Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I Have Built A Beautiful Emotional Wall

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 196 People

    Emotional Architecture

    I've built it brick by brick, Taken it down, Put it back up, Installed some windows, Let the occasional stranger peek in. Made faces at some of the passersby, I have a love/hate relationship with my beautiful wall. :p
    deleted deleted 26-30 22 Responses Mar 14, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Tearing Down Brick Walls

    after everingthing that ive been through in my life, rape, domestic abuse and many other things, i had and have "brick" walls. these are all in my head. over the past year, (i removed myself from the badness in my life a year ago) i have been trying to tear these walls down, but...
    robdawg3434 robdawg3434 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 14, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Yes!

    i have a wall built as high as the gates to heaven, with lots of bricks, than concrete, than bars, and than some more bricks. No one can possiblly get into them, and get past them, i do it to prevent myself. so no one esle can get in and hurt me again, because someone can only...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 28, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    The Best Way..

    I built my emotional wall out of necessity. I used to be an extremely emotionally intense person.  I would feel everything as a personal insult, even if it was not intended as one. So anyway, there wasn't really a problem with my sensitivity, in fact nowadays I miss it. But...
    Lymrith Lymrith 18-21, M Oct 19, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Media Influenced Me

    Im young, but I feel like no one needs to know how I feel. No one needs to have the burden of my emotional issues, or the issues in my life. The media played a big part in that to. Those rage comics of men being mad at women who want to talk about things that hurt them, or when...
    Lemoniqua6 Lemoniqua6 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 7, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Good At Hiding My Emotions..until Those Walls Crack Into Almost Insanity.

    I feel like a complete burden to everyone. I've had my heart broken, ripped apart, and torn to tiny pieces. I've lost friends, "best" friends, on different occasions. People are annoyed by my constant "crying and issues" that need to be worked out. In general...I...
    meXtrano meXtrano 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    For My Protection

    Cause it is a harsh world out there and people will use and abuse you then throw you aside with little thought about you...... Of course there are ones like me who seem to throw themselves on the gernades and take all of the abuse and then say "Give me another..." So...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 8 Responses Nov 27, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    It'S A Work Of Art

    If you ask me how I feel about just about anything, your answer will be the sound of the backdoor slamming and my car peeling out in the driveway.
    Oracler Oracler 26-30, M Apr 28, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    A Wall......hmmm!

    I am not sure if I would call it an emotional wall as I don't really understand emotions or how I really feel. I find it somewhat confusing. I only let certain people into my world in person, But on this site am more open as there are others like me, who have been through or are...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 27, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Climb Over My Wall....please

    My emotional wall is a natural habit that I can't seem to break. It's been under construction since I was about three years old, maybe longer but I can't remember. It protects me from pain, being hurt, or used, or being put in vulnerable situations that i can't always handle. It...
    worthgrowing worthgrowing 22-25, F 7 Responses Oct 19, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Boundaries - A Fairytale

    When I was growing up there were no boundaries. My parents had many hang-ups. And these forced their way into my childhood garden, until it was like a jungle. The butterflies flew away. The daisies closed up and sank into the ground. The birds stopped nesting there. And in...
    desertfrost desertfrost 41-45, F 2 Responses Oct 17, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Yes I Have

    I am proud of it. I sometimes sit on that wall and make faces at all the people looking up at it. Then I forget how I got up there, and wait for someone else to pass by so I can jump down on them. :D Everything works out.
    LifelessSource LifelessSource 18-21, F Apr 19, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Beautiful?

    I am still trying to decide if my wall is beautiful. They say it's not a sin to admire your own hard work a bit, but I don't know that I see my wall as such an accomplishment because it's serving to keep out the good and the bad indiscriminately.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 24, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Built It Brick By Brick

    Someone that I love dearly asked me why I am constantly behind a wall. Well I have spent years building this wall of mine.  Brick by brick, I put up the wall its mortar representing a painful emotional experience I have gone through.  It has slowly become my security...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 13 Responses Nov 16, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    My Wall Is....

    My wall is not beautiful. It's never been. It's just necessary. I need it or I wouldn't be able to survive in this world. I've known for a long time that I am a sensitive person and I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve where everyone can see it and abuse it. I have been hurt...
    Kat47 Kat47 46-50, F 5 Responses Jan 21, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    What Would Make You Take Down Your Wall?

    My ex-boyfriend has built an emotional wall. I'm not getting closure because I don't know why we ended. He says he 'doesn't know what to say...' I know there is something in there. I've been open and honest and asked him to do the same. I think he's capable... we're working on a...
    bmmcd bmmcd 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 17, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    I remember parts of it. I remember playing this game where we formed this giant human whip and if you got whipped off the chain you lost. I got sent flying. My little sisters were...
    PinkMellow PinkMellow 18-21, F 1 hr ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Ugly scars, and scars are beautiful. Scars are made up of wars fought, knowledge sought, love gained or lost.
    RebelOfSouthernEnvy1223 RebelOfSouthernEnvy1223 41-45, F 4 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Feeling emotionally and physically drained as I have been having fairly constant anxiety attacks for around 12 hours now. Any advice? I feel afraid because I feel myself losing...
    searching322 searching322 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I wish I had some medicine to take this emotional pain away.. đŸ˜”
    sunshineh13 sunshineh13 22-25, F 2 Responses 8 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    There are numerous older men in the world who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to...
    earthlingcc11 earthlingcc11 26-30, F 9 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    There are numerous older men in the world who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to...
    earthlingcc11 earthlingcc11 26-30, F 9 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    There are numerous older men in the world who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to...
    earthlingcc11 earthlingcc11 26-30, F 9 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have so much built up anger and resentment towards many. Yet I can never express myself, ever, because I don't want to make people feel hurt. Therefore I hurt myself more. Ugh...
    Whatsmystory Whatsmystory 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I think the only reason I'm on here right now is because I've never talked about this out loud to anyone, and being in this type of family dynamic is isolating. I only have to...
    Summer26061997 Summer26061997 18-21, F 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I think one of the more depressing things I put up with at this point in my life would have to be listening to all these other people around my age - and even years younger - who...
    Jugemu Jugemu 31-35, M 1 Response 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    The invisible pain. No one believes the level of pain this chronic disease causes.. I hate it so much.. being in pain on and off since 20 after acute pancreatitis I spent 7months...
    stefx85 stefx85 26-30, M 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It really annoys me when I see social media posts regarding how "men are all like this" and "women are like that". men and women cheat, are emotional, want to be alone, etc. the...
    Yieringra Yieringra 18-21, M 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Once upon a time there lived a beautiful couple who loved each other very much. He had a good job and she had designs of brilliance. They were living with a terrible friend of his...
    SoberingBabySteps SoberingBabySteps 31-35, M 5 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I believe her Facebook profile was hacked and I am extremely angry about it. If you look at the sequence of events, they do not and never have worked coherently with the events...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Any relationship worth having is built on respect and trust. Without it, well you do on to others and then split. Its worse than lonely, its a hunted, cursed , constantly watching...
    fr33bird fr33bird 51-55, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Back in the 90's I went to Israel with a church group. We went to Bethlehem, the Sea of Galilee, the Dead Sea, Jericho and Jerusalem. My favorite place was the western wall. What...
    amazingdream amazingdream 46-50, F 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I am just so frustrated and angry with myself right now. I have been trying to get to a normal weight and maintain it for YEARS and I just cannot seem to get there. I am stuck on a...
    Robinzasio Robinzasio 41-45, F a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I was looking for wallpapers, having had the same white wolf in a snowy background on my desktop for, like, two years--really, only as a placement until I found something else...
    ColdPenguin25 ColdPenguin25 22-25, M 2 Responses Aug 21

    Your Response

    Cancel
    The worst type of crying isn't the loud and continuous wave of crying. It's the crying where you can only manage one or two tears but you still have the feeling of crying... just...
    emslife emslife 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 21

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I would love to get married one day and have a beautiful baby. my bf said that he is open to getting married again and having more kids. maybe one day he will ask and give me his...
    LadyLyric311 LadyLyric311 22-25, F Aug 19

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My mother is the most controlling narcissist In the world, she is very manipulative and has to always have her way. Im 27 and on permanent disability due to a brain injury...
    KaleighBee KaleighBee 26-30, F Aug 18

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I was with him for about 3 months, Then we had a falling out. We werent together for a long minute. But we stayed friends. I got time on my phone, About two weeks before my...
    KiraRawr KiraRawr 16-17, F Aug 18

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Having green eyes I tend to receive many compliments on them, some boarderline creepy and others down right stupid, that said...here is the stupidest: "You have such beautiful...
    Erizabesu Erizabesu 18-21, F Aug 18

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I understand most men are completely content with a woman who is physically attractive, but I'm not built that way. although I still insist physical attractiveness is necessary, I...
    niceguycursed niceguycursed 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 18

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Secrets out! I am having two baby girls! I honestly thought I was having two boys but I was so wrong. Nurses say the girls are measuring a bit behind which scares me. I'm praying...
    RayleighCooper RayleighCooper 18-21, F Aug 17

    Your Response

    Cancel
    "Why are you so cold-hearted"? He asked. I am not cold hearted. You just need to try a little extra harder to break these walls I have built inside my heart for me to fully open...
    22Nm 22Nm 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 17

    Your Response

    Cancel