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    I've been abused in every form by my last two

    boyfriends and I'm so scared it's going to happen to me again. Sometimes I wonder how I am still alive. As much as I am happy to be alive, I am so lost. Ive been trying to find my self for the past year but it's a constant battle.
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Aug 17

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    it was almost 40 years ago.

    It took me 30 years before I actually told anyone and, when I did, I cried for the first time. Sobbed like a baby. It was so therapeutic! Years of shame, questioning, introspection and doubt. Despite the fact that I was so young at the time (about 10) as time went on and I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 9

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    Papa

    My papa was very abusive he would burn kick punch and almost anyway to hurt my I remember when I was about nine I broke one of he's cups I dropped it he looked at me evilly "Why would you do that!" He yelled at me I put my hands in a blocking form "Papa I didn't mean too." I said...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 20, 2012

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    I Feel Abused , Used And Unwanted.

    Does anyone know what i deal with , the manic and the depression Ive never really told the full story , so this is my confession I met this woman at birth , the one i call my mother Theres another i cant handle , who my mum wants me to call my brother The bruises i used...
    ThanksForTheMemories ThanksForTheMemories 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 30, 2013

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    Except it wasn't by any of my parents.

    It was my older brother who used to beat me and ****. I was 4 at the time and he was 17.. He'd always tell my parents that I only fell or I was playing around too much when they asked about the bruises.. I just don't understand why he did it, and guess i never will because he's...
    nonamethe2nd nonamethe2nd 13-15, M 1 Response a week ago

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    How could someone think

    that it's okay telling me that I must really want someone that beats me, especially knowing that I have been in an abusive relationship before.
    BrokenGiggles BrokenGiggles 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 29

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    I Was Abused

    Twice was I abused. Once by my mother . Once by my ex boyfriend. My mother is very sick then and now and I forgave her but it still hurts. She did a lot for me that's good I know that . But she did a lot for me that's bad as well. It's hard to think someone you love would ever...
    redridinghoodxo redridinghoodxo 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 12, 2013

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    My story is when I was 6 years old my father

    began to sexually abuse me. I'm not talking just a touch here or there. I mean he raped me. He made me have sex with other men not for money, but because he liked it in a sick perverted way. He continued to abuse me until I was 16. I remained quiet about the abuse until I was 20...
    Chrissiwho1989 Chrissiwho1989 26-30 1 Response Aug 5

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    I feel like no one else considers it abuse

    simply because they don't want to get into the subject or consider it. I support feel ow victims and respect them. If you know how i feel, message me so we can both have some closure.
    eccentricpoe eccentricpoe 16-17, F Oct 18, 2014

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    I've been Abused Physically

    but I'd have to say, Emotional and Mental Abuse is the worse. The Physical pain stopped after while when he was done for the night but it was the Emotional and Mental pain that never did.
    AnonymousFire AnonymousFire 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    As of Now

    Now Im not being hit, kicked, puched, thrown, bitten ,hair being pulled out or forced to have sex. but it wasnt to long ago that all of this was my life and in some weird way I miss him. All he does is make me upset and all I do is miss the abuse because now thats what I know I...
    halfgone halfgone 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 7, 2007

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    My bf tries to help me with it

    and talk to me about it but I just always get upset and angry when I talk about it... he wants to try to help me understand how I feel and help me cope with it, help me not hate my past so much that it tortures me. But I hate talking about it so much.... hes the only one id ever...
    DeathAngelS300 DeathAngelS300 18-21, F Jan 18

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    Hi guys, I'm a 14 year old girl

    and I'm wondering, am I verbally abused? My father and I have clashed for as long as I remember, and he can get quite nasty when he's mad. I'm a very sensitive person because of him, and cry a lot when he yells at me, which I hate but I can't stop. I'll give examples of things...
    Nightlife707 Nightlife707 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 13, 2014

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    Will I Ever Find Peace And Serenity

    A warm wave flows through my body , a QUICK flood of warmth, from my toes up to my face. My pulse is racing, I'm sweaty and hot, yet cold chills are running up my spine. Butterflies in my stomach. Thoughts are racing through my head. Your a worthless drug addict, no wonder your...
    libra604 libra604 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 1, 2012

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    By myself . By you . By them .

    By the world . but that's life .
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 18-21, F 1 Response May 11

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    Scared to leave you But know I need to go

    Scared to leave because the path ahead has holes You may not have been nice But I felt provide for You may not have loved me But you were a good dad Up until this past march when something snapped We need to leave And not come back She needs her mommy and I have...
    kshine27 kshine27 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    When I was about 7-8years old,

    my sister and one of her friends Megan and Megan's uncles walked to a convent store. My sister and her when inside while the uncle I stayed outside around back on the hillside. Somehow I knew it was wrong but he had me pull my pants down and put my penis in his mouth! He...
    ConfusedINLove33 ConfusedINLove33 36-40, M Oct 16, 2014

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    I Share My Entire Story In A Book Called Embracing My Father's Shadow

    My name is Katya, and I've been abused by my father. I'd like to share with you my story--the whole story. I've written a book, a memoir, on my experiences with abuse entitled Embracing My Father's Shadow (http://www.amazon.com/Embracing-My-Fathers-Shadow-Beauty/dp/0615766889...
    katyacole katyacole 26-30 1 Response Mar 22, 2013

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    it was the son of my dad's girlfriend.

    ... i was 7 and he was 14 and sometimes he'd just wake me up in the morning, pull me to his room and on his bed and then it would happen.... i was acared to tell anyone so i didnt but my mom told me that i drew pictures of penises and hair and she knew i wouldnt do that at 7 so...
    aimeetomlinson aimeetomlinson 13-15, F 2 Responses May 24

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    Sometimes I dream of the frightening things

    that had happened to me. I would wake up crying. Even when I moved on, My past will never go away.
    wish4love wish4love 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 12, 2014

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    Not Sure What to Call It

    My mother wasn't ready to be a mother. She was still jumping from man to man by the time she had my brother and me. For some reason, all of these men happened to be abusive to us and to her as well. She was neglectful, though I try to keep her age in mind, and often we would be...
    ItsWhatever ItsWhatever 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 28, 2008

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    This is a poem/rap that I wrote tonight

    because I've been struggling a lot with PTSD and people not understanding. Just a disclaimer, the police do know about what happened, and it's being solved, but that doesn't mean the emotional pain is gone. So here we go: Expectations there's a murderer in my mind working to...
    justtryingtosurvive justtryingtosurvive 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 17, 2014

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    Emotionally, physically,

    sexually, verbally, mentally; you name it. I've had them all!
    MissImaginaryy MissImaginaryy 16-17, F 4 Responses Apr 8

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    When I was really little I used to beat up my

    stuffed animals like my dads wife did to me. Then I would say sorry and do it again the next day. I remember my dads wife packing my bags when I was six and placing me outside the front door. So I just walked... They would tell me to shut up and atop complaining when...
    HelloEla HelloEla 18-21, F 1 Response May 10

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    It started when I was 11

    although at tht time I didn't know it was abuse I thought it was abit of fun. my cousin a year older then me started touching me in inappropriate places. it made me feel uncomfortable but I guess he was my cousin so I weren't scared of him. As I got older he showed me...
    zenii15 zenii15 18-21, F 4 Responses May 27

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    A Night Out

    I met this guy at the bar. I went out with my best friend and we were having drinking and dancing. I hung out with guy for a while I decided to leave with him. I was with him alone and I feel like that was a big mistake. He felt on my legs and he wouldn't stop so I slapped him...
    lynn239 lynn239 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 2, 2013

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    I feel a lil un easy about posting this.

    .but that's what this app is all about right? Being ourselves without judgment ect ..but I feel stuck ..at home...Im abused daily by my little brother he constantly tries to stab me and punch me I'm not allowed to have a lock on my door and he barges in all day since he doesn't...
    glisteningheartz glisteningheartz 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 6

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    I have been verbally

    and mentally abused by my mom and dad, never really anything psychical, I mean.. I've been hit before, but nothing extreme. My mom is better about it, but my dad is the worst in the family. I don't understand what his problem is, he takes his anger out on all of me and my...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 4 Responses Jun 25

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    Saw a therapist for a misunderstood disorder

    today (caused by my sexual abuse) She is the same as everyone else telling me I don't drink enough and so on
    AnoynomousReader AnoynomousReader 13-15, F May 28

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    I Abused by MY birth Mom Her Bother a neighbor

    My ex husband and ex boyfriend! But I am better Now!
    Nebmom2 Nebmom2 41-45, F May 28

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    I have social anxiety,

    depression, PTSD, agoraphobia, and other extreme health issues that I don't get any assistance for, and I can't afford healthcare, so I have to deal with these issues on my own. I grew up in an abusive household until age 25, I was also abused in the workplace and at school...
    LyraAlluse LyraAlluse 26-30, F 3 Responses Jun 27

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    By my grandfather. It has effected me in many

    ways. But I try to look passed it. He was a very nice man till it came to me. Family problems made it to were cps placed me there for 2 months....he would beat me and kick me slap me.... Hit me with pans in the back of my head......ugh horrible man....
    smileforme14 smileforme14 13-15, T Jun 15

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    Emotionally and physically.

    By many different people.. I do not have a father, I never have. And my mother has drunk alcohol all my life as well as sought affection from many different men. Of most who abused me physically and emotionally along the side with my mom.. They called me ugly, unworthy, a...
    asdfnx asdfnx 18-21, F 4 Responses Oct 13, 2014

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    I am abused by my mother

    and I can feel so much hate which makes me feel weird about myself and I can do nothing about it because I am from the middle east. here, we do not have any right to stand against our parents because it will be a shame. Yet, I really hate this illness we live in and I dont know...
    nkbbb nkbbb 18-21, F Dec 9, 2014

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    The weird thing about it is

    that it was my oldest cousin who abused me. I was 4 at the time and she was 18. Everyday she'd have to watch me while my parents were out, and if I did one little thing wrong she'd hit me so hard and I'd pass out sometimes -_- every time I see her she makes me want to smash her...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses May 10

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    I think it was the way he laughed.

    So full of life , yet I was left lifeless. He was the start of a dream and a end to a nightmare. He stood 6'1 his Carmel skin complimenting his eyes. I was nine and I knew he had to be older than me . I caught his eye as soon as I entered the door. He flashed his blue braces at...
    nanifnbahd nanifnbahd 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 21, 2014

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    Abuser Dad...

    I think that my dad loves me the wrong way... he doesn't let me talk to guys... he's always touching me the wrong way... he always tries to kiss me in the lips... when i'm distrated he touches my ***.... he has forced me to let him touch my breats... he used to spied me when i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Apr 22, 2013

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    1976 The Psych Ward

    Why I was there, and what happened when I was. This is a rather long story, and not a pretty one.  Not funny and frivolous like most of my others. So, if you prefer to give it a miss, I don't blame you. I just needed to finally tell the story. In 1975, I got involved with a very...
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F 6 Responses Mar 10, 2012

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    I Can Fly.....can You?

    D ear soul-mates, (we are bound together by shared experiences),   I do not choose to live in the dark, cold recesses of hurt and shame. So, I wrote a book about my experiences that leaves out those graphic details used so many times to sensationalize and further victimize...
    tristanmoorhen tristanmoorhen 41-45 1 Response Mar 19, 2008

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    I recently confronted my LG's about their past

    and current behavior at the dinner table. I have been abused physically, mentally, verbally and emotionally abused by them since I was a child. When I brought it up, they both claimed they "did not recall" any of that happening. They are manipulative, twisted people and I am...
    HelloEla HelloEla 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 24

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    I've Never Let A Single Person In

    I've had the greatest of friends in my life, I mean they're great people but I just kept them all at a distance. You see, I was abused as a kid, at 5. I was just a boy. I hadn't even begun to comprehend what it was to be a person, to be alive, to be in the world. It wasnt so much...
    noahkal noahkal 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 14, 2013

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    Right when I got out of high school,

    I started working. From there, I met this man whom I thought was the most wonderful and amazing guy ever. We hit it off and started dating and we were together for about 4 years. But already into the relationship, he was lying to me. Whenever I would question his whereabouts or...
    wish4love wish4love 26-30, F 3 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    I have social events I go to like conventions

    and festivals. I go to these things to make NEW friends. She's always got to be there! She's with me 24/7! When she comes with me to the con and faires, I can't talk to anyone but her. She does the same as usual like at home, criticizes me and my family. Then she gets bored and...
    RainbowPastel RainbowPastel 16-17, F Sep 30, 2014

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    ~THE ART OF EMOTIONAL ABUSE~ THE CANVAS How do

    you become the victim of emotional abuse? Why don’t you just get out? I’ve been asked “What did he do to you?” BRUSH STROKES There are no concrete answers to that question. No physical wounds to prove the damage. It’s so subtle & pervasive, as not to be described by a...
    Breeziiee Breeziiee 41-45, F Feb 20, 2014

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    PART 2 Last September right

    before my birthday, she confessed her attraction to me. Is it because she feels bad for me because I don't attract guys, as well as the fact I can't seem to have a higher relationship status with them other than a "bro"? Like since I was 12, I have not been attracted to guys...
    RainbowPastel RainbowPastel 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 15, 2014

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    Here is the only place I'll

    even admit it happened and is happening which isn't good cause my abusers may never go to jail where they belong and that kills me.
    sadgirlLeena sadgirlLeena 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 8