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I Have Built A Beautiful Emotional Wall

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 190 People

    It'S A Work Of Art

    If you ask me how I feel about just about anything, your answer will be the sound of the backdoor slamming and my car peeling out in the driveway.
    Oracler Oracler 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 28, 2013

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    A Wall......hmmm!

    I am not sure if I would call it an emotional wall as I don't really understand emotions or how I really feel. I find it somewhat confusing. I only let certain people into my world in person, But on this site am more open as there are others like me, who have been through or are...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 27, 2012

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    Emotional Architecture

    I've built it brick by brick, Taken it down, Put it back up, Installed some windows, Let the occasional stranger peek in. Made faces at some of the passersby, I have a love/hate relationship with my beautiful wall. :p
    Sungirl3 Sungirl3 46-50, F 24 Responses Mar 14, 2013

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    The Best Way..

    I built my emotional wall out of necessity. I used to be an extremely emotionally intense person.  I would feel everything as a personal insult, even if it was not intended as one. So anyway, there wasn't really a problem with my sensitivity, in fact nowadays I miss it. But...
    Lymrith Lymrith 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 19, 2010

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    What Would Make You Take Down Your Wall?

    My ex-boyfriend has built an emotional wall. I'm not getting closure because I don't know why we ended. He says he 'doesn't know what to say...' I know there is something in there. I've been open and honest and asked him to do the same. I think he's capable... we're working on a...
    bmmcd bmmcd 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 17, 2009

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    Boundaries - A Fairytale

    When I was growing up there were no boundaries. My parents had many hang-ups. And these forced their way into my childhood garden, until it was like a jungle. The butterflies flew away. The daisies closed up and sank into the ground. The birds stopped nesting there. And in...
    desertfrost desertfrost 41-45, F 2 Responses Oct 17, 2010

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    Good At Hiding My Emotions..until Those Walls Crack Into Almost Insanity.

    I feel like a complete burden to everyone. I've had my heart broken, ripped apart, and torn to tiny pieces. I've lost friends, "best" friends, on different occasions. People are annoyed by my constant "crying and issues" that need to be worked out. In general...I...
    meXtrano meXtrano 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25, 2010

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    Media Influenced Me

    Im young, but I feel like no one needs to know how I feel. No one needs to have the burden of my emotional issues, or the issues in my life. The media played a big part in that to. Those rage comics of men being mad at women who want to talk about things that hurt them, or when...
    Lemoniqua6 Lemoniqua6 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 7, 2012

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    Tearing Down Brick Walls

    after everingthing that ive been through in my life, rape, domestic abuse and many other things, i had and have "brick" walls. these are all in my head. over the past year, (i removed myself from the badness in my life a year ago) i have been trying to tear these walls down, but...
    robdawg3434 robdawg3434 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 14, 2013

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    I Built It Brick By Brick

    Someone that I love dearly asked me why I am constantly behind a wall. Well I have spent years building this wall of mine.  Brick by brick, I put up the wall its mortar representing a painful emotional experience I have gone through.  It has slowly become my security...
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 13 Responses Nov 16, 2009

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    For My Protection

    Cause it is a harsh world out there and people will use and abuse you then throw you aside with little thought about you...... Of course there are ones like me who seem to throw themselves on the gernades and take all of the abuse and then say "Give me another..." So...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 8 Responses Nov 27, 2009

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    Yes I Have

    I am proud of it. I sometimes sit on that wall and make faces at all the people looking up at it. Then I forget how I got up there, and wait for someone else to pass by so I can jump down on them. :D Everything works out.
    LifelessSource LifelessSource 18-21, F Apr 19, 2011

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    Yes!

    i have a wall built as high as the gates to heaven, with lots of bricks, than concrete, than bars, and than some more bricks. No one can possiblly get into them, and get past them, i do it to prevent myself. so no one esle can get in and hurt me again, because someone can only...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 28, 2009

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    Climb Over My Wall....please

    My emotional wall is a natural habit that I can't seem to break. It's been under construction since I was about three years old, maybe longer but I can't remember. It protects me from pain, being hurt, or used, or being put in vulnerable situations that i can't always handle. It...
    worthgrowing worthgrowing 22-25, F 6 Responses Oct 19, 2010

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    My Wall Is....

    My wall is not beautiful. It's never been. It's just necessary. I need it or I wouldn't be able to survive in this world. I've known for a long time that I am a sensitive person and I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve where everyone can see it and abuse it. I have been hurt...
    Kat47 Kat47 46-50, F 4 Responses Jan 21, 2013

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    Beautiful?

    I am still trying to decide if my wall is beautiful. They say it's not a sin to admire your own hard work a bit, but I don't know that I see my wall as such an accomplishment because it's serving to keep out the good and the bad indiscriminately.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Nov 24, 2010

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    I put a wall up because then i won't get hurt, but if you think i am worth the time and effort to break that wall down, then i will know you're worth letting in... slw
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    Like the sky, the sky is the list beautifulest thing in the world :) here's a picture I took about a month ago :)
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    SpiritualScientist SpiritualScientist 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 9

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    I have been very emotional this year and now I'm crying listening to a song and looking at a gif picture. Now my head is starting to hurt.
    InnocentShattered InnocentShattered 18-21 1 Response Dec 27, 2014

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    onlytrusthim onlytrusthim 36-40, M Dec 27, 2014

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    Mythriel Mythriel 22-25, F Jan 3

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    I am so happy I found this website. Im 27 years old and feel very alone and abandoned. I have a beautiful son and a husband. For the most part of my life I just felt like I have...
    wandapandabear wandapandabear 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    My best friend is 12 years older than me, and has been with this guy for 15 years. They've been married for 10 and have two beautiful boys. But their marriage started to break down...
    Lesmall Lesmall 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 6

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    Sorry but this will be a long read. I have an emotionally abusive father. It is hard to cope with but it's gotten a thousand times better since I moved out of his home 4 years ago...
    Emericia Emericia 22-25 Dec 26, 2014

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    A few simple of experiences of why I have cried in school: Kindergarten: I called a boy in my class stupid, then later when I saw a police car park in front of the school I started...
    SparkleSwirl SparkleSwirl 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    I never get it when people say they want to bang their head against a wall but right now, I just want to bang my head against a wall and scream some really insensitive...
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    rbeccalynn rbeccalynn 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 8

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    MDubs MDubs 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    Breeziiee Breeziiee 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    Today i read something online doing some personal research about people feeling unloved and it mentioned how those who grew up in homes where their parent(s) didn't show them any...
    TheWorldVsJ TheWorldVsJ 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 26, 2014

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    Uncle Adam There are a lot of alcoholics in my family, including my father, now sober. But the first in our family to be recognised for this disease was my uncle, Adam. He was...
    PersonalGenesis PersonalGenesis 22-25, F Jan 7

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