the traits. DSM-IV Criteria for Avoidant Personality Disorder (301.82)* A pervasive pattern of social inhibition, feelings of inadequacy, and hypersensitivity to negative evaluation, beginning by early adulthood and present in a...
    Beth403 Beth403 41-45, F 1 Response Feb 11, 2014

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    Hi! I think I have APD.

    I've never been diagnosed because I don't tell anybody about my problems and defeniatly don't want to visit a psychologe. I recognize all symptoms of APD in myself and I hope I can share experiences here ✌️
    xForgottenOne xForgottenOne 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 10

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    My Life And Avoidant Personality Disorder

    I have never been diagnosed with this disorder and at this point I don't feel the need to see a psychiatrist, as from experiece, I think that their medications do more harm than good for a person such as myself. I certainly don't want this disorder, it doesn't suit me to have a...
    andyjjj andyjjj 26-30, M 9 Responses Apr 2, 2011

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    Right now, I'm a senior in high school----

    sitting in the bathroom for lunch 😥
    oinkoink3 oinkoink3 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 19, 2014

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    At every social event I've gone to they want to

    make EVERYONE feel included, no wallflowers allowed. There always seem to be that one bubbly extrovert who just needs to know all about you, and she doesn't want any party poopers. Once she's pried some information out of you she introduces you to the next interrogator, oops...
    Beth403 Beth403 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 24, 2014

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    I find it easier to talk with strangers in the

    grocery store than to talk to my next door neighbors.
    Beth403 Beth403 41-45, F Feb 11, 2014

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    I just recently researched this disorder

    after taking a personality quiz online. My results told me I suffer from APD. I haven't felt like this my whole life up until now. I'm not sure if going through trauma has made this affect on my or not. Every time I'm out with my friends drinking which is not often...
    heaven89 heaven89 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    I Don't Mean To Be Awkward By Avoiding People

    Hahaha, I'm so glad there is a recognized avoidant personality disorder here. I don't know why but I just avoid people when I'm walking through a hallway or anything. I just dont want it to be awkward. Cause it already is awkward. And then it becomes even more awkward because i'm...
    sarisii sarisii 16-17, F Dec 3, 2013

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    I haven't actually been diagnosed with this

    disorder but I have all the symptoms of it. And I have a hard time getting close to people. I'm just trying to start to open up more to people. I've only told one person about this and it was really scary for me because I've read people's stories about when they told someone...
    chaos16 chaos16 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 17, 2014

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    Apd

    OK, my story.. I was fine until I reached 13. Something changed in me. I developed what seemed like a school phobia (up all night worrying, withdrawn at school, terrified...) It was a dark time for me. Too much to say... I changed again and seemed ok for a while, for about a...
    zita27 zita27 36-40, F 6 Responses Sep 25, 2012

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    The Curse

    Before I say anything I would like to add that I was never diagnosed with this, but I do have almost every single symptom of it and live it every single day of my life. But since it isn't curable, I find no real reason to seek help for it. If you have APD I'm sure you will...
    KnightOfJustice KnightOfJustice 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 25, 2013

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    A Lone Wolf

    Damn I hate this disorder. I'm afraid of talking to anybody about it because I've been criticized by my parents my whole childhood, adolescents, and even now and I'm 19! I just can't talk to anyone, whenever someone around me is talking about a subject I like and want to say...
    Tbone33 Tbone33 18-21, M 4 Responses Mar 8, 2013

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    how can a person have apd

    and be a narcissist. anyone elce have these two disorders? the vulnerable narcissist? im a rare breed .. im self obsessed and avoidant and anxious.
    nikeboy488 nikeboy488 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 24, 2014

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