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I Have Become a Recluse

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    The Disappearances Of Dearestlola

    I call this "being under my rock."  Maybe once or twice a year, I go through these very intense episodes of reclusiveness, and it will last for weeks, sometimes months. I go to great lengths to cut myself off from society and to hide from the social circles I'm normally...
    DearestLola DearestLola 36-40, F 1 Response Apr 24, 2010

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    Tired of the Old Hr

    I realize it seems hypocrital to write a story about being lonely and then writing about being a recluse but part of my loneliness stems from being tired of people. Tired of the shallowness, the bitterness, the rage, the frustration, the pettiness, the jealous and all the 101...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Jul 23, 2009

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    Thanks, Mom!

    My mother has always been a loner. She has a few friends, but hardly any family members. Her mom and brother died when she was young, leaving her with just a dad. My grandfather became a long-haul truck driver when I was about four years old. Ever since then, it's been us kids...
    urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 15, 2011

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    Fading Away From The World

    I just found this site and felt the need to tell my story.   I am about to turn 32 and find myself becoming more and more reclusive.   I have a group of friends I was once pretty close with that I have not hung out with in years.  Every so often I will get a text from them...
    Loner7 Loner7 31-35 3 Responses Jun 10, 2012

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    Recluse In My Old Age

    I've always been a loner. As a child, I had few friends and preferred playing by myself coloring or playing with my dolls. I'm the youngest with 2 older brothers. My mother is still alive at 93 and has always been verbally abusive and just generally mean. My father was the...
    luvmybostons luvmybostons 61-65, F Oct 12, 2013

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    I have been a recluse

    for 12 years I work at home and when I do groceries shopping I do it on line and I have no interaction with people and I am fine with this life style I have tried to go out in public but just to find out how many really stupid people are out there. I just don't have the...
    Seaneryan42 Seaneryan42 41-45, M Jan 20, 2014

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    All Too Often

    In the last several years, I find myself just staying at home alone in my room.  I sometimes wonder why I do it.  Part of me is afraid to have to face the reality that I have lost control of my life again.  Another part is that I just don't want to have others see...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 11, 2008

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    I am 16 years old and not enrolled in school.

    I have spent the past 2 years of my life sleeping, laying around, eating, doing ridiculous things with food and medicine and household products, ************ at least 6 times a week, pretending to harm myself, harming animals, playing a lot of video games, wandering around...
    MalkiTzedek MalkiTzedek 16-17, M Dec 15, 2013

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    Reclusive Me...

    It seems odd to be sitting here writing about becoming reclusive. I cannot believe it is me or that my life turned out this way. I hold a regular job where I have to interract with people on a daily basis and am happy to do so, but when I come home, I feel fiercely...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 23, 2010

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    It's True!

    After my last relationship, I started speaking with my old friends again.  I have found that we either have not much in common (other than a history); and some are really busy with their family work, etc.  I have made a few friends here and there, but rarely speak or...
    Yohanna Yohanna 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 31, 2009

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    A Recluse

    I don't know when or how it started and I don't want to be this way, I think the circle of friends I had were not friends but more of acquaintances, and one by one they hurt me or just seemed to disappear from my life. I've became comfortable being on my own,well kind of, I say...
    myselfxox myselfxox 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 22, 2009

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    Destined For Reclusive-Ness Ricky

    As a child I was always a loner and shy, my sisters and brothers didn't seem to want much to do with me so I happily played alone and did my own thing, being shy in School was a nightmare! I could barely speak in class and it was all to clear the kids looked at me as an outsider...
    rickylee93221 rickylee93221 46-50 1 Response May 4, 2013

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    Reclusive Rosie

    When I was a child, I was never allowed to go anywhere by my strict parents. Come straight home from school. Don't bring friends over, and don't ask to go to their place either. Don't talk about your problems to anyone. No freedom. Lots of verbal and emotional abuse kept me in my...
    RosieH67 RosieH67 41-45, F Aug 14, 2012

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    Reclusive Rosie

    When I was a child, I was never allowed to go anywhere by my strict parents. Come straight home from school. Don't bring friends over, and don't ask to go to their place either. Don't talk about your problems to anyone. No freedom. Lots of verbal and emotional abuse kept me in my...
    RosieH67 RosieH67 41-45, F Aug 14, 2012

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    Why

    It has been a particularly difficult week for me. For some unknown reason my mood had worsened, I am having extremely negative thoughts, I have nobody to tell...and lets be honest who would really care to listen to such a misery. I seem to be carrying some kind of internally...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 30, 2010

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    I've never liked people much,

    and since my health problems keep me housebound, I don't bother to have relationships anymore. I kind of really love it. In the film Thin Red Line Sean Penn says, "I only feel lonely when I'm around people," and I couldn't agree more.
    stphnmclrn46 stphnmclrn46 22-25 1 Response Jan 10, 2014

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