I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

I was recently diognosed with bpd. I decided to do a bit of online study about it. According to everything I have read about bpd, it turns out that I have had it for years. Its a relief to know what is wrong with me finally.

I can finally say, even after only a few weeks of therapy, I finally feel that there is hope for this craziness I feel in my head! I am going to personal therapy twice a week and couples therapy once a week. Each and every day I learn...

Most time people don't get it. they think when you say you just want to die, you want to in a sense end your life or kill yourself and get away from everybody and just leave them.
when most times what you mean is that you just want to...

I have always felt like I handled things differently than other people. My family has a history of mental illness, so I have heard all my life I must be bipolar or manic-depressive. Instead, I have Borderline Personality Disorder...

I've been doing some research on Negative Emotion and Self-destructive behavior to try and better understand myself and how I get trapped into such negative thinking and self-destructive behaviors. I think this makes a lot of sense...

Can I do this? Sure, sure I can appear normal on the outside, done it my whole life. Can I keep it going though? I feel myself cracking all the time. It's exhausting. Absolutely exhausting. The "happy" face is so strong, I put it on...

... when your so angry that it feels like your core is burning, your skin is boiling and your eyes are turning red? you know when you hate someone so intensely that you dream up all manor of horrible tortures for them? you know that...

To all borderliners,I feel compelled to write to you, but what I want to say isn't clear yet in my head.  I'm just going to go with it.  Bear with me.For a couple of weeks I've been getting dialectical behaviour therapy, this is...

OK....I am starting to realize that some people on this page shouldn't be here. This is not a joke. It is where some of us who really need to get advice and release pain,to turn to for strength and support. This group is callled "I HAVE...

So here's my situation: I am on Ontario Works- welfare. Being on welfare with my man, we make a little less than a grand. Now, I'm not complaining, seeing as how we don't work for it... but paying $815 in rent leaves little money for...

I feel like this, and I've always hated the feeling...hate that I relate to this song...wonder who Howard Jones or whoever wrote this song was.
But I feel this way about social relationships and its sad . :(

You can look at the menu...

I have no idea how long I have had BPD, but I've known what it was for eight years now. I started working to fix myself from that moment on. For about five years, I have felt like it was completely under control.
But then yesterday...

I'm 21 years old and I just began university in october, I've had different type of problems in my childhood and adolescence. My mother bagan kind of depressiv and violent with me ad my brother when my father left her for another woman...

I wrote an essay on borderline personality disorder awhile ago, I hope it helps some of you. I realize that it's kind of long but I included some information as well as my experience with it. ...

I live in a world where everyone is a cardboard cutout, a puppet, a means to an end, a fling to be discarded, a way to find connection, to plaster-over the lonelyness of my irreperable disconnection from mankind.
I'm a borderline, but...

I'm having trouble figuring myself out, who I am or what I want to be. I'm trying to make friends and keep them and have something more than what I know I'm not happy with now. I'm very depressed, I'm confused, I'm unable to see the...

Normal?
Normal: A self-created standard in the American household. Is there any idea left such as this? It was as if I craved nothing more than to be considered as so. It has no meaning left to someone in a world so full of ever...

I have yet to be diagnosed, but I have been doing research on BPD and am 100% convinced I have it.

I have read the symptoms and I have them all:

Extreme reactions to abandonment. I panic at even the smallest things, like a friend who...

I have been in dark places ,I have felt glory ,I have been no where at all.All these places I will go again.That is guaranteed but i hope I never gain the seed of hatred or greed.

Never 100% if it can or not.I had this real clear...