I Have Built My Walls So High That They Will Never Come Down

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    Brick And Cement

    I can definitely relate to this. Over the years, i have had so much happen 2 me that i built this wall that's literally indestructible!& all that wall is 2 me is my security blanket. It protects me from getting hurt, betrayed, abandoned or any other negative feeling! & after...
    punty punty
    26-30, F
    Jan 22, 2013

    Sounds Like A Job For Acme

    Purdy sure they have a ladder that'll reach. Or a rocket, or........free falling Anvils to break the barriers... I don't know, But I think they do. Or food traps,..gotta come out for a little seed from time to time..
    PrettyOldSoul PrettyOldSoul
    41-45, F
    10 Responses Jun 16, 2011

    I am not aware of how else to live?

    ? Those who I loved most have all gone to be in Heaven. Yes I have good friends here. I still get lonely. I have tried to be in relationships but nothing ever sticks. I can only take rejection so much before you just give up hope and don't even want to try at all. I hate feeling...
    nettyg nettyg
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jul 6, 2014

    Closed Off, They Say

    I'm not sure what made me so closed off....I think maybe it's because I am afraid that if people get to know me, really get to know me, and see how much I am suffering inside, that they would either be apalled or they would pity me.  I don't want people...
    Lumos Lumos
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 22, 2009

    These Walls I Built

    I have built my Walls so high I know one can get in so thick know one can break thru I have been let down a lot in my life the only people that I came to trust where my friends for years we where always really close everything to geather there was about 18 of us when we where...
    TheDevilsOwn TheDevilsOwn
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Feb 16, 2011

    I have always blocked myself off from the world.

    Ever since kindergarten. Now, as I've aged & been beaten down by life / relationships. I now have walls so high I am untrusting and nearly incapable of love.
    Foenix Foenix
    41-45, M
    1 Response Jan 29, 2015

    The Closer You Get, The More I'll Build

    Walls aren't thing that come down.  They just get moved back.  The closer you get to me, the more likely you'll hurt me, so the higher and closer my walls get.  They are unbrakeable.  You can't climb over them, dig under them or go around them.  You jsut...
    cassrowen cassrowen
    26-30
    5 Responses Sep 10, 2010

    These Walls

    These walls stay up to protect and keep the pain away These walls I built from tears and hurt will keep you all out These walls know secrets I will NEVER tell and in my nightmares stay These walls enclose me and are my prison cell These walls echo all you said and made me...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses May 15, 2012

    Keeps Going Higher

    It seems that every time that someone hurts me I just keep building it higher, and if they happen to be that one who doesnt hurt me I still build it up just so that incase they ever decide to want to hurt me the wall will be ready for them. I dont even know if that one person...
    Dragonflywings Dragonflywings
    26-30, F
    Dec 5, 2009

    I let my walls down and I got hurt.

    I loved someone that didn't love me. He was my everything and he wasn't willing to fight to keep me. I was nothing to him. I'm never letting my walls again.
    kpfoster1985 kpfoster1985
    13-15, M
    1 Response Feb 13, 2015

    Walls Can Only Go So High But A Pit Always Has Deeper To Go.

    I didn't build my walls. I dug them. I'm not in a fortress I'm in a hole. I dug this hole because its safe down here. No-one and nothing can touch me. I don't even know why but I'm scared to let people near me, I don't want to be hurt or let down so I'm too far away for that to...
    AgeonAngel AgeonAngel
    18-21
    Aug 9, 2010

    Protection

    In what way do you build your walls to protect you from other people? I suppose I zone out, I ignore everything that's happening around me and avoid getting into conversations, and if a conversation finds me, the person loses interest quickly, I suppose I must scare them...
    nowayjose87 nowayjose87
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Dec 1, 2010

    Me Myself And Walls

    I have walls, they are built pretty highthey are pretty freakin' highI keep everything in, keeping everyone from getting into my life. It sorta just happened; if you get put in that position to be on your own then you just grow So into being solo. I'm the one who could be...
    SoSwSh SoSwSh
    16-17, M
    Oct 30, 2011

    The Wall That Never Comes Down Again

    i have been keeping my wall up even more strongly after i have been hurt both physical  and mentally, i built my wall up so hugh then i started to let someone in, they then blackmailed me with the information i let them see and hear so i have learnt not to let people in as it...
    207103anglegirl 207103anglegirl
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 28, 2011

    Highest Walls Thatll Never Break

    I was alwasy one to protect myself when it came to feelings i always had a wall up but never a strong one. Well i recently had a life changeing experience as most of you may know if you see my stories. lol it wasn't like death but to me it felt like my death so I built my walls...
    browneyegirl89 browneyegirl89
    18-21, F
    22 Responses Nov 14, 2009

    Well, I got what I wished.

    I wanted to experience what is it like to be liked by somebody. Felt it. Wasn't cool. :) Met someone who is so NOT my type. We don't match each other at ALL. It was obvious! But I don't know what's going through his mind. I have to always admit that I am wrong and apologize. It...
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Apr 25, 2014

    So Soothing

    I still have my first guitar. I named her freya. I've had her for about 4 years now. I'm getting a tattoo of freya on my back, only she will have a microphone attached to her. I have it all planned out and I'm excited. :) I pick freya up whenever I feel an emotion, regardless of...
    Dulcette Dulcette
    22-25, F
    Aug 7, 2011

    Have You Earned It?

    He's been slowing breaking them down piece by piece. But I don't know if he'll ever fully bring it down.. It's not even that I'm trying to keep it this way. It's just that I have taught myself not to let them come down. It's hard to be honest and tell everything that has...
    Amay408 Amay408
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Nov 2, 2010

    Im Just Sick Of Getting Hurt

    Its like what is the point of putting down those walls if you just get hurt in the end?There is a reason why we have walls, some have taller thicker walls than others, and that's just because wehave felt that pain and we do not want to feel it again.I have lowered my walls a few...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 17, 2012

    And It Chases Them All Away !

    I'm so afraid of someone seeing the real me. It sucks. noone will fight to tear them down. I can't blame them either.
    CDebes1988 CDebes1988
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Dec 4, 2009

    Constant Fight Or Flight

    I am on constant fight or flight. I have walls so high that I cant see over them. I have so many self protection mechanisms that it would shock you. I have so many things i do uncontiously to protect myself. I cant let anyone else in. The doors locked and bars. Trust hurts so i...
    Lilibuth12 Lilibuth12
    18-21, F
    May 18, 2010

    These Walls Are My Only Protection From Hurt

    i have taken down my walls a few times for some people but to find that all they do is attack me with spears and daggers.these walls around me are my only protection from hurt and disappointment.why should i bring them down when i just get attacked?
    heartwolf heartwolf
    13-15, F
    Jun 16, 2011

    And I Hate It!

    I don't even have a viable reason for it. It's something that has been sucking the fun out of life. I think my defense mechanisms are working overtime for some weird reason. I will not let this get the best of me. I don't want to be taken advantage of by others...
    wack1985 wack1985
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 23, 2009

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