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I Have Bipolar

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    This is unfortunately a true story.

    .. Snap! My eyes open and a blinding fluorescent light stings my eyes. I try to sit up in the dizzy haze I was in, only to realize my arms and legs are strapped to the bed. I thump back down feeling weaker than ever. Straining every frail muscle, I push myself upward once more...
    Dayzdreamer Dayzdreamer 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 17, 2014

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    Two Personalities

    My moods have always been on the extreme side. I always blamed it on my Eating Disorder struggles. I thought that I was supposed to have an Eating Disorder and that was who I was. Well I'm in recovery now from them but my moods were still crazy. I wouldn't sleep, for days but I...
    StarvedAndScarred StarvedAndScarred 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 30, 2012

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    It's Not Fun, Let Me Tell You ;)

    I have personally dealt with my Bipolar/Schizophrenic self for about 15+ years now and sometimes it just gets a little too much to handle. I am almost 20 years old now. I am in my second semester of college, I really want to major in animal science, so I can do veterinary work on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 30, 2012

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    Not sure if I'm bordering on hypomania today.

    Everything is so beautiful. Throwing money around like I'm rich. I want adventures, I could buy new camping stuff and disappear! A ticket to the far east, I really really want a piano. I should buy one right now. Or a new violin, or both! It's been so long, I don't care what it...
    animamia animamia 31-35, F Jun 25

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    . . . But It Doesn'T Have Me.

    Without going into great detail about medications, therapy, breakdowns, mania, black depression, periods of psychosis and so forth, I feel like I've got this. It's not to say everything is perfect, but I do - I've got this. Well, not always, but enough to see how, despite the...
    SophieLee SophieLee 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 7, 2013

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    I say I have Bipolar,

    not I am Bipolar because I am not my illness, and I may not be able to control it all the time, but I will never give up on my recovery not only for me, but for the people I love.
    CarelessCassie CarelessCassie 18-21, F a week ago

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    And the Diagnosis Is....

    So, I am actually diagnosed as type II bipolar/rapid cycling and also bpd.  I have been going rounds with myself over it for years. It was probably about 8 years ago that they finally got my diagnosis right. I was formerly diagnosed with clinical depression and put on...
    kiragirl79 kiragirl79 36-40, F 3 Responses Sep 10, 2008

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    I feel so much anger today.

    It's been building. Like just suddenly my medicine stopped working. I somehow lost 40 dollars out of my wallet. Makes me wonder if my mind is playing tricks on me again. That was a lot to lose. Especially since I have two doctors appointments today. I cried and cried this...
    saviscool saviscool 26-30, F Jun 25, 2014

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    I don't know if I'm here

    or there. I scream at people after I tell them I love them. I feel like I'm spreading my disease to the people around me. They keep trying to push around it, but they can't. I'm so busy trying to push around it myself, I worry I leave other people stuck in it.
    RexxTheDinosawr RexxTheDinosawr 18-21, F Sep 24, 2014

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    I have bipolar, but life is amazing,

    somedays I dont feel like getting out of bed and im sad,but I keep moving forward not for myself but my family because they love me bipolar and all.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 23

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    Still Working On It...

    I was diagnosed with bipolar II with rapid cycling when I was 19 and I am now 21. It has been difficult to manage in college. I have been through several different combinations of drugs and so far nothing has been very effective. I hope that some day I can gain control of my...
    greenwaffle greenwaffle 22-25, F 1 Response May 24, 2012

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    What Can You Do?

    BiPolar disorder. You know the feeling. It's like anything of whatever, a person says or does, can trigger your mood. It doesn't matter how little it is, or how unimportant it can be. Something emotionally and mentally triggers you to get mad, sad, depressed, or anything negative...
    lovetorule lovetorule 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2013

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    Bipolar And Anger

    This is the worst symptom or one of the worst symptoms of my BPD.I get so mad ,that i can not control myself.I get beyond angry,more like RAGE,and i will distroy anyone or anything that gets in my way,even if i end up losing someone or going to jail.I have OCD also,and i hold on...
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 20, 2012

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    I think that I might have cyclothymia (mild

    bipolar) but I'm not sure and I can't talk to my doctor as my mom always goes with me
    WantingToFly13 WantingToFly13 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 1

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    I hate this thing. Just

    as I think I've figured myself out, my mood changes and every aspect of life that goes along with that. I look at other people and wonder how can you just be the same all the time? I wonder what that feels like, to not have your motivation, energy, goals, passions and brain...
    animamia animamia 31-35, F Dec 5, 2014

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    I have Bipolar. Medication is needed just to

    maintain the title 'normal'. Average teenager? Try, average Bipolar teen. If I accidentally mix a dosage of my medication I will go high. High off bipolar. For me it's more of a blackout when I'm high off bipolar. I don't know what I'm doing, I will say things that were never...
    morganmavina morganmavina 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 23, 2014

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    I was diagnosed five years ago.

    Only last year (2013) have I found medication that is suitable to treat my mood swings and hallucinations without giving me terrible side effects. Side effects for me, especially cognitive impairment, has been the bane of the diagnosis. Depressions are worse than the manias...
    neuralwarelk neuralwarelk 22-25, F Feb 2, 2014

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    New doctor, new diagnosis,

    new medication. This time Trileptal 900 mg.
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 41-45, F 1 Response Oct 21, 2014

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    I Have Schizoaffective Disorder, Which Is A Combination Of Both Schizophrenia Symptoms And Bipolar Symptoms

    Schizoaffective disorder, is better than being Schizophrenic, but worse than being just bipolar, it is in between, a combination of both. I used to be a pure schizophrenic, but by the grace of God when my darkness turned to light, my diagnosis changed from Schizophrenia to...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 5 Responses Nov 21, 2013

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    I've been dealing with this

    for over 10 years now, most of this time I have been in a dark hole. It went as far as me losing all hope and even forgetting who I am, who I used to be before my depression. Recently I have been able to see some light. It's not easy, and I have bad days but I have after 10...
    lily449 lily449 22-25, F Mar 6

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    Bipolar Disorder Is Not To Be Taken Lightly....

    Its amazing how BP hasn't been addressed more often in the public. Undiagnosed BP can ruin lives ... other than your own. The last 10 years of my life read like the DSM diagnosis for BPD. I have always felt "possessed" or out of control so having a psychiatrist diagnose me with...
    TheHorror101 TheHorror101 26-30 Aug 23, 2012

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    I want to blame everything that's wrong in my

    life on having bipolar disorder. But I am not and I won't.
    untamablekitty untamablekitty 26-30, F Aug 29, 2014

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    i believe i have had this

    since i was born.I'm in a very depressed cycle.Nothing is helping.I feel numb,empty ,i'm losing it again.I must pull myself together.I have to visit my mother ,who doesn't have very long to live.
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 36-40, F 4 Responses Jun 24

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    i been having bipolar

    since i was 14 im 23 now and i been in and out of hospitals more than 6 times. i recently been diagnosed with schizophrenia as well. i really want to die. i just came out of a really really bad relationship with my ex fiance n he hurt me bad.. i honestly want to kill him like...
    starfire0 starfire0 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 31, 2014

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    This Is My Autumn

    Through the window I gaze, the sunlight shifts along with the haze, elongated sunlight dims the view, promises of tomorrow never come true. The angry wind nudges the golden leaves, branches twitch and tumble down with the breeze, swirling up cyclones of autumn's dying...
    alwaysfightingmyemotions alwaysfightingmyemotions 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 13, 2012

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    I have bipolar and ADD.

    Neither mental illness defines me. I choose not to take medicine because I like to feel whether it's happiness or sadness. I sometimes think I need to get back on my straterra so I can focus in my classes but so far I'm doing good without it. I stay busy a lot and I believe that...
    brineff91 brineff91 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 20, 2014

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    Tired of Feeling Like This

    i have had bipolar for 4 years and i feel so out of control. I got it after the birth of my child and all i do is scream and yell at her and take my frustrations out on her and family members. I am not the same person i was 4 yrs ago and i literally hate it.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 3, 2008

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    Gothicbitch83 Gothicbitch83 18-21, F Nov 12, 2014

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    I Am Not Bipolar, I Have Bipolar

    I want to start by explaining my story title. If you have Diabetes you are not Diabetes, you have Diabetes. Similarly I am not Bipolar, I have Bipolar. My story starts when I was very young, so I have no idea if I was born with Bipolar, or just developed it later. I can remember...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 6 Responses Sep 7, 2012

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    Today I couldn't comprehend how many mood swings

    that I had and they were more than exhausting. I have stopped trying to keep up with them all and let them just happen. My fingers are crossed that this new medication can do something much more promising than the last one that I was taking. :)
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 21, 2014

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    Sometimes I Just Need A Hug.

    Sometimes my poetry is deep, depends on my mood, and the secrets I keep. Sometimes my mood goes away, drawn out by the pen, with the words that I say. Sometimes darkness comes down, an image of doom, turns my smile to a frown. Sometimes my heart seems to cry, tears drip...
    alwaysfightingmyemotions alwaysfightingmyemotions 41-45, M Dec 15, 2012

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    Actually It's My Husband Who Is Bipolar, But He Doesn't Get On the Computer...

    My husband, Dave, and I are big into managing his bipolar.  We've been successful for 4 1/2 years, the whole time we've been married! Dave used to have racing, racing thoughts (15 different directions), he couldn't read or concentrate, he cycled up and down dramatically, he...
    DianneW DianneW 56-60 3 Responses Aug 27, 2008

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    Does anyone else feel

    as if they are judged for their illness? Sometimes I feel as if I have to keep it all a secret... I don't let many people in, especially not about my past or current struggles with bipolar. When I hear it brought up with people many people say that we use our illness as an...
    behindthesegemineyes behindthesegemineyes 18-21, F Jan 1

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    I was clinically diagnosed with it

    but I don't think I'am .. But I don't know how to tell people that.. Either way, my case are not so bad ^^
    mozaq mozaq 16-17, F Jul 15

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    Having bipolar can be a curse

    but I you learn to manage it, it makes you a beautiful person.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 23

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    Hi I Am Catherine

    hi i am catherine. i have bipolar disorder with psychotic features and aggravated mania, which is bipolar1. i havnt had psychotic features or aggravated mania in a year. i am taking meds. they do a wonder. but they havnt fixed my mood swings totally. before my meds i used to draw...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Sep 9, 2008

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    This is the time when my depression got the

    best in me! It's been so long from my last depression! I thought i am all cured until the beginning of this year! I had a huge fight with my bf and received bad news from my family and also losing a chance to be able achieve one of my goals in life! I am a mess! I have...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13 22-25, F Jan 13

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    I don't know why but its a dark day.

    I hope I can watch a hayao miyazaki movie and try to drift away.
    ChangingFaces5 ChangingFaces5 26-30 Oct 17, 2014

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    The Wandering Bipolar

    I started having symptoms of Bipolar when I was about 7, but I wasn't diagnosed with Bipolar until I was 9. I had anger management problems at school and was sent to counseling. After a couple of months my parents began noticing the anger at home too. Then I stopped sleeping...
    bhouston bhouston 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 2, 2010

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    Feelings of sadness..

    .lethargy, no motivation, hopelessness, helplessness, trapped...so sick of the constant roller coaster. When is this period of normalcy between episodes that I have read about? I'm either up or down or up and down. 6 years of searching for the magic cocktail that would dampen the...
    kiragirl79 kiragirl79 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 25, 2014

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    Here are top 10 home remedies

    for Bipolar Disorder. 1. Fish Oil Fish oil rich in Omega 3 fatty acids is one of the few things that can help in the treatment of bipolar disorder. In fact, those suffering from bipolar depression must consume it on daily basis. Fish oil improves the functionality of brain and...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13 22-25, F Jul 3, 2014

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    I am in a low from my bipolar

    and could barely get out of bed. I took one of my kids' Ritalin which I feel horrible about but needed energy to go to work. Has anyone else done this?
    trtlemy trtlemy 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    I was diagnosed with bi-polar disorder.

    It really drives me bananas. I get so paranoid it's not even funny. Without medication I can go days without eating or sleeping and not even notice then turn around and fall asleep and wake up two days later and eat like a hippo. It's crazy.
    hellerpeople hellerpeople 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 1

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    I've known since I was 13 years old

    that I had bipolar disorder. However, it was diagnosed as depression and anxiety for four years. Now, being 17, it took me going through an extreme manic episode that developed itself into psychosis for me to have been properly diagnosed. What brought this to forefront was...
    spiralaxy spiralaxy 18-21, F Mar 18

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    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449 22-25, F Mar 27

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