I Have Been the Spouse of a Drug Addict

A safe place to vent about having a partner or spouse with a drug addiction- past or current 1,235 People

    We both Hurt each other in different ways.

    Very bad... I feel responsible for everything, but I know everyone is responsible for their own decisions, including what we put in our bodies. My husband has such a big heart, and he's always been my rock and strength, and when I see him with our children, I am filled with love...
    Starkizzed21 Starkizzed21
    22-25, F
    Feb 4

    I am a girlfriend of a Heroine addict.

    I met him about two years ago and completely fell head of heels. I didn't know much about addiction when I met him but now I know the pain. I knew that he used drugs when I met him cause I met him while he was in the hospital detoxing, in my little mind I thought he was all...
    readyforhope readyforhope
    22-25
    3 Responses Apr 28, 2014

    I am married to a drug addict.

    . He is on the suboxon program but dosnt take it by mouth he injects it nor dose he take the rite amount.. He keeps saying he is getting cut back of his meds and he is going to be off it completely by next month.. I don't not see that happening. He is addict to ryddlin also.. HE...
    cammiehudson cammiehudson
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 8, 2015

    I need somewhere to vent,

    so I figured this could be a good start.. So here it goes. I was in a relationship with an heroin addict. (Was- because I ended it today.) He has been doing heroin for the past 2 years, we been together since 2011 so majority of our relationship he has been addicted to heroin...
    candykay23 candykay23
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Oct 7, 2014

    I have been married to my husband going on 3

    years however we have been together for 6. We have a 4 year old daughter together and the last 9 or so months have been complete torture. I am reading all of these stories and they all sound the same, mine included which only proves to me once again what the problem is. He was...
    magsssmae magsssmae
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 22, 2015

    On The Other Side Looking In

    I think I can relate in a way to the addicts in our lives because I am a recovering addict myself. I have a severe disability from my curvature of the spine which has caused years of agony from pain.  18 years ago I was given vicodin and long story short, found myself abusing so...
    Santana2 Santana2
    46-50
    2 Responses Apr 16, 2011

    Well my wife finished her rehab

    for opiate addiction. I am proud of her. Hopefully she continues with NA and this does not happen again. Hopefully her court case for well and she can get her nursing license back someday. In the meantime I hope she can get a job as well.
    cplichristmd cplichristmd
    31-35, M
    Mar 3, 2014

    My husband and I have been married a year.

    We I thought were the happiest people ever healthy worked hard all of if. Then last week we went to the ER because he had palpations and told me his been addicted for nor co. He was taking 12 a day. He says it's not the number. Now he is taking suboxone he got from a friend to...
    Helpme10414 Helpme10414
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 17, 2015

    Hello. I have no idea

    where to start. I'm been kinda new to this. I've only been in a relationship a little less than a year. In the beginning of course everything was cool. We talked about everything, laughed, joke and it seemed like a good start. Until he left to go to the mall and didn't return...
    Rhyneing Rhyneing
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Mar 10, 2015

    I'm going through some doubts,

    and it's making me very depressed. My husband has gone on bupe and sleeps most of the time. He's also picked up smoking so being near him is completely unpleasant now, he isn't even using an expensive vaporizer that he has sitting around, he went straight for the cigarettes. I...
    rivers0ng rivers0ng
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Sep 5, 2015

    I am posting this for advise.

    My sister (S) is in a relationship with a guy (R), who my family has ample evidence is a drug addict. He has always been upfront about his past, both drugs he's used and jail time he's done. However, S and R currently live with my parents and our youngest sister after being...
    fr0stgirl22 fr0stgirl22
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 2, 2015

    This is my first time doing anything like this.

    I have recently found out that my husband has been smoking heroin. Words can't even describe all the emotions that have come with this. When I first started suspecting it about 3 months ago I didn't want to believe that my husband could be doing drugs, let alone heroin. Then I...
    kdurgin11 kdurgin11
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 13, 2014

    I've been married to my husband

    for 10 years, and he's been injecting morphine for about two of those years. We have two small children ages 5 and 1. I'm a stay at home mom and love it. It's been a year since I found out, and I just don't have any hope left. He still has a job, he gets it from a doctor in...
    rivers0ng rivers0ng
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Aug 4, 2015

    Sad & lonely have been feelings

    that have hovered over my life for years of marriage to an addict. It's never enough, you can never do enough to make them happy. Happiness eludes them because it can't be found in a bottle of vodka or a line of cocaine & it becomes your addiction too. It can be all consuming if...
    Wifeofanaddict Wifeofanaddict
    41-45, F
    3 Responses May 28, 2014

    So i have been in a relationship with my husband

    for 11 years and recently married. He has been to prison. Stolen. Lied. Cheated...the whole shabang! Hes been using since he was 12 and is the master manipulator and deceiver but sooo many good things too. He got out of prison 2 1/2 years ago and used heroin for a year and got...
    bmfc5525 bmfc5525
    36-40
    2 Responses Mar 14, 2015

    Tough Love...Is It The Answer??

    I copied and pasted this from someone else...hope they don't mind.. A Poem.......... IF YOU LOVE ME, LET ME FALL IF you love me let me fall all by myself. Don't try to spread a net out to catch me, don't throw a pillow under me to cushion the pain so I don't have to feel it...
    mommy23boys mommy23boys
    31-35
    6 Responses Nov 25, 2013

    Hello I am the wife of a drug addict.

    We have been married for 2 years July 21st. I began to notice major changes in his behavior and mood changes. Also the way he was w me. He never had any money, lied to me abt going to college to finish his degree, and of course the five min trip to the store took 2 hrs. I cried...
    CE21 CE21
    31-35, F
    6 Responses Jul 5, 2014

    I'm married to a drug addict.

    Heroin at that. I can't believe I just said that. It's disgusting. We've been together for 5 years, married for one. We have a 2 year old and another on the way. When we were dating he partied but nothing was ever "hard core". I've always turned up my nose at drugs and heavy...
    kjr19 kjr19
    18-21
    4 Responses May 27, 2015

    Death of Three Lives

    My Husband was on drugs 20 years.  Nothing serious at first than escalated to major pain killers, cocaine, crank, and then crack.  My son did not even know until he was 14.  We insisted He go to clinics and he did; about six or seven, always to go back to the...
    chrisoharris chrisoharris
    56-60
    3 Responses Jul 12, 2009

    I Tend To Blame Myself

    I have been with the same person almost 11 years but I have known him for 16 years. I knew he smoked a lot of pot growing up but 7 years ago we had our son and moved in together then I realized that is wasn't just pot he was taking massive amounts of prescription pills. Finally...
    Me1216 Me1216
    31-35, F
    8 Responses Apr 5, 2013

    Hello. I am the wife of an addict.

    My husband's drug of choice was Meth. He is now sitting in jail awaiting trial for first, second, third, and fifth degree drug possession. There was a package delivered to my house with drugs in it. Until that point I didn't realize it was that bad. Due to the package being...
    panzram panzram
    31-35, F
    Nov 30, 2015

    The Worst Year of My Life

    Well, my husband started abusing prescription drugs last year, and now my life's pretty much in ruins.  We had to quit my job in January due to a chronic illness, we filed for bankruptcy a couple of months ago, and I have sold nearly all of my jewelry to pay bills. ...
    britt1449 britt1449
    22-25
    15 Responses Jul 11, 2009

    So far we have looked into one rehab

    for my husband...they said that bexuase he is only addicted to opiates benzos, adderall, and alcohol he doesn't need inpatient. they practically said because he isn't on heroin meth or cocaine he doesn't need it and think he can get by with 3 meetings a week. I think this is...
    Sallster Sallster
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Aug 15, 2015

    Well not a spouse exactly

    since we weren't married. All I can say is if you are in this situation you need to be willing to leave if they are not willing to change.
    TKD1 TKD1
    51-55, F
    1 Response Feb 6, 2014

    ok I've been with my current boyfriend

    and he has been clean for 4 months and he recently relapsed. I'm not sure what I'm doing anymore I believe he withdrew money from his account which we use to pay rent and now I may be homeless because I cannot afford to pay rent now. he's gone he turned his phone off all I wanna...
    Rhyneing Rhyneing
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 27

    I have been with my husband

    for 20 years and we have a beautiful daughter together but the past 5 years he's struggled with addiction to pills after he fell and broke his back he was prescribed pain pills oxycode he then abused those lost his prescription doctor dumped him and started doing heroin. The...
    Anntonniette Anntonniette
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Oct 7, 2015

    I have been with my husband

    for 18 years and the last two have been very destructive because of his drug addiction. He admitted to me about two weeks ago that he was addicted to OxyContin. We have recently reconnected but I'm so scared that he will start using again or start making all the horrible...
    Meuy2005 Meuy2005
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Jul 9, 2015

    He's Changed..

    My husband has been using for a long time behind my back but lately it's gotten out of control. He takes all our money, his mood will give you whiplash, he disappears at night in my car with no drivers license. We have 3 beautiful babies together. I've seen too many go down this...
    TrulyMommy3 TrulyMommy3
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Nov 10, 2013

    I have been in a relationship with my partner

    for 6 years, we were engaged for 2 but I ended that due to his drug/anger issues. We have a 4 year old son together. This week his family and I discovered he was back using heroin. Two years ago he was using and overdosed, he claims that he was clean up until 4 months ago but I...
    danimm danimm
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jun 24, 2015

    So Lost...

    Hi, on the surface you see, I am a soccer mom, a dance mom, a college graduate, a pretty girl with a smile on her face in public. But what you don't see or know, is that my partner and father of my children is a crack addict, and that smile on my face is fake. when I first met...
    SoTorn17 SoTorn17
    26-30
    8 Responses Apr 30, 2013

    I have been in a relationship with my wife now

    for almost 4 years in Aug. and two of married the same month. We have a son who's also about to be 4 years old. We started talking when she was pregnant and. We went from there. Now, I don't know about drugs (pain killers) so when I would see her take 6 at a time and she said...
    aaguilar0813 aaguilar0813
    22-25, F
    May 26, 2015

    11 years, 3 break ups.

    .. 2 days ago I took my life back. We have two kids who have known life without their father more than life with him. I tried to type all the wrong he has done to me over the past 11 years and this post would be miles long. But I am the one who kept coming back. It was me. I...
    Melanie05 Melanie05
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Mar 24, 2015

    my husband and I were together 4 years

    before we got married and have a beautiful son together. this Saturday is our 1 year wedding anniversary. but it has been a year from hell. I knew he smoked pot and took the occasional pill before marrying him. I didn't think it was a big issue I thought he just liked to unwind...
    Sallster Sallster
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 13, 2015

    Does The Cycle Ever Really End?

    I love my husband very much. We have overcome so much and I know he truly loves me. We have been together for about a decade and there have been some truly awesome times. But my husband is an addict. Most of the time, it was alcohol. Then he started abusing prescription drugs. It...
    5555654km 5555654km
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Oct 27, 2013

    me and my man are together

    for 13 years, we have to stop using drugs...co...to be specific.but I now he lie to me...when he say we gone to be ok...I love him but..I stroqer that him...I now he will fail again and he gone make me fail....I now I have to live..im 47..im scare....
    rivera8 rivera8
    46-50, F
    Dec 29, 2015

    I Feel Like My Soul Was Taken From Me

    Hello, my name is Desiree and i am a mother of 4 special monkeys(kids). I have been married/with my husband for 10 years. We have been through counseling with an addict counselor to our church pastor. He has attended 12 step program and na classes. He goes to them but he leaves...
    dolface23 dolface23
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Nov 21, 2013

    Pregnant Drug Addict Boyfriend Missing

    I was dating my bf for 2 years .. A year into the relationship he confessed to me he had got himself into some problems and tried doing crack cocaine. My life has been living hell ever since .. he has done eveything a addict could do.. steal.. lie.. cheat.. beat me.. and at the...
    Englishmuffin82 Englishmuffin82
    31-35
    2 Responses Nov 24, 2013

    The Pain Never Stops, I Wish I Could Forget But Can Not Let Go

    I thought I was marring the perfect man. The perfect man has turned into the worst part of my life. I long to be free but know that can never be, not until I finally breathe my last breath. the lies, that is the worst. The constant cut-downs, picking a fight to justify his...
    mommaceitta mommaceitta
    51-55, F
    9 Responses Dec 26, 2011

    We who are not drug users have to understand

    this part of all this. That is this: yes they are addicted to drugs. I've been researching more since I found out. This is what I come to understand and that is how it feels. You see the way you feel right now. Your feelings of loneliness, boredom and can't stop thinking about...
    enki1770 enki1770
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Jul 8, 2014

    Little update.. Long story short I packed up my

    daughter and I and moved in with my parents. I told them everything. It has only been 24 hours and I already feel like a new person. Of course this will hurt for so long and I know I will battle my decision but my heart knows this is for the best. My daughters deserve so much...
    kjr19 kjr19
    18-21
    2 Responses May 30, 2015

    sorry if i end up rambling -

    but i have been holding things in for quite a while and need to vent.... keep in mind that i only knew a small portion of the problems before we were married. i was a sucker and naive. i believed that the rehab she went through before she moved in was it & believed the lies up...
    naiveUSMCvet naiveUSMCvet
    46-50, M
    3 Responses Feb 13

    I Feel So Alone

    I feel so alone all the time I feel afraid to go to sleep at night I am afraid I will wake up to him being dead. I don't feel like I can talk to anyone all of this is just eating me away. I have become such a negative person I dislike all drug users but yet I still stay with the...
    Me1216 Me1216
    31-35, F
    23 Responses Apr 5, 2013

    In March of 2015 I found out

    that my spouse was an opiate addict. He was caught stealing thousands of dollars from my disabled father, whom was living with us. Once my husband came out as an addict he admitted himself into rehab (aka detox) for 4 or 5 days. Since then, we have been attempting to work things...
    jlayres jlayres
    26-30, F
    1 Response Sep 21, 2015

    do I hate him or the disease.

    to me he is the disease. everything about him breathes it. he lives it. I can't separate him from it, because he's not there anymore. I don't know if he is ever coming back. I have hatred so much hatred for this person who has taken over the person I used to love. I can beg and...
    flyaway2285 flyaway2285
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jun 12, 2015

    After an 18 months long intense cocoa be

    addiction I have him an ultimatum. Me or drugs, I spent the next six months helping him through his withdrawal - I failed to attend school during most of this time and failed my exams, but I don't regret it. Even if we aren't together anymore
    DarkNightsBrightStars DarkNightsBrightStars
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 6

    The lying is the hardest part

    for me. I always tell my husband that I can deal with a horrible truth better than I can a simple lie. When I catch him and know he has relapsed, I'd rather he just tell me, but he lies and lies to my face without remorse. That's the worst feeling in the world. I never know...
    jessie620 jessie620
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Nov 17, 2014

    Im pregnant to a man

    who is a recovering ICE addict. He doesnt no im pregnant yet. I want an abortion, however he is very anti abortion. Im concerned to tell him im pregnant as i dont want him to relapse as he is in the early stages of his rehabilitation (still the first year), yet i dont want to...
    noonoo91 noonoo91
    22-25, F
    Jun 14, 2015

    I am father to two young children

    and married to a woman who has been abusing pain medication for three years that I know of. For the last year or more I have turned a blind eye to it. I have enabled it. I have financed it in a foolish attempt to manage it. I had followed her down, begun using myself. That...
    XVIFlaviaFirma XVIFlaviaFirma
    41-45, M
    6 Responses Jan 18, 2015

    Our Family Crisis, My Personal Insanity

    10 years ago I fell in love with my soul mate. Everyday we held each other and thanked God for guiding us to each other. Our love was a beautiful thing. So beautiful that we decided to have children to share it with and got married to make it official. We were blessed with a...
    jdcab123 jdcab123
    31-35, F
    8 Responses Mar 16, 2013

    Hello. So I am the spouse of an addict.

    It's almost been a year that he would of been clean. He has recently relapsed and he thinks in his mind that he hasn't done anything wrong. He was doing so good and staying away from it but recently he's been hanging around with people who use and I've told him that I don't want...
    rodriguez31 rodriguez31
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 20, 2015

    One Day At A Time...hoping Tomorrow Is Better!

    I finally married my highschool sweetheart last year, we postponed the wedding a year when we found out I was pregnant. during my pregnancy I found out he had become addicted to pain pills. of coarse I had no idea just how bad it really was, and we continued with our wedding with...
    lma729 lma729
    22-25
    7 Responses Jun 5, 2012

    Fooled For The Last Time....

    I have been living in a fairy tale, no let me rephrase that, I have been living a nightmare! My husband of thirteen years has been in and out of a very destructive addiction to pain pills and meth when they weren't being prescribed. I was naive throughout the first few years of...
    loveneverfails2000 loveneverfails2000
    46-50, F
    7 Responses Oct 15, 2013

    I am not technically married.

    ..but I have been in a relationship with someone for about a year now. I knew he was prescribed pain medicine and xanax before we met, but for the longest time he rarely took either. Well he took the pain meds but he took them as prescribed and he rarely took xanax. The thing is...
    BNH34 BNH34
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 21

    I only found out about 6 weeks ago

    that he was using again. When I confronted him, he admitted it and we made a plan to get some help. Since then he's had a few good days but he cannot manage and hasn't started looking for help. He leaves paraphernalia around the house and I guess he thinks I don't notice that he...
    lilmsymelstar lilmsymelstar
    36-40, F
    1 Response Oct 28, 2015

    How Am I So Weak?

    I am in love with a addict we have been together for 4 years now & have two kids together. He used to be so good to me but now I dont get the same treatment :/ I would do anything in the world for this man but he would rather hide away & do his drugs. At times I wanna leave but I...
    wainright27 wainright27
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 29, 2013

    How do you sleep through the anxiety?

    I drive myself crazy searching his car every night when he's asleep. Then I'm so wound up, especially when I know a prescription has been filled but I can't find it, and I know he's found a new hiding spot. I'm so tired of doing this to myself. How do I just set my expectations...
    rivers0ng rivers0ng
    31-35, F
    1 Response Aug 8, 2015

    Addiction That Ruins A Family

    My wife of 13+ years had addiction problems before we were married. I went with her to her graduation right after we got together from the rehab she was in. She did have 10 years of sobriety, well sort of, she was still drinking and occasionally using pain meds. Then she went...
    NoEndInSight13 NoEndInSight13
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Nov 4, 2013
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