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I Have Been Sexually Abused

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 1,544 People

    Surviving (barely) ******

    It's my fault. I can't get that out of my head. It didn't start my fault - but I didn't fight hard enough. I believed their threats.  I let them. I was 3. When I finally told - I was 9. I told my uncle, and he killed himself that night. It stopped when I was 11. When I...
    eyes eyes 31-35, F 11 Responses May 28, 2008

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    As A Young Teen Abused By Gay Neighbors

    I have some issues now that I think maybe have been caused as a result being caught in a cycle of sexual abuse while my dad was in Vietnam. First a little background: I grew up as an army brat in a military family. We moved every couple of years so I never had any long time...
    luckyhusbandinma luckyhusbandinma 41-45, M 9 Responses Jan 2, 2011

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    I Did It Myself.......

    About 5 years ago I met my last boyfriend and I fell in love with him. I was so in love that I would do anything for him. That this became reality I couldn't expect at that moment. It started as a very nice romance, I loved him, he loved me and we did a lot of things together...
    linda linda 22-25, F 11 Responses Oct 26, 2006

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    I Wouldn't Wish It On Anyone...

    I wouldn't wish this on anyone. Being abused in any way is a horrible experience, but to be sexually abused, its pain that you can't even described. I was sexually abused on and off for almost three years. It took me a while to talk about, even now, I get flashbacks, and have bad...
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jul 21, 2009

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    I was sexually abused by my father from the

    ages of 2-8 years old during court ordered visitations after my parents divorced in 1982. Around 1986 D.A.R.E. came to my school and it was then that I realized that what was happening was not ok and told my mom. I remember being assessed by a psychologist but not much else...
    Holmes0513 Holmes0513 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 17

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    Every Sexually Assaulted Or Rape Victim Has A Dark Past But A Brighter Future.

    Writing this I am struggling inside to show others what I have been through. A few people know about my situation, and now some of you strangers reading this will know. I am not writing this to get emotional support or attention. I am writing this so other people who have been...
    sihtajan sihtajan 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 18, 2013

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    My Story

    it began when I was 11 years old, this boy called talen lived close by to me and one day I came across him alone in the street, he began with asking me questions which I didn't understand at the time, like asking me if I was frigate,I didn't even know what frigate was, assuming...
    SugarCakes SugarCakes 18-21, F Nov 1, 2012

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    It's messed up. I always wondered growing up,

    was always searching my memory for sexual abuse trying to figure out who could have done it if they did. And then this past November, this guy I was seeing intentionally brought my admitance that it did happen out of me. I have faint memories of it, my very first memories - I...
    Biaa Biaa 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 18

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    ''this Is My Story'' This Is For Healing, I Need Feed Back, And This Is Very Hard For Me To Do So Please Realize That.

    Yes I was sexually abused when I was young, I won't say how young because my age would make you feel disgusted.But I resent my parents for letting me go alone, and not warning me so clearly of other grown men. I know there are other people out there who have been through worse...
    Doimatter Doimatter 22-25 2 Responses Aug 27, 2013

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    Used Babydoll :(

    I was abused as a child by several people... My father, 2 cousins, an uncle, and a manager to a hotel me and my family were living at. The manager's abuse only happened once as far as I remember. One cousin abused me twice as far as I remember. The other cousin abused me...
    BabyKitty7885 BabyKitty7885 26-30, F 28 Responses Dec 13, 2012

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    New.. This Is My Story.

    Hi, I'm 15 and it's going to be so hard to type this.. However I'll start off by saying I've read a few people's stories on here and they are a lot worse than mine, my heart goes out to you all! Theres two different stories for me to tell. One was when I was 13, I was at my older...
    ChloeSmith97 ChloeSmith97 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 15, 2013

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    One time when I was 14

    or 15 years old I was watching the movie "Bastard Out of Carolina". And as the movie progressed I started to have these "flash backs" of me being sexually molested. The more I tried to not think about them, the more memories started flooding in. The place was right, the people...
    SukYoung SukYoung 26-30, F Aug 31, 2014

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    My soul my pride My dignity my innocence They

    say don't dwell on the past But I relive it every night Its always the same Its you and I The empty house Same position But never the Same place The treats scared me the most Somehow I blocked out the pain My pride my Innocence the stain on the carpet has hardened like...
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F Apr 26

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    My Uncle, My Dad, My Best Friend...

    When I was 6, my mum brought my brand new baby sister home from the hospital, we had lots of family visit, including my uncle. he picked me up lots and stroked and squeezed my bum. Only now do I realise that was the beginning. He went on to systematically abuse me for the next 6...
    nicoleon nicoleon 26-30, F 6 Responses Nov 8, 2013

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    Abusive ******. Is there any other kind?

    ****** itself here has such a negative connotation that it is a dirty word. If I were to say, constructive ******, it is an oxymoron that I should be ashamed for uttering. I was not sexually abused until I was 14 but I had already known years of sexual contact. And it was...
    Stelladove Stelladove 18-21, F Mar 29

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    At The Caravan...****Trigger****

    We had a family Caravan i don't remember specific events, but i do remember my dad was drinking we went in the bedroom where my mum and dad slept, we were giggling and talking about things with my mum, my dad was just sleeping. I was in the middle of the bed on top of the...
    OutsideLookingIin OutsideLookingIin 22-25, F Nov 25, 2013

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    My Innocence Lost

    When we are young , we are suppose to enjoy our childhood, feel safe and understand the meaning of being Loved.  If being Loved at the age of 10 by a male cousin for 7 years , sexually abusing me over and over is Love.  No, thank you, I will pass.  Every time we...
    Katlin Katlin 36-40, F 10 Responses Dec 17, 2007

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    In The Ring

    I don't know if this story constitutes as 'abuse' as I got myself into the mess. I had been dating/hanging out with this man that I met outside of my local hair salon. He was tall, well dressed (in hugo boss) and spoke with a foreign eastern european accent. Let's just call him...
    ellamodel ellamodel 22-25, F 13 Responses Feb 29, 2012

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    Once Again Into The Breach

    My brothers and cousins have been sexually abusing me and another female cousin for several years now. Although she has been ****** by them it had never gone that far with me. Until last weekend that is. I was advised that if I allowed my brother that privelege I might expect...
    rhiannon2010 rhiannon2010 22-25, F 12 Responses Jul 25, 2011

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    My Earliest Memory.

    I would like to start by saying that I am not writing to gain any pity or writing for shock factor. What I am about to write is true to the best of my memory. I am a well adjusted 41 year old. I no longer feel dirty or vulnerable. I am strong and well adjusted. I have put...
    living4now living4now 41-45, F 5 Responses Feb 21, 2013

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    I Think It's Time Now.

    Time to tell my story here, even though it probably will never be easy to tell. In other groups I discuss subjects like sexual abuse, consent & limits, rape culture and the sexualization of the female identity (or: male entitlement, other side of the coin) a lot. I'm rather open...
    Scarcollection Scarcollection 22-25, F 10 Responses Dec 29, 2012

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    I was 7 at the time and my life was not

    particularly "normal". I lived with my mom and dad in my grandmother's house. I had 2 stepsisters that hated me and my older brother. I never knew why though. My dad was a complete drunk. He would buy alcohol before feeding his family. He always had his drunk friends over all...
    flappybird flappybird 22-25 2 Responses Feb 11, 2014

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    Being Sexually Assaulted Or Raped

    First of all, sexually assaulted and raped have the same meaning.  I remember to this day my three rapes, being harassed, threatened with being kidnapped and then murdered 7 times, stalked 7 times, and other sexual and non-sexual abuses by a family member and others as if it...
    happynpregnant happynpregnant 46-50, F 8 Responses Jun 7, 2013

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    Mom never believed me she never trusted me

    around older guys and cousins she kept a close eye on me. Just to make sure I did not infect them with my dirty minded ways.
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F 1 Response May 1

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    it is too hard for me to say how I feel

    or to truly understand how if has affected me. The memories are stained into my skin and dominating my life.. I started writing poetry last year when I got PTSD. This is my latest poem called Ragdoll... Ragdoll Spirit of youth confined within horror Cursive whimpers amidst...
    JesusTakeTheWheel JesusTakeTheWheel 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 1, 2014

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    It was my brother. I must have been in the

    third or fourth grade and it lasted about two years. My brother often watched me when my parents weren't home and if he had to work I would go with him. We would usually watch movies together and then play some sort of games like video games or with his old cars. The abuse...
    shellbell9 shellbell9 22-25, F Nov 18, 2014

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    I lost my virginity to a boy

    who didn't care about me. I was so upset one night after fighting with my parents I went to his house and he said it'd make me feel better to have sex. Then I went back. He started hitting me when I didn't wanna do it anymore. He started raping me, drugging me in order to get me...
    Katiekat1234987 Katiekat1234987 18-21 1 Response Jan 28, 2014

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    Strength Within

    i was 7 yrs old when it happened. i told my parents but nothing was resolved, no cops, doctors nothing! nobody did anything about it! i was pissed for what seemed forever. like i was a broken fence, they just slaped a new bord with some paint and went on with...
    kaged kaged 31-35, F 6 Responses Dec 30, 2007

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    I am dead inside I don't have any tears left I

    don't have any emotion. I am just breathing for the sake of it. People say am obsessed with 'it' but am ? How can I not be when I dream about it every night,see his pictures on the computer when people praise him for all the 'good' things he does I swear if I had a gun I would...
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F 1 Response May 27

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    The Love Of A Father

    lets start off by me saying that I am a male and this will be my first attempt as telling what happened to me when i was a child. It wasn't only me though as i had two older brothers who went through and endured the same horrific situations as i did. My older brother whom i...
    woundeddragon woundeddragon 18-21, M 18 Responses Apr 17, 2012

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    An Innocent Lesson Or Sexual Abuse?

       I think now that I have pushed the little button saying "me too," the rest may be easier. I've started now, that's the hard part sometimes. I haven't told this story to more than 2 people in my life. The events of my abuse took place during 3 years, sporadically, from ages...
    Scorchia Scorchia 61-65, F 4 Responses Aug 14, 2013

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    What's Normal?

    My abuse started when I was seven, My brothers friend who was eighteen,  was babysitting me and took me into his room he made me preform oral sex, then he started touching me, asking me if I liked certain things, I didn't know, I was scared, and embarassed.  My parents...
    ayashe473 ayashe473 36-40, F 8 Responses Feb 4, 2010

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    I was abused by a male cousin from the age of

    about 7 until I was 11/12. He was very devious, he would call to my house on the pretense of a message from his mum to me (his mum was my mums sister) or he would say he wanted to borrow some books - Enid Blyton 5 find-outers or famous 5 so he could get me up to my bedroom. Once...
    Baldnomore Baldnomore 51-55, F Jan 18, 2014

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    I was about 3 or 4 when it started.

    My older brother would come into my room or make me go into my mom's closet and would do things. This happened almost everyday for a couple months to a year. Due to me being so young I didn't know what was happening so I didn't know it was something I necessarily needed to get...
    cms14smc cms14smc 18-21, F Mar 17

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    Dearest Old Daddy

    YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO PROTECT ME FROM HARM! INSTEAD YOU WERE THE ONE WHO HARMED ME! YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO TEACH ME HOW TO RIDE A BIKE AND HELP ME WITH MY HOMEWORK! INSTEAD YOU USED ME! YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO MAKE SURE I WAS SAFE,WELL FED, AND HAPPY! INSTEAD YOU BEAT, STARVED, AND...
    deleted deleted 26-30 10 Responses Jan 28, 2013

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    Falling

    I have been pushed off the highest cliff you can imagine, I grab for every branch, they snap at my attempts.  I am plunging at enormous speed, yet I can see everything in the slowest of motion.  I look down into a endless black hole. I am beyond panic, I am going to die...
    Freestanding Freestanding 51-55, F 17 Responses Sep 19, 2007

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    It happened when I was

    so young it's weird thinking about how i might have been different if it never happened. If I could go back I'd gladly kill the sick ****** and I don't think I'd feel a damn thing
    someoneandstuff someoneandstuff 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 24, 2014

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    I always had a weird feeling from him,

    but my mother re-assured me she was in love with this man--her boyfriend. He moved in, a police officer, a very short time after they had been dating. Times when my mother was not home were the times he began crossing my boundaries. He would sit next to me on the sofa when I...
    willow06 willow06 31-35, F 2 Responses May 22, 2014

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    I was molested by my grandfather

    The closest I can be to guessing when it started was at the age of 6. It didn't end until age 11. He died when I was 12. It started out with him playing with himself when we would play games (cards, board games) and I would pretend to not notice because that's all I could think...
    NRF NRF 18-21, F 17 Responses Apr 14, 2008

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    All my life I have been fat

    and had man boobs. The boys here in my school in this horrible country India abused me everyday in school groping it. It was sick and disgusting. I developed a Stockholm syndrome and would let one boy grope bite my man boobs and then my give hand jobs to my penis. It was painful...
    Satorax Satorax 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 28

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    I Trusted the Wrong People ... Twice (pt. 1)

    There are a couple of moments in my life, I'd relive because they all involve me losing myself in some way. If I could relive a moment or moments in my life there would be a few moments I'd take back. The first moment I'd take back happened to me when I was ten years old with...
    Dimples87 Dimples87 22-25, F 5 Responses May 10, 2008

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    I am a girl, and I just turned 19 recently.

    My story isn't very extreme, but it does feel nice to be able to let something out, as it has plagued my life for awhile. It happened sometime this year (2014), and I was 18 at the start of the year. I just ended my national exams and I had a long holiday from January all the...
    henryklutz henryklutz 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 23, 2014

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    A Glimpse Part 2

    My mom's boyfriend before she died. David was his name. Nasty *** huge red mustache with curdling beer always on his breath. I would hide my little sister (she was still in diapers, I was about 4 or 5)..just so he wouldn't touch her. This man did horrible things to me and also...
    sizzzlin69 sizzzlin69 31-35, F 4 Responses Mar 15, 2013

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    Bedwetter

    as a bedwetter my dad made me wear a nappy and plastic pants to bed.he would cane me in the mornnig and at night to and than put is **** up me than put my nappy and plastic pants on me.i still live at home and still wet the bed and still get the cane
    nappi nappi 46-50, M 3 Responses Nov 20, 2011

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    A few times as a kid he showed me stuff.

    . Like idk how to explain it. **** I guess? And told me stuff about sex, explaining what it was. When we lived in this house when I was 6 or 7 he locked me in his room with him and pulled out his penis.. Told me to compare him to the guys in the movies. And told me to compare him...
    ajh97 ajh97 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 24, 2014

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    When I was twelve years old,

    my "friend's" step-dad used to try and send my friend out of the room to "go get things" to show me, he used to touch me, make me do things and if I didn't do them he'd threaten to hurt my friend or my family. I was so naive at the time that I believed every word that came out...
    CaptainCalculus CaptainCalculus 26-30, F Jan 10, 2014

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