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I Have Bulimia

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    I have suffered from it

    for several years now. I've been to the eating disorder clinic twice but I felt very uncomfortable and I felt like the nurse was staring at my belly. Right now I'm weighing more than ever but now my mom made dinner for me and I'm sitting on my bed with the plate beside me. It...
    GSSB GSSB 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    i started in high school to "control my weight"

    because i binged constantly and i thought i was fat. the first time was when i ate a whole bag of potato chips and it made me feel sick so i went to the bathroom and purged, ever since then i told myself that it was a good idea. i could eat whatever i wanted and not really gain...
    bam420 bam420 18-21, F Mar 15

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    I'm very, very tall..

    . Well maybe not so much but I guess it's not pretty normal for a girl who has as tall as a model having the weight of a man. So I remember starting to look and the mirror, and becoming more and more paranoid. Then a guy in my class started to call me fat during the whole year...
    Itsarevolution Itsarevolution 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 9

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    I see you all speak about how you're not really

    fat. And I hate you. I am fat, always have been and I throw up so I don't get an larger and can't fit through doorways. Where the hell do you get off having an eating disorder and not being fat, it's silly and not fair to us who really are a waste of space and puke to try to get...
    wasteoftoomuchspace wasteoftoomuchspace 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    I wanna tell my best friend whst im going truth,

    but i just can't say it, she is like so skinny and she can eat what ever she wants, she would never understand what im going truth........
    Rikke2612 Rikke2612 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 23

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    Back To Old Habits

    Back in sixth grade and for the first half of seventh grade I suffered from bulimia. I thought I would just stop it after I got to be a size 10 children's like my friend Hannah because I was a size 12 children's and it made me feel so fat. After about a month, I was a size 10...
    kate2000 kate2000 13-15, F 7 Responses Oct 24, 2013

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    The Painful Journey

    I have had bulimia for 4 years now. As a child I was molested so there was a trigger for my bulimia, but at that stage I just didn't eat for a period of time and then went back to regular eating. I had never told anyone I was molested so in 2008 when I started having nightmares...
    MirandaForever MirandaForever 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 11, 2012

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    I Don't Know What To Do

    I feel disgusting and ashamed of myself. I binged with the intention of throwing up and then... just got distracted. I was too upset. I have a midterm and a paper to write for tomorrow that I was anxious about... I listened to music. I still feel disgusting. But by the time I...
    2lane 2lane 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 10, 2012

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    So I am 15 and I have bulimia,

    it's consuming me, I hang out with my friends and I try not to eat, but when I do, I get it all out when I arrive home. And the worst part is that I am not that skinny. I have always thoughts of purging whenever I eat anything. I am just kind of sad and my sickness (who no one...
    StuckInThePapertowns StuckInThePapertowns 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I've had bulimia since i was 15.

    Ive always been taller and wider built than most girls my age, and it took me a long time to accept my body, but oddly enough it was guys being attracted to my "bigger" body that showed me that I was attractive, pretty, and i was really very fit and healthy. So accepting my body...
    mojo22323 mojo22323 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 4

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    I have been bulimic for about 3 years now.

    I finally told my parents and I wet to get some help. I was ding really good for a while, but recently its gotten bad again. Now that the holidays are here, I'm right back to where I started. I am sneaking around, lying, and constantly binging and purging, binging and purging...
    hnwright99 hnwright99 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    Freedom?

    8:34 pm.An hour after you're supposed to eat. I think on it for a couple of minutes and decide, I've been good all day.  Have only drunk water and the usually almond milk in the morning.  I did eat some watermelon earlier as lunch (I always have lunch).  I open the fridge and...
    pinkcorsage pinkcorsage 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 27, 2012

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    This post if more for me to put my thoughts

    down, to sort through my head in a space where people have a similar problem. The things i write may not be in chronological order, they may not make sense to you. They hardly make sense to me. The spelling and punctuation will be off. just rambles of a confused mind. I have...
    neverendinghunger neverendinghunger 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    A phrase I never thought I'd hear myself say.

    I'm 18 years old and a freshman in college. I love my major and my classes and I have friends that I can trust with everything. What they don't know is that I have had anorexia for 4 years and have been bulimic for the past 7 months. My life is a constant battle between...
    mhharper mhharper 18-21, F Apr 14

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    Everything I eat I have to purge it

    and if I can't I freak out, bulimia will kill me before old age.
    teenpariah teenpariah 16-17, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Introducing My Closest Friends, Ana And Mia.

    --First time openly talking about this, so here is a monologue to describe what goes on inside my head. Please let me know what you think, or if you are going through something similar!-- Allow me to introduce you to my two closest friends. They are always there for me. Ana tries...
    ThisOneGirlX ThisOneGirlX 18-21, F 5 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    Tips for bulimics NOTE- this list is tips on

    how to be safe with bulimia, not how to be bulimic. I recognize that there will always be people suffering with bulimia, and I think we should all know how to take care of ourselves. Just in case you're wondering why I'm qualified to give you these tips- I've been suffering...
    dancer4444 dancer4444 18-21, F Mar 19

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    I'm tired of this and I want to get better.

    Anyone else with me? I found this in depth self help manual online and I'm going to give it a shot. I was wondering if anyone else wants to do it with me? We can form a support group and write to each other about how we're going, we'll take it one week at a time. The manual is...
    femmefatality femmefatality 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 12

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    I am 19 years old and I am bulimic.

    I have been bulimic for about two years. My parents sent me away to a treatment center in Utah for 10 months when I was 17 and I was pretty much forced to stop purging otherwise I would never get out of that place. I stopped my bulimic behavior, but I also gained 30 pounds. I...
    Ehenry7 Ehenry7 18-21, F Mar 21

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    I Am Bulimic

    All my life I wasn't too fat, I was just tall and built like my father who was very athletic.  I went through puberty a little faster than my friends, and on top of that I loved food.  I always ate junk and fried food and didnt really care about healthy...
    morgan521 morgan521 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    i throw up all the time i weigh 236 lbs i cant

    tell anyone i throw up im scared they wont believe me bc you know im not skinny my friends see me eat they dont notice how long i spend in the bathroom after though
    jnenifer jnenifer 18-21, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    I'm afraid that my sickness is hereditary.

    My father was a fat, weak piece of ****, I'm a fat weak piece of **** and I'm afraid I'm going to pass it onto my daughter. Irrational but scary nonetheless.
    wasteoftoomuchspace wasteoftoomuchspace 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    I Know I Know

    I have it, i chose it and it does not define me. i lost 76.2lbs(35kgs) in three months while i was ana.... I'm what you would call a jumper, i get really big then really small. and i hate it. you see when i start i cant stop. normally something gets me jumping, always something...
    skyefyre17 skyefyre17 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 10, 2009

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    Ashamed And Exhausted

    A short intro: I'm 25, a native of New York, currently living in Hamburg, and perhaps the greatest source of my shame, a man. By no means do I intend to come across as sexist or mysoginist, I just know the statistics and the majority of bulimics are female. In my pivotal teen...
    andrewj1023 andrewj1023 22-25, M 4 Responses Mar 18, 2012

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    Bulimic In Recovery

    I guess i was always a binge eater; i don't remember when i became bulimic.  i remember doing it occasionally in university, and after i graduated when i was alone all the time.  it seemed like i had no friends at all to lean on, except myself.  it got really bad...
    findaway findaway 26-30, F 20 Responses Aug 6, 2007

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    I am 45 and have probably had bulimia since I was 18. I have just started to tell friends and family. I am sure I will beat this overpowering disease.
    lynnieloo2 lynnieloo2 41-45, F Jan 6, 2013

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    You Can Win The Fight Against Bulimia, I Did 10years Ago!

    Hi there.My name is Amanda and I am 27years old. I had bulimia in high school (almost 10 years ago) and I really struggled with it. I have realized that I am a living testimony that you can win the battle against bulimia and that by telling my story I can help others in need.It...
    akmarais akmarais 26-30 3 Responses Jul 26, 2011

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    Ive had it for 2 years now.

    It is probably the worst thing about me. Sometimes after lunch/dinner i just think of what i ate &run to the toilet to make myself sick. I'm too scared to put on weight
    TheodoraRenard TheodoraRenard 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 15

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    Great =/

    I've had bulimia for 3 years but finally got control of it about 7 months ago. I was doing so good with resisting the urge every single day...But now I'm purging again like crazy and I can't stop. =.=
    KawaiiDoll KawaiiDoll 18-21, F 6 Responses Mar 30, 2011

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    I Feel Worthless

    About a year ago i changed schools and started in a really high achieving school.... I didn't fit in. Everyone was so smart and outgoing! I started to isolate myself and make myself throw up. I'm now purging up 4-6 times a day. It's starting to take control of me... I told my...
    Liptongal Liptongal 16-17, F 2 Responses May 4, 2012

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    I have been trying to beat this awful disease

    for around 4 years now. It's gotten to the point where I argue with myself after every single time I eat anything. I try to tell myself, "It's okay, you aren't over eating..it's normal, it's healthy, it's okay.." but i always end up throwing it all up no matter how much i try...
    salily17 salily17 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 15

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    Goodbye Bulimia

    i have been bulimic for several years now, and i've never looked on blogs or anything before to read other people's stories. mostly i just googled information on the body and read health forums and whatnot. but now that i've read other stories i realize bulimia is so completely...
    sabrina0418 sabrina0418 16-17, F 24 Responses Sep 26, 2009

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    Why I'm Bulimic

    People may judge me. But they don't know what it's like to be 16 and 5'8/ 346 lbs. they don't know what it's like for your parents to be ashamed of you. So ashamed that all they do it take you to buffets, because they don't want to be seen anywhere else with you. So you start...
    chicin chicin 16-17, F 5 Responses Mar 24, 2010

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    I honestly want too learn more about anorexia &

    bulimia. I'm kinda interested in it & want too find out more facts about it. I just want too find a way too become skinny fast & this is the only way I can think of ..
    Thatonegirl5678 Thatonegirl5678 13-15, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I Feel Ashamed

    It started when I was in high school. I would eat when I was stressed out, once a day after school. I quit for a couple of years and then it crept back into my life somehow a couple of years ago. It happens now usually at least twice a day. I even pretend that I don't want to be...
    sammy sammy 21-25, F 23 Responses Jun 11, 2007

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    I have Bulimia?? Such a weird thing

    for me to say! I've always had issues with food. Growing up I was always the "bulky" and fit athlete so I never saw it as fat. I'd watch my dad encourage "snacks" before dinner, after dinner, while watching tv, when bored...anything really. I never realized how unhealthy my...
    gabs88022 gabs88022 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I Was Ana, Now I Am Mia

    I have bulimia, I thre up three times today.  I wish I could control my eating and that I would stop feeling so guilty for eating.  Does anyone else feel this way?  I used to weigh 85 pounds and now i am so much heavier.  I wish I had someone to talk to that...
    girlkitty79 girlkitty79 26-30, F 31 Responses Jun 9, 2007

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    In Need To Self-Confidence

    I'm Always influenced by people's comments and their wordsI want to be confident in myself, and when I look at a mirror does not feel sad .. All people say I am beautiful and have a perfect body, but I do not see that .. I want to love myself as I am, beautiful or ugly, fat or...
    Alyarayan Alyarayan 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 28, 2013

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    i just posted my icon

    as me. today. the morning after an epic bp on ice cream, chocolate, peanut butter, cereal, and PIZZA! be warned. binge and you will turn into a fat monster like me. 🐷 says oink, 🐮 says moooo
    discoveringisabel discoveringisabel 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    My story starts like many of yours.

    Since I can remember, I've had issues with binge eating. I have memories of being 6 or 7 and sneaking to the fridge and stuffing myself on brownies when my parents weren't looking. All through high school, I would eat very little all day but then come home and eat everything and...
    Lacey0 Lacey0 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 4

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    Can't Think Of A Tittle For This One (:

    This entry might seem little weird as I interviewed myself while writing it and oh well I decided that I want to share MY THOUGHTS this way so here we go. What can I say regarding this matter?  It’s relaxing; it gives an amazing feeling after you are done throwing up what you...
    Mockingbird0 Mockingbird0 18-21, F 6 Responses May 20, 2012

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    Hi all, I am 25 years old

    and have had an eating disorder for about 10 years. It started with anorexic behaviors as a teenager and a noticeable weight loss, but I was never underweight. This slowly developed into periods of extreme over-eating, followed by self-induced vomiting. In college, my disorder...
    meganexplainsitall meganexplainsitall 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2013

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    is there anyone who can support each other

    everyday? We do not really have to be the best friends but talk very often regularly to support each other . I wish I could open this to my friends offline but have no guts to share this disorder with them yet. any online friends ?
    jke500 jke500 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 23

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    I'm A Liar

    I feel like all I do is lie. I've never told anybody the truth about how I feel. I've lied to everyone when I smile or laugh, when I say I'm doing fine. I try to lie to myself every time I look in the mirror. Tell myself I like who I am. That I'm a good person, who people care...
    SilentRevery SilentRevery 22-25, M 3 Responses Oct 24, 2012

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    I've just told my friend

    that i have Bulimia, the was so understanding... And it was good to talk to someone about it... It was hard to say, but it was worth it... #staystrong
    Rikke2612 Rikke2612 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 29

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    sOphss sOphss 18-21, F Mar 9

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    I have never received treatment despite

    diagnosis from a psychiatrist; however through treatment and medication for anxiety, depression and insomnia, as well as a general improvement in my confidence and happiness, turning to ED behaviours has become less frequent and I feel like I have come a long way in terms of...
    fromlighttodarkness fromlighttodarkness 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 24

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    Today 2 years ago I entered recovery

    for bulimia. I have not binged and purged once since. Two years free from mia!!! It's so nice and the struggle was really hard. But I made it!!!
    JenMarie97 JenMarie97 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 28

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    Yes, I have bulimia and have had it for,

    I would imagine over ten years, I didn't write the ******* date on a calender. I have always been overweight, fat, disgusting is more like it and I've known this for about 24 years now. I try to remember a time when I didn't care about weight and I can't remember one. I think...
    wasteoftoomuchspace wasteoftoomuchspace 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 11

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    Am I the only one who can hear her voice?

    The voice of "Mia" reminding you how disgusting you actually are? Reminding you of the things you should do when you eat? What the consequences are when you do eat? And screaming at you not to eat at all? I feel insane when I try to tell others about her, and its almost like...
    ThatGurlDailyy ThatGurlDailyy 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 22

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    first time in yrs i purged :(

    and it was chinese dumb me
    dunwitdis dunwitdis 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 26

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    This may sound sad, but I cannot remember a

    life without bulimia or anorexia. I am now 21 years old, almost 22 and I have been struggling with an eating disorder since I was about 11. I have been through therapy, nutritionists, even rehab for god's sake. I have seen the darkest sides of starvation and stuffing my face. I...
    SR9204 SR9204 18-21, F Mar 12

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    ??? Do I? Less than a month.

    Not everyday. Sometimes a few days in a row and often after I eat "bad" foods. Okay… My best friend committed suicide a few weeks ago, although it still feels like this all happened yesterday. I can't remember if I threw up once or twice before or if this all started after. I...
    Ray1787 Ray1787 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 19

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    I Wish I Could Stop Eating.

    I have tried and tried and TRIED for almost two years to stop myself from eating when I'm not completely starving, but I can't ever find the self-control to stop myself. I wish that food tasted bad, but it doesn't. I like eating but I hate what it does to me. I've tried dieting...
    JayTee11 JayTee11 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 17, 2013

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    I think it's killing me.

    I feel so bad about eating. I hate my body.
    victoriabasulto victoriabasulto 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 8

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    I've Had It For 10 Years Now...

    I think the most difficult part about it is many people don't understand it. They either make an ignorant opinion about it or they just don't know what to make of it. I tried to stop so many times, but it's so difficult. I think "if I stop, I will gain weight, then I will be...
    puzzles100 puzzles100 22-25, F 10 Responses Mar 11, 2012

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    The Journey

     Seven weeks ago i would never have seen myself here and a year earlier i wouldnt have seen myself where i was seven weeks ago.    I found a diary entry from myself today from 2006 when i was fifteen and started purging. Slowly and gradually it got worse. Seven...
    stopthis stopthis 18-21, F 8 Responses Nov 17, 2009

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