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I Have Bipolar

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    Bipolar Disorder Is Not To Be Taken Lightly....

    Its amazing how BP hasn't been addressed more often in the public. Undiagnosed BP can ruin lives ... other than your own. The last 10 years of my life read like the DSM diagnosis for BPD. I have always felt "possessed" or out of control so having a psychiatrist diagnose me with...
    TheHorror101 TheHorror101 26-30 Aug 23, 2012

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    Feelings of sadness..

    .lethargy, no motivation, hopelessness, helplessness, trapped...so sick of the constant roller coaster. When is this period of normalcy between episodes that I have read about? I'm either up or down or up and down. 6 years of searching for the magic cocktail that would dampen the...
    kiragirl79 kiragirl79 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 25

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    I'M I'M Out Of It

    Been suffering long spans of time being manic, I get angery easly; lots of fist size hole in my bedroom. I spend large amounts of money; even though I put alot of thought into it. Then I start to drink and things go down hill from there.
    GunPowder89 GunPowder89 22-25, M Feb 26, 2013

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    Bipolar And Anger

    This is the worst symptom or one of the worst symptoms of my BPD.I get so mad ,that i can not control myself.I get beyond angry,more like RAGE,and i will distroy anyone or anything that gets in my way,even if i end up losing someone or going to jail.I have OCD also,and i hold on...
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 36-40, F 2 Responses Nov 20, 2012

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    Today I couldn't comprehend how many mood swings

    that I had and they were more than exhausting. I have stopped trying to keep up with them all and let them just happen. My fingers are crossed that this new medication can do something much more promising than the last one that I was taking. :)
    hitthelightsnow hitthelightsnow 22-25, F 1 Response May 21

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    Two Personalities

    My moods have always been on the extreme side. I always blamed it on my Eating Disorder struggles. I thought that I was supposed to have an Eating Disorder and that was who I was. Well I'm in recovery now from them but my moods were still crazy. I wouldn't sleep, for days but I...
    StarvedAndScarred StarvedAndScarred 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 30, 2012

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    Learning

    I was 26 years old, when I was diagnosed being bipolar.  I had experienced my first episode when I lost my fiance over in Afgahnistan.  I have always dealt with depression.  But I felt like my whole world fell apart.  I'm now 32 years old, and still learning about myself.  I...
    UNCluv UNCluv 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2011

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    Yes

    I am 23 years old, and I am struggling with Type II bipolar Disorder. I have been dealing with this since I was about 16 now. I have been on a bunch of different kinds of medication, and I have finally found the right medication that seems to be working well for me *At least for...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 25, 2012

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    I Have Been Diagnosed With Type Ii Bipolar

    In the last couple of weeks I was diagnosed with type II bipolar, my friends actually forced me to go to the doctors. I now find myself unsure about what the future will hold for me, will I be the same person I was before? How will the meds I'm on affect my life? I guess that I'm...
    chainerd chainerd 22-25, M Oct 20, 2009

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    i been having bipolar

    since i was 14 im 23 now and i been in and out of hospitals more than 6 times. i recently been diagnosed with schizophrenia as well. i really want to die. i just came out of a really really bad relationship with my ex fiance n he hurt me bad.. i honestly want to kill him like...
    starfire0 starfire0 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    Still Working On It...

    I was diagnosed with bipolar II with rapid cycling when I was 19 and I am now 21. It has been difficult to manage in college. I have been through several different combinations of drugs and so far nothing has been very effective. I hope that some day I can gain control of my...
    greenwaffle greenwaffle 22-25, F 1 Response May 24, 2012

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    Special!

    I was diagnose with Bipolar Disorder when i was 21,so 10 years of lithium,tablets,highs and lows,i know them all. My Bipolar used to be my worst enemy,in the beginnig i didn't understand my illness,after a search,and a few books,i started to realize what it was. I learned how...
    AnaLopes AnaLopes 31-35, F 3 Responses Aug 3, 2009

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    I want to blame everything that's wrong in my

    life on having bipolar disorder. But I am not and I won't.
    piprimate piprimate 26-30, F Aug 29

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    I Was Diagnosed At 16

    And now I am 24. I have type II. I take lamictal 100 in am and 125 in pm, lexapro 5 in am and seroquel 200 in pm. And it works really good. But I still hate seroquel in any amount I just have to take it. If I don't take the seroquel I also don't take the lexapro so I don't get...
    SummerWind18 SummerWind18 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 19, 2009

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    2 Days Of Sad Moods

    hi,im nettie,i have bipolar disorder.every now and then i suffer from racing thoughts,cant get going,and anger. i love to read,keep my journals,plant flowers,and more,but when i get down it seems i cant get anything done,im very easy on myself when im depressed,i have a great...
    nttpowell nttpowell 56-60, F 1 Response Jun 8, 2012

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    I Have Bipolar

    I HAVE BIPOLAR AND ITS HARD TO DEAL WITH IT I PUT MY FAMILY THOUGH SO MUCH SOMETIMES I FORGET TO TAKE MY MEDICINE AND I GO OFF ON THE FIRST PERSON THAT SAYS ANYTHING TO ME DON'T MEAN TO BUT AFTER EVERYTHING ITS JUST LIKE IT'S TAKING OVER ME I HIT MYSELF ALL THE TIME JUST BECAUSE...
    lovestexas lovestexas 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 20, 2011

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    Sometimes I Just Need A Hug.

    Sometimes my poetry is deep, depends on my mood, and the secrets I keep. Sometimes my mood goes away, drawn out by the pen, with the words that I say. Sometimes darkness comes down, an image of doom, turns my smile to a frown. Sometimes my heart seems to cry, tears drip...
    alwaysfightingmyemotions alwaysfightingmyemotions 41-45, M Dec 15, 2012

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    I Am Not Bipolar, I Have Bipolar

    I want to start by explaining my story title. If you have Diabetes you are not Diabetes, you have Diabetes. Similarly I am not Bipolar, I have Bipolar. My story starts when I was very young, so I have no idea if I was born with Bipolar, or just developed it later. I can remember...
    ManiacalTom ManiacalTom 31-35, M 4 Responses Sep 7, 2012

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    I was diagnosed five years ago.

    Only last year (2013) have I found medication that is suitable to treat my mood swings and hallucinations without giving me terrible side effects. Side effects for me, especially cognitive impairment, has been the bane of the diagnosis. Depressions are worse than the manias...
    neuralwarelk neuralwarelk 18-21, F Feb 2

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    I have Bipolar. Medication is needed just to

    maintain the title 'normal'. Average teenager? Try, average Bipolar teen. If I accidentally mix a dosage of my medication I will go high. High off bipolar. For me it's more of a blackout when I'm high off bipolar. I don't know what I'm doing, I will say things that were never...
    morganmavina morganmavina 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    Hi I Am Catherine

    hi i am catherine. i have bipolar disorder with psychotic features and aggravated mania, which is bipolar1. i havnt had psychotic features or aggravated mania in a year. i am taking meds. they do a wonder. but they havnt fixed my mood swings totally. before my meds i used to draw...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Sep 9, 2008

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    And the Diagnosis Is....

    So, I am actually diagnosed as type II bipolar/rapid cycling and also bpd.  I have been going rounds with myself over it for years. It was probably about 8 years ago that they finally got my diagnosis right. I was formerly diagnosed with clinical depression and put on...
    kiragirl79 kiragirl79 31-35, F 3 Responses Sep 10, 2008

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    I was diagnosed as an adult.

    I was going through some rough times with my husband..,so I started therapy. My psychologist diagnosed me and from there I went to the psychiatrist to be prescribed my meds. Lamictal has been a wonderful mood stabilizer. I'm also on Effexor, Xanax and adderall.
    kschulz73 kschulz73 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 18

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    I Have Schizoaffective Disorder, Which Is A Combination Of Both Schizophrenia Symptoms And Bipolar Symptoms

    Schizoaffective disorder, is better than being Schizophrenic, but worse than being just bipolar, it is in between, a combination of both. I used to be a pure schizophrenic, but by the grace of God when my darkness turned to light, my diagnosis changed from Schizophrenia to...
    Jesusfoundme Jesusfoundme 31-35, F 4 Responses Nov 21, 2013

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    Here are top 10 home remedies

    for Bipolar Disorder. 1. Fish Oil Fish oil rich in Omega 3 fatty acids is one of the few things that can help in the treatment of bipolar disorder. In fact, those suffering from bipolar depression must consume it on daily basis. Fish oil improves the functionality of brain and...
    LovelyLilly13 LovelyLilly13 22-25, F Jul 3

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    Y Does It Hurt So Bad

    HOW CAN U LOVE SOME ONE SO MUCH NAD THEY B THE EXACT PERSON THAT HURTS U EVERY SINGLE DAY I KNOW DEEP DOWN U LOVE ME AND I LOVE U AND WE BELONG TOGETHER BUT U WONT LET ME IN THE WALL U HAVE UP IS SO THICK IT IS KILLING ME TO KNOW I WILL NEVER HAVE MY PERFICT FAMILY BACK CAUSE OF...
    destinystarr destinystarr 26-30, F May 19, 2012

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    Manic Breathes And Depression Is The Heart-beat

    I have Bipolar, it is weird some hours i am extremely happy and some days i am extremely depressed. Either way i try and stay on my manic side mostly because i can handle more pain and humiliation in this life
    Ghostette Ghostette 16-17, F Nov 1, 2010

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    The Wandering Bipolar

    I started having symptoms of Bipolar when I was about 7, but I wasn't diagnosed with Bipolar until I was 9. I had anger management problems at school and was sent to counseling. After a couple of months my parents began noticing the anger at home too. Then I stopped sleeping...
    bhouston bhouston 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 2, 2010

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    For all of you fighting this,

    I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression and bipolar http://bipolar2medstudent.blogspot.com/
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F Sep 12

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    Tired of Feeling Like This

    i have had bipolar for 4 years and i feel so out of control. I got it after the birth of my child and all i do is scream and yell at her and take my frustrations out on her and family members. I am not the same person i was 4 yrs ago and i literally hate it.
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses May 3, 2008

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    This Is My Autumn

    Through the window I gaze, the sunlight shifts along with the haze, elongated sunlight dims the view, promises of tomorrow never come true. The angry wind nudges the golden leaves, branches twitch and tumble down with the breeze, swirling up cyclones of autumn's dying...
    alwaysfightingmyemotions alwaysfightingmyemotions 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 13, 2012

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    It's Not Fun, Let Me Tell You ;)

    I have personally dealt with my Bipolar/Schizophrenic self for about 15+ years now and sometimes it just gets a little too much to handle. I am almost 20 years old now. I am in my second semester of college, I really want to major in animal science, so I can do veterinary work on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Mar 30, 2012

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    I feel so much anger today.

    It's been building. Like just suddenly my medicine stopped working. I somehow lost 40 dollars out of my wallet. Makes me wonder if my mind is playing tricks on me again. That was a lot to lose. Especially since I have two doctors appointments today. I cried and cried this...
    saviscool saviscool 22-25, F Jun 25

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    What Can You Do?

    BiPolar disorder. You know the feeling. It's like anything of whatever, a person says or does, can trigger your mood. It doesn't matter how little it is, or how unimportant it can be. Something emotionally and mentally triggers you to get mad, sad, depressed, or anything negative...
    lovetorule lovetorule 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 13, 2013

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    I have bipolar 1 and I'm going through withdraw

    b/c I'm getting off adderall. It physically hurts some times when you're going through depression. I feel guilty as I know I should count my blessings and all, but the pain won't go away. I know drugs were never the real answer, but sometimes I feel so desperate to make the pain...
    Dayzdreamer Dayzdreamer 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 6

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    Actually It's My Husband Who Is Bipolar, But He Doesn't Get On the Computer...

    My husband, Dave, and I are big into managing his bipolar.  We've been successful for 4 1/2 years, the whole time we've been married! Dave used to have racing, racing thoughts (15 different directions), he couldn't read or concentrate, he cycled up and down dramatically, he...
    DianneW DianneW 56-60 3 Responses Aug 27, 2008

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    I have bipolar and ADD.

    Neither mental illness defines me. I choose not to take medicine because I like to feel whether it's happiness or sadness. I sometimes think I need to get back on my straterra so I can focus in my classes but so far I'm doing good without it. I stay busy a lot and I believe that...
    brineff91 brineff91 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 20

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    . . . But It Doesn'T Have Me.

    Without going into great detail about medications, therapy, breakdowns, mania, black depression, periods of psychosis and so forth, I feel like I've got this. It's not to say everything is perfect, but I do - I've got this. Well, not always, but enough to see how, despite the...
    SophieLee SophieLee 31-35, F 1 Response Oct 7, 2013

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    Tasmanian

    I am from Tasmania and was diagnosed with Bipolar at the age of 26. I am 50 now and still having problems. Why can't I be normal?
    bikeybabe bikeybabe 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 31, 2012

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    Related Experiences

    My mood tends to change from feeling pretty good into pretty much feeling suicidal for no reason. I never thought i could have bipolar, since im just happy during the happy times...
    MarinTheSheep MarinTheSheep 16-17, F 3 days ago

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    For all of you fighting this, I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F Sep 12

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    For all of you fighting this, I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F Sep 11

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    For all of you fighting this, I'm one of you, I write a blog, on how I fight my everyday life.. How I cope with being a full time student and at the same time fighting depression...
    Lily449 Lily449 18-21, F Sep 12

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    i was always sad and angry when i was a kid and thought of suicide has been constantly on my mind. the earliest i can remember i can remember was when i was 9 years old. i don't...
    bhabhablacksheep bhabhablacksheep 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 1

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    You Are 92% Bipolar You have some serious ups and downs, maybe to the point of endangering your own life. Consult a doctor to see if you may truly have bipolar disorder.
    xdarkangelx666 xdarkangelx666 22-25, F Aug 27

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    so this is hard for me to say but I have bipolar disorder type 1 and basically the tiniest thing can make me soo happy and ecstatic and then it only take one small thing to make me...
    Itscaitlin Itscaitlin 13-15, F Sep 6

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    I have Bipolar Type 2 among other wonderful things:) I was misdiagnosed for most of my life. It's a very difficult neurological problem to deal with. I really dislike the stigma...
    xNihilityx xNihilityx 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 13

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    How do you find a happy? What is a happy? People say get a hobby it makes you happy.yes I have this disorder I think but I am self diagnosing myself people think I have bipolar and...
    char3249 char3249 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I was diagnosed with this several months ago and currently am on Plaquenil and Meloxicam for the symptoms. I have pain and swelling in my left knee, elbow, and knuckle and both...
    euphoricvoyage euphoricvoyage 26-30, F 6 hrs ago

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    Hey people, I was diagnosed with Bipolar I disorder this year and here's the back story of all of that -- I knew something's been wrong with me since I was 14. Even before I was...
    starryxo starryxo 22-25 4 Responses Sep 7

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    Well I was diagnosed 2 days ago with bipolar I've been diagnosed with depression for about 6 months. Weirdly the bipolar isn't shocking. My dad is bipolar, but now I feel like I'm...
    Dhess1198 Dhess1198 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I'm not bipolar but my brother is and I'm afraid I might become bipolar also
    Jena1011 Jena1011 18-21, F 5 Responses Aug 30