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I Have Been Battling Depression Since I Was Young

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 28 People

    Me, Too

    and I alway lose the battles. When will I not need to fight it any more?
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 29, 2010

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    I Was Depressed Because I Was So Afraid Of People

    between the sexual abuse, the house fire and my grand mothers drinking and Bills drinking and abuse, my older sisters abuse on me and trying to do everything so perfect so I didn't make a noise or didn't get in the way, or didn't do something wrong... I felt depressed when the...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    More Cuts

    Not that laceration and incision are to be my theme; just good ol' danger and anxiety to start one's life with. It was any weekday morning, my mom doing dishes at the sink of a long kitchen, one end of which ended at the plate glass/screen door to the back yard. The other end...
    rattleschains rattleschains 41-45, M Jan 5, 2013

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    Hmm

     I wonder why my parents never took me to a therapist when I was little.Maybe because I covered it so well.I remember crying a lot as a child.Hurting so bad.By the time I was eight, I was sure I wanted to die.Because I hated the way I was treated. And I was fat. Always so fat.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25 Mar 12, 2012

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    They Hurt I tried searching groups

    for another one for this story, but the process is more cumbersome now. This is one of the things that depresses me, so it might as well go here. I have to wear briefs, fairly tight ones, most of the time. This was true since late teens--i've also had a bulge-suppression...
    rattleschains rattleschains 41-45, M Jan 8, 2014

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    my psychiatrist says i'm a little aspergery

    and I really don't know what to think about that. Now this is not my professional psychiatrist, he is actually one of my clients who is very sweet and kind to me. he also said in the same sentence that "one of the nice things about you is you don't realize how wonderful you are...
    ayndostoy ayndostoy 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 5, 2014

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    Medicating Again

    I've been on amitryptaline for a week or so again. It seems to help me not to get so impatient and angry. And I don't want to die as much. That is probably why I'm not on EP as much. But I'm sure it will get dark again.
    rattleschains rattleschains 41-45, M Mar 22, 2013

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    Never Ending Pain

    I can remember being depressed when I was 5 years old. I remember being so scared to talk to people. Being so alone. 5 year olds don't know how to deal with another 5 year old that's depressed. And they shouldn't have to know. I just...never learned to be happy I guess. And now I...
    KrysSefhir KrysSefhir 18-21 2 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    When I was younger I had poor social skills and thrift store clothes, so I was, at one point, shunned by my entire class. It really shaped me as a person.
    crystalmethane crystalmethane 18-21, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Am only 5 foot 4 inches and have been bullied all my life about. I usually just laugh it off but there is only so much jokes u can take.
    jonnymowat jonnymowat 26-30, M 3 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    School is tough and kids can be cruel. I wasn't very pretty when I was younger and was very quiet up to high school. I kept to myself a lot so I was a target for most people. Guys...
    foreveralone22 foreveralone22 22-25, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I have. been seen naked countless times. by thousands. so I'm not bothered at all if someone sees me in the buff. hell what you going to do. run and hide. what's the. shame in...
    afterthedead afterthedead 56-60, M 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I have been hurt very badly. I have hurt myself a lot. It was a long and torturous time. Now, I just want to have some peace. I was an open hearted person before the bad experience...
    Somexyz Somexyz 26-30, M 15 hrs ago

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    It's rediculous, life is hard for everyone and takes it's toll, for some more than others but i constantly think if i had been adopted by a loving family what i may have been. The...
    MushroomFaerie148 MushroomFaerie148 26-30, F 18 hrs ago

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    I was bullied throughout middle school & freshman year of highschool. Now im going into my senior year & the same guys that called me ugly have been trying too get w me, so js, it...
    alexistx alexistx 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I was bullied throughout middle school & freshman year of highschool. Now im going into my senior year & the same guys that called me ugly have been trying too get w me, so js, it...
    alexistx alexistx 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    When my wife finally told me for certain it was divorce, I broke down and sobbed, snot coming down, etc. Told her that was it, I wanted to end it. In a few minutes she came back...
    steverick steverick 56-60, M 6 Responses 1 day ago

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    I am American and live in the Midwest, but I have been lucky enough to travel to England twice. On my second visit I stayed for 3 months! It was amazing and I dream of moving there...
    anhonestgirl anhonestgirl 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    My boyfriend and I have been together for almost a year now. He's 22 and I am 19. I trust him very much and we have a pretty good relationship. However, for the entirety of our...
    katelynkapowski katelynkapowski 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I cannot get over the hurt that my husband caused me over three months ago. I am in therapy and doing all the reading etc. I can, but I cannot seem to let go of what happened and...
    Patilud Patilud 51-55, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Sometimes when I face the world I feel even more ****. People can be horrible. I'm too sensitive and it's my fault for letting myself be affected by the way people think and talk...
    Heyyo1 Heyyo1 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    I am long term unemployed ! When I was younger I looked for work . We had mass unemployment . I was always part of a long Que. someone always had more experience more...
    Homejames Homejames 51-55, M 5 days ago

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    My boyfriend of 4 years lied to me a lot in the past , i can't forget and it still hurts tough it have been almost a year back.. He created dating sites and lied about them,told me...
    Candymett Candymett 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Feel like I have no idea what I want, how I feel, what makes me happy anymore. Feel like I don't have a clue what people are about anymore. Use to feel so hopeful and that I knew...
    Limytheboo Limytheboo 46-50, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    When I was younger I had always wanted to be a marine. I've always been an independent person and I just loved the thought of going out there and saving lives. My dream of wanting...
    FiftyLyricsInAMiracle FiftyLyricsInAMiracle 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    It's actually pretty funny to think that growing up, everything seemed so normal, I never even considered that every other "normal" kid doesn't grow up like I did. Any how, I...
    TheHippieBitch TheHippieBitch 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    ever since I was young, I could kind of, look ahead, and see a picture of what will come. but when I try to look past high school, I can't see anything.
    Bethy1234321 Bethy1234321 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    It's great feeling opening my account again, its been a while since I updated my status here, been busy... Recording drums and songs, playing gigs and stuff like that.
    jayperez89 jayperez89 22-25, M a week ago

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    I have social anxiety, depression, PTSD, agoraphobia, and other extreme health issues that I don't get any assistance for, and I can't afford healthcare, so I have to deal with...
    LyraAlluse LyraAlluse 26-30, F 2 Responses Jun 27

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    so yeah i have been in a super abusive relationship. more than once where i was raped 17 times, ive been hit so many times that i can't even count them and i have been kidnapped...
    Romitri657 Romitri657 13-15, F 3 Responses Jun 26

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    I have been in a relationship with my partner for 6 years, we were engaged for 2 but I ended that due to his drug/anger issues. We have a 4 year old son together. This week his...
    danimm danimm 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 24

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    I am a 14 year old boy living in Tennessee, I have been a very quiet, shy, and emotional person, these past few years I would stay locked in my room and never come out unless it...
    santana772 santana772 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 24

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    My parents rejected me for having a baby with a man from a different race. Its been 6 years since I spoke to them..
    Teegar Teegar 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    When I was younger everyone said I looked like Brendan Fraser. I must confess, I never saw any resemblance.
    CoffeeLover80 CoffeeLover80 31-35, M Jun 23

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    I have been used for sex. I was stupid and still in love with my ex, so I just wanted to do whatever I could to make him happy. I finally had to let go, and although it hurts, I...
    jellolia jellolia 16-17, F Jun 22

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    Good Morning I really hope you find the time to read this email. I am a Police Officer in one of the biggest forces in the UK and I had the unfortunate experience of meeting...
    HARDY9849 HARDY9849 51-55, F 2 Responses Jun 22

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    I was lying down watching the movie Sucker punched and got worked up. I don't even remember starting to touch myself, but I got really into it, so much so, that I had to slip my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jun 22

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    I am not gonna pretend that being a Christian is easy and that it's always a good time, cause its not. It's really tough a lot of the time and I have seen things, I have been...
    NicoleWahlstrom NicoleWahlstrom 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 21

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    I am a domestic violence survivor. I joined a support group recently. And have been going back ever since. I cry every time I go. Because I am feeling more and more safe. I've been...
    CreoleItalianwoman CreoleItalianwoman 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 20

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    I've been with my boyfriend for 6 months We've been so happy for this time it's been like a whirlwind romance I have most definitely fallen for him I love him so much Last night...
    Confuzed11 Confuzed11 22-25 2 Responses Jun 19

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    Found this site randomly while browsing the internet in a depressed bout. Not sure what I'm expecting, I've sort of given up on the belief that human decency is even a real thing...
    Whitespark Whitespark 22-25, M Jun 19

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    So why tell a sad person to choose that. If they want to be gone why say okay. Why say they have to choose. Lately on ep i fight both. Staying And going. One member...
    Converted Converted 46-50, M Jun 18

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