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I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

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    Foolishness. - Today was a bad borderline day for me. I got jealous of my sister and one of my friends who started hanging out. I can't even explain why. In the past, my sister...
    Noelleflower Noelleflower 26-30, F 6 Responses Nov 8, 2013

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    Some Ppl Shouldn't Be Here - OK....I am starting to realize that some people on this page shouldn't be here. This is not a joke. It is where some of us who really need to get...
    AussieAZ AussieAZ 41-45, M 7 Responses Sep 5, 2012

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    Who the **** am I? I hate molding into other peoples interests attitudes and other **** like that and I dont know who I am at all, it drives me crazy i just want to scream and hit...
    feistyfun15 feistyfun15 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I feel like my family instead of helping me makes it worse
    yesiigarciaa yesiigarciaa 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I have BPD and I'm totally my own worst enemy, I've learned over the years that when things are calm and peaceful I sabotage my own life because I'm more comfortable in chaotic...
    BeautifulBorderlineJunkie BeautifulBorderlineJunkie 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Sometimes I just tell myself to shut the **** up cuz Im not in the mood to listen to me today!
    Jackal208 Jackal208 56-60, M Apr 6

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    I Can't Write As It Hurts Too Much.. - ....so that is the link that explain about what I feel... http://www.aapel.org/bdp/BLsyntheseUS.html I hope that will help my friends to...
    Sorrentina Sorrentina 41-45, F 6 Responses Jul 12, 2013

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    Balancing in an unbalanced world. Walking on a tightrope with the wind blowing. Falling apart while simultaneously trying to catch the pieces. That's how I've been feeling the...
    greeneyes91 greeneyes91 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    We are not ill. We are not BPD. We have BPD. Don't let yourself be labeled ill...cause we are not. WE ARE VERY SMART PEOPLE, who just can't control our emotions, not ill. We are...
    nellagrr nellagrr 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 16

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    I'm scared. I've spent so much time feeling sad even when I'm slightly happy, I don't know if I can ever feel any different. For the past ten years I've been self harming and...
    atremain atremain 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    The Joyful Life of a Borderline/sociopath. - I live in a world where everyone is a cardboard cutout, a puppet, a means to an end, a fling to be discarded, a way to find connection...
    Phage Phage 26-30, F 129 Responses Feb 18, 2009

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    Escape From Borderland -    I wrote an essay on borderline personality disorder awhile ago, I hope it helps some of you. I realize that it's kind of long...
    Skyyyy Skyyyy 18-21, F 22 Responses Jun 16, 2010

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    If i say the sky are purple, how come everyone say they are blue? I can see it! its purple! its right there! like the rest of my mind and feelings, why wont you see it? why are you...
    RoDeLeon RoDeLeon 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    Update.... - To all borderliners,I feel compelled to write to you, but what I want to say isn't clear yet in my head.  I'm just going to go with it.  Bear with me.For a couple of...
    charlie248 charlie248 36-40, F 32 Responses May 8, 2012

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    I have such a personal dilemma and it's causing way more of a commotion inside me then it should . Logically looking at it there's a reasonable explanation to the issue , that...
    Briinx Briinx 31-35, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Questioning everything right now even my existence
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    Borderline is one of the most difficult things in the world. I was diagnosed 5yrs ago, and even putting a name to it, doesn't make it better. It's an everyday struggle, but with...
    ElleLaLa ElleLaLa 26-30, F 6 Responses Feb 25

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    BPD. A disorder that is relatively common, but can ruin a life in a matter of months. My life was ruined, but a lot of people don't understand how. I have no friends, and have...
    annfgates annfgates 16-17, F 8 Responses Feb 8

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    Alone With Bpd - I was just recently diagnosed with BPD after a third suicide attempt. I was diagnosed as Bipolar considering my father was Bipolar and shot himself a few years ago...
    lissa lissa 46-50, F 10 Responses Jun 15, 2007

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    As a teen, psycologists or whatever ists think it could just be "teen moodiness". That is in fact, bullshit. This isn't your oh whatever, she/he is just having moodiness. These are...
    AnaPanda1 AnaPanda1 13-15, F Apr 2

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    Borderline Are Extremely Intelligence And Creative. - Borderline are extremely intelligence and creative. We struggle to create and give birth to ourselves through our work and...
    triratna triratna 26-30 3 Responses Oct 5, 2013

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    My Final Ep Story - Well everyone, I found what I was looking for. I didn’t even realize I was looking for anything, or that it would take so damn long to find. But I found it...
    tangledx22 tangledx22 18-21, F 5 Responses Mar 10, 2012

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    Always Seem To Be Alone - Why can no one understand how we feel inside, a carcass ravaged by internal demons we have no control over. Sitting, standing, talking and feeling...
    vggirl vggirl 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2013

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    Its a curse......for those of you who have it, know why I call it a curse and for those who are just curious, you cant understand, believe me, i ve tried explaining to people, they...
    HopeEverlasting HopeEverlasting 26-30, F 10 Responses Feb 25

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    I'm feeling my rage come out and I'm trying to keep it in but it's hard. I lash out and act unrecognizable when it happens. I hate being hurt and I hate anything that may resemble...
    Australianladybug Australianladybug 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    the Baggage Poster "girl"----my Shame - It all came to light this time last year. It was the first time i had heard this diagnosis on top of my now bi-polor disorder. Whatever...
    LOST27 LOST27 26-30, F 22 Responses Dec 1, 2006

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    I have PSTD and personality disorder which I don't know how to handle.
    godswish49 godswish49 46-50, M 2 Responses Apr 4

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    Can Anyone Relate? - I'm not going to write out my long history because to be honest I've worked hard to try to block out alot of it. I fear opening that door to my memories would...
    deleted deleted 26-30 12 Responses Feb 2, 2009

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    You know all I want is for all this pain to stop its constant I feel like I'm never gonna get back to me . I hate all the paranoia I feel like everyone wants to hurt me (even with...
    Briinx Briinx 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 11

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    Like the Hoover Dam Collapsed... - I have no idea how long I have had BPD, but I've known what it was for eight years now. I started working to fix myself from that moment on. For...
    onceandfutureglow onceandfutureglow 31-35, F 43 Responses Apr 1, 2008

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    i have borderline personality disorder maybe i have to join another group lee anne
    maddisongrace maddisongrace 46-50, F 2 Responses Mar 29

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    So an interesting thing was brought up to me... We tend to focus so much on the downside of BPD we don't often see the positive things. We're passionate, creative, to the point...
    EngulfingBreeze EngulfingBreeze 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 3

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    I hate when someone tells me to ignore the way I'm feeling and if I ignore it enough it will go away. You don't feel what I feel so stop trying to give me advice. It's so annoying...
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 1

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    Today was good but then my husband is showing me no attention. We temporarily live in different cities during the week and he acts like he doesn't care. I feel rejected constantly...
    aligain aligain 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 1

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    This May Make You Happy - I have been in dark places ,I have felt glory ,I have been no where at all.All these places I will go again.That is guaranteed but i hope I never gain the...
    decept decept 22-25, F 6 Responses Nov 22, 2012

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    My Husband - My husband is so easy going, nothing really bothers him, he has great work ethic, and he's so loving! Even after 4 1/2 years of marriage I'm still expecting him to...
    Steezy18 Steezy18 22-25, F 7 Responses Feb 19, 2013

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    I'M Scared. - I'm having trouble figuring myself out, who I am or what I want to be. I'm trying to make friends and keep them and have something more than what I know I'm not happy...
    Iyric Iyric 18-21, F 22 Responses Feb 5, 2013

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    I need help. I mean, I don't even understand what to do. I can't maintain my own happiness because I'm too busy succumbing to my inner demons. I push the ones who care away...
    Destati Destati 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    I experience what they call "imagined/hallucination of rejection" all the time when I go out or even here online. So I'm a ticking time bomb my emotion's all over the place and...
    GrumpyGrouchy GrumpyGrouchy 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Rev #1 Normal - Normal? Normal: A self-created standard in the American household. Is there any idea left such as this? It was as if I craved nothing more than to be considered as...
    LostInBPD LostInBPD 22-25, M 9 Responses Feb 6, 2013

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    I have nobody to talk to. I've never felt so alone and I'm scared of getting bad again
    kristinaloo kristinaloo 18-21, F Apr 1

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    I have chosen to be alone till I die. I find that with borderline it is literally impossible to find good people and maintain friendships and relationships. I enjoy being alone...
    FragileFish FragileFish 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 4

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    In my case, this means that I'm constantly on an emotional roller coaster, my emotions are never stable. Abandonment terrifies me, and I do everything under the sun to keep...
    adorea adorea 70+, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I got so drunk last night and had sex with a random guy that I met one before and who turned out to be a virgin. This is happening way to often. I feel like complete ****. I'm so...
    AmeliasDay AmeliasDay 26-30, F 6 Responses Apr 5

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    My problem with getting this diagnosis was that I used to not like the fact that everyone gets labels. I mean, I still feel like certain terms get thrown around way too casually...
    showusyoursouls showusyoursouls 18-21, F Apr 1

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    Rest - Most time people don't get it. they think when you say you just want to die, you want to in a sense end your life or kill yourself and get away from everybody and just leave...
    Vusi321 Vusi321 18-21, M 8 Responses May 23, 2013

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    I was diagnosed exactly a year ago a week from today. I have no support system right now, I can't go to therapy or get medicine, and I'm worried that I'm getting worse.
    moubliez moubliez 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    Got The Diagnosis Today - I am angry, I am very depressed. In short, I am everything that I have been these past several months since I left my abusive husband (for the last time...
    StevensMommy StevensMommy 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 10, 2013

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    Starting at a young age I felt alone, empty, and misunderstood. It was such a normal feeling I almost didn't realize it wasn't "normal". What was wrong with me? ADD? Depression...
    certzjbd23 certzjbd23 22-25, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    So Sick Of Being Angry And Unsatisified - It's ******* exhausting always being angry and mean ... When we all know deep down we are hurting so bad that's why we're being mean but...
    sunsetsandbeaches sunsetsandbeaches 22-25 6 Responses Dec 22, 2011

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