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I Have Been Battling Depression Since I Was Young

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    my psychiatrist says i'm a little aspergery

    and I really don't know what to think about that. Now this is not my professional psychiatrist, he is actually one of my clients who is very sweet and kind to me. he also said in the same sentence that "one of the nice things about you is you don't realize how wonderful you are...
    ayndostoy ayndostoy 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 5, 2014

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    More Cuts

    Not that laceration and incision are to be my theme; just good ol' danger and anxiety to start one's life with. It was any weekday morning, my mom doing dishes at the sink of a long kitchen, one end of which ended at the plate glass/screen door to the back yard. The other end...
    rattleschains rattleschains 41-45, M Jan 5, 2013

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    They Hurt I tried searching groups

    for another one for this story, but the process is more cumbersome now. This is one of the things that depresses me, so it might as well go here. I have to wear briefs, fairly tight ones, most of the time. This was true since late teens--i've also had a bulge-suppression...
    rattleschains rattleschains 41-45, M Jan 8, 2014

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    Hmm

     I wonder why my parents never took me to a therapist when I was little.Maybe because I covered it so well.I remember crying a lot as a child.Hurting so bad.By the time I was eight, I was sure I wanted to die.Because I hated the way I was treated. And I was fat. Always so fat.
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 70+, F Mar 12, 2012

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    I Was Depressed Because I Was So Afraid Of People

    between the sexual abuse, the house fire and my grand mothers drinking and Bills drinking and abuse, my older sisters abuse on me and trying to do everything so perfect so I didn't make a noise or didn't get in the way, or didn't do something wrong... I felt depressed when the...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    Medicating Again

    I've been on amitryptaline for a week or so again. It seems to help me not to get so impatient and angry. And I don't want to die as much. That is probably why I'm not on EP as much. But I'm sure it will get dark again.
    rattleschains rattleschains 41-45, M Mar 22, 2013

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    Never Ending Pain

    I can remember being depressed when I was 5 years old. I remember being so scared to talk to people. Being so alone. 5 year olds don't know how to deal with another 5 year old that's depressed. And they shouldn't have to know. I just...never learned to be happy I guess. And now I...
    KrysSefhir KrysSefhir 18-21 2 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    Me, Too

    and I alway lose the battles. When will I not need to fight it any more?
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 29, 2010

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    When I was younger it was Britney Spears, then Drew Barrymore. I've gotten a "sexy mix" of the Kardashians when my hair was dark and Julia Stiles when my hair was light.
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    I used to love him so much until the day he hit me and kept hitting me it changed me I still love him but not like it was at first cant believe its been three years since I saw him...
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    Yes when I was young by my friends.
    sroonaka616 sroonaka616 18-21 3 Responses May 5

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    The first time, I had attempted suicide around 30 years old, I attempted to cut my wrists, it was over the fact that I lost everything and I was a hardcore alcoholic, while in the...
    squeezenbiteme squeezenbiteme 31-35, M 1 Response May 14

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    when i was younger, people said i looked like keke palmer in her akelea and the spelling bee days.
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    can't remember someone who hasnt called me crazy ....... today ... several times I have been called that by someone i consider them a brother and best friend. ... even though...
    lonesomedove80 lonesomedove80 31-35, F 1 Response May 10

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    I went to a nude beach a few years ago and have loved it ever since. I enjoy the freedom and it is incredibly relaxing. Addictive too might i add!!
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    Dear N, I am beyond angry and sad at the hurt and devastation you have caused not only to me and the girls, but dozens of friends and family. I don’t fully understand why you...
    CapricornDad CapricornDad 41-45, M 1 Response May 1

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    it changed me it happened in 2000.. i was 20 years old all my life i have been a laughing stock by my family. my parents wouldn't do anything about it only say i am just...
    lonesomedove80 lonesomedove80 31-35, F 3 Responses May 3

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