I Have BPD - Borderline Personality Disorder

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 114 People

    It is an internal demon at times,

    controlling my thoughts, controlling my words...some days I am a puppet on a string .....I fight it back as best I can, never letting it fully do me in....I do not like to be judged for such....ignorance is bliss, so read up before you point the finger.....
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    2 Responses Nov 1, 2014

    I have recently been diagnosed with BPD.

    I'm releaved in the sense that thier is a label for my nightmarish life. I commence DBT in Spring 2015. Reaching out to others with this illness. I'm really scared.
    MindCage MindCage
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Sep 13, 2014

    I'm so depressed right now.

    :( I feel like I'm drowning. I'm drowning in a salty river of sadness. It hurts me to be this sad. My whole body feels like its being held down and I feel like I can't breathe. I could cut myself so good right now. I feel so sad that I feel numb. I need to feel something else! I...
    BrokeAssBxtch BrokeAssBxtch
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 29, 2014

    There are currently 15 people staying in a tiny

    log cabin with one bathroom. Is it time to start drinking yet?
    jwest230 jwest230
    26-30, F
    May 24, 2014

    Hi my name is cass and I have BPD

    and hyperactive sexuality
    VenusIncarnate VenusIncarnate
    31-35, F
    3 Responses May 16, 2014

    I literally cannot go to the grocery store

    without having an anxiety attack. I dread going.
    jwest230 jwest230
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 16, 2014

    Does anyone think that the songs don't leave me

    by pink and blank space by Taylor swift have the characteristics of someone with bpd?
    Lostinabigscaryworld Lostinabigscaryworld
    22-25, F
    3 Responses May 24, 2015

    So many people have gone through

    so much ****; physical abuse, teasing, being forced to take care of people who don’t appreciate it. I know so many people who have had it worse than me. Why am I so affected when they seem to be strong and carry on? Am I that weak? I mean, yeah, Cheri said some ****** up...
    cme4u cme4u
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 9, 2014
    jwest230 jwest230
    26-30, F
    2 Responses May 16, 2014

    I am so afraid that my fiancée will leave me

    eventually when she gets sick of putting up with me..
    jwest230 jwest230
    26-30, F
    May 15, 2014

    In high school I had friends

    who took Sociology, and they would tell me that they thought of me when learning of BPD. It never phased me, until meeting my Borderline neighbor, and best friend, when she said that she "felt" that I was borderline, also. Although I was diagnosed in 2010, I never read my...
    grindhound grindhound
    22-25, T
    May 12, 2015
    jwest230 jwest230
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 16, 2014

    I have BPD and I am very sad about it.

    Very disappointed in myself. I never had a normal life. Always had help from other people. I wonder if someday I will be able to support myself without help of others. My husband just left me and I think it's because of the disease. Does it ever gets better?
    Tchela33 Tchela33
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jan 29, 2015

    Bpd is making me very lonely

    and suicidal at the min people around me who don't have it don't understand and its getting me down. Just need some one to talk to who understands what's it like
    abscar1990 abscar1990
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 6, 2015

    I feel so deeply sad.

    😔 Like what's the point of me being here because no one likes me. My brother hates me I think because he never wants to talk to me anymore. He just walks over me and I miss him so much. I don't know what changed. Maybe nothing changed but I feel like something did. Ever...
    BrokeAssBxtch BrokeAssBxtch
    18-21, F
    Nov 28, 2014

    I hate when I can feel a sad episode coming on

    yet can't do anything to stop it from coming.
    aligain aligain
    36-40, F
    1 Response Sep 7, 2014

    I woke up scared about how my day would be

    considering the last few days I've been severely depressed. Having BPD is hard. One morning you can wake up the happiest person & go to bed in a rage & screaming at someone how much you hate them. I was able to control my emotions today. I was able to tell my negative thinking...
    Susananais Susananais
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 6, 2014

    I'm going on day 2 of being off my meds.

    I can't tell you how amazing I feel. They always made me more tired & agitated. Now I feel like myself again. I still get impulsive & angry, but I'm learning how to manage those. Talking out loud helps me a lot. That & knowing that God made me this way for a reason.
    Susananais Susananais
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 8, 2014

    do you believe in healing yourself?

    do you think it's possible for a person to say to itself : "you can overcome this on your own" and actually do it? do you think it's possible to go to another place, start from fresh and be born again? as a new you, in a healthy state of mind? or is it just a silly dream of mine...
    Armada33 Armada33
    22-25, F
    Nov 30, 2015

    I just want to know that there is someone else

    like me out there. I feel like nobody understands what I'm going through.
    jwest230 jwest230
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 15, 2014

    I grew up believing that I would be something

    amazing. I have a spotty history of divorced, absent parents; child abuse from a stepfather; social ineptness; and depression. When I agreed to enlist in the U.S. Navy on my 17th birthday, I thought those days were over. But as I continued my service, my issues intensified as...
    hellaborderline hellaborderline
    22-25, M
    1 Response Dec 2, 2014

    I was just diagnosed with Severe Borderline

    Personality Disorder. I took several tests, and I scored severe on every one...
    CrimsonDrake CrimsonDrake
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jan 6, 2014

    Literally feel like I'm about to explode.

    Nothing even happened today and I want to bang my head against the wall until I bleed and relieve all of the pressure built up.
    jwest230 jwest230
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 16, 2014

    About a year and a half ago I went through

    psychosis for about four months after using drugs. I'm embarrassed about a lot of the stuff I thought/ said/ did during this time. Whilst I was in psychosis i also accused my father of sexually abusing me as a child. The feelings that came along with the 'memories' and...
    gabbii22 gabbii22
    31-35, F
    1 Response May 6, 2015

    So I think when I was a kid I was diagnosed

    with rage disorder, now as an adult though it becomes clear to me that I have BPD. The rest of my life seems normal except to those closest to me, the people who you are supposed to e able to let into your emotional world. My marriage suffers the worst, my husband is not an...
    Zommie Zommie
    31-35, F
    Oct 12, 2015

    It is hard too control

    and most ppl can not understand it and think I can control it.
    kclayne kclayne
    22-25, F
    Feb 3, 2015

    The worst for me is when people give up on me

    quietly. Sometimes I'll even create a drama after they are already gone to feel relevant. The big blowouts are easier to understand and separate from my sense of self. But the wearing people down over time. Plus part of it is jealousy that I can't walk away from me too.
    borderlinecomic borderlinecomic
    36-40, F
    May 18, 2015

    How do I know when someone

    as it? I am curious?
    cheeringforlife20 cheeringforlife20
    18-21, F
    May 16, 2014
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