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I Have Been To Hell And Back More Than Once

For those have have fought, fought again, and are still fighting. 270 People

    Having panic attacks?

    Here's some advice from Tyler Durden. 
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Mar 7

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    Only The Once

    I'd like to go again, it was a very nice flight from Oslo. ;)
    Rachel70 Rachel70 41-45, F 3 Responses Aug 15, 2013

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    What is a Panic AttackA very important question

    if you're struggling with this condition. You should really understanding exactly what's going on behind the scenes.So what is a PA?A sudden feeling of acute and disabling anxiety.`Ok, that's the textbook definition, but i don't think that clears things up too much so let's go l...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Feb 23

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    Does fear cause real diarrhea

    or does it cause the feeling only ? http://livelifetothefullest.live-panic-free.com/2014/03/03/does-fear-cause-real-diarrhea-or-does-it-cause-the-feeling-only-.aspx Hey guys, sorry if this seems spammy, not my intention at all. I used to just paste my experiences in several...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Mar 4

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    My Story..

    Well I was born in Phila. PA. my parents came from the UK 2 ears before I was born,, My father received a call from the hospital ." Mr Jones, your wife has left. Would you like to come pick up your daughter?" .Well he did, and he and my Gran raised me until I was 5 .He then met...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jan 6, 2013

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    I Am A Real Demon

    Hello, I am Azethoth, te demon of chaos, born from hell....if anyone has any questions to ask, feel free....
    Anethoth6 Anethoth6 16-17 Oct 6, 2013

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    You ask me to stop being myself To say

    that you are right, when you aren't I know who I am, and I will do things my way You will not control me If you get in my way, I will turn against you Leave me to my thoughts, for their are my only true company in this darkness called life But I dare you, to try and help me, it...
    berserkerwolf berserkerwolf 18-21, M Feb 13

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    The Demon Of Chaos

    I'm Anethoth, the demon of chaos, I have come back from hell to find my soldiers, if you have any questions feel free....
    Anethoth6 Anethoth6 16-17 Oct 17, 2013

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    Booze And Drugs,my Friends

    When i first started drinking it wasn't to bad.Then my hell started.Getting drunk once a month to every weekend.Then killing a half pint of whiskey in the morning before going to work.Carring a half pint into work and killing it with what ever else someone brought.Popping pills...
    cindyloulove cindyloulove 56-60, M Aug 11, 2011

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    My Pain, Story

    I have always had this awful feeling, one that I couldn't point to, one that made me think that I was crazy, I was imagining it, I've had a rough life, I won't go into details, but I have a very high pain tolerance because of my misfortune, I have lived with the feeling for 19...
    Just1a1nameless1soul Just1a1nameless1soul 18-21 Dec 2, 2012

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    I am a survivor of self harm

    and have not self harmed in more than 20 years now. I now have better outlets for dealing with my guilt and sadness over past events, usually writing and sometimes painting. It does strengthen me to realize that I'm a survivor even though much of the time I don't feel...
    lauren71 lauren71 41-45, F Mar 2

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    Help Me! I Obsess Over Everything!

    Question: I have been living with panic attacks and anxiety for about 16 years. It started after I stopped using drugs. I constantly thought I was going to or was in the act of having a heart attack. Then, it started me checking windows and doors repeatedly every night, and the...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Sep 9, 2013

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    Lullaby Of The Dead

    Ring around the Rosie Pocket full if posies Ashes, Ashes We all fall down.... Ring around the Rosie What do you suppose we Can do to fight the darkness In which we drown? Ring around the Rosie This evil thing it KNOWS me..... Lost ghosts surround me.... I. Can't...
    Anethoth6 Anethoth6 16-17 Oct 21, 2013

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    And I'M Going Back Again

    .... Yet again... I must venture to hell by myself.... I refuse help from others on this journey that I must take.... My emotions are growing stronger and are showing more.... I must hide them deeper... So I must being them together again, just to push them away... Hell: it is...
    berserkerwolf berserkerwolf 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 23, 2013

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    But Different Now....

    I didn't give up, and now am cruising the road of peace and love.......the happy road of destiny. I believe we are all destined to be happy and at peace....this is God's wish for us, and if we believe and want it-it is ours for the taking....
    peacefulprincess peacefulprincess 31-35, F Aug 11, 2011

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    The Pain

    I have been to hell and back far too many times. There has been so many moments where i have thought ''i just can't take anymore'' and then something else happens, weighing me down ... laying heavy on my shoulders. Sometimes too many little things build up ... which makes up a...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F Jul 10, 2013

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    My Story

    My story doesn't begin in a magical place, nor does it end with a 'happily ever after'. There where no super hero's to save the day, only evil that haunts each chapter. My story will make you cry before it makes you laugh, and.. I'm not even sure I have what it takes to speak...
    BreathingInBlades BreathingInBlades 18-21, F Aug 7, 2011

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    Hell?

    Hell Hole, AZ...is that what you are talking about?.....Helltown, CA,.yes, nice little ghost town......sometimes feel like I fought the the Hellfighters...haven't had the chance to tour Hell, Michigan ( the place where Hell freezes over)... even eaten in Hell's Kitchen, N.Y...
    PoppaBear53 PoppaBear53 56-60, M 1 Response Mar 22, 2012

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    Back Home And Having An Existential Crisis

    I went abroad for a few years, got my graduate degree, took a job and had a semi-serious relationship. After a few years, I came back home to my country cuz my company wouldn't sponsor visas and also partially because I wanted to because I hated my job. I wanted to try to stay in...
    Ravinman Ravinman 22-25, M Apr 12, 2013

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    feeling kind of sad really,

    I had a lovley guy we seemed to be happy but he was a sportsman and always busy, I wanted more of him and knowing him he would probably have given it up for me, but I could not do that to him, So we have mutually agreed to split. He was just amazing, I loved him deeply but we...
    JoshTR12 JoshTR12 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 18

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    All I can do is lay here in the dark, hug my pillow and cry. I can't control anything going on. I miss him. I need him. But instead I'm laying here wide awake. Wishing I was laying...
    FutureGleason FutureGleason 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 17

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    I think crying myself to sleep has become an every night thing. There's something about laying in the dark, alone, that just makes me so sad that I can't sleep. Wake up tired. Not...
    FutureGleason FutureGleason 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 7

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    And I'm trying not to right now.. Taking deep breaths.. Holding It in.. Until I can't take it anymore. And I suffocate myself with a pillow so no one can hear my whimpering and hot...
    DepressingKayla DepressingKayla 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 10

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    I wish I could, but the tears rarely come and when they do, it still isn't satisfying enough. Instead, I just lay in bed at night, apathetic towards almost everything.
    seabassep seabassep 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 11

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    A few times..... A few years ago my best friend lost her mother; she was in such emotional pain that it affected me too.... I hate friends feeling hurt....it hurts me too...
    SarahTheHooker SarahTheHooker 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 22

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    Hi guys, I'm a 14 year old girl and I'm wondering, am I verbally abused? My father and I have clashed for as long as I remember, and he can get quite nasty when he's mad. I'm a...
    Nightlife707 Nightlife707 13-15, F Aug 13

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    I was married for 10 years, my ex was verbally and physically abusive. He stopped working for the last two years,and I was the main support of the house. He would always accused me...
    liza0324 liza0324 26-30, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I've been to Bosnia, Germany, Switzerland, Croatia, Serbia, Austria, Slovania all more than once & I live in the US 😙
    majdaaaa majdaaaa 13-15, F 6 Responses Aug 11

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    From my journal, October 8, 2012 I was taking a walk this morning, and was enjoying how warm and toasty the sun felt on my shirt despite the cool temperatures. I was coming to a...
    Solfeggio Solfeggio 36-40, F 1 hr ago

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    I have been married to my husband for 5 years. When we first got together during our last year of college, we liked to party as any young kids do. We would drink and smoke and...
    youaremystrength youaremystrength 26-30 3 Responses Aug 5

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    I need to express this. I feel so alone and feel that I am going through all of the emotions at once dealing with this. I sometimes don't even know where to begin. But I pray that...
    FromJWtoJEW FromJWtoJEW 36-40, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Update! There's hope guys - don't settle! Last time I posted it had been only one month since being cheated on - and I was a mess. Only thing I was sure of is that there was no way...
    imatulipinacup imatulipinacup 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Born into a single mother home. Raised by my mother, live-in aunt and more than either of those two my grandparents. Closest to my nana who died the day after my 14th birthday I've...
    Bmamma Bmamma 26-30, F Aug 24

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    I'm only 21 years old but can happily say that me and my younger sister have had the most idyllic childhood with many of our fond memories being spent with our grandparents. My...
    deathfromabove1066 deathfromabove1066 22-25, F Aug 1

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    :) on the outside but :( in the inside!I've been through a lot of pain physically as well as psychologically so i've been through hell and been through a lot more than a average 21...
    MilweePetite MilweePetite 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 3

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    PART TWO: Emma I wrote about my trip to Ireland a week or so ago and promised a part two ( EP Link ). Part two here is not so much about Ireland as it is about one...
    SaraBee1995 SaraBee1995 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 11

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    I don't like that teachers do that with their students. I have been denied as a child and it was not good. They should be more lenient with allowing their students to use the...
    roselani2005 roselani2005 26-30, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    I do a lot of writing but i hardly write about my kids, its not that i don't want to but more how i can put in to words how much they mean to me. I know how much i love them but...
    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 4

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    A Bridge Across the Pain. I remember one morning when I was three and sitting across the table from my father at breakfast, just he and I, when for no reason I could think of he...
    Steffi97 Steffi97 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 19

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    this poem remind me of my grandma, she was big on rescuing and burying any dead animals on the roads I learned alot from her LONELY DOG POEM(COPIED) ...ADOPT! Once I was a lonely...
    dannygirl89 dannygirl89 22-25, F Aug 16

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    NOT. ONE. PENNY. All of you with a couple coins in your pocket, even some with hundreds in their bank... Not one. damn. Penny to help a young girl. I have been rotting. Away in...
    Daisypie Daisypie 18-21, F Aug 5

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    I needed clarity and a break from a world that created a chaotic era for me. This time, one foot at a time, dipping one toe after the other. The water must be great and if it isn...
    ChaoticReason ChaoticReason 36-40, F Aug 19

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    I walk threw a forest, darkness consumes all that lay beneath it, so powerful that fear will follow it where ever it may go. Unsure where to stand, where may be safe or what lies...
    Ameliaaaa Ameliaaaa 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 8

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    My granddad was rushed into hospital this week. No one told me. My mum decided to text me to let me know and 7pm. Meaning he'd been in the hospital for 13hours. "She claimed she...
    lilygeorge12 lilygeorge12 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    Just something I felt like sharing/talking about. My current bf and I had a fight and I guess this was his way of "getting back" at me. He began entertaining conversations with...
    VousEtesBelleCM VousEtesBelleCM 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    i have been complimented on my telephone voice many times. ive even had job offers to be a receptionist just because of my telephone voice. when i was a teenager it has gotten many...
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    My husband cheated on me online. He never met the woman but many of their conversations were very heart felt and emotional. He even asked her to marry him twice. (he claims he was...
    hasinalady hasinalady 46-50, F 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    I want a mistress, I'm a bisexual but I love girls way more than I like guys, and I've been interested in bdsm for a while. Now I'm out on a mission to get me a mistress
    Laysiaxo Laysiaxo 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 5

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    I like to take nude summit photos. I am as much embarrassed by this as I am excited, so I make sure no one is around. Recently I was at the summit of a local mountain just...
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