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I Have Built My Walls So High That They Will Never Come Down

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    And It Chases Them All Away !

    I'm so afraid of someone seeing the real me. It sucks. noone will fight to tear them down. I can't blame them either.
    CDebes1988 CDebes1988 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 4, 2009

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    The Wall That Never Comes Down Again

    i have been keeping my wall up even more strongly after i have been hurt both physical  and mentally, i built my wall up so hugh then i started to let someone in, they then blackmailed me with the information i let them see and hear so i have learnt not to let people in as it...
    207103anglegirl 207103anglegirl 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 28, 2011

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    I have always blocked myself off from the world.

    Ever since kindergarten. Now, as I've aged & been beaten down by life / relationships. I now have walls so high I am untrusting and nearly incapable of love.
    Foenix Foenix 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 29

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    I am not aware of how else to live?

    ? Those who I loved most have all gone to be in Heaven. Yes I have good friends here. I still get lonely. I have tried to be in relationships but nothing ever sticks. I can only take rejection so much before you just give up hope and don't even want to try at all. I hate feeling...
    nettyg nettyg 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 6, 2014

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    Have You Earned It?

    He's been slowing breaking them down piece by piece. But I don't know if he'll ever fully bring it down.. It's not even that I'm trying to keep it this way. It's just that I have taught myself not to let them come down. It's hard to be honest and tell everything that has...
    Amay408 Amay408 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 2, 2010

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    Keeps Going Higher

    It seems that every time that someone hurts me I just keep building it higher, and if they happen to be that one who doesnt hurt me I still build it up just so that incase they ever decide to want to hurt me the wall will be ready for them. I dont even know if that one person...
    Dragonflywings Dragonflywings 26-30, F Dec 5, 2009

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    Highest Walls Thatll Never Break

    I was alwasy one to protect myself when it came to feelings i always had a wall up but never a strong one. Well i recently had a life changeing experience as most of you may know if you see my stories. lol it wasn't like death but to me it felt like my death so I built my walls...
    browneyegirl89 browneyegirl89 18-21, F 22 Responses Nov 14, 2009

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    These Walls Are My Only Protection From Hurt

    i have taken down my walls a few times for some people but to find that all they do is attack me with spears and daggers.these walls around me are my only protection from hurt and disappointment.why should i bring them down when i just get attacked?
    heartwolf heartwolf 13-15, F Jun 16, 2011

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    These Walls

    These walls stay up to protect and keep the pain away These walls I built from tears and hurt will keep you all out These walls know secrets I will NEVER tell and in my nightmares stay These walls enclose me and are my prison cell These walls echo all you said and made me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 15, 2012

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    Constant Fight Or Flight

    I am on constant fight or flight. I have walls so high that I cant see over them. I have so many self protection mechanisms that it would shock you. I have so many things i do uncontiously to protect myself. I cant let anyone else in. The doors locked and bars. Trust hurts so i...
    Lilibuth12 Lilibuth12 18-21, F May 18, 2010

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    So Soothing

    I still have my first guitar. I named her freya. I've had her for about 4 years now. I'm getting a tattoo of freya on my back, only she will have a microphone attached to her. I have it all planned out and I'm excited. :) I pick freya up whenever I feel an emotion, regardless of...
    Dulcette Dulcette 22-25, F Aug 7, 2011

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    Walls Can Only Go So High But A Pit Always Has Deeper To Go.

    I didn't build my walls. I dug them. I'm not in a fortress I'm in a hole. I dug this hole because its safe down here. No-one and nothing can touch me. I don't even know why but I'm scared to let people near me, I don't want to be hurt or let down so I'm too far away for that to...
    AgeonAngel AgeonAngel 18-21 Aug 9, 2010

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    Protection

    In what way do you build your walls to protect you from other people? I suppose I zone out, I ignore everything that's happening around me and avoid getting into conversations, and if a conversation finds me, the person loses interest quickly, I suppose I must scare them...
    nowayjose87 nowayjose87 22-25, M 3 Responses Dec 1, 2010

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    I let my walls down and I got hurt.

    I loved someone that didn't love me. He was my everything and he wasn't willing to fight to keep me. I was nothing to him. I'm never letting my walls again.
    kpfoster1985 kpfoster1985 13-15, M 2 Responses Feb 13

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    Closed Off, They Say

    I'm not sure what made me so closed off....I think maybe it's because I am afraid that if people get to know me, really get to know me, and see how much I am suffering inside, that they would either be apalled or they would pity me.  I don't want people...
    Lumos Lumos 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 22, 2009

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    And I Hate It!

    I don't even have a viable reason for it. It's something that has been sucking the fun out of life. I think my defense mechanisms are working overtime for some weird reason. I will not let this get the best of me. I don't want to be taken advantage of by others...
    wack1985 wack1985 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 23, 2009

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    These Walls I Built

    I have built my Walls so high I know one can get in so thick know one can break thru I have been let down a lot in my life the only people that I came to trust where my friends for years we where always really close everything to geather there was about 18 of us when we where...
    TheDevilsOwn TheDevilsOwn 22-25, M 3 Responses Feb 16, 2011

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    Brick And Cement

    I can definitely relate to this. Over the years, i have had so much happen 2 me that i built this wall that's literally indestructible!& all that wall is 2 me is my security blanket. It protects me from getting hurt, betrayed, abandoned or any other negative feeling! & after...
    punty punty 26-30, F Jan 22, 2013

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    Im Just Sick Of Getting Hurt

    Its like what is the point of putting down those walls if you just get hurt in the end?There is a reason why we have walls, some have taller thicker walls than others, and that's just because wehave felt that pain and we do not want to feel it again.I have lowered my walls a few...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 17, 2012

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    Well, I got what I wished.

    I wanted to experience what is it like to be liked by somebody. Felt it. Wasn't cool. :) Met someone who is so NOT my type. We don't match each other at ALL. It was obvious! But I don't know what's going through his mind. I have to always admit that I am wrong and apologize. It...
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 25, 2014

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    The Closer You Get, The More I'll Build

    Walls aren't thing that come down.  They just get moved back.  The closer you get to me, the more likely you'll hurt me, so the higher and closer my walls get.  They are unbrakeable.  You can't climb over them, dig under them or go around them.  You jsut...
    cassrowen cassrowen 26-30 5 Responses Sep 10, 2010

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    Me Myself And Walls

    I have walls, they are built pretty highthey are pretty freakin' highI keep everything in, keeping everyone from getting into my life. It sorta just happened; if you get put in that position to be on your own then you just grow So into being solo. I'm the one who could be...
    SoSwSh SoSwSh 16-17, M Oct 30, 2011

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    Sounds Like A Job For Acme

    Purdy sure they have a ladder that'll reach. Or a rocket, or........free falling Anvils to break the barriers... I don't know, But I think they do. Or food traps,..gotta come out for a little seed from time to time..
    PrettyOldSoul PrettyOldSoul 41-45, F 10 Responses Jun 16, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    By far there has been no girl that I can particularly relate to who was very fond or interested in me even if I studied in co ED I dont think good looks, money, beauty things...
    FightingTillTheEnd FightingTillTheEnd 31-35, M Feb 17

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    I just got my HSC results and I passed. But they're not that great. It feels like the end of the world for me because I might not even get a university course, and that means I...
    ashfaaqb ashfaaqb 18-21, M Feb 2

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    When we’d fight and it was my fault, I’d try and soothe the wounds by saying, “I love you.” It’s a cheap trick, isn’t it? To use “I love you” to put a band-aid on...
    MzPhoenix MzPhoenix 31-35, F 4 Responses Feb 7

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    I'm not anyone first choice😩 im not anyone favorite.☹people may tell me that im special and that I mean alot to them☺, but deep down I know they will chose someone over me...
    HerTrapQueen HerTrapQueen 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 19

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    I will never allow anyone to break my heart , I will never be upset or care , I won't listen to anyone who's telling me something I don't want to do , I want to be my self I will...
    Taurus1993s Taurus1993s 18-21, F Feb 19

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    To Many Men Have Told Me That They Married A Wonderful Woman And Ended Up With A Wife. The Only Thing Women And Wives Have In Common Are Gender Apparently. So I Will Stay Single
    DonnaDomm DonnaDomm 26-30, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    It is true that I am a nudist and very sexually active with males only. However, I will never do a one night stand with anyone. One night stands are not my style. I want to know...
    redheadfemale redheadfemale 31-35, F Feb 7

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    When i was a kid i wish i could of stayed in my nappies and not grown out of them, if more people was in them then they will be less bullying the people who like and have to wear...
    dirtynappie dirtynappie 26-30, M 3 days ago

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    Children should have the choice whether they want to stay in diapers or get potty trained. My boys are 8, 6, and 3 and they are all three still in diapers. We gave them the choice...
    DiaperDaddy32 DiaperDaddy32 31-35, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I'm stubborn, What can I say. It puts me through Pain I cannot describe to you, Well I can give you an idea.. Imagine setting your insides on fire, there's an example(joke). Really...
    MisssValentine MisssValentine 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    Never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever gonna tell you my secrets.
    YouCantEscapeMyDemons YouCantEscapeMyDemons 13-15, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Nope, N.E.V.E.R NEVER!!!!!!!!! there are somethings in life that we never grow up from, and my things is Disney. I could not live a life without Minnie Mouse in my life. I LOVE...
    ThatOneSomaliGirl ThatOneSomaliGirl 13-15, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    My unforgettable encounter was not with a person, rather it was with a piece of paper that really lifted my spirit. It's so.. SPLENDID! So surreal that a piece of paper, left...
    mercifulpennies mercifulpennies 18-21, F Feb 13

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    As usual, I'm not handling Valentine's day too well. I was doing great by focusing on work, but then I ended up on the web tonight and that all went to hell. If I'm really being...
    GoldingFlies GoldingFlies 18-21 Feb 15

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    I have a personality disorder that makes it to where I find it nearly impossible to ever fall in love with anyone. I've spent the past 10 years trying to find someone that I've...
    nryoung nryoung 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 1

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    Suddenly I think I will leave this city this year. So I work hard and play hard. I know I won't go back again.
    fitwealth fitwealth 26-30, F Feb 19

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    I am a 37y/o man I have two sons that I love but do not have the drive to be part of their lives I am a registered sex offender and can't find n e where to live on my own so I have...
    Lifesabitch78 Lifesabitch78 36-40 Feb 3

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    Often I run into ppl IRL, and online that "hates life", or "wants to die". If only they could see, where I was once. If they could go with me. Back to when I was an RN, caring for...
    EyeDontGiveAHoot EyeDontGiveAHoot 36-40, F 2 Responses Feb 9

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    Bf. Honey, what would you do if a man on EP asked you for a pic of your b.oobs? Gf. Well I would throw a hissy fit and say "Go away you perverted, pervy, pervo, perv... I don't...
    righthanded righthanded 56-60, M Feb 10

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    I'm not what I'm suppose to be. They want a girl who's happy. That's not me. The girl who can talk forever about anything. The girl who isn't insecure and shy. They want someone...
    alyssakayart alyssakayart 18-21, F Feb 13

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    I have 3 boys who have never been potty trained. They are now 8, 6, and 3 and all three of them are still in diapers. We gave them the choice on whether or not they wanted to be...
    DiaperDaddy32 DiaperDaddy32 31-35, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    I love children. But I do not want the responsibility of having kids of my own, nor do I want the drama that comes with them. Further I don't want my body mucked up by giving...
    DonnaDomm DonnaDomm 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Suddenly the mirror shows someone fat Suddenly wrists become paper Suddenly the scale becomes the enemy Suddenly pencil sharpeners are weapons Suddenly pillows are for tears...
    Rourou19 Rourou19 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    in Mario, im 26, and i have a problem. I give every single part of my self to the person i love. Yes, that sounds kinda stupid, al the girls i met use to be with me for my money or...
    wildnugget wildnugget 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 15

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    We saw no reason to potty train our kids, we wanted to give them the option if they wanted to be trained when they were old enough. Our youngest son who is 10 wanted to be trained...
    Erin29 Erin29 26-30, F 8 Responses Feb 17