Post

I Have Built My Walls So High That They Will Never Come Down

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 624 People

    Have You Earned It?

    He's been slowing breaking them down piece by piece. But I don't know if he'll ever fully bring it down.. It's not even that I'm trying to keep it this way. It's just that I have taught myself not to let them come down. It's hard to be honest and tell everything that has...
    Amay408 Amay408 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 2, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I am not aware of how else to live?

    ? Those who I loved most have all gone to be in Heaven. Yes I have good friends here. I still get lonely. I have tried to be in relationships but nothing ever sticks. I can only take rejection so much before you just give up hope and don't even want to try at all. I hate feeling...
    nettyg nettyg 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 6

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Brick And Cement

    I can definitely relate to this. Over the years, i have had so much happen 2 me that i built this wall that's literally indestructible!& all that wall is 2 me is my security blanket. It protects me from getting hurt, betrayed, abandoned or any other negative feeling! & after...
    punty punty 26-30, F Jan 22, 2013

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Sounds Like A Job For Acme

    Purdy sure they have a ladder that'll reach. Or a rocket, or........free falling Anvils to break the barriers... I don't know, But I think they do. Or food traps,..gotta come out for a little seed from time to time..
    PrettyOldSoul PrettyOldSoul 41-45, F 10 Responses Jun 16, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Me Myself And Walls

    I have walls, they are built pretty highthey are pretty freakin' highI keep everything in, keeping everyone from getting into my life. It sorta just happened; if you get put in that position to be on your own then you just grow So into being solo. I'm the one who could be...
    SoSwSh SoSwSh 16-17, M Oct 30, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Protection

    In what way do you build your walls to protect you from other people? I suppose I zone out, I ignore everything that's happening around me and avoid getting into conversations, and if a conversation finds me, the person loses interest quickly, I suppose I must scare them...
    nowayjose87 nowayjose87 22-25, M 3 Responses Dec 1, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    These Walls

    These walls stay up to protect and keep the pain away These walls I built from tears and hurt will keep you all out These walls know secrets I will NEVER tell and in my nightmares stay These walls enclose me and are my prison cell These walls echo all you said and made me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 15, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    The Wall That Never Comes Down Again

    i have been keeping my wall up even more strongly after i have been hurt both physical  and mentally, i built my wall up so hugh then i started to let someone in, they then blackmailed me with the information i let them see and hear so i have learnt not to let people in as it...
    207103anglegirl 207103anglegirl 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 28, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Highest Walls Thatll Never Break

    I was alwasy one to protect myself when it came to feelings i always had a wall up but never a strong one. Well i recently had a life changeing experience as most of you may know if you see my stories. lol it wasn't like death but to me it felt like my death so I built my walls...
    browneyegirl89 browneyegirl89 18-21, F 22 Responses Nov 14, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    And It Chases Them All Away !

    I'm so afraid of someone seeing the real me. It sucks. noone will fight to tear them down. I can't blame them either.
    CDebes1988 CDebes1988 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 4, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    The Closer You Get, The More I'll Build

    Walls aren't thing that come down.  They just get moved back.  The closer you get to me, the more likely you'll hurt me, so the higher and closer my walls get.  They are unbrakeable.  You can't climb over them, dig under them or go around them.  You jsut...
    cassrowen cassrowen 26-30 5 Responses Sep 10, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Walls Can Only Go So High But A Pit Always Has Deeper To Go.

    I didn't build my walls. I dug them. I'm not in a fortress I'm in a hole. I dug this hole because its safe down here. No-one and nothing can touch me. I don't even know why but I'm scared to let people near me, I don't want to be hurt or let down so I'm too far away for that to...
    AgeonAngel AgeonAngel 18-21 Aug 9, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Closed Off, They Say

    I'm not sure what made me so closed off....I think maybe it's because I am afraid that if people get to know me, really get to know me, and see how much I am suffering inside, that they would either be apalled or they would pity me.  I don't want people...
    Lumos Lumos 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 22, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    These Walls I Built

    I have built my Walls so high I know one can get in so thick know one can break thru I have been let down a lot in my life the only people that I came to trust where my friends for years we where always really close everything to geather there was about 18 of us when we where...
    TheDevilsOwn TheDevilsOwn 22-25, M 3 Responses Feb 16, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Constant Fight Or Flight

    I am on constant fight or flight. I have walls so high that I cant see over them. I have so many self protection mechanisms that it would shock you. I have so many things i do uncontiously to protect myself. I cant let anyone else in. The doors locked and bars. Trust hurts so i...
    Lilibuth12 Lilibuth12 18-21, F May 18, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Im Just Sick Of Getting Hurt

    Its like what is the point of putting down those walls if you just get hurt in the end?There is a reason why we have walls, some have taller thicker walls than others, and that's just because wehave felt that pain and we do not want to feel it again.I have lowered my walls a few...
    UmbraEyes UmbraEyes 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 17, 2012

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Well, I got what I wished.

    I wanted to experience what is it like to be liked by somebody. Felt it. Wasn't cool. :) Met someone who is so NOT my type. We don't match each other at ALL. It was obvious! But I don't know what's going through his mind. I have to always admit that I am wrong and apologize. It...
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 25

    Your Response

    Cancel

    And I Hate It!

    I don't even have a viable reason for it. It's something that has been sucking the fun out of life. I think my defense mechanisms are working overtime for some weird reason. I will not let this get the best of me. I don't want to be taken advantage of by others...
    wack1985 wack1985 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 23, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Keeps Going Higher

    It seems that every time that someone hurts me I just keep building it higher, and if they happen to be that one who doesnt hurt me I still build it up just so that incase they ever decide to want to hurt me the wall will be ready for them. I dont even know if that one person...
    Dragonflywings Dragonflywings 26-30, F Dec 5, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    So Soothing

    I still have my first guitar. I named her freya. I've had her for about 4 years now. I'm getting a tattoo of freya on my back, only she will have a microphone attached to her. I have it all planned out and I'm excited. :) I pick freya up whenever I feel an emotion, regardless of...
    Dulcette Dulcette 22-25, F Aug 7, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    These Walls Are My Only Protection From Hurt

    i have taken down my walls a few times for some people but to find that all they do is attack me with spears and daggers.these walls around me are my only protection from hurt and disappointment.why should i bring them down when i just get attacked?
    heartwolf heartwolf 13-15, F Jun 16, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    The Vietnam war was at its peak in 1968. The Tet offensive started on January 30 and the Pueblo incident with North Korea occurred on January 23. The USAF began operation Port Bow...
    a42g11 a42g11 66-70, M Jul 9

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I first started thinking about starting a business early on in my life. I would have lemonade stands. I would bike up and down my block, ringing my bell on my bike and sell ice...
    TrailrunnerMN TrailrunnerMN 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 2

    Your Response

    Cancel
    These days nearly everyone follows media and sadly believe in everything they find in them. And majority od those people will think im talking jibberish but it only shows how deep...
    kat8507 kat8507 26-30 Jul 9

    Your Response

    Cancel
    When I was 18 years old I got my 1st DUI, following that when I was 19 I came across my 2nd. I served My time, completed counseling, outpatient therapy, group classes, had an...
    BarteringJoe BarteringJoe 26-30, M 18 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I haven't given myself to someone 100 percent because I haven't ever felt that comfort, that 'I really really like you" feeling, where I'm happy to be open and not forcing anything...
    emelon12 emelon12 18-21, F a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I can try to play the smart sweet girl or the sexy mysterious girl but in the end there is nothing about me anyone can seem to love. I try to just be myself but that seems to never...
    babybop12 babybop12 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 10

    Your Response

    Cancel
    No matter how you look at it racism will never go away not now not then not ever. Even with all the mixing there trying to do many people will still have something racist to say...
    Crazybunny101 Crazybunny101 16-17, F 5 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It means a lot what you say...when you demonstrate.Don't tell me fake disney fairytales if you are gonna end being selfish and just hurting.Those who hurt us the most are the ones...
    4biandu 4biandu 26-30, F Jul 15

    Your Response

    Cancel
    There was a time I felt that our love was pure and real. I say that with all confidence...even if I was only 16 then. The moment I felt sure I loved you, I knew I could never un...
    takaw takaw 22-25, F Jul 19

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Sorry ...but I will never compromise my integrity for anything or anybody. My soul means a lot to me. Although I feel we all swerve from our true path sometimes, we are guided by a...
    johnny048 johnny048 46-50, M 1 Response Jul 8

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Going to sleep alone and waking up alone could may just be one of the hardest things to get over. It's been a long time since I've shared my bed with someone that I'm starting to...
    GivenToFly182 GivenToFly182 26-30, F 6 Responses Jul 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My life has been wasted...and theres nothing I can do about it. I will never be an artist, author or even an actor💔 Why is my life screwed up and full of catastrophe😫 WHY...
    Miserablechildhood Miserablechildhood 13-15, M 2 Responses Jul 16

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Finding the One person who has shown me who I truely am has been an AMAZING experience! I know, that no matter how O/our situation turns out, I will never be the same...and for...
    snwnglmkr snwnglmkr 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 18

    Your Response

    Cancel
    No one cares about me. I have no family because they all abused me. My friends are always too busy for me so I'm just not gonna bother asking if we can hang out anymore. I try to...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 2 Responses a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Will Never Lie About Anything I Say On This Site
    michigan11 michigan11 22-25, M 2 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have done some things that I am not proud of. A lot the stuff I can't even believe to this day that I did it. I did these things back when I was in high school. I did these...
    beachboy14u beachboy14u 18-21, T 2 Responses Jul 13

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I feel this way everyday. It makes me sad when I see everyone around me so happy and in love. I am 23 and have never had a serious boyfriend. Never been loved romantically, or been...
    livingmemory livingmemory 22-25, F 12 Responses Jul 17

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Lately I have noticed this hatred feeling towards my husband. He even tells me he notice that I have a hatred feeling towards him. I just flat out can't stand him! He plays too...
    EyeDontGiveAHoot EyeDontGiveAHoot 36-40, F 6 Responses Jul 22

    Your Response

    Cancel
    In high school, I was supposed to sing the national anthem in front of 1,000 kids and parents. It was my first time ever singing in front anyone. Once I started, I knew I started...
    newgirl52 newgirl52 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    My computer has stopped working, so now I have no way of getting online from home and OMGGGGG it sucks! I've managed to get through a couple of weeks with no online company but I...
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo 31-35, M 21 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    trust is something to be earn, for some it takes an instant for others, weeks and some months.... I sadly am in the first category, I tend to trust to easily. I fell in the trap...
    womanonly womanonly 41-45, F 3 Responses Jul 6

    Your Response

    Cancel
    All my life I've had that weighted feeling in me and never really felt happiness. Bad relationships meant I never achieved my personal goals. Now at 40 I am in the 3rd yr of...
    genevieve34 genevieve34 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 6

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I will tell people who ask that I am bisexual with no preference for one gender over the other. But I've never told my family. It's not out of being afraid of their response...
    Avotica Avotica 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 22

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I think about you all the time, your smile comes across my memories. The crinkle of your eyes, the light in your eyes the way you made me feel, the love I had for you. My wish for...
    onelastgdbye onelastgdbye 36-40, F 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Because every other day I'm lonely,my close friends may have a clue and sometimes ask me and I just brush it off.but deep down,I fear I may be alone forever.though I meet boys...
    dreamsNscreams dreamsNscreams 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 2

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It started when I was younger and all of my friends were just discovering relationships.. I always told them how pointless it was. I would say, "I'm fine alone. I'm going to wait...
    amberooo amberooo 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 3

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I don't. It's that simple. I do t back down I don't give up and I never accept failure as an option
    Fittererboy Fittererboy 18-21, M Jul 3

    Your Response

    Cancel