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I Have Bulimia

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    I Know I Know

    I have it, i chose it and it does not define me. i lost 76.2lbs(35kgs) in three months while i was ana.... I'm what you would call a jumper, i get really big then really small. and i hate it. you see when i start i cant stop. normally something gets me jumping, always something...
    skyefyre17 skyefyre17 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 10, 2009

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    I struggle since I was 16.

    I've been good for almost two years( not purging) but today I relapsed and I dont know what to do... I thought i would never do it again...
    InesLudovico InesLudovico 22-25, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Goodbye Bulimia

    i have been bulimic for several years now, and i've never looked on blogs or anything before to read other people's stories. mostly i just googled information on the body and read health forums and whatnot. but now that i've read other stories i realize bulimia is so completely...
    sabrina0418 sabrina0418 16-17, F 24 Responses Sep 26, 2009

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    Bulimia Is Best Thing Happened To Me :)

    I know it sounds really strange to say that bulimia is the best thing happened in my life , because through recovery i had known many things about myself , i knew that i am good caring sensitive girl like most of us bulimics , and instead of being hurt because of my sensitivity...
    developer developer 22-25 5 Responses Mar 22, 2010

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    My name is Michelle I am 29 years old,

    and I have been suffering from Bulimia since I was 15 years old. I think alot of my issues have resulted from being picked on in my younger years.. Pumpkin was the famious nickname for me in grade school. The kicker was when I broke the swing.. I started with my issue when I was...
    stonm8352 stonm8352 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    I Was Ana, Now I Am Mia

    I have bulimia, I thre up three times today.  I wish I could control my eating and that I would stop feeling so guilty for eating.  Does anyone else feel this way?  I used to weigh 85 pounds and now i am so much heavier.  I wish I had someone to talk to that...
    girlkitty79 girlkitty79 26-30, F 32 Responses Jun 9, 2007

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    Yep ! On top of everything I also struggle with

    bulimia !! It's consuming my life, I count every calorie and anything over what I should eat in my head I simply throw up! It really sucks and I know it is slowly Killing me but it's turned into an addiction !!
    JustJess97 JustJess97 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 4

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    I Feel Ashamed

    It started when I was in high school. I would eat when I was stressed out, once a day after school. I quit for a couple of years and then it crept back into my life somehow a couple of years ago. It happens now usually at least twice a day. I even pretend that I don't want to be...
    sammy sammy 21-25, F 23 Responses Jun 11, 2007

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    The Journey

     Seven weeks ago i would never have seen myself here and a year earlier i wouldnt have seen myself where i was seven weeks ago.    I found a diary entry from myself today from 2006 when i was fifteen and started purging. Slowly and gradually it got worse. Seven...
    stopthis stopthis 18-21, F 8 Responses Nov 17, 2009

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    I think my mom has bulimia.

    I need advice, please. She usually eats only one or two meals a day and immediately vomits afterwards. Sometimes there are even days on which she eats nothing at all. When I ask her why she's doing that she simply says she ate too much. I am really worried about her so I am...
    zyakkui zyakkui 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 20

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    Ashamed And Exhausted

    A short intro: I'm 25, a native of New York, currently living in Hamburg, and perhaps the greatest source of my shame, a man. By no means do I intend to come across as sexist or mysoginist, I just know the statistics and the majority of bulimics are female. In my pivotal teen...
    andrewj1023 andrewj1023 22-25, M 4 Responses Mar 18, 2012

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    miaftw miaftw 26-30, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    I justify it by saying to myself "oh,

    it's just a coping mechanism" or, "when things get less stressful I'll stop", or "I only purge a couple times a week"... truth is, I find it disgusting. I know that feeling, in that moment when I'm teetering back and forth between submitting to the urge and resisting it. And...
    Shad0wMoon Shad0wMoon 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    I have never received treatment despite

    diagnosis from a psychiatrist; however through treatment and medication for anxiety, depression and insomnia, as well as a general improvement in my confidence and happiness, turning to ED behaviours has become less frequent and I feel like I have come a long way in terms of...
    fromlighttodarkness fromlighttodarkness 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    Introducing My Closest Friends, Ana And Mia.

    --First time openly talking about this, so here is a monologue to describe what goes on inside my head. Please let me know what you think, or if you are going through something similar!-- Allow me to introduce you to my two closest friends. They are always there for me. Ana tries...
    ThisOneGirlX ThisOneGirlX 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    I starting doing it because,

    I wanted to lose weight like everyone else, my first option wasn't this it was Crystal Meth it was working in 2 months I lost over 30 pounds. I went from 150 lbs to 120 lbs. I was getting really bad, I stop using it because I got caught using. In my first week without it I gain...
    crystaljay crystaljay 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I Don't Know What To Do

    I feel disgusting and ashamed of myself. I binged with the intention of throwing up and then... just got distracted. I was too upset. I have a midterm and a paper to write for tomorrow that I was anxious about... I listened to music. I still feel disgusting. But by the time I...
    2lane 2lane 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 10, 2012

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    After weeks of thinking I had it under control,

    I am having a severe bulimia relapse. I've had seizures and been so ill because of it and am scared I won't be able to stop. I don't understand why I seek comfort in food and get so out of control with the speed I eat and throw up. I feel like I have another person in my head...
    keeleywilcox keeleywilcox 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 25

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    This Is My Story.......

    W ell my names Serena , im 22, and i believe bulimic. No i havent been diagnosed professionally, just self. I dont remember when it all started, i do remember i used to just bring food up to make people squirm in elementry school, and it went from there. I can control my inside...
    itsbeenajourney itsbeenajourney 22-25, F 54 Responses Jan 7, 2008

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    mathea mathea 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    I Feel Worthless

    About a year ago i changed schools and started in a really high achieving school.... I didn't fit in. Everyone was so smart and outgoing! I started to isolate myself and make myself throw up. I'm now purging up 4-6 times a day. It's starting to take control of me... I told my...
    Liptongal Liptongal 16-17, F 2 Responses May 4, 2012

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    Today I started to have an anxiety attack in

    the middle of my binging and I wasn't planning on purging for awhile I was actually just stuffing my face with food and then next thing you know I couldn't breathe and I purged. It was SO relieving but I also ruined my week of not binging.
    XxbixtchybellaxX XxbixtchybellaxX 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    Can't Think Of A Tittle For This One (:

    This entry might seem little weird as I interviewed myself while writing it and oh well I decided that I want to share MY THOUGHTS this way so here we go. What can I say regarding this matter?  It’s relaxing; it gives an amazing feeling after you are done throwing up what you...
    meme30 meme30 18-21, F 6 Responses May 20, 2012

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    I Am Bulimic

    All my life I wasn't too fat, I was just tall and built like my father who was very athletic.  I went through puberty a little faster than my friends, and on top of that I loved food.  I always ate junk and fried food and didnt really care about healthy...
    morgan521 morgan521 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    stonm8352 stonm8352 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    My name is Michelle I am 29 years old,

    and I have been suffering from Bulimia since I was 15 years old. I think alot of my issues have resulted from being picked on in my younger years.. Pumpkin was the famious nickname for me in grade school. The kicker was when I broke the swing.. I started with my issue when I was...
    stonm8352 stonm8352 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My name is Michelle I am 29 years old,

    and I have been suffering from Bulimia since I was 15 years old. I think alot of my issues have resulted from being picked on in my younger years.. Pumpkin was the famious nickname for me in grade school. The kicker was when I broke the swing.. I started with my issue when I was...
    stonm8352 stonm8352 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    My name is Michelle I am 29 years old,

    and I have been suffering from Bulimia since I was 15 years old. I think alot of my issues have resulted from being picked on in my younger years.. Pumpkin was the famious nickname for me in grade school. The kicker was when I broke the swing.. I started with my issue when I was...
    stonm8352 stonm8352 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I am so caught in between wanting to get better

    & just wanting to let this thing kill me. Every time I find myself happy without mia, it never lasts long, and something excites me and gives me comfort in the thought of just giving in completely. I am miserable with her and Im miserable without her... I dont know what to do.
    breathelovexo breathelovexo 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm A Liar

    I feel like all I do is lie. I've never told anybody the truth about how I feel. I've lied to everyone when I smile or laugh, when I say I'm doing fine. I try to lie to myself every time I look in the mirror. Tell myself I like who I am. That I'm a good person, who people care...
    SilentRevery SilentRevery 22-25, M 3 Responses Oct 24, 2012

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    Why I'm Bulimic

    People may judge me. But they don't know what it's like to be 16 and 5'8/ 346 lbs. they don't know what it's like for your parents to be ashamed of you. So ashamed that all they do it take you to buffets, because they don't want to be seen anywhere else with you. So you start...
    chicin chicin 16-17, F 5 Responses Mar 24, 2010

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    It started just some months ago.

    .. I lost weight and tried to eat normally less systematically, but avoiding sweet food and unhealthy too, nevertheless family and environment, emotional problems started to make me hungry, depressive about what I eat ..and I vomiting after great portions, (before I even...
    JamyAn JamyAn 26-30 1 Response Jul 1

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    The urges are back & their stronger

    than ever. How do u start to feel better when u can't be normal??
    ileneoveru ileneoveru 16-17, F Jul 1

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    Today 2 years ago I entered recovery

    for bulimia. I have not binged and purged once since. Two years free from mia!!! It's so nice and the struggle was really hard. But I made it!!!
    JenMarie97 JenMarie97 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 28

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    The Painful Journey

    I have had bulimia for 4 years now. As a child I was molested so there was a trigger for my bulimia, but at that stage I just didn't eat for a period of time and then went back to regular eating. I had never told anyone I was molested so in 2008 when I started having nightmares...
    MirandaForever MirandaForever 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 11, 2012

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    My names Alee, I am 17 years old

    and I have been suffering with Bulimia since I was 16. It all started when my boyfriend from grade 9-11 told me I have put on several pounds and literally grabbed my stomach to show me. I felt like since he pointed that out he was embarrassed to be out with me. After that food...
    Aleexo96 Aleexo96 16-17, F 3 Responses Jun 18

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    I haven't binged and purged in

    such a long time but have the urge to just binge eat like crazy. Something is wrong with me and I don't know what.
    Salma786 Salma786 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Where do I start? To be completely honest,

    I don't know how long I have been living with this big Bulimic secret. It's been so many years, I've lost count. I turn 26 in a few months, and I know it started when I was still in high school--I guess if I had to approximate, I'd say it's been roughly 8 or 9 years, tops. It...
    siomariet siomariet 22-25 1 Response Jun 27

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    I am 29 years old, and I have been suffering

    from Bulimia since I was 15 years old. I think alot of my issues have resulted from being picked on in my younger years.. Pumpkin was the famious nickname for me in grade school. The kicker was when I broke the swing.. I started with my issue when I was 15. noticed my sister...
    stonm8352 stonm8352 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    I'm 14 years old and looking

    for a pro Ana/Mia buddy. I was admitted to hospital when it was 13 for anorexia. And again when I was 14 for self harm and bulimia/anorexia. Still suffering but I am out of hospital. I need a buddy ASAP ❤️
    itsana911 itsana911 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 8

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    My name is Michelle I am 29 years old,

    and I have been suffering from Bulimia since I was 15 years old. I think alot of my issues have resulted from being picked on in my younger years.. Pumpkin was the famious nickname for me in grade school. The kicker was when I broke the swing.. I started with my issue when I was...
    stonm8352 stonm8352 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    My name is Michelle I am 29 years old,

    and I have been suffering from Bulimia since I was 15 years old. I think alot of my issues have resulted from being picked on in my younger years.. Pumpkin was the famious nickname for me in grade school. The kicker was when I broke the swing.. I started with my issue when I was...
    stonm8352 stonm8352 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    The urges won't go away !

    ! I can't eat one meal without making myself sick ! I don't know what to do, it's getting to the point where it hurts me so much to make myself sick but I can't stop, I don't know what to do !
    JustJess97 JustJess97 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 5

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    Bulimic In Recovery

    I guess i was always a binge eater; i don't remember when i became bulimic.  i remember doing it occasionally in university, and after i graduated when i was alone all the time.  it seemed like i had no friends at all to lean on, except myself.  it got really bad...
    findaway findaway 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 6, 2007

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    Freedom?

    8:34 pm.An hour after you're supposed to eat. I think on it for a couple of minutes and decide, I've been good all day.  Have only drunk water and the usually almond milk in the morning.  I did eat some watermelon earlier as lunch (I always have lunch).  I open the fridge and...
    pinkcorsage pinkcorsage 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 27, 2012

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    You Can Win The Fight Against Bulimia, I Did 10years Ago!

    Hi there.My name is Amanda and I am 27years old. I had bulimia in high school (almost 10 years ago) and I really struggled with it. I have realized that I am a living testimony that you can win the battle against bulimia and that by telling my story I can help others in need.It...
    akmarais akmarais 26-30 3 Responses Jul 26, 2011

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    I am 29 years old, and I have been suffering

    from Bulimia since I was 15 years old. I think alot of my issues have resulted from being picked on in my younger years.. Pumpkin was the famious nickname for me in grade school. The kicker was when I broke the swing.. I started with my issue when I was 15. noticed my sister...
    stonm8352 stonm8352 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    I've been struggling w bulimia

    for about two years now but I am starting to get help with it. I wanna be happy with my body but bulimia only makes me feel guilty and hate myself. The thought of being able to eat a normal sized meal and feel ok about myself knowing I don't have to throw it up after is all I...
    yuuung yuuung 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    Hi all, I am 25 years old

    and have had an eating disorder for about 10 years. It started with anorexic behaviors as a teenager and a noticeable weight loss, but I was never underweight. This slowly developed into periods of extreme over-eating, followed by self-induced vomiting. In college, my disorder...
    meganexplainsitall meganexplainsitall 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2013

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    Back To Old Habits

    Back in sixth grade and for the first half of seventh grade I suffered from bulimia. I thought I would just stop it after I got to be a size 10 children's like my friend Hannah because I was a size 12 children's and it made me feel so fat. After about a month, I was a size 10...
    kate2000 kate2000 13-15, F 7 Responses Oct 24, 2013

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    I Wish I Could Stop Eating.

    I have tried and tried and TRIED for almost two years to stop myself from eating when I'm not completely starving, but I can't ever find the self-control to stop myself. I wish that food tasted bad, but it doesn't. I like eating but I hate what it does to me. I've tried dieting...
    JayTee11 JayTee11 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 17, 2013

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    I've Had It For 10 Years Now...

    I think the most difficult part about it is many people don't understand it. They either make an ignorant opinion about it or they just don't know what to make of it. I tried to stop so many times, but it's so difficult. I think "if I stop, I will gain weight, then I will be...
    puzzles100 puzzles100 22-25, F 10 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    Am I the only one who can hear her voice?

    The voice of "Mia" reminding you how disgusting you actually are? Reminding you of the things you should do when you eat? What the consequences are when you do eat? And screaming at you not to eat at all? I feel insane when I try to tell others about her, and its almost like...
    ThatGurlDailyy ThatGurlDailyy 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 22

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