Post
Experience Project iOS Android Apps | Download EP for your Mobile Device

I Have Built My Walls So High That They Will Never Come Down

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 698 People

    So Soothing

    I still have my first guitar. I named her freya. I've had her for about 4 years now. I'm getting a tattoo of freya on my back, only she will have a microphone attached to her. I have it all planned out and I'm excited. :) I pick freya up whenever I feel an emotion, regardless of...
    Dulcette Dulcette 22-25, F Aug 7, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    And I Hate It!

    I don't even have a viable reason for it. It's something that has been sucking the fun out of life. I think my defense mechanisms are working overtime for some weird reason. I will not let this get the best of me. I don't want to be taken advantage of by others...
    wack1985 wack1985 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 23, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    And It Chases Them All Away !

    I'm so afraid of someone seeing the real me. It sucks. noone will fight to tear them down. I can't blame them either.
    CDebes1988 CDebes1988 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 4, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Keeps Going Higher

    It seems that every time that someone hurts me I just keep building it higher, and if they happen to be that one who doesnt hurt me I still build it up just so that incase they ever decide to want to hurt me the wall will be ready for them. I dont even know if that one person...
    Dragonflywings Dragonflywings 26-30, F Dec 5, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    These Walls

    These walls stay up to protect and keep the pain away These walls I built from tears and hurt will keep you all out These walls know secrets I will NEVER tell and in my nightmares stay These walls enclose me and are my prison cell These walls echo all you said and made me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 15, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Closed Off, They Say

    I'm not sure what made me so closed off....I think maybe it's because I am afraid that if people get to know me, really get to know me, and see how much I am suffering inside, that they would either be apalled or they would pity me.  I don't want people...
    Lumos Lumos 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 22, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    These Walls I Built

    I have built my Walls so high I know one can get in so thick know one can break thru I have been let down a lot in my life the only people that I came to trust where my friends for years we where always really close everything to geather there was about 18 of us when we where...
    TheDevilsOwn TheDevilsOwn 22-25, M 3 Responses Feb 16, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Protection

    In what way do you build your walls to protect you from other people? I suppose I zone out, I ignore everything that's happening around me and avoid getting into conversations, and if a conversation finds me, the person loses interest quickly, I suppose I must scare them...
    nowayjose87 nowayjose87 22-25, M 3 Responses Dec 1, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    The Wall That Never Comes Down Again

    i have been keeping my wall up even more strongly after i have been hurt both physical  and mentally, i built my wall up so hugh then i started to let someone in, they then blackmailed me with the information i let them see and hear so i have learnt not to let people in as it...
    207103anglegirl 207103anglegirl 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 28, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I am not aware of how else to live?

    ? Those who I loved most have all gone to be in Heaven. Yes I have good friends here. I still get lonely. I have tried to be in relationships but nothing ever sticks. I can only take rejection so much before you just give up hope and don't even want to try at all. I hate feeling...
    nettyg nettyg 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 6, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    These Walls Are My Only Protection From Hurt

    i have taken down my walls a few times for some people but to find that all they do is attack me with spears and daggers.these walls around me are my only protection from hurt and disappointment.why should i bring them down when i just get attacked?
    heartwolf heartwolf 13-15, F Jun 16, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Well, I got what I wished.

    I wanted to experience what is it like to be liked by somebody. Felt it. Wasn't cool. :) Met someone who is so NOT my type. We don't match each other at ALL. It was obvious! But I don't know what's going through his mind. I have to always admit that I am wrong and apologize. It...
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 25, 2014

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Walls Can Only Go So High But A Pit Always Has Deeper To Go.

    I didn't build my walls. I dug them. I'm not in a fortress I'm in a hole. I dug this hole because its safe down here. No-one and nothing can touch me. I don't even know why but I'm scared to let people near me, I don't want to be hurt or let down so I'm too far away for that to...
    AgeonAngel AgeonAngel 18-21 Aug 9, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Brick And Cement

    I can definitely relate to this. Over the years, i have had so much happen 2 me that i built this wall that's literally indestructible!& all that wall is 2 me is my security blanket. It protects me from getting hurt, betrayed, abandoned or any other negative feeling! & after...
    punty punty 26-30, F Jan 22, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I let my walls down and I got hurt.

    I loved someone that didn't love me. He was my everything and he wasn't willing to fight to keep me. I was nothing to him. I'm never letting my walls again.
    kpfoster1985 kpfoster1985 13-15, M 2 Responses Feb 13

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Highest Walls Thatll Never Break

    I was alwasy one to protect myself when it came to feelings i always had a wall up but never a strong one. Well i recently had a life changeing experience as most of you may know if you see my stories. lol it wasn't like death but to me it felt like my death so I built my walls...
    browneyegirl89 browneyegirl89 18-21, F 22 Responses Nov 14, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Constant Fight Or Flight

    I am on constant fight or flight. I have walls so high that I cant see over them. I have so many self protection mechanisms that it would shock you. I have so many things i do uncontiously to protect myself. I cant let anyone else in. The doors locked and bars. Trust hurts so i...
    Lilibuth12 Lilibuth12 18-21, F May 18, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I have always blocked myself off from the world.

    Ever since kindergarten. Now, as I've aged & been beaten down by life / relationships. I now have walls so high I am untrusting and nearly incapable of love.
    Foenix Foenix 36-40, M 2 Responses Jan 29

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Me Myself And Walls

    I have walls, they are built pretty highthey are pretty freakin' highI keep everything in, keeping everyone from getting into my life. It sorta just happened; if you get put in that position to be on your own then you just grow So into being solo. I'm the one who could be...
    SoSwSh SoSwSh 16-17, M Oct 30, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    The Closer You Get, The More I'll Build

    Walls aren't thing that come down.  They just get moved back.  The closer you get to me, the more likely you'll hurt me, so the higher and closer my walls get.  They are unbrakeable.  You can't climb over them, dig under them or go around them.  You jsut...
    cassrowen cassrowen 26-30 5 Responses Sep 10, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Have You Earned It?

    He's been slowing breaking them down piece by piece. But I don't know if he'll ever fully bring it down.. It's not even that I'm trying to keep it this way. It's just that I have taught myself not to let them come down. It's hard to be honest and tell everything that has...
    Amay408 Amay408 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 2, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Sounds Like A Job For Acme

    Purdy sure they have a ladder that'll reach. Or a rocket, or........free falling Anvils to break the barriers... I don't know, But I think they do. Or food traps,..gotta come out for a little seed from time to time..
    PrettyOldSoul PrettyOldSoul 41-45, F 10 Responses Jun 16, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Im Just Sick Of Getting Hurt

    Its like what is the point of putting down those walls if you just get hurt in the end?There is a reason why we have walls, some have taller thicker walls than others, and that's just because wehave felt that pain and we do not want to feel it again.I have lowered my walls a few...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 17, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    Where to begin? I am a complicated person with conflicting desires. I have always been really lazy. There is a part of me that would love to never work. I would like to just eat...
    atpeacewithme atpeacewithme 31-35 1 Response 32 mins ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    i dpnt understand what purpose my life has. i feel like im taking air someone else needs to breathe. ive been mentally n physically abused for more then half my lifeso i feel im...
    cooper3366 cooper3366 31-35, F 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    i mean if they want too learn they will .........................
    hope1091 hope1091 22-25, M 4 Responses 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I feel like I have no purpose, I can't actually help anyone, most people don't even want me close by, I mess everything up in someway or form. I'm never satisfied with any of my...
    Azureal Azureal 26-30, M 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My life is getting from bad to worse because of my 21 year old brother. I do not speak to him but I constantly have to watch him argue with my mother and disrespect her every time...
    dreamer3214 dreamer3214 22-25, F 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I just love when someone tells me, "you are one of those modern housewives huh." When you are Hispanic what they are really trying to tell you is: "you don't cook and clean huh...
    Sarahi7 Sarahi7 26-30, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    that moment when you really like someone and you're dating but they lied to you and you are just like wow I can't believe I believed them when they said "oh I'm different" and "i...
    nightmare06 nightmare06 13-15, F 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I've been on E P for many years. I've been on similar kinds of sites over the years. I've participated in chat rooms on the net over the years. I interact with women in gyms in...
    thebustierthebetter thebustierthebetter 46-50, M 3 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    There are numerous older men in the world who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to...
    tessaccaa tessaccaa 26-30, F 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    why European , American and Australia they not like Arab Man?
    Masoals Masoals 26-30, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    If there's one thing I hate the most it's back-talking, especially when it's negative of what someone gives his or her own interpretations to which are all wrong. If I ever catch...
    AngelicLights AngelicLights 26-30, F 6 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I will never give up Becuase people look up to me and I don't want to teach them that giving up is an option.
    jingoru jingoru 18-21, M a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Because if I did then there will be a time that I'd wish I didn't.
    BaconetteParadise BaconetteParadise 16-17, F Jul 25

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I will never give up until I become someone whom you regret forgetting...
    RagingDemon29 RagingDemon29 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 25

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I will never give up until I become someone whom you regret forgetting...
    RagingDemon29 RagingDemon29 13-15, F Jul 25

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Never be afraid to try, remember... Amateurs built the Ark. Professionals built the Titanic
    Arlys Arlys 51-55, M Jul 24

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Whenever you message someone knowing full well they don't give a **** about what you're saying, but you still ramble on and on because you hope one day they will message you back...
    wreckofagirl wreckofagirl 22-25, F Jul 21

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I know I will never drink alcohol, because I've seen it first-hand. It really just destroys families and hurts everybody close to you..
    KittyCassidy KittyCassidy 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 21

    Your Response

    Cancel
    i ******* hate myself ...i hate myself i hate myself i hate myseeeeeeeelf....why why why why why why why why why ******* whyyyyyyyyyyy.......im a loser and always will be...im a...
    LegendBattles LegendBattles 26-30, M 2 Responses Jul 21

    Your Response

    Cancel
    when I was born I almost died due to a rare heart condition, apparently one doctor saved my life because only he managed to figure out the arteries in my heart were the wrong way...
    forgottenluna forgottenluna 18-21, M Jul 19

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Ive done before for false pretences Ill never do again. Who cares if i have more then you well go shopping.
    Averageguy41011 Averageguy41011 41-45, M 2 Responses Jul 19