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I Have Bulimia

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    I have never received treatment despite

    diagnosis from a psychiatrist; however through treatment and medication for anxiety, depression and insomnia, as well as a general improvement in my confidence and happiness, turning to ED behaviours has become less frequent and I feel like I have come a long way in terms of...
    fromlighttodarkness fromlighttodarkness 16-17, F Mar 24, 2014

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    I've struggled with eating disorders

    since I was 14, recently, I've put on a tonne of weight and my bulimia seems to have got worse. I find myself over the toilet bowl before I can even think about it after eating ANYTHING. I hate it, but I can't help it.
    Lello37 Lello37 22-25, F May 26

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    Hey everyone. I'm new to this site

    so you have to bear with me :))! I have had bulimia for over a year. I have bpd and depression alongside bulimia but for me, Bulimia ruins my life. I love it but I hate it. I want it gone but then I want it back. I am in control, then it is all lost, and partially regained...
    rhiamia rhiamia 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 13, 2014

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    I have struggled with eating disorders

    for 3 years now. It started when my swimming coach asked my to drop some pounds, even though i was healthy. This man started a hell for me, and sometimes I feel he stole a big part of me life. Today I feel bulimi has taking over every part of my life. I have lost all control...
    sarlpede sarlpede 18-21, F 2 Responses May 18

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    I eat because I'm happy,

    I'm unhappy because I eat. It's a vicious circle. . Does anyone recognize this feeling?
    jeanine281 jeanine281 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    I have had a eating disorder

    for 3 years now and it's been over a year and a half since I've kept a meal down, can't help but wonder what's happening to my body and what's going to happen to me. Crazy to think that I haven't kept a meal down for so long but at the same time I'm super proud of myself.
    mariya843 mariya843 16-17, F Sep 2, 2014

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    When will it get better :( My eating disorder

    began in March of 2013. From October 2014- December 2014 I was binge free. I was happy. I gained no weight. My dream has been to be in a bikini competition. I lift weights daily, and I do some cardio. I love the gym. Sometime around Christmas i baked some cookies and so the...
    southernpearl southernpearl 26-30, F 1 Response May 4

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    I've been bulimic for about 3

    and a half years now, since I was 12 (I'm 15 now). my lowest weight From being an extreme bulimic was 81 lbs at 5'4... I'm not as bad as I used to be because I was in hospital for two months gaining weight, but it still haunts me.. I remember at my most bulimic point in my life...
    katsed katsed 13-15, F 2 Responses May 22

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    Hi all, I am 25 years old

    and have had an eating disorder for about 10 years. It started with anorexic behaviors as a teenager and a noticeable weight loss, but I was never underweight. This slowly developed into periods of extreme over-eating, followed by self-induced vomiting. In college, my disorder...
    meganexplainsitall meganexplainsitall 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 24, 2013

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    tonight... was the first night in a month

    that I puked.... I did it 4times....
    Zellaplayzcreepypasta Zellaplayzcreepypasta 18-21, T 1 Response Apr 26

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    I struggled with bulimia

    when i was a teenager and again in my mid twenties,managed to overcome it or so i thought. 18 months ago i started slimming world as i was massively overweight,at nearly 21stone managed by sticking to plan 100% to lose 7 and a half stone by this last xmas. Had to stop going as...
    swanmere swanmere 41-45, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    Introducing My Closest Friends, Ana And Mia.

    --First time openly talking about this, so here is a monologue to describe what goes on inside my head. Please let me know what you think, or if you are going through something similar!-- Allow me to introduce you to my two closest friends. They are always there for me. Ana tries...
    ThisOneGirlX ThisOneGirlX 18-21, F 6 Responses Nov 3, 2012

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    New to this group. Anyone struggling with this

    as an adult with children? I'm married and have two children.
    apalemess apalemess 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 8

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    I Feel Ashamed

    It started when I was in high school. I would eat when I was stressed out, once a day after school. I quit for a couple of years and then it crept back into my life somehow a couple of years ago. It happens now usually at least twice a day. I even pretend that I don't want to be...
    sammy sammy 18-21, F 23 Responses Jun 11, 2007

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    I've been struggling w bulimia

    for about two years now but I am starting to get help with it. I wanna be happy with my body but bulimia only makes me feel guilty and hate myself. The thought of being able to eat a normal sized meal and feel ok about myself knowing I don't have to throw it up after is all I...
    yuuung yuuung 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 26, 2014

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    Holding this in for so long

    and I think this is a good place to let it out. If anyone reads this or not it's still helping me out tremendously. High school I was athletic and thin...5ft 7in tall weighing 135 to 138 at my lowest. I didn't worry about my weight. Then I went off to college and quickly gained...
    valley2412 valley2412 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    I want to be so thin

    that people whisper about how skinny I've gotten behind my back.
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 16

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    When you first became bulimic,

    did you start off by only throwing up a little bit? I've been throwing food up for almost 3 years now minus about 10 months where I thought I was clean... And now I've been throwing up every day... Except I've been slowly increasing how much I throw up each day.. Has anyone else...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 2 Responses Apr 27

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    The Painful Journey

    I have had bulimia for 4 years now. As a child I was molested so there was a trigger for my bulimia, but at that stage I just didn't eat for a period of time and then went back to regular eating. I had never told anyone I was molested so in 2008 when I started having nightmares...
    MirandaForever MirandaForever 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 11, 2012

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    This is a journal I wrote on August 17,

    2012 about my parents finding out about my bulimia: they found out! my secrets are all out! I have no more privacy no more dignity and all I'm left with is regret and shame. but am I really the one to blame. they know my secret. they brung me in their bathroom to talk. they...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 18-21, F Dec 17, 2014

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    Goodbye Bulimia

    i have been bulimic for several years now, and i've never looked on blogs or anything before to read other people's stories. mostly i just googled information on the body and read health forums and whatnot. but now that i've read other stories i realize bulimia is so completely...
    sabrina0418 sabrina0418 16-17, F 24 Responses Sep 26, 2009

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    Am I the only one who can hear her voice?

    The voice of "Mia" reminding you how disgusting you actually are? Reminding you of the things you should do when you eat? What the consequences are when you do eat? And screaming at you not to eat at all? I feel insane when I try to tell others about her, and its almost like...
    JustMeKaila JustMeKaila 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 22, 2014

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    Why does it make me so upset

    that I couldn't throw anything up today?? :'(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Apr 28

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    I really need help. During July I lost a lot of

    weight without realising and became comfortable with my size. Although, before this I was already pretty thin. I was a size 8 and still am a size 8 however, my legs and belly are a lot thinner. It wasn't until September time when I started to binge eat without realising...
    FrickenChicken FrickenChicken 16-17, F 6 Responses Nov 24, 2014

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    And it's back... :/ I cried

    because I haven't had a scale in 4 days... I ate quite a bit today... And I want to throw it all up... Once I'm back at home and alone... This habit is coming back... I'm too fat... And I won't be for too much longer... Oh Mia, how I've missed you... <3
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Jan 8

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    Where do I start? To be completely honest,

    I don't know how long I have been living with this big Bulimic secret. It's been so many years, I've lost count. I turn 26 in a few months, and I know it started when I was still in high school--I guess if I had to approximate, I'd say it's been roughly 8 or 9 years, tops. It...
    siomariet siomariet 26-30 2 Responses Jun 27, 2014

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    I Was Ana, Now I Am Mia

    I have bulimia, I thre up three times today.  I wish I could control my eating and that I would stop feeling so guilty for eating.  Does anyone else feel this way?  I used to weigh 85 pounds and now i am so much heavier.  I wish I had someone to talk to that...
    girlkitty79 girlkitty79 26-30, F 31 Responses Jun 9, 2007

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    I'm a little worried about myself.

    Do I have bulimia? I've only purged once or twice. But I hated it so much that now I just fast for a day and a half. This happens once a week or so where I'll just eat everything and anything in sight. It gets triggered even worse if I'm so much around chocolate and sugary...
    MermaidCurry MermaidCurry 18-21, F 1 Response May 5

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    This Is My Story.......

    W ell my names Serena , im 22, and i believe bulimic. No i havent been diagnosed professionally, just self. I dont remember when it all started, i do remember i used to just bring food up to make people squirm in elementry school, and it went from there. I can control my inside...
    itsbeenajourney itsbeenajourney 22-25, F 53 Responses Jan 7, 2008

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    It really sucks :') I've had bulimia

    for almost six years and I've hated every minute of it! Trying to stay positive is pretty hard! The hardest thing is trying to live a normal life! I was starting to get better, then boom! Here we go again :') Oh well, wish me luck! :)
    Marc99 Marc99 16-17, M 6 Responses Aug 17, 2014

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    I've had bulimia for about 2

    and a half years now.. There was a time for about 10 months or so that I thought I had fought through it... I thought I got past it... But it's back... And it's back harder and stronger than ever... I actually pulled over on the side of a highway so that I could vomit... :/ I...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Apr 27

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    After a decade of living with this

    and another decade without it, we're back there again. The punishment feels good, I wonder how far this will go. I don't care.
    animamia animamia 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 24

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    I've never been good enough

    for anyone. Ever. I have low self esteem, I self harm, I have bulimia nervosa and I starve myself. I'm suicidal. See? A lot of problems. I've been losing a lot of weight lately, which is great, but I feel so weak.
    TeenieGirl TeenieGirl 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 3

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    Much better day today.

    Had lunch with a friend and then dinner and a snack. Had urges but No trips to the bathroom. I got this :)
    poodahpop poodahpop 22-25, T Mar 11

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    i sound silly, but for a week

    now i have started making myself sick after anything or everything i eat? i cant seem to stop myself or i just be angry and want to scream im sick then eat again then make myself sick again i dont know whats wrong or what to do :(
    gemmaingha gemmaingha 18-21, F 1 Response May 6

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    Mia is creeping up on me again.

    .. I was getting better. I thought I was over it. I thought I'd get through it. But out of nowhere she came back. And next thing I know I'm in the bathroom at work, self inducing vomiting. And for the first time In a long time, I brought my food up. Just a little bit though. But...
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Apr 26

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    I had been hiding my thoughts

    for a long time, constantly telling myself and others that I am satisfied with my body, I am fine with my fat body, that I am happy just the way I am. I recovered very slowly. I tried to not vomit after eating a large amount of food in my All You Can Eat dining hall. And then...
    Hello7004 Hello7004 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 28

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    I Am Bulimic

    All my life I wasn't too fat, I was just tall and built like my father who was very athletic.  I went through puberty a little faster than my friends, and on top of that I loved food.  I always ate junk and fried food and didnt really care about healthy...
    morgan521 morgan521 18-21, F 12 Responses Jun 14, 2009

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    I need to tell someone

    that I burn myself and that I'm bulimic.. But I love the pain of the hot metal on my skin, and I've lost 5kg from being bulimic, so I don't know what to do.
    markinggold markinggold 18-21, F 3 Responses May 25

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    Bulimic In Recovery

    I guess i was always a binge eater; i don't remember when i became bulimic.  i remember doing it occasionally in university, and after i graduated when i was alone all the time.  it seemed like i had no friends at all to lean on, except myself.  it got really bad...
    findaway findaway 26-30, F 21 Responses Aug 6, 2007

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    I have bulimia and it's getting worse.

    I've been struggling on and off with an eating disorder for the last 8 years. It started more as anorexia but everyone told me I was too thin so I started to eat more and gain weight. Obviously this stressed me out and ever since I lost my control over food I've been bulimic. I...
    emptybook emptybook 22-25, F 1 Response May 7

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    **** I ate too much..

    . :'( I'm trying to recover from bulimia... I don't want to feel like this. :'(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 20

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    I hadnt beated bulimia.

    I enjoy eating but then I regret it...
    rebeccava rebeccava 22-25 1 Response Mar 18

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    I really want to recover from bulimia.

    I'm too scared though, I don't want to follow a diet plan and gain weight. I know gaining weight is better then constantly thinking about food all the time but I can't push myself to do it.
    FrickenChicken FrickenChicken 16-17, F 3 Responses Feb 16

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    I threw up some of my food today.

    . It was the first time in a long time!! :( I thought I could fight it.. Turns out I can't... :/
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Apr 26

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    You Can Win The Fight Against Bulimia, I Did 10years Ago!

    Hi there.My name is Amanda and I am 27years old. I had bulimia in high school (almost 10 years ago) and I really struggled with it. I have realized that I am a living testimony that you can win the battle against bulimia and that by telling my story I can help others in need.It...
    akmarais akmarais 26-30 3 Responses Jul 26, 2011

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