I Have Battled Depression and Anxiety Most of My Life

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    I've had both since I was really young,

    about 5 or 6. I have always been fearful of change and meeting new people. I had my first panic attack when I was 6, I remember it as clear as day. I thought I was dying until the age of 11 and finally had access to the internet, I knew it was Panic Disorder even though I wasn't...
    classAteam classAteam
    18-21, F
    Dec 30, 2014

    I have been dealing with depression

    for a long while and anxiety all my life. I have my good days and my bad days but today was a mix. I was having a good day until I started getting questioned once again. A guy I have a relationship with does not understand my depression. There are times where I always want to be...
    MysticallyForbidden MysticallyForbidden
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 24, 2014

    Depression to me I like being trapped in a cage.

    Full of spikes. That is slowly closing in on you by the second. Having anxiety is like seeing people and then you speak but nothing happens and they just ignore you It sucks
    BiXwolfsXbears BiXwolfsXbears
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 1, 2015

    Guess who finally won!

    !! **flexing and showing off**
    shorty755 shorty755
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 3, 2014

    I don't know where to start this off,

    but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to change that, but nothing I do is good enough. I'm slowly starting to rethink all of this. I'm starting lose hope. I'm not seeing a...
    torr62 torr62
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 14, 2014

    I've battled anxiety

    and depression ever since I was 11 years old. I handled it well for a few years but in the last two years it's come back, taken over my life worse then ever before. I find it hard to communicate with people in life.. A lot of my friends have stopped talking to me guess it proved...
    epsarah94 epsarah94
    22-25, F
    Mar 13, 2015

    I've had depression for years now.

    I used to listen to metal when I was sad/mad, it never really helped me. The words in Most songs showed me that other people had harder lives than me, and that I was being a ***** and grieving over my selfishness while others suffered from worse things. One day I was so upset...
    BreeezeBlocks BreeezeBlocks
    18-21, F
    Jul 19, 2015

    You may mess up, but you are not a mess up.

    You may make a mistake, but you are not a mistake. You may screw up, but you are not a screw up. You may fail, but you are not a failure. You are not defined by your weaknesses You are not the only one who has missed the shot Or the...
    torr62 torr62
    18-21, F
    Dec 15, 2014


    blogspot.in/2013/05/depression-part-two.html?m=1 This is so me! Haven't found the corn yet. Anyone gone through this and out? Gosh tell me how? xP
    deleted deleted
    Aug 15, 2014

    There are times like these

    where I'm just waiting for the storm to pass and I don't feel like trying. I don't want to do anything but cry. This emptiness in my heart is getting bigger and travels to my throat from holding in my screams for so long. I could go on and on about why I'm feeling this way...
    torr62 torr62
    18-21, F
    Feb 10, 2015

    I don't get it. I feel completely awful

    but I can't cry. I feel like I'm gonna completely break down and cry but I have no idea why I can't cry. maybe I'm used to it or maybe I'm just too sad to cry.
    steal11 steal11
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 6, 2015

    I have been on Zoloft 50mg

    for 3 months. I take it around 8pm every day. If I take it the same time I'm ok, but as soon as I have a date, late night at work, or anything but normal I feel on edge. I need to talk to my dr, I know this. If the mg is higher will the time release last longer?
    deleted deleted
    May 18, 2015

    I feel like cutting my arms ✂️

    and putting 🔌into a tub and shocking myself! HELP
    Kindheartedsoul Kindheartedsoul
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 23, 2015


    com/stories/Am-Lonely/5249647 Please read this
    torr62 torr62
    18-21, F
    Dec 14, 2014

    Some days are ok...but most days I just wonder

    why I even woke up...why I'm here or do I even have a purpose?...people think my life is great, it's far from that, I've been through hell & so many other things, I'm surprised I've made it this far, I feel like a burden to the people around me, I'm a loner, no one really knows...
    Mvrcus Mvrcus
    22-25, M
    1 Response Aug 6, 2015

    I am so tired of being

    so alone. I left home to see if it was my situation. It isn't. I cry a lot. I am very unsure of myself socially. I don't feel close to anyone. I do not go out or have any hobbies because of my anxiety. It helps me to do them with people who I can trust and want to be around...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Apr 10, 2015

    Ever since I was a young child I have battled

    social anxiety disorder. Social situations always made me anxious and at times panicky. When I was a teen I came to realize that I was gay, this also added to my anxiety for fear of being outed. I grew up in a small town where there isn't a big gay population, kinda like don't...
    tormentedinternally tormentedinternally
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jan 12, 2015

    Here is a link to an article to share,

    hope it can help with your anxiety and depression http://themindunleashed.org/2014/09/8-ways-stop-thinking-find-peace.html
    Sunflowerintw Sunflowerintw
    41-45, F
    Apr 14, 2016

    Who's that knock, knock,

    knocking at the door? - It's that old devious devil and his dark dog returning to stay a while. What fascinates me (and worries me deeply) about depression, or at least my experiences of it ,as I can't speak for others, is the total shift in perspective that can arise from...
    LowRise LowRise
    41-45, M
    1 Response Feb 18, 2015

    I am so tired of feeling like I have to put on

    a front for everyone and pretend that everything is ok and all rainbows and sunshine so cps doesn't take my daughter away cause honestly she is the only thing that keeps me somewhat happy as happy as can be expected anyway . I wish the feeling of crying would go away or that I...
    RedsSaphire RedsSaphire
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jan 29, 2015

    ever since I was a little girl running around

    in my cinderella pjs, I always have flashbacks of when I would have bad panic attacks over some little things kids shouldn't worry about. things like money, gas, my parents relationship, etc. I would also remember myself lock myself in my room for hours and just scream and cry...
    suicidegetout suicidegetout
    16-17, F
    6 Responses Aug 5, 2014

    I have had a socialphobia

    and I don't have any friends last year I got one and she just changed this year she is always so negative and hatefull and this is making my Depression worse I mean I have depression and I still pushing my self every day to smile SO the problem is if I no longer her friend their...
    yoyo526 yoyo526
    18-21, F
    Nov 23, 2014

    I've battled depression

    and anxiety since the age of 8. It all started out in the beginning of fourth grade when I lost my mother to breast cancer. I had to be the "woman" of the house with a five year old sister. My dad didn't eat he would just take his drugs and fall asleep. My depression and...
    PrettyInWhite PrettyInWhite
    18-21, F
    Dec 19, 2015

    You may mess up, but you are not a mess up.

    You may make a mistake, but you are not a mistake. You may screw up, but you are not a screw up. You may fail, but you are not a failure. You are not defined by your weaknesses You are not the only one who has missed the shot Or the...
    torr62 torr62
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 15, 2014
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