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I Have Bdd

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    Reflective Surfaces Have Wrecked My Life... - I have been suffering from BDD since 2004. Now I only contemplate suicide when the thoughts of how ugly I feel revisit me - and they...
    kerinstine kerinstine 26-30, M 3 Responses Nov 15, 2013

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    Bdd - I just wanted to say that here in Italy, there is book in italian language called - La storia della Bruttezza (The history of Uglyness) by Umberto Eco and I think it...
    love3333 love3333 31-35 Dec 20, 2012

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    Hi I'M New.. - I'm also black, women, And feel unattractive. I was never treated Like a beautiful little girl as a child.Nor am i treated like a princess today i type before anyone...
    peel1 peel1 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 3, 2013

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    BDD is horrible, I have had it the majority of my life and i just do not understand why I have it. I am 33, married( to a very pretty woman and 3 beautiful kids). I am now on...
    bddsufferer33 bddsufferer33 31-35 2 Responses Jan 23

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    Bdd No Hope For Me Anyway - ever since i was around the age of 11 the world as i knew it changed, iam now 38 and male, up until then the mirror was just something on the wall that...
    mickky73 mickky73 36-40, M 3 Responses May 16, 2012

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    Bdd Prison - I've suffered with bdd since I was 13 I'm now 26 and I'm starting to get real real nervous that I will die with this illness. I always thought it was just a stage or a...
    Prettypleasexo Prettypleasexo 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 12, 2010

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    Don't Wait So Long - Although I've always known what BDD was, and have always been painfully aware of my own symptoms, I've never actually put the two together and realized that...
    njbean njbean 31-35 10 Responses Aug 16, 2009

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    I Don't Know Anymore - I've been fooling around on this site for awhile now and It came to my attention the real reason why I first came here. I felt I needed to share some of my...
    errantmind errantmind 41-45, F Mar 20, 2013

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    Everybody thinks I'm crazy.
    saddeena saddeena 36-40, F Jan 20

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    It Cost Me My Job - Recently, I resigned my job a psychiatric nurse because I felt like a charlatan. The truth was, even though I could put up the pretense of being professional...
    LittleAshes LittleAshes 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 5, 2013

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    I Have Body Dysmorphic Disorder. - I've had bdd for a few years now, but I didn't know until about a year ago. This year has been the hardest of my life, and also the scariest. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Mar 7, 2012

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    I discovered earlier today that I have bdd, specifically muscle dysmorphia. I had always assumed it was natural to never be happy with your body. To always be chasing something out...
    Strass Strass 18-21, M Mar 6

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    Diagnosed 2 years ago and suffering from much earlier on, this illness has destroyed my life in so many ways. It is getting harder and harder to fight though.
    StartingOverAgain20 StartingOverAgain20 18-21, F Dec 22, 2013

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    Too Ugly For Bdd - There is very little i am content with about my body so it's difficult to say what i am most discontented with. It's the disproportion of one part of me in...
    welham88 welham88 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 28, 2010

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    If Only. - I have BDD. Body dysmorphic disorder. There has always been something wrong with my face. There was a time when I'd be able to sit in front of a mirror for hours on...
    Thierry Thierry 16-18, F 4 Responses Nov 11, 2007

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    :( - I hate looking myself at the mirror, all I can think of is how people use to call me ugly, and sadly that's all I see...ugliness.
    marylight098 marylight098 13-15, F Jun 18, 2013

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    Stuck In The House From Bdd - Hi, this is the 1st time I have ever shared my story. My bdd started I believe around the age of 12.I started worrying constantly about my looks. I...
    sugarcookie76 sugarcookie76 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 11, 2012

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    I Have Body Dysmorphic Disorder - Im 18, english and i have bdd. Ive always hated my appearence, from what i remember, but when i was about 14 i remember watching a sitcom. this...
    Scrowlie Scrowlie 18-21, F 7 Responses Jul 7, 2008

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    New To Sharing With People About Bdd - I have been dealing with BDD since I was about 15, I'm now almost 32. Growing up a military kid I moved a lot. So I was always teased cause I...
    Nikki0880 Nikki0880 31-35, F 2 Responses May 20, 2012

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    There's A Monster In The Mirror.. - I call body dysmorphia a monster. My monster. Its like this big dark cloud hanging over me when others have the sunshine.First, in the early...
    rachlove23 rachlove23 22-25, F 1 Response May 10, 2012

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    BDD Has Destroyed My Life - Hello everyone. Let me start off by saying that it is very comforting to have found this site and to know that there are many other people "out there...
    nakedandlaughing nakedandlaughing 22-25, F 4 Responses Jun 6, 2013

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    I Will Never Never Never Never Look In A Mirror - never ever. i will never look at anything that will reflect my face. makes me sick. if i have to check my hair or something i will...
    LilyRosemary LilyRosemary 51-55, F 3 Responses Oct 7, 2013

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    Don't you just hate it when nobody understands you... I tell my mom about my problem and tell her to take me to a physiologist and she just ignores it, knowing that the reason why...
    marylight098 marylight098 13-15, F 3 Responses Feb 25

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    Dealing With Imperfections...Horribly - I am a  caucasion  23 year old female, I wieght 107lbs and am 5'3. I have BDD (Body Dysmorphic Disorder) and I can usually...
    singinbeauty singinbeauty 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 16, 2010

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    Supposedly, Allegedly So. - Do I really have bdd, or are all psychiatrists and therapists just too "kind" to tell me the truth. I mean really, what professional is going to admit...
    SkippingTheGoldenYears SkippingTheGoldenYears 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 10, 2012

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    Does anyone else ever wonder how someone can look at one of their flaws and not think any worse of themselves for it? Because I do. A lot. And I don't get it. Here I am...
    Strass Strass 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 6

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    What People Say: - Parents: "you are beautiful don't let anyone change you, remember the beauty is not what its outside is what it is inside of you." What I think: 'thanks mom...
    marylight098 marylight098 13-15, F Jun 18, 2013

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    I Hate Having Bdd - Well, I have suffered from BDD for about 15 years, and it's taken a serious toll on the quality of my life!  The major flaw that I'm concerned with is my...
    sdnova sdnova 31-35, M 7 Responses Dec 7, 2009

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    I Hate It - I get so upset after eating a big meal because I automatically think that I've gained 5lbs since ingesting my food. I know that's just crazy, but that's how my mind...
    Illyria02 Illyria02 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 16, 2012

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    Hi everyone. After putting up with the horrible stress, anxiety, and fixation for 8 years, and doing lots of research, I have come to learn that I have BDD. I don't exactly...
    Sweetiebabygirl Sweetiebabygirl 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 24, 2013

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    21 Years... - I have been dealing with BDD for the past 21 years. It all started when I was 10. I would compare myself to other girls at school, and I didn't think I looked like...
    Jennifer136 Jennifer136 31-35, F 3 Responses May 9, 2011

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    I hate BDD. I hate it. I can never even look at myself without crying at what I see. I have to look down every time I wash my hands in the bathroom so I won't have to see myself in...
    saddeena saddeena 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    I Think I Am Suffering From Bdd - I am pretty young, 17, and I just came across a video on youtube about BDD. I realized that i acted just as those with it also: constantly...
    smw321 smw321 16-17, F Jul 25, 2012

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    5 Years Later And Still Struggling With BDD - Hi, This is not the first time I have wrote on experience project about my problem with body dysmorphic disorder. It started when I...
    Emma93 Emma93 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 30, 2013

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    I Think I Have BDD - I just wanted to know if i have BDD. Looking at the symptons , i've realized i might have it. But then again, i might not and i just have to accept my face. If...
    mmgirlie3 mmgirlie3 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 2, 2013

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    I Don't Believe That I'm Beautiful Even Though I've Been Told That I Am. - When people tell me that I'm attractive, I always assume that they are lying. It's just how my mind...
    slightlynerdy slightlynerdy 22-25, F 22 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    I Hate Myself -  
    kdavis20 kdavis20 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 30, 2010

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    How To Know You Don't Have Bdd And You Truly Are Ugly ! - This isn't a story but more so an analyzation I had a few minutes ago. I don't have BDD I am just ugly. Ugly, being...
    BeautifullyFugly BeautifullyFugly 18-21, F Oct 1, 2013

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    Deformity? - Having done some reading on BDD, I am convinced that I probably have it and I've actually taken comfort in reading some of the online articles because it's helped me...
    thumbelina76 thumbelina76 36-40, F Aug 13, 2013

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    I Have Bdd - Everyone thinks I'm beautiful. From my past boyfriends, my husband now, my parents, friends, even photographers, modelling agencies, and even random strangers. There...
    annenna annenna 26-30, F 4 Responses Apr 26, 2010

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    Body Dysmorphic Disorder. - This condition is a curse. It is, from what i have heard and read one of worst conditions someone can have. I always wondered why i always felt so weird...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 22, 2012

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    This Stupid Disorder Leaves Me Feeling Guilty And Ashamed. - THis stupid disorder continues to ruin my days.  Im feeling so ashamed.  The insecurity it makes me feel and...
    bluegreenteal bluegreenteal 36-40 3 Responses Jan 7, 2011

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    Help . - Im 13 years old and i have BDD. Most days are better than other but today is just a really bad day. It picture day and everything as fine until i started getting dressed...
    legohouseedsheeran legohouseedsheeran 13-15 1 Response Sep 13, 2012

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    Bdd Is Ruining My Life. - I feel as if my mental condition has always been a little shaky. As a kid I suffered from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder but as I grew older managed to...
    Hooplawk3 Hooplawk3 18-21, M 4 Responses Oct 12, 2011

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    I'm Ruining My Life And My Relationship, And I Think It's BDD - I haven’t been diagnosed with BDD, but after writing down all my problems it seems so obvious to me now. I have...
    atlantis13 atlantis13 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 27, 2013

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    I am 21 years old and suffer with BDD. It has become worse over the past year. I just can't look into the mirror anymore without being disgusted. Its as if a deformed creature is...
    malissamalu malissamalu 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 5

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    I Want To Get Over This - My life has always revolved around my appearance. I remember as a little girl, looking into the mirror for hours a day, thinking I looked different than...
    ausk ausk 18-21 Jan 22, 2013

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    I've always been a quiet not so secure person since my earliest memories I first discovered my body dysmorphic disorder in 9th grade (3 years ago) I just couldn't go to school my...
    highheelsandtattoos highheelsandtattoos 16-17, F Feb 19

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    I Likely Have Bdd. - My friends often tell me that I am too self-conscious of my appearance, and I would in return, deny it. I don't want to be regarded as self-conscious and with...
    kloygyn kloygyn 18-21 2 Responses May 26, 2011

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    I Think I Have Bdd But I am Not Sure -    I have a bitter story to tell. It haunts me day and night. It controls me. It manipulates me. It has beaten me into...
    RNPAIN RNPAIN 66-70, M 13 Responses Apr 13, 2010

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    Is My Face Really Crooked Or Is It BDD?? - I hate my face. My jaw is crooked, my eye is higher on one side, and nobody seems to notice but me. OR they're being really nice and...
    PattiMcG17 PattiMcG17 31-35, F 1 Response Aug 12, 2013

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    I Feel So Alone, I Look So Deformed In The Camera But Not The Mirror - I recently just back from a residential treatment center in Utah for my depression and BDD. I tried to kill...
    Snackson Snackson 16-17, M 7 Responses Dec 17, 2012

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