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I Have Battled Depression Since Childhood

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    Depression, My Friend

    Childhood, so lovely and fragile Like a hummingbird's wing Childhood, fresh and full of hope Bright, white, no black smudges Childhood, a period full of possibilities A time when you believe anything can happen Love, Hope, Growth, Pure Childhood , a time of no regrets But I...
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 29, 2012

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    needlessthings needlessthings 31-35, M 1 Response Mar 28

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    I have lived in the darkness all my life.

    At every train station I would get close and hear the tracks calling me. Upon every balcony the ground was the only thing of interest to me. Yet something remarkable has happened. I decided to be honest, to be true to myself and act bravely according to it. Now when I stand on...
    passion4writing passion4writing 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 21, 2013

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    I have came to complete acceptance

    that depression will likely always be apart of me., a piece of me I carry through my days here as an earthling . This is not me saying, hey I give up. I have learned to become one with this soul-dissecting disease of melancholy. It at the very least has been a struggle, the...
    Allissaxxx Allissaxxx 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 28

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    Planned My Death, I Was So Depresseed

    I cant say for sure when I actually became 'depressed'. I know I spent most of my adolescence contemplating ending my life. I remember aquiring knives from the kitchen and scratching my wrists, wishing I could actually do it. I would be sat alone in my bedroom. For hours. just...
    taffytats taffytats 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 8, 2010

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    I can't Tell you the conversation we had .

    But I think I just made a new friend ... And he's very sweet & caring person . I applaud you for that & I Thank you for listening to me .
    MonsterOfDevil MonsterOfDevil 13-15, M 2 Responses Jun 1

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    Forty Years Of Depression-what Helps Sometimes?

     Many times just reading about how someone else interprets depression helps me to understand and accept my own in a new light.  Depression is not who you are, depression is something that interferes with who you are...like a separate entity.  Some people will...
    FuschiaTulip FuschiaTulip 51-55, F 1 Response Mar 7, 2010

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    when i was 9, my mother cheated on my dad.

    they started fighting a lot. all day, everyday, 24/7. it got violent and crazy. there would be police cars outside my house and worried looks coming from the neighbors. my mom's boyfriend would show up at my house every night making everything worse. it went on for years. when I...
    Katelynann30 Katelynann30 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 6

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    PLEASE BE MY CO-WRITER FOR A REALISTIC DRAMA

    NOVEL ABOUT A WOMAN IN PRISON!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Blipsycat Blipsycat 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 6

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    My Story

    Here I am again.  I'm having writer's block yet again just when I want to put down what I have been struggling with for years now.  It happened so often before.  I can't seem to chose the right words nor find the right, most...
    ValR ValR 41-45, F 7 Responses Aug 2, 2009

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    Today is one of those days

    that makes me wonder how or why I should go on. I have pretty much been depressed my whole life. Even though married with wonderful kids I am always down. Even when I am around people and laughing on the outside I am screaming and crying on the in. I have been on medication for...
    saileaway saileaway 46-50 2 Responses May 14

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    PLEASE BE MY CO-WRITER FOR A REALISTIC DRAMA

    NOVEL ABOUT A WOMAN IN PRISON!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Blipsycat Blipsycat 16-17, M 2 Responses Aug 9

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    Med Merry Go Round

    I was diagnosed as Manic-depressive or Bipolar when I was 10, in 1992. The immediately put me on Prozac which gave me severe insomnia. I quit taking them so my parents started putting them in my food. I ran away when I was 15 due mostly to this. Since then I've been on many other...
    paigegurl paigegurl 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 7, 2010

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    Depressed Since I Was 13.

    I am now a 45 YR old woman and I have been depressed for the most part since I was 13.It all started when I was 13 and the bullying in school began. I was teased, called names, beat up, spit on, tripped, laughed at, etc. This went on for 2 1/2 YRS. My life has been full of...
    IMPogueMahone IMPogueMahone 46-50, F 2 Responses Aug 10, 2012

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    I'M Scared Of Going Back.

    I was once in a very dark place. Every time I felt alone I called it "The black hole" because whenever I looked up I saw the room getting swallowed in darkness. 1 year later and two months I'm a whole different person. Happy and smiling again, I even got a bf. But after that...
    Deepess Deepess 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 29, 2013

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    I have what they call situational depression.

    I was diagnosed with it at a fairly young age and still suffer from it to this day. At first I was taking anti-depressants and it helped for a little while, but I found it was just limiting my emotions instead if making me happier so I took my self off. Now I feel how normal...
    Braecridhe Braecridhe 22-25, F 1 Response May 14

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    When I Was Lost, I Found The Light Out Of This Darkness

    Long Story But A True Story: This Is My Story I was born in the 70's I came from a broken family, I grew up in a poor family but we are all a very loving family. I struggled growing up, I was picked on in school, and I was bullied when I was in grade school up until I reached...
    mamabutterfly mamabutterfly 36-40, F 4 Responses Jun 8, 2012

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    I have been dealing with depression

    for as long as I can remember. From before I even knew what to call it. I am thankful that my darker periods are less frequent and don’t last as long as they used to, but I have come to accept that I will be dealing with it for the rest of my life. It’ll always be a part...
    AnonymousEP77 AnonymousEP77 41-45, M 1 Response Apr 5

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    The Monarchs Whisper

    Hello, my name is Deep Williams and I am a filmmaker. About a year ago a story came to my mind when I was sitting quietly. 'Do a movie about suicide". I could not believe the overwhelming feeling I had after that encounter. I immediately began to write a screenplay and never...
    deepwilliams deepwilliams 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 14, 2011

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    DaniDemented DaniDemented 13-15, F 1 Response May 1

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    I don't wanna feel this way anymore.

    I wasn't happy being a child, and today a teenager. I'm tired of hiding it.
    97hefi 97hefi 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 25

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    hey all ! ... this is important

    and big. can i have a small time of yours, just little.. few minutes.. i sign up here around a year back to share my story with people and i did. i expected people will help me out from my heart broken stage and yes to maximum extend people helped, thanks a lot... then i began...
    heartless2 heartless2 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 22

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    I Have Had Depression Since...

    I have had depression since I was at least 10. probably before that, but it wasn't diagnosed.
    turtlemusic28 turtlemusic28 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 5, 2008

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    So since i was little i have had depression

    problems,i didn't actually noticed until it got really bad in high school.I can't tell anyone in my family cause they won't actually get it.One member of my family has a similar problem and they treated that person as if she was crazy and if she choose to have a mental illness...
    flproblems flproblems 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I just read about Robin William

    and it very sad knowing that I have same issue that he has. Except the drug, I don't do the drug. I'm fun, humble, smile, that only surrounded by people, and they didn't know that I have battled the depression very long time. When I told them the truth of depression, they say...
    colonaileen colonaileen 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    I have and I believe

    that I won that battle a while back. Not quite fitting for this experience but I actually want to say out loud how much I love life: its quirks, its difficulties, all of it because I chose it. I hit the wall of depression at about 13, I 'emerged' at about 28. 'Emerged' is in...
    MillyMilly33 MillyMilly33 31-35, F 5 Responses May 28

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    My life is hard enough without my mom daily

    reminding me that I'm a worthless peice of trash, telling me that no matter what I do, I can't do it right. I wish I could just die. The world would be so much better off. Everyone's life would be so much happier and easier without this ugly idiot.
    LaniStar21 LaniStar21 13-15, F 2 Responses May 1

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    Why does depression have to ruin a life

    so much that you just want to be dead?!?! Faking smile doesn't hide it anymore, my friends and family are worried that I'm going to kill myself and I know myself I'm not okay...
    DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    It's like a void where there had to be actual

    feelings. I suffered and still suffer alone, far from home, trying to find myself a way in my life. So, basically, the only persons in my life that think of me are my Mom, my brother and my best friend. I am afraid to sleep or enjoy music for example, I feel guilty for not...
    suns3ta suns3ta 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 22

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    When I was 17 I tried to kill myself.

    I took a hand full of pills, my boyfriend had been giving them to me and I saved them up. I had no idea what they were. The next few days were a blur. I remember vomiting and being in a horrible amount of pain. My mother kept accusing me of being pregnant. She tried to wake me...
    vault101 vault101 26-30, F 2 Responses May 25

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    Wondering...

    what the hell is wrong with me? Why has there been this dark cloud hanging over me since the beginning of time (or so it seems)? I wonder if I experienced some trauma as a baby/child that plunged me into this deep dark hole that I can't find my way out of. It started as emotional...
    shylamarais shylamarais 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2012

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    The Death Of A Culture

      I'm too young to feel this old. In less than 50 years of life, I've seen the culture I grew up with die before my very eyes, and it took with it most of my family members. My parents are gone; my oldest brother is gone, my aunt recently passed away; she was the last of my...
    northguy northguy 46-50, M 4 Responses Oct 4, 2012

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    Sometimes no matter what I do,

    I find myself down for no reason. I just had a WONDERFUL day and I have this overwhelming urge to just sit and cry. About what? I have no idea. It was so overwhelming that I had to leave my friends at karaoke early. I lied to my best friend and told her she can't spend the night...
    vault101 vault101 26-30, F 5 Responses Mar 2

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    The Same Battles

    I am turning 19 in December and find myself facing the same battles I did when I was 14. Nothing's changed. I feel like I am still that little girl, who felt unfair and furious while she was kicked into that gigantic black hole and asked God "Why me?", who curled up in...
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 19, 2009

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    Ever since I had the very first signs of

    puberty I have been an emotional wreck. It's been ten years now and I'm 18 years old. I can't even keep a smile on my face. I was always been bullied and rejected as a kid, and others avoided me. When I was 12 I admitted to my mother that I felt suicidal and I wanted help...
    Twichl Twichl 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    Time to start the week over again.

    I'm trying to gauge how I feel this morning. So far...not terrible.
    KnaisGuy KnaisGuy 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Ever since I was 13, I've battled depression.

    It's really hit me hard over these years. Especially, now.. I'm so lost. Confused, really. I just don't know what to do or say or think. When people ask me what's wrong now, I just don't feel like wasting my breath anymore. What's the point? It's not like talking will make the...
    Nevershoutkourtnii Nevershoutkourtnii 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 23

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    Uncertain on how to stop thinking all the

    negative thoughts about myself. Medication and therapy do not help.
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    Lost Childhood

    I have had depression since I was about 11-12. I feel like I have lost most of my childhood because of it. No one has taken any notice until just recently and even then it feels like they don't really want to have to deal with it anymore. My parents have never been supportive...
    NFW92 NFW92 18-21, F 8 Responses Jul 22, 2010

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    Is it sad that the only comfort

    that I have right now is that I have returned to the good ol' depressed me?
    badday928 badday928 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 19

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    The Link Between Bullying And Depression

    Bullying can cause many long-term effects and depression is definitely one of the problems caused by bullying. Being bullied is a humiliating experience for anybody to go through and it can destroy a persons confidence and self-esteem. When a person has low self-esteem and their...
    bullyhelp bullyhelp 31-35, M 3 Responses Oct 10, 2011

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    I've Always Had Depression

    I'm actually ok at the moment, probably the most well I've ever been. I've had depression as far back as I remember though. What I don't understand is why no one ever noticed it when I was a child. I used to isolate myself from other children at school, I'd walk up and...
    BlueberryMunchkin BlueberryMunchkin 31-35, F 6 Responses Aug 9, 2009

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison. Please help me.
    Blipsycat Blipsycat 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 6

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    A Problem Shared, A Problem Halved; They Say

    First of all I wanna kind of challenge this saying that a lot of people are more than likely familiar with. Yes, although I do agree getting things of your chest and ranting it to someone else makes you feel better, how is it making the receiver feel, and how does the receiver...
    XanthiaJo XanthiaJo 22-25, F 2 Responses May 7, 2013

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    Why??? Dunno. Cant remember much

    before 3rd grade. Meds failed. Or made me worse. Therapists said go to anger management. Or said you is gifted so fix you. Omfg. Tried. Still do. And. EP Link
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M 1 Response Jun 8

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    I was diagnosed with clinical depression

    when I was about fourteen years old, but I have dealt with it my whole life. From my experience, it feels like it is something that will never be cured-- merely something I have to learn to work around and live with. A chemical imbalance that is much like any other physical...
    CarryonPigeon CarryonPigeon 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2013

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    I Admire All Of You.

    I can't understand how you all have the strength to talk about it. I haven't had an experience a quarter as bad as some others' have, and yet it's still hard for me to go back so far.  I can think back, yes; I remember a time I nearly committed suicide in 4th grade (I was just...
    ThePlisken ThePlisken 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    I Was Sad!!

    yep, thats right, pretty much from the time i remember, when i was in my younger years in school and so on, i remember having days where i was pretty happy, and then there would be other days when i would have to try put on a fake smile, and hide my true feelings, cos at that age...
    cowshed123 cowshed123 31-35, M 16 Responses Nov 4, 2011

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    Why Can't I Change These Feelings

    The first realization of depressive thoughts started when I entered my teens.  Rage and anger is all I can recall and did not know why.  As an adult, I know my mother suffered from depression.  And realize my daughter as a child also showed signs at a very...
    AnnieLynn AnnieLynn 51-55, F 4 Responses Jul 9, 2007

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    I was diagnosed with depression at eight years

    old and have lived with it in such a way that it has crippled nearly every aspect of my life. I have never been on medication to help me deal with depression and I have always battled it alone. My family never took my diagnosis seriously. It was always something else to them...
    Scorpio018 Scorpio018 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 26

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    Not Since My Childhood, But For About a Decade.

    My depression began when I was older.  I'm not sure exactly when, but it really spiked when my daughter started having medical problems.  I didn't want to take any medication because my mother had just had a nervous breakdown and the consensus in the family was that her...
    Oouie Oouie 36-40, F 3 Responses Apr 5, 2008

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    I Was Depressed

    *people always tell me I have no idea how they feel about being depressed... but I do!!! Well, my name is Kendall. I'm 15 years old. I've got 2 brothers. One is 12, and the other is 16. I loveee life. God is my number 1 best friend (: he always listens <33 I've got tons of...
    cutebutterfly cutebutterfly 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 5, 2012

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    I always feel like I'm walking around in a

    dream. This life is so much like a night mare and it's slowly smothering me.
    thugkaylee thugkaylee 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 8

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