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I Have Been To Hell And Back More Than Once

For those have have fought, fought again, and are still fighting. 283 People

    Help Me! I Obsess Over Everything!

    Question: I have been living with panic attacks and anxiety for about 16 years. It started after I stopped using drugs. I constantly thought I was going to or was in the act of having a heart attack. Then, it started me checking windows and doors repeatedly every night, and the...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Sep 9, 2013

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    My Story..

    Well I was born in Phila. PA. my parents came from the UK 2 ears before I was born,, My father received a call from the hospital ." Mr Jones, your wife has left. Would you like to come pick up your daughter?" .Well he did, and he and my Gran raised me until I was 5 .He then met...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Jan 6, 2013

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    I Am A Real Demon

    Hello, I am Azethoth, te demon of chaos, born from hell....if anyone has any questions to ask, feel free....
    Anethoth6 Anethoth6 16-17 Oct 6, 2013

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    My Pain, Story

    I have always had this awful feeling, one that I couldn't point to, one that made me think that I was crazy, I was imagining it, I've had a rough life, I won't go into details, but I have a very high pain tolerance because of my misfortune, I have lived with the feeling for 19...
    Just1a1nameless1soul Just1a1nameless1soul 18-21 Dec 2, 2012

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    The Demon Of Chaos

    I'm Anethoth, the demon of chaos, I have come back from hell to find my soldiers, if you have any questions feel free....
    Anethoth6 Anethoth6 16-17 Oct 17, 2013

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    And I'M Going Back Again

    .... Yet again... I must venture to hell by myself.... I refuse help from others on this journey that I must take.... My emotions are growing stronger and are showing more.... I must hide them deeper... So I must being them together again, just to push them away... Hell: it is...
    berserkerwolf berserkerwolf 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 23, 2013

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    Hell?

    Hell Hole, AZ...is that what you are talking about?.....Helltown, CA,.yes, nice little ghost town......sometimes feel like I fought the the Hellfighters...haven't had the chance to tour Hell, Michigan ( the place where Hell freezes over)... even eaten in Hell's Kitchen, N.Y...
    PoppaBear53 PoppaBear53 56-60, M 1 Response Mar 22, 2012

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    The Pain

    I have been to hell and back far too many times. There has been so many moments where i have thought ''i just can't take anymore'' and then something else happens, weighing me down ... laying heavy on my shoulders. Sometimes too many little things build up ... which makes up a...
    deadinsideout deadinsideout 26-30, F Jul 10, 2013

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    But Different Now....

    I didn't give up, and now am cruising the road of peace and love.......the happy road of destiny. I believe we are all destined to be happy and at peace....this is God's wish for us, and if we believe and want it-it is ours for the taking....
    peacefulprincess peacefulprincess 31-35, F Aug 11, 2011

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    Having panic attacks?

    Here's some advice from Tyler Durden. 
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Mar 7, 2014

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    Lullaby Of The Dead

    Ring around the Rosie Pocket full if posies Ashes, Ashes We all fall down.... Ring around the Rosie What do you suppose we Can do to fight the darkness In which we drown? Ring around the Rosie This evil thing it KNOWS me..... Lost ghosts surround me.... I. Can't...
    Anethoth6 Anethoth6 16-17 Oct 21, 2013

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    My Story

    My story doesn't begin in a magical place, nor does it end with a 'happily ever after'. There where no super hero's to save the day, only evil that haunts each chapter. My story will make you cry before it makes you laugh, and.. I'm not even sure I have what it takes to speak...
    BreathingInBlades BreathingInBlades 18-21, F Aug 7, 2011

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    Wish someone had been there with me.

    It's a lonely kind of time.
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F 2 Responses Jan 15

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    You ask me to stop being myself To say

    that you are right, when you aren't I know who I am, and I will do things my way You will not control me If you get in my way, I will turn against you Leave me to my thoughts, for their are my only true company in this darkness called life But I dare you, to try and help me, it...
    berserkerwolf berserkerwolf 18-21, M Feb 13, 2014

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    Does fear cause real diarrhea

    or does it cause the feeling only ? http://livelifetothefullest.live-panic-free.com/2014/03/03/does-fear-cause-real-diarrhea-or-does-it-cause-the-feeling-only-.aspx Hey guys, sorry if this seems spammy, not my intention at all. I used to just paste my experiences in several...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Mar 4, 2014

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    I am a survivor of self harm

    and have not self harmed in more than 20 years now. I now have better outlets for dealing with my guilt and sadness over past events, usually writing and sometimes painting. It does strengthen me to realize that I'm a survivor even though much of the time I don't feel...
    lauren71 lauren71 41-45, F Mar 2, 2014

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    Back Home And Having An Existential Crisis

    I went abroad for a few years, got my graduate degree, took a job and had a semi-serious relationship. After a few years, I came back home to my country cuz my company wouldn't sponsor visas and also partially because I wanted to because I hated my job. I wanted to try to stay in...
    Ravinman Ravinman 22-25, M Apr 12, 2013

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    What is a Panic AttackA very important question

    if you're struggling with this condition. You should really understanding exactly what's going on behind the scenes.So what is a PA?A sudden feeling of acute and disabling anxiety.`Ok, that's the textbook definition, but i don't think that clears things up too much so let's go l...
    Lifeafterpanic566 Lifeafterpanic566 31-35, M Feb 23, 2014

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    Given that I've been really bummed out of late and there's no shortage of drugs available to me (methamphetamine and mdma is very prominent in my groups, opiates benzos etc is easy...
    chinawhite007 chinawhite007 26-30, M 2 Responses May 12

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    So I met this guy when we were 18. I kinda liked him, but I was on the fence about it, and in my snobby 18 year old wisdom, decided he wasn't worth another thought when he ditched...
    Supersyncsteph Supersyncsteph 31-35, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Recently, I have had quite a few life changing events that have happened. Looking back on some things, I probably would have changed some things sooner, but I can’t control the...
    Haywee123 Haywee123 22-25, F May 5

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    Breaking Through Your Loved One’s Denial Watching someone you love struggle with an illness can be heartbreaking. It’s even harder when they yell at you, tell you to leave...
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    I have been to Disney land Paris . We went by car from dover uk via the channel tunnel . The French roads are lovely its just a pity the same cant be said for French drivers . The...
    nakednudist nakednudist 46-50, M 1 Response May 13

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    It all goes back to May of 2012. At the time I was still in the process of disputing my claim for SSI (Supplemental Security Income) and still coping with the worst of my severe...
    WorldCreator WorldCreator 31-35, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Thought he was different? Ok Stop the bus!!!!! Well looks like I have been ghosted by someone I really thought was a decent guy. So does this mean I am just a fool or a bad judge...
    tamarisk1 tamarisk1 41-45, F 5 Responses Apr 24

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    Well, it's been more over a period of 7 years... before I proceed do not judge... I have a set belief about marijuana use, and medical marijuana after some very dear friends, and...
    kerri33 kerri33 31-35, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    over the last 8 months or so, i have been through the mill, have looked into the eyes of shear hatred, peered through the gates of hell, and lost sight of who i am, and my faith in...
    MattyIce36 MattyIce36 36-40, M 2 Responses Apr 24

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    My experience constitutes as a question as well because all though I'm experiencing something new, I have questions along the way. I am girl and a junior in high school, who has a...
    nikki47 nikki47 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 27

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    A lot of times! For the last two years I have been living in Germany. Spas here are nude and mixed when attending a sauna or a steambath. Even poolareas and sauana gardens are...
    niceskip niceskip 46-50, M 10 hrs ago

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    i know it was all my fault.. i left you without telling you a reason but the truth is that you made me feel like i was disturbing you every time we talked even when you start the...
    yasmiine6 yasmiine6 16-17, F Apr 30

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    I have always had a dog. my dogs have been my best friends. They are loyal kind generous affectionate and fun to be around. When I was a teenager my dog would sleep on my pillow...
    weadkeys weadkeys 46-50, M May 13

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    Dear N, I am beyond angry and sad at the hurt and devastation you have caused not only to me and the girls, but dozens of friends and family. I don’t fully understand why you...
    CapricornDad CapricornDad 41-45, M 1 Response May 1

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    I have been an inpatient in a private mental hospital one time. I was in the adolescent unit (children and teens age 12-17). I was admitted at 4 in the morning after I waited for...
    cielphantomhives cielphantomhives 13-15, T 2 Responses Apr 23

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    this is so true.. if people were only as loyal to other people as a dog is, I'd have a lot more friends. I know my dog will never be mad at me, always be happy to see me, never...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses May 5

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    It's been over 5 months since we've spoken, but I still get these episodes, I call them, where it feels like a fresh wound, where I miss you more than ever. It is during these...
    StillBecomingaButterfly StillBecomingaButterfly 36-40, F 4 Responses May 13

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    You can't talk to an acquaintance the way you can a close friend. I only have my boyfriend, and a girl I've known since grade eight. She ****** me off a lot, and she's an idiot...
    dontyouunderstand dontyouunderstand 18-21 2 Responses a week ago

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    I have been busy and don't ever what to experience that feel for long durations again. Busy-ness, importance, and productivity are not synonymous. I know a lot of people take pride...
    Elsahen Elsahen 22-25, F 1 Response May 1

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    I've been separated more than a year. wife acting like she doesn't care anymore. taking me to court for child support and asking for $720a month for one child.!!!!!! I asked her...
    mattjr mattjr 41-45, M 2 Responses May 2

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    So few things are more romantic, sensuous, erotic... Than tongue dancing with the woman I love! Of course, coupled with exploring hands, bodies entwined, or the ultimate... Deep...
    wayward71 wayward71 41-45, M 1 Response Apr 26

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    it changed me it happened in 2000.. i was 20 years old all my life i have been a laughing stock by my family. my parents wouldn't do anything about it only say i am just...
    lonesomedove80 lonesomedove80 31-35, F 3 Responses May 3

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    I have! And am more than willing to again =)
    ShadowSp3K ShadowSp3K 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 24

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