I Have Become a Recluse

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 100 People

    I am 16 years old and not enrolled in school.

    I have spent the past 2 years of my life sleeping, laying around, eating, doing ridiculous things with food and medicine and household products, ************ at least 6 times a week, pretending to harm myself, harming animals, playing a lot of video games, wandering around...
    MalkiTzedek MalkiTzedek
    18-21, M
    Dec 15, 2013

    I've never liked people much,

    and since my health problems keep me housebound, I don't bother to have relationships anymore. I kind of really love it. In the film Thin Red Line Sean Penn says, "I only feel lonely when I'm around people," and I couldn't agree more.
    stphnmclrn46 stphnmclrn46
    22-25
    1 Response Jan 10, 2014

    Tired of the Old Hr

    I realize it seems hypocrital to write a story about being lonely and then writing about being a recluse but part of my loneliness stems from being tired of people. Tired of the shallowness, the bitterness, the rage, the frustration, the pettiness, the jealous and all the 101...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    10 Responses Jul 23, 2009

    I have been a recluse

    for 12 years I work at home and when I do groceries shopping I do it on line and I have no interaction with people and I am fine with this life style I have tried to go out in public but just to find out how many really stupid people are out there. I just don't have the...
    Seaneryan42 Seaneryan42
    41-45, M
    Jan 20, 2014

    Fading Away From The World

    I just found this site and felt the need to tell my story.   I am about to turn 32 and find myself becoming more and more reclusive.   I have a group of friends I was once pretty close with that I have not hung out with in years.  Every so often I will get a text from them...
    Loner7 Loner7
    31-35
    3 Responses Jun 10, 2012

    Recluse In My Old Age

    I've always been a loner. As a child, I had few friends and preferred playing by myself coloring or playing with my dolls. I'm the youngest with 2 older brothers. My mother is still alive at 93 and has always been verbally abusive and just generally mean. My father was the...
    luvmybostons luvmybostons
    66-70, F
    Oct 12, 2013

    Reclusive Rosie

    When I was a child, I was never allowed to go anywhere by my strict parents. Come straight home from school. Don't bring friends over, and don't ask to go to their place either. Don't talk about your problems to anyone. No freedom. Lots of verbal and emotional abuse kept me in my...
    RosieH67 RosieH67
    41-45, F
    Aug 14, 2012

    Why

    It has been a particularly difficult week for me. For some unknown reason my mood had worsened, I am having extremely negative thoughts, I have nobody to tell...and lets be honest who would really care to listen to such a misery. I seem to be carrying some kind of internally...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 30, 2010

    Destined For Reclusive-Ness Ricky

    As a child I was always a loner and shy, my sisters and brothers didn't seem to want much to do with me so I happily played alone and did my own thing, being shy in School was a nightmare! I could barely speak in class and it was all to clear the kids looked at me as an outsider...
    rickylee93221 rickylee93221
    46-50
    1 Response May 4, 2013

    A Recluse

    I don't know when or how it started and I don't want to be this way, I think the circle of friends I had were not friends but more of acquaintances, and one by one they hurt me or just seemed to disappear from my life. I've became comfortable being on my own,well kind of, I say...
    myselfxox myselfxox
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Nov 22, 2009

    The Disappearances Of Dearestlola

    I call this "being under my rock."  Maybe once or twice a year, I go through these very intense episodes of reclusiveness, and it will last for weeks, sometimes months. I go to great lengths to cut myself off from society and to hide from the social circles I'm normally...
    DearestLola DearestLola
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 24, 2010

    It's True!

    After my last relationship, I started speaking with my old friends again.  I have found that we either have not much in common (other than a history); and some are really busy with their family work, etc.  I have made a few friends here and there, but rarely speak or...
    Yohanna Yohanna
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Jul 31, 2009

    All Too Often

    In the last several years, I find myself just staying at home alone in my room.  I sometimes wonder why I do it.  Part of me is afraid to have to face the reality that I have lost control of my life again.  Another part is that I just don't want to have others see...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 11, 2008

    Thanks, Mom!

    My mother has always been a loner. She has a few friends, but hardly any family members. Her mom and brother died when she was young, leaving her with just a dad. My grandfather became a long-haul truck driver when I was about four years old. Ever since then, it's been us kids...
    urbrandofheroin urbrandofheroin
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 15, 2011

    Reclusive Rosie

    When I was a child, I was never allowed to go anywhere by my strict parents. Come straight home from school. Don't bring friends over, and don't ask to go to their place either. Don't talk about your problems to anyone. No freedom. Lots of verbal and emotional abuse kept me in my...
    RosieH67 RosieH67
    41-45, F
    Aug 14, 2012

    Loneliness is immaterial.

    ... I can survive without company... I am learning contentment in the company of myself...Its almost..therapeutic... Like journeying into oneself and discovering what you hide...Aggravating depressed tendencies, and yet...Being lonesome is not the cause...no the effect..Solitude...
    RenegadeReaper RenegadeReaper
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Oct 20, 2015

    Reclusive Me...

    It seems odd to be sitting here writing about becoming reclusive. I cannot believe it is me or that my life turned out this way. I hold a regular job where I have to interract with people on a daily basis and am happy to do so, but when I come home, I feel fiercely...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 23, 2010

    I'm so isolated... So friendless other my new

    online friends... So cut off and out of touch...Life is passing me by...
    RenegadeReaper RenegadeReaper
    22-25, F
    Oct 13, 2015

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