I Have Bipolar

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 322 People

    Bipolar Disorder Is Not To Be Taken Lightly....

    Its amazing how BP hasn't been addressed more often in the public. Undiagnosed BP can ruin lives ... other than your own. The last 10 years of my life read like the DSM diagnosis for BPD. I have always felt "possessed" or out of control so having a psychiatrist diagnose me with...
    TheHorror101 TheHorror101
    Aug 23, 2012

    Still Working On It...

    I was diagnosed with bipolar II with rapid cycling when I was 19 and I am now 21. It has been difficult to manage in college. I have been through several different combinations of drugs and so far nothing has been very effective. I hope that some day I can gain control of my...
    greenwaffle greenwaffle
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 24, 2012

    I Am Not Bipolar, I Have Bipolar

    I want to start by explaining my story title. If you have Diabetes you are not Diabetes, you have Diabetes. Similarly I am not Bipolar, I have Bipolar. My story starts when I was very young, so I have no idea if I was born with Bipolar, or just developed it later. I can remember...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom
    31-35, M
    6 Responses Sep 7, 2012

    Stop assuming that we're all the same.

    Yes we might share the same diagnosis which means we might experience similar sympoms but I am me not a mental illness.
    Ennah Ennah
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 9, 2015

    Here are top 10 home remedies

    for Bipolar Disorder. 1. Fish Oil Fish oil rich in Omega 3 fatty acids is one of the few things that can help in the treatment of bipolar disorder. In fact, those suffering from bipolar depression must consume it on daily basis. Fish oil improves the functionality of brain and...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13
    26-30, F
    Jul 3, 2014

    It's Not Fun, Let Me Tell You ;)

    I have personally dealt with my Bipolar/Schizophrenic self for about 15+ years now and sometimes it just gets a little too much to handle. I am almost 20 years old now. I am in my second semester of college, I really want to major in animal science, so I can do veterinary work on...
    deleted deleted
    Mar 30, 2012

    Does anyone else feel

    as if they are judged for their illness? Sometimes I feel as if I have to keep it all a secret... I don't let many people in, especially not about my past or current struggles with bipolar. When I hear it brought up with people many people say that we use our illness as an...
    behindthesegemineyes behindthesegemineyes
    22-25, F
    Jan 1, 2015

    I went manic when I was 18

    and then was diagnosed with Bipolar 1. Was put on numerous medications. Lost all energy, gained over 50 pounds and have been trying to get my **** together ever since. I'm now 24 and am in a constant struggle with my mind to try and pull myself out of depression. I don't know if...
    Mellomaniac Mellomaniac
    26-30, F
    Aug 15, 2015

    I have bipolar and ADD.

    Neither mental illness defines me. I choose not to take medicine because I like to feel whether it's happiness or sadness. I sometimes think I need to get back on my straterra so I can focus in my classes but so far I'm doing good without it. I stay busy a lot and I believe that...
    brineff91 brineff91
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Jan 20, 2014

    What Can You Do?

    BiPolar disorder. You know the feeling. It's like anything of whatever, a person says or does, can trigger your mood. It doesn't matter how little it is, or how unimportant it can be. Something emotionally and mentally triggers you to get mad, sad, depressed, or anything negative...
    lovetorule lovetorule
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 13, 2013

    I was clinically diagnosed with it

    but I don't think I'am .. But I don't know how to tell people that.. Either way, my case are not so bad ^^
    mozaq mozaq
    18-21, F
    Jul 15, 2015

    I have bipolar 1 and I'm going through withdraw

    b/c I'm getting off adderall. It physically hurts some times when you're going through depression. I feel guilty as I know I should count my blessings and all, but the pain won't go away. I know drugs were never the real answer, but sometimes I feel so desperate to make the pain...
    Dayzdreamer Dayzdreamer
    31-35, F
    1 Response Aug 6, 2014
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13
    26-30, F
    Jul 1, 2015

    I was diagnosed with bi-polar disorder.

    It really drives me bananas. I get so paranoid it's not even funny. Without medication I can go days without eating or sleeping and not even notice then turn around and fall asleep and wake up two days later and eat like a hippo. It's crazy.
    hellerpeople hellerpeople
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 23, 2015

    I've known since I was 13 years old

    that I had bipolar disorder. However, it was diagnosed as depression and anxiety for four years. Now, being 17, it took me going through an extreme manic episode that developed itself into psychosis for me to have been properly diagnosed. What brought this to forefront was...
    spiralaxy spiralaxy
    18-21, F
    Mar 18, 2015

    This is the time when my depression got the

    best in me! It's been so long from my last depression! I thought i am all cured until the beginning of this year! I had a huge fight with my bf and received bad news from my family and also losing a chance to be able achieve one of my goals in life! I am a mess! I have...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13
    26-30, F
    Jan 13, 2015

    Does anyone take latuda

    for their bipolar ? In here
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Sep 28, 2015

    Tired of Feeling Like This

    i have had bipolar for 4 years and i feel so out of control. I got it after the birth of my child and all i do is scream and yell at her and take my frustrations out on her and family members. I am not the same person i was 4 yrs ago and i literally hate it.
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses May 3, 2008

    I was diagnosed five years ago.

    Only last year (2013) have I found medication that is suitable to treat my mood swings and hallucinations without giving me terrible side effects. Side effects for me, especially cognitive impairment, has been the bane of the diagnosis. Depressions are worse than the manias...
    neuralwarelk neuralwarelk
    22-25, F
    Feb 2, 2014
    RexxTheDinosawr RexxTheDinosawr
    22-25, F
    Sep 29, 2014

    Having bipolar can be a curse

    but I you learn to manage it, it makes you a beautiful person.
    deleted deleted
    Jun 23, 2015

    I Have Schizoaffective Disorder, Which Is A Combination Of Both Schizophrenia Symptoms And Bipolar Symptoms

    Schizoaffective disorder, is better than being Schizophrenic, but worse than being just bipolar, it is in between, a combination of both. I used to be a pure schizophrenic, but by the grace of God when my darkness turned to light, my diagnosis changed from Schizophrenia to...
    SealedWithAKisss SealedWithAKisss
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Nov 21, 2013

    I say I have Bipolar,

    not I am Bipolar because I am not my illness, and I may not be able to control it all the time, but I will never give up on my recovery not only for me, but for the people I love.
    CarelessCassie CarelessCassie
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 20, 2015
    Gothicbitch83 Gothicbitch83
    22-25, F
    Nov 12, 2014

    I think that I might have cyclothymia (mild

    bipolar) but I'm not sure and I can't talk to my doctor as my mom always goes with me
    WantingToFly13 WantingToFly13
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jul 1, 2015

    Does anyone disclose to their work place about

    having bipolar? I'm torn on that since it has never effected my work or school before but it is technically considered a disability since it's a serious and persistent mental illness. Just wondering what other thoughts are on this.
    alice8392 alice8392
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 12, 2015

    The Wandering Bipolar

    I started having symptoms of Bipolar when I was about 7, but I wasn't diagnosed with Bipolar until I was 9. I had anger management problems at school and was sent to counseling. After a couple of months my parents began noticing the anger at home too. Then I stopped sleeping...
    bhouston bhouston
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Mar 2, 2010

    I am in a low from my bipolar

    and could barely get out of bed. I took one of my kids' Ritalin which I feel horrible about but needed energy to go to work. Has anyone else done this?
    trtlemy trtlemy
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jul 16, 2015

    Feelings of sadness..

    .lethargy, no motivation, hopelessness, helplessness, trapped...so sick of the constant roller coaster. When is this period of normalcy between episodes that I have read about? I'm either up or down or up and down. 6 years of searching for the magic cocktail that would dampen the...
    kiragirl79 kiragirl79
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jul 25, 2014

    Sometimes I Just Need A Hug.

    Sometimes my poetry is deep, depends on my mood, and the secrets I keep. Sometimes my mood goes away, drawn out by the pen, with the words that I say. Sometimes darkness comes down, an image of doom, turns my smile to a frown. Sometimes my heart seems to cry, tears drip...
    alwaysfightingmyemotions alwaysfightingmyemotions
    41-45, M
    Dec 15, 2012

    This Is My Autumn

    Through the window I gaze, the sunlight shifts along with the haze, elongated sunlight dims the view, promises of tomorrow never come true. The angry wind nudges the golden leaves, branches twitch and tumble down with the breeze, swirling up cyclones of autumn's dying...
    alwaysfightingmyemotions alwaysfightingmyemotions
    41-45, M
    1 Response Dec 13, 2012

    I don't know if I'm here

    or there. I scream at people after I tell them I love them. I feel like I'm spreading my disease to the people around me. They keep trying to push around it, but they can't. I'm so busy trying to push around it myself, I worry I leave other people stuck in it.
    RexxTheDinosawr RexxTheDinosawr
    22-25, F
    Sep 24, 2014

    Sometimes having bipolar is tough you try to

    not blow up on people but for me it's hard when they say oh do you take meds for your bipolar or are your meds working? And it'll be complete strangers saying that **** too . I'd just like to meet others with bipolar who feel like their bipolar is hard .
    deleted deleted
    Sep 29, 2015

    I want to blame everything that's wrong in my

    life on having bipolar disorder. But I am not and I won't.
    untamablekitty untamablekitty
    31-35, F
    Aug 29, 2014

    Not sure if I'm bordering on hypomania today.

    Everything is so beautiful. Throwing money around like I'm rich. I want adventures, I could buy new camping stuff and disappear! A ticket to the far east, I really really want a piano. I should buy one right now. Or a new violin, or both! It's been so long, I don't care what it...
    animamia animamia
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jun 25, 2015

    . . . But It Doesn'T Have Me.

    Without going into great detail about medications, therapy, breakdowns, mania, black depression, periods of psychosis and so forth, I feel like I've got this. It's not to say everything is perfect, but I do - I've got this. Well, not always, but enough to see how, despite the...
    SophieLee SophieLee
    36-40, F
    1 Response Oct 7, 2013

    It's been 1 year since Robin Williams committed

    suicide. Robin Williams probably was bipolar. I am bipolar. Robin Williams suicide scares me. If Robin Williams did it anyone could so I thought. Of course he had his demons and nobody but he really understood what he was going through. The only time I ever thought of suicide...
    Golondrinas Golondrinas
    56-60, M
    1 Response Aug 11, 2015

    I have bipolar, but life is amazing,

    somedays I dont feel like getting out of bed and im sad,but I keep moving forward not for myself but my family because they love me bipolar and all.
    deleted deleted
    Apr 23, 2015

    New doctor, new diagnosis,

    new medication. This time Trileptal 900 mg.
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce
    41-45, F
    1 Response Oct 21, 2014

    Two Personalities

    My moods have always been on the extreme side. I always blamed it on my Eating Disorder struggles. I thought that I was supposed to have an Eating Disorder and that was who I was. Well I'm in recovery now from them but my moods were still crazy. I wouldn't sleep, for days but I...
    StarvedAndScarred StarvedAndScarred
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 30, 2012

    This is unfortunately a true story.

    .. Snap! My eyes open and a blinding fluorescent light stings my eyes. I try to sit up in the dizzy haze I was in, only to realize my arms and legs are strapped to the bed. I thump back down feeling weaker than ever. Straining every frail muscle, I push myself upward once more...
    Dayzdreamer Dayzdreamer
    31-35, F
    1 Response Oct 17, 2014

    I've been dealing with this

    for over 10 years now, most of this time I have been in a dark hole. It went as far as me losing all hope and even forgetting who I am, who I used to be before my depression. Recently I have been able to see some light. It's not easy, and I have bad days but I have after 10...
    lily449 lily449
    22-25, F
    Mar 6, 2015

    And the Diagnosis Is....

    So, I am actually diagnosed as type II bipolar/rapid cycling and also bpd.  I have been going rounds with myself over it for years. It was probably about 8 years ago that they finally got my diagnosis right. I was formerly diagnosed with clinical depression and put on...
    kiragirl79 kiragirl79
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Sep 10, 2008

    I hate this thing. Just

    as I think I've figured myself out, my mood changes and every aspect of life that goes along with that. I look at other people and wonder how can you just be the same all the time? I wonder what that feels like, to not have your motivation, energy, goals, passions and brain...
    animamia animamia
    36-40, F
    Dec 5, 2014

    These last couple of days have been the worst

    of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but I mean I'm 21.. I didn't seriously think of it. My sister yelled at me and called me a bunch of things for worrying enough to even go to the doc...
    lily449 lily449
    22-25, F
    Mar 27, 2015
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