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I Have Been Battling Depression Since I Was Young

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    Not that laceration and incision are to be my theme; just good ol' danger and anxiety to start one's life with. It was any weekday morning, my mom doing dishes at the sink of a long kitchen, one end of which ended at the plate glass/screen door to the back yard. The other end...
    rattleschains rattleschains 41-45, M Jan 5, 2013

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    my psychiatrist says i'm a little aspergery

    and I really don't know what to think about that. Now this is not my professional psychiatrist, he is actually one of my clients who is very sweet and kind to me. he also said in the same sentence that "one of the nice things about you is you don't realize how wonderful you are...
    ayndostoy ayndostoy 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    I Was Depressed Because I Was So Afraid Of People

    between the sexual abuse, the house fire and my grand mothers drinking and Bills drinking and abuse, my older sisters abuse on me and trying to do everything so perfect so I didn't make a noise or didn't get in the way, or didn't do something wrong... I felt depressed when the...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 2 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    Medicating Again

    I've been on amitryptaline for a week or so again. It seems to help me not to get so impatient and angry. And I don't want to die as much. That is probably why I'm not on EP as much. But I'm sure it will get dark again.
    rattleschains rattleschains 41-45, M Mar 22, 2013

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    Never Ending Pain

    I can remember being depressed when I was 5 years old. I remember being so scared to talk to people. Being so alone. 5 year olds don't know how to deal with another 5 year old that's depressed. And they shouldn't have to know. I just...never learned to be happy I guess. And now I...
    KrysSefhir KrysSefhir 18-21 2 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    Me, Too

    and I alway lose the battles. When will I not need to fight it any more?
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 29, 2010

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    They Hurt I tried searching groups

    for another one for this story, but the process is more cumbersome now. This is one of the things that depresses me, so it might as well go here. I have to wear briefs, fairly tight ones, most of the time. This was true since late teens--i've also had a bulge-suppression...
    rattleschains rattleschains 41-45, M Jan 8

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    Hmm

     I wonder why my parents never took me to a therapist when I was little.Maybe because I covered it so well.I remember crying a lot as a child.Hurting so bad.By the time I was eight, I was sure I wanted to die.Because I hated the way I was treated. And I was fat. Always so fat.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F Mar 12, 2012

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    Wisdom beyond your years. Was a phrase I heard many times when I was younger. A degree of maturity found in my early teens often helped me through some tough times.
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