I Have Been To Hell And Back More Than Once

For those have have fought, fought again, and are still fighting. 280 People

    Help Me! I Obsess Over Everything!

    Question: I have been living with panic attacks and anxiety for about 16 years. It started after I stopped using drugs. I constantly thought I was going to or was in the act of having a heart attack. Then, it started me checking windows and doors repeatedly every night, and the...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Sep 9, 2013

    The Pain

    I have been to hell and back far too many times. There has been so many moments where i have thought ''i just can't take anymore'' and then something else happens, weighing me down ... laying heavy on my shoulders. Sometimes too many little things build up ... which makes up a...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout
    26-30, F
    Jul 10, 2013

    My Story

    My story doesn't begin in a magical place, nor does it end with a 'happily ever after'. There where no super hero's to save the day, only evil that haunts each chapter. My story will make you cry before it makes you laugh, and.. I'm not even sure I have what it takes to speak...
    BreathingInBlades BreathingInBlades
    18-21, F
    Aug 7, 2011

    My Pain, Story

    I have always had this awful feeling, one that I couldn't point to, one that made me think that I was crazy, I was imagining it, I've had a rough life, I won't go into details, but I have a very high pain tolerance because of my misfortune, I have lived with the feeling for 19...
    Just1a1nameless1soul Just1a1nameless1soul
    18-21
    Dec 2, 2012

    What is a Panic AttackA very important question

    if you're struggling with this condition. You should really understanding exactly what's going on behind the scenes.So what is a PA?A sudden feeling of acute and disabling anxiety.`Ok, that's the textbook definition, but i don't think that clears things up too much so let's go l...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Feb 23, 2014

    I have met the predatory purveyors With their

    fine aged cheese of wisdom Set before me That which is free Has now been given tooth to devour my labor, my assets and the whole of me I a lighthouse call out these names of rocks and cliffs in dark and light Beware these states These purveyors at your door Selling wares of...
    holywren holywren
    56-60, F
    1 Response Mar 4

    Lullaby Of The Dead

    Ring around the Rosie Pocket full if posies Ashes, Ashes We all fall down.... Ring around the Rosie What do you suppose we Can do to fight the darkness In which we drown? Ring around the Rosie This evil thing it KNOWS me..... Lost ghosts surround me.... I. Can't...
    Anethoth6 Anethoth6
    16-17
    1 Response Oct 21, 2013

    Wish someone had been there with me.

    It's a lonely kind of time.
    katariffik katariffik
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jan 15, 2015

    Having panic attacks?

    Here's some advice from Tyler Durden. 
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Mar 7, 2014

    Hell?

    Hell Hole, AZ...is that what you are talking about?.....Helltown, CA,.yes, nice little ghost town......sometimes feel like I fought the the Hellfighters...haven't had the chance to tour Hell, Michigan ( the place where Hell freezes over)... even eaten in Hell's Kitchen, N.Y...
    PoppaBear53 PoppaBear53
    56-60, M
    1 Response Mar 22, 2012

    I Am A Real Demon

    Hello, I am Azethoth, te demon of chaos, born from hell....if anyone has any questions to ask, feel free....
    Anethoth6 Anethoth6
    16-17
    1 Response Oct 6, 2013

    Does fear cause real diarrhea

    or does it cause the feeling only ? http://livelifetothefullest.live-panic-free.com/2014/03/03/does-fear-cause-real-diarrhea-or-does-it-cause-the-feeling-only-.aspx Hey guys, sorry if this seems spammy, not my intention at all. I used to just paste my experiences in several...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566
    31-35, M
    Mar 4, 2014

    You ask me to stop being myself To say

    that you are right, when you aren't I know who I am, and I will do things my way You will not control me If you get in my way, I will turn against you Leave me to my thoughts, for their are my only true company in this darkness called life But I dare you, to try and help me, it...
    berserkerwolf berserkerwolf
    18-21, M
    Feb 13, 2014

    Back Home And Having An Existential Crisis

    I went abroad for a few years, got my graduate degree, took a job and had a semi-serious relationship. After a few years, I came back home to my country cuz my company wouldn't sponsor visas and also partially because I wanted to because I hated my job. I wanted to try to stay in...
    Ravinman Ravinman
    26-30, M
    Apr 12, 2013

    But Different Now....

    I didn't give up, and now am cruising the road of peace and love.......the happy road of destiny. I believe we are all destined to be happy and at peace....this is God's wish for us, and if we believe and want it-it is ours for the taking....
    peacefulprincess peacefulprincess
    31-35, F
    Aug 11, 2011

    And I'M Going Back Again

    .... Yet again... I must venture to hell by myself.... I refuse help from others on this journey that I must take.... My emotions are growing stronger and are showing more.... I must hide them deeper... So I must being them together again, just to push them away... Hell: it is...
    berserkerwolf berserkerwolf
    18-21, M
    1 Response Aug 23, 2013

    My Story..

    Well I was born in Phila. PA. my parents came from the UK 2 ears before I was born,, My father received a call from the hospital ." Mr Jones, your wife has left. Would you like to come pick up your daughter?" .Well he did, and he and my Gran raised me until I was 5 .He then met...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Jan 6, 2013

    The Demon Of Chaos

    I'm Anethoth, the demon of chaos, I have come back from hell to find my soldiers, if you have any questions feel free....
    Anethoth6 Anethoth6
    16-17
    Oct 17, 2013

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