I Have Been Abused

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    I've been abused in every form by my last two

    boyfriends and I'm so scared it's going to happen to me again. Sometimes I wonder how I am still alive. As much as I am happy to be alive, I am so lost. Ive been trying to find my self for the past year but it's a constant battle.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 17, 2015

    in some ways I wish he would have done it to me.

    not him telling me what to do then me doing it to myself. because if he did it then I could blame him but I blame myself and it sucks. I know it wasn't my fault but it feels like it is
    Forevertired23 Forevertired23
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Apr 14

    The weird thing about it is

    that it was my oldest cousin who abused me. I was 4 at the time and she was 18. Everyday she'd have to watch me while my parents were out, and if I did one little thing wrong she'd hit me so hard and I'd pass out sometimes -_- every time I see her she makes me want to smash her...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses May 10, 2015

    Scared to leave you But know I need to go

    Scared to leave because the path ahead has holes You may not have been nice But I felt provide for You may not have loved me But you were a good dad Up until this past march when something snapped We need to leave And not come back She needs her mommy and I have...
    kshine27 kshine27
    26-30, F
    Aug 25, 2015

    I've been Abused Physically

    but I'd have to say, Emotional and Mental Abuse is the worse. The Physical pain stopped after while when he was done for the night but it was the Emotional and Mental pain that never did.
    AnonymousFire AnonymousFire
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Dec 10, 2013

    I saw him today after a long time,

    I didn't feel hate for him anymore he came over to help my dad. I avoided looking him in the eyes although I caught his eyes once and he still had that same cheeky smile.He's grown a lot since the last time I saw him even got a gf so I thought maybe he's getting his fill of...
    zenii15 zenii15
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 17

    It started when I was 11

    although at tht time I didn't know it was abuse I thought it was abit of fun. my cousin a year older then me started touching me in inappropriate places. it made me feel uncomfortable but I guess he was my cousin so I weren't scared of him. As I got older he showed me...
    zenii15 zenii15
    18-21, F
    7 Responses May 27, 2015

    I Feel Abused , Used And Unwanted.

    Does anyone know what i deal with , the manic and the depression Ive never really told the full story , so this is my confession I met this woman at birth , the one i call my mother Theres another i cant handle , who my mum wants me to call my brother The bruises i used...
    ThanksForTheMemories ThanksForTheMemories
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 30, 2013

    My bf tries to help me with it

    and talk to me about it but I just always get upset and angry when I talk about it... he wants to try to help me understand how I feel and help me cope with it, help me not hate my past so much that it tortures me. But I hate talking about it so much.... hes the only one id ever...
    DeathAngelS300 DeathAngelS300
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 18, 2015

    I was 16, ended when I was 17.

    She was my first GF and she emotionally abused me daily, and it wasn't uncommon for her to hit me either... messed up part is I miss her :(
    Subject54 Subject54
    26-30, T
    Oct 18, 2015

    My Story Of Being Taking Advantage Of

    My name is Megan right now I am 18 years old. When i was 14 years old my life turned upside down. My twin sister accused our adopted Dad of touching ng her i didnt know who to believe though now i know who told the truth( she told the truth cause it happened to me)..she got sent...
    tempmegan tempmegan
    18-21
    1 Response Sep 10, 2010

    This isn't a poem, but I felt the need to write

    it in this format to reflect how choppy my feelings get when my mind is where its at this moment. Sometimes I get angry. The anger starts in my belly. It works its way up to my throat, Expanding, Until the pressure is so tight I hardly feel as though I can breathe. I take deep...
    wtfgirl001 wtfgirl001
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Dec 28, 2015

    From community before other close people

    who did hurt me the most.
    joemane36 joemane36
    36-40, M
    Apr 15

    Not Sure What to Call It

    My mother wasn't ready to be a mother. She was still jumping from man to man by the time she had my brother and me. For some reason, all of these men happened to be abusive to us and to her as well. She was neglectful, though I try to keep her age in mind, and often we would be...
    ItsWhatever ItsWhatever
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Feb 28, 2008

    I've become angry again.

    The past two days I've been battling with my resentment toward him and what he did to me. I'm mad that after everything is said and done, I'm the one that's paying more for his actions than he is. It's been three months ago now, and I've finally found a good therapist that...
    wtfgirl001 wtfgirl001
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 11

    How could someone think

    that it's okay telling me that I must really want someone that beats me, especially knowing that I have been in an abusive relationship before.
    BrokenGiggles BrokenGiggles
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jul 29, 2015

    I've been abused by my ex

    for two years and suffered in silence. It would start off with us arguing and you can never raise your voice higher than his or for sure you will get a slap because you need to calm down then when I fight back I'm wrong and I was brainwashed then into thinking that I was the...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 18, 2015

    ~THE ART OF EMOTIONAL ABUSE~ THE CANVAS How do

    you become the victim of emotional abuse? Why don’t you just get out? I’ve been asked “What did he do to you?” BRUSH STROKES There are no concrete answers to that question. No physical wounds to prove the damage. It’s so subtle & pervasive, as not to be described by a...
    Breeziiee Breeziiee
    46-50, F
    Feb 20, 2014

    I'm now going through the anger phase of

    dealing with all of this. After I had finally taken a stand and called the police on him, I felt relieved. Like, I loved myself again, and strong. I was happy. About two weeks ago, the depression started to sink in. I started blaming myself for everything that happened...
    wtfgirl001 wtfgirl001
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 14, 2015

    I was abused by my birth mom her brother,

    neighbor. My Ex husband ex boyfriend and other ppl!
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 26, 2015

    Again and again. This time is

    neither the first nor it will be the last. I got abused in the bus. Don'teven wanna tell the content. Escaped into a mall, yelled the man near security, he followed me till the food section. Yelled again then he vanished. I want to die, I simply do. I told it to mom she said...
    Katerinafaith Katerinafaith
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 6

    my name is Taylor, age 20.

    I have two kids with my husband of 3 years. I've wanted to leave my husband for 4 months because he has been sexually and physically abusive. if I could leave, he would get my babies because I have no job,never finished high school, and have no friends or family to help me. I...
    Taylorlovesagain Taylorlovesagain
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jan 29

    Abuser Dad...

    I think that my dad loves me the wrong way... he doesn't let me talk to guys... he's always touching me the wrong way... he always tries to kiss me in the lips... when i'm distrated he touches my ***.... he has forced me to let him touch my breats... he used to spied me when i...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    5 Responses Apr 22, 2013

    I have been verbally

    and mentally abused by my mom and dad, never really anything psychical, I mean.. I've been hit before, but nothing extreme. My mom is better about it, but my dad is the worst in the family. I don't understand what his problem is, he takes his anger out on all of me and my...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jun 25, 2015

    several times..makes it hard

    for me to let anyone close. I'm always guarded up
    Nmetb Nmetb
    22-25, M
    1 Response Nov 18, 2015

    As of Now

    Now Im not being hit, kicked, puched, thrown, bitten ,hair being pulled out or forced to have sex. but it wasnt to long ago that all of this was my life and in some weird way I miss him. All he does is make me upset and all I do is miss the abuse because now thats what I know I...
    halfgone halfgone
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Aug 7, 2007

    I'm not ready to share the full story

    but I was sexually abused by my father. what hurts more is that 10 years later, and 6 years after telling her, my mother is still married to him. how could she be so old fashioned not to kick that pervert to the curb? if I had a daughter and found out that someone did anything...
    nakedofaname nakedofaname
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 18, 2015

    Except it wasn't by any of my parents.

    It was my older brother who used to beat me and ****. I was 4 at the time and he was 17.. He'd always tell my parents that I only fell or I was playing around too much when they asked about the bruises.. I just don't understand why he did it, and guess i never will because he's...
    MrReaper2 MrReaper2
    16-17, M
    3 Responses Aug 24, 2015

    I am currently in an abusive marriage.

    A little about my back story. My mom was very emotionally and verbally abusive, sometimes even physically if I ever stood up to her. Flash forward to high school. Mom is the same, but I meet my first husband who also comes from an abusive home. We talk marriage and a life...
    greenapple0307 greenapple0307
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Nov 17, 2015

    I'm in that place now

    where I blame myself. When I met him, I loved everything that he was, and everything that I thought he was. I loved the way he'd ramble on about electronics and music I knew nothing about. I found his lack of social skills charming and I found his mystery intriguing. As the...
    wtfgirl001 wtfgirl001
    22-25, F
    Jan 19

    This isn't I like to talk about mainly.

    .. So I guess it began last year. I met her and tbh she seemed like she couldn't cause any harm. I was 14, she was a bit younger. We just loved each other. It changed after about half way in... After some time she would start saying I'm weak, a useless nothing. She would hit me...
    DamageKey DamageKey
    41-45, M
    1 Response Apr 20

    I recently confronted my LG's about their past

    and current behavior at the dinner table. I have been abused physically, mentally, verbally and emotionally abused by them since I was a child. When I brought it up, they both claimed they "did not recall" any of that happening. They are manipulative, twisted people and I am...
    HelloEla HelloEla
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jul 24, 2015

    I recently wrote a letter to my abuser

    that I won't ever send. It was really painful for me to write it but I think in some way it helped me. I have post traumatic stress disorder from several different experiences in my life but my experience with my abuser is definitely a huge part of it. It's been almost 2 years...
    luxmeta luxmeta
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 18, 2015

    I was abused as a child growing up.

    But things got worse when i was in high school. My parents and brother didn't approve of my boyfriend so i would get beats at home for being with him and he had no idea...when things got serious he wanted me to convert for him and i did it cause i was in love at that time. When...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Feb 25

    When I was 7 years old,

    my father sexually abused me in the middle of the night. It tore my family apart, and although my mom does not know this, I have not gotten over it, and am incapable of forgetting that night. I don't care that he went to prison. I just want to be able to forget what happened to...
    mgharper05 mgharper05
    18-21, F
    Mar 23

    My father abused me,

    but the worst thing is that he and my mum says it never happened. They lie about it. It is a horrible feeling. I can't explain it. When I was 15 years old I slept at the house of a friend. He tried to rape me, pressed me down, had his hand on my throat. I never told my parents...
    dytopiandreamer dytopiandreamer
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 18, 2015

    My boyfriend always said he would never hit me

    or physically hurt me but lately....He can't control himself and he will twist my arm or press me up against the wall and pin my arms very tight, I've had to wear long sleeves to cover the bruises..
    BrokenGiggles BrokenGiggles
    18-21, F
    Mar 28

    I Can Fly.....can You?

    D ear soul-mates, (we are bound together by shared experiences),   I do not choose to live in the dark, cold recesses of hurt and shame. So, I wrote a book about my experiences that leaves out those graphic details used so many times to sensationalize and further victimize...
    tristanmoorhen tristanmoorhen
    41-45
    1 Response Mar 19, 2008

    One year ago on Dec. 2nd (2014) I was sexually

    assaulted and abused in an airplane. 365 days later I was SWATTED on Dec. 2nd (2015). In 2014 I was sent out of school for being what they claimed was suicidal after my assault. In 2015 I was swatted by the SAME people claiming I had plans to kill myself. This is 100% true.
    KhildofKhaos KhildofKhaos
    18-21
    Dec 5, 2015

    Right when I got out of high school,

    I started working. From there, I met this man whom I thought was the most wonderful and amazing guy ever. We hit it off and started dating and we were together for about 4 years. But already into the relationship, he was lying to me. Whenever I would question his whereabouts or...
    wish4love wish4love
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 4, 2014

    I think it was the way he laughed.

    So full of life , yet I was left lifeless. He was the start of a dream and a end to a nightmare. He stood 6'1 his Carmel skin complimenting his eyes. I was nine and I knew he had to be older than me . I caught his eye as soon as I entered the door. He flashed his blue braces at...
    nanifnbahd nanifnbahd
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 21, 2014

    1976 The Psych Ward

    Why I was there, and what happened when I was. This is a rather long story, and not a pretty one.  Not funny and frivolous like most of my others. So, if you prefer to give it a miss, I don't blame you. I just needed to finally tell the story. In 1975, I got involved with a very...
    Serenitree Serenitree
    70+, F
    6 Responses Mar 10, 2012

    My story is when I was 6 years old my father

    began to sexually abuse me. I'm not talking just a touch here or there. I mean he raped me. He made me have sex with other men not for money, but because he liked it in a sick perverted way. He continued to abuse me until I was 16. I remained quiet about the abuse until I was 20...
    Chrissiwho1989 Chrissiwho1989
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 5, 2015

    I have been dealing with this fact

    trepidatiously for the past week. Some days I'll be fine and others I'll feel like yelling at the world. I'm angry, and not even at him. Some days I'll just start crying. Nothing triggers it but the pain I feel when trying to get up out of a chair. It's been a month now, and it...
    wtfgirl001 wtfgirl001
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 11, 2015

    I see a lot of groups about against child abuse

    and I'm with that 100%. I see so many posts where a child lives in fear from their parents. Verbal abuse is the worse.But what if it's the child who abuse the parent? It happens every day. I have seen in the news where children abuse their elderly parent. That is what happened...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 1

    This is a poem/rap that I wrote tonight

    because I've been struggling a lot with PTSD and people not understanding. Just a disclaimer, the police do know about what happened, and it's being solved, but that doesn't mean the emotional pain is gone. So here we go: Expectations there's a murderer in my mind working to...
    justtryingtosurvive justtryingtosurvive
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 17, 2014
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