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I Have Been Abused

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    I think it was the way he laughed.

    So full of life , yet I was left lifeless. He was the start of a dream and a end to a nightmare. He stood 6'1 his Carmel skin complimenting his eyes. I was nine and I knew he had to be older than me . I caught his eye as soon as I entered the door. He flashed his blue braces at...
    nanifnbahd nanifnbahd 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 21, 2014

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    Papa

    My papa was very abusive he would burn kick punch and almost anyway to hurt my I remember when I was about nine I broke one of he's cups I dropped it he looked at me evilly "Why would you do that!" He yelled at me I put my hands in a blocking form "Papa I didn't mean too." I said...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 20, 2012

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    I've been Abused Physically

    but I'd have to say, Emotional and Mental Abuse is the worse. The Physical pain stopped after while when he was done for the night but it was the Emotional and Mental pain that never did.
    AnonymousFire AnonymousFire 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 10, 2013

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    I've been abused by my ex

    for two years and suffered in silence. It would start off with us arguing and you can never raise your voice higher than his or for sure you will get a slap because you need to calm down then when I fight back I'm wrong and I was brainwashed then into thinking that I was the...
    Reserved4 Reserved4 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 18, 2015

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    my name is Taylor, age 20.

    I have two kids with my husband of 3 years. I've wanted to leave my husband for 4 months because he has been sexually and physically abusive. if I could leave, he would get my babies because I have no job,never finished high school, and have no friends or family to help me. I...
    Taylorlovesagain Taylorlovesagain 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 29

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    Scared to leave you But know I need to go

    Scared to leave because the path ahead has holes You may not have been nice But I felt provide for You may not have loved me But you were a good dad Up until this past march when something snapped We need to leave And not come back She needs her mommy and I have...
    kshine27 kshine27 26-30, F Aug 25, 2015

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    I have been verbally

    and mentally abused by my mom and dad, never really anything psychical, I mean.. I've been hit before, but nothing extreme. My mom is better about it, but my dad is the worst in the family. I don't understand what his problem is, he takes his anger out on all of me and my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Jun 25, 2015

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    One year ago on Dec. 2nd (2014) I was sexually

    assaulted and abused in an airplane. 365 days later I was SWATTED on Dec. 2nd (2015). In 2014 I was sent out of school for being what they claimed was suicidal after my assault. In 2015 I was swatted by the SAME people claiming I had plans to kill myself. This is 100% true.
    KhildofKhaos KhildofKhaos 18-21 Dec 5, 2015

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    ~THE ART OF EMOTIONAL ABUSE~ THE CANVAS How do

    you become the victim of emotional abuse? Why don’t you just get out? I’ve been asked “What did he do to you?” BRUSH STROKES There are no concrete answers to that question. No physical wounds to prove the damage. It’s so subtle & pervasive, as not to be described by a...
    Breeziiee Breeziiee 46-50, F Feb 20, 2014

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    Not Sure What to Call It

    My mother wasn't ready to be a mother. She was still jumping from man to man by the time she had my brother and me. For some reason, all of these men happened to be abusive to us and to her as well. She was neglectful, though I try to keep her age in mind, and often we would be...
    ItsWhatever ItsWhatever 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 28, 2008

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    As of Now

    Now Im not being hit, kicked, puched, thrown, bitten ,hair being pulled out or forced to have sex. but it wasnt to long ago that all of this was my life and in some weird way I miss him. All he does is make me upset and all I do is miss the abuse because now thats what I know I...
    halfgone halfgone 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 7, 2007

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    I have been dealing with this fact

    trepidatiously for the past week. Some days I'll be fine and others I'll feel like yelling at the world. I'm angry, and not even at him. Some days I'll just start crying. Nothing triggers it but the pain I feel when trying to get up out of a chair. It's been a month now, and it...
    wtfgirl001 wtfgirl001 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2015

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    This isn't a poem, but I felt the need to write

    it in this format to reflect how choppy my feelings get when my mind is where its at this moment. Sometimes I get angry. The anger starts in my belly. It works its way up to my throat, Expanding, Until the pressure is so tight I hardly feel as though I can breathe. I take deep...
    wtfgirl001 wtfgirl001 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 28, 2015

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    My story is when I was 6 years old my father

    began to sexually abuse me. I'm not talking just a touch here or there. I mean he raped me. He made me have sex with other men not for money, but because he liked it in a sick perverted way. He continued to abuse me until I was 16. I remained quiet about the abuse until I was 20...
    Chrissiwho1989 Chrissiwho1989 26-30 1 Response Aug 5, 2015

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    I Was Abused

    Twice was I abused. Once by my mother . Once by my ex boyfriend. My mother is very sick then and now and I forgave her but it still hurts. She did a lot for me that's good I know that . But she did a lot for me that's bad as well. It's hard to think someone you love would ever...
    redridinghoodxo redridinghoodxo 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 12, 2013

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    I'm not ready to share the full story

    but I was sexually abused by my father. what hurts more is that 10 years later, and 6 years after telling her, my mother is still married to him. how could she be so old fashioned not to kick that pervert to the curb? if I had a daughter and found out that someone did anything...
    nakedofaname nakedofaname 26-30 2 Responses Nov 18, 2015

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    Right when I got out of high school,

    I started working. From there, I met this man whom I thought was the most wonderful and amazing guy ever. We hit it off and started dating and we were together for about 4 years. But already into the relationship, he was lying to me. Whenever I would question his whereabouts or...
    wish4love wish4love 26-30, F 3 Responses Mar 4, 2014

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    I recently wrote a letter to my abuser

    that I won't ever send. It was really painful for me to write it but I think in some way it helped me. I have post traumatic stress disorder from several different experiences in my life but my experience with my abuser is definitely a huge part of it. It's been almost 2 years...
    luxmeta luxmeta 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 18, 2015

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    I Can Fly.....can You?

    D ear soul-mates, (we are bound together by shared experiences),   I do not choose to live in the dark, cold recesses of hurt and shame. So, I wrote a book about my experiences that leaves out those graphic details used so many times to sensationalize and further victimize...
    tristanmoorhen tristanmoorhen 41-45 1 Response Mar 19, 2008

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    1976 The Psych Ward

    Why I was there, and what happened when I was. This is a rather long story, and not a pretty one.  Not funny and frivolous like most of my others. So, if you prefer to give it a miss, I don't blame you. I just needed to finally tell the story. In 1975, I got involved with a very...
    Serenitree Serenitree 70+, F 6 Responses Mar 10, 2012

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    It started when I was 11

    although at tht time I didn't know it was abuse I thought it was abit of fun. my cousin a year older then me started touching me in inappropriate places. it made me feel uncomfortable but I guess he was my cousin so I weren't scared of him. As I got older he showed me...
    zenii15 zenii15 18-21, F 8 Responses May 27, 2015

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    This is a poem/rap that I wrote tonight

    because I've been struggling a lot with PTSD and people not understanding. Just a disclaimer, the police do know about what happened, and it's being solved, but that doesn't mean the emotional pain is gone. So here we go: Expectations there's a murderer in my mind working to...
    justtryingtosurvive justtryingtosurvive 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 17, 2014

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    By my grandfather. It has effected me in many

    ways. But I try to look passed it. He was a very nice man till it came to me. Family problems made it to were cps placed me there for 2 months....he would beat me and kick me slap me.... Hit me with pans in the back of my head......ugh horrible man....
    smileforme14 smileforme14 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 15, 2015

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    Abuser Dad...

    I think that my dad loves me the wrong way... he doesn't let me talk to guys... he's always touching me the wrong way... he always tries to kiss me in the lips... when i'm distrated he touches my ***.... he has forced me to let him touch my breats... he used to spied me when i...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Apr 22, 2013

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    I Abused by MY birth Mom Her Bother a neighbor

    My ex husband and ex boyfriend! But I am better Now!
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 28, 2015

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    My father abused me,

    but the worst thing is that he and my mum says it never happened. They lie about it. It is a horrible feeling. I can't explain it. When I was 15 years old I slept at the house of a friend. He tried to rape me, pressed me down, had his hand on my throat. I never told my parents...
    dytopiandreamer dytopiandreamer 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 18, 2015

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    I'm in that place now

    where I blame myself. When I met him, I loved everything that he was, and everything that I thought he was. I loved the way he'd ramble on about electronics and music I knew nothing about. I found his lack of social skills charming and I found his mystery intriguing. As the...
    wtfgirl001 wtfgirl001 22-25, F Jan 19

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    I recently confronted my LG's about their past

    and current behavior at the dinner table. I have been abused physically, mentally, verbally and emotionally abused by them since I was a child. When I brought it up, they both claimed they "did not recall" any of that happening. They are manipulative, twisted people and I am...
    HelloEla HelloEla 18-21, F 6 Responses Jul 24, 2015

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    I'm now going through the anger phase of

    dealing with all of this. After I had finally taken a stand and called the police on him, I felt relieved. Like, I loved myself again, and strong. I was happy. About two weeks ago, the depression started to sink in. I started blaming myself for everything that happened...
    wtfgirl001 wtfgirl001 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 14, 2015

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    I've been abused in every form by my last two

    boyfriends and I'm so scared it's going to happen to me again. Sometimes I wonder how I am still alive. As much as I am happy to be alive, I am so lost. Ive been trying to find my self for the past year but it's a constant battle.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 17, 2015

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    Can't remember much but I was sexually abused

    by an older boy (that I no longer am in touch with at all) I was too young to even realise anything was wrong but the experience has led to a number of issues including mental and physical health problems, I won't go into detail but I am now seeing a number of therapists to help...
    AnoynomousReader AnoynomousReader 13-15, F May 26, 2015

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    Over and over, years

    and years. I think I've done pretty well at parenting myself, but I'm ****** up nonetheless. I have an extremely hard time letting someone in, and it's never much. I'm so tough, like crazy warrior *****... but yet so fragile. If I let someone in, it's almost guaranteed pain. I...
    SilverFox420 SilverFox420 31-35, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    I am currently in an abusive marriage.

    A little about my back story. My mom was very emotionally and verbally abusive, sometimes even physically if I ever stood up to her. Flash forward to high school. Mom is the same, but I meet my first husband who also comes from an abusive home. We talk marriage and a life...
    greenapple0307 greenapple0307 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 17, 2015

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    Again and again. This time is

    neither the first nor it will be the last. I got abused in the bus. Don'teven wanna tell the content. Escaped into a mall, yelled the man near security, he followed me till the food section. Yelled again then he vanished. I want to die, I simply do. I told it to mom she said...
    Katerinafaith Katerinafaith 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    Except it wasn't by any of my parents.

    It was my older brother who used to beat me and ****. I was 4 at the time and he was 17.. He'd always tell my parents that I only fell or I was playing around too much when they asked about the bruises.. I just don't understand why he did it, and guess i never will because he's...
    MrReaper2 MrReaper2 13-15, M 3 Responses Aug 24, 2015

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    How could someone think

    that it's okay telling me that I must really want someone that beats me, especially knowing that I have been in an abusive relationship before.
    BrokenGiggles BrokenGiggles 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 29, 2015

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    several times..makes it hard

    for me to let anyone close. I'm always guarded up
    Nmetb Nmetb 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 18, 2015

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    My Story Of Being Taking Advantage Of

    My name is Megan right now I am 18 years old. When i was 14 years old my life turned upside down. My twin sister accused our adopted Dad of touching ng her i didnt know who to believe though now i know who told the truth( she told the truth cause it happened to me)..she got sent...
    tempmegan tempmegan 18-21 1 Response Sep 10, 2010

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    Saw a therapist for a misunderstood disorder

    today (caused by my sexual abuse) She is the same as everyone else telling me I don't drink enough and so on
    AnoynomousReader AnoynomousReader 13-15, F May 28, 2015

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    I was 16, ended when I was 17.

    She was my first GF and she emotionally abused me daily, and it wasn't uncommon for her to hit me either... messed up part is I miss her :(
    Subject54 Subject54 26-30, T Oct 18, 2015

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    I've Never Let A Single Person In

    I've had the greatest of friends in my life, I mean they're great people but I just kept them all at a distance. You see, I was abused as a kid, at 5. I was just a boy. I hadn't even begun to comprehend what it was to be a person, to be alive, to be in the world. It wasnt so much...
    noahkal noahkal 31-35, M 2 Responses Nov 14, 2013

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    I Feel Abused , Used And Unwanted.

    Does anyone know what i deal with , the manic and the depression Ive never really told the full story , so this is my confession I met this woman at birth , the one i call my mother Theres another i cant handle , who my mum wants me to call my brother The bruises i used...
    ThanksForTheMemories ThanksForTheMemories 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 30, 2013

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    I've become angry again.

    The past two days I've been battling with my resentment toward him and what he did to me. I'm mad that after everything is said and done, I'm the one that's paying more for his actions than he is. It's been three months ago now, and I've finally found a good therapist that...
    wtfgirl001 wtfgirl001 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I was abused by my birth mom her brother,

    neighbor. My Ex husband ex boyfriend and other ppl!
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 26, 2015

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    it was the son of my dad's girlfriend.

    ... i was 7 and he was 14 and sometimes he'd just wake me up in the morning, pull me to his room and on his bed and then it would happen.... i was acared to tell anyone so i didnt but my mom told me that i drew pictures of penises and hair and she knew i wouldnt do that at 7 so...
    aimeetomlinson aimeetomlinson 16-17, F 2 Responses May 24, 2015

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