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I Have Been To Hell And Back More Than Once

For those have have fought, fought again, and are still fighting. 274 People

    My Story..

    Well I was born in Phila. PA. my parents came from the UK 2 ears before I was born,, My father received a call from the hospital ." Mr Jones, your wife has left. Would you like to come pick up your daughter?" .Well he did, and he and my Gran raised me until I was 5 .He then met...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jan 6, 2013

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    You ask me to stop being myself To say

    that you are right, when you aren't I know who I am, and I will do things my way You will not control me If you get in my way, I will turn against you Leave me to my thoughts, for their are my only true company in this darkness called life But I dare you, to try and help me, it...
    berserkerwolf berserkerwolf 18-21, M Feb 13

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    Does fear cause real diarrhea

    or does it cause the feeling only ? http://livelifetothefullest.live-panic-free.com/2014/03/03/does-fear-cause-real-diarrhea-or-does-it-cause-the-feeling-only-.aspx Hey guys, sorry if this seems spammy, not my intention at all. I used to just paste my experiences in several...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Mar 4

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    The Demon Of Chaos

    I'm Anethoth, the demon of chaos, I have come back from hell to find my soldiers, if you have any questions feel free....
    Anethoth6 Anethoth6 16-17 Oct 17, 2013

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    Lullaby Of The Dead

    Ring around the Rosie Pocket full if posies Ashes, Ashes We all fall down.... Ring around the Rosie What do you suppose we Can do to fight the darkness In which we drown? Ring around the Rosie This evil thing it KNOWS me..... Lost ghosts surround me.... I. Can't...
    Anethoth6 Anethoth6 16-17 Oct 21, 2013

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    Only The Once

    I'd like to go again, it was a very nice flight from Oslo. ;)
    Rachel70 Rachel70 41-45, F 3 Responses Aug 15, 2013

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    Back Home And Having An Existential Crisis

    I went abroad for a few years, got my graduate degree, took a job and had a semi-serious relationship. After a few years, I came back home to my country cuz my company wouldn't sponsor visas and also partially because I wanted to because I hated my job. I wanted to try to stay in...
    Ravinman Ravinman 22-25, M Apr 12, 2013

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    What is a Panic AttackA very important question

    if you're struggling with this condition. You should really understanding exactly what's going on behind the scenes.So what is a PA?A sudden feeling of acute and disabling anxiety.`Ok, that's the textbook definition, but i don't think that clears things up too much so let's go l...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Feb 23

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    And I'M Going Back Again

    .... Yet again... I must venture to hell by myself.... I refuse help from others on this journey that I must take.... My emotions are growing stronger and are showing more.... I must hide them deeper... So I must being them together again, just to push them away... Hell: it is...
    berserkerwolf berserkerwolf 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 23, 2013

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    I Am A Real Demon

    Hello, I am Azethoth, te demon of chaos, born from hell....if anyone has any questions to ask, feel free....
    Anethoth6 Anethoth6 16-17 Oct 6, 2013

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    Hell?

    Hell Hole, AZ...is that what you are talking about?.....Helltown, CA,.yes, nice little ghost town......sometimes feel like I fought the the Hellfighters...haven't had the chance to tour Hell, Michigan ( the place where Hell freezes over)... even eaten in Hell's Kitchen, N.Y...
    PoppaBear53 PoppaBear53 56-60, M 1 Response Mar 22, 2012

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    I am a survivor of self harm

    and have not self harmed in more than 20 years now. I now have better outlets for dealing with my guilt and sadness over past events, usually writing and sometimes painting. It does strengthen me to realize that I'm a survivor even though much of the time I don't feel...
    lauren71 lauren71 41-45, F Mar 2

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    My Pain, Story

    I have always had this awful feeling, one that I couldn't point to, one that made me think that I was crazy, I was imagining it, I've had a rough life, I won't go into details, but I have a very high pain tolerance because of my misfortune, I have lived with the feeling for 19...
    Just1a1nameless1soul Just1a1nameless1soul 18-21 Dec 2, 2012

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    Booze And Drugs,my Friends

    When i first started drinking it wasn't to bad.Then my hell started.Getting drunk once a month to every weekend.Then killing a half pint of whiskey in the morning before going to work.Carring a half pint into work and killing it with what ever else someone brought.Popping pills...
    cindyloulove cindyloulove 56-60, M Aug 11, 2011

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    Having panic attacks?

    Here's some advice from Tyler Durden. 
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Mar 7

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    Help Me! I Obsess Over Everything!

    Question: I have been living with panic attacks and anxiety for about 16 years. It started after I stopped using drugs. I constantly thought I was going to or was in the act of having a heart attack. Then, it started me checking windows and doors repeatedly every night, and the...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Sep 9, 2013

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    But Different Now....

    I didn't give up, and now am cruising the road of peace and love.......the happy road of destiny. I believe we are all destined to be happy and at peace....this is God's wish for us, and if we believe and want it-it is ours for the taking....
    peacefulprincess peacefulprincess 31-35, F Aug 11, 2011

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    feeling kind of sad really,

    I had a lovley guy we seemed to be happy but he was a sportsman and always busy, I wanted more of him and knowing him he would probably have given it up for me, but I could not do that to him, So we have mutually agreed to split. He was just amazing, I loved him deeply but we...
    Joshiskierons Joshiskierons 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 18

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    My Story

    My story doesn't begin in a magical place, nor does it end with a 'happily ever after'. There where no super hero's to save the day, only evil that haunts each chapter. My story will make you cry before it makes you laugh, and.. I'm not even sure I have what it takes to speak...
    BreathingInBlades BreathingInBlades 18-21, F Aug 7, 2011

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    The Pain

    I have been to hell and back far too many times. There has been so many moments where i have thought ''i just can't take anymore'' and then something else happens, weighing me down ... laying heavy on my shoulders. Sometimes too many little things build up ... which makes up a...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F Jul 10, 2013

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    I've had 3 people who I have genuinely called my best friends. Each one has hurt me and each one worse than the last... Recently I moved to NYC, it wasn't a place I had planned on...
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    I survived a depression thanks to my dog, it began in 2005, i was only 15, i didn't know what i was going to do, i was not myself, from being a happy always laughing type of girl...
    TheTurtleDove TheTurtleDove 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 3

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    I left him and i cried my heart out. He messaged me past midnight for 3 days to ask if we could go have dinner as "friends" just before i left Europe because he would feel bad...
    Cookielover5752 Cookielover5752 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 13

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    I've lived by this my whole live (close friends over many acquaintances), but I'm starting to wonder if I'd be happier with many fake friends? I mean, don't they seem happier? I've...
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    When I see I have a message here, I get a nervous feeling in the pit of my stomach. Even though I like the thought of messages, I don't like messages. I love the thought that...
    Solfeggio Solfeggio 36-40, F 10 Responses Sep 10

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    I know what loss feels like, I know what it feels like to think love was wasted and swim in a sea of regrets and what if's, thinking what we could have done differently, maybe we...
    Shanti00 Shanti00 41-45, F 1 Response Sep 10

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    I literally am reading all these stories and my heart aches. I have been in two mental hospitals and been batteling depression for six years. I have cutt every place there is skin...
    Gonzales96 Gonzales96 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 17

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    These past four months have been one hell of a roller coaster ride without you by my side. Your gone for a little while but not forever and your worth every minute of the wait But...
    MrsCarter04 MrsCarter04 26-30, F Sep 17

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     It's really humbling. Sometimes the stars look like moons, and moons look like stars and love is silent and it's trapped in the paradox that you can't apply what you can't...
    DayDreamer81 DayDreamer81 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    Call me crazy, but my dog has never called me mean names, stabbed me in the back or let me down...He has only provided love and joy to my life. Why wouldn't I love him more than...
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    Things were going so well for me I nearly thought I had beaten depression for good. Not so. What is it about depression that takes you from being the happiest person alive to...
    AnomalousEarthling AnomalousEarthling 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 11

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    I surprised my da. He taught me basic skills in dismantling book bindings, washing pages and sewing the signatures back together but he always sent them out for binding. As an...
    Andwen Andwen 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 11

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    But older people tend not to listen because they claim to have been there. But have you actually live my personal life? No. You do not experience my emotions as I do not do you see...
    ChanelLove12 ChanelLove12 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 21

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    I'm a senior In High school, I have been going through a lot of stress lately . I just don't know what to do anymore.... My life right now is making me become depressed lately. I'm...
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    You said I looked beautiful at the oddest of times. It made me happy that you could look at me and see the same beauty I saw in you. We barely made eye contact as those words...
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    My mom used to punish me all of the time by stripping me naked in public. One time we went to my sisters school to picker her up. I was about seven and she was in junior high. We...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response a week ago

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    My mom used to punish me all of the time by stripping me naked in public. One time we went to my sisters school to picker her up. I was about seven and she was in junior high. We...
    deleted deleted 26-30 a week ago

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    I wrote this before I did almost an entire year probation, then failed a UA, and lost a 3000 dollar bond, plus ended up doing the 45 days anyway.. Today I plead guilty to...
    dispose6 dispose6 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 5

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