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I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 6,517 People

    bloodRedd bloodRedd 26-30, F May 13

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    To all the people who look down on,

    degrade and ridicule people with BPD I would like to invite you to come walk a mile in our shoes!
    Yu12 Yu12 26-30, M 4 Responses Sep 1, 2014

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    Borderline Are Extremely Intelligence And Creative.

    Borderline are extremely intelligence and creative. We struggle to create and give birth to ourselves through our work and intellectual pursuit instead of mundane (...) normal people standards. Everyday, Every Night, we splinted and twisted into multiple personalities that...
    triratna triratna 31-35 3 Responses Oct 5, 2013

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    Those of us who suffer BPD know

    where hell really is. It's inside us. No escaping the agony, pain and torture. No reprieve. It's in every moment of our day, our dreams and our thoughts. It infects everything. It controls everything. It poisons every aspect of our life. It must be the loneliest condition there...
    AussieAZ AussieAZ 41-45, M 4 Responses Aug 28, 2014

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    needing to vent not that it helps i was worried

    about brother as he hasnt been on face book i told him about mom hes i create drama all i did was reach out nobody see if he cares i hatew the mANstarts bringing up things like bad choices weve made and mu mpom that wa sher past 39 years ago react to him he said im not a...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F May 18

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    I'M Scared.

    I'm having trouble figuring myself out, who I am or what I want to be. I'm trying to make friends and keep them and have something more than what I know I'm not happy with now. I'm very depressed, I'm confused, I'm unable to see the positive side of things. It's scaring me...
    Iyric Iyric 18-21, F 24 Responses Feb 5, 2013

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    Alone With Bpd

    I was just recently diagnosed with BPD after a third suicide attempt. I was diagnosed as Bipolar considering my father was Bipolar and shot himself a few years ago. I am 26 years old and so far my life has been filled with pain no matter how much I try to fight it. I have been on...
    lissa lissa 46-50, F 11 Responses Jun 15, 2007

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    Saw the movie shame.That is exactly how it is

    being borderline.I think I am somewhere in between.Being Demisexual,empath and borderline is a strange **** up of emotions.You have love addiction,you chase men like a drug,you fall for the ones who you know can't love you,yet you trade sex for a connect.And break down when it...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 2 Responses May 8

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    One of the hardest things about it is not

    really knowing who yiu truly are
    yesiigarciaa yesiigarciaa 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 25, 2014

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    Some Ppl Shouldn't Be Here

    OK....I am starting to realize that some people on this page shouldn't be here. This is not a joke. It is where some of us who really need to get advice and release pain,to turn to for strength and support. This group is callled "I HAVE BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER." . If you...
    AussieAZ AussieAZ 41-45, M 8 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    I am (almost can't believe it) peaceful

    since yesterday night and today.I am usually a lot of emotions,but never peaceful,never.The instances where I have been peaceful,I can probably count them on my fingers.Usually peace in me ,is replaced by emptiness,hollowness,and a yearning for something i don't understand,like...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 3

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    wher eis everyone i feel like im carrying the

    world inside i feel like i cabt do this anymor ei went to the foodbank today walked alot and worke din friends store when im not well im tired i feel like i dont wan to grow up i just cant do this anymor e what do i do
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 1 Response May 19

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    Positive traits of those with BPD: 1.

    Passionate-experience extreme intensity of passion when we find something that interests us 2. Individual-strongly cultivate our individuality and enjoy applying our abilities to new tasks 3. Spontaneous-we live in the moment doing whatever it is we feel we want to do at that...
    kavlynn99 kavlynn99 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 21, 2014

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    It sucks. If you even feel a tinge of

    abandonment, you turn into this insecure, self-destructive monster. You start fights or start thinking that it'll never end & everyone will leave. You start wondering if you're even good enough. I hate it. I hate this feeling.
    Susananais Susananais 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 1, 2014

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    Okay,so saw fatal attraction,

    and let me put out some stuff,as a bpd sufferer myself,I will never do,and it is very unlikely most average bpd people might. 1.I love animals.Absolutely love them,I was traumatized when she boiled that thing.I would never,ever,I mean ,come on! 2. I would never ,have never even...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    SoulSearcherLover SoulSearcherLover 18-21, F 2 Responses May 11

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    Rev #1 Normal

    Normal? Normal: A self-created standard in the American household. Is there any idea left such as this? It was as if I craved nothing more than to be considered as so. It has no meaning left to someone in a world so full of ever-changing standards. In my mind I was far from the...
    LostInBPD LostInBPD 22-25, M 9 Responses Feb 6, 2013

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    I can't have normal relationships.

    Any good relationship I get myself into, I end up becoming destructive and craving intensity. I don't like nice guys, nice girls. I want something stupid and impulsive and ridiculously intense
    borderlineeverything borderlineeverything 16-17, F 1 Response May 10

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    I just have to accept the fact

    that no guy is ever gonna want to keep me around. I used to say I live for love, and now i don't know what the **** I live for. Life is one ****** up cycle of ****** up **** happening in ****** up orders because of ****** up circumstances and everything is ******. And I feel...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 10 Responses Nov 12, 2014

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    Is anyone else a "quiet borderline?

    " I'm an introvert, which makes it kind of hard to relate to other bpd sufferers sometimes. Many people (especially family members) underestimate my emotional instability because I turn it all inward (most of the time) I was just wondering if anyone has a similar issue.
    SlothSweater SlothSweater 13-15, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    How Can You Bring Someone Into This Nightmare?

    I feel great now, and I'm determined to be better, but I know I'll fall. I know I'll make mistakes. How do I let someone close to me when I know I'll hurt them at some point and feel hurt by them? I'm so afraid I'm destined to forever be alone, just so I'm the only one hurt. I...
    chiamonkie chiamonkie 26-30, F 5 Responses Apr 1, 2012

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    Over time I've realised

    that BPD has made me a Chameleon. I change my colours depending on who I'm with. I've done this for as long as I can remember. I've realised that I don't do this because I want to impress people or to get people to like me but because of 2 reasons, 1) so people can't get too...
    LewisCollins LewisCollins 31-35 4 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I am have been diagnosed

    as with borderline personality disorder last year.Such a relief.I think I have had it for 10 years and have inherited it from my mother.Who I forgive,If she goes through that much emotional pain as me,I forgive her. We tend to bear more than we can actually take.Very few people...
    aquabunny aquabunny 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    I'm sorry. I'm sorry

    that you have to go through BPD And I'm sorry I have to go through BPD It's not easy at all. And it's hard for people to understand that what we do, or how we feel, it very hard for us to control. I'm sorry, you don't deserve to live with BPD I'm sorry, I don't deserve to live...
    betelgeusex3 betelgeusex3 22-25, F 1 Response May 24, 2014

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    Borderline Personality Disorder.

    People with borderline personality disorder are unstable in several areas, including interpersonal relationships, behavior, mood, and self-image. Abrupt and extreme mood changes, stormy interpersonal relationships, an unstable and fluctuating self-image, unpredictable and self...
    ReachingNirvana ReachingNirvana 22-25, M 5 Responses Jun 2, 2014

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    If you're in Northern New Jersey

    and have a high degree of empathy, join my meetup group. Http://meetup.com/NNJ-Empathy-Meetup/ We already have over 40 members. Our next Meetup is June 10 in Fairlawn, NJ and over 10 people have RSVPed. Why should you join our group? So that you can connect with similar...
    Roxvox Roxvox 31-35, F 4 days ago

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    Like the Hoover Dam Collapsed...

    I have no idea how long I have had BPD, but I've known what it was for eight years now. I started working to fix myself from that moment on. For about five years, I have felt like it was completely under control. But then yesterday was a bad day. Subjectively I can look at it...
    onceandfutureglow onceandfutureglow 31-35, F 45 Responses Apr 1, 2008

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    nessa88 nessa88 26-30, F May 16

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    In the past month, a lot has happened.

    I'll warn you in advance that this is a long post, but I think it might help some of you to feel less alone. I hope it does. So. I dated a guy named Shawn for about 5 months last year. One day, he told me he had been talking about our relationship problems with his female...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 6 Responses May 10

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    himenoko143 himenoko143 18-21, F 1 Response May 11

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    Update....

    To all borderliners,I feel compelled to write to you, but what I want to say isn't clear yet in my head.  I'm just going to go with it.  Bear with me.For a couple of weeks I've been getting dialectical behaviour therapy, this is similar to CBT in as much as it teaches you...
    charlie248 charlie248 36-40, F 33 Responses May 8, 2012

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    The Joyful Life of a Borderline/sociopath.

    I live in a world where everyone is a cardboard cutout, a puppet, a means to an end, a fling to be discarded, a way to find connection, to plaster-over the lonelyness of my irreperable disconnection from mankind. I'm a borderline, but I'm also a sociopath. It's a really weird...
    Phage Phage 26-30, F 142 Responses Feb 18, 2009

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    Anyone else have that one person in your life

    that you try to avoid because she triggers every emotion you try to bottle up? Her very presence ignites the most intense BPD emotions I've ever felt and somehow I can't get her out of my head.
    tribe1855 tribe1855 22-25, M 4 Responses May 10

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    I'm scared to be in friendships

    or relationships because I turn into an emotionally manipulative codependent mess and I don't want to ruin anybody
    borderlineeverything borderlineeverything 16-17, F May 15

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    my borderline seems to differ in alot of ways

    from the experiences I'm reading. i have other issues that help to form this mess in my head but i dont identify with the normal discription of BPD.....i internalize everything. im not into manipulating others..myself...yea, i have to to get stuff done. i do have server...
    bloodRedd bloodRedd 26-30, F 2 Responses May 11

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    I'm really trying this time

    but if he does not walk out the door and leave me eventually he will die. So either way he will leave me.
    SirsKnottyGirl SirsKnottyGirl 26-30, F 1 Response May 13

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    i need to vent im feeling funny

    and screwed this is scarying me ihav eno energy no nothing i need to kick a ball no i nee dto kick people i dont know wha tim feeling im disconnected from em im feeling so screwed up that i could off myself right now
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 5 days ago

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    I NEED TO VENT IM FEELING CRAPPY IM TIRED AND

    WORN OUT AS THEDAY HASNT BEGUN YET I HAVENT SLEPT A WEEK I HAVE TO GO TO MENTAL HEALTH I FEEL LIKEI JUST DONT WANT TO GO O I LOATHE GOING THERE AS I DONT GET NOTHING OUT OF IT IM FRICKEN ANGRY THAT I LOST MY FATHER IM ALSO FEELING REALLY SCRED MY BASCK HURTS I HURT IM ALLOWE DTO...
    hannahabbie hannahabbie 46-50, F 17 hrs ago

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    i just feel really bad today.

    ..i keep taking sleeping pills so that i will just go back to sleep but its not working....i wish i could disappear...i wish i was never born....i hate who i am. today is a really bad day, no amount of distraction is helping right now. i wish this would end....
    bloodRedd bloodRedd 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    vishar vishar 18-21, M 1 Response May 14

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    Well, I did it again.

    I let my thoughts bubble up into a fit of rage. I am so bitter and cold today. It all started this morning. Waking up , realizing this is it for now. I am stuck at home almost always. This doesn't bother me everyday because I love being a full time mom. What I don't love is...
    ashless ashless 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 29, 2014

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    today is the worst day ever!

    ! :'( my paranois is really starting to hit me hard I just wanna break down..I hate feeling like this not good enough I hate having these thoughts in my head...I just wanna escape...
    DalaKumono DalaKumono 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I recently started therapy up again

    and that seems to be helping tremendously. Socially and mood wise I have been a lot more outgoing and grounded This is such a change from the last 3 yrs of my life. I also met a really great guy and we seem to be hitting it off. What's better is he is encouraging that we take...
    poodahpop poodahpop 18-21, T 1 Response May 17

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    I hate how I can feel a sad episode coming on

    yet there is nothing I can do to stop it from coming.
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 1 Response Sep 7, 2014

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    I just hate feeling so alone

    but also feeling like its my fault.
    SoulSearcherLover SoulSearcherLover 18-21, F May 17

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    im not sure i have bpd

    but this is the best category i could think to post in. i feel like a sheet of paper. blank. i emulate other people and fictional characters but they dont represent me. i feel like i am nothing. i... dont know how to explain myself
    gemmed gemmed 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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