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    I Think I Have Bdd But I am Not Sure

       I have a bitter story to tell. It haunts me day and night. It controls me. It manipulates me. It has beaten me into submission. I suspect I have BDD, but I am not totally convinced. My story will explain my suspicion.      I am unlike almost...
    RNPAIN RNPAIN 66-70, M 13 Responses Apr 13, 2010

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    *i think I have bdd but wanted to come here

    before my doctor. Basically, my boyfriends lost his patience with me so much that he's making me see a doctor, but I came here first because I'm scared my doctor will turn me away and tell me I'm just self obsessed, so my question is, do I have BDD? I'm 19, almost 20, and I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 30, 2015

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    My issues with my body are my deepest

    and most painful secret. I have struggled with this for most of my adult life. I am fortunate to have gotten myself to a place where I want to share what I go through with the people closest to me, yet I feel an incredible amount of fear and shame over it. I feel as if no one...
    ohjoyousone ohjoyousone 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 23, 2014

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    I can't look in the mirror without the urge to

    rip my face off. I just wan't to hide forever. Why did this happen to me?
    lintunen lintunen 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 30, 2014

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    alonewbyx alonewbyx 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 10, 2015

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    Don't Wait So Long

    Although I've always known what BDD was, and have always been painfully aware of my own symptoms, I've never actually put the two together and realized that I have BDD until right now.  I remember crying in nursery school because people were looking at me.  And it wasn't...
    njbean njbean 31-35 10 Responses Aug 16, 2009

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    I want to to be able to overcome my body

    dysmorphia so that I will be able to help others who are going through the same thing. I want to show that you can go from rock bottom to being okay again. My case is pretty severe, and has never been this bad before, but I will keep pushing myself to get better. I can't help...
    2Flawed4Life 2Flawed4Life 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    Hey there. This is my first post to any group

    on this site. I'm 17 and suffer from severe BDD and an eating disorder. Currently homeschooled due to the anxiety associated with my body dysmorphia. Wondering if anyone out there can relate?
    tangerines97 tangerines97 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 11, 2015

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    Does anyone else ever wonder how someone can

    look at one of their flaws and not think any worse of themselves for it? Because I do. A lot. And I don't get it. Here I am obsessing over the amount of fat on my stomach, going through fits of depression, anger, fear, and self-consciousness, but at the same time, there are...
    Strass Strass 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 6, 2014

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    I hate BDD. I hate it.

    I can never even look at myself without crying at what I see. I have to look down every time I wash my hands in the bathroom so I won't have to see myself in the mirror. Everyone thinks I'm vain but I'm not. Vain people love themselves. I don't. It's awful.
    saddeena saddeena 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 10, 2014

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    Body Dysmorphic Disorder.

    This condition is a curse. It is, from what i have heard and read one of worst conditions someone can have. I always wondered why i always felt so weird and when i looked at myself in the mirror things only got stranger in terms of looks. Alright i was young and my body was, and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 22, 2012

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    I'm new to this lols

    but I just wanted to share a really terrible experience with a doctor today. Basically I've had bdd Since I was around 12 and it's quite severe as I've had to leave school and am unable to work as most days I am housebound. So I have a sore throat so I went to the doctors which...
    rebeccah26 rebeccah26 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 25, 2015

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    21 male, just finished University.

    Always been a self conscious person, looked extremely young until about 16 and still look younger than my age. Always had this obsession with my face and hair and constantly have to touch and look in any reflection, which I know is an odd thing to do. People think it's vanity...
    hewitt101 hewitt101 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 1, 2015

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    How To Know You Don't Have Bdd And You Truly Are Ugly !

    This isn't a story but more so an analyzation I had a few minutes ago. I don't have BDD I am just ugly. Ugly, being physically unattractive to the majority the world. How do I know I'm ugly...? I went to a club one day. Three out of 1,000 ugly things about me: my skin, hair and...
    BeautifullyFugly BeautifullyFugly 18-21, F Oct 1, 2013

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    I discovered earlier today

    that I have bdd, specifically muscle dysmorphia. I had always assumed it was natural to never be happy with your body. To always be chasing something out of your reach. I figured it was part of being human. Y'know, that there's always a bigger fish in the sea, so even though you...
    Strass Strass 18-21, M Mar 6, 2014

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    I Don't Believe That I'm Beautiful Even Though I've Been Told That I Am.

    When people tell me that I'm attractive, I always assume that they are lying. It's just how my mind works. Most of the time, I hate hearing people compliment my appearance because of this. I would rather have people be honest with me rather than tip-toeing around the truth or...
    slightlynerdy slightlynerdy 22-25, F 24 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    I am 21 years old and suffer with BDD.

    It has become worse over the past year. I just can't look into the mirror anymore without being disgusted. Its as if a deformed creature is looking back at me. I feel manly and less of a woman. I get complimented almost every time I go out and told I'm beautiful by strangers all...
    malissamalu malissamalu 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 5, 2014

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    I Think I Am Suffering From Bdd

    I am pretty young, 17, and I just came across a video on youtube about BDD. I realized that i acted just as those with it also: constantly checking the mirror, spending hours on my appearance to not be satisfied in the end, comparing myself with others, and constantly wondering...
    smw321 smw321 16-17, F Jul 25, 2012

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    Bdd Prison

    I've suffered with bdd since I was 13 I'm now 26 and I'm starting to get real real nervous that I will die with this illness. I always thought it was just a stage or a slump,and I'd kind of wait as if the world will just restore balance and I'd be back to my happy go lucky...
    Prettypleasexo Prettypleasexo 26-30, F 4 Responses Aug 12, 2010

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    Hi, my name is Karen.

    I have never told anyone my experiences. I have always held my emotions inside of me but now I think it is time that I tell my story. I am 16. I am a junior in high school. I have had BDD since I was a freshman. I have never been the prettiest of girls. I was always...
    healtyfood2020 healtyfood2020 18-21, F Apr 30, 2014

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    I Have Body Dysmorphic Disorder.

    I've had bdd for a few years now, but I didn't know until about a year ago. This year has been the hardest of my life, and also the scariest. I've never felt so alone, anxious and disgusting. I haven't been diagnosed, but I just know. I looked it up late one night after I had...
    deleted deleted 26-30 13 Responses Mar 7, 2012

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    21 Years...

    I have been dealing with BDD for the past 21 years. It all started when I was 10. I would compare myself to other girls at school, and I didn't think I looked like them. Somehow I was different. It also doesn't help that I have a younger sister who is very pretty and very...
    Jennifer136 Jennifer136 31-35, F 3 Responses May 9, 2011

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    I have been diagnosed with Body Dysmorphic

    Disorder for over 3 years now and it sucks. I can feel myself slowly improving, but I always have ups and downs which need fixing. It's awful having no idea what people see when they look at me, it makes me feel like I don't know who I am. It makes me feel like I'm in a body I...
    meganbxiley meganbxiley 18-21, F Jul 16, 2014

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    I Likely Have Bdd.

    My friends often tell me that I am too self-conscious of my appearance, and I would in return, deny it. I don't want to be regarded as self-conscious and with low self-esteem/low confidence, but I suffer from obsessing about my facial and body features. And the ironic thing is, I...
    kloygyn kloygyn 18-21 2 Responses May 26, 2011

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    I hate having to explain bdd (body dysmorphic

    disorder) to my friends as you can't really understand what it is unless you have it. Just having to say 'I hate my appearance' or 'I see myself differently to how others see me' sounds silly. And the usual reply I get after I explain is 'I hate how I look too so I probably have...
    SilkyDoughnut SilkyDoughnut 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 5, 2014

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    To be honest, I never been diagnosed,

    but I have a very sour idea of what I think I look like. I honestly see myself as the ugliest person. Someone could carry the same features as me, and I would call them beautiful, but not myself. I find compliments uncomfortable, and if someone looks at me for too long or smiles...
    DevilDollie DevilDollie 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2014

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    It's hard growing up in a world

    where you never believe you're pretty enough.
    mangospicecat mangospicecat 18-21, F 12 Responses Sep 12, 2015

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    i have recently lost 72 lbs.

    .. i went from 205 lbs to 133... great right? i am 5'6" i should be happy with how i look. but i am not. i stress almost every second of the day about where i stand calories in vs calories out... i look in the mirror and see these monster thighs that i can feel jiggle every step...
    schaeffermichelle schaeffermichelle 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 4, 2015

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    Walking in an airport with bdd feels like

    everyone is staring at you because you look like a monster. Look at that freak. That poor girl. Sigh
    Iriegirlpj Iriegirlpj 36-40, F 2 Responses Jan 30, 2014

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    Help .

    Im 13 years old and i have BDD. Most days are better than other but today is just a really bad day. It picture day and everything as fine until i started getting dressed. I picked out the outfit last night, and i put it on this morning and i didnt like it. So like always i tryed...
    legohouseedsheeran legohouseedsheeran 13-15 1 Response Sep 13, 2012

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    I have recently been diagnosed with BDD.

    Quite frankly, it is ruining my life. I spend 90% of my time comparing myself to others and berating myself for not being as slim or "normal looking" as them. It is a horrible feeling to look back at photos of myself and see myself as thin as I was, and still know that in my...
    wriggling2 wriggling2 22-25, F Oct 20, 2014

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    I have bdd and would like to talk to others

    who share the same experience.
    pixielite pixielite 51-55, F 3 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    I have had since I was in my early teens.

    It's not something that is widely accepted or easy to talk about. People make their own minds up about your vanity, self obsession whatever. When I was a kid I would spend hours trying to look different in the mirror before getting hysterical and refusing to leave my room...
    GalateaSpheres GalateaSpheres 36-40, F 9 Responses Aug 10, 2015

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    Hi, I would like to talk to others about their

    experiences of BDD. I have been told for years by numerous people that they think I have it. I do go through phases of obsessing over certain body parts i.e., nose, ears, whether one thigh is bigger than the other. Recently I am starting to feel like my body is twisting. It...
    newbiealibi newbiealibi 41-45, F May 6, 2014

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    There's A Monster In The Mirror..

    I call body dysmorphia a monster. My monster. Its like this big dark cloud hanging over me when others have the sunshine.First, in the early days, its at the back of your mind. Then as time goes on, it creeps closer and closer until its right behind you. It digs deeper and more...
    rachlove23 rachlove23 22-25, F 1 Response May 10, 2012

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    I've realised after talking to some people on

    here that I no longer care what I look like or how people perceive me. I'm deserving of people that care about the me on the inside . To all the people that bullied me and gave me the condition in the first place, thank you . I now can tell a genuine person from a person with...
    Aquaticskyekitten Aquaticskyekitten 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 24, 2015

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    I Hate Having Bdd

    Well, I have suffered from BDD for about 15 years, and it's taken a serious toll on the quality of my life!  The major flaw that I'm concerned with is my skin.  I was very out-going when I was a teenager, and only had what would be considered "normal" acne for...
    sdnova sdnova 31-35, M 7 Responses Dec 7, 2009

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    Hello, I think i have BDD

    and I do not know how to tell anyone. Not even my parents. I worry about my apperance constantly and hate the way i look. Alot about my bad skin and the amount of hair on my body. I pick at my skin and pull my hair out. I always think that when people look at me they think...
    HeIsDead HeIsDead 16-17, F 2 Responses May 8, 2015

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    I know people tell me

    that there's something wrong with me, that my appearance is fine, but I can't argue with what I see in the mirror, I don't see how people don't see what I see because it's right there! Maybe it's just different definitions of 'fat' or 'big' but even so the fact is I'm not happy...
    princessfenty princessfenty 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 26, 2014

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    I spent half my day in the mirror.

    Make videos of myself because I don't think what I'm seeing in the mirror is right. Spent time putting makeup on and then taking it off because I look uglier. My eyes and skin get so irritated) cut, sleep, mirror, cut, sleep, mirror. It never seems to end I just wanna go to...
    Zezebabe Zezebabe 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 26, 2014

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    I hate Body Dysmorphia.

    .. If I see my reflection my heart beat races and I get really nervous. My family always asks,"Why don't you like being on camera?" Well, this is why. God I'm so ugly . I hate myself
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Dec 4, 2014

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    I wish I could become friends with someone

    online who has BDD like me, so they would understand why I don't like taking a lot of pictures. I have spoken to a couple of cool people who would ask me for 5 pics a day. I did pretty good with sending one a day. But I always felt like they would think I'm ugly and stop talking...
    KarahXnichole KarahXnichole 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 28

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    A couple of nights ago,

    I woke up from a deep sleep and had a weird epiphany about myself. I've always really enjoyed taking and being in pictures, but as of late, I've really pushed the importance of this on my husband, family, and friends when we're at social gatherings or just hanging around...
    ohjoyousone ohjoyousone 31-35, F Jul 24, 2014

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    I hate always feeling ugly

    and fat. I keep trying to see myself as beautiful, but I just cant. I feel like no one could ever love me or even find me attractive at all. I feel like if I knew at least one person thought I was pretty, I would feel better. But no one does. All through school, I always hear...
    jezebelmm jezebelmm 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 6, 2014

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