I Have Bi-polar Disorder

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 128 People

    Insane In The Brain

    Bi-polar disorder happened to me 8 years ago. I had lost my job, my home and I was living in my car. I had a nervous breakdown, which my friends medicated me through because God forbid this problem become real. Since the breakdown, I have never been the same. I don't even...
    Gemmicat Gemmicat
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Sep 7, 2010

    I have been depressed

    for fifteen years I did not know why, I had a pretty great life. I have had since 98 many many manic episodes. insomnia. every night. I had NO SELF ESTEEM SINCE 1998. unstable relationships with my family due to my emotional outbursts. I would drink to control my depression...
    CrystalthePistol CrystalthePistol
    36-40, F
    1 Response Dec 13, 2013

    Fed Up With Bipolar

    I don't know where else to go with this so I guesse I'll vent here. I'm completely fed up with having BI POLAR. I've been diagnosed with it for as long as I can remember. It got bad to the point I started cutting....I've not cut for about two years now. I still get urges and...
    Jan 29, 2013

    After 3+ years of cds-ing on & off,

    my peers have analyzed & fine tuned my personality to being a better responsible transgender person. Not that before I was performing in difficult times or any way's! After some difficult experiences with other member's of public, I have talked about certain issues in order how...
    cross2play cross2play
    31-35
    Feb 24, 2015

    So I am in the midst of receiving a promotion,

    and quite frankly I am worried that my disorder will be more noticeable (due to more hours at work). My boss on countless occasions has expressed that he doesn't understand mental illness - which is more or less a product of his generation. Otherwise he is a super nice, loyal...
    haydenbuddy haydenbuddy
    22-25, M
    Jul 14, 2014

    In a Nutshell

    I was diagnosed with bipolar type 2 four years ago.  It has been hell with rapid cycling, the lows being much lower than the manic phases.  I currently take a cocktail prescribed by my doctor that seems to be helping keep me out of complete despair.  But there are...
    elementallotus elementallotus
    26-30
    3 Responses Jul 23, 2009

    Finally Diagnosed At 40

    I've always known, but no one else would listen. I started cutting myself when I was 14. Stratigically placed cuts so no one would ask questions and I'd get no unwanted attention. Most days all I really wanted was to disappear. I can always remember having the feeling that...
    JLBetts JLBetts
    46-50, M
    Feb 28, 2013

    I have recently received a promotion at work -

    nothing noteworthy, just team leader at a fast food place. I am worried that my little condition will become more noticeable due to more hours. Know although my boss would have to be one of the kindest, loyal, and decent human being; yet he has told me that he doesn't...
    haydenbuddy haydenbuddy
    22-25, M
    Jul 18, 2014

    How Many Are Gemini's?

    I was just thinking about bipolar and realized that i am also a gemini and our sign is twins so i thought it made a lot of sense so how many are also gemini's?
    Clarkebar527 Clarkebar527
    18-21, F
    11 Responses Dec 28, 2007

    I guess I didn't realize

    until today that I've had bi polar disorder. for quite some time I've denied it. Trying to prove that I wasn't like my mother. That I was "normal". I HATE being labeled. The thought of anyone diagnosing my mental state aggravates me just as much. I currently attend college...
    mrosa94 mrosa94
    22-25, F
    Jun 16, 2015

    I was just curious if anyone here has been out

    on medication that they don't necessarily like. My precious psychologist put my on Lexapro initially, but then had me start taking Lithium to calm the mania that the Lexapro can cause in Bi Polar patients. But both medications together just make me feel so blah and depressive. I...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Aug 28, 2015

    the ups and downs leave me exhausted

    than I can't sleep manic most of the time
    willdad willdad
    36-40, M
    1 Response Dec 7, 2015

    On Meds and Miss Your Moods?

    i want off meds, i miss my moods too much all of my passion and love for life is gone, i am just dull and sleep a lot when i was depressed i could write or paint such amazing pieces when i was manic i could do anything i wanted, i was strong, fun, amazing it was like this...
    Clarkebar527 Clarkebar527
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jan 13, 2008

    How I Found Out I Was Bipolar

    When I was a kid I used to joke alot that I had bipolar disorder, mainly because my family on my mother's side is a plethora of mental health disorders. My husband had just graduated from college and he got a job close by our families. I was thrilled, because I wanted nothing...
    5mudg3 5mudg3
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Sep 17, 2013

    Mood Swing.

    I love how I can scream at my boyfriend for no reason and then just go to cuddling him. I am so lucky to have him because he tries to understand me and accepts the immediate mood change.
    Chelszyo Chelszyo
    18-21, F
    Jun 8, 2012

    Takes me a lot to be happy

    but I make strides to be constantly. I am perpetually lonely and single.
    Jonnyguitar877 Jonnyguitar877
    26-30, M
    1 Response Feb 18, 2015

    I was recently diagnosed with Bi polar 2

    disorder. I started medication, haven't noticed a real difference yet. I'm having a real hard time coming to terms with it. I've felt this way since high school and have just always told myself I'm fine. the last 8 years in particular have been hell. I've had extreme highs and...
    Aleut84 Aleut84
    31-35, M
    Oct 21, 2015

    I Have Bi-polar Disorder

    i was recently diagnosed with bi-polar disorder.  it scares me, because i still don't really understand it all that well.  in all honesty, i thought i just had problems with depression, but after being diagnosed and reading some on it, it makes a little more sense. ...
    xoiloveyou xoiloveyou
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jun 8, 2008

    Stabilized

    My last psycotic episode was in 1994. I have been stabilized on medication for years now. I still have a lack of coping mechanisms and irregular sleeping patterns but my fiance says she cant even tell I'm bi-polar because I dont act anything like her dad who is bi-polar and is'nt...
    cosmiclove cosmiclove
    41-45, M
    1 Response Aug 3, 2008

    Bipolor Not Multipersonality!

    many ppl have mixed them up.. sometimes i dont blame them because many times in one day my mood will change so sudden and drastically that you would think it was a differnt personality. my poor fieance suffers the worst of it most of the time.. thank god he actually loves how...
    stacias stacias
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 14, 2009

    A Question of Denial

    i was originally diagnosed with adult add. but after seeing an actual psychiatrist, i have instead been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. this is all recent news to me, i was diagnosed in july of this year. i am on effexor and risperdal. i was originally in denial about this, i...
    scooper scooper
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Oct 29, 2008

    It Is Nice To Say

    that i am feeling much better than i have in the past but i wonder if and when insanity will take over again. i feel peace now but i know i have been in strange, piercing, dark, dull places.
    ilyyb25 ilyyb25
    22-25, F
    Jan 8, 2012

    Idk if i do it's never been clinically diagnosed

    and I've seen my share of therapists for trans reasons but sometimes i wonder :/
    lissys lissys
    26-30, T
    Sep 17, 2015

    I wish people would not refer to themselves

    as "I am BiPolar" - you, like myself, are a person who suffers from BP disorder (or any other mental health issue). You never hear a person with cancer say "I am cancer." We are wonderful human beings dealt a bad hand perhaps, but I will not allow BP to define me - and I hope...
    Mermaid1962 Mermaid1962
    51-55, F
    Apr 21, 2014

    I wish people would not refer to themselves

    as "I am BiPolar" - you, like myself, are a person who suffers from BP disorder (or any other mental health issue). You never hear a person with cancer say "I am cancer." We are wonderful human beings dealt a bad hand perhaps, but I will not allow BP to define me - and I hope...
    Mermaid1962 Mermaid1962
    51-55, F
    Apr 21, 2014
    CrystalthePistol CrystalthePistol
    36-40, F
    Dec 13, 2013

    I am as blank as a new tab window on a PC.

    Just a pale white blank page of nothing. That's how I feel right now at 9:58 pm. Do I dare think it should be any different. Have you ever felt like a blob of nothing. No shape or form just nothing. It's the holidays and tomorrow I am getting Christmas cruise tickets for us and...
    bamagrl54 bamagrl54
    31-35, F
    Dec 4, 2013

    Fed Up With Bipolar

    I hate having bi polar. Been dealing with it for as long as I can remember and let me tell you its no walk in the park and I'm completly fed up with it. I'm tired of having urges to cut or to hurt my self even though I've not done any of that in over two years. Its still very...
    Jan 29, 2013

    Bipolar

    so i am a freshman in college and have battled depression all my life. it wasnt until i tried to kill myself that i was diagnosed w/ bipolar type two. so i never really understood what my manic stages felt like and i am assuming that i have been feeling them recently. i get...
    frags frags
    16-17, M
    1 Response Jan 1, 2008

    Now

    i have lost everything my daughter my home and control of my life i have been in and out of hospitlies and jail and i am at the point where i want to give up i have been trying to get treatment and always seem to hit walls
    kadabra72 kadabra72
    26-30, M
    1 Response Aug 9, 2012
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