I Have Bdd

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 458 People

    I hate always feeling ugly

    and fat. I keep trying to see myself as beautiful, but I just cant. I feel like no one could ever love me or even find me attractive at all. I feel like if I knew at least one person thought I was pretty, I would feel better. But no one does. All through school, I always hear...
    jezebelmm jezebelmm
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Sep 6, 2014

    I see myself in the mirror

    and i wish i could take a knife and cut every inch of fat of my body and all the skin off of my face. Im so hideous. I dont want to go out, i dont want to go to school, i dont want people to see me. Im the ugliest person alive.
    mialotta mialotta
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Nov 15, 2014

    I spent half my day in the mirror.

    Make videos of myself because I don't think what I'm seeing in the mirror is right. Spent time putting makeup on and then taking it off because I look uglier. My eyes and skin get so irritated) cut, sleep, mirror, cut, sleep, mirror. It never seems to end I just wanna go to...
    Zezebabe Zezebabe
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 26, 2014

    I have bdd and would like to talk to others

    who share the same experience.
    pixielite pixielite
    51-55, F
    3 Responses Dec 30, 2014

    I literally can't take this anymore.

    I've not been diagnosed with bdd because I'm too scared and embarrassed to go to the doctors, but I've been reading the signs and symptoms online and that is exactly how I act. I'm so ugly, I know I am. No one really understands what it feels like and this is the first time I...
    aaa6173 aaa6173
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 3, 2016

    I think I have BDD but not sure I saw a

    character from a TV show say and do the exact same thing as I do. While everybody who watches the show was asking "why is he not eating but thinks he's too skinny, to get fat he must eat" well he didn't want to get fat and he did see himself as a skinny wimpy boy the character...
    PositiveStateOfMind PositiveStateOfMind
    22-25, M
    Mar 29, 2016

    I Think I Have Bdd But I am Not Sure

       I have a bitter story to tell. It haunts me day and night. It controls me. It manipulates me. It has beaten me into submission. I suspect I have BDD, but I am not totally convinced. My story will explain my suspicion.      I am unlike almost...
    66-70, M
    13 Responses Apr 13, 2010

    I Hate It

    I get so upset after eating a big meal because I automatically think that I've gained 5lbs since ingesting my food. I know that's just crazy, but that's how my mind works. I always have to weigh myself when I wake up in the morning to see if I've gained any weight, and if I've...
    Illyria02 Illyria02
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Feb 16, 2012

    I have recently been diagnosed with BDD.

    Quite frankly, it is ruining my life. I spend 90% of my time comparing myself to others and berating myself for not being as slim or "normal looking" as them. It is a horrible feeling to look back at photos of myself and see myself as thin as I was, and still know that in my...
    wriggling2 wriggling2
    22-25, F
    Oct 20, 2014

    I'm new to this lols

    but I just wanted to share a really terrible experience with a doctor today. Basically I've had bdd Since I was around 12 and it's quite severe as I've had to leave school and am unable to work as most days I am housebound. So I have a sore throat so I went to the doctors which...
    rebeccah26 rebeccah26
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 25, 2015

    I have been diagnosed with Body Dysmorphic

    Disorder for over 3 years now and it sucks. I can feel myself slowly improving, but I always have ups and downs which need fixing. It's awful having no idea what people see when they look at me, it makes me feel like I don't know who I am. It makes me feel like I'm in a body I...
    meganbxiley meganbxiley
    18-21, F
    Jul 16, 2014

    Hi, my name is Karen.

    I have never told anyone my experiences. I have always held my emotions inside of me but now I think it is time that I tell my story. I am 16. I am a junior in high school. I have had BDD since I was a freshman. I have never been the prettiest of girls. I was always...
    healtyfood2020 healtyfood2020
    18-21, F
    Apr 30, 2014

    How To Know You Don't Have Bdd And You Truly Are Ugly !

    This isn't a story but more so an analyzation I had a few minutes ago. I don't have BDD I am just ugly. Ugly, being physically unattractive to the majority the world. How do I know I'm ugly...? I went to a club one day. Three out of 1,000 ugly things about me: my skin, hair and...
    BeautifullyFugly BeautifullyFugly
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 1, 2013

    I hate having to explain bdd (body dysmorphic

    disorder) to my friends as you can't really understand what it is unless you have it. Just having to say 'I hate my appearance' or 'I see myself differently to how others see me' sounds silly. And the usual reply I get after I explain is 'I hate how I look too so I probably have...
    SilkyDoughnut SilkyDoughnut
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 5, 2014

    Hello, I think i have BDD

    and I do not know how to tell anyone. Not even my parents. I worry about my apperance constantly and hate the way i look. Alot about my bad skin and the amount of hair on my body. I pick at my skin and pull my hair out. I always think that when people look at me they think...
    HeIsDead HeIsDead
    18-21, F
    3 Responses May 8, 2015
    alonewbyx alonewbyx
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 10, 2015

    I hate Body Dysmorphia.

    .. If I see my reflection my heart beat races and I get really nervous. My family always asks,"Why don't you like being on camera?" Well, this is why. God I'm so ugly . I hate myself
    deleted deleted
    Dec 4, 2014

    I Hate Having Bdd

    Well, I have suffered from BDD for about 15 years, and it's taken a serious toll on the quality of my life!  The major flaw that I'm concerned with is my skin.  I was very out-going when I was a teenager, and only had what would be considered "normal" acne for...
    sdnova sdnova
    31-35, M
    7 Responses Dec 7, 2009

    A couple of nights ago,

    I woke up from a deep sleep and had a weird epiphany about myself. I've always really enjoyed taking and being in pictures, but as of late, I've really pushed the importance of this on my husband, family, and friends when we're at social gatherings or just hanging around...
    ohjoyousone ohjoyousone
    31-35, F
    Jul 24, 2014

    21 Years...

    I have been dealing with BDD for the past 21 years. It all started when I was 10. I would compare myself to other girls at school, and I didn't think I looked like them. Somehow I was different. It also doesn't help that I have a younger sister who is very pretty and very...
    Jennifer136 Jennifer136
    31-35, F
    3 Responses May 9, 2011

    Body Dysmorphic Disorder.

    This condition is a curse. It is, from what i have heard and read one of worst conditions someone can have. I always wondered why i always felt so weird and when i looked at myself in the mirror things only got stranger in terms of looks. Alright i was young and my body was, and...
    deleted deleted
    Dec 22, 2012

    I can't look in the mirror without the urge to

    rip my face off. I just wan't to hide forever. Why did this happen to me?
    lintunen lintunen
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 30, 2014

    I know people tell me

    that there's something wrong with me, that my appearance is fine, but I can't argue with what I see in the mirror, I don't see how people don't see what I see because it's right there! Maybe it's just different definitions of 'fat' or 'big' but even so the fact is I'm not happy...
    princessfenty princessfenty
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 26, 2014

    Hey there. This is my first post to any group

    on this site. I'm 17 and suffer from severe BDD and an eating disorder. Currently homeschooled due to the anxiety associated with my body dysmorphia. Wondering if anyone out there can relate?
    tangerines97 tangerines97
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 11, 2015

    Walking in an airport with bdd feels like

    everyone is staring at you because you look like a monster. Look at that freak. That poor girl. Sigh
    Iriegirlpj Iriegirlpj
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Jan 30, 2014

    It's hard growing up in a world

    where you never believe you're pretty enough.
    mangospicecat mangospicecat
    22-25, F
    11 Responses Sep 12, 2015

    I've realised after talking to some people on

    here that I no longer care what I look like or how people perceive me. I'm deserving of people that care about the me on the inside . To all the people that bullied me and gave me the condition in the first place, thank you . I now can tell a genuine person from a person with...
    deleted deleted
    4 Responses Nov 24, 2015

    Help .

    Im 13 years old and i have BDD. Most days are better than other but today is just a really bad day. It picture day and everything as fine until i started getting dressed. I picked out the outfit last night, and i put it on this morning and i didnt like it. So like always i tryed...
    legohouseedsheeran legohouseedsheeran
    1 Response Sep 13, 2012

    i have recently lost 72 lbs.

    .. i went from 205 lbs to 133... great right? i am 5'6" i should be happy with how i look. but i am not. i stress almost every second of the day about where i stand calories in vs calories out... i look in the mirror and see these monster thighs that i can feel jiggle every step...
    schaeffermichelle schaeffermichelle
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jun 4, 2015

    My issues with my body are my deepest

    and most painful secret. I have struggled with this for most of my adult life. I am fortunate to have gotten myself to a place where I want to share what I go through with the people closest to me, yet I feel an incredible amount of fear and shame over it. I feel as if no one...
    ohjoyousone ohjoyousone
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jul 23, 2014

    Don't Wait So Long

    Although I've always known what BDD was, and have always been painfully aware of my own symptoms, I've never actually put the two together and realized that I have BDD until right now.  I remember crying in nursery school because people were looking at me.  And it wasn't...
    njbean njbean
    11 Responses Aug 16, 2009

    There's A Monster In The Mirror..

    I call body dysmorphia a monster. My monster. Its like this big dark cloud hanging over me when others have the sunshine.First, in the early days, its at the back of your mind. Then as time goes on, it creeps closer and closer until its right behind you. It digs deeper and more...
    rachlove23 rachlove23
    22-25, F
    1 Response May 10, 2012

    21 male, just finished University.

    Always been a self conscious person, looked extremely young until about 16 and still look younger than my age. Always had this obsession with my face and hair and constantly have to touch and look in any reflection, which I know is an odd thing to do. People think it's vanity...
    hewitt101 hewitt101
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jul 1, 2015

    *i think I have bdd but wanted to come here

    before my doctor. Basically, my boyfriends lost his patience with me so much that he's making me see a doctor, but I came here first because I'm scared my doctor will turn me away and tell me I'm just self obsessed, so my question is, do I have BDD? I'm 19, almost 20, and I...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Aug 30, 2015

    I hate BDD. I hate it.

    I can never even look at myself without crying at what I see. I have to look down every time I wash my hands in the bathroom so I won't have to see myself in the mirror. Everyone thinks I'm vain but I'm not. Vain people love themselves. I don't. It's awful.
    saddeena saddeena
    41-45, F
    1 Response Jan 10, 2014

    I'm new to this page.

    My doctor suggested I try and find an online support group. So here I am. Is there anyone here who has been diagnosed with Body Dysmorphic Disorder, An Eating Disorder, Insomnia, ADHD, Bipolar, Depression or Anxiety? I t would be nice to hear from someone who has similar...
    LoopsieLou LoopsieLou
    26-30, F
    Apr 7, 2016

    Bdd Prison

    I've suffered with bdd since I was 13 I'm now 26 and I'm starting to get real real nervous that I will die with this illness. I always thought it was just a stage or a slump,and I'd kind of wait as if the world will just restore balance and I'd be back to my happy go lucky...
    Prettypleasexo Prettypleasexo
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Aug 12, 2010

    I Don't Believe That I'm Beautiful Even Though I've Been Told That I Am.

    When people tell me that I'm attractive, I always assume that they are lying. It's just how my mind works. Most of the time, I hate hearing people compliment my appearance because of this. I would rather have people be honest with me rather than tip-toeing around the truth or...
    slightlynerdy slightlynerdy
    22-25, F
    24 Responses Feb 13, 2012

    I Likely Have Bdd.

    My friends often tell me that I am too self-conscious of my appearance, and I would in return, deny it. I don't want to be regarded as self-conscious and with low self-esteem/low confidence, but I suffer from obsessing about my facial and body features. And the ironic thing is, I...
    kloygyn kloygyn
    2 Responses May 26, 2011

    I Think I Am Suffering From Bdd

    I am pretty young, 17, and I just came across a video on youtube about BDD. I realized that i acted just as those with it also: constantly checking the mirror, spending hours on my appearance to not be satisfied in the end, comparing myself with others, and constantly wondering...
    smw321 smw321
    18-21, F
    Jul 25, 2012

    To be honest, I never been diagnosed,

    but I have a very sour idea of what I think I look like. I honestly see myself as the ugliest person. Someone could carry the same features as me, and I would call them beautiful, but not myself. I find compliments uncomfortable, and if someone looks at me for too long or smiles...
    DevilDollie DevilDollie
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Dec 22, 2014

    I Have Body Dysmorphic Disorder.

    I've had bdd for a few years now, but I didn't know until about a year ago. This year has been the hardest of my life, and also the scariest. I've never felt so alone, anxious and disgusting. I haven't been diagnosed, but I just know. I looked it up late one night after I had...
    deleted deleted
    10 Responses Mar 7, 2012

    . Okay I've been dealing with BDD

    for almost 10 years often think people are talking about me calling me ugly I hear whispers and/or low talking from people that may be around me and also read people's lips or think I can of people saying things about me everyday is like a hard task for me to go to work I work...
    Devunks Devunks
    31-35, M
    Feb 22, 2016

    I hate always feeling not perfect enough

    for anyone or anything. constantly trying to be perfect. constantly worrying about how others see me and I just can't stop. I went to Walmart recently and I passed by this girl in her hooters uniform. she was so perfect. like every guys dream girl and she looked at me all smug...
    35answers 35answers
    18-21, F
    Feb 14, 2016

    Does anyone else ever wonder how someone can

    look at one of their flaws and not think any worse of themselves for it? Because I do. A lot. And I don't get it. Here I am obsessing over the amount of fat on my stomach, going through fits of depression, anger, fear, and self-consciousness, but at the same time, there are...
    Strass Strass
    22-25, M
    1 Response Mar 6, 2014

    Hi, I would like to talk to others about their

    experiences of BDD. I have been told for years by numerous people that they think I have it. I do go through phases of obsessing over certain body parts i.e., nose, ears, whether one thigh is bigger than the other. Recently I am starting to feel like my body is twisting. It...
    newbiealibi newbiealibi
    41-45, F
    May 6, 2014
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