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I Have Built A Beautiful Emotional Wall

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 191 People

    What Would Make You Take Down Your Wall?

    My ex-boyfriend has built an emotional wall. I'm not getting closure because I don't know why we ended. He says he 'doesn't know what to say...' I know there is something in there. I've been open and honest and asked him to do the same. I think he's capable... we're working on a...
    bmmcd bmmcd 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 17, 2009

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    Beautiful?

    I am still trying to decide if my wall is beautiful. They say it's not a sin to admire your own hard work a bit, but I don't know that I see my wall as such an accomplishment because it's serving to keep out the good and the bad indiscriminately.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 24, 2010

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    My Wall Is....

    My wall is not beautiful. It's never been. It's just necessary. I need it or I wouldn't be able to survive in this world. I've known for a long time that I am a sensitive person and I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve where everyone can see it and abuse it. I have been hurt...
    Kat47 Kat47 46-50, F 4 Responses Jan 21, 2013

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    Yes!

    i have a wall built as high as the gates to heaven, with lots of bricks, than concrete, than bars, and than some more bricks. No one can possiblly get into them, and get past them, i do it to prevent myself. so no one esle can get in and hurt me again, because someone can only...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 28, 2009

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    I Built It Brick By Brick

    Someone that I love dearly asked me why I am constantly behind a wall. Well I have spent years building this wall of mine.  Brick by brick, I put up the wall its mortar representing a painful emotional experience I have gone through.  It has slowly become my security...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 13 Responses Nov 16, 2009

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    Good At Hiding My Emotions..until Those Walls Crack Into Almost Insanity.

    I feel like a complete burden to everyone. I've had my heart broken, ripped apart, and torn to tiny pieces. I've lost friends, "best" friends, on different occasions. People are annoyed by my constant "crying and issues" that need to be worked out. In general...I...
    meXtrano meXtrano 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2010

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    Climb Over My Wall....please

    My emotional wall is a natural habit that I can't seem to break. It's been under construction since I was about three years old, maybe longer but I can't remember. It protects me from pain, being hurt, or used, or being put in vulnerable situations that i can't always handle. It...
    worthgrowing worthgrowing 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 19, 2010

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    Boundaries - A Fairytale

    When I was growing up there were no boundaries. My parents had many hang-ups. And these forced their way into my childhood garden, until it was like a jungle. The butterflies flew away. The daisies closed up and sank into the ground. The birds stopped nesting there. And in...
    desertfrost desertfrost 41-45, F 2 Responses Oct 17, 2010

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    For My Protection

    Cause it is a harsh world out there and people will use and abuse you then throw you aside with little thought about you...... Of course there are ones like me who seem to throw themselves on the gernades and take all of the abuse and then say "Give me another..." So...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 8 Responses Nov 27, 2009

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    Emotional Architecture

    I've built it brick by brick, Taken it down, Put it back up, Installed some windows, Let the occasional stranger peek in. Made faces at some of the passersby, I have a love/hate relationship with my beautiful wall. :p
    Sungirl3 Sungirl3 46-50, F 25 Responses Mar 14, 2013

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    A Wall......hmmm!

    I am not sure if I would call it an emotional wall as I don't really understand emotions or how I really feel. I find it somewhat confusing. I only let certain people into my world in person, But on this site am more open as there are others like me, who have been through or are...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 27, 2012

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    Tearing Down Brick Walls

    after everingthing that ive been through in my life, rape, domestic abuse and many other things, i had and have "brick" walls. these are all in my head. over the past year, (i removed myself from the badness in my life a year ago) i have been trying to tear these walls down, but...
    robdawg3434 robdawg3434 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 14, 2013

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    Media Influenced Me

    Im young, but I feel like no one needs to know how I feel. No one needs to have the burden of my emotional issues, or the issues in my life. The media played a big part in that to. Those rage comics of men being mad at women who want to talk about things that hurt them, or when...
    Lemoniqua6 Lemoniqua6 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 7, 2012

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    It'S A Work Of Art

    If you ask me how I feel about just about anything, your answer will be the sound of the backdoor slamming and my car peeling out in the driveway.
    Oracler Oracler 26-30, M Apr 28, 2013

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    The Best Way..

    I built my emotional wall out of necessity. I used to be an extremely emotionally intense person.  I would feel everything as a personal insult, even if it was not intended as one. So anyway, there wasn't really a problem with my sensitivity, in fact nowadays I miss it. But...
    Lymrith Lymrith 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 19, 2010

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    Yes I Have

    I am proud of it. I sometimes sit on that wall and make faces at all the people looking up at it. Then I forget how I got up there, and wait for someone else to pass by so I can jump down on them. :D Everything works out.
    LifelessSource LifelessSource 18-21, F Apr 19, 2011

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    And tonight, they're both in my room... We've listened to Satyaa & Pari and "meditated" on my bed, before turning to bollywood songs just for the fun of it. Of course we listened...
    Injoy1767 Injoy1767 46-50, F 2 Responses Dec 12

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    I have quite a few distractions, but if I didn't have you, I would just stay in bed all day & don't care. But every morning I wake up, take the metro for 20 long minutes (or 20...
    DaddysGirl24 DaddysGirl24 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    She's not mine but she's just that lovely that I feel like she's my baby girl. I have never seen so much happiness and attitude in something so small. I take care of her all the...
    Melons1008 Melons1008 16-17, F Nov 21

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    *is in park and lady walks up to me* her: hey, my kids the one in the green jacket :) which one is yours?? Me: I don't know, I haven't picked one yet.
    TheAnonymousTroll TheAnonymousTroll 13-15, M Nov 21

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    I know, that's not supposed to be possible. People say it's not possible, that I'm deluding myself. I'm looking for a way out, I secretly hate her, we must have a sexless...
    roykirk roykirk 41-45, M 2 Responses Nov 23

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    I used to have a love. He came to me when I least expected it and blindsided me. Somehow, he got past all my defenses and went straight for that secret place in my heart I'd...
    abrokenlittlegirl abrokenlittlegirl 46-50, F 5 Responses Nov 24

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    My ex told me that I am too emotional for him. I believe it to be honest I have been too emotional any advice on how to make myself less emotional ? Or at least control my emotions...
    tisbutascratch tisbutascratch 16-17, F Dec 6

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    There is a picture of me in their heads, a picture of someone I don't know yet. She is not the chubby girl with the braces and bad perm. She is not the girl hiding in the bathroom...
    SuperWomanFly SuperWomanFly 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 28

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    I have realized that women can actually have mental or emotional illness (small ones like Depression or Bipolar disorder) most people just over look it because we are females. They...
    PetiteChica PetiteChica 18-21, F Dec 3

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    So I Have been flirting with my older, married boss for a few months. He seemed interested. We exchanged long eye glances, he compliments my work, flirted, joked around, always...
    bmmartinez1 bmmartinez1 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    I have build so manys walls can't even climb over them myself
    Yanebell Yanebell 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 25

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    My experiences growing up haven't been good ones I was befriended a lot and didn't have anyone to take care of me I came from a broken family and didn't care much about myself. My...
    Bella70 Bella70 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 27

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    after a bust up again last night, we went to bed without even saying goodnight.. That's something I never do, you never know if you're gonna wake up in the morning, however as he...
    081275fizz 081275fizz 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    I have two Beautiful daughters... I somehow blinked and they are both teenagers. If I could turn back time(I can't) I would just to sit and watch them grow up. They are teens now...
    SunnyD721 SunnyD721 46-50, F 4 Responses Nov 25

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    I gave birth 15 years ago and It bloody hurt! The most pain I have ever experienced and I have had severe asthma attacks, broken bones and several other very painful illnesses, but...
    daisychain33 daisychain33 31-35, F Dec 9

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    Everyone thinks of me as someone who doesn't have feelings and always seems to be an all round happy person, but it's insane how people say stuff and think that it has no effect on...
    theultimatesashacourtney theultimatesashacourtney 13-15, F 4 hrs ago

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    I hate to admit it but it's true. I get really emotional at times and I don't know why. If some one says something mean or makes me really upset and fusterated I get so angry and...
    Emiry Emiry 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    Words that hurt, and cut. Walls are built. Actions that are empty, and meaningless. Walls are built. Change that never comes, but promised. Walls are built. Hope that lingers...
    SecretEscape SecretEscape 36-40, F 3 Responses Dec 8

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    Walls of protection. Can be built from sorrow, abuse, or just fear. For some we give all or none, for me it is usually all. The wall crumbles life is good then all at once it...
    Leeand29 Leeand29 51-55, F Nov 22

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    Thus the mad man talks... he remembers once upon a long long time ago... Once when he could love with his everything and more... He remembers how happy he was to love... Yet now...
    SimonFlarerington SimonFlarerington 22-25, M 2 hrs ago

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    The walls are tall and thick, for what lies behind them are protected from the harsh world.Once there were no walls at all....torn to pieces by people who kept taking piece by...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F Nov 29

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    I am arrogant. Yep. Arrogance is like smoke. It remains an abomination to air though it raises dancing in the sky. It acts as an opposing force to self-criticism abilities. But...
    susipsikopat susipsikopat 22-25, F 3 Responses 17 hrs ago

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    I joined this experience, not because I am a victim of emotional abuse by somebody else, but because I am emotional abuse's victim. in other words, I am the emotional abuser. I...
    WeArePilots WeArePilots 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 11

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    Candles light the room so well with their delicate beauty, their flames flicker that delicate shadows on the wall, casting that spell of relaxation, whispers its sweet gentleness...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    I realised that it's not a matter of being made for each other, it's that you are each other. I was new to the concept and I focused more on the fantasy side of our connection...
    topsykrit topsykrit 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 10

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    Again, excuse the awkward wordings to get around the censors, but it won't let me post this story without them. I was in one for six days in February, and then they forced me to...
    Boulier Boulier 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 7

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    **Infant loss trigger** For my son's birth I was given drugs to induce labor. I was 38 weeks pregnant and we found out his heart had stopped beating. Induced labour is supposed to...
    Etheros Etheros 46-50, F 1 Response Nov 21

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    I never thought that one day he would hurt me. Emotionally. I still remember the day we had this deep conversation about feelings and how I said that I am emotionally strong. Well...
    Toomuchlittle Toomuchlittle 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 5

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    Oh, where to begin... I'm not sure if he has NPD or if he's just very narcissistic, but he's definitely not an easy person to live with. I experienced abuse as a child from my...
    chococat159 chococat159 18-21 Nov 23

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    i used to. but she hurt me. now i have a wall built so high around me that i dont think i can even escape.
    lecksierae lecksierae 16-17, F 3 Responses Dec 9

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    As a man, I love to give and pamper. Not with lavish gifts and material items but with myself. I love to e a gentleman and be someone's "hero" if you will, but in saying that I...
    tadams1101 tadams1101 22-25, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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