I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

I have no idea how long I have had BPD, but I've known what it was for eight years now. I started working to fix myself from that moment on. For about five years, I have felt like it was completely under control.
But then yesterday...

I used to not get why anyone would harm themselves in any way.
I used to not get why anyone would want to kill themselves.
I used to not get why it would be so hard for them to stop.
Now, I do. And I don't blame them for wanting to...

I have recently had a change in my mental health diagnosis. It changed from schizophrenia to borderline personality disorder. I still hear voices and see things. but am trying to better my life.

I'm having trouble figuring myself out, who I am or what I want to be. I'm trying to make friends and keep them and have something more than what I know I'm not happy with now. I'm very depressed, I'm confused, I'm unable to see the...

OK....I am starting to realize that some people on this page shouldn't be here. This is not a joke. It is where some of us who really need to get advice and release pain,to turn to for strength and support. This group is callled "I HAVE...

Stupid Borderline Personality

I started to feel like I was out of my mind at age 21. My moods would change drastically in a matter of minutes to hours or from one day to the next. I was extremely paranoid of how others think of me or...

I wrote an essay on borderline personality disorder awhile ago, I hope it helps some of you. I realize that it's kind of long but I included some information as well as my experience with it. ...

My husband is so easy going, nothing really bothers him, he has great work ethic, and he's so loving! Even after 4 1/2 years of marriage I'm still expecting him to walk out.. Say he's had enough.. he's been blind to stay and put up with...

Be who you are and say what you mean

because those who mind dont matter and those who matter dont mind

Couldnt of said that better

I live in a world where everyone is a cardboard cutout, a puppet, a means to an end, a fling to be discarded, a way to find connection, to plaster-over the lonelyness of my irreperable disconnection from mankind.
I'm a borderline, but...

My emotions are like the mist
When it moves rolls an twists
It can be beautiful and serene
Like a peaceful ocean scene
Or it can be vengeful and scary
With a rage that's extra ordinary
For the pain caused there's no remorse
Until the...

Normal?
Normal: A self-created standard in the American household. Is there any idea left such as this? It was as if I craved nothing more than to be considered as so. It has no meaning left to someone in a world so full of ever...

Most time people don't get it. they think when you say you just want to die, you want to in a sense end your life or kill yourself and get away from everybody and just leave them.
when most times what you mean is that you just want to...

I am 26 and have been going out with my boyfriend for 5 years. He wants to move in together but I just cant move out of home away from my mum and sister. I love him and want to be with him and don't want him to break up with me because...

To all borderliners,I feel compelled to write to you, but what I want to say isn't clear yet in my head.  I'm just going to go with it.  Bear with me.For a couple of weeks I've been getting dialectical behaviour therapy, this is...

I have been in dark places ,I have felt glory ,I have been no where at all.All these places I will go again.That is guaranteed but i hope I never gain the seed of hatred or greed.

Never 100% if it can or not.I had this real clear...

just got home from my parents,my dad drop my an the train station,it was a race against the clock,the next train was only an hour later,i rand like crazy and got there,but then the train start going,just almost.
NOW,what do u do? well...

Your awesome.....you're the shittiest person I've ever met
I need space.....don't give me space
U give me space, but I think you are cheating on me...
I love you......I HATE YOU!!
I hate you so much, but please don't leave me.
You...

I was diagnosed four years ago with BPD.

At the moment I want to die so badly because really I know I will never get better.

What is the point of living this life when every little thing I do or any relationship I have gets messed up...