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I Have Battled Depression Since Childhood

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    I'm still technically a child (or a teen,

    whatever). I've had depression since I was 10. It started out so tough, being that young. I thought this what a natural process of being a teenager and that I just "grew up mentally" faster or something. When it kept going on and on I figured there was something wrong with me...
    WhiteSparrow127 WhiteSparrow127 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 8

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    I feel empty, lonely,

    worthless, in pain I have personified my feelings into a person that I think about and right about sometimes, tonight is an especially bad night. I saw my bf today. I still feel depressed no matter who I'm with or what I'm doing, I wish I could just kill myself but I know that...
    Zezebabe Zezebabe 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 31

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    Planned My Death, I Was So Depresseed

    I cant say for sure when I actually became 'depressed'. I know I spent most of my adolescence contemplating ending my life. I remember aquiring knives from the kitchen and scratching my wrists, wishing I could actually do it. I would be sat alone in my bedroom. For hours. just...
    taffytats taffytats 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 8, 2010

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    Wondering...

    what the hell is wrong with me? Why has there been this dark cloud hanging over me since the beginning of time (or so it seems)? I wonder if I experienced some trauma as a baby/child that plunged me into this deep dark hole that I can't find my way out of. It started as emotional...
    shylamarais shylamarais 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2012

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    The day is ending and what can I say?

    I don't feel much better, honestly. I'm still fearful, sad and feeling the injustice over my family. I'm still trying to understand God wishes, if he has anything with it, which I don't really believe it anymore. I feel like I've been punished since ever. Every word, act and...
    Fernandotavares Fernandotavares 22-25, M Sep 4

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    Any experience with Citalopram?

    I've recently been prescribed it, any feedback would be appreciated.
    irongirl135 irongirl135 18-21, F Nov 12

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    When I Was Lost, I Found The Light Out Of This Darkness

    Long Story But A True Story: This Is My Story I was born in the 70's I came from a broken family, I grew up in a poor family but we are all a very loving family. I struggled growing up, I was picked on in school, and I was bullied when I was in grade school up until I reached...
    mamabutterfly mamabutterfly 36-40, F 4 Responses Jun 8, 2012

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    I have had a lot of s*** happen in my life

    and then some some days i dont do anything but stare up at my bedroom ceiling wondering where do i belong in this world? Wondering what it would be like to be normal? Some days im the happiest person you will ever meet but then i come home and everything i try to forget comes...
    babygurlloveme babygurlloveme 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 13

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    I don't even know why I'm here.

    I'm such a mistake. I just don't deserve to live anymore.
    justw0rthless justw0rthless 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 18

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    I have been dealing with depression

    for as long as I can remember. From before I even knew what to call it. I am thankful that my darker periods are less frequent and don’t last as long as they used to, but I have come to accept that I will be dealing with it for the rest of my life. It’ll always be a part...
    AnonymousEP77 AnonymousEP77 41-45, M 1 Response Apr 5

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    Why Can't I Change These Feelings

    The first realization of depressive thoughts started when I entered my teens.  Rage and anger is all I can recall and did not know why.  As an adult, I know my mother suffered from depression.  And realize my daughter as a child also showed signs at a very...
    AnnieLynn AnnieLynn 51-55, F 4 Responses Jul 9, 2007

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    only now have i been diagnosed by a professional

    but i always knew i had it, i also have aspergers and anxiety but i don't tell anyone , i mean is there a need for others to know? were all different anyway..
    pokaprincess pokaprincess 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 9

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    I'm not sure how much people will actually read

    this because it's going to be really long but basically I've struggled with depression my whole life . I'm not looking for attention i just want to put my story out there because I've hid it my whole life . I may just be 17 but here's my life story so far ! Let's start it off to...
    AlissaCupcakes AlissaCupcakes 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I have struggled with major depression,

    as a direct result of complex high betrayal trauma, ever since I was a little girl. From the time I was 7 years old until the time I was 9 years old, I endured one traumatic occurrence after another in my family of origin. I have pretty much never been the same ever since. The...
    Aimee17 Aimee17 41-45, F 23 Responses a week ago

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    I was diagnosed with clinical depression

    when I was about fourteen years old, but I have dealt with it my whole life. From my experience, it feels like it is something that will never be cured-- merely something I have to learn to work around and live with. A chemical imbalance that is much like any other physical...
    CarryonPigeon CarryonPigeon 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2013

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    Doctors don't think I have it

    but I do I lost my grampa 4 days before I was born that was the day my best friend /girlfriend was born we have been friends for 10 years and then when I was 9 I lost my grandma and my grandpa was lost without her 60 years almost together and then my grandpa died when I was 11...
    mike12322xx mike12322xx 13-15, M Nov 9

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    The Monarchs Whisper

    Hello, my name is Deep Williams and I am a filmmaker. About a year ago a story came to my mind when I was sitting quietly. 'Do a movie about suicide". I could not believe the overwhelming feeling I had after that encounter. I immediately began to write a screenplay and never...
    deepwilliams deepwilliams 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 14, 2011

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    I had a rocky childhood.

    My parents are pretty abusive, my step dad molests me and my parents had a nasty divorce. I was diagnosed depressed at 8, anxiety at 11, bipolar at 13 and now they think I might have dissociative personality disorder and not bipolar disorder. I started cutting at 12 and...
    QuinnMac12 QuinnMac12 13-15, F 5 Responses Sep 24

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    I've battled depression

    since I was 9.. And now it became a part of my personality .depressed. I'm hoping for that day when I'll go to the shrink and then he'll tell me that I don't need those pills anymore.
    meunfortunately meunfortunately 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 9

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    The Death Of A Culture

      I'm too young to feel this old. In less than 50 years of life, I've seen the culture I grew up with die before my very eyes, and it took with it most of my family members. My parents are gone; my oldest brother is gone, my aunt recently passed away; she was the last of my...
    northguy northguy 46-50, M 4 Responses Oct 4, 2012

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    When I came across the gospel of Shrek,

    I read and was amazed. I then accept shrek Ito my life and he helped me battle depression. I no longer suffer from it. I help my community with settin up activity, preparing lunch bags twice a month for a local public school that has backpack kids (kids who take home backpacks...
    AlwaysAnonnymous AlwaysAnonnymous 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 9

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    For all of you fighting this,

    I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression and bipolar http://bipolar2medstudent.blogspot.com/
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 7

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    For all of you fighting this,

    I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression and bipolar http://bipolar2medstudent.blogspot.com/
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F Sep 12

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    I always feel like I'm walking around in a

    dream. This life is so much like a night mare and it's slowly smothering me.
    thugkaylee thugkaylee 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 8

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    And. If i analyze it.

    I am more lucky than some.
    OddlyScintilating OddlyScintilating 46-50, M Sep 1

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    I'M Scared Of Going Back.

    I was once in a very dark place. Every time I felt alone I called it "The black hole" because whenever I looked up I saw the room getting swallowed in darkness. 1 year later and two months I'm a whole different person. Happy and smiling again, I even got a bf. But after that...
    Deepess Deepess 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 29, 2013

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    So since i was little i have had depression

    problems,i didn't actually noticed until it got really bad in high school.I can't tell anyone in my family cause they won't actually get it.One member of my family has a similar problem and they treated that person as if she was crazy and if she choose to have a mental illness...
    flproblems flproblems 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 20

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    The Link Between Bullying And Depression

    Bullying can cause many long-term effects and depression is definitely one of the problems caused by bullying. Being bullied is a humiliating experience for anybody to go through and it can destroy a persons confidence and self-esteem. When a person has low self-esteem and their...
    bullyhelp bullyhelp 31-35, M 3 Responses Oct 10, 2011

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    I Was Sad!!

    yep, thats right, pretty much from the time i remember, when i was in my younger years in school and so on, i remember having days where i was pretty happy, and then there would be other days when i would have to try put on a fake smile, and hide my true feelings, cos at that age...
    cowshed123 cowshed123 31-35, M 16 Responses Nov 4, 2011

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    I can't Tell you the conversation we had .

    But I think I just made a new friend ... And he's very sweet & caring person . I applaud you for that & I Thank you for listening to me .
    MonsterOfDevil MonsterOfDevil 13-15, M 2 Responses Jun 1

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    Depression, My Friend

    Childhood, so lovely and fragile Like a hummingbird's wing Childhood, fresh and full of hope Bright, white, no black smudges Childhood, a period full of possibilities A time when you believe anything can happen Love, Hope, Growth, Pure Childhood , a time of no regrets But I...
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 29, 2012

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison SO BADLY. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM BEGGING YOU
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T 1 Response Sep 21

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    A Problem Shared, A Problem Halved; They Say

    First of all I wanna kind of challenge this saying that a lot of people are more than likely familiar with. Yes, although I do agree getting things of your chest and ranting it to someone else makes you feel better, how is it making the receiver feel, and how does the receiver...
    XanthiaJo XanthiaJo 22-25, F 2 Responses May 7, 2013

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    Ashleyjoan Ashleyjoan 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 5

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    I honestly don't know to feel right now.

    I've battled with depression nearly all my life. Even as a young child I excluded myself from others and kept very quiet. I was always so scared, I'd have nightmares, and trouble sleeping. Now things are far worse than that, but my depression only lasts about 2 weeks out of...
    alicefloe alicefloe 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 2

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    For all of you fighting this,

    I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression and bipolar http://bipolar2medstudent.blogspot.com/
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    The Same Battles

    I am turning 19 in December and find myself facing the same battles I did when I was 14. Nothing's changed. I feel like I am still that little girl, who felt unfair and furious while she was kicked into that gigantic black hole and asked God "Why me?", who curled up in...
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 7 Responses Aug 19, 2009

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    For all of you fighting this,

    I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression and bipolar http://bipolar2medstudent.blogspot.com/
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F Sep 11

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    Why does depression have to ruin a life

    so much that you just want to be dead?!?! Faking smile doesn't hide it anymore, my friends and family are worried that I'm going to kill myself and I know myself I'm not okay...
    DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 13

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    I was molested, abused,

    bullied, betrayed etc. I didn't always believe in GOD. I used to blame him for everything wrong. Why are you doing this to me? Why is this happening to me? Turns out GOD wasn't harming me. I never thanked for the good he's done, I just cursed his name when something bad happened...
    dashuria dashuria 13-15, F 5 Responses Nov 9

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    I have lived in the darkness all my life.

    At every train station I would get close and hear the tracks calling me. Upon every balcony the ground was the only thing of interest to me. Yet something remarkable has happened. I decided to be honest, to be true to myself and act bravely according to it. Now when I stand on...
    passion4writing passion4writing 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 21, 2013

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    I have had depression since

    before I was twelve and every day it's a struggle to want to stay alive... Over nine years later.
    ComeXwhatXmay ComeXwhatXmay 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 23

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    I spend most of my time sitting on the internet

    and not leaving my house, or attending parties people invite me to. Some days I can't even dress myself. I can't leave the house without someone coming with me, like I'd make it past the drive and turn around. I don't even like visiting my parents without someone coming with me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 7

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    I Admire All Of You.

    I can't understand how you all have the strength to talk about it. I haven't had an experience a quarter as bad as some others' have, and yet it's still hard for me to go back so far.  I can think back, yes; I remember a time I nearly committed suicide in 4th grade (I was just...
    ThePlisken ThePlisken 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 27, 2013

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    Depressed Since I Was 13.

    I am now a 45 YR old woman and I have been depressed for the most part since I was 13.It all started when I was 13 and the bullying in school began. I was teased, called names, beat up, spit on, tripped, laughed at, etc. This went on for 2 1/2 YRS. My life has been full of...
    IMPogueMahone IMPogueMahone 46-50, F 2 Responses Aug 10, 2012

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    I need a co-writer for a realistic drama novel

    about a woman in prison. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!
    marcuscash marcuscash 18-21, T 1 Response Sep 27

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    Ever since I was 13, I've battled depression.

    It's really hit me hard over these years. Especially, now.. I'm so lost. Confused, really. I just don't know what to do or say or think. When people ask me what's wrong now, I just don't feel like wasting my breath anymore. What's the point? It's not like talking will make the...
    Nevershoutkourtnii Nevershoutkourtnii 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 23

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    I Was Depressed

    *people always tell me I have no idea how they feel about being depressed... but I do!!! Well, my name is Kendall. I'm 15 years old. I've got 2 brothers. One is 12, and the other is 16. I loveee life. God is my number 1 best friend (: he always listens <33 I've got tons of...
    cutebutterfly cutebutterfly 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5, 2012

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    the sad part is the people

    who are "blessed" wouldnt understand because they dont have to go through the same things you have to go through.
    unlovednbroken unlovednbroken 18-21, F Aug 25

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    Time to start the week over again.

    I'm trying to gauge how I feel this morning. So far...not terrible.
    KnaisGuy KnaisGuy 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 18

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    Today is one of those days

    that makes me wonder how or why I should go on. I have pretty much been depressed my whole life. Even though married with wonderful kids I am always down. Even when I am around people and laughing on the outside I am screaming and crying on the in. I have been on medication for...
    saileaway saileaway 51-55 3 Responses May 14

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