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I Have Been Battling Depression Since I Was Young

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    my psychiatrist says i'm a little aspergery

    and I really don't know what to think about that. Now this is not my professional psychiatrist, he is actually one of my clients who is very sweet and kind to me. he also said in the same sentence that "one of the nice things about you is you don't realize how wonderful you are...
    ayndostoy ayndostoy 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 5, 2014

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    Me, Too

    and I alway lose the battles. When will I not need to fight it any more?
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 29, 2010

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    Medicating Again

    I've been on amitryptaline for a week or so again. It seems to help me not to get so impatient and angry. And I don't want to die as much. That is probably why I'm not on EP as much. But I'm sure it will get dark again.
    rattleschains rattleschains 41-45, M Mar 22, 2013

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    More Cuts

    Not that laceration and incision are to be my theme; just good ol' danger and anxiety to start one's life with. It was any weekday morning, my mom doing dishes at the sink of a long kitchen, one end of which ended at the plate glass/screen door to the back yard. The other end...
    rattleschains rattleschains 41-45, M Jan 5, 2013

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    They Hurt I tried searching groups

    for another one for this story, but the process is more cumbersome now. This is one of the things that depresses me, so it might as well go here. I have to wear briefs, fairly tight ones, most of the time. This was true since late teens--i've also had a bulge-suppression...
    rattleschains rattleschains 41-45, M Jan 8, 2014

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    Never Ending Pain

    I can remember being depressed when I was 5 years old. I remember being so scared to talk to people. Being so alone. 5 year olds don't know how to deal with another 5 year old that's depressed. And they shouldn't have to know. I just...never learned to be happy I guess. And now I...
    KrysSefhir KrysSefhir 18-21 2 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    I Was Depressed Because I Was So Afraid Of People

    between the sexual abuse, the house fire and my grand mothers drinking and Bills drinking and abuse, my older sisters abuse on me and trying to do everything so perfect so I didn't make a noise or didn't get in the way, or didn't do something wrong... I felt depressed when the...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 3 Responses Mar 12, 2012

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    Hmm

     I wonder why my parents never took me to a therapist when I was little.Maybe because I covered it so well.I remember crying a lot as a child.Hurting so bad.By the time I was eight, I was sure I wanted to die.Because I hated the way I was treated. And I was fat. Always so fat.
    TheRoseThatGrewFromConcrete TheRoseThatGrewFromConcrete 70+, F Mar 12, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    I have been battling depression off and on since I was about 14. Growing up in an abusive family (mostly verbal) my grandmother was my safe haven. When she died i felt completely...
    SelmerCreed SelmerCreed 16-17, M Mar 4

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    Each and everyday I face a demon, a demon known as depression, each and every day it chisels away at me bit by bit, everyday I lose more hope, more strength to carry on, it sucks...
    nathchalk97 nathchalk97 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 13

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    Never for anything bad. I have been picked up at a bridge once when I was going to jump off it and other times when people have been concerned that I was suicidal.
    LinkinParkMuse LinkinParkMuse 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    These last couple of days have been the worst of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    These last couple of days have been the worst of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F 9 hrs ago

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    Doing it My way! In restropect I wish I had not I would have heeded my Parents advice and not married young or married my first wife. I worked too hard for the family only to...
    TheEnglander TheEnglander 66-70, M 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    Even though I only started being told by psychologists the past few years that i have depression, i definitely think its been a life long experience. when i was younger i think i...
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 5

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    I consider myself straight. I prefer women. I cannot even imagine a relationship with a man. I am currently in a relationship with a truly remarkable woman. But I have been with...
    FruitSlice FruitSlice 41-45, M 1 hr ago

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    I have been naked in a hardware store. I've driven my car with no pants. I've been naked in the woods. I've been naked in a laundry room at an apartment complex. I was just doing...
    FruitSlice FruitSlice 41-45, M 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I have been a member of EP for two years. I met a lot of people and most are gone. It was very fun and exciting in the beginning and I was addicted. I admit at first I didn't know...
    WingsoftheDove WingsoftheDove 36-40, F 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I've been dealing with this for over 10 years now, most of this time I have been in a dark hole. It went as far as me losing all hope and even forgetting who I am, who I used to be...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F Mar 6

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    It's hard to explain to even a therapist what it feels like to not belong to your own future. To feel as though you weren't meant to be, a mistake only you can rectify. I spent...
    HansFizzlebeef HansFizzlebeef 18-21, M Mar 7

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    Glimpses from My Travel Journal September 17, 2006 Today was my best day yet in Roma! It was absolutely POURING rain today! After the jetlag finally wore off, I was finally able...
    Meowsolini Meowsolini 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 5

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    I've been dealing with this for over 10 years now, most of this time I have been in a dark hole. It went as far as me losing all hope and even forgetting who I am, who I used to be...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F Mar 6

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    The man I love is abusive and I have been with him for about a year now see he is a alcoholic abusive guy but he is 36 I am 21 almost 22 I am also paralyzed and have epilepsy but...
    kmccrady12653 kmccrady12653 18-21, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    I was 14 when my Mum died. She died suddenly of ischemic heart disease. I watched her die which was horrible. I would love to have a relationship with her now i'm an adult...
    LinkinParkMuse LinkinParkMuse 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    So i have been in a relationship with my husband for 11 years and recently married. He has been to prison. Stolen. Lied. Cheated...the whole shabang! Hes been using since he was 12...
    bmfc5525 bmfc5525 36-40 4 Responses Mar 14

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    When I was young my brothers had this weird friend who was kinda socially awkward. He was 3 years older than me and he would stay the night often during the summer. I had my own...
    alexxxxx96 alexxxxx96 18-21, F 13 Responses Mar 18

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    I should not say that all men have hurt me. I do not think that all men are evil or blame everyone in my life but I have been hurt by a lot of men. I don't want to be bitter and I...
    wingeyes wingeyes 31-35, F 1 Response Mar 4

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    It has been many years ago now. Who knows what truly happens between two people. .... Things change. But she told me that she loved me, then after some time together, then changed...
    paleryder paleryder 51-55, M Mar 16

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    I have been in an emotionally abusive relationship for 11 yrs now. We have a 6 yr old son together. Things started off good he was laid back , funny, charming , hardworking...
    mnc13085 mnc13085 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    Excerpts of emails and travel notes: September 20, 2006 I've been in Roma since last Friday and I've loved it! Everthing is so chaotic, loud and brash! Lots of fun! It's now...
    Meowsolini Meowsolini 41-45, F 3 Responses Mar 5

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    I should have known that our "friendship" wasn't a real friendship. I should have known that it was just you trying to get back with me, since everyone kept telling me that. I...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 9

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    Since I control the weather I have been studying my powers. What superhero names have you been thinking of?
    funnywolf29020 funnywolf29020 22-25, M Mar 12

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    Yahallo!~ This is Lydia returning from It's-been-forever-Land! A lot has been going on lately. I have moved in with my new gf (a bit hasty I know but we were just so compatible). I...
    Lydia93 Lydia93 18-21, T 1 Response 3 days ago

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    My husband (soon to be ex) cheated on me numerous times in the time we were together. I found messages just a month after we were married that showed he wasn't faithful, but I...
    TryAnStopMe TryAnStopMe 26-30, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    My life for these past few months has been a roller coaster ride and a whirlwind of events that has shaped me to be a somewhat stronger person. I have been in fights with my...
    olarte718 olarte718 18-21 Mar 18

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    I have been with my husband for almost 11 years and we have two beautiful children. He has been cheating on me for the past six months. It's pretty crazy what goes on in your head...
    sunnygirl29 sunnygirl29 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 1

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    I think we all have been told this line, even just once. IDK if its just me, but I'd rather receive any compliment than this. It makes me too dependent on my physical appearance...
    DeuxExMachina DeuxExMachina 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Most of my stories have been deleted lately. Anyhow, in my early 20s I took to going to a nude beach at the bottom of some cliffs. The main beach was and is not nudist, but a...
    kwood1 kwood1 56-60, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I have been so many times near love .... under the sky with all the stars up there...looking at moon ... feeling my heart pumping....like a love ... but i have been so many times...
    Jackk1992 Jackk1992 22-25, M Mar 1

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    I have been hit and bullied for being transgender but that's was when I was in high school and know I just get dirty looks and name called so yeah me and my transgender and gay...
    imyourboyhere imyourboyhere 18-21, T 2 Responses Mar 8

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    I hate to be catfished.... I don't really get why some people do that... I mean like why do some people need to pretend to be someone they are not?...Why do they need to create...
    TheArtisticOne TheArtisticOne 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 10

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    I tried posting my story, but it has content included in it that violates community guidelines. In short, I have been through all facets of bullying/abuse/harassment. My advice to...
    darnaby darnaby 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 17