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I Have Been Battling Depression Since I Was Young

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 27 People

    Never Ending Pain

    I can remember being depressed when I was 5 years old. I remember being so scared to talk to people. Being so alone. 5 year olds don't know how to deal with another 5 year old that's depressed. And they shouldn't have to know. I just...never learned to be happy I guess. And now I...
    KrysSefhir KrysSefhir 18-21 2 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    my psychiatrist says i'm a little aspergery

    and I really don't know what to think about that. Now this is not my professional psychiatrist, he is actually one of my clients who is very sweet and kind to me. he also said in the same sentence that "one of the nice things about you is you don't realize how wonderful you are...
    ayndostoy ayndostoy 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 5, 2014

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    Medicating Again

    I've been on amitryptaline for a week or so again. It seems to help me not to get so impatient and angry. And I don't want to die as much. That is probably why I'm not on EP as much. But I'm sure it will get dark again.
    rattleschains rattleschains 41-45, M Mar 22, 2013

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    I Was Depressed Because I Was So Afraid Of People

    between the sexual abuse, the house fire and my grand mothers drinking and Bills drinking and abuse, my older sisters abuse on me and trying to do everything so perfect so I didn't make a noise or didn't get in the way, or didn't do something wrong... I felt depressed when the...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    Me, Too

    and I alway lose the battles. When will I not need to fight it any more?
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 29, 2010

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    They Hurt I tried searching groups

    for another one for this story, but the process is more cumbersome now. This is one of the things that depresses me, so it might as well go here. I have to wear briefs, fairly tight ones, most of the time. This was true since late teens--i've also had a bulge-suppression...
    rattleschains rattleschains 41-45, M Jan 8, 2014

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    Hmm

     I wonder why my parents never took me to a therapist when I was little.Maybe because I covered it so well.I remember crying a lot as a child.Hurting so bad.By the time I was eight, I was sure I wanted to die.Because I hated the way I was treated. And I was fat. Always so fat.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 70+, F Mar 12, 2012

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    More Cuts

    Not that laceration and incision are to be my theme; just good ol' danger and anxiety to start one's life with. It was any weekday morning, my mom doing dishes at the sink of a long kitchen, one end of which ended at the plate glass/screen door to the back yard. The other end...
    rattleschains rattleschains 41-45, M Jan 5, 2013

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    There is this cute boy in choir, and I catch him looking at me. And when I look at him, he looks away. And I get nervous around him. And I dont want to go out with him cuz next...
    Vampirelover000 Vampirelover000 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I've been fighting depression since I can remember, I was beaten by my father, bullied, hated and laughed at called names because im bisexual. I've danced with death and it has...
    TheMadHatteri TheMadHatteri 18-21, M 46 mins ago

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    Never for anything bad. I have been picked up at a bridge once when I was going to jump off it and other times when people have been concerned that I was suicidal.
    LinkinParkMuse LinkinParkMuse 26-30, F Mar 25

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    once i have been seen naked i was on holiday in spain i stayed in hotel i went swimming but my shorts where to big so when i went in to the water my shorts had fallen down some...
    junior1122 junior1122 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 1

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    I have been single since 2011, which means I haven't got a serious relationship for nearly 4 years. I have dated some girls in those years, but they didn't wanted strings attached...
    Hernando1987 Hernando1987 26-30, M 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I certainly have. I was a customer service representative for the longest time and I have been told multiple times (by guys) that I have a nice voice.
    deadgirlsfairytale deadgirlsfairytale 26-30, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    These last couple of days have been the worst of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    These last couple of days have been the worst of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F Mar 27

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    I was 14 when my Mum died. She died suddenly of ischemic heart disease. I watched her die which was horrible. I would love to have a relationship with her now i'm an adult...
    LinkinParkMuse LinkinParkMuse 26-30, F Mar 26

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    I've honestly never had friends, not even as a small child. I was always that one quiet kid that everyone thought was creepy or weird that played alone in the graveyard while...
    MechaKimochii MechaKimochii 18-21, F Apr 3

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    I always want to be completely naked and have for as long as I can remember - since early childhood. I also love being seen and seeing other people naked and have been caught nude...
    Elysese Elysese 66-70, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Doing it My way! In restropect I wish I had not I would have heeded my Parents advice and not married young or married my first wife. I worked too hard for the family only to...
    TheEnglander TheEnglander 66-70, M 1 Response Mar 27

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    There were several "red flags". I was young and naive. He was selfish, insecure, controlling, with a little ******. He beat me black and blue. For 6 yrs I put up with it. I know u...
    yummytummy610 yummytummy610 41-45, F 3 Responses Apr 8

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    Yahallo!~ This is Lydia returning from It's-been-forever-Land! A lot has been going on lately. I have moved in with my new gf (a bit hasty I know but we were just so compatible). I...
    Lydia93 Lydia93 18-21, T 1 Response Mar 24

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    I'm a dress size 18-20 and my bra size is 40C, it's so hard to find my bra size anywhere because I have a big back strap size but small cup. I wish I had bigger boobs. I hate my...
    Fierrrrce Fierrrrce 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 3

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    I have been told that I have a nice rack since my days in high school. Not only did almost of the guys approach me and tell me this but so did many of the girls in my gym class...
    maryannelamb maryannelamb 46-50, F 3 Responses Apr 3

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    I have been told I look 10-12 it is frustrating sometimes.
    Carxxxgirl Carxxxgirl 18-21, F 11 Responses Apr 9

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    So after 3 hours of text fighting with my 'soon to be ex' he finally agreed to move out AGAIN and this time for good by the end of May. I honestly don't know why I let him back in...
    thelionsden13 thelionsden13 41-45, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    My husband (soon to be ex) cheated on me numerous times in the time we were together. I found messages just a month after we were married that showed he wasn't faithful, but I...
    TryAnStopMe TryAnStopMe 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 26

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    It's been a while since I've been on here 👀
    PandaLovee PandaLovee 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    I'm 18 years old, and haven't dated someone since I was 15. I wish it was easier to find someone to just go to the movies with
    Thatfatmummy Thatfatmummy 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 7

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    If being black means to be ghetto, loud, rude, uneducated, closed-minded, & thuggish then NO I will never be black enough. My diet consists of fruit, rice, noodles, seafood & cake...
    noodle425 noodle425 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 8

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    Okay Im pretty much done with my friends. Like seriously I am really upset. I have always been the one to text my friends first so I decided it was their turn. It's been two weeks...
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 30

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    I was bullied all throughout middle school, and most of high school. I've always been small and weak, I've been shoved into trash cans, I've been thrown over tables. I've been...
    wking225 wking225 18-21, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I think we all have been told this line, even just once. IDK if its just me, but I'd rather receive any compliment than this. It makes me too dependent on my physical appearance...
    DeuxExMachina DeuxExMachina 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    Most of my stories have been deleted lately. Anyhow, in my early 20s I took to going to a nude beach at the bottom of some cliffs. The main beach was and is not nudist, but a...
    kwood1 kwood1 56-60, M 1 Response Mar 23

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    I have been in a psych ward a few times. Most of the times I was only in for just over 2 weeks but my last admission was for 12 weeks. I have never minded being in hospital, it's a...
    LinkinParkMuse LinkinParkMuse 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 25

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    I have been in many ambulances, mostly for deliberate overdosing, self harm, or mental health crises. I was also in ambulances a lot as a child when my Mum was unwell.
    LinkinParkMuse LinkinParkMuse 26-30, F Mar 25

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    I have been naked in a hardware store. I've driven my car with no pants. I've been naked in the woods. I've been naked in a laundry room at an apartment complex. I was just doing...
    FruitSlice FruitSlice 41-45, M 3 Responses Mar 27

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    I have been so embarrassed many times but one of the most embarrassing times is when I was a kid and my mom would hang our clothes on the clothing line. It was nice out side all...
    Utuve1000 Utuve1000 36-40, M Mar 31

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    It started out as a new friendship, following all the things she had put on her profile and posts, eager to please and help her with her expressed desires and needs. We connected...
    storyteller4u2 storyteller4u2 51-55, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    I have been with my fiancee almost a year. Last summer, I agreed to have pies thrown at me at my place of employment (as part of a street festival). I had to change clothes...
    2029Wren 2029Wren 46-50, M 1 Response Apr 7

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    I've been so stupid. I was the victim of catfishing. Honestly, I was looking for a hookup. I didn't want anything serious. I just wanted someone to look at me and appreciate my...
    reyrey881 reyrey881 26-30, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have been Bock by wcameronmartin for answering one of his Experience that he had in his list I guess it was far game. if you Dont want people to ask you about them may you should...
    Rootbeerfan Rootbeerfan 31-35, M 1 day ago