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I Have Body Dysmorphic Disorder

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    I am doing some research into this this

    disorder in Ireland and would love to speak with sufferers in order to get the best insight. Anyone willing to converse with me?
    LibbyMc LibbyMc 36-40, F 1 Response Mar 14

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    I've always struggled with my weight

    and never being the skinny girl. I used to pretend it didn't bother me, and I was able to deal with it that way. A year go I started dieting and losing weight and thats when I came to find out I have BDD. I've lost nearly 50 pounds, yet I see no difference in the mirror. The...
    katey907 katey907 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    Same horrible feeling,

    different "flaw". I believe this feeling had to do with being made fun of for acne, ginger hair, called "std face"(for pimples i can get around my lips), among other things. Having pretty bad acne in my teens had me get in the habit of focusing on every little flaw, dreading...
    laurenzhiedler laurenzhiedler 22-25, F 2 Responses May 25

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    I have body dysmorphic disorder

    and it's taking over my life.
    SkinnyLovex SkinnyLovex 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 15

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    They put me on medication

    and I went from one extreme to another. I started not caring about anything. Sick of dealing with this I just want to know what its like to feel normal again.
    lifewithBDD lifewithBDD 22-25, F Mar 6

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    I'm Ready to Admit I Have Bdd

    I can't believe it has taken me so long to admit this, but I have to admit it to someone.  I've lived over 40 years with what I believe is BDD.   I can go through great periods where I am fine and then something with set me off and I will start to fall apart...
    mimi28 mimi28 41-45, F 15 Responses Jun 7, 2009

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    I was recently diagnosed

    and was looking to talk to anyone who is dealing with the same thing. Please message me. Thanks
    lifewithBDD lifewithBDD 22-25, F Feb 14

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    BDD Is Ruining Me

    Ive been suffering with BDD for about 4 years now but in the past 2 years its become unbearable. I honestly feel like the ugliest human alive and its ruining me. I think it started when i became very conscious of how short i am (5ft) and its just built from there. Now i honestly...
    Laurymitt Laurymitt 18-21 6 Responses Jun 30, 2013

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    I ACTUALLY LOOKED IN THE MIRROR AND THOUGHT I

    LOOKED GORGEOUS! I'm so happy. Usually I avoid looking in mirrors, but I faced up to my fears yesterday. I had my hair gelled back in a slick bun and I had ordered contacts as I am short-sighted to see but they made my eyes a lighter brown and I looked so exotic. I seriously...
    fluffyunicorn fluffyunicorn 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 13

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    I hate my body. And the crazy part is,

    people tell me I'm hot all the time. I just don't see it. When I look in the mirror, all I see is how fat I look. It makes me really depressed sometimes. I consider becoming anorexic a lot. If I don't eat, then I won't feel discusting. I know it bad not to eat and it will just...
    courtneyjeanette courtneyjeanette 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    I had this really bad

    but I overcame it, it may seem impossible but it is possible! Don't be afraid to speak out about it!
    wheelsxoxo wheelsxoxo 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    :'(

    I feel like a monster who cannot be seen or talk to, or people will judge her...
    marylight098 marylight098 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 25, 2013

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    It feels weird that I've actually gotten to a

    stage where I feel the need to post about this. As I've grown up over the past few years I've become far more aware of how ridiculous many things are - how women are airbrushed to perfection in media, how conventionally attractive people are treated altogether differently from...
    mimimoon mimimoon 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 22, 2013

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    I've known I have bdd

    for a long time but I have never told my doctors, friends, family because I am afraid if I tell them the flaws I obsess over they will start noticing them more and see how ugly I am. I know it is the real reason for my depression but I don't know how it will ever get better...
    Roseandrea Roseandrea 16-17, F 5 Responses Jun 19

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    I've been battling with hating myself

    for a very long time, years! And it's all now become too much, it's ruining my relationship.. So I've decide to finally seek help by talking to people with the same problem as me. It's occurred to me before that I may have BDD but I just thought I was being silly and that's what...
    belle87 belle87 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 23

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    (I Do Not Own Anything)

    Mirror, Mirror by xXxHeatherAnnxXx (from devian art) That girl you see, look at her face. Not an imperfection lies in place. Look into her eyes so bright, Look closer, something isn't right. In her distorted mind, this young girl, Dwells a fear that others see mutations, Enough...
    marylight098 marylight098 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 2, 2013

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    Bdd

    Yesterday, I read the body dysmorphic disorder description and I guess, this is what I had. I'm good now or I may think, I'm better!!!  :)
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F 3 Responses May 11, 2011

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    How Can You Have Bdd and Date?

    Hello, this is my first entry on this site, and I am happy to have found a place where I'm not the only person who feels like this. I have been dealing with BDD since I was 14, or 15. I'm 23 now, and I can honestly say it gets worse with age. I know a lot of ppl say they are...
    remy90 remy90 22-25 24 Responses Jul 6, 2008

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    I Am Dying With It, Yet Cant Live Without It.

    It's both frustrating and confusing to know that the world sees a different person when they look at me than I do. A lot of people don't take me seriously when I tell them about my BDD... They either don't believe me, and assume that I'm just seeking some sort of attention, or...
    OblitusAuri OblitusAuri 18-21, F 23 Responses May 1, 2010

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    I am 26 and I have had bdd

    for 9 years. I hate my face. I cannot look in a mirror or see a picture of myself or I will get very depressed. I have not looked in a regular mirror in at least 7 years. My mirror is covered in hairspray and I have very dark lighting in the room I get ready in. People who look...
    cricht05 cricht05 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 18

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    I think I have Body Dysmorphic Disorder

    but I am not convinced because the mirror tells a different story. This is my reality. Am I hallucinating when I look in the mirror? I am completely convinced I am hideous. Each mirror and photograph tell a different story. My symptoms include constant checking, obsessing...
    jennjane115 jennjane115 36-40, F Dec 10, 2013

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    I dread looking in mirrors.

    I hate what I see. I look hideous. I try to tell myself that I'm beautiful everyday to gain some confidence, but I always go back to feeling ugly. My friends, my family and some strangers would say that I'm beautiful, but I just don't see it. I don't see what they see. Is the...
    msladyt757 msladyt757 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 8

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    I feel worthless because I am a 21-year-old girl

    and my boyfriend told me that girls lose their looks and "go downhill" when they're only 25, and have had this fact validated by several health websites. I have been so depressed about only have 4 more years of my prime, and do not even know if life is worth living. I feel...
    lonewolf24769 lonewolf24769 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 13

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    Facial Hatred

    The vast majority of the time I want to rip my face off. Extreme, yes but I cannot even think about myself without wanting to vomit
    brogues brogues 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 16, 2010

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    Too Ugly For Love

    The ugliness started when i was in junior school, children started bullying and calling me names of how ugly i am, I remeber one time going back to school , a bunch of kids were walking behind me , singing a song about me , making fun of my ugliness, so i start running , i even...
    theladyugly theladyugly 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 15, 2013

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    I used to weigh over 340 pounds

    and I lost all my weight but still see myself as fat and ugly when I look into the mirror.... I excessive excessively because if I don't I feel like I'm getting fat :/
    Drummer8280 Drummer8280 22-25, M 4 Responses May 20

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    New To Bdd

    My name is Kat and I have had BDD my entire life. I'm finally deciding at the age of 21 to get help for this disorder because it has progressively gotten worse and I never even knew it existed. I wasn't diagnosed until now because I never spoke up about my symptoms since i feel...
    katinthehat3 katinthehat3 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 3, 2012

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    Who Is That Girl In The Mirror?

    I was hesitant to write my story because I have had someone recently just flat out tell me I'm making it up. God I wish I was making it all up. I was afraid to write it because I have a huge fear of rejection as I'm sure many of you do suffering from BDD. And if people started...
    xxevilxangelxx xxevilxangelxx 26-30, F 7 Responses Oct 12, 2011

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    Any one else struggling with BDD (Body

    Dysmorphic disorder)? how does it affect you? I don't want to feel so isolated
    CrystallizedxTears CrystallizedxTears 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 2

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    Relationships And Bdd

    I have BDD and my boyfriend of (going on) 2 years knows it's truly real and can take over my day if not my life for weeks on end. I am not sure how he can handle it or how well he really does but he makes a true effort to try to understand where i am coming from and what i see...
    lisra lisra 18-21, F 11 Responses Nov 16, 2010

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    The Monster In The Mirror

    I avoid mirrors at all costs. I can't stand to look at myself. I don't see a person when I look into a mirror, its like some sort of monster, creature. I'm so ugly and gross, I stay in bed so people wont have to look at me. I go out in public and i think the people around me are...
    Didosaurus Didosaurus 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 24, 2011

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    This Is The Worst Disease

    I have been dealing with this for years now, I'm a little ashamed to say but yes I am a man, some man I am, When I was 17 I started to find my flaws because I was curious as to why I was getting such limited attention from women. It was my nose that I was concerned with and its...
    iknowhowyoufeel490 iknowhowyoufeel490 22-25, M 7 Responses May 3, 2012

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    Today my BDD is acting up extremely bad,

    I hate mirrors and I feel completely fat. I hate this constant feeling of sadness hurt, fatness and ugliness. I really wish I didn't have BDD it's the only thing that runs through my head from the moment I wake up to the moment I close my eyes. I don't want to take meds I need...
    TattedPrincess89 TattedPrincess89 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 16

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    I Hate Myself...

    I'm sure my story is similar to many other peoples.I was bullied in school from the age of 8 till I left school, people made fun of my voice and my looks (I was called ugly, minging etc)I don't remember any time I have felt comfortable with how I look. I am engaged and my fiance...
    Callapink Callapink 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 17, 2011

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    Seeing Something No One Around Me Understands

    I am a 16 year old guy, and have struggled with this horrendous BDD for years. When I was a kid, i didnt pay much attention to my looks, but I was teased for being fat, although it didnt bother me. Around middle school I started to worry more and more about my looks. I...
    Lostkid16 Lostkid16 16-17, M 3 Responses Jun 29, 2013

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    All I see when I look in the mirror are my flaws

    and imperfections. I stay inside all day and avoid being seen by anybody because I think I look horrible. I hate it.
    Dereklynn Dereklynn 41-45, M 1 Response Jun 12

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    Hi, I'm obsessed with my skin,

    bdd ruined my life, I became socially isolated therefore depressed. Used to be normal though. Quit law school. I feel miserable. In mind, if my skin is not perfect women will reject me and I'll be alone the rest of my life. I've never met someone in the same situation ( or...
    Isolated86m Isolated86m 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 22

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    It's come back :( Everything was going well

    for some time, but I did the dreaded - I took selfies of myself when out with a friend! On the day I actually quite liked them. Now, I hate the way I look in the pictures so much and I've been crying non stop for hours and hours and having extreme thoughts. How come when I...
    fluffyunicorn fluffyunicorn 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 27

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    Not a lot of people seem to have heard about

    BDD. I've even had a few psychiatrists and therapists who had not heard of it. To quickly explain it before I really talk about how it's affected me, I'll just paste this small part from Wikipedia: "Body Dysmorphic Disorder is a chronic mental illness, wherein the afflicted...
    SailingwithSparrows SailingwithSparrows 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 24

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    Vixen2010 Vixen2010 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 12

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    I've always been a quiet not

    so secure person since my earliest memories I first discovered my body dysmorphic disorder in 9th grade (3 years ago) I just couldn't go to school my body was telling me no but I didn't know why yet after a few weeks of being house bound I saw true life: I hate my face on MTV...
    highheelsandtattoos highheelsandtattoos 16-17, F Feb 19

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    I lost a ton of weight,

    I felt like I was looking good. But I don't have perfect pecs and I think my head is too big. I also always feel like when I eat non healthy food my face gets fatter. I know I sound like a girl, it's hard to say this to people. I know people don't notice the changes I notice...
    tomcunnington tomcunnington 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 10

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    BDD takes over me. Today is a very bad day.

    It's so hard to hide my problem. I hate that every day I can't look in the mirror if I have a huge sweater and pants on, a towel on my head and globbing on the make up. I hate my thin, short hair, I hate my acne face, I hate my big nose, my white skin, my fat arms, my fat...
    lwuisman lwuisman 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 31

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    Body Dysmorphic Disorder - My Story ..

    My name is Claire , I'm 16 years old and I have Body Dysmorphic Disorder, anorexia , social phobia and  anxiety / panick attacks ...i know , its alot.   I am currently in grade 11 . I guesss this all started in grade 7 or 8 ...i became anorexic first . And I suppose when i...
    BDD007 BDD007 18-21, F 5 Responses Jun 13, 2012

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    It Gets Better!

    I've suffered with BDD for as long as I can remember. When I was very young I used to draw faces and cut them out, wearing them for days until they became as ugly as I thought I was. I wanted to change everything about myself. My name, my face, my body... to some point? I still...
    ThisIsMediocritiesOldAcc ThisIsMediocritiesOldAcc 18-21, F Jan 23, 2013

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    I've been dealing with BDD

    for about seven years. It started when I was 21. I couldn't handle going to school anymore and quickly flunked out. Then I couldn't handle work very well and got fired from my job. I couldn't figure out what was wrong with me until I was like 25. Luckily I've managed to...
    igotthis3 igotthis3 26-30, M Mar 9

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    This is one of those stories.

    .I struggled so hard to find a name for this...I always was insecure.Never wanted to take photosNever wanted to have sex (it controlled my love life)Thought i was fatwas constantly looking in the mirror and finding things on my face/body that surgery could hopefully "fix."Hating...
    cbeneath cbeneath 22-25, F 4 Responses Jul 6

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    Truth Or Perception?

    It still amazes me what a sharp contrast there is between a physical, and a mental, illness. If you have cancer, or meningitis, not only do you present symptoms, but scientific tests will show, conclusively, that it's a check box next to heart disease, and an empty space beside...
    verhrzn verhrzn 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 3, 2012

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    I want someone I can talk to about living with

    bdd. I have never told any of my friends about it. It makes life so miserable to the point of always wishing it would end.
    Roseandrea Roseandrea 16-17, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I have BDD and I am constantly jealous of other

    girls... Wishing I looked like them! Wanting the opposite to everything I have!! It's painful :(
    hollieberri hollieberri 26-30, F Jul 15

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    I know I'm not severely obese

    nor overweight at all but it's like my eyes don't want me to see the real me with my body. All I see is fat literally everywhere and I feel like I'm getting bigger every single day. I've recovered from anorexia with bulimic tendencies and I'm eating correctly and exercising but...
    blossomingMe blossomingMe 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 24

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    Facial Assymetry

    I was a very pretty girl. I would get compliments daily. I have long black hair, olive skin and exotic looking. I used to model. I got a bad outbreak of acne in my early 20's. A few months ago, i got silikon 1000 for my acne scarring from a very reputable doctor in New york...
    msmmm msmmm 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 2, 2013

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    I hate seeing myself in the mirror

    and when i look at other people it's as though everyone around me looks better than i do and thus i feel even worse....
    RolSnS RolSnS 18-21, M 1 Response Feb 16

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